ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Shane Koyczan - Poet
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world.

Why you should listen

Shane Koyczan is a poet, author and performer. He performed at the opening ceremonies of the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics, where  an audience of more than 1 billion people worldwide heard his piece “We Are More.”

He has published three booksStickboyOur Deathbeds Will Be Thirsty and Visiting Hours, selected by both the Guardian and the Globe and Mail for their Best Books of the Year lists.

In 2012, he released a  full-length album with his band Shane Koyczan and the Short Story Long. The album includes the viral hit “To This Day,”  which explores the anguish of anyone who grew up feeling different or just a little bit alone. To bring visual life to this image-rich poem, Koyczan invited artists from around the world to contribute 20-second segments of animation to the project. Posted on YouTube on February 19, 2013, by the close of the month the video had been viewed 6 million times.

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Shane Koyczan: To This Day ... for the bullied and beautiful

Shane Koyczan: "Še danes" za ozmerjane in lepe

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Obenem komično in tesnobno, pesnik Shane Koyczan izpostavlja, kaj pomeni biti mlad ... in drugačen. "Še danes" je njegova govorjena pesem o zmerjanju, ki je prevzela milijone kot popularen video (ustvarili so ga gledalci, in sicer 80 animatorjev). V tem posnetku jo fantastično uprizori v živo z ozadjem pesmi, na violini pa ga spremlja Hannah Epperson.
- Poet
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio

Double-click the English transcript below to play the video.

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There's so manyveliko of you.
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Toliko vas je.
00:28
When I was a kidfant,
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Ko sem bil majhen,
00:30
I hidskril my heartsrce underSpodaj the bedpostelja, because my mothermama said,
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sem svoje srce skril pod posteljo, ker mi je mama dejala:
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"If you're not carefulskrbno, somedaynekega dne someone'snekdo je going to breakodmor it."
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"Če ne boš previden, ti ga bo nekdo nekega dne strl."
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Take it from me. UnderPod the bedpostelja is not a good hidingskrivanje spotspot.
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Verjemite mi, da pod posteljo ni dobro skrivališče.
00:40
I know because I've been shotstrel down so manyveliko timeskrat
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Vem, ker so me že tolikokrat zatrli,
00:42
I get altitudeNadmorska višina sicknessbolezen just from standingstoji up for myselfjaz.
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da se mi zvrti od višine, že ko se postavim zase.
00:46
But that's what we were told.
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A to nam pravijo.
00:49
StandStojalo up for yourselfsami.
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Da se moramo postaviti zase.
00:51
And that's hardtežko to do if you don't know who you are.
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To je težko, če ne veš, kdo si.
00:54
We were expectedpričakovano to definedefinirati ourselvessami at suchtako an earlyzgodaj agestarost,
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Pri tako majhni starosti so od nas pričakovali,
da se definiramo,
00:57
and if we didn't do it, othersdrugi did it for us.
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in, če se nismo sami, so nas pa drugi.
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GeekGeek. FattyMaščobne. SlutKurba. FagPeder.
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Geek. Debeluh. Kurba. Peder.
01:06
And at the sameenako time we were beingbiti told what we were,
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Ob istem času, ko so nam govorili, kaj smo,
01:09
we were beingbiti askedvprašal,
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so nas spraševali:
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"What do you want to be when you growrastejo up?"
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"Kaj hočeš postati, ko odrasteš?"
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I always thought that was an unfairnepoštene questionvprašanje.
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Od nekdaj se mi je to zdelo nepošteno vprašanje.
01:15
It presupposespredpostavlja that we can't be what we alreadyže are.
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Predpostavlja, da ne moremo biti to, kar že smo.
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We were kidsotroci.
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Bili smo otroci.
01:20
When I was a kidfant, I wanted to be a man.
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Ko sem bil otrok, sem si želel biti moški.
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I wanted a registeredregistrirana retirementupokojitev savingsprihranki plannačrt
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Želel sem ustvariti načrt za varčevanje za pokoj,
01:26
that would keep me in candysladkarije long enoughdovolj to make oldstar agestarost sweetsladko.
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ki bi dovolj dolgo skrbelo za zalogo sladkarij,
ki bi sladkale moja stara leta.
01:30
When I was a kidfant, I wanted to shavebritje.
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Ko sem bil otrok, sem se hotel briti.
01:33
Now, not so much.
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Zdaj pa niti ne.
01:36
When I was eightosem, I wanted to be a marineMarine biologistbiolog.
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Ko sem bil star osem let, sem hotel biti morski biolog.
01:40
When I was ninedevet, I saw the moviefilm "JawsČeljusti,"
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Ko sem bil star devet let, sem videl film "Žrelo"
01:42
and thought to myselfjaz, "No, thank you."
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in sem si mislil: "Ne, hvala."
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And when I was 10, I was told that my parentsstarši left because they didn't want me.
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Ko sem bil star deset, so mi dejali,
da so me starši zapustili, ker me niso želeli imeti.
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When I was 11, I wanted to be left alonesam.
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Ko sem bil star 11, sem želel biti sam.
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When I was 12, I wanted to dieumreti. When I was 13, I wanted to killubiti a kidfant.
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Ko sem bil star 12, sem želel umreti.
Ko sem bil star 13, sem želel ubiti nekega mulca.
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When I was 14, I was askedvprašal to seriouslyresno considerrazmislite a careerkariero pathpot.
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Ko sem bil star 14, so mi dejali,
naj resno razmislim o karieri.
01:58
I said, "I'd like to be a writerpisatelj."
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Rekel sem: "Rad bi bil pisatelj."
02:01
And they said, "ChooseIzberite something realisticrealno."
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Rekli so mi: "Izberi si nekaj realističnega."
02:04
So I said, "ProfessionalProfessional wrestlerrokoborec."
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Na to sem dejal: "Poklicni rokoborec."
02:08
And they said, "Don't be stupidneumno."
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Dejali so: "Ne bodi neumen."
02:10
See, they askedvprašal me what I wanted to be,
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Veste, vprašali so me, kaj hočem biti,
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then told me what not to be.
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in mi nato dejali, česa ne smem biti.
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And I wasn'tni bilo the only one.
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Nisem bil edini.
02:17
We were beingbiti told that we somehownekako mustmoraš becomepostane
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Dejali so nam, da moramo nekako postati,
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what we are not, sacrificingžrtvovanja what we are
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kar nismo, žrtvovati, kar smo,
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to inheritdedovanje the masquerademaškarada of what we will be.
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da bi podedovali pretvarjanje tega, kar bomo postali.
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I was beingbiti told to acceptsprejema the identityidentiteta
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Dejali so mi, naj sprejmem identiteto,
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that othersdrugi will give me.
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ki mi jo bodo nadeli drugi.
02:29
And I wonderedspraševal, what madeizdelane my dreamssanje so easyenostavno to dismisszavrne?
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Spraševal sem se, zakaj so moje sanje tako zlahka odpisali.
02:33
GrantedOdobrena, my dreamssanje are shysramežljiv,
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Moje sanje so resda majhne,
02:36
because they're CanadianKanadski. (LaughterSmeh)
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ker so iz Kanade. (smeh)
02:41
My dreamssanje are self-consciousself-zavestni and overlypreveč apologeticsodstvo.
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Moje sanje so nesamozavestne in preveč opravičujoče.
02:45
They're standingstoji alonesam at the highvisoko schoolšola danceples,
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Same stojijo na srednješolskem plesu
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and they'veoni so never been kissedpoljubila.
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in nikoli jih še nihče ni poljubil.
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See, my dreamssanje got calledpozval namesimena too.
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Veste, tudi moje sanje so zmerjali.
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SillyNeumno. FoolishNeumno. ImpossibleNemogoče.
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Trapaste. Butaste. Nemogoče.
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But I kepthranijo dreamingsanje.
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A jaz sem sanjal naprej.
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I was going to be a wrestlerrokoborec. I had it all figuredfigured out.
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Postal naj bi rokoborec. Vse mi je bilo jasno.
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I was going to be The GarbageSmeti Man.
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Bil bi "Smetar".
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My finishingkončna obdelava movePremakni se was going to be The TrashSmeti CompactorKompaktorji.
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Moja glavna poteza bi bila "Stiskalec smeti".
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My sayinggovoriti was going to be, "I'm takingjemanje out the trashsmeti!"
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Moj moto bi bil: "Ven bom odnesel smeti."
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(LaughterSmeh) (ApplauseAplavz)
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(smeh) (aplavz)
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And then this guy, DukeDuke "The DumpsterSmetnjak" DroeseDroese,
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Potem pa se je pojavil ta tip, Duke "Kontejner" Droese,
03:21
stoleukradel my entirecelotno shtickshtick.
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ki je popolnoma ukradel mojo idejo.
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I was crushedzdrobljen, as if by a trashsmeti compactorKompaktorji.
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Stisnilo me je, kot bi to storil stiskalec smeti.
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I thought to myselfjaz, "What now? Where do I turnobrat?"
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Sam sebi sem rekel: "Kaj pa zdaj? Kam se obrnem?"
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PoetryPoezija.
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K poeziji.
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Like a boomerangbumerang, the thing I lovedLjubil sem cameprišel back to me.
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Stvar, ki sem jo oboževal,
se je kot bumerang vrnila nazaj k meni.
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One of the first lineslinije of poetrypoezija I can rememberZapomni si writingpisanje
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Ena izmed mojih prvih vrstic, ki se jih spominjam,
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was in responseodziv to a worldsvet that demandedzahtevano I hatesovraštvo myselfjaz.
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je bil odgovor svetu, ki je zahteval,
da sovražim samega sebe.
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From agestarost 15 to 18, I hatedsovražil myselfjaz
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Od starosti 15 do 18 sem se sovražil,
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for becomingpostaja the thing that I loathedsovražil: a bullytiran.
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ker sem postal, to kar sem preziral: nasilnež.
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When I was 19, I wrotenapisal,
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Ko sem bil star 19, sem napisal:
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"I will love myselfjaz despiteKljub the easeenostavno with whichki
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"Ljubil bom samega sebe kljub lahkoti,
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I leanvitka towardproti the oppositenasprotno."
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s katero se nagibam k nasprotnem."
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StandingStalnega up for yourselfsami doesn't have to mean
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To, da se postaviš zase, ne pomeni nujno,
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embracingobjemu violencenasilje.
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da sprejmeš nasilje.
04:07
When I was a kidfant,
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Ko sem bil otrok,
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I tradeds katerimi se trguje in homeworkDomača naloga assignmentsnaloge for friendshipprijateljstvo,
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sem domače naloge menjal v zameno za prijateljstvo,
04:12
then gavedala eachvsak friendprijatelj a latepozen slipzdrs for never showingprikazovanje up on time,
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in svojim prijateljem odpustil, kadar so zamudili
04:14
and in mostnajbolj casesprimerov not at all.
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ali se (pogosto) sploh niso prikazali.
04:17
I gavedala myselfjaz a halldvorana passprelaz to get throughskozi eachvsak brokenzdrobljen promiseobljubim.
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Sam sebi sem omogočil beg iz učilnice,
da sem se spopadel z vsako prelomljeno obljubo.
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And I rememberZapomni si this plannačrt, bornRojen out of frustrationfrustracije
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Tega načrta se spominjam. Nastal je iz frustracije
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from a kidfant who kepthranijo callingklicanje me "YogiJogi,"
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zaradi otroka, ki me je klical "Yogi"
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then pointedpoudaril at my tummytrebuh and said, "Too manyveliko picnicpiknik basketskošare."
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nato pa je pokazal na moj trebuh in dejal: "Preveč piknikov."
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TurnsIzvijač out it's not that hardtežko to tricktrik someonenekdo,
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Izkazalo se je, da ni tako težko prelisičiti nekoga.
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and one day before classrazred, I said,
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Nekega dne sem pred poukom rekel:
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"Yeah, you can copykopirati my homeworkDomača naloga,"
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"Ja, lahko prepišeš nalogo,"
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and I gavedala him all the wrongnarobe answersodgovore
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in mu dal napačne odgovore,
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that I'd writtennapisano down the night before.
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ki sem jih zapisal prejšnji večer.
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He got his paperpapir back expectingpričakujejo a near-perfectskoraj popolno scorerezultat,
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Ko je dobil nalogo nazaj,
je pričakoval skoraj popoln rezultat
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and couldn'tni mogel believe it when he lookedpogledal acrossčez the roomsoba at me and heldpotekala up a zeronič.
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in ni mogel verjeti, ko me je pogledal preko sobe in pokazal list z oceno nezadostno.
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I knewvedel I didn't have to holddržite up my paperpapir of 28 out of 30,
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Vedel sem, da mi ni treba pokazati svojega rezultata,
ki je bil 28 od 30,
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but my satisfactionzadovoljstvo was completepopolna when he lookedpogledal at me, puzzleduganka,
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a moje zadovoljstvo je bilo popolno,
ko me je zmedeno pogledal
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and I thought to myselfjaz, "SmarterPametnejši than the averagepovprečje bearmedveda, motherfuckerpizda."
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in sem si mislil: "Pametnejši kot navaden medved, pičkica."
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(LaughterSmeh) (ApplauseAplavz)
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(smeh) (aplavz)
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This is who I am.
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To sem jaz.
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This is how I standstojalo up for myselfjaz.
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Tako se postavim zase.
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When I was a kidfant,
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Ko sem bil otrok,
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I used to think that porksvinjina chopskotleta and karatekarate chopskotleta were the sameenako thing.
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sem mislil, da sta kotlet in kotel ista reč.
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I thought they were bothoboje porksvinjina chopskotleta.
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Mislil sem, da sta oba kotlet.
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And because my grandmotherbabica thought it was cutesrčkano,
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Ker se je moji babici to zdelo prisrčno
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and because they were my favoritenajljubši, she let me keep doing it.
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in ker sem bil njen najljubši, mi je pustila,
da nadaljujem s tem.
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Not really a bigvelik dealobravnava.
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Ni bila velika reč.
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One day, before I realizedrealiziran fatmaščobe kidsotroci are not designedzasnovan to climbplezati treesdrevesa,
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Nekega dne, preden sem spoznal,
da debeli otroci niso narejeni za plezanje po drevesih,
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I fellpadla out of a treedrevo and bruisedmodrice the right sidestran of my bodytelo.
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sem padel z drevesa in si potolkel desno stran telesa.
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I didn't want to tell my grandmotherbabica about it
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Nisem hotel povedati babici,
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because I was scaredprestrašen I'd get in troubletežave for playingigranje somewherenekje I shouldn'tne bi smel have been.
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ker me je bilo strah, da bom v težavah,
ker sem se igral, kjer se ne bi smel.
05:36
A fewmalo daysdnevi laterpozneje, the gymtelovadba teacheručitelj noticedopazili the bruisemodrico,
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Nekaj dni kasneje je učiteljica pri športni vzgoji
opazila modrico
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and I got sentposlano to the principal'sglavnega zavezanca officeurad.
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in poslali so me k ravnatelju.
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From there, I was sentposlano to anotherdrugo smallmajhna roomsoba
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Potem so me poslali v še eno manjšo sobo,
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with a really nicelepo ladygospa who askedvprašal me all kindsvrste of questionsvprašanja about my life at home.
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kjer me je zelo prijazna gospa spraševala vse vrste vprašanj o mojem življenju doma.
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I saw no reasonrazlog to lielaž.
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Nisem videl razlogov za laž.
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As fardaleč as I was concernedzadevnega, life was prettylepa good.
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Kar se mene tiče, je bilo življenje kar dobro.
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I told her, wheneverkadarkoli I'm sadžalostno, my grandmotherbabica givesdaje me karatekarate chopskotleta.
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Povedal sem, da me babi, kadar sem žalosten, da v kotel.
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(LaughterSmeh)
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(smeh)
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This led to a full-scalepolnem obsegu investigationpreiskavo,
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To je pripeljalo do temeljite preiskave
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and I was removedodstraniti from the househiša for threetri daysdnevi,
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in za tri dni so me odpeljali iz hiše,
06:11
untildo they finallykončno decidedodločil to askvprašajte how I got the bruisesmodrice.
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ko so se končno odločili, da bi vprašali, od kje modrice.
06:15
NewsNovice of this sillyneumno little storyzgodba quicklyhitro spreadširjenje throughskozi the schoolšola,
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Ta kratka smešna zgodbica se je hitro razširila po šoli
06:17
and I earnedzaslužil my first nicknameVzdevek:
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in prislužil sem si prvi vzdevek:
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PorkchopPorkchop.
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Kotlet.
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To this day, I hatesovraštvo porksvinjina chopskotleta.
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Še danes sovražim kotlete.
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I'm not the only kidfant who grewnaraščal up this way,
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Nisem edini otrok, ki je tako odrasel;
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surroundedobdan by people who used to say that rhymerime
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obkrožen z ljudmi, ki so govorili,
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about stickspalice and stoneskamni,
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da besede ne bolijo toliko kot poškodbe,
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as if brokenzdrobljen boneskosti hurtboli more than the namesimena we got calledpozval,
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kot da bi zlomi kosti boleli bolj kot žaljivke,
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and we got calledpozval them all.
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katerih žrtev smo bili vsi.
06:41
So we grewnaraščal up believingverjeti no one would ever fallpadec in love with us,
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Odrasli smo misleč, da se nihče nikoli ne bo zaljubil v nas,
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that we'dBili bi be lonelyosamljen foreverza vedno,
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da bomo večno osamljeni,
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that we'dBili bi never meetsrečati someonenekdo to make us feel like the sunsonce
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da ne bomo nikoli spoznali nekoga,
ki bi v nas prebudil občutek, da so sonce
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was something they builtzgrajeno for us in theirnjihovi toolshedtoolshed.
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za nas zgradili oni v svoji delavnici.
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So brokenzdrobljen heartstringsNajdublja počutja bledBled the bluesBlues, and we triedposkušal to emptyprazno ourselvessami so we'dBili bi feel nothing.
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Zlomljeno srce je pelo blues
in mi smo se poskusili izprazniti, da ne bi ničesar čutili.
06:56
Don't tell me that hurtboli lessmanj than a brokenzdrobljen bonekosti,
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Ne recite mi, da to boli manj kot zlom kosti,
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that an ingrownUrastao life is something surgeonskirurgi can cutcut away,
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da je vase zaprto življenje nekaj, kar lahko kirurgi izrežejo,
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that there's no way for it to metastasizemetastasize; it does.
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za katerega ni načina, da bi ga presadili, a boli.
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She was eightosem yearslet oldstar,
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Stara je bila osem let,
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our first day of graderazred threetri when she got calledpozval uglygrdo.
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bil je prvi dan tretjega razreda, ko so ji rekla, da je grda.
07:09
We bothoboje got movedpreselil to the back of classrazred
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Oba sva se premaknila na zadnji del razreda,
07:12
so we would stop gettingpridobivanje bombardedbombardiran by spitballsspitballs.
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da naju bi nehali obmetavati s papirčki.
07:14
But the schoolšola hallsdvorane were a battlegroundbojišče.
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A hodniki šole so bili bojišče.
07:16
We foundnajdemo ourselvessami outnumberedpremoči day after wretchednesrečne day.
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Vsak mučen dan sva bila v manjšini.
07:19
We used to stayostani insideznotraj for recessvdolbino, because outsidezunaj was worseslabše.
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Med odmorom sva ostala notri, ker je bilo zunaj huje.
07:22
OutsideZunaj, we'dBili bi have to rehearsevaditi runningteče away,
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Zunaj sva vadila, kako pobegniti
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or learnučiti se to stayostani still like statueskipi, givingdajanje no cluesnamige that we were there.
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ali kako stati pri miru kot kipa in ne nakazati, da sva tam.
07:28
In graderazred fivepet, they tapedposnet a signznak to the frontspredaj of her deskmiza
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V petem razredu so na sprednji del njene mize nalepili list,
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that readpreberite, "BewarePazi of dogpes."
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na katerem je pisalo: "Pozor, hud pes!"
07:33
To this day, despiteKljub a lovingljubezni husbandmož, she doesn't think she's beautifullepo
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Še danes, kljub ljubečemu možu ne misli, da je lepa,
07:38
because of a birthmarkmaterino znamenje that takes up a little lessmanj than halfpol her faceobraz.
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ker ima na skoraj polovici obraza materino znamenje.
07:42
KidsOtroci used to say, "She looksizgleda like a wrongnarobe answerodgovor
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Otroci so rekli: "Videti je kot napačen odgovor,
07:44
that someonenekdo triedposkušal to eraseizbrisati, but couldn'tni mogel quitečisto get the jobdelo doneKončano."
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ki ga je nekdo poskusil izbrisati, a mu ni popolnoma uspelo."
07:47
And they'lloni bodo never understandrazumeti that she's raisingdviganje two kidsotroci
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In nikoli ne bodo razumeli, da vzgaja dva otroka,
07:50
whosečigar definitionopredelitev of beautylepota beginsse začne with the wordbeseda "MomMama,"
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katerih definicija lepote se začne z besedo "mama",
07:55
because they see her heartsrce before they see her skinkoža,
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ker vidijo njeno srce, prej kot vidijo njeno kožo,
07:57
because she's only ever always been amazingneverjetno.
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ker je od zmeraj bila nič manj kot neverjetna.
07:58
He was a brokenzdrobljen branchpodružnica graftedcepljene ontona a differentdrugačen familydružina treedrevo,
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On je bil lomljena veja,
ki so jo pripeli na drugo družinsko drevo,
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adoptedsprejeta,
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posvojen,
08:06
not because his parentsstarši optedodločila for a differentdrugačen destinyusoda.
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in ne ker bi njegovi starši izbrali drugačno usodo.
08:10
He was threetri when he becamepostati a mixedmešano drinkpijte
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Ko je bil star tri leta, je postal koktejl
08:12
of one partdel left alonesam and two partsdeli tragedytragedija,
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iz samote in tragedije.
08:15
startedzačel therapyterapija in eighthosmi graderazred,
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V osmem razredu je začel s terapijo,
08:17
had a personalityosebnost madeizdelane up of teststeste and pillstablete,
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imel je osebnost iz testov in tablet,
08:20
livedživel like the uphillsuphills were mountainsgore and the downhillsspusta were cliffsčeri,
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živel tako kot bi bile vzpetine in spusti gore prepadi.
08:24
fourštiri fifthspetine suicidalsamomorilne, a tidalplimovanje waveval of antidepressantsantidepresivi,
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Delno je bil sestavljen iz samomorilskih nagnenj,
monsuna antidepresivov.
08:27
and an adolescenceadolescence beingbiti calledpozval "PopperPopper,"
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V puberteti so ga klicali "fiksar"
08:30
one partdel because of the pillstablete,
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delno zaradi tablet
08:32
99 partsdeli because of the crueltykrutost.
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a večinoma iz krutosti.
08:35
He triedposkušal to killubiti himselfsam in graderazred 10
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V drugem letniku se je poskušal ubiti,
08:38
when a kidfant who could still go home to MomMama and DadOče
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ker si je nek mulc, ki je še vedno
lahko šel domov k mami in očetu,
08:40
had the audacitydrznost to tell him, "Get over it."
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drznil reči: "Preboli že."
08:44
As if depressiondepresija is something that could be remediedodpraviti
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Kot da bi se depresijo lahko pozdravilo
08:46
by any of the contentsvsebine foundnajdemo in a first aidpomoč kitkomplet.
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z nečim iz prve pomoči.
08:49
To this day, he is a stickpalico of TNTTNT litlit from bothoboje endskonča,
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Še danes je kot palica TNT-ja, ki je prižgana z obeh strani,
08:52
could describeopišite to you in detailpodrobnosti the way the skynebo bendsovine
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ki bi vam lahko podrobno opisal, kako se upogiba nebo
08:55
in the momenttrenutek before it's about to fallpadec,
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trenutek preden se bi sesulo.
08:57
and despiteKljub an armyvojska of friendsprijatelji who all call him an inspirationnavdih,
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Kljub gruči prijateljev, ki mu pravijo, da je navdih,
09:00
he remainsostanki a conversationpogovor piecekos betweenmed people who can't understandrazumeti
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ostaja predmet pogovora za ljudi, ki ne razumejo,
09:03
sometimesvčasih beingbiti drug-freebrez drog has lessmanj to do with addictionodvisnosti
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da je biti brez drog manj povezano z zasvojenostjo
09:06
and more to do with sanityrazum.
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in več z duševnim zdravjem.
09:09
We weren'tni bilo the only kidsotroci who grewnaraščal up this way.
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Nismo bili edini otroci, ki smo tako odrasli.
09:12
To this day, kidsotroci are still beingbiti calledpozval namesimena.
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Še danes se otroke zmerja.
09:16
The classicsklasika were, "Hey stupidneumno," "Hey spazSpaz."
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Običajno jim pravijo: "Kje si tele," ali "Kje si budala."
09:21
SeemsZdi se like everyvsak schoolšola has an arsenalArsenal of namesimena
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Zdi se, da ima vsaka šola orožarno zmerljivk,
09:24
gettingpridobivanje updatedposodobljen everyvsak yearleto,
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ki se vsako leto posodablja.
09:26
and if a kidfant breaksodmori in a schoolšola and no one around choosesizbere to hearslišite,
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Če se nek otrok v šoli zlomi ter ni nikogar naokrog,
ki bi to želel slišati,
09:29
do they make a soundzvok?
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ali sploh oddajajo zvok?
09:31
Are they just backgroundozadje noisehrup from a soundtracksoundtrack stuckzaljubljen
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Ali so le zvoki iz ozadja na plošči, ki se je zataknila,
09:33
on repeatponovite when people say things like, "KidsOtroci can be cruelkruto."
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ko ljudje rečejo nekaj takega kot: "Otroci so lahko kruti."
09:38
EveryVsak schoolšola was a bigvelik topna vrh circuscirkus tentšotor,
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Vsaka šola je bil velik cirkuški šotor
09:41
and the peckingkljuvanje orderred wentšla from acrobatsakrobati to lionlev tamerstamers,
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in prehranjevalna veriga je šla
od akrobatov do krotilcev levov,
09:44
from clownsklovni to carniescarnies s, all of these milesmilje aheadnaprej of who we were.
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od klovnov so delavcev,
ki so bili kilometre pred tem, kdo smo.
09:47
We were freaksfreaks -- lobsterJastog clawkrempljev boysfantje and beardedbradati ladiesgospe,
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Mi smo bili čudaki: fantje s kleščami
namesto rok, bradate ženske
09:51
odditiesOddities jugglingžongliranje depressiondepresija and lonelinessosamljenosti,
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čudni ljudje, ki so žonglirali z depresijo in osamljenostjo,
09:54
playingigranje solitairePasjansa, spinspin the bottlesteklenica,
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ki so igrali pasjanso, zavrti steklenico,
09:55
tryingposkušam to kisspoljub the woundedranjen partsdeli of ourselvessami and healzdravi,
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poskušali poljubiti ranjene dele samega sebe,
da bi se pozdravili.
09:58
but at night, while the othersdrugi sleptspal,
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Ponoči pa, ko so vsi spali,
10:01
we kepthranijo walkinghoditi the tightropetanki vrvi.
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smo še kar hodili po vrvi.
10:03
It was practicepraksa, and yes, some of us fellpadla.
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To je bila vaja in nekateri izmed nas so padli.
10:06
But I want to tell them that all of this
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A želel sem jim povedati, da so vse to
10:10
is just debrisnaplavin left over when we finallykončno decideodloči to smashsmash
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le črepinje, če se končno odločimo razbiti
10:14
all the things we thought we used to be,
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vse reči, za katero smo mislili, da smo to mi,
10:17
and if you can't see anything beautifullepo about yourselfsami,
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in če pri sebi ne vidite ničesar lepega,
10:20
get a better mirrorogledalo, look a little closerbližje, starestari a little longerdlje,
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si kupite boljše ogledalo, se bolj pozorno zazrite
in malo dalj strmite,
10:25
because there's something insideznotraj you that madeizdelane you keep tryingposkušam
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ker je znotraj vas nekaj, zaradi česar ste se še naprej trudili,
10:28
despiteKljub everyonevsi who told you to quitprenehati.
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kljub vsem, ki so vam dejali, da odnehajte.
10:30
You builtzgrajeno a castoddanih around your brokenzdrobljen heartsrce and signedpodpisano it yourselfsami.
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Okoli zlomljenega srca, ste si zgradili mavec
in ga sami podpisali.
10:32
You signedpodpisano it, "They were wrongnarobe."
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Napisali ste: "Niso imeli prav."
10:34
Because maybe you didn't belongpripadajo to a groupskupina or a cliqueklika.
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Morda niste pripadali skupini ali kliki.
10:37
Maybe they decidedodločil to pickpick you last for basketballkošarka or everything.
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Morda so vas vedno izbrali zadnje pri košarki.
10:40
Maybe you used to bringprinesi bruisesmodrice and brokenzdrobljen teethzobje to show-and-tellshow-and-tell, but never told,
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Morda ste na "pokaži, kaj znaš" prinesli modrice
in zlomljene zobe, a tega nikoli niste povedali,
10:44
because how can you holddržite your groundtla
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ker, kako naj se postaviš zase,
10:45
if everyonevsi around you wants to burypokopati you beneathspodaj it?
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če ti vsi spodkopavajo tla pod nogami?
10:47
You have to believe that they were wrongnarobe.
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Morali ste verjeti, da nimajo prav.
10:52
They have to be wrongnarobe.
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Morajo se motiti.
10:54
Why elsedrugače would we still be here?
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Zakaj bi drugače še bili tu?
10:58
We grewnaraščal up learningučenje to cheernavijanja on the underdogpremaganec
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Med odraščanjem so nas naučili naj spodbujamo neverjetnega zmagovalca,
11:01
because we see ourselvessami in them.
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ker sami sebe vidimo v njih.
11:03
We stemsteblo from a rootroot plantedposajena in the beliefprepričanje
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Zrasli smo iz korenine, ki so jo posadili v vero,
11:05
that we are not what we were calledpozval.
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da nismo to, kar nam pravijo, da smo.
11:08
We are not abandonedopuščeni carsavtomobili stalledzastala out
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Nismo zapuščeni avtomobili, ki so se pokvarili
11:10
and sittingsedi emptyprazno on some highwayavtocesta,
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in prazni stojijo na avtocesti.
11:12
and if in some way we are, don't worryskrbi.
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Če pa na nek način smo, naj vas ne skrbi.
11:14
We only got out to walkhodi and get gasplin.
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Samo stopiti moramo ven in iti po bencin.
11:16
We are graduatingdiplomiral membersčlanov from the classrazred of We MadeJe It,
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Mi smo maturanti razreda "Uspelo nam je"
11:20
not the fadedblede echoesodmevi of voicesglasovi cryingjok out,
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in ne medli odmevi glasov, ki kričijo:
11:22
"NamesImena will never hurtboli me."
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"Zmerljivke me ne bolijo."
11:26
Of courseseveda they did.
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Seveda, da nas.
11:31
But our livesživi will only ever always
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A naša življenja bodo vedno
11:33
continuenadaljuj to be a balancinguravnoteženje actukrepati
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bila lovljenje ravnotežja,
11:36
that has lessmanj to do with painbolečina
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ki se manj nanaša na bolečino
11:38
and more to do with beautylepota.
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in več na lepoto.
11:42
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(aplavz)
Translated by Nika Ambrožič
Reviewed by Dean Mavric

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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Shane Koyczan - Poet
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world.

Why you should listen

Shane Koyczan is a poet, author and performer. He performed at the opening ceremonies of the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics, where  an audience of more than 1 billion people worldwide heard his piece “We Are More.”

He has published three booksStickboyOur Deathbeds Will Be Thirsty and Visiting Hours, selected by both the Guardian and the Globe and Mail for their Best Books of the Year lists.

In 2012, he released a  full-length album with his band Shane Koyczan and the Short Story Long. The album includes the viral hit “To This Day,”  which explores the anguish of anyone who grew up feeling different or just a little bit alone. To bring visual life to this image-rich poem, Koyczan invited artists from around the world to contribute 20-second segments of animation to the project. Posted on YouTube on February 19, 2013, by the close of the month the video had been viewed 6 million times.

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Shane Koyczan | Speaker | TED.com