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C.K. Williams - Poet
Often called a social poet, C.K. Williams was fascinated by the characters of modern civilization and their interactions.

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C.K. Williams started writing poetry at 19, after taking only his required English classes at University of Pennsylvania. In the 1960s, he began gearing his poems toward social issues, such as the brutality that  civil rights activists often faced and his anti-war stance with respect to Vietnam. Over time, although he continued to write about society, his work became more personal. His focus shifted to the intersection of profoundly different lives in crowded urban spaces, using these instances to examine sensitive issues such as race and class.    

The subject matter of his work is not its only controversy, and Williams is often compared to Whitman and Ginsberg because of his unusually long lines of verse. Despite his unconventional poetic form, he was awarded the Pulitzer Prize, the National Book Award and the National Book Critics Circle Award, among other honors. He also published five works of translation and a psychologically introspective memoir, Misgivings: My Mother, My Father, Myself. Williams died in September 2015.

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TED2001

C.K. Williams: Poetry of youth and age

C.K.·威廉斯朗诵青春与岁月的诗歌

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诗人C.K.·威廉斯在TED2001年的演讲台上阅读了他的诗作,童年的多彩,大学的浪漫,古怪的邻居与诗意的死亡与青春,他在告诉我们,生活的种种。
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I thought I would read poems I have that relate涉及 to the subject学科
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在这里,我会朗读一些有关
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of youth青年 and age年龄.
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青春与岁月的诗作。
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I was sort分类 of astonished惊讶 to find out how many许多 I have actually其实.
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这一主题的诗作的收集,我个人都很是惊异
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The first one is dedicated专用 to
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第一首诗献给
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Spencer斯宾塞, and his grandmother祖母, who was shocked吃惊 by his work.
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斯潘塞,他的外祖母曾很惊异于他的职业
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My poem is called "Dirt污垢."
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这首诗作名字为”尘“
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My grandmother祖母 is washing洗涤 my mouth out with soap肥皂;
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我的祖母用肥皂清洗我的嘴
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half a long century世纪 gone走了
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半个世纪过去了
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and still she comes at me
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她的影子依旧存在
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with that thick cruel残忍 yellow黄色 bar酒吧.
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携着她令人畏惧的黄色细长棒子
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All because of a word I said,
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这一切都是因为我说的话
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not even said really, only repeated重复.
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甚至并非是”说“,这是”重复“
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But "Open打开," she says, "open打开 up!"
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但是她依旧不依不饶。“张开”她说,“张嘴”
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her hand clawing at my head.
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她拉扯着我的脑子
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I know now her life was hard;
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我知道她有一段刻骨铭心的艰难岁月
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she lost丢失 three children孩子 as babies婴儿,
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她的三个女儿都在襁褓里夭折
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then her husband丈夫 died死亡 too,
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她的丈夫也去世了
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leaving离开 young年轻 sons儿子, and no money.
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在他们的孩子还年轻时,一贫如洗
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She'd stand me in the sink水槽 to pee撒尿
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她让我站在水槽边小便
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because there was never room房间 in the toilet厕所.
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因为房间里没有卫生间
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But oh, her soap肥皂!
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但是,她的肥皂
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Might威力 its bitter burning燃烧 have been
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永远是那么的苦涩,灼伤着我的嘴唇
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what made制作 me a poet诗人?
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是什么驱使着我写这首诗?
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The street she lived生活 on was unpaved未铺砌,
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她的房前道路是未铺砌的
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her flat平面, two cramped狭窄 rooms客房 and a fetid有恶臭的 kitchen厨房
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两个狭小的房间,一个散发着恶臭的厨房,就是她公寓的全部
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where she stalked大步 and caught抓住 me.
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她轻声的走在我身旁,抓住我
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Dare I admit承认 that after she did it
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经历如些,我依旧感激她会做此
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I never really loved喜爱 her again?
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我有没有爱过她?
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She lived生活 to a hundred,
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她的岁数近百
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even then. All along沿 it was the sadness, the squalor肮脏,
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直至现在,她依旧被悲伤与卑鄙牵绊着
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but I never, until直到 now
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我曾经从未察觉,直至现在
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loved喜爱 her again.
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才发现我曾爱过她
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When that was published发表 in a magazine杂志
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我的诗作印在杂志上是
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I got an irate发怒的 letter from my uncle叔叔.
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我的叔叔发来了一封嗔责的信
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"You have maligned非议 a great woman女人."
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“你的诗作恶意的诽谤了一位伟大的女人。”
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It took some diplomacy外交.
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我为此解释了一番
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This is called "The Dress连衣裙."
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那首诗叫做“衣裳”
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It's a longer poem.
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是一首长诗
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In those days,
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那段日子
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those days which哪一个 exist存在 for me only
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那段我的个人感受高于一切的日子里
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as the most elusive难以捉摸 memory记忆 now,
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那是我最想抹去的记忆
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when often经常 the first sound声音 you'd hear in the morning早上
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当我每天早上醒来时候,最先听到的
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would be a storm风暴 of birdsong鸟鸣声,
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是小鸟的叫声
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then the soft柔软的 clop of the hooves
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接连着马蹄踏地的声音
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of the horse hauling牵引 a milk牛奶 wagon车皮 down your block,
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路上行着拉着装有牛奶的车
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and the last sound声音 at night as likely容易 as not
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而夜晚的声音似乎都是
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would be your father父亲 pulling up in his car汽车,
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父亲开车归家
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having worked工作 late晚了 again, always late晚了,
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他又加班了,而且加班的很晚
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and going heavily严重 down to the cellar地窖, to the furnace,
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他进入地窖,走向火炉旁
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to shake out the ashes灰烬 and damp潮湿 the draft草案
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弄出死灰,熄灭火种
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before he came来了 upstairs楼上 to fall秋季 into bed --
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然后才上床睡觉
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in those long-ago很久以前 days,
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在这段长长的时间里
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women妇女, my mother母亲, my friends'朋友 mothers母亲,
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女人,母亲,朋友的母亲
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our neighbors邻居, all the women妇女 I knew知道 --
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我的邻居,我知道的所有女性
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wore穿着, often经常 much of the day,
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她们的穿着,与那个时代相符
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what were called housedresses起居服,
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被我们称作是家居服的
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cheap低廉, printed印刷的, pulpy稀烂,
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廉价的印染与质料
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seemingly似乎 purposefully目的地 shapeless无形的
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似乎是刻意的貌不惊人
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light cotton shifts转变 that you wore穿着 over your nightgown睡衣
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在晚上才会穿轻质棉
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and, when you had to go look for a child儿童,
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当她们照看孩子时
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hang wash on the line线,
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将洗好的衣服一件件挂起来
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or run down to the grocery杂货 store商店 on the corner,
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或者是去杂货店购物
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under a coat涂层,
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穿着风衣
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the twisted扭曲 hem下摆 of the nightgown睡衣
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有着睡衣的丝边
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always lank平直 and yellowed泛黄,
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几乎是黄色而稀疏的
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dangling悬空 beneath下面.
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在下端摇晃
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More than the curlers卷发器 some of the women妇女
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一些女人烫后的卷发
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seemed似乎 constantly经常 to have in their hair头发
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似乎永远不会变
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in preparation制备 for some great event事件 --
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那些重要的集会
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a ball, one would think --
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一场舞会,会有人想
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that never came来了 to pass通过;
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不应错过
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more than the way most women's女士的 faces面孔
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那些日子,女人的脸上
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not only were never made制作 up during the day,
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都化着她们从未化过的妆
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but seemed似乎 scraped, bleached漂白,
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不均匀的,漂白的
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and, with their plucked拨弦 eyebrows眉毛, scarilyscarily masklikemasklike;
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还有那些剃的光光的腋下,夸张的面具
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more than all that it was those dresses礼服
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比那更为不堪的,是那些衣服,
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that made制作 women妇女 so unknowable不可知 and forbidding森严,
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展现着女性的愚昧与禁忌
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adepts行家 of enigmas to which哪一个 men男人 could have no access访问,
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早已熟稔了那些男人们为她们做的规定
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and boys男孩 no conception概念.
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当他们还是男孩时,并无此概念
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Only later后来 would I see the dresses礼服 also
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后来我看到的那些衣裳
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as a proclamation公告:
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像是一份声明
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that in your dim暗淡 kitchen厨房, your laundry洗衣店,
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在你那昏暗的厨房内,你的洗衣间
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your bleak苍凉 concrete具体 yard,
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在哪结实的混凝土场地里面
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what you revealed透露 of yourself你自己
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你身上被读出的信号
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was a fabulationfabulation;
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是一个虚构的故事
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your real真实 sensual声色 nature性质,
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你的肉欲
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veiled含蓄 in those sexless性冷感的 vestments法衣,
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被呆板的教衣掩盖住
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was utterly完全 your dominion主权.
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一丝不漏
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In those days, one hid much else其他 as well:
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曾经,兽皮是何样
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grown长大的 men男人 didn't embrace拥抱 one another另一个,
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成熟的男人的身上不会环绕此
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unless除非 someone有人 had died死亡,
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除非有人逝去
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and not always then; you shook震撼 hands
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并非永久,你颤抖的双手
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or, at a ball game游戏, thumped完胜 your friend's朋友的 back
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或者,一场球赛,重重的摔在你朋友的背上
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and exchanged交换 blows打击 meant意味着 to be codes代码 for affection感情;
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交流,打击,都是感情的代码
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once一旦 out of childhood童年 you'd never again know
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当你长大,你永远不会再次感受
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the shock休克 of your father's父亲的 whiskers晶须 on your cheek脸颊,
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你的脸颊被父亲的胡渣亲昵
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not until直到 mores习俗 at last had evolved进化,
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随着你的成熟而消逝
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and you could hug拥抱 another另一个 man, then hold保持 on for a moment时刻,
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你会拥抱另一个人,拥抱一会
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then even kiss (your fathers父亲 bristles刷毛
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甚至最后亲吻(现在,你父亲已经对你毫无亲热
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white白色 and stiff僵硬 now).
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除了严肃的神情)
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What release发布 finally最后, the embrace拥抱:
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最后留下的,拥抱
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though虽然 we were wary警惕 -- it seemed似乎 so audacious胆大 --
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虽然我们警惕 - 这似乎如此大胆
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how much unspoken joy喜悦 there was
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不言而喻的喜悦多少有
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in that affirmation肯定 of equality平等 and communion交往,
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在这平等和交流的肯定中
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no matter how much misunderstanding误解
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不管有多少误会
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and pain疼痛 had passed通过 between之间 you by then.
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疼痛已经过去了,届时您之间。
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We knew知道 so little in those days,
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我们曾经知道的太少
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as little as now, I suppose假设
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如同我们的年龄
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about healing复原 those hurts伤害:
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伤痛如何愈合?
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even the women妇女, in their best最好 dresses礼服,
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甚至妇女们,穿上他们最好的服装
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with beads and sequins亮片 sewn缝制 on the bodices紧身衣,
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与珠和紧身衣缝亮片,
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even in lipstick口红 and mascara睫毛膏,
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即使在口红,睫毛膏,
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their hair头发 aflowaflow,
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与他们飘动的头发
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could only stand wringing捶胸顿足 their hands,
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她们的手却泄漏了秘密,忧心忡忡
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begging乞讨 for peace和平,
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祈求和谐
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while father父亲 and son儿子, like thugs打手,
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他们的丈夫与儿子,如同暴徒
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like thieves盗贼, like Romans罗马书,
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盗贼,不切实际的
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simmered and hissed发出嘘声 and hated,
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引来仇恨,妒怨
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inflicting造成 sorrows悲伤 that endured忍受,
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造成痛苦的经历,
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the worst最差 anyway无论如何,
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无论生活如何糟糕
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through通过 the kiss and embrace拥抱,
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亲吻和拥抱,
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bleeding流血的 from brother哥哥 to brother哥哥,
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血缘联系
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into the generations.
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代代相传
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In those days there was still countryside农村
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曾经的乡村
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close to the city, farms农场, cornfields玉米田, cows奶牛;
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靠近城市,农场,玉米地,奶牛;
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even not far from our building建造
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彼此相连
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with its blurred模糊 brick and long shadowy神出鬼没 hallway门厅
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废弃的砖瓦,阴暗的走廊
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you could find tracts大片 with hills丘陵 and trees树木
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你会看到,大片的山丘,还有树林。
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you could pretend假装 were mountains and forests森林.
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你可以认为他们是山丘与树林
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Or you could go out by yourself你自己
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或者其他
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even to a half-block-long半个街区长 empty lot,
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甚至半个街区长的空地,
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into the bushes灌木丛: like a creature生物 of leaves树叶 you'd lurk匿伏,
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在丛林中,像暗中窥视的野兽
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crouched蹲在, crawling爬行, simplified, savage野蛮人, alone单独;
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蹲,爬,粗暴的,野蛮的,孤独的
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already已经 there was wanting希望 to be simpler简单,
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只是想更是简单
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wanting希望, when they called you,
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希望,当他们叫你,
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never to go back.
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从来没有回去。
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(Applause掌声)
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(掌声)
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This is another另一个 longish稍长 one,
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这是另一首长诗
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about the old and the young年轻.
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关于年轻人与年长者
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It actually其实 happened发生 right at the time we met会见.
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切合当下
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Part部分 of the poem takes place地点 in
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诗的一部分是关于
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space空间 we shared共享 and time we shared共享.
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我们共享的时间与空间
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It's called "The Neighbor邻居."
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这首诗叫做“邻居”
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Her five horrid可怕的, deformed变形 little dogs小狗
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她那五只畸形的小狗
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who incessantly不已 yap on the roof屋顶 under my window窗口.
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在不停地狂吠屋顶下我的窗口。
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Her cats, God knows知道 how many许多,
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她的猫,上帝知道有多少,
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who must必须 piss小便 on her rugs地毯 --
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谁应该对她的地毯小便过
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her landing's降落的 a sickening令人作呕 reek腐臭.
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她身上臭气冲天。
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Her shadow阴影 once一旦, fumbling摸索 the chain on her door,
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她的影子配合着她摸索着门链的声音
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then the door slamming猛击 fearfully可怕 shut关闭,
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门砰的医生关上了
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only the barking叫声 and the music音乐 -- jazz爵士乐 --
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只有叫声和音乐 - 爵士乐 -
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filtering滤波 as it does, day and night into the hall大厅.
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因为它的过滤,日夜进入大厅。
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The time it was Chris克里斯 Connor康纳 singing唱歌 "Lush青葱的 Life" --
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当时,这是克里斯康纳唱“郁郁葱葱的生命” -
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how it brought back my college学院 sweetheart爱人,
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如何带回了我的大学恋人,
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my first real真实 love, who -- till直到 I left her --
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我第一次真正的爱,谁 - 直到我离开了她 -
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played发挥 the same相同 record记录.
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有着相同的记录
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And head on my shoulder, hand on my thigh大腿,
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在我的肩上,手头枕在我的大腿,
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sang sweetly甜蜜 along沿, of regrets遗憾 and depletions枯竭
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甜蜜,遗憾与消逝
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she was too young年轻 for,
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她太年轻了,
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as I was too young年轻, later后来, to believe in her pain疼痛.
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因为我太年轻,以后,相信她的痛苦。
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It startled, then bored无聊, then repelled击退 me.
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开始,高潮,再到结束
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My starting开始 to fancy幻想 she'd ended结束 up in this fire-trap火焰陷阱
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我猜想她要结束这场热恋
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in the Village, that my neighbor邻居 was her.
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在这个村里,她是我的邻居。
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My thinking思维 we'd星期三 meet遇到, recognize认识 one another另一个,
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我的想法 我们愿意配合,相互承认,
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become成为 friends朋友, that I'd accomplish完成 a penance苦修.
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成为朋友,我想实现一个苦修。
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My seeing眼看 her, it wasn't her, at the mailbox邮箱.
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我看见她的信,实际上并不是她的
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Gray-yellow灰黄色 hair头发, army军队 pants裤子 under a nightgown睡衣,
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灰色黄色的头发,军队裤子,睡衣下
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her turning车削 away, hiding her ravaged蹂躏 face面对
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她离开了,转过她那张受到侮辱的脸庞
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in her hands, muttering咕哝 an inappropriate不当 "Hi你好."
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此刻,不应该说“你好。”
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Sometimes有时 there are frightening可怕的 goings-on事情上, in the stairwell楼梯间.
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有时有可怕的往来,就在楼梯间。
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A man shouting叫喊, "Shut关闭 up!" The dogs小狗 frantically疯狂 snarling,
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一名男子大喊:“闭嘴!”疯狂的狗狂吠,
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claws scrabbling抓挠, then her -- her voice语音
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爪摸索,然后她 - 她的声音
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hoarse嘶哑, harsh苛刻, hollow空洞,
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沙哑,苛刻,中空,
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almost几乎 only a tone,
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几乎只有一个音调,
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incoherent颠三倒四, a note注意, a squawk发牢骚,
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不连贯,一说明,发牢骚,
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bone on metal金属, metal金属 gone走了 molten熔融,
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甚至金属都能融化
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calling调用 them back,
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呼喊着归来
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"Come back darlings宠儿, come back dear ones那些.
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“回来亲爱的,亲人回来。
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My sweet angels天使, come back."
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我的,甜天使回来。“
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Medea美狄亚 she was, next下一个 time I saw her.
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美狄亚她,下一次我见到她。
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Sorceress巫婆, tranced变身。, ecstatic欣喜若狂,
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魔幻的,出神的,欣喜若狂,
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stock-still静止的 on the sidewalk人行道
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仍旧竖在两旁的秸秆
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ragged破烂 coat涂层 hanging agape纯爱,
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破烂的衣服,令人厌恶的挂着
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passersby路人 flowing流动 around her,
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她周围的路人流动,
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her mouth torn撕裂 suddenly突然 open打开
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她的嘴撕裂突然打开
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as though虽然 in a scream惊叫,
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仿佛在尖叫,
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silently默默 though虽然, as though虽然 only in her brain
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虽然默默,好像只有在她的脑子
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or breast乳房 had it erupted爆发.
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或者想要喷火的胸部
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A cry so pure, practiced, detached超脱,
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那么纯洁,与世无关的,经常似的
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it had no need of a voice语音,
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它没有一个声音的需要,
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or could no longer bear one.
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或者不愿承受的
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These invisible无形 links链接 that allure引诱,
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那些不被注意的信号
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these transfigurationstransfigurations, even of anguish痛苦, that hold保持 us.
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那些痛苦,全部得占有着我
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The girl女孩, my old love,
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这名女孩,我的旧爱,
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the last lost丢失 time I saw her
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好久不见
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when she came来了 to find me at a party派对,
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当她在派对上见到我,
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her drunkenly忘情 stumbling绊脚, falling落下,
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她忘情地舞蹈,坠落
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sprawling蔓延, skirt短裙 hiked上调, eyes眼睛 veined red,
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裙摆摇荡,眼里布满着血丝
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swollen with tears眼泪, her shame耻辱,
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骄傲的眼泪,她的羞耻
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her dishonor羞辱.
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她的耻辱。
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My ignorant愚昧, arrogant傲慢 coarseness粗糙,
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我的无知,傲慢粗糙,
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my secret秘密 pride自豪, my turning车削 away.
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我的底线,我走来了
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Still life on a rooftop屋顶,
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静物的屋顶,
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dead trees树木 in barrels, a bench长凳 broken破碎,
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木质的桶,破碎不堪
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dogs小狗, excrement粪便, sky天空.
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一只狗的粪便,空气
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What pathways途径 through通过 pain疼痛,
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什么途径通过痛苦,
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what junctures关头 of vulnerability漏洞,
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什么样的关节是如此的脆弱
10:26
what crossings道口 and counteringscounterings?
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过去,遇见
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Too many许多 lives生活 in our lives生活 already已经,
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在我们的生活已经有太多的生命,
10:31
too many许多 chances机会 for sorrow悲哀,
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太多的悲伤
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too many许多 unaccounted-for不明确的 pasts的过去.
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太多以往的过往
10:36
"Behold看哪 me," the god of frenzied丧心病狂,
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“看我,”疯狂的神
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inexhaustible取之不尽,用之不竭 love says,
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不竭的爱说,
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rising升起 in bloody血腥 splendor, "Behold看哪 me."
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上升血腥的辉煌,“看我。”
10:46
Her making制造 her way
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她用她
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down the littered散落 vestibule前厅 stairs楼梯,
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降低到处前庭楼梯,
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one agonized苦涩 step at a time.
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一步步的向我走来
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My holding保持 the door.
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我拽住大门。
10:55
Her crossing路口 the fragmented支离破碎 tiles瓷砖,
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她穿越分散瓷砖,
10:57
faltering步履蹒跚 at the step to the street,
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蹒跚在街头的一步,
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droning嗡嗡, not looking at me,
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轰鸣,背对着我
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"Can you help me?"
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“你能帮助我吗?”
11:04
Taking my arm, leaning lightly轻轻 against反对 me.
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抓住我的胳膊,在她身旁轻轻扶住
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Her wavering摇摆不定 step into the world世界.
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她成为世界动摇的一步。
11:11
Her whispering耳语, "Thanks谢谢 love." Lightly轻轻, lightly轻轻 against反对 me.
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她耳语,“感谢爱。”轻轻,轻轻对我。
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(Applause掌声)
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(掌声)
11:29
I think I'll lighten减轻 up a little.
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我想我会减轻了一点。
11:31
(Laughter笑声)
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(笑声)
11:33
Another另一个, different不同 kind of poem of youth青年 and age年龄.
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另一首,是关于青春与岁月的诗作
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It's called "Gas加油站."
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它被称为“屁”
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(Laughter笑声)
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(笑声)
11:41
Wouldn't岂不 it be nice不错, I think,
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那岂不是很好,我认为,
11:43
when the blue-haired蓝发 lady淑女 in the doctor's医生 waiting等候 room房间
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当蓝头发女士在医生的候诊室
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bends弯曲 over the magazine杂志 table
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弯下杂志表
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and farts放屁, just a little,
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身后一声轻响
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and violently猛烈 blushes脸红.
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脸涨红
11:54
Wouldn't岂不 it be nice不错 if intestinal gas加油站
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岂不是好的,如果肠道气体
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came来了 embodied体现 in visible可见 clouds,
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像是天上可见的云
11:59
so she could see that her really quite相当 inoffensive无害 pop流行的
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这样她可以看出,她真的很无害的弹出
12:02
had only barely仅仅 grazed擦过 my face面对
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只有勉强擦过我的脸
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before it drifted漂流 away.
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只是轻轻的点
12:06
(Laughter笑声)
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(笑声)
12:08
Besides除了, for this to have happened发生 now
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此外,这个现在已经发生
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is a nice不错 coincidence巧合. Because not an hour小时 ago,
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是一个不错的巧合。就在一个小时前,
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while we were on our walk步行,
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当我们对我们的步行,
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my dog was startled by a backfire逆火
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我的狗是由适得其反吃惊
12:17
and jumped跳下 straight直行 up like a horse bucking屈曲.
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直上跳下,像马一样屈曲。
12:20
And that brought back to me the stable稳定
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我却对此很镇定
12:22
I worked工作 on weekends周末 when I was 12,
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在我12岁是,我会做周末零工
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and a splendid灿烂 piebald stallion,
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灿烂的花斑种马,
12:27
who whenever每当 he was mounted安装 would buck降压 just like that,
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每当他是谁安装将责任推就这样,
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though虽然 more hugely巨大 of course课程,
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尽管更多的巨大当然,
12:33
enormous巨大, gleaming闪闪发光的, resplendent灿烂.
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巨大的,闪闪发光,灿烂。
12:35
And the woman女人, her face面对 abashedlyabashedly buried隐藏
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女人的脸上写着尴尬
12:38
in her "Elle艾丽" now, reminded提醒 me --
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深埋在她的“Elle”里,我依稀记得
12:40
I'd forgotten忘记了 that not the least最小 part部分 of my awe威严
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我忘记了,不是我至少是部分敬畏
12:43
consisted of the fact事实 that with every一切 jump he took
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包括事实,那就是他每跳
12:47
the horse would powerfully有力 fart.
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马会有力地放屁。
12:49
PhwapPhwap! PhwapPhwap! PhwapPhwap!
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砰!砰!砰!
12:51
Something never mentioned提到
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一些从未提及
12:53
in the dozens许多 of books图书 about horses马匹
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在与马有关的书籍几十
12:55
and their riders车手 I devoured吞噬 in those days.
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和我在那些日子里吞噬车手。
12:58
All that savage野蛮人 grandeur富丽堂皇,
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所有这些野蛮宏伟,
13:01
the steely钢铁般 glinting闪闪发光 hooves,
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闪闪发光的钢铁般蹄,
13:03
the eruptions爆发 driven驱动 from the creature's生物 mighty威武 innards内脏,
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从动物的内脏强大驱动的爆发,
13:07
breath呼吸 stopped停止, heart stopped停止, nostrils鼻孔 madly发狂 flared喇叭形,
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呼吸,心跳停止,鼻孔扩张
13:12
I didn't know if I wanted to break打破 him, or be him.
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我不知道我是想打他,或者是变成他
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(Laughter笑声)
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(笑声)
13:19
(Applause掌声)
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(掌声)
13:29
This is called "Thirst口渴."
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这首诗叫做“渴望。“
13:34
Many许多 -- most of my poems actually其实
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其实很多,其实大部分我的诗作
13:36
are urban城市的 poems. I happen发生 to be reading a bunch that aren't.
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都是城市诗,我会在野餐时候阅读,或许不会
13:40
"Thirst口渴."
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”渴望。“
13:42
Here was my relation关系 with the woman女人 who lived生活 all last autumn秋季 and winter冬季,
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我与一个女人相处,半年
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day and night, on a bench长凳
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一天晚上,长椅上
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in the 103rdRD Street subway地铁 station,
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在103街地铁站,
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until直到 finally最后 one day she vanished消失.
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有一天她忽然不见
13:54
We regarded认为 each other, scrutinized审查 one another另一个.
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我们把彼此相互审议。
13:58
Me shyly害羞地, obliquely, trying not to be furtive鬼鬼祟祟.
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我羞怯地,间接地,尽量不是偷偷摸摸。
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She boldly大胆, unblinkingly一眨不眨, even pugnaciouslypugnaciously,
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她激烈的,癫疯的
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wrathfully忿忿 even, when her bottle瓶子 was empty.
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整个人防空
14:11
I was frightened受惊 of her. I felt like a child儿童.
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我被吓坏了。我觉得像一个孩子。
14:14
I was afraid害怕 some repressed压抑 part部分 of myself
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我怕自己有些压抑的一部分
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would go out of control控制, and I'd be forever永远 entrapped包埋
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会失控,而我会永远包埋
14:20
in the shocking触目惊心 seethe沸腾 of her stench恶臭.
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在她的恶臭令人震惊的翻腾。
14:24
Not excrement粪便 merely仅仅, not merely仅仅 surface表面
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不只是粪便,而不仅仅是表面
14:27
and orifice going unwashed没洗过,
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还有藏在细节里的污垢
14:29
rediffusion丽的呼声 of rum朗姆酒,
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朗姆酒的香气
14:31
there was will in it,
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是在那里面散发的
14:33
and intention意向, power功率 and purpose目的 --
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有力的,刻意的
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a social社会, ethical合乎道德的 rage愤怒 and rebellion暴动 --
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一个社会,道德的愤怒和反抗,
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despair绝望 too, though虽然, grief哀思, loss失利.
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绝望过,但是,悲痛,损失
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Sometimes有时 I'd think I should take her home with me,
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有些时候,我想把带她回家,
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bathe洗澡 her, comfort安慰 her, dress连衣裙 her.
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洗澡她,安慰她,她的衣服。
14:49
She wouldn't不会 have wanted me to, I would think.
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她不会要我,我相信。
14:52
Instead代替, I'd step into my train培养.
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相反,我想踏进我的列车。
14:55
How rich丰富 I would think, is the lexicon词库
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如何丰富,我觉得,是词汇
14:58
of our self-absolving自我开脱.
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我们的自我开脱。
15:00
How enduring持久, our bland平淡 fatal致命 assurance保证
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如何持久,我们的乏味致命的保证
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that reflection反射 is righteousness being存在 accomplished完成.
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这种思考是义正在完成。
15:08
The dance舞蹈 of our glances眼神,
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我们的眼神舞蹈,
15:10
the clash冲突, pulling each other through通过
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冲突中,通过相互拉动
15:13
our perceptual知觉的 punctures穿刺,
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我们的知觉穿刺,
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then holocaust大屠杀, holocaust大屠杀,
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然后大屠杀,大屠杀。
15:17
host主办 on host主办 of ill生病, injured受伤 presences派驻,
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主机对生病,受伤存在主机,
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squandered挥霍, consumed消费.
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浪费,消耗。
15:25
Her vigil守夜 somewhere某处 I know continues继续.
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她的晚会,我知道的地方继续。
15:28
Her occupancy占用, her absolute绝对, faithful可信 attendance.
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她住,她的绝对忠诚出席会议。
15:33
The dance舞蹈 of our glances眼神, challenge挑战, abdication退位,
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我们的眼神,挑战,放弃舞蹈,
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effacement抹杀, the perfume香水 of our consternation惊愕.
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抹杀,我们惊愕的香水味
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(Applause掌声)
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(掌声)
15:52
This is a newer poem, a brand new poem.
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这是一首新诗,一种新的
15:56
The title标题 is "This Happened正巧."
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名字叫做“这发生了”
15:59
A student学生, a young年轻 woman女人
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一个学生,少妇
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in a fourth-floor四楼 hallway门厅 of her lycee公立中学,
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在第四层走廊她的公立中学,
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perched栖息 on the ledge窗台 of an open打开 window窗口
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蹲在一个开放窗台
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chatting聊天的 with friends朋友 between之间 classes;
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聊天类之间的朋友;
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a teacher老师 passes通行证 and chides责骂 her,
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老师的推诿和责怪她,
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"Be careful小心, you might威力 fall秋季,"
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小心,你可能会堕落
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almost几乎 banteringly半开玩笑 chides责骂 her,
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几乎是嘲弄似的责怪她
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"You might威力 fall秋季,"
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你会堕落
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and the young年轻 woman女人, 18, a girl女孩 really,
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但是作为18岁的少妇,一个女孩
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though虽然 she wouldn't不会 think that,
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并不认为此
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as brilliant辉煌 as she is, first in her class,
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她是全班最聪明的,
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and "Beautiful美丽, too," she's often经常 told,
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还有这美貌,她如此说
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smiles笑容 back, and leans斜靠 into the open打开 window窗口,
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微笑回来,把打开的窗口倾斜,
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which哪一个 wouldn't不会 even be open打开 if it were winter冬季 --
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这将甚至无法打开如果是冬天,
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if it were winter冬季 someone有人 would have closed关闭 it ("Close it!") --
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如果是冬天有人已经关闭了(“关闭它!”)
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leans斜靠 into the window窗口, farther更远, still smiling微笑,
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倾斜到窗口,更远,仍然微笑着,
16:46
farther更远 and farther更远, though虽然 it takes less time
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越走越远,尽管它会比这花费更少的时间
16:49
than this, really an instant瞬间, and lets让我们 herself她自己 fall秋季.
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的确是在一瞬间,让自己下降。
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Herself她自己 fall秋季.
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她在下降
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A casual随便 impulse冲动, a fancy幻想,
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一个偶然的冲动,一个幻想,
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never thought of until直到 now, hardly几乎不 thought of even now ...
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从来没有想过到现在,即使是现在很难想到的...
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No, more than impulse冲动 or fancy幻想,
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不超过冲动或幻想,
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the girl女孩 knows知道 what she's doing,
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女孩知道她做的事,
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the girl女孩 means手段 something,
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女孩意味着什么,
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the girl女孩 means手段 to mean,
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该女童手段的意思是,
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because it occurs发生 to her in that instant瞬间,
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因为它发生她在那一刹那,
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that beautiful美丽 or not, bright yes or no,
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那美丽与否,光明是或否,
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she's not who she is,
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她不是她是谁,
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she's not the person she is,
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她不再是曾经的她
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and the reason原因, she suddenly突然 knows知道,
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她突然知道为何
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is that there's been so much premeditation预谋
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就是有这么多有预谋
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where she is, so much plotting绘制 and planning规划,
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她是这么多的策划和规划,
17:31
there's hardly几乎不 a person where she is,
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几乎没有一个人是她,
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or if there is, it's not her, or not wholly her,
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或者如果有,这不是她的,她的或不完全,
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it's a self inhabited居住, lived生活 in by her,
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它是一个自我居住的她,
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and seemingly似乎 even as she thinks it
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甚至她像是已经获晓
17:44
she knows知道 what's been missing失踪:
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她知道什么东西被丢失:
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grace恩典,
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尊严
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not premeditation预谋 but grace恩典,
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并非智谋,是尊严
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a kind of being存在 in the world世界 spontaneously自发,
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那种浑然天成的气质
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with grace恩典.
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带着尊严
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WeightfullyWeightfully upon me was the world世界.
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对我来说那就是世界
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WeightfullyWeightfully this self which哪一个 graced增光 the world世界
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对个体来说那就是世界
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yet然而 never wholly itself本身.
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但从来没有完全本身。
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WeightfullyWeightfully this self which哪一个 weighed称重 upon me,
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这样的本意,就已经对我如此重要
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the release发布 from which哪一个 is what I desire欲望
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我咎由自取
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and what I achieve实现.
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该是这样
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And the girl女孩 remembers记得, in this infinite无穷 instant瞬间
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而女孩记得,在这无限的瞬间
18:17
already已经 now so many许多 times divided分为,
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对少次的分离
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the sadness she felt once一旦,
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她感到的悲伤一次,
18:22
hardly几乎不 knowing会心 she felt it,
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根本不知道她觉得,
18:24
to merely仅仅 inhabit居住于 herself她自己.
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仅仅自己居住。
18:26
Yes, the girl女孩 falls下降, absurd荒诞 to fall秋季,
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是的,女孩跌倒,荒谬的下降,
18:29
even the earth地球 with its compulsion义务
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甚至地球与强制
18:32
to take unto itself本身 all that falls下降
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她在下降
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must必须 know that falling落下 is absurd荒诞,
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要知道,是荒谬的下降,
18:37
yet然而 the girl女孩 falling落下 isn't myself,
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那个女孩不属于我自己
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or she is myself,
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或她就是我自己,
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but a self I took of my own拥有 volition意志 unto myself.
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但自我注意到我自己的意志祂自己。
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Forever永远. With grace恩典.
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带着永恒的尊严
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This happened发生.
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这已经发生了
18:53
(Applause掌声)
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(掌声)
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I'll read just one more. I don't usually平时 say that.
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我还要读一首,着并非我的习惯
19:03
I like to just end结束.
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我喜欢只是这样的结果
19:05
But I'm afraid害怕 that Ricky瑞奇 will come out here
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但是我害怕瑞奇会到这来
19:08
and shake his fist拳头 at me.
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然后挥着她的拳头
19:12
This is called "Old Man," appropriately适当 enough足够.
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“hi,老头,行了“
19:16
"Special特别: big tits山雀,"
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特别的
19:18
Says the advertisement广告 for a soft-core软核 magazine杂志
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说的软核杂志广告
19:21
on our neighborhood邻里 newsstand报摊.
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在我们的邻里报摊。
19:23
But forget忘记 her breasts乳房.
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忘记了她的胸脯
19:25
A lush青葱的, fresh-lipped新鲜的唇 blond金发,
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光润,清新明亮的金发,
19:28
skin皮肤 glowing泛着 gold, sprawls绵延 there,
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皮肤发光的金子
19:31
resplendent灿烂.
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辉煌。
19:33
60 nearly几乎, yet然而 these hardly几乎不 tangible有形,
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60已过,却依旧闪耀
19:36
hardly几乎不 better than harlots妓女, can still stir搅拌 me.
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几乎比妓女好,让我荡漾
19:41
Maybe a coming未来 of age年龄 in the
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也许是在时代的到来
19:43
American美国 sensual声色 darkness黑暗,
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性感黑暗的美国
19:45
never seeing眼看 an unsmudgedunsmudged nipple乳头,
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从来没有看到一个乳头
19:47
an uncensored未经审查 vagina阴道,
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与处女膜
19:49
has left me forever永远 infected感染
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给我留下永远感染
19:52
with an unquenchable不灭 lust情欲 of the eye.
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用眼睛难以抑制的欲望。
19:55
Always that erotic好色之徒 murmur私语,
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总是这样色情杂音,
19:57
I'm hardly几乎不 myself
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总是这样色情杂音,
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if I'm not in a state of incipient初期的 desire欲望.
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如果我不是在一个初始状态的愿望。
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God knows知道 though虽然,
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上帝知道,虽然,
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there are worse更差 twists曲折 your obsessions走火入魔 can take.
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有严重曲折的迷恋可以。
20:08
Last year in Israel以色列, a young年轻 ultra-orthodox极端正统派 Rabbi拉比
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去年在以色列,一个年轻的极端正统犹太教
20:12
guiding主导 some teenage青少年 girls女孩 through通过 the Shrine神社 of the Shoah浩劫
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指导通过浩劫靖国神社有些少女
20:16
forbade禁止 them to look in one room房间.
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禁止他们寻找一个房间。
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Because there were images图片 in it he said were licentious淫乱.
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因为那里有淫秽的图
20:23
The display显示 was a photo照片. Men男人 and women妇女 stripped剥离 naked,
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在展出的照片。男子和妇女被剥光衣服,
20:27
some trying to cover their genitals生殖器,
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一些试图掩盖他们的生殖器,
20:29
others其他 too frightened受惊 to bother,
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别人不敢打扰,
20:31
lined up in snow
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白色的背景,一字排开
20:33
waiting等候 to be shot射击 and thrown抛出 into a ditch.
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等待拍摄成一条水渠里扔。
20:36
The girls女孩, to my horror恐怖,
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姑娘们,我的恐惧,
20:39
averted避免 their gaze凝视.
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避免了他们的目光。
20:41
What carnal肉体 mistrust不信任 had their teacher老师 taught them.
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什么肉体的不信任有自己的老师教给他们。
20:45
Even that though虽然. Another另一个 confession自白书:
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即使是另一个的自白。
20:49
Once一旦 in a book on pre-war战前 Poland波兰,
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一旦在学前教育方面的书战前波兰,
20:52
a studio工作室 portrait肖像, an absolute绝对 angel天使,
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一室画像,一个天使,
20:56
an absolute绝对 angel天使 with tormented折磨, tormenting折磨 eyes眼睛.
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与折磨,折磨眼睛绝对的天使。
20:58
I kept不停 finding发现 myself at her page.
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我不停地发现自己在她的页面。
21:01
That she died死亡 in the camps营地 made制作 her --
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她死于劳改营使她 -
21:04
I didn't dare wonder奇迹 why --
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我不敢想知道为什么 -
21:07
more present当下, more precious珍贵.
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更多目前,越来越珍贵。
21:10
Died死亡 in the camps营地, that too people --
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在难民营中死亡,过多的人 -
21:13
or Jews犹太人 anyway无论如何 --
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或犹太人
21:15
kept不停 from their children孩子 back then.
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保留子女当时的情况。
21:17
But it was like sex性别, you didn't have to be told.
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但它像性行为,你没有被告知。
21:21
Sex性别 and death死亡, how close they can seem似乎.
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性别和死亡,如何接近他们看来。
21:25
So constantly经常 conscious意识 now of death死亡 moving移动 towards me,
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所以,现在不断意识到死亡的走向我,
21:29
sometimes有时 I think I confound混淆 them.
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有时候我想我混淆他们。
21:32
My wife's妻子 loveliness魅力 almost几乎 consumes消耗 me.
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我妻子的可爱太销魂了
21:35
My passion for her goes beyond reasonable合理 bounds界限.
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我对她的热情超出了合理的范围。
21:38
When we make love, her holding保持 me
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当我们做爱时,她抱着我
21:41
everywhere到处 all around me,
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覆盖我身上的没一次
21:43
I'm there and not there.
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我那里不存在。
21:45
My mind心神 teems盛产, jumbles混为一谈 of faces面孔, voices声音, impressions印象,
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我的头脑恍惚,脸部抽搐,声音也不清楚
21:49
I live生活 my life over, as though虽然 I were drowning溺死.
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我住在我的生活,仿佛我是溺水。
21:54
Then I am drowning溺死, in despair绝望
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然后,我淹死,在绝望中
21:57
at having to leave离开 her,
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在不得不离开她,
21:59
this, everything, all,
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这一点,一切,所有,
22:01
unbearable不堪忍受, awful可怕.
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无法忍受的,可怕的。
22:04
Still, to be able能够 to die
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不过,能够死
22:07
with no special特别 contrition悔悟,
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没有特别忏悔,
22:09
not having been slaughtered屠宰, or enslaved奴役.
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没有被宰杀,或奴役。
22:12
And not having to know history's历史上 next下一个
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并没有认识历史的未来
22:15
mad rage愤怒 or regression回归,
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疯狂的愤怒或倒退,
22:17
it might威力 be a relief浮雕.
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它可能是一种解脱。
22:20
No. Again, no.
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没有,就是没有
22:22
I don't mean that for a moment时刻.
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我并非刻意渲染那一刻
22:24
What I mean is the world世界 holds持有 me so tightly紧紧 --
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我指的是,这个世界把我勒住
22:27
the good and the bad --
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无论是好事,还是坏事
22:29
my own拥有 follies蠢事 and weakness弱点
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我的愚昧与软弱
22:31
that even this counterfeit伪造 Venus金星
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甚至假的Venus女神都不起作用
22:34
with her sham heat, and her bosom怀 probably大概 plumped扑通
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她的假热,她的胸脯
22:37
with gel凝胶, so moves移动 me
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是如此的诱人。
22:40
my breath呼吸 catches渔获.
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我的喘息都清晰可见
22:42
Vamp鞋面. Siren警笛. Seductress勾引.
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鞋面。警报器。勾引。
22:45
How much more she reveals揭示
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这些信号都是她的
22:47
in her glare强光 of ink墨水 than she knows知道.
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在她的油墨眩光比她知道。
22:50
How she incarnates体现
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她如何做到的
22:52
our desperate殊死 human人的 need for regard看待,
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人类在绝望时候寻求的帮助
22:55
our passion to live生活 in beauty美女,
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我们的激情是活在美好中
22:58
to be beauty美女, to be cherished珍爱的 by glances眼神,
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被夸赞美好,被瞩目
23:02
if by no more, of something like love,
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如果没有,那就用爱的衍生品来代替
23:06
or love.
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或者就是爱
23:08
Thank you.
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谢谢
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(Applause掌声)
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(掌声)
Translated by Felix Chen
Reviewed by Wang Qian

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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
C.K. Williams - Poet
Often called a social poet, C.K. Williams was fascinated by the characters of modern civilization and their interactions.

Why you should listen

C.K. Williams started writing poetry at 19, after taking only his required English classes at University of Pennsylvania. In the 1960s, he began gearing his poems toward social issues, such as the brutality that  civil rights activists often faced and his anti-war stance with respect to Vietnam. Over time, although he continued to write about society, his work became more personal. His focus shifted to the intersection of profoundly different lives in crowded urban spaces, using these instances to examine sensitive issues such as race and class.    

The subject matter of his work is not its only controversy, and Williams is often compared to Whitman and Ginsberg because of his unusually long lines of verse. Despite his unconventional poetic form, he was awarded the Pulitzer Prize, the National Book Award and the National Book Critics Circle Award, among other honors. He also published five works of translation and a psychologically introspective memoir, Misgivings: My Mother, My Father, Myself. Williams died in September 2015.

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