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Ananda Shankar Jayant: Fighting cancer with dance
Ananda Shankar Jayant 用舞蹈战胜癌症
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享有盛誉的印度舞蹈家Ananda Shankar Jayant在2008年被诊断出患有癌症。她讲述自己的故事。她的故事并不仅仅是面对疾病，而是用舞蹈战胜疾病。期间她向观众展示了帮助她战胜癌症的，包含印度神秘意象的舞蹈。
Ananda Shankar Jayant - Dancer and choreographer
With precision and sparkling grace, Ananda Shankar Jayant performs and teaches the classical dance styles of Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi. Full bio
With precision and sparkling grace, Ananda Shankar Jayant performs and teaches the classical dance styles of Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi. Full bio
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[Sanskrit]
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（梵文）
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This is an ode to the mother goddess,
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有一首关于印度神母的颂歌，
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that most of us in India learn when we are children.
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是我们大部分的印度人从小就学习的。
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I learned it when I was four
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在我四岁的时候也学习了这首歌
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at my mother's knee.
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坐在我母亲的膝头上。
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That year she introduced me to dance,
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也正是那一年，她引导我进入舞蹈的殿堂。
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and thus began
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而这一开端
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my tryst with classical dance.
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正是我与印度古典舞幽会的伊始。
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Since then -- it's been four decades now --
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从那时开始，到现在已经40年了——
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I've trained with the best in the field,
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我师从这一行最优秀的舞者，
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performed across the globe,
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在世界各地演出，
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taught young and old alike,
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教导年轻的和年老的舞蹈爱好者，
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created, collaborated,
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创造，合作，
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choreographed,
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编舞，
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and wove a rich tapestry
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我编织了一个绚丽的挂毯，
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of artistry, achievement and awards.
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用我的艺术，成就，和奖章。
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The crowning glory was in 2007,
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2007年我获得了至高无上的荣誉，
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when I received this country's
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那一年 我得到了印度
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fourth highest civilian award, the Padma Shri,
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授予公民的第四高荣誉，莲花奖（Padma Shri）
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for my contribution to art.
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作为我对艺术贡献的回报
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(Applause)
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（观众鼓掌）
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But nothing, nothing prepared me
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但是 任何事都不足以让我有心理准备
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for what I was to hear
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去面对我将要得知的
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on the first of July 2008.
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在2008年的7月1号
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I heard the word "carcinoma."
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我得知了一个词“恶性肿瘤”
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Yes, breast cancer.
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是的，乳腺癌
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As I sat dumbstruck in my doctor's office,
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我坐在医生的办公室里，呆若木鸡
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I heard other words:
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我听到了另外一些词
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"cancer," "stage," "grade."
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“癌症”，“期”，“恶性程度”
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Until then, Cancer was the zodiac
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那时之前，癌（Cancer）是十二宫中的巨蟹座。
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sign of my friend,
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是我朋友的星座
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stage was what I performed on,
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“期”（Stage）是我表演的舞台，
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and grades were what I got in school.
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“恶性程度”（Grade）是我在学校得到的成绩
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That day, I realized
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那一天，我意识到
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I had an unwelcome, uninvited,
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我有一个不受欢迎的，不请自来的，
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new life partner.
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新终生伴侣
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As a dancer,
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作为一个舞者
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I know the nine rasas or the navarasas:
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我知道九情操（印度古典舞蹈中通过肢体或表情表达不同情绪的方式）
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anger, valor,
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愤怒，勇敢，
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disgust, humor
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厌恶，诙谐
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and fear.
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与恐怖
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I thought I knew what fear was.
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我以为我知道什么是恐惧
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That day, I learned what fear was.
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那一天，我学会了什么是恐惧
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Overcome with the enormity of it all
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经历所有的巨痛
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and the complete feeling of loss of control,
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并彻底感到失去控制
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I shed copious tears
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我流了很多泪水
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and asked my dear husband, Jayant.
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问我亲爱的丈夫，Jayant
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I said, "Is this it? Is this the end of the road?
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我说，“结束了么？这就是我生命之路的尽头么？”
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Is this the end of my dance?"
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这就是我舞蹈的终结么？
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And he, the positive soul that he is,
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然而他，这个乐观的灵魂
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said, "No, this is just a hiatus,
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说，“不，这只是一个间隙
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a hiatus during the treatment,
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治疗的间隙
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and you'll get back to doing what you do best."
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而且你将回来做你擅长的事
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I realized then
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当时我醒悟到
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that I, who thought I had complete control of my life,
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我认为自己完全控制了自己的人生
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had control of only three things:
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但我仅仅控制了3件事
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My thought, my mind --
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我的思想，我的情绪——
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the images that these thoughts created --
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这些思想所创造的想象
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and the action that derived from it.
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和由这些想象所引起的行动
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So here I was wallowing
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所以现在我沉迷于
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in a vortex of emotions
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一种情绪的漩涡中
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and depression and what have you,
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沮丧，和那些令你
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with the enormity of the situation,
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感到情况的严酷的思绪
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wanting to go to a place of healing, health and happiness.
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我想得到痊愈，健康和幸福
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I wanted to go from where I was
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我想从现在的我
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to where I wanted to be,
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到达我想到的彼方
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for which I needed something.
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为了达到这一目标
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I needed something that would pull me out of all this.
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我需要有一股可以把我从痛苦中拉出来的力量
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So I dried my tears,
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所以 我擦干泪水
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and I declared to the world at large ...
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然后 我向世界宣告
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I said, "Cancer's only one page in my life,
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我说，癌症只是我生命中的一页
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and I will not allow this page to impact the rest of my life."
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我不会让这一页去影响我其余的人生
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I also declared to the world at large
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我还向世界宣告
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that I would ride it out,
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我将度过难关
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and I would not allow cancer to ride me.
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我不会允许癌症将我打倒
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But to go from where I was
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但是 要从我的现状
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to where I wanted to be,
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到达我的期望
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I needed something.
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我需要一些东西
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I needed an anchor, an image,
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我需要一个依靠，一种意象
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a peg
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一个标杆
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to peg this process on,
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钉在这一过程的起始
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so that I could go from there.
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然后我可以从那里开始
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And I found that in my dance,
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然后 我从舞蹈中发现了它
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my dance, my strength, my energy, my passion,
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我的舞蹈，我的力量，我的能量，我的热情
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my very life breath.
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我生命的气息
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But it wasn't easy.
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但这并不容易
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Believe me, it definitely wasn't easy.
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相信我，这绝不容易
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How do you keep cheer
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你怎能保持振奋
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when you go from beautiful
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在你的外型从美丽
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to bald in three days?
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在三天之内变成秃字
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How do you not despair
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你怎能不绝望
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when, with the body ravaged by chemotherapy,
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在你的身体对化疗产生不良反应时
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climbing a mere flight of stairs was sheer torture,
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爬几节楼梯都像攀登险峰
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that to someone like me who could dance for three hours?
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对于我这样一个能连续跳3个小时的舞者？
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How do you not get overwhelmed
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你怎能不彷徨失措
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by the despair and the misery of it all?
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因为痛苦和绝望
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All I wanted to do was curl up and weep.
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我想做的只有蜷缩起来哭泣
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But I kept telling myself fear and tears
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但是我一直告诉我自己 畏缩和哭泣
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are options I did not have.
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都不是我将要做的选择
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So I would drag myself into my dance studio --
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所以我强拉自己到我的舞蹈室
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body, mind and spirit -- every day into my dance studio,
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我的身体，思想，和灵魂，每天都在我的舞蹈室
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and learn everything I learned
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学习我曾经学习过的所有东西
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when I was four, all over again,
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就好像我又回到四岁
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reworked, relearned, regrouped.
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从新工作，从头学习，从新组织
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It was excruciatingly painful, but I did it.
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这一过程非常痛苦，但是我完成了
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Difficult.
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困难
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I focused on my mudras,
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我专注于我的身印手印
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on the imagery of my dance,
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专注于我舞蹈的意境
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on the poetry and the metaphor
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专注于韵律和意象
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and the philosophy of the dance itself.
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和舞蹈的哲学本身
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And slowly, I moved out
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然后 缓慢的 我脱离了
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of that miserable state of mind.
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我心中的悲惨境遇
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But I needed something else.
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但是 我需要另外一些东西
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I needed something to go that extra mile,
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我需要增加我的旅程
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and I found it in that metaphor
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我在意象中找到了它
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which I had learned from my mother when I was four.
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那是从我四岁就学起的
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The metaphor of Mahishasura Mardhini,
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湿婆神的意象
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of Durga.
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杜尔迦女神
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Durga, the mother goddess, the fearless one,
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杜尔迦女神 无畏的神母
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created by the pantheon of Hindu gods.
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由印度诸神所创造
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Durga, resplendent, bedecked, beautiful,
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杜尔迦女神 辉煌 雍容 美丽
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her 18 arms
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她的十八支手臂
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ready for warfare,
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随时准备战斗
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as she rode astride her lion
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她乘坐神狮
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into the battlefield to destroy Mahishasur.
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进入战场去毁灭水牛阿修罗
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Durga, the epitome
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杜尔迦女神
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of creative feminine energy,
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女性创造力量的象征
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or shakti.
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或者叫女性力量
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Durga, the fearless one.
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杜尔迦 无畏的女神
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I made that image of Durga
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我做成了杜尔迦女神的意象
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and her every attribute, her every nuance,
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和她所有的属性和特质
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my very own.
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我专属的意象
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Powered by the symbology of a myth
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在她那种神秘符号的推动下
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and the passion of my training,
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并伴随着我对训练的热情
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I brought laser-sharp focus into my dance,
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我像激光刀般精准的专注于我的舞蹈
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laser-sharp focus to such an extent
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像激光刀般专注这样一个领域
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that I danced a few weeks after surgery.
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在手术之后我跳了几周的舞
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I danced through chemo and radiation cycles,
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在化疗和放射疗法的治疗周期我依然跳舞
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much to the dismay of my oncologist.
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我的治疗医生很惊异
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I danced between chemo and radiation cycles
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我在化疗和放射的期间跳舞
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and badgered him to fit it
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我纠缠着让他使治疗周期
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to my performing dance schedule.
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配合我的舞蹈计划
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What I had done
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我所成就的是
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is I had tuned out of cancer
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我摆脱了癌症
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and tuned into my dance.
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专注于我的舞蹈
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Yes, cancer has just been one page in my life.
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是的，癌症只成为我生命中的一页
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My story
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我的故事
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is a story of overcoming setbacks,
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是一个克服挫折
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obstacles and challenges
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障碍和挑战的故事
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that life throws at you.
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那些生命带给你的
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My story is the power of thought.
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我的故事是思想的力量
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My story is the power of choice.
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我的故事是选择的力量
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It's the power of focus.
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是专注的力量
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It's the power of bringing ourselves
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这是一种力量让我们注意那些
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to the attention of something that so animates you,
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赋予我们生机活力
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so moves you,
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深刻的感动我们
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that something even like cancer becomes insignificant.
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和令癌症变得无足轻重的东西
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My story is the power of a metaphor.
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我的故事是意境的力量
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It's the power of an image.
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是意象的力量
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Mine was that of Durga,
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我的意象是杜尔迦
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Durga the fearless one.
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杜尔迦无畏的女神
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She was also called Simhanandini,
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她也叫做Simhanandini
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the one who rode the lion.
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骑狮子的人
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As I ride out,
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在我度过难关的过程中
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as I ride my own inner strength,
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我驾驭了我自己的内在力量
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my own inner resilience,
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我的内在恢复力
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armed as I am with what medication can provide
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我武装自己并联合治疗效果
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and continue treatment,
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我继续治疗
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as I ride out into the battlefield of cancer,
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我经历了与癌症的战争
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asking my rogue cells to behave,
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我命令那些肆意妄为的细胞顺从起来
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I want to be known not as a cancer survivor,
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我希望被世人认可，不是作为癌症幸存者
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but as a cancer conqueror.
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而是作为癌症征服者
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I present to you an excerpt of that work
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我向你们呈现一段我的舞蹈
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"Simhanandini."
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“狮子吼经”（Simhanandani）
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(Applause)
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（鼓掌）
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(Music)
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（音乐）
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(Applause)
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(鼓掌）
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Ananda Shankar Jayant - Dancer and choreographerWith precision and sparkling grace, Ananda Shankar Jayant performs and teaches the classical dance styles of Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi.
Why you should listen
Ananda Shankar Jayant is trained in two traditional forms of classical Indian dance, Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi. Both forms require long training and precise timing to express their essence -- and both forms, in Shankar Jayant's hands, are capable of exploring deep truths.
As a choreographer and performer, she uses dance to talk about gender issues (as in 1999's What About Me?), mythology and philosophy, setting these carefully handed-down forms of dance onto a modern stage. She leads the Shankarananda Kalakshetra school in Hyderabad and Secunderabad, and is a scholar of dance and art, lecturing frequently on both throughout India.
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