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Geena Rocero: Why I must come out
Džina Rosero (Geena Rocero): Zašto moram da se razotkrijem
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Kada je model Džina Rosero po prvi put videla profesionalnu fotografiju sebe u kupaćem kostimu, bila je van sebe. "Pomislila sam... stigla si do cilja!" rekla je ponosno. To možda nije česta pojava, ali, kako Roserova otkriva, to je zato što je njoj po rođenju dodeljen rod dečaka. U ovom dirljivom i intimnom govoru, Roserova otkriva da joj aktivizam za transrodnost daje novi osećaj ponosa i svrhe.
Geena Rocero - Model and activist
Geena Rocero is a professional model for fashion and beauty companies around the world. And she uses her platform to share a powerful story. Full bio
Geena Rocero is a professional model for fashion and beauty companies around the world. And she uses her platform to share a powerful story. Full bio
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00:13
The world makes you something that you're not,
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Svet vas tvori u nešto što niste,
00:18
but you know inside what you are,
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ali vi u sebi znate ko ste,
00:20
and that question burns in your heart:
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i ovo pitanje tinja u vašim srcima:
00:23
How will you become that?
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kako ćete da postanete ta osoba?
00:26
I may be somewhat unique in this,
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Ja sam možda jedinstvena u ovome,
00:29
but I am not alone,
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ali nisam sama,
00:31
not alone at all.
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ne uopšte.
Kada sam postala model
00:34
So when I became a fashion model,
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pomislila sam da sam konačno
ostvarila san
ostvarila san
00:36
I felt that I'd finally achieved the dream
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00:38
that I'd always wanted since I was a young child.
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koji sam želela još od detinjstva.
00:41
My outside self finally matched my inner truth,
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Moj izgled se konačno poklapao
sa mojom unutrašnjom istinom,
sa mojom unutrašnjom istinom,
00:45
my inner self.
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mojim unutrašnjim identitetom.
00:47
For complicated reasons which I'll get to later,
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Iz komplikovanih razloga, kojih ću
se kasnije dotaći,
se kasnije dotaći,
00:52
when I look at this picture,
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kada pogledam ovu sliku
00:55
at that time I felt like, Geena, you've done it,
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u to vreme sam pomislila:
Džina, uradila si to,
Džina, uradila si to,
00:57
you've made it,
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uspela si,
00:58
you have arrived.
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došla si do cilja.
01:01
But this past October,
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Međutim, prošlog oktobra
01:04
I realized that I'm only just beginning.
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shvatila sam da sam tek na početku.
01:08
All of us are put in boxes by our family,
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Naša porodica, religija
01:13
by our religion,
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društvo,
01:14
by our society,
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trenuci u istoriji,
01:16
our moment in history,
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čak i naša tela
01:19
even our own bodies.
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stavljaju nas u određene kutije.
01:21
Some people have the courage to break free,
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Neki ljudi smognu hrabrosti
da se oslobode
da se oslobode
01:24
not to accept the limitations imposed by
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i ne prihvate ograničenja
koja je nametnula
koja je nametnula
01:26
the color of their skin
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boja njihove kože
01:28
or by the beliefs of those that surround them.
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ili verovanja onih koji ih okružuju.
01:32
Those people are always the threat
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Ti su ljudi večita pretnja
01:34
to the status quo,
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statusu kvo,
01:35
to what is considered acceptable.
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onome što se smatra prihvatljivim.
01:39
In my case, for the last nine years,
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U mom slučaju, poslednjih 9 godina,
01:45
some of my neighbors,
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neki od mojih suseda,
01:47
some of my friends, colleagues, even my agent,
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prijatelja, kolega, čak ni moj agent
01:50
did not know about my history.
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nisu znali za moju prošlost.
01:52
I think, in mystery, this is called the reveal.
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Mislim da se u misterijama
ovo zove otkriće.
ovo zove otkriće.
01:56
Here is mine.
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A evo i mog.
02:00
I was assigned boy at birth
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po rođenju dodeljena
mi je etiketa "dečak"
mi je etiketa "dečak"
02:03
based on the appearance of my genitalia.
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na osnovu izgleda mojih genitalija.
02:06
I remember when I was five years old
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Sećam se kada sam sa 5 godina
02:08
in the Philippines walking around our house,
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na Filipinima hodala po kući
02:10
I would always wear this t-shirt on my head.
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i uvek nosila majicu na glavi.
02:13
And my mom asked me,
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I mama bi me pitala:
02:15
"How come you always wear
that t-shirt on your head?"
that t-shirt on your head?"
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"Zašto uvek nosiš majicu na glavi?"
02:18
I said, "Mom, this is my hair. I'm a girl."
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Ja bih joj rekla: "Ovo je moja kosa.
Ja sam devojčica."
Ja sam devojčica."
02:23
I knew then how to self-identify.
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Tada sam znala kako da se
samoidentifikujem.
samoidentifikujem.
02:27
Gender has always been considered a fact,
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Rod se uvek vodio kao činjenica,
02:32
immutable,
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nešto neosporno,
02:34
but we now know it's actually more fluid,
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ali sada znamo
da je on zapravo fleksibilniji,
da je on zapravo fleksibilniji,
02:37
complex and mysterious.
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složeniji i misteriozniji.
02:41
Because of my success, I never had the courage
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Zbog svog uspeha nikada nisam
imala hrabrosti
imala hrabrosti
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to share my story,
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da podelim svoju priču,
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not because I thought what I am is wrong,
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ne zato što sam mislila
da je moj identitet pogrešan
da je moj identitet pogrešan
02:49
but because of how the world treats those of us
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nego zbog načina na koji
svet tretira one
svet tretira one
02:52
who wish to break free.
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koji žele da se oslobode stega.
02:55
Every day,
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Svaki dan
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I am so grateful because I am a woman.
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sam zahvalna što sam žena.
03:01
I have a mom and dad and family
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Imam svoju mamu i tatu i porodicu
03:04
who accepted me for who I am.
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koji su me prihvatili onakvu kakva sam.
03:07
Many are not so fortunate.
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Mnogi nisu te sreće.
03:12
There's a long tradition in Asian culture
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Postoji duga tradicija
u azijskoj kulturi
u azijskoj kulturi
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that celebrates the fluid mystery of gender.
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koja slavi fleksibilnu misteriju roda.
03:18
There is a Buddhist goddess of compassion.
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Postoji budistička boginja saosećanja.
03:21
There is a Hindu goddess, hijra goddess.
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Postoji hinduistička boginja,
hidžranska boginja.
hidžranska boginja.
03:25
So when I was eight years old,
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Kada sam imala 8 godina
03:27
I was at a fiesta in the Philippines celebrating
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bila sam na zabavi
na Filipinima koja je slavila
na Filipinima koja je slavila
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these mysteries.
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ove misterije.
03:32
I was in front of the stage,
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Bila sam u prvom redu, ispred bine
03:34
and I remember, out comes this beautiful woman
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i sećam se jedne prelepe
žene koja je izašla
žene koja je izašla
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right in front of me,
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odmah ispred mene.
03:39
and I remember that moment something hit me:
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Sećam se da mi je u tom trenutku sinulo:
03:41
That is the kind of woman I would like to be.
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ja bih želela da budem ovakva žena.
03:45
So when I was 15 years old,
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Kada sam imala 15 godina,
dok sam se i dalje oblačila kao dečak,
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still dressing as a boy,
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03:49
I met this woman named T.L.
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upoznala sam ženu po imenu T.L.
03:51
She is a transgender beauty pageant manager.
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Ona je direktor
za transrodni izbor lepote.
za transrodni izbor lepote.
03:55
That night she asked me,
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Te noći me je pitala:
03:56
"How come you are not joining the beauty pageant?"
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"Zašto nećeš da se prijaviš na izbor?"
03:59
She convinced me that if I joined
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Uverila me je da će se,
ukoliko se prijavim,
ukoliko se prijavim,
04:01
that she would take care of the registration fee
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pobrinuti za novac za registraciju,
04:05
and the garments,
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i odeću,
04:06
and that night,
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i te noći
osvojila sam nagradu
za najlepšu devojku u bikiniju
za najlepšu devojku u bikiniju
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I won best in swimsuit
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i najlepšu devojku u dugoj haljini
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and best in long gown
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04:12
and placed second runner up
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i bila sam druga pratilja
04:14
among 40-plus candidates.
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među više od 40 kandidata.
04:17
That moment changed my life.
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Taj trenutak
je bio prekretnica u mom životu.
je bio prekretnica u mom životu.
04:20
All of a sudden, I was introduced
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Odjednom sam ušla
04:22
to the world of beauty pageants.
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u svet izbora lepote.
04:25
Not a lot of people could say that your first job
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Malo ko može reći da je njihov prvi posao
bio kraljica lepote za transrodne žene,
04:27
is a pageant queen for transgender women,
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04:29
but I'll take it.
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ali ja mogu.
04:32
So from 15 to 17 years old, I joined
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Od moje 15 do 17 godine bila sam deo
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the most prestigious pageant
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i najprestižnijeg izbora
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to the pageant where it's at
the back of the truck, literally,
the back of the truck, literally,
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i izbora koji je bukvalno
bio u prikolici kamiona.
bio u prikolici kamiona.
04:41
or sometimes it would be a
pavement next to a rice field,
pavement next to a rice field,
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Nekada bi to bio trotoar
pored polja pirinča,
pored polja pirinča,
04:45
and when it rains --
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i kada bi pala kiša,
04:46
it rains a lot in the Philippines --
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na Filipinima puno pada kiša,
04:49
the organizers would have to move it
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organizatori bi premestili događaj
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inside someone's house.
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u nečiju kuću.
04:55
I also experienced the goodness of strangers,
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Takođe sam iskusila dobrotu stranaca
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especially when we would travel
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pogotovo kada bismo putovali
04:58
in remote provinces in the Philippines.
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u udaljene provincije Filipina.
05:01
But most importantly, I met
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Ali najvažnije, upoznala sam
05:03
some of my best friends in that community.
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neke od svojih najboljih prijatelja
u toj zajednici.
u toj zajednici.
05:06
In 2001,
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Godine 2001,
moja mama, koja se preselila
u San Francisko,
u San Francisko,
05:08
my mom, who had moved to San Francisco,
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05:11
called me and told me that my
green card petition came through,
green card petition came through,
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nazvala me je i rekla
da je moja molba za zelenu kartu prošla
da je moja molba za zelenu kartu prošla
05:14
that I could now move to the United States.
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i da mogu da se preselim u SAD.
05:18
I resisted it.
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Opirala sam se tome.
05:19
I told my mom, "Mom, I'm having fun.
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Rekla sam mami: "Mama, zabavljam se.
05:21
I'm here with my friends,
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Ovde sam sa prijateljima.
05:22
I love traveling, being a beauty pageant queen."
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Volim da putujem
i volim što sam misica."
i volim što sam misica."
05:26
But then two weeks later she called me, she said,
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Posle 2 nedelje ponovo me
je nazvala i rekla:
je nazvala i rekla:
05:29
"Did you know that if you move to the United States
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"Da li znaš da ako se preseliš u SAD,
05:31
you could change your name and gender marker?"
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mogla bi da promeniš ime i pol?"
05:35
That was all I needed to hear.
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To je bilo sve što sam trebala da čujem.
Mama mi je rekla da stavim dva slova "e"
05:38
My mom also told me to put two E's
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05:39
in the spelling of my name.
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u svoje ime.
05:42
She also came with me when I had my surgery
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Takođe je pošla sa mnom
kada sam išla na operaciju
kada sam išla na operaciju
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in Thailand at 19 years old.
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na Tajlandu sa 19 godina.
05:47
It's interesting, in some of the
most rural cities in Thailand,
most rural cities in Thailand,
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Zanimljivo je to da se u nekim
najruralnijim gradovima na Tajlandu
najruralnijim gradovima na Tajlandu
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they perform some of the most prestigious,
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vrše neke od najprestižnijih,
05:54
safe and sophisticated surgery.
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najsigurnijih
i najsofisticiranijih operacija.
i najsofisticiranijih operacija.
U to vreme u SAD-u
05:58
At that time in the United States,
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morao si prvo da odeš na operaciju
06:00
you needed to have surgery
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06:01
before you could change your
name and gender marker.
name and gender marker.
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pre nego što možeš
da promeniš svoje ime i rodnu pripadnost.
da promeniš svoje ime i rodnu pripadnost.
06:04
So in 2001, I moved to San Francisco,
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2001. preselila sam se u San Francisko
06:09
and I remember looking at
my California driver's license
my California driver's license
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i sećam se kako sam
gledala svoju vozačku dozvolu
gledala svoju vozačku dozvolu
06:13
with the name Geena
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na kojoj je pisalo Džina
06:15
and gender marker F.
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i pol Ž.
06:17
That was a powerful moment.
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To je bio moćan trenutak.
06:20
For some people,
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Za neke ljude
06:22
their I.D. is their license to drive
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njihova lična karta je dozvola za vožnju
06:24
or even to get a drink,
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ili čak konzumiranje alkohola,
06:26
but for me, that was my license to live,
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ali za mene je ona bila dozvola za život,
06:30
to feel dignified.
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za dostojanstvo.
06:32
All of a sudden, my fears were minimized.
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Odjednom, svi moji
strahovi su postali manji.
strahovi su postali manji.
06:35
I felt that I could conquer my dream
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Osećala sam da mogu
da ostvarim svoj san,
da ostvarim svoj san,
06:37
and move to New York and be a model.
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preselim se u Njujork i postanem model.
06:41
Many are not so fortunate.
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Mnogi nisu te sreće.
06:45
I think of this woman named Ayla Nettles.
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Mislim na jednu ženu
koja se zove Ajla Netls.
koja se zove Ajla Netls.
06:48
She's from New York, she's a young woman
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Iz Njujorka je i ona je mlada žena
06:50
who was courageously living her truth,
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koja je hrabro živela
prema svojoj istini,
prema svojoj istini,
06:53
but hatred ended her life.
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ali je mržnja okončala njen život.
06:56
For most of my community,
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Za većinu moje zajednice,
06:58
this is the reality in which we live.
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ovo je realnost u kojoj živimo.
07:01
Our suicide rate is nine times higher
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Naša stopa samoubistva je 9 puta viša
07:04
than that of the general population.
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u odnosu na generalnu populaciju.
07:06
Every November 20,
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Svakog 20. novembra
07:08
we have a global vigil
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imamo globalno bdenje
07:10
for Transgender Day of Remembrance.
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u spomen Dana transrodnosti.
07:14
I'm here at this stage
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Ja sam na ovoj bini
07:15
because it's a long history of people who fought
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zbog duge istorije borbe ljudi
07:18
and stood up for injustice.
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koji su se usprotivili nepravdi.
07:20
This is Marsha P. Johnson and Sylvia Rivera.
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Ovo su Marša P. Džonson
i Silvija Rivera.
i Silvija Rivera.
07:26
Today, this very moment,
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Danas, ovog trenutka,
07:28
is my real coming out.
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dešava se moje pravo razotkrivanje.
07:31
I could no longer live my truth
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Nisam više mogla da živim
prema svojoj istini
prema svojoj istini
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for and by myself.
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sama i za sebe.
07:37
I want to do my best to help others
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Želim da dam sve od sebe
da pomognem drugima
da pomognem drugima
07:39
live their truth without shame and terror.
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da žive prema njihovoj istini
bez srama i straha.
bez srama i straha.
07:44
I am here, exposed,
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Ja stojim ovde razotkrivena,
07:48
so that one day there will never be a need
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kako jednog dana više ne bi bilo potrebe
07:51
for a November 20 vigil.
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za bdenjem na 20. novembar.
07:55
My deepest truth allowed me to accept who I am.
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Moja najdublja istina mi je
dozvolila da prihvatim sebe.
dozvolila da prihvatim sebe.
08:01
Will you?
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Hoćete li i vi?
08:03
Thank you very much.
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Hvala mnogo.
08:05
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
08:08
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. (Applause)
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Hvala vam.
08:14
Kathryn Schulz: Geena, one quick question for you.
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Ketrin Šulc: Džina, jedno brzo pitanje.
08:16
I'm wondering what you would say,
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Pitam se šta bi rekla,
08:18
especially to parents,
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posebno roditeljima,
08:20
but in a more broad way, to friends,
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ali u širem kontekstu, prijateljima,
08:22
to family, to anyone who finds themselves
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porodicama, bilo kome
ko se susreće sa detetom ili osobom
08:24
encountering a child or a person
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08:26
who is struggling with and uncomfortable with
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koja se bori i kojoj ne odgovara
08:28
a gender that's being assigned them,
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rod koji im je dodeljen,
08:30
what might you say
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šta bi rekla
08:32
to the family members of that person
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članovima porodice te osobe
08:34
to help them become good and caring and kind
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kako bi im pomogla
da postanu dobri i brižni
da postanu dobri i brižni
08:36
family members to them?
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članovi porodice prema njima?
08:38
Geena Rocero: Sure. Well,
first, really, I'm so blessed.
first, really, I'm so blessed.
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Džina Rosero: Naravno.
Pre svega ja imam sreće.
Pre svega ja imam sreće.
08:40
The support system, with my mom especially,
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Sistem podrške, pogotovo uz moju mamu
08:43
and my family, that in itself
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i moju porodicu
08:45
is just so powerful.
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je jako snažan.
08:47
I remember every time I would coach
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Sećam se kada bih bila mentor
08:49
young trans women, I would mentor them,
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mladim transrodnim ženama,
08:52
and sometimes when they would call me
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one bi me ponekad nazvale
08:54
and tell me that their parents can't accept it,
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i rekle da ih njihovi roditelji
ne prihvataju,
ne prihvataju,
ja bih podigla slušalicu
i rekla svojoj mami:
i rekla svojoj mami:
08:56
I would pick up that phone call and tell my mom,
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"Mama, možeš li da nazoveš
ovu ženu?"
ovu ženu?"
08:58
"Mom, can you call this woman?"
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09:00
And sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't, so —
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Nekada bi to upalilo, nekada ne.
09:03
But it's just, gender identity
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Ali rodni identitet
09:07
is in the core of our being, right?
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je srž naše ličnosti, zar ne?
09:09
I mean, we're all assigned gender at birth,
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Svima nama je dodeljen pol
po rođenju
po rođenju
09:13
so what I'm trying to do
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i ono što ja pokušavam
09:15
is to have this conversation that
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je da argumentujem u razgovoru
09:17
sometimes that gender assignment doesn't match,
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da se nekada ta dodela pola ne poklapa
09:20
and there should be a space
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i da bi trebalo da postoji prostor
09:22
that would allow people to self-identify,
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koji će dozvoliti ljudima
da se sami identifikuju
da se sami identifikuju
i taj razgovor bi trebalo da vodimo
09:25
and that's a conversation that we should have
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09:27
with parents, with colleagues.
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sa roditeljima, kolegama.
09:30
The transgender movement,
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Transrodni pokret
09:31
it's at the very beginning,
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je u svom začeću
09:34
to compare to how the gay movement started.
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kada se uporedi sa
početkom gej pokreta.
početkom gej pokreta.
09:37
There's still a lot of work that needs to be done.
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Ima još puno toga da se uradi.
Treba da postoji razumevanje.
09:39
There should be an understanding.
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09:41
There should be a space of curiosity
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Treba da postoji prostor za radoznalost
09:43
and asking questions,
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i postavljanje pitanja
09:45
and I hope all of you guys will be my allies.
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i nadam se da ćete svi vi
biti moji saveznici.
biti moji saveznici.
09:48
KS: Thank you. That was so lovely.
GR: Thank you.
GR: Thank you.
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KŠ: Hvala. To je bilo divno.
DžR: Hvala
DžR: Hvala
09:50
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Geena Rocero - Model and activistGeena Rocero is a professional model for fashion and beauty companies around the world. And she uses her platform to share a powerful story.
Why you should listen
As Cameron Russell puts it, professional models are people who have won the genetic lottery, born with the DNA for long legs, great skin and dazzling smiles. The advertising industry presents these gorgeous folks as idealized versions of ourselves to sell us clothes, makeup, cars. But behind the fabulousness, there's always an interesting story.
Born in Manila, Geena Rocero moved to New York in 2005 to pursue a modeling career. Signed to Next Models, she has worked with Rimmel Cosmetics, Hanes, and many other fashion and beauty companies. Through her own experience into womanhood, she realized her bigger purpose in life was to share her journey and work towards justice and beauty.
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