TEDWomen 2017
Mwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa: Black life at the intersection of birth and death
溫蒂「自由昆西」卡提瓦: 黑人的性命在生死的十字路口
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詩人兼自由鬥士溫蒂「自由昆西」卡提瓦說：「藝術家的工作就是要發掘故事，即使人們試圖用自滿與時間的鏟子來埋藏它們。」在表演了她的詩《母親身分的喜悅》之後，卡提瓦探究了美國黑人母親的經驗，並討論黑命貴運動的影響，因為她認為兩者是不可分的。
Mwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa - Writer, youth worker, freedom fighter
Mwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa is a storyteller, a truth-teller, a builder and breaker trying to figure out what it means to be human in a world that removes so much of our humanity in order to survive. Full bio
Mwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa is a storyteller, a truth-teller, a builder and breaker trying to figure out what it means to be human in a world that removes so much of our humanity in order to survive. Full bio
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My name is Mwende Katwiwa
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我叫溫蒂卡提瓦，
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and I am a poet,
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我是詩人、
00:17
a Pan-Africanist
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泛非主義者，
00:18
and a freedom fighter.
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也是自由鬥士。
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I was 23 years old
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我 23 歲的時候，
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when I first heard
about Reproductive Justice.
about Reproductive Justice.
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第一次聽到生殖正義一詞。
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I was working at Women with a Vision,
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當時我在
Women with a Vision 工作，
Women with a Vision 工作，
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where I learned that Reproductive Justice
was defined by Sister Song as:
was defined by Sister Song as:
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在那裡，我得知生殖正義被
「Sister Song」定義為：
「Sister Song」定義為：
00:31
One: A woman's right to decide
if and when she will have a baby
if and when she will have a baby
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一：女人有權可以決定
是否要／何時想要生孩子，
是否要／何時想要生孩子，
00:36
and the conditions
under which she will give birth.
under which she will give birth.
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以及她想要在何種條件下生孩子。
00:38
Two: A woman's right
to decide if she will not have a baby
to decide if she will not have a baby
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二：女人有權決定
她是否不要生孩子，
她是否不要生孩子，
00:42
and her options for preventing
or ending a pregnancy.
or ending a pregnancy.
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且可以選擇避孕或墮胎。
00:45
And three: A woman's right
to parent the children she already has
to parent the children she already has
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三：女人有權在安全
且健康的環境中教養
且健康的環境中教養
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in safe and healthy environments
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她已經擁有的孩子，
00:51
without fear of violence
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且不用害怕來自他人
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from individuals or the government.
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或政府的暴力行為。
00:56
I've always wanted to be a mother.
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我一直想成為母親。
00:59
Growing up, I heard
all about the joys of motherhood.
all about the joys of motherhood.
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成長過程中，我聽到的
都是當媽媽的喜悅。
都是當媽媽的喜悅。
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I used to dream of watching my womb
weave wonder into this world.
weave wonder into this world.
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我以前會夢到看著我的子宮
將奇蹟帶到世界上。
將奇蹟帶到世界上。
01:07
See, I knew I was young.
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我知道我當時還年輕。
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But I figured,
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但我認為，
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it couldn't hurt to start planning
for something so big, so early.
for something so big, so early.
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這麼重大的事情，現在
早點開始規劃也沒有害處。
早點開始規劃也沒有害處。
01:15
But now,
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但現在，
01:17
I'm 26 years old.
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我 26 歲了。
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And I don't know if I have what it takes
to stomach motherhood in this country.
to stomach motherhood in this country.
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我不知道自己是否有足夠本事
承受在這個國家中當一名母親。
承受在這個國家中當一名母親。
01:23
See, over the years, America
has taught me more about parenting
has taught me more about parenting
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關於教養小孩，
這些年來美國所教我的，
這些年來美國所教我的，
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than any book on the subject.
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遠多於這方面的書籍。
01:28
It has taught me how some women
give birth to babies
give birth to babies
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美國教了我，
有些女人生的是寶寶，
有些女人生的是寶寶，
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and others to suspects.
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其他女人生的則是嫌疑犯。
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It has taught me
that this body will birth kin
that this body will birth kin
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美國教了我，
這樣的身體所生出的親人
這樣的身體所生出的親人
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who are more likely
to be held in prison cells
to be held in prison cells
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比較有可能被關進監獄，
01:38
than to hold college degrees.
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而非取得大學學位。
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There is something
about being Black in America
about being Black in America
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身為在美國的黑人，有一項特點，
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that has made motherhood seem
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會讓擔任母親這件事
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complicated.
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看上去很複雜。
01:49
Seem like,
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就像是，
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I don't know what to do
to raise my kids right
to raise my kids right
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我不知道如何才能
正確地撫養我的孩子，
正確地撫養我的孩子，
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and keep them alive.
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讓他們活下去。
01:54
Do I tell my son not to steal
because it is wrong,
because it is wrong,
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我要教導兒子不可偷竊
是因為它錯誤的？
是因為它錯誤的？
01:56
or because they will use it
to justify his death?
to justify his death?
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或因為別人可以
用偷竊之名來殺害他？
用偷竊之名來殺害他？
01:59
Do I tell him
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我該告訴他
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that even if he pays
for his Skittles and sweet tea
for his Skittles and sweet tea
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即使他買彩虹糖和甜茶時有付錢，
02:03
there will still be those
who will watch him
who will watch him
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還是會有人緊盯著他，
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and see a criminal before child;
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把他當罪犯而非小孩；
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who will call the police
and not wait for them to come.
and not wait for them to come.
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會叫警察，但不會等警察到來？
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Do I even want the police to come?
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我真的會希望警察來嗎？
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Too many Sean Bells go off in my head
when I consider calling 911.
when I consider calling 911.
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我考慮要不要報警時，
滿腦子都是貝爾槍擊案的事。
滿腦子都是貝爾槍擊案的事。
02:17
I will not take it for Oscar Grant-ed
that they will not come and kill my son.
that they will not come and kill my son.
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我不會認定他們一定不會像殺了
奧斯卡葛蘭特一樣殺了我兒子。
奧斯卡葛蘭特一樣殺了我兒子。
02:21
So, we may have gotten rid
of the nooses,
of the nooses,
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我們身上可能已經沒有了枷鎖，
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but I still consider it lynching
when they murder Black boys
when they murder Black boys
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但我仍認為他們在動私刑，
謀殺了黑人男孩，
並將遺體曝在太陽下四小時。
並將遺體曝在太陽下四小時。
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and leave their bodies
for four hours in the sun.
for four hours in the sun.
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02:30
As a historical reminder
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這是在提醒我們不要忘記歷史，
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that there is something
about being Black in America
about being Black in America
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在美國身為黑人，有一項特點，
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that has made motherhood sound
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會讓擔任母親這件事，
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like mourning.
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聽起來就像服喪。
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Sound like one morning I could wake up
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聽起來就像某天早晨我醒來，
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and see my son as a repeat
of last week's story.
of last week's story.
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看到上星期故事
再次發生在我兒子身上。
再次發生在我兒子身上。
02:44
Sound like I could wake up and realize
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聽起來就像是我可能起床醒來
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the death of my daughter
wouldn't even be newsworthy.
wouldn't even be newsworthy.
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就發現我女兒的死
甚至沒有新聞價值。
甚至沒有新聞價值。
02:49
So you can't tell me that Sandra Bland
is the only Black woman
is the only Black woman
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所以你不能告訴我，
受到暴力對待的黑人女性當中
受到暴力對待的黑人女性當中
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whose violence deserves
more than our silence.
more than our silence.
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只有珊卓布蘭達
應該讓我們打破沉默。
應該讓我們打破沉默。
02:55
What about our other
dark-skinned daughters in distress
dark-skinned daughters in distress
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那麼其他在痛苦中死去，
卻還沒被我們記得的
卻還沒被我們記得的
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whose deaths we have yet to remember?
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深色皮膚女兒們又該怎麼辦？
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What about our children
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那麼，那些人生不能完全符合
03:00
whose lives don't fit neatly
between the lives of your genders?
between the lives of your genders?
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大眾兩性標準的那些孩子
又該怎麼辦？
又該怎麼辦？
03:03
See, apparently,
nothing is a great protector
nothing is a great protector
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很顯然，如果你是從
像這樣的身體生出來的，
像這樣的身體生出來的，
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if you come out of a body
that looks like this.
that looks like this.
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你就無法得到很好的保護。
03:08
See, there is something
about being Black in America
about being Black in America
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身為在美國的黑人，有一項特點，
03:12
that has made motherhood sound
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會讓擔任母親這件事，聽起來
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like something I'm not sure
I look forward to.
I look forward to.
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像是我無法肯定
我會期待的一件事。
我會期待的一件事。
03:17
I've written too many poems
about dead Black children to be naïve
about dead Black children to be naïve
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我已經寫過太多首詩，
談到死去的黑人小孩有多天真，
談到死去的黑人小孩有多天真，
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about the fact that there could one day
be a poem written about my kids.
be a poem written about my kids.
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談到有天可能會有一首詩
內容是在描寫我的小孩。
內容是在描寫我的小孩。
03:28
But I do not want to be a mother
who gave birth to poems.
who gave birth to poems.
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但我不想當一個生出
「詩」的母親。
「詩」的母親。
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I do not want a stanza for a son
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我不想要有關於
一個兒子的一節詩，
一個兒子的一節詩，
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nor a line for a little girl
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或關於一個小女孩的一行句子，
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nor a footnote for a child
who doesn't fit into this world.
who doesn't fit into this world.
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或關於一個無法融入
這世界的孩子的一段註腳。
這世界的孩子的一段註腳。
03:40
No.
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不要。
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I do not want children
who will live forever
who will live forever
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我不希望孩子會永遠活在
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in the pages of poetry,
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詩集的頁面中，
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yet can't seem to outlive
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真正活在世界上的時間
卻沒有比我長。
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me.
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03:49
(Applause)
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（掌聲）
03:58
I was invited to the TEDWomen conference
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我受邀來 TEDWomen 大會，
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to perform a poem.
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是要來表演一首詩。
04:03
But for me, poetry is not
about art and performance.
about art and performance.
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但對我來說，詩的重點
不是藝術和表演。
不是藝術和表演。
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It is a form of protest.
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它是一種抗議的形式。
04:10
Yesterday,
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昨天，
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during rehearsal,
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彩排的時候，
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I was told that there had been
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有人告訴我最近有
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two to three recent TED Talks
about Black Lives Matter.
about Black Lives Matter.
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兩、三場 TED 近期演說的主題
和「黑人命也是命」運動有關。
和「黑人命也是命」運動有關。
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That maybe I should cut down my TED Talk
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說也許我可以刪減
一些我的演說內容，
一些我的演說內容，
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so it could "just" be
about Reproductive Justice.
about Reproductive Justice.
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讓演說變成「正好」
與生殖正義有關就好。
與生殖正義有關就好。
04:27
But that poem and this talk
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但那首詩和這場演說
04:29
is fundamentally about
my inability to separate the two.
my inability to separate the two.
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在根本上談的就是我無法
將這兩者區分開來。
將這兩者區分開來。
04:33
I was 21 years old --
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我 21 歲時——
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(Applause)
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（掌聲）
04:43
I was 21 years old
when Trayvon Martin was murdered.
when Trayvon Martin was murdered.
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我 21 歲時，發生了
特雷文馬丁謀殺案。
特雷文馬丁謀殺案。
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Trayvon Martin, a 17-year-old Black boy,
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特雷文馬丁是個
17 歲的黑人男孩，
17 歲的黑人男孩，
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a Black child,
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一個黑人小孩，
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reminded me
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他提醒了我，
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reminded us
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提醒了我們，
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how little this nation
actually values Black life.
actually values Black life.
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這個國家實際上有多麼
不珍視黑人的生命。
不珍視黑人的生命。
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The hashtag #BlackLivesMatter
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「# 黑人命也是命」這個標籤
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became the most recognized call
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成了最廣為人知的呼籲，
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for Black people and our children
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希望黑人和我們的小孩
05:07
to live in safe environments
and healthy communities
and healthy communities
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能在安全的環境
和健康的社區中生活，
和健康的社區中生活，
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without fear
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不必畏懼
05:11
from violence from individuals
or the state or government.
or the state or government.
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來自個人、國家，或政府的暴力。
05:15
Months later,
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幾個月後，
05:17
when George Zimmerman
was not held responsible
was not held responsible
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喬治季莫曼不用為
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for murdering Trayvon Martin,
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謀殺馬丁負責時，
05:21
I heard Sybrina Fulton,
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我聽到賽布琳娜佛爾頓，
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Trayvon Martin's mother, speak.
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即馬丁的母親，所說的話。
05:26
Her testimony so deeply impacted me
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她的證詞深深地衝擊了我，
05:29
that I found myself constantly asking,
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造成我自己時常在問，
05:32
what would it mean to mother
in the United Stated of America
in the United Stated of America
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在美國，母親擁有這種膚色，
05:35
in this skin?
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代表什麼意義？
05:37
What does motherhood really mean,
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母親身分真正的意義是什麼？
05:38
when for so many who look like me
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因為對於許多外表像我這樣的人，
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it is synonymous with mourning?
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母親身分就等同服喪。
05:45
Without realizing it,
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不知不覺間，
05:46
I had begun to link
the Reproductive Justice framework
the Reproductive Justice framework
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我就開始將生殖正義的架構
05:49
and the Movement for Black Lives.
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與「黑人命也是命」運動連結起來。
05:52
As I learned more
about Reproductive Justice
about Reproductive Justice
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隨著我在 Women With A Vision
05:54
at Women With A Vision,
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對於生殖正義有更多了解，
05:56
and as I continued to be active
in the Movement for Black Lives,
in the Movement for Black Lives,
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並隨著我持續進行
黑人命也是命相關活動，
黑人命也是命相關活動，
06:00
I found myself wanting others
to see and feel these similarities.
to see and feel these similarities.
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我越發現我自己希望他人
能看見並感受到這些相似之處。
能看見並感受到這些相似之處。
06:04
I found myself asking:
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我發現自己在問：
06:06
Whose job is it in times like this
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在這樣的時刻，該由誰將想法、
06:09
to connect ideas realities and people?
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現實，與人連結在一起？
06:14
I want to dedicate this talk and that poem
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我想將這場演講和那首詩
06:16
to Constance Malcolm.
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獻給康絲坦斯馬爾康。
06:19
She is the mother of Ramarley Graham
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她是拉馬利格拉漢的母親，
06:21
who was another Black child
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格拉漢是另一位命還不該絕
06:23
who was murdered before their time.
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卻被殺害的黑人孩童。
06:26
She reminded me once over dinner,
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她讓我想起，有次晚餐時，
06:28
as I was struggling to write that poem,
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我絞盡腦汁在寫那首詩，
06:30
that it is the artist's job
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藝術家的工作
06:32
to unearth stories that people try to bury
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就是要發掘故事，
即使人們試圖用
即使人們試圖用
06:34
with shovels of complacency and time.
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自滿與時間的鏟子來埋藏它們。
06:38
Recently,
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最近，
06:40
Toni Morrison wrote,
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托妮莫里森寫道：
06:42
"In times of dread,
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「在懼怕的時代，
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artists must never choose
to remain silent.
to remain silent.
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藝術家永遠不能選擇保持沈默。
06:47
There is no time for self-pity,
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沒有自憐的時間，
06:49
no room for fear."
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沒有恐懼的空間。」
06:52
Yesterday, during rehearsal,
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昨天，在彩排的時候，
06:54
when I was told that I should
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當有人告訴我說我應該
06:55
"maybe cut the Black Lives Matter
portion from my talk,"
portion from my talk,"
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「也許刪減一些我的演說中
關於黑人命也是命的內容」，
關於黑人命也是命的內容」，
06:59
I found myself fearful for a moment.
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我發現自己在那一瞬間感到害怕。
07:01
Fearful that again
our stories were being denied
our stories were being denied
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害怕我們的故事會再次被拒絕，
07:04
the very stages
they deserve to be told on.
they deserve to be told on.
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在應該要講述這些故事的
舞台上被拒絕。
舞台上被拒絕。
07:07
And then I remembered
the words I had just spoken.
the words I had just spoken.
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接著，我記起了我剛說的話。
07:11
"In times of dread,
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「在懼怕的時代，
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artists must never choose
to remain silent.
to remain silent.
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藝術家永遠不能選擇保持沈默。
07:17
There is no time for self-pity.
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沒有自憐的時間。」
07:19
(Applause)
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（掌聲）
07:27
There is no time for self-pity.
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「沒有自憐的時間。
07:30
And no room for fear."
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沒有恐懼的空間。」
07:32
And I have made my choice.
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而我已經做出了我的選擇。
07:34
And I am always choosing.
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我一直在選擇。
07:37
Thank you.
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謝謝。
07:38
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Mwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa - Writer, youth worker, freedom fighterMwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa is a storyteller, a truth-teller, a builder and breaker trying to figure out what it means to be human in a world that removes so much of our humanity in order to survive.
Why you should listen
Mwende "FreeQuency" Katwiwa is a Kenyan Queer Womyn speaker and performer. Katwiwa is an award-winning, internationally touring poet, author, host, youth worker, social-justice speaker, teaching artist and workshop leader who has spent her life at the intersection of arts, education and activism. Her work in Reproductive Justice, the Movement for Black Lives, LGBTQ+ advocacy and poetry have been featured on Upworthy, OkayAfrica, the New York Times, For Harriet, Everyday Feminism and more.
As a writer, Katwiwa has always centered storytelling as an avenue to create change and believes in "speaking things into existence." Her work is heavily influenced by her heritage and her pan-African upbringing, and centers "the other" and "the in between," places she has often found herself occupying as a black, queer immigrant and emigrant. Her experience of the power of words and stories to impact the lives of those sharing and receiving has pushed her to share and teach the craft as a tool of resistance and advocacy.
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