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Charity Tillemann-Dick - Soprano
Charity Tillemann-Dick is a soprano who has appeared on opera and concert stages around the world. Her roles have included Titania in "A Midsummer's Night Dream," Gilda in "Rigoletto" and Violetta in "La Traviata."

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Charity Sunshine Tillemann-Dick is an American-born soprano. She has performed across the United States, Europe, and Asia in venues as diverse as The Kennedy Center in Washington, DC; Severance Hall in Cleveland, Ohio; Il Giardino Di Boboli in Florence, Italy; The National Symphony Hall in Budapest, Hungary; The Tel Aviv Opera House in Israel; and the American Embassy in Beijing, China. She studied music at the Peabody Conservatory at Johns Hopkins University and the Liszt Academy of Music in Budapest.

She has collaborated and performed with noted conductors and musicians Bruno Rigacci, Joella Jones, Marvin Hamlisch, Bono, Zoltán Kocsis, Joan Dornemann, Eva Marton, and former Secretary of State Condoleeza Rice. Some of her operatic roles have included Titania in A Midsummer's Night Dream, Gilda in Rigoletto and Violetta in La Traviata. She has performed for presidents, prime ministers, members of Congress, and world dignitaries. Her performances have been broadcast around the world on the BBC, IRA, Bartok Radio, MTV, PBS and NPR.

Tillemann-Dick has served as the national spokesperson for the Pulmonary Hypertension Association, working to raise awareness, increase federal research funding, expand stem cell research, and promote preventative and alternative medicine.

 

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TEDMED 2010

Charity Tillemann-Dick: Singing after a double lung transplant

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You'll never sing again, said her doctor. But in a story from the very edge of medical possibility, operatic soprano Charity Tillemann-Dick tells a double story of survival -- of her body, from a double lung transplant, and of her spirit, fueled by an unwavering will to sing. A powerful story from TEDMED 2010.
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Charity Tillemann-Dick is a soprano who has appeared on opera and concert stages around the world. Her roles have included Titania in "A Midsummer's Night Dream," Gilda in "Rigoletto" and Violetta in "La Traviata." Full bio

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You may not know this,
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but you are celebrating an anniversary with me.
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I'm not married,
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but one year ago today,
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I woke up
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from a month-long coma,
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following a double lung transplant.
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Crazy, I know. Insane.
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Thank you.
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Six years before that,
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I was starting my career
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as an opera singer in Europe,
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when I was diagnosed with
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idiopathic pulmonary hypertension --
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also known as PH.
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It happens when there's a thickening
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in the pulmonary veins,
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making the right side of the heart
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work overtime,
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and causing what I call
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the reverse-Grinch effect.
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My heart was three-and-a-half sizes
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too big.
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Physical activity becomes very difficult
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for people with this condition,
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and usually after two to five years,
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you die.
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I went to see this specialist,
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and she was top-of-the-field
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and told me I had to stop singing.
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She said, "Those high notes are going to kill you."
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While she didn't have any medical evidence
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to back up her claim
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that there was a relationship
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between operatic arias
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and pulmonary hypertension,
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she was absolutely emphatic
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I was singing my own obituary.
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I was very limited by my condition, physically.
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But I was not limited when I sang,
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and as air came up from my lungs,
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through my vocal cords
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and passed my lips as sound,
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it was the closest thing I had ever come
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to transcendence.
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And just because of someone's hunch,
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I wasn't going to give it up.
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Thankfully, I met Reda Girgis,
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who is dry as toast,
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but he and his team at Johns Hopkins
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didn't just want me to survive,
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they wanted me
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to live a meaningful life.
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This meant making trade-offs.
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I come from Colorado.
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It's a mile high,
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and I grew up there with my 10 brothers and sisters
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and two adoring parents.
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Well, the altitude exacerbated my symptoms.
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So I moved to Baltimore to be near my doctors
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and enrolled in a conservatory nearby.
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I couldn't walk as much as I used to,
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so I opted for five-inch heels.
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And I gave up salt,
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I went vegan,
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and I started taking huge doses of
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sildenafil,
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also known as Viagra.
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(Laughter)
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My father and my grandfather were always looking for the newest thing
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in alternative or traditional therapies
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for PH,
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but after six months,
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I couldn't walk up a small hill. I couldn't climb a flight of stairs.
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I could barely stand up
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without feeling like I was going to faint.
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I had a heart catheterization,
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where they measure this internal arterial pulmonary pressure,
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which is supposed to be between 15 and 20.
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Mine was 146.
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I like to do things big,
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and it meant one thing:
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there is a big gun treatment
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for pulmonary hypertension called Flolan,
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and it's not just a drug;
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it's a way of life.
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Doctors insert a catheter into your chest,
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which is attached to a pump
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that weighs about four-and-a-half pounds.
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Every day, 24 hours, that pump is at your side,
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administering medicine
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directly to your heart,
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and it's not
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a particularly preferable
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medicine in many senses.
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This is a list of the side effects:
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if you eat too much salt,
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like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich,
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you'll probably end up in the ICU.
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If you go through a metal detector,
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you'll probably die.
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If you get a bubble in your medicine --
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because you have to mix it every morning --
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and it stays in there,
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you probably die.
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If you run out of medicine, you definitely die.
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No one wants to go on Flolan.
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But when I needed it,
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it was a godsend.
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Within a few days, I could walk again.
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Within a few weeks, I was performing,
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and in a few months,
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I debuted at the Kennedy Center.
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The pump was a little bit problematic when performing,
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so I'd attach it to my inner thigh
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with the help of the girdle and an ACE bandage.
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Literally hundreds of elevator rides
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were spent with me alone
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stuffing the pump into my Spanx,
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hoping the doors wouldn't open unexpectedly.
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And the tubing coming out of my chest
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was a nightmare for costume designers.
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I graduated from graduate school in 2006,
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and I got a fellowship to go back to Europe.
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A few days after arriving,
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I met this wonderful, old conductor
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who started casting me in all of these roles.
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And before long, I was commuting
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between Budapest, Milan
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and Florence.
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Though I was attached
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to this ugly, unwanted,
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high-maintenance, mechanical pet,
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my life was kind of like the happy part in an opera --
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very complicated,
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but in a good way.
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Then in February
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of 2008,
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my grandfather passed away.
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He was a big figure in all of our lives,
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and we loved him very much.
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It certainly didn't prepare me
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for what came next.
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Seven weeks later,
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I got a call from my family.
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My father had been in a catastrophic car accident,
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and he died.
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At 24, my death would have been
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entirely expected.
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But his --
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well, the only way I can articulate how it felt
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was that it precipitated
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my medical decline.
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Against my doctors' and family's wishes,
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I needed to go back for the funeral.
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I had to say goodbye
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in some way, shape or form.
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But soon I was showing signs of right-heart failure,
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and I had to return to sea level,
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doing so knowing
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that I probably would never see my home again.
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I canceled most of my engagements that summer,
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but I had one left in Tel Aviv, so I went.
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After one performance,
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I could barely drag myself
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from the stage to the taxicab.
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I sat down and felt the blood
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rush down from my face,
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and in the heat of the desert,
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I was freezing cold.
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My fingers started turning blue,
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and I was like, "What is going on here?"
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I heard my heart's valves
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snapping open and closed.
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The cab stopped,
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and I pulled my body from it
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feeling each ounce of weight
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as I walked to the elevator.
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I fell through my apartment door
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and crawled to the bathroom
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where I found my problem:
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I had forgotten to mix in
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the most important part of my medicine.
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I was dying,
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and if I didn't mix that stuff up fast,
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I would never leave that apartment alive.
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I started mixing,
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and I felt like everything was going to fall out through one hole or another,
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but I just kept on going.
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Finally, with the last bottle in and the last bubble out,
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I attached the pump to the tubing
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and lay there hoping it would kick in
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soon enough.
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If it didn't, I'd probably see my father
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sooner than I anticipated.
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Thankfully, in a few minutes,
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I saw the signature hive-like rash
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appear on my legs,
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which is a side effect of the medication,
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and I knew I'd be okay.
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We're not big on fear in my family,
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but I was scared.
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I went back to the States,
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anticipating I'd return to Europe,
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but the heart catheterization
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showed that I wasn't going anywhere
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further that a flight-for-life from Johns Hopkins Hospital.
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I performed here and there,
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but as my condition deteriorated,
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so did my voice.
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My doctor wanted me to get on the list for a lung transplant.
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I didn't.
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I had two friends who had recently died
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months after having very challenging surgeries.
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I knew another young man, though, who had PH
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who died while waiting for one.
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I wanted to live.
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I thought stem cells were a good option,
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but they hadn't developed to a point
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where I could take advantage of them yet.
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I officially took a break from singing,
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and I went to the Cleveland Clinic
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to be reevaluated
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for the third time in five years, for transplant.
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I was sitting there kind of unenthusiastically talking
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with the head transplant surgeon,
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and I asked him if I needed a transplant,
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what I could do to prepare.
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He said, "Be happy.
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A happy patient
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is a healthy patient."
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It was like in one verbal swoop
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he had channeled my thoughts
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on life and medicine
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and Confucius.
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I still didn't want a transplant,
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but in a month,
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I was back in the hospital
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with some severely edemic kankles --
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very attractive.
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And it was right-heart failure.
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I finally decided
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it was time to take my doctor's advice.
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It was time for me to go to Cleveland
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and to start the agonizing wait
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for a match.
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But the next morning,
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while I was still in the hospital,
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I got a telephone call.
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It was my doctor in Cleveland,
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Marie Budev.
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And they had lungs.
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It was a match.
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They were from Texas.
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And everybody was really happy for me,
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but me.
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Because, despite their problems,
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I had spent my whole life training my lungs,
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and I was not particularly enthusiastic
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about giving them up.
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I flew to Cleveland,
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and my family rushed there
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in hopes that they would meet me
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and say what we knew
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might be our final goodbye.
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But organs don't wait,
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and I went into surgery
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before I could say goodbye.
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The last thing I remember
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was lying on a white blanket,
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telling my surgeon that I needed to see my mother again,
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and to please try and save my voice.
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I fell into this apocalyptic dream world.
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During the thirteen-and-a-half-hour surgery,
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I flatlined twice,
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40 quarts of blood
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were infused into my body.
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And in my surgeon's 20-year career,
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he said it was among the most difficult transplants
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that he's ever performed.
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They left my chest open for two weeks.
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You could see my over-sized heart
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beating inside of it.
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I was on a dozen machines
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that were keeping me alive.
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An infection ravaged my skin.
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I had hoped my voice would be saved,
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but my doctors knew
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that the breathing tubes going down my throat
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might have already destroyed it.
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If they stayed in, there was no way I would ever sing again.
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So my doctor got the ENT,
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the top guy at the clinic, to come down
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and give me surgery
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to move the tubes around my voice box.
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He said it would kill me.
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So my own surgeon performed the procedure
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in a last-ditch attempt to save my voice.
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Though my mom couldn't say goodbye to me
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before the surgery,
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she didn't leave my side
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in the months of recovery that followed.
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And if you want an example
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of perseverance,
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grit and strength
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in a beautiful, little package,
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it is her.
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One year ago
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to this very day,
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I woke up.
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I was 95 lbs.
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There were a dozen tubes
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coming in and out of my body.
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I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk,
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I couldn't eat, I couldn't move,
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I certainly couldn't sing,
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I couldn't even breathe,
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but when I looked up
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and I saw my mother,
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I couldn't help but smile.
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Whether by a Mack truck
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or by heart failure
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or faulty lungs,
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death happens.
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But life isn't really just about avoiding death, is it?
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It's about living.
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Medical conditions don't negate the human condition.
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And when people are allowed
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to pursue their passions,
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doctors will find they have better,
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happier and healthier patients.
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My parents were totally stressed out
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about me going and auditioning
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and traveling and performing all over the place,
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but they knew that it was much better for me to do that
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than be preoccupied with my own mortality all of the time.
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And I'm so grateful they did.
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This past summer, when I was running and singing
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and dancing and playing with my nieces and my nephews
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and my brothers and my sisters and my mother and my grandmother
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in the Colorado Rockies,
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I couldn't help but think of that doctor
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who told me that I couldn't sing.
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And I wanted to tell her,
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and I want to tell you,
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we need to stop letting disease
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divorce us from our dreams.
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When we do,
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we will find that patients
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don't just survive;
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we thrive.
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And some of us
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might even sing.
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(Applause)
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[Singing: French]
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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Thank you.
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And I'd like to thank my pianist, Monica Lee.
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(Applause)
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Thank you so much.
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Thank you.
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Charity Tillemann-Dick - Soprano
Charity Tillemann-Dick is a soprano who has appeared on opera and concert stages around the world. Her roles have included Titania in "A Midsummer's Night Dream," Gilda in "Rigoletto" and Violetta in "La Traviata."

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Charity Sunshine Tillemann-Dick is an American-born soprano. She has performed across the United States, Europe, and Asia in venues as diverse as The Kennedy Center in Washington, DC; Severance Hall in Cleveland, Ohio; Il Giardino Di Boboli in Florence, Italy; The National Symphony Hall in Budapest, Hungary; The Tel Aviv Opera House in Israel; and the American Embassy in Beijing, China. She studied music at the Peabody Conservatory at Johns Hopkins University and the Liszt Academy of Music in Budapest.

She has collaborated and performed with noted conductors and musicians Bruno Rigacci, Joella Jones, Marvin Hamlisch, Bono, Zoltán Kocsis, Joan Dornemann, Eva Marton, and former Secretary of State Condoleeza Rice. Some of her operatic roles have included Titania in A Midsummer's Night Dream, Gilda in Rigoletto and Violetta in La Traviata. She has performed for presidents, prime ministers, members of Congress, and world dignitaries. Her performances have been broadcast around the world on the BBC, IRA, Bartok Radio, MTV, PBS and NPR.

Tillemann-Dick has served as the national spokesperson for the Pulmonary Hypertension Association, working to raise awareness, increase federal research funding, expand stem cell research, and promote preventative and alternative medicine.

 

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