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Ananda Shankar Jayant: Fighting cancer with dance
Ananda Shankar Jayant bojuje s rakovinou tancom
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Slávnej tanečnici klasických indických tancov Anande Shankar Jayant diagnostikovali rakovinu v roku 2008. Rozpráva svoj osobný príbeh nielen o tom, ako čelí chorobe, ale ako cez ňu tancuje, a ponúka predstavenie odhaľujúce metaforu sily, ktorá jej to pomohla zvládnuť.
Ananda Shankar Jayant - Dancer and choreographer
With precision and sparkling grace, Ananda Shankar Jayant performs and teaches the classical dance styles of Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi. Full bio
With precision and sparkling grace, Ananda Shankar Jayant performs and teaches the classical dance styles of Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi. Full bio
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[Sanskrit]
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[Sanskirt]
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This is an ode to the mother goddess,
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Toto je óda k matke bohyni,
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that most of us in India learn when we are children.
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ktorú sa väčšina z nás v Indii naučí ešte ako dieťa.
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I learned it when I was four
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Ja som sa ju naučila, keď som mala štyri roky,
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at my mother's knee.
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na kolenách mojej matky.
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That year she introduced me to dance,
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Ten rok mi predstavila tanec.
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and thus began
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A tak začala
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my tryst with classical dance.
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moja púť s klasickým tancom.
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Since then -- it's been four decades now --
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Odvtedy -- už sú to štyri desaťročia --
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I've trained with the best in the field,
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som cvičila z najlepšími v odbore,
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performed across the globe,
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vystupovala na celom svete,
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taught young and old alike,
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učila mladých a takisto starých,
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created, collaborated,
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tvorila, spolupracovala,
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choreographed,
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vytvárala choreografie
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and wove a rich tapestry
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a tkala pestrý gobelín
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of artistry, achievement and awards.
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umenia, dosahovania cieľov a ocenení.
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The crowning glory was in 2007,
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Korunujúci úspech bol v roku 2007,
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when I received this country's
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kedy som dostala
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fourth highest civilian award, the Padma Shri,
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štvrtú najvyššiu cenu pre občana tejto krajiny, Padmashri,
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for my contribution to art.
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za môj prínos umeniu.
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(Applause)
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But nothing, nothing prepared me
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Ale nič, nič z toho ma nepripravilo
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for what I was to hear
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na to, čo som mala počuť
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on the first of July 2008.
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prvého júla 2008.
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I heard the word "carcinoma."
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Počula som slovo "karcinóm".
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Yes, breast cancer.
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Áno, rakovina prsníka.
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As I sat dumbstruck in my doctor's office,
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Ako som sedela otrasená v ambulancii môjho doktora,
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I heard other words:
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počula som aj iné slová,
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"cancer," "stage," "grade."
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cancer - rakovina, stage - štádium, grade - rozsah.
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Until then, Cancer was the zodiac
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Dovtedy, cancer - rak bolo znamenie
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sign of my friend,
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zverokruhu mojej kamarátky,
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stage was what I performed on,
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stage - javisko bolo to, na čom som vystupovala,
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and grades were what I got in school.
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a grade - známky bolo to, čo som dostávala v škole.
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That day, I realized
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Ten deň som si uvedomila,
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I had an unwelcome, uninvited,
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že mám nevítaného, nepozvaného
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new life partner.
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nového životného partnera.
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As a dancer,
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Ako tanečnica
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I know the nine rasas or the navarasas:
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som poznala deväť rasas alebo navarasas:
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anger, valor,
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hnev, odvahu,
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disgust, humor
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zhnusenie, humor
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and fear.
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a strach.
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I thought I knew what fear was.
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Myslela som si, že viem, čo je strach.
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That day, I learned what fear was.
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V ten deň som sa naučila, čo je to strach.
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Overcome with the enormity of it all
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Premožená veľkosťou toho všetkého
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and the complete feeling of loss of control,
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a pocitom úplnej straty kontroly
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I shed copious tears
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som vyronila mnoho sĺz
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and asked my dear husband, Jayant.
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a pýtala som sa môjho drahého manžela, Jayanta.
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I said, "Is this it? Is this the end of the road?
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Povedala som: "Toto je ono? Toto je koniec cesty?
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Is this the end of my dance?"
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Toto je koniec môjho tanca?"
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And he, the positive soul that he is,
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A on, pozitívna duša, ktorou on je,
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said, "No, this is just a hiatus,
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povedal: "Nie, toto je len prestávka,
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a hiatus during the treatment,
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prestávka počas liečby,
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and you'll get back to doing what you do best."
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a vrátiš sa naspäť k tomu, čo robíš najlepšie."
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I realized then
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Vtedy som si uvedomila,
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that I, who thought I had complete control of my life,
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že ja, ktorá som si myslela, že mám úplnú kontrolu nad svojím životom,
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had control of only three things:
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som mohla kontrolovať len tri veci:
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My thought, my mind --
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moje myšlienky, moju myseľ -
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the images that these thoughts created --
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obrazy, ktoré tieto myšlienky vytvárali -
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and the action that derived from it.
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a akcie, ktoré z nich vyplývali.
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So here I was wallowing
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A tak som sa váľala
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in a vortex of emotions
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v záplave pocitov
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and depression and what have you,
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a depresie a toho, čo máte
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with the enormity of the situation,
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s rozsiahlosťou situácie,
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wanting to go to a place of healing, health and happiness.
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a chcela som odísť na miesto, kde sa rany hoja, na miesto zdravia a šťastia.
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I wanted to go from where I was
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Chcela som prejsť odtiaľ, kým som bola,
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to where I wanted to be,
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k tomu, čím som chcela byť
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for which I needed something.
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a k tomu som potrebovala niečo.
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I needed something that would pull me out of all this.
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Potrebovala som niečo, čo by ma vytiahlo z tohto všetkého.
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So I dried my tears,
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A tak som si vysušila slzy
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and I declared to the world at large ...
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a oznámila som celému svetu.
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I said, "Cancer's only one page in my life,
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Povedala som: "Rakovina je iba jedna stránka v mojom živote
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and I will not allow this page to impact the rest of my life."
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a ja nedovolím tejto stránke ovplyvniť zvyšok môjho života."
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I also declared to the world at large
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A tiež som oznámila celému svetu,
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that I would ride it out,
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že tým prejdem
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and I would not allow cancer to ride me.
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a nedovolím rakovine, aby ma riadila.
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But to go from where I was
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Ale aby so mohla prejsť odtiaľ, kým som bola,
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to where I wanted to be,
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k tomu, čím som chcela byť,
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I needed something.
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potrebovala som niečo.
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I needed an anchor, an image,
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Potrebovala som kotvu, obraz,
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a peg
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niečo
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to peg this process on,
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na upevnenie toho procesu,
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so that I could go from there.
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aby som odtiaľ mohla začať.
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And I found that in my dance,
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A našla som to v mojom tanci,
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my dance, my strength, my energy, my passion,
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mojom tanci, mojej sile, mojej energii, mojej vášni,
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my very life breath.
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môjho dychu života.
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But it wasn't easy.
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Ale nebolo to ľahké.
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Believe me, it definitely wasn't easy.
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Verte mi, vôbec to nebolo ľahké.
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How do you keep cheer
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Ako by ste zostali veselá,
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when you go from beautiful
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keď z krásnej ženy
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to bald in three days?
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po troch dňoch ostane holohlavá?
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How do you not despair
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Ako by ste nezúfali,
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when, with the body ravaged by chemotherapy,
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keď je, s telom zničeným z chemoterapie,
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climbing a mere flight of stairs was sheer torture,
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aj vyjsť pár schodov nič len trápenie,
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that to someone like me who could dance for three hours?
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keď ste predtým, tak ako ja, mohli tancovať tri hodiny?
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How do you not get overwhelmed
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Ako by ste neboli premožený
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by the despair and the misery of it all?
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zúfalstvom a utrpením toho celého?
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All I wanted to do was curl up and weep.
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Chcela som sa len schúliť a plakať.
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But I kept telling myself fear and tears
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Ale neprestávala som si vravieť, že strach a slzy
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are options I did not have.
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sú možnosťou, ktorú nemám.
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So I would drag myself into my dance studio --
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A tak som sa dotiahla do môjho tanečného štúdia,
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body, mind and spirit -- every day into my dance studio,
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telo, myseľ a duch, každý deň do môjho tanečného štúdia
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and learn everything I learned
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a učila som sa všetko, čo som sa naučila,
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when I was four, all over again,
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keď som mala štyri roky, všetko znova od začiatku
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reworked, relearned, regrouped.
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znova vypracované, znova naučené, znova zoskupené.
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It was excruciatingly painful, but I did it.
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Bolo to neznesiteľne bolestivé, ale urobila som to.
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Difficult.
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Náročné.
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I focused on my mudras,
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Zamerala som sa na moje mudras,
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on the imagery of my dance,
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na obraznosť môjho tanca,
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on the poetry and the metaphor
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na poéziu a na metaforu
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and the philosophy of the dance itself.
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a na filozofiu samotného tanca.
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And slowly, I moved out
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A pomaly som sa dostala
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of that miserable state of mind.
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z toho biedneho stavu mysle.
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But I needed something else.
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Ale potrebovala som niečo iné.
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I needed something to go that extra mile,
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Potrebovala som niečo, aby som prešla ďalšiu míľu.
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and I found it in that metaphor
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A našla som to v tej metafore,
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which I had learned from my mother when I was four.
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ktorú som sa naučila od svojej matky, keď som mala štyri roky.
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The metaphor of Mahishasura Mardhini,
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V metafore Mahishasura Mardhini,
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of Durga.
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o Durge.
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Durga, the mother goddess, the fearless one,
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Durga, matka bohyňa, nebojácna,
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created by the pantheon of Hindu gods.
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stvorená panteónom hindských bohov.
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Durga, resplendent, bedecked, beautiful,
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Durga, žiarivá, ozdobená, nádherná,
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her 18 arms
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jej 18 rúk
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ready for warfare,
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pripravených na vojnu,
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as she rode astride her lion
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ako sa viezla obkročmo na svojom levovi
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into the battlefield to destroy Mahishasur.
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na vojnové pole, aby zničila Mahishasur.
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Durga, the epitome
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Durga, stelesnenie
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of creative feminine energy,
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tvorivej ženskej energie
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or shakti.
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alebo shakti.
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Durga, the fearless one.
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Durga, nebojácna.
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I made that image of Durga
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Urobila som ten obraz Durgy
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and her every attribute, her every nuance,
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a každej jej vlastnosti, každého odtienku
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my very own.
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mojím vlastným.
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Powered by the symbology of a myth
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Posilnená symbolikou jej mýtu
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and the passion of my training,
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a vášňou môjho tréningu,
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I brought laser-sharp focus into my dance,
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priniesla som dokonalé sústredenie do môjho tanca.
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laser-sharp focus to such an extent
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Sústredenie takého rozsahu,
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that I danced a few weeks after surgery.
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že som tancovala niekoľko týždňov po operácii.
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I danced through chemo and radiation cycles,
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Pretancovala som chemoterapiu aj radiačné cykly,
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much to the dismay of my oncologist.
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na veľké zdesenie môjho onkológa.
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I danced between chemo and radiation cycles
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Tancovala som medzi sedeniami chemoterapie a rádioterapie
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and badgered him to fit it
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a trápila som môjho doktora, aby ich vtesnal
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to my performing dance schedule.
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do môjho rozvrhu tanečných vystúpení.
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What I had done
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Čo som spravila
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is I had tuned out of cancer
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bolo, že som vypla rakovinu
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and tuned into my dance.
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a naladila som sa na môj tanec.
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Yes, cancer has just been one page in my life.
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Áno, rakovina bola len jednou stránkou v mojom živote.
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My story
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Môj príbeh
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is a story of overcoming setbacks,
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je príbehom o prekonávaní neúspechu,
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obstacles and challenges
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prekážok a výziev,
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that life throws at you.
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ktoré na vás život hodí.
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My story is the power of thought.
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Môj príbeh je sila myšlienky.
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My story is the power of choice.
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Môj príbeh je sila voľby.
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It's the power of focus.
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Je sila sústredenia.
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It's the power of bringing ourselves
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Je sila donútiť seba samého
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to the attention of something that so animates you,
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dávať pozor na niečo, čo ťa tak poháňa,
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so moves you,
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čo tebou tak hýbe,
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that something even like cancer becomes insignificant.
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že aj niečo ako rakovina sa stane bezvýznamným.
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My story is the power of a metaphor.
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Môj príbeh je sila metafory.
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It's the power of an image.
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Je sila obrazu.
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Mine was that of Durga,
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Môj bol ten Durgin,
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Durga the fearless one.
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Durga, nebojácna.
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She was also called Simhanandini,
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Tiež ju volali Simhanandini,
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the one who rode the lion.
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tá, čo jazdila na levovi.
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As I ride out,
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Ako som tým prechádzala,
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as I ride my own inner strength,
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ako som riadila svoju vnútornú silu,
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my own inner resilience,
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svoju vnútornú ohybnosť,
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armed as I am with what medication can provide
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ozbrojená tak, ako ma vedeli ozbrojiť lieky
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and continue treatment,
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a pokračujúca liečba,
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as I ride out into the battlefield of cancer,
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ako som prichádzala na vojnové pole rakoviny,
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asking my rogue cells to behave,
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žiadajúc od mojich buniek, aby sa slušne správali,
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I want to be known not as a cancer survivor,
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chcela som, aby ma poznali nie ako tú, čo prežila rakovinu,
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but as a cancer conqueror.
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ale ako tú, čo porazila rakovinu.
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I present to you an excerpt of that work
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Predstavujem vám kúsok z tej práce
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"Simhanandini."
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"Simhanandani".
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(Applause)
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(Potlesk)
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(Music)
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(Hudba)
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(Applause)
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(Potlesk)
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Ananda Shankar Jayant - Dancer and choreographerWith precision and sparkling grace, Ananda Shankar Jayant performs and teaches the classical dance styles of Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi.
Why you should listen
Ananda Shankar Jayant is trained in two traditional forms of classical Indian dance, Bharatanatyam and Kuchipudi. Both forms require long training and precise timing to express their essence -- and both forms, in Shankar Jayant's hands, are capable of exploring deep truths.
As a choreographer and performer, she uses dance to talk about gender issues (as in 1999's What About Me?), mythology and philosophy, setting these carefully handed-down forms of dance onto a modern stage. She leads the Shankarananda Kalakshetra school in Hyderabad and Secunderabad, and is a scholar of dance and art, lecturing frequently on both throughout India.
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