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Leslie Morgan Steiner: Why domestic violence victims don't leave
Leslie Morgan Steiner: 為什麼家暴受害者不離開
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Leslie Morgan Steiner 曾經陷入「瘋狂之愛」－－和一位不停施暴和威脅她生命的男人陷入戀愛。Steiner 敘述了關於她感情的黑暗故事，矯正許多人對於家暴受害者的錯誤認知，並說明只要打破沉默，我們都可以幫助家暴受害者。（攝影於TEDxRainier）
Leslie Morgan Steiner - Writer
Leslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself. Full bio
Leslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself. Full bio
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00:16
I'm here today to talk about a disturbing question,
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我今天在這裡想談談一個令人不安的問題
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which has an equally disturbing answer.
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它有個同樣令人不安的答案
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My topic is the secrets of domestic violence,
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我的題目是家庭暴力的秘密
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and the question I'm going to tackle
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我將要談到的問題
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is the one question everyone always asks:
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每個人都在問：
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Why does she stay?
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為什麼她要繼續留著？
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Why would anyone stay with a man who beats her?
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為什麼會有人要留在打她的男人身邊?
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I'm not a psychiatrist, a social worker
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我不是心理學家、社工
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or an expert in domestic violence.
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或家庭暴力的專家
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I'm just one woman with a story to tell.
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我只是位有個故事可說的女性
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I was 22. I had just graduated from Harvard College.
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當年我22歲，剛從哈佛畢業
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I had moved to New York City for my first job
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我搬到紐約進行人生第一份工作
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as a writer and editor at Seventeen magazine.
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是Seventeen雜誌（青少年雜誌）的作家和編輯
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I had my first apartment,
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我擁有我第一間公寓
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my first little green American Express card,
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第一張信用卡
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and I had a very big secret.
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而且我個很大的秘密
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My secret was that I had this gun
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我的秘密是，我曾經被這支槍
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loaded with hollow-point bullets pointed at my head
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被我自認的靈魂伴侶
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by the man who I thought was my soulmate,
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裝進中空彈並瞄準我的頭部
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many, many times.
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很多、很多次
01:19
The man who I loved more than anybody on Earth
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我愛這個男人勝過地球上所有的人
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held a gun to my head and threatened to kill me
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但他拿著槍抵著我的頭，威脅說要殺我
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more times than I can even remember.
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次數多到我都數不清了
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I'm here to tell you the story of crazy love,
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我在這要告訴你「瘋狂之愛」的故事
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a psychological trap disguised as love,
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是心理的陷阱偽裝成愛
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one that millions of women and even a few men
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讓數百萬的女性甚至一些男性
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fall into every year.
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年年陷入不可自拔
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It may even be your story.
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這甚至可能也是你的故事
01:44
I don't look like a typical domestic violence survivor.
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我看起來不像一位典型的家暴生還者
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I have a B.A. in English from Harvard College,
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我擁有哈佛大學英文系的學士學位
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an MBA in marketing from Wharton Business School.
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華頓商學院的商業管理碩士學位
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I've spent most of my career working for Fortune 500 companies
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我幾乎都在世界前500大的公司工作
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including Johnson & Johnson, Leo Burnett and The Washington Post.
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包括強生、李奧貝納和華盛頓郵報
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I've been married for almost 20 years to my second husband
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我嫁給我第二任丈夫已快20年了
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and we have three kids together.
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我們有三個小孩
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My dog is a black lab, and I drive a Honda Odyssey minivan.
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有一隻黑拉不拉多犬
我開本田Odyssey小箱型車
我開本田Odyssey小箱型車
02:10
(Laughter)
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（笑聲）
02:12
So my first message for you is that domestic violence
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我要講的第一件事是
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happens to everyone --
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家庭暴力會發生在所有人身上
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all races, all religions, all income and education levels.
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所有種族、信仰、職業和教育程度
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It's everywhere.
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它無所不在
02:24
And my second message is that everyone thinks
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而我想讓大家思考的第二件事是
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domestic violence happens to women,
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大家都認為家庭暴力只發生在女性身上
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that it's a women's issue.
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是件女性議題
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Not exactly.
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其實並不然
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Over 85 percent of abusers are men, and domestic abuse
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超過百分之85的施暴者為男性
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happens only in intimate, interdependent, long-term relationships,
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而家庭暴力只發生在親密、相互依存且長期的關係中
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in other words, in families,
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換句話說，是在家庭內
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the last place we would want or expect to find violence,
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是我們最不希望、或期待看到暴力的地方
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which is one reason domestic abuse is so confusing.
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這也是家庭暴力令人困惑的地方
02:53
I would have told you myself that I was the last person on Earth
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我很想告訴你，我是世界上最不可能
02:57
who would stay with a man who beats me,
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在先生打我時還留在他身邊的人
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but in fact I was a very typical victim because of my age.
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但事實上，由於我的年紀，我是位典型的受害者
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I was 22, and in the United States,
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我當時22歲，而在美國
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women ages 16 to 24 are three times as likely
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16到24歲的女性成為家暴受害者的機率
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to be domestic violence victims
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是其它年紀的女性的三倍
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as women of other ages,
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是其他年紀的女性的三倍
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and over 500 women and girls this age
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這個年齡中，美國每年有超過500位的女性
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are killed every year by abusive partners,
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被暴力的伴侶、男朋友或丈夫殺害
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boyfriends, and husbands in the United States.
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被暴力的伴侶、男朋友或丈夫殺害
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I was also a very typical victim because I knew nothing
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我成為典型的受害者也因為
03:30
about domestic violence, its warning signs or its patterns.
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我對家庭暴力的警訊和模式一無所知
03:35
I met Conor on a cold, rainy January night.
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我在濕冷的一月夜晚遇見康納
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He sat next to me on the New York City subway,
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他在紐約地下鐵坐在我旁邊
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and he started chatting me up.
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並開始與我閒聊
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He told me two things.
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他告訴我兩件事
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One was that he, too, had just graduated from an Ivy League school,
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第一，他也才剛從長春藤盟校畢業
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and that he worked at a very impressive Wall Street bank.
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他在華爾街一家極知名的銀行上班
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But what made the biggest impression on me that first meeting
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但讓我在這第一次會面裡最印象深刻的是
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was that he was smart and funny
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他很聰明且幽默
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and he looked like a farm boy.
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他看起來很純樸
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He had these big cheeks, these big apple cheeks
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他有著圓通通的紅臉頰
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and this wheat-blond hair,
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褐黃色頭髮
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and he seemed so sweet.
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他看起來也很窩心
04:10
One of the smartest things Conor did, from the very beginning,
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從一開始，康納做得最聰明的一件事
04:14
was to create the illusion that I was the dominant partner in the relationship.
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是創造出一個假象
讓我成為這感情中的主導者
讓我成為這感情中的主導者
04:20
He did this especially at the beginning
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為達到這個目的，自一開始
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by idolizing me.
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他就特別的崇拜我
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We started dating, and he loved everything about me,
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我們開始約會，他喜歡我的一切
04:28
that I was smart, that I'd gone to Harvard,
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他覺得我很聰明、我讀過哈佛
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that I was passionate about helping teenage girls, and my job.
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我對於幫助青少年女性和工作都很有熱情
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He wanted to know everything about my family
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他想知道關於我家庭的一切
04:35
and my childhood and my hopes and dreams.
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我的童年，對未來的希望與夢想
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Conor believed in me, as a writer and a woman,
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身為一位作家和女性，康納對我的信任
是所有人中前所未有的
是所有人中前所未有的
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in a way that no one else ever had.
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身為一位作家和女性，康納對我的信任
是所有人中前所未有的
是所有人中前所未有的
04:45
And he also created a magical atmosphere of trust between us
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他也透過傾訴秘密
創造出一種彼此信任的神奇氛圍
創造出一種彼此信任的神奇氛圍
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by confessing his secret,
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他也透過傾訴秘密
創造出一種彼此信任的神奇氛圍
創造出一種彼此信任的神奇氛圍
04:52
which was that, as a very young boy starting at age four,
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他說他從很小，四歲開始
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he had been savagely and repeatedly physically abused
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他就被他的繼父狠毒地一再施暴
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by his stepfather,
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他就被他的繼父狠毒地一再施暴
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and the abuse had gotten so bad that he had had to drop out of school in eighth grade,
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這情況嚴重到他在八年級時必須輟學
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even though he was very smart,
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即使他很聰明
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and he'd spent almost 20 years rebuilding his life.
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他說他花了近20年重建人生
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Which is why that Ivy League degree
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這也是為什麼長春藤盟校
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and the Wall Street job and his bright shiny future
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華爾街的工作和前程似錦的未來
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meant so much to him.
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對他而言十分重要
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If you had told me
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如果當時有人告訴我
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that this smart, funny, sensitive man who adored me
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這位聰明、幽默、體貼並愛慕我的男人
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would one day dictate whether or not I wore makeup,
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有一天會主宰我是否要化妝
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how short my skirts were,
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穿多短的裙子
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where I lived, what jobs I took,
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住哪裡、做什麼工作
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who my friends were and where I spent Christmas,
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我的朋友是誰、我要在哪過聖誕節
05:39
I would have laughed at you,
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我會笑你
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because there was not a hint of violence or control
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因為從一開始
康納根本就沒有暴力、控制、或暴怒的跡象
康納根本就沒有暴力、控制、或暴怒的跡象
05:44
or anger in Conor at the beginning.
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因為從一開始
康納根本就沒有暴力、控制、或暴怒的跡象
康納根本就沒有暴力、控制、或暴怒的跡象
05:47
I didn't know that the first stage
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我並不曉得在任何家暴的第一步
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in any domestic violence relationship
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我並不曉得在任何家暴的第一步
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is to seduce and charm the victim.
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是要引誘並吸引受害者
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I also didn't know that the second step is to isolate the victim.
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我也不曉得第二步是要孤立受害者
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Now, Conor did not come home one day and announce,
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康納當然沒有突然某天回家宣布
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"You know, hey, all this Romeo and Juliet stuff has been great,
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"嘿！這場羅密歐與茱麗葉的戀愛很棒
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but I need to move into the next phase
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但我必須向下一步邁進
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where I isolate you and I abuse you" — (Laughter) —
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我必須孤立你並施暴於你"
（笑聲）
（笑聲）
06:15
"so I need to get you out of this apartment
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"所以我必須要讓你遷出這間公寓
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where the neighbors can hear you scream
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因為鄰居會聽見你的尖叫
06:18
and out of this city where you have friends and family
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也要搬出這城市，這樣你的朋友、家人和同事
06:20
and coworkers who can see the bruises."
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才看不到你身上的瘀青"
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Instead, Conor came home one Friday evening
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某周五晚上康納回家後
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and he told me that he had quit his job that day,
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告訴我他那天辭掉了他的夢想工作
06:30
his dream job,
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告訴我他那天辭掉了他的夢想工作
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and he said that he had quit his job because of me,
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他說他辭職是因為我的緣故
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because I had made him feel so safe and loved
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因為我讓他感到安全並且被愛
06:40
that he didn't need to prove himself on Wall Street anymore,
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他不需要再到華爾街去證明自己的能力
06:43
and he just wanted to get out of the city
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他只想要離開這個城市
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and away from his abusive, dysfunctional family,
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遠離他暴力的、不正常的原生家庭
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and move to a tiny town in New England
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搬到新英格蘭的小鎮
06:52
where he could start his life over with me by his side.
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在那裡與我一起開始他的新生活
06:55
Now, the last thing I wanted to do was leave New York,
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當時，我壓根不想搬離紐約並辭掉我的夢想工作
06:59
and my dream job,
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當時，我壓根不想搬離紐約並辭掉我的夢想工作
07:03
but I thought you made sacrifices for your soulmate,
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但我想，人會為了靈魂伴侶而做出犧牲
07:05
so I agreed, and I quit my job,
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所以我同意了，我辭掉我的工作
07:09
and Conor and I left Manhattan together.
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而康納和我一起離開曼哈頓
07:12
I had no idea I was falling into crazy love,
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我一點也不曉得我正陷入瘋狂之愛
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that I was walking headfirst into a carefully laid
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我正一頭栽進一個經過小心盤算
07:20
physical, financial and psychological trap.
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是身體、財務與心理的陷阱
07:25
The next step in the domestic violence pattern
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家庭暴力模式中的下一步
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is to introduce the threat of violence
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是引入暴力的威脅
07:31
and see how she reacts.
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並觀察女性的反應
07:33
And here's where those guns come in.
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槍就是在這時出現的
07:36
As soon as we moved to New England -- you know,
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當我們一搬到新英格蘭
07:39
that place where Connor was supposed to feel so safe --
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一個康納應該要感到十分安全的地方
07:42
he bought three guns.
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他買了三把槍
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He kept one in the glove compartment of our car.
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他把一把放在車子前側的置物櫃
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He kept one under the pillows on our bed,
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一把放在我們床上枕頭的下面
07:50
and the third one he kept in his pocket at all times.
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第三把放在口袋裡隨身攜帶
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And he said that he needed those guns
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他說他需要這些槍
07:56
because of the trauma he'd experienced as a young boy.
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是因為他童年時經歷的創傷
07:59
He needed them to feel protected.
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他需要它們才能感到受到保護
08:01
But those guns were really a message for me,
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但那些槍其實對我是件警訊
08:04
and even though he hadn't raised a hand to me,
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即使他從沒對我動手
08:07
my life was already in grave danger every minute of every day.
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每時每刻，我的生命已經充滿危機
08:12
Conor first physically attacked me
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康納第一次對我肢體攻擊
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five days before our wedding.
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是在婚禮前五天
08:19
It was 7 a.m. I still had on my nightgown.
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那時是早上7點，我還穿著睡衣
08:23
I was working on my computer trying to finish a freelance writing assignment,
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我在電腦前工作，試著完成一份寫作的案子
08:27
and I got frustrated,
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我那時有些沮喪
08:29
and Conor used my anger as an excuse
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康納拿我的憤怒做為藉口
08:32
to put both of his hands around my neck
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將他雙手掐住我的頸部
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and to squeeze so tightly that I could not breathe or scream,
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掐得很用力以至於我不能呼吸或尖叫
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and he used the chokehold
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他勒著我脖子
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to hit my head repeatedly against the wall.
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抓著我的頭去不斷撞牆
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Five days later, the ten bruises on my neck had just faded,
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五天後，我脖子上的十隻指印已散去
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and I put on my mother's wedding dress,
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我穿上我母親的婚紗
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and I married him.
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嫁給了他
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Despite what had happened,
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即使發生了那件事
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I was sure we were going to live happily ever after,
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我當時相信我們仍會過著幸福快樂的日子
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because I loved him, and he loved me so much.
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因為我愛他，他也深愛著我
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And he was very, very sorry.
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而且他也非常、非常後悔
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He had just been really stressed out by the wedding
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他只是因為婚禮和跟我共組家庭而備感壓力
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and by becoming a family with me.
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他只是因為婚禮和跟我共組家庭而備感壓力
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It was an isolated incident,
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這是單一個案
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and he was never going to hurt me again.
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他不會再傷害我
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It happened twice more on the honeymoon.
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這樣的事情在蜜月又發生了兩次
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The first time, I was driving to find a secret beach
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第一次，我正在開車找尋秘密海灘
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and I got lost,
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我迷路了
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and he punched me in the side of my head so hard
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他用力地揍我的側邊頭部
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that the other side of my head repeatedly hit
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用力到我另一邊的頭不斷的撞擊駕駛側的車窗
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the driver's side window.
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用力到我另一邊的頭不斷的撞擊駕駛側的車窗
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And then a few days later, driving home from our honeymoon,
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幾天之後，從蜜月開車回來時
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he got frustrated by traffic,
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他又因為塞車而生氣
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and he threw a cold Big Mac in my face.
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把冷掉的大麥克堡往我臉上丟
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Conor proceeded to beat me once or twice a week
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在我們接下來兩年半的婚姻中
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for the next two and a half years of our marriage.
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康納持續的以一週一或兩次的頻率打我
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I was mistaken in thinking that I was unique
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我當時誤以為我是特例並孤單無援
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and alone in this situation.
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我當時誤以為我是特例並孤單無援
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One in three American women
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三位美國女性的其中一位
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experiences domestic violence or stalking at some point in her life,
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在生命中會經歷過家暴或被跟蹤
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and the CDC reports that 15 million children
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疾管處的報告指出每年有1,500萬名兒童受虐
1,500萬名啊
1,500萬名啊
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are abused every year, 15 million.
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疾管處的報告指出每年有1,500萬名兒童受虐
1,500萬名啊
1,500萬名啊
10:10
So actually, I was in very good company.
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所以我其實並不孤單
10:14
Back to my question:
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回到我的問題
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Why did I stay?
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為何我仍然留下來?
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The answer is easy.
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答案很簡單
10:22
I didn't know he was abusing me.
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我並不知道他在對我施暴
10:24
Even though he held those loaded guns to my head,
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即使他拿著那些裝上子彈的槍對著我的頭
10:28
pushed me down stairs,
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把我推下樓梯
10:30
threatened to kill our dog,
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威脅要殺我們的狗
10:32
pulled the key out of the car ignition as I drove down the highway,
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在我開高速公路時把車鑰匙拔下
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poured coffee grinds on my head
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當我正在為工作面試而打扮時
10:38
as I dressed for a job interview,
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把咖啡渣倒在我頭上
10:40
I never once thought of myself as a battered wife.
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我從來不認為我是位受折磨的妻子
10:45
Instead, I was a very strong woman
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反而，我認為我是位堅強的女性
10:48
in love with a deeply troubled man,
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與一位大有問題的男人相愛
10:51
and I was the only person on Earth
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而我是世界上唯一可以幫助康納解決問題
回到正軌的人
回到正軌的人
10:53
who could help Conor face his demons.
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而我是世界上唯一可以幫助康納解決問題
回到正軌的人
回到正軌的人
10:56
The other question everybody asks is,
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另一個大家都會問的問題是
11:00
why doesn't she just leave?
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為什麼她不離開？
11:02
Why didn't I walk out? I could have left any time.
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為什麼我仍留著？我隨時都可以走啊
11:06
To me, this is the saddest and most painful question that people ask,
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對我而言，這是人們所問最令我最悲傷、痛苦的問題
11:11
because we victims know something you usually don't:
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因為我們受害者知道一些你們通常不了解的事：
11:14
It's incredibly dangerous to leave an abuser.
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離開施暴者是件非常危險的事
11:18
Because the final step in the domestic violence pattern
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因為家暴模式中的最後一步
11:22
is kill her.
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是殺害被害者
11:25
Over 70 percent of domestic violence murders
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超過百分之70的家暴謀殺案
11:27
happen after the victim has ended the relationship,
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發生在受害者決定結束雙方關係之後
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after she's gotten out,
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是在她離開之後
11:33
because then the abuser has nothing left to lose.
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因為加害者此時已無所顧忌
11:36
Other outcomes include long-term stalking,
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離開後另外的結果包括長期跟蹤
11:40
even after the abuser remarries;
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即使加害者已再婚
11:42
denial of financial resources;
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或斷絕財務資源
11:45
and manipulation of the family court system
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以及操弄家庭法庭制度
11:47
to terrify the victim and her children,
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讓被害者及其子女感到恐懼
11:50
who are regularly forced by family court judges
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因為家庭法官經常會強迫這些子女
11:55
to spend unsupervised time
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在沒有監控的情形下
11:57
with the man who beat their mother.
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與毆打他們母親的加害者共處
12:00
And still we ask, why doesn't she just leave?
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但我們仍然會問，為什麼她不離開？
12:05
I was able to leave,
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我最後終於離開
12:06
because of one final, sadistic beating
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是因為最後一場殘暴的毆打
12:09
that broke through my denial.
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讓我再也無法自我否認
12:12
I realized that the man who I loved so much
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我了解我若不採取手段
12:16
was going to kill me if I let him.
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這位我所深愛的男人將會殺害我
12:18
So I broke the silence.
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所以我打破沉默
12:21
I told everyone:
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我告訴所有人
12:24
the police, my neighbors,
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警察、鄰居
12:28
my friends and family, total strangers,
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朋友、家人和陌生人
12:31
and I'm here today because you all helped me.
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我現在之所以能在這裡，是因為你們都幫助過我
12:38
We tend to stereotype victims
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我們對受害者常有刻板印象
12:41
as grisly headlines,
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像是驚悚的頭條新聞
12:44
self-destructive women, damaged goods.
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自我毀滅性的女性或像被毀壞的物品
12:47
The question, "Why does she stay?"
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這個問題：為什麼她仍留著?
12:50
is code for some people for, "It's her fault for staying,"
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對某些人有這層含意：她留著是她的錯
12:56
as if victims intentionally choose to fall in love with men
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好像受害者故意選擇與意欲要傷害人的男人戀愛
12:59
intent upon destroying us.
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好像受害者故意選擇與意欲要傷害人的男人戀愛
13:02
But since publishing "Crazy Love,"
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但自從出版《瘋狂之愛》後
13:04
I have heard hundreds of stories from men and women
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我聽到了上百個男人或女人的故事
13:08
who also got out,
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他們也離開家暴
13:10
who learned an invaluable life lesson from what happened,
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從這件事中學到寶貴的生命教訓
13:15
and who rebuilt lives -- joyous, happy lives --
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並重建快樂、美滿的人生
13:19
as employees, wives and mothers,
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成為職員、妻子和母親
13:21
lives completely free of violence, like me.
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再也不受暴力威脅，像我一樣
13:26
Because it turns out that I'm actually a very typical domestic violence victim
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由於我是個典型的家暴受害者
13:30
and a typical domestic violence survivor.
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也是典型的家暴生還者
13:33
I remarried a kind and gentle man,
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我後來嫁給了一位善良且溫柔的男人
13:37
and we have those three kids.
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我們有三個小孩
13:40
I have that black lab, and I have that minivan.
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我有黑拉不拉多犬、和小廂型車
13:43
What I will never have again,
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而我再也不會碰上的
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ever,
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永遠不會
13:50
is a loaded gun held to my head
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是被嘴上說愛我的男人
拿著一把裝了子彈的槍並抵著我頭部
拿著一把裝了子彈的槍並抵著我頭部
13:52
by someone who says that he loves me.
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是被嘴上說愛我的男人
拿著一把裝了子彈的槍並抵著我頭部
拿著一把裝了子彈的槍並抵著我頭部
13:55
Right now, maybe you're thinking,
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現在，也許你在想
13:58
"Wow, this is fascinating,"
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"哇！好棒"
14:00
or, "Wow, how stupid was she,"
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或"哇！她以前真是愚蠢"
14:03
but this whole time, I've actually been talking about you.
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但自始至終，我其實是在說你
14:09
I promise you there are several people
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我向你保證，現在有許多的聽眾
14:12
listening to me right now
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我向你保證，現在有許多的聽眾
14:14
who are currently being abused
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正在被家暴
14:17
or who were abused as children
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或幼年曾經被施暴
14:20
or who are abusers themselves.
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或他們自己是施暴者
14:23
Abuse could be affecting your daughter,
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家暴可能正在影響你的女兒
14:25
your sister, your best friend right now.
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姊妹、最好的朋友
14:30
I was able to end my own crazy love story
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我以打破沉默來結束我瘋狂之愛的故事
14:34
by breaking the silence.
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我以打破沉默來結束我瘋狂之愛的故事
14:36
I'm still breaking the silence today.
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我至今仍然持續地打破沉默
14:39
It's my way of helping other victims,
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這是我幫助受害者的方式
14:42
and it's my final request of you.
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而這是我對你們的最後的要求
14:46
Talk about what you heard here.
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把你們今天聽到的故事告訴別人
14:49
Abuse thrives only in silence.
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沉默只會助長暴力
14:52
You have the power to end domestic violence
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若你能讓家暴曝光
14:56
simply by shining a spotlight on it.
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就有能力結束家暴
14:59
We victims need everyone.
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我們受害者需要每個人
15:02
We need every one of you to understand
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我們需要你們了解
15:06
the secrets of domestic violence.
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家庭暴力的秘密
15:10
Show abuse the light of day by talking about it
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透過談論家暴以讓大家了解
15:13
with your children, your coworkers,
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與你的孩子、同事
15:15
your friends and family.
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朋友和家庭談談
15:17
Recast survivors as wonderful, lovable people
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重新讓生還者有個美滿、討人喜愛的形象
15:20
with full futures.
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並有燦爛的未來
15:23
Recognize the early signs of violence
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了解家暴早期的徵兆
15:27
and conscientiously intervene,
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並持續地介入
15:30
deescalate it, show victims a safe way out.
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降低危險並讓受害者知道有安全離開的餘地
15:34
Together we can make our beds,
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若我們一起努力，可以讓我們的床
15:38
our dinner tables and our families
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晚餐桌和家庭
15:41
the safe and peaceful oases they should be.
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成為安全、安祥的綠洲
15:45
Thank you.
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謝謝
15:47
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Leslie Morgan Steiner - WriterLeslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself.
Why you should listen
Leslie Morgan Steiner is the author of Crazy Love, a memoir about her marriage to a man who routinely abused and threatened her. In it she describes the harrowing details that unfolded unexpectedly -- from the moment she met a warm, loving, infatuated man on the subway, to the moment he first laid a hand on her, when he grabbed her neck just days before their wedding. Steiner also edited Mommy Wars: Stay-at-Home and Career Moms Face Off on Their Choices, Their Lives, Their Families, a collection of essays by women struggling to balance motherhood and their careers.
Steiner received her MBA in marketing from Wharton School of Business and worked in marketing for Johnson & Johnson before transitioning to writing, as General Manager of the Washington Post Magazine. Steiner writes a weekly column called "Two Cents on Modern Motherhood," for the website Mommy Track’d, and she has just finished her third book, on the effect of fertility treatments on modern motherhood.
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