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Mike Cannon-Brookes is an entrepreneur, technology investor and passionate clean energy evangelist.

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Mike Cannon-Brookes is the cofounder and co-CEO of Atlassian, an Australian software company. Outside Atlassian, he is a technology investor in the areas of software, fintech, agriculture and energy and sits on the board of Zoox, a company that develops technology for self-driving cars. He cares deeply about giving back and sits on the board of Room to Read, a nonprofit organization dedicated to improving literacy and gender equality. A passionate clean energy evangelist, he was a driving force in the efforts for Australia to get the world's biggest lithium ion battery and continues to advocate for technology that benefits our environment.
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Mike Cannon-Brookes: How you can use impostor syndrome to your benefit

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Have you ever doubted your abilities, feared you were going to be discovered as a "fraud"? That's called "impostor syndrome," and you're definitely not alone in feeling it, says entrepreneur and CEO Mike Cannon-Brookes. In this funny, relatable talk, he shares how his own experiences of impostor syndrome helped pave the way to his success -- and shows how you can use it to your advantage, too.
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So I've experienced
a lot of success in my life.
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Over a decade ago,
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I started a business straight out of uni
with my mate, Scott.
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Now, having no prior business experience
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and not really any grand plan --
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in fact, our goals when we started were
not to have to get a real job
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(Laughter)
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and to not have to wear
a suit to work every day.
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Check and check.
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(Laughter)
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Today, we have thousands
of amazing employees,
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and millions of people use
our software around the planet.
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And technically, even outside the planet,
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if you count those that are currently
on their way to Mars.
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So you'd think that I know
what I'm doing every day
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when I go to work.
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Well, let me let you in on something:
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most days, I still feel like
I often don't know what I'm doing.
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I've felt that way for 15 years,
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and I've since learned that feeling
is called "impostor syndrome."
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Have you ever felt out of your depth,
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like a fraud,
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and just kind of guessed/bullshitted
your way through the situation --
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(Laughter)
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petrified that anytime,
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someone was going to call you on it?
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Well, I can think of many examples
where I felt like this.
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Interviewing our first HR manager,
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having never worked in a company
that had an HR department --
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(Laughter)
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terrified as I walked into the interview,
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thinking, "What am I going
to ask this person?"
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Or attending board meetings
in a T-shirt surrounded by suits,
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and acronyms are flying around,
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feeling like a five-year-old
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as I surreptitiously write
them down in my notebook,
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so I can look them up on Wikipedia
when I get home later.
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(Laughter)
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Or, in the early days,
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when people would call up
and ask for accounts payable,
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I would freeze and think, "Wait,
are they asking for money
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or giving it to us?"
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(Laughter)
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And I would cover the phone,
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cover the mouthpiece of the phone,
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and say, "Scott, you're in accounts,"
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and pass it across.
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(Laughter)
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We both did a lot of jobs back then.
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So for me, impostor syndrome is a feeling
of being well, well out of your depth,
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yet already entrenched in the situation.
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Internally, you know you're not
skilled enough, experienced enough
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or qualified enough
to justify being there,
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yet you are there,
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and you have to figure a way out,
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because you can't just get out.
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It's not a fear of failure,
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and it's not a fear
of being unable to do it.
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It's more a sensation
of getting away with something,
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a fear of being discovered,
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that at any time, someone
is going to figure this out.
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And if they did figure it out,
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you'd honestly think, "Well,
that's fair enough, actually."
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(Laughter)
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One of my favorite writers,
Neil Gaiman, put it so beautifully
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in a commencement address he gave
at a university, called "Make Good Art."
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I want to make sure
I get his quote correct.
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"I was convinced that there would be
a knock on the door,
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and a man with a clipboard would be there
to tell me that it was all over,
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that they'd caught up with me,
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and that I would now have to go
and get a real job."
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Now, when there's a knock on my door,
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I still feel like some sort of dark-suited
clipboard man is going to be there
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to tell me that my time is kind of up.
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And being a crap cook,
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I'm quite relieved when it's just
someone with a pizza for the kids.
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(Laughter)
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But it's important to note
that it's not all bad.
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There's a lot of goodness,
I think, in those feelings.
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And this isn't some sort of
motivational-poster type talk,
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a "Begin it now."
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It's more of an introspection into
my own experiences of impostor syndrome,
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and how I've tried
to learn to harness them
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and turn them into some sort
of a force for good.
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And a great example of those experiences
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is in the early days
of Atlassian's history.
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We were about four years old,
and we had about 70 employees.
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And at the advice of our auditors --
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most good stories start
with advice from an auditor --
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(Laughter)
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we entered the New South Wales
Entrepreneur of the Year competition.
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Now, we were surprised when we won
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the New South Wales
Entrepreneur of the Year
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in the young category
for entrepreneurs under 40.
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There were eight categories.
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And so surprised, in fact,
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having looked at the list of people
we were up against,
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I didn't even turn up
to the awards ceremony.
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So Scott collected the gong by himself.
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And then we traveled off
to the national awards.
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I thought I should probably
turn up to those.
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So we rented some suits,
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I invited a girl that I had just met --
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we'll get to her in a second --
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(Laughter)
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and off we went to the big black-tie gala.
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Now, our surprise turned to shock
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in the first award of the night,
the young category,
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when we beat all of the other states
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and won the Australian
Young Entrepreneur of the Year.
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When the shock had worn off,
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we got a lot of champagne to the table
and the party began,
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and the night was surely over.
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We were having a royally great time.
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Fast-forward to the last
award of the night,
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and our shock turned
into everybody's shock
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when we won the Australian
Entrepreneur of the Year
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against all of the other categories.
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Now, so shocked was
everybody else, in fact,
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that the announcer,
the CEO of Ernst and Young,
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opened the envelope,
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and the first words out of his mouth
were, "Oh my God."
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(Laughter)
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And then he reset himself
and announced that we had won.
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(Laughter)
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So we knew we were in way too deep.
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And from there,
the water got a lot deeper,
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because we jetted off to Monte Carlo
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to represent Australia
in the World Entrepreneur of the Year
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against 40 other different countries.
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Now, in another rented suit,
I was at one of the dinners
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and sitting next to a lovely man
called Belmiro de Azevedo,
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who was the winner from Portugal.
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Total champion.
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At 65, he had been running
his business for 40 years.
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He had 30,000 employees.
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Don't forget, at the time, we had 70.
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And he had four billion euro in turnover.
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And after a couple of wines,
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I remember admitting to him that I felt
that we did not deserve to be there,
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that we were well out of our depth,
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and at some time, someone
was going to figure this out
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and send us home to Australia.
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And he, I remember,
just paused and looked at me
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and said that he felt exactly the same way
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and that he suspected all the winners
were feeling that way,
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and that despite not knowing Scott or I
or really anything about technology,
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he said that we were obviously
doing something right
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and should probably just keep going.
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(Laughter)
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Now, this was a pretty big
light bulb moment for me for two reasons.
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One, I realized that
other people felt this as well.
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And two, I realized it doesn't go away
with any form of success.
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I had assumed that successful people
didn't feel like frauds,
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and I now know that the opposite
is more likely to be true.
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And this isn't just a feeling
that I have at work.
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It happens in my personal life, too.
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In the early days,
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I was flying back and forth
to San Francisco every week for Atlassian,
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and I racked up a lot
of frequent flyer points
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and got access to
the Qantas business lounge.
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Now, if there's ever a place
that I don't belong ...
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(Laughter)
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It doesn't help when I walk in and they
generally look at me in shorts and jeans,
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or jeans and a T-shirt, and say,
"Can I help you, son? Are you lost?"
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But anyway, sometimes life
happens in the Qantas lounge
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when you'd least expect it.
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One morning, over a decade ago,
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I was sitting there on
my regularly weekly commute,
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and a beautiful woman
from way out of my league
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walked into the Qantas lounge
and continued walking straight up to me
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in a case of mistaken identity.
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She thought I was someone else,
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so in this case, I actually
was an impostor.
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(Laughter)
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But rather than freeze
as I would have historically done
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or chivalrously maybe
informed her of her error,
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I just tried to keep
the conversation going.
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(Laughter)
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And classic Australian bullshit
became some sort of forward movement
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and a phone number.
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And I took that girl to the awards
ceremony a couple of months later.
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And more than a decade later,
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I'm incredibly happy
that she is now my wife,
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and we have four amazing
children together.
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(Applause)
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But you'd think that when
I wake up every morning,
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I wouldn't roll over and look at her
and think, "She's going to say,
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'Who are you, and who gave you
that side of the bed?'
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(Laughter)
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'Get out of here.'"
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But she doesn't.
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And I think she sometimes
feels the same way.
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And apparently, that's one of the reasons
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that we'll likely have
a successful marriage.
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You see, in researching this talk,
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I learned that one of the attributes
of the most successful relationships
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is when both partners
feel out of their league.
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They feel that their partner
is out of their league.
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They feel like impostors.
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And if they don't freeze,
and they're thankful,
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and they work harder and they stretch
to be the best partner they can,
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it's likely to be a very
successful relationship.
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So if you have this feeling, don't freeze.
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Try to keep the conversation going,
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even if she thinks that you're
somebody that you're not.
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Now, feeling like, or people
thinking I'm someone I'm not
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actually happens quite frequently.
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A great example from my more recent past,
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a few months ago, I was up
late at night with one of my kids,
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and I saw something on Twitter
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about Tesla saying that they could solve
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South Australia's rolling
series of power crises
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with one of their large
industrial batteries.
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Without thinking,
I fired off a bunch of tweets,
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challenging them and saying
were they really serious about this.
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And in doing so, I managed
to kick a very small rock
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off a very big hill
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that turned into an avalanche that I
found myself tumbling in the middle of.
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Because you see, a few hours later,
Elon tweeted me back and said
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that they were deadly serious,
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that within a hundred days
of contract signing,
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they could install
a 100-megawatt-hour facility,
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which is a giant battery
of a world-class size,
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one of the biggest
ever made on the planet.
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And that's when all hell
really broke loose.
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Within 24 hours, I had
every major media outlet
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texting and emailing and trying
to get in contact with me
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to get opinion as some sort of
"expert" in energy.
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(Laughter)
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Now, at the time, I couldn't really
have told you the difference
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between a one-and-a-half-volt AA battery
that goes in my kids' toys
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and a 100-megawatt-hour
industrial-scale battery facility
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that goes in South Australia
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that could potentially
solve their power crisis.
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I was now feeling a chronic case
of impostor syndrome,
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(Laughter)
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and it got truly bizarre.
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And I remember thinking to myself,
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"Shit. I've kind of started something here
and I can't really get out.
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If I abandon the situation,
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I'm going to sort of set back
renewables in Australia
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and maybe just look like a complete idiot
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because of my idiocy on Twitter."
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So I thought the only thing I could do
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was to try not to freeze
and to try to learn.
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So I spent a week
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trying to learn everything I could
about industrial-scale batteries
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and the electricity grid and renewables
and the economics of all of this
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and whether this was even
a feasible proposal.
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I talked to the chief scientist,
I talked to the CSRO,
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had multiple ministers and premiers
trying to give me their side of the story
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from both sides of the aisle.
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I managed to exchange
tweets with the prime minister.
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I even managed to pull off
a passing impression, let's say,
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of an energy expert on ABC Lateline.
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(Laughter)
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But as a result of all this,
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South Australia did put out
a battery tender,
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and they had more than 90 applications
for that battery tender.
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And the national conversation
over a period of a few months
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moved from the sort of theatrical
lumps of coal in the parliament
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to discussing kind of which
industrial-scale battery chemistry
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was the best for building
large-scale renewable batteries.
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So I think that the important lesson
is by that time in my life,
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I knew well that I was an impostor.
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I knew I was miles out of my depth.
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But instead of freezing,
I tried to learn as much as I could,
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motivated by my fear
of generally looking like an idiot,
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and tried to turn that
into some sort of a force for good.
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So one of the things I've learned
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is that people think successful people
don't feel like frauds.
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But I think, especially
knowing a lot of entrepreneurs,
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the opposite is more likely to be true.
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But the most successful people I know
don't question themselves,
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but they do heavily question,
regularly question, their ideas
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and their knowledge.
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They know when the water is way too deep,
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and they're not afraid to ask for advice.
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They don't see that as a bad thing.
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And they use that advice
to hone those ideas, to improve them
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and to learn.
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And it's OK to be
out of your depth sometimes.
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I'm frequently out of my depth.
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It's OK to be out of your depth.
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It's OK to be in a situation where
you just can't push the eject button,
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so long as you don't freeze,
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so long as you harness the situation,
don't be paralyzed
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and try to turn it into
some sort of a force for good.
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And it's important
that I say "harness" here,
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because this isn't sort of
pop-psychology BS
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about conquering impostor syndrome for me.
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It's merely about being aware of it.
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In fact, I'm extremely aware
of feeling like an impostor right now,
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as I'm up here, some sort of pseudo-expert
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on a feeling that I couldn't even
put a name to a few months ago,
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when I agreed to do this talk.
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Which, if you think about it,
is kind of the point, isn't it?
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(Laughter)
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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Translated by Joseph Geni
Reviewed by Camille Martínez

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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Mike Cannon-Brookes - Entrepreneur
Mike Cannon-Brookes is an entrepreneur, technology investor and passionate clean energy evangelist.

Why you should listen
Mike Cannon-Brookes is the cofounder and co-CEO of Atlassian, an Australian software company. Outside Atlassian, he is a technology investor in the areas of software, fintech, agriculture and energy and sits on the board of Zoox, a company that develops technology for self-driving cars. He cares deeply about giving back and sits on the board of Room to Read, a nonprofit organization dedicated to improving literacy and gender equality. A passionate clean energy evangelist, he was a driving force in the efforts for Australia to get the world's biggest lithium ion battery and continues to advocate for technology that benefits our environment.
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