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Julia Sweeney: Letting go of God
Julia Sweeney tentang melepaskan Tuhan
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Julia Sweeney (Tuhan bersabda, "Ha!") mempertontonkan 15 menit pertama dari pertunjukan solonya tahun 2006, "Melepaskan Tuhan." Suatu hari dua misionaris Mormon muda mengetuk pintu rumahnya dan memicu petualangan untuk memikirkan ulang seluruh kepercayaan yang diyakininya.
Julia Sweeney - Actor, comedian, playwright
Julia Sweeney creates comedic works that tackle deep issues: cancer, family, faith. Full bio
Julia Sweeney creates comedic works that tackle deep issues: cancer, family, faith. Full bio
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00:25
On September 10, the morning of my seventh birthday,
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Pada pagi 10 September, hari ulang tahun saya yang ke-7,
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I came downstairs to the kitchen, where my mother was washing the dishes
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saya berjalan menuju dapur; ibu sedang mencuci piring
00:32
and my father was reading the paper or something,
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dan ayah saya sedang membaca koran atau apapun itu,
00:35
and I sort of presented myself to them in the doorway, and they said,
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dan saya sengaja berdiri di depan pintu, dan mereka berkata,
00:38
"Hey, happy birthday!" And I said, "I'm seven."
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"Selamat ulang tahun." Saya menjawab, "Aku sudah 7 tahun."
00:43
And my father smiled and said,
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Ayah saya tersenyum dan berkata,
00:45
"Well, you know what that means, don't you?"
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"Kamu tahu artinya kan?"
00:47
And I said, "Yeah, that I'm going to have a party and a cake
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Lalu saya mengatakan, "Ya, akan ada pesta, kue,
00:50
and get a lot of presents?" And my dad said, "Well, yes.
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dan banyak hadiah untukku?" Dan ayah menjawab, "Iya.
00:54
But, more importantly, being seven means that you've reached the age of reason,
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Tapi yang lebih penting lagi, tujuh tahun berarti kamu sudah menginjak usia kebijaksanaan,
00:59
and you're now capable of committing any and all sins against God and man."
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dan semua dosa yang kamu lakukan akan dicatat oleh Tuhan sebagai dosamu."
01:03
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
01:06
Now, I had heard this phrase, "age of reason," before.
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Saya sudah pernah mendengar "usia kebijaksanaan" sebelumnya.
01:09
Sister Mary Kevin had been bandying it about
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Suster Mary Kevin sudah mengajarkannya
01:12
my second-grade class at school. But when she said it,
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saat kelas 2 di sekolah. Namun saat dia mengajarkan hal itu,
01:14
the phrase seemed all caught up in the excitement of preparations
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frasa itu lenyap ditelan keasyikan persiapan
01:17
for our first communion and our first confession,
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pengakuan dosa dan komuni pertama kami,
01:19
and everybody knew that was really all about the white dress and the white veil,
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dan semua hanya tahu itu berarti pakaian dan kerudung putih,
01:24
and anyway, I hadn't really paid all that much attention to that phrase, "age of reason."
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dan begitulah, saya tidak benar-benar memperhatikan frasa "usia kebijaksanaan" itu.
01:28
So, I said, "Yeah, yeah, age of reason. What does that mean again?"
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Sehingga saya mengatakan, "Ya, usia kebijaksanaan. Lalu apa artinya?"
01:33
And my dad said, "Well, we believe in the Catholic Church
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Ayah menjawab, "Begini, dalam Gereja Katolik kita percaya
01:36
that God knows that little kids don't know the difference between right and wrong,
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Tuhan tahu anak kecil tidak bisa membedakan benar dan salah,
01:40
but when you're seven, you're old enough to know better.
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tapi setelah usia 7 tahun, kamu sudah cukup besar untuk tahu.
01:42
So, you've grown up, and reached the age of reason, and now
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Jadi, kamu sudah dewasa dan mencapai usia kebijaksanaan,
01:46
God will start keeping notes on you and begin your permanent record."
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sekarang Tuhan akan mulai menulis dan menyimpan catatan kelakuanmu."
01:50
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
01:51
And I said, "Oh. Wait a minute. You mean all that time,
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Saya berkata, "Oh. Tunggu sebentar. Maksud ayah selama ini,
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up till today, all that time I was so good, God didn't notice it?"
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sampai sekarang, Tuhan tidak tahu kalau aku anak baik?"
02:04
And my mom said, "Well, I noticed it."
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Ibu saya mengatakan, "Ibu tahu kok."
02:07
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
02:09
And I thought, "How could I not have known this before?
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Saya berpikir, "Mengapa aku tidak tahu sebelumnya?
02:11
How could it not have sunk in when they'd been telling me?
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Mengapa mereka tidak pernah mengatakan ini sebelumnya?
02:13
All that being good and no real credit for it.
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Menjadi anak baik dan tidak ada gunanya.
02:16
And, worst of all, how could I not have realized this very important information
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Lebih buruk lagi, mengapa aku baru menyadari informasi penting ini
02:19
until the very day that it was basically useless to me?"
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saat sudah tidak berguna lagi untukku?"
02:23
So I said, "Well, Mom and Dad, what about Santa Claus?
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Lalu saya berkata, "Lalu, ayah, ibu, bagaimana dengan Sinterklas?
02:26
I mean, Santa Claus knows if you're naughty or nice, right?"
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Sinterklas tahu aku ini anak baik atau nakal, kan?"
02:30
And my dad said, "Yeah, but, honey,
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Ayah saya berkata, "Ya, tapi sayang,
02:32
I think that's technically just between Thanksgiving and Christmas."
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tapi hanya di saat antara Thanksgiving dan Natal."
02:35
And my mother said, "Oh, Bob, stop it. Let's just tell her.
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Ibu saya berkata, "Oh, Bob, hentikan. Kita katakan saja.
02:38
I mean, she's seven. Julie, there is no Santa Claus."
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Dia sudah tujuh tahun. Julie, Sinterklas itu tidak ada."
02:42
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
02:45
Now, this was actually not that upsetting to me.
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Itu sebenarnya tidak begitu membuat saya kecewa.
02:49
My parents had this whole elaborate story about Santa Claus:
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Orang tua saya pernah menjelaskan kisah ini tentang Sinterklas:
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how they had talked to Santa Claus himself and agreed
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bahwa mereka telah meminta Sinterklas
02:54
that instead of Santa delivering our presents over the night of Christmas Eve,
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untuk tidak mengantarkan hadiah kami di malam Natal
02:57
like he did for every other family
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seperti keluarga-keluarga lainnya
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who got to open their surprises first thing Christmas morning,
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yang akan mendapatkan kejutan mereka pada pagi harinya,
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our family would give Santa more time.
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keluarga kami menyediakan lebih banyak waktu kepada Sinterklas.
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Santa would come to our house while we were at nine o'clock high mass
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Sinterklas akan datang ke rumah kami saat misa jam 9 pagi
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on Christmas morning, but only if all of us kids did not make a fuss.
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di hari Natal, tapi hanya jika kami semua, anak-anak, tidak bertengkar.
03:12
Which made me very suspicious.
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Yang membuat saya curiga.
03:15
It was pretty obvious that it was really our parents giving us the presents.
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Cukup kentara kalau orang tua kamilah yang memberi hadiah.
03:19
I mean, my dad had a very distinctive wrapping style,
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Maksud saya, cara membungkus kado ayah saya sangat khas,
03:22
and my mother's handwriting was so close to Santa's.
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dan tulisan ibu saya mirip sekali dengan Sinterklas.
03:26
Plus, why would Santa save time by having to loop back
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Terlebih lagi, bagaimana Sinterklas menghemat waktu kalau dia harus kembali
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to our house after he'd gone to everybody else's?
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ke rumah kami setelah ke rumah semua orang?
03:31
There's only one obvious conclusion to reach from this mountain of evidence:
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Hanya ada satu kesimpulan jelas dari gunungan bukti ini:
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our family was too strange and weird
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keluarga kami terlalu ganjil dan aneh
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for even Santa Claus to come visit,
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untuk dikunjungi Sinterklas,
03:40
and my poor parents were trying to protect us from the embarrassment,
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dan orang tua saya yang malang mencoba melindungi kami dari rasa malu,
03:43
this humiliation of rejection by Santa, who was jolly --
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dari penghinaan karena Sinterklas yang periang itu menolak kami.
03:47
but, let's face it, he was also very judgmental.
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Walau pun, Sinterklas juga suka menghakimi.
03:50
So, to find out that there was no Santa Claus at all was actually sort of a relief.
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Jadi saya merasa lega setelah tahu bahwa sebenarnya Sinterklas itu tidak ada.
03:55
I left the kitchen not really in shock about Santa,
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Saat pergi dari dapur, saya tidak terkejut karena Sinterklas
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but rather I was just dumbfounded
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namun saya agak tercengang
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about how I could have missed this whole age of reason thing.
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tentang bagaimana saya melewatkan semua hal tentang usia kebijaksanaan ini.
04:03
It was too late for me, but maybe I could help someone else,
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Sudah terlambat untuk saya, namun mungkin saya dapat menolong yang lain,
04:06
someone who could use the information.
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seseorang yang dapat menggunakan informasi ini.
04:08
They had to fit two criteria:
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Mereka harus memenuhi dua syarat:
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they had to be old enough to be able to understand
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cukup besar untuk dapat mengerti
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the whole concept of the age of reason, and not yet seven.
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konsep usia kebijaksanaan ini, dan belum berusia 7 tahun.
04:16
The answer was clear: my brother Bill. He was six.
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Jawabannya jelas: adik saya Bill. Usianya 6 tahun.
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Well, I finally found Bill about a block away from our house
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Akhirnya saya menemukan Bill sekitar satu blok dari rumah kami
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at this public school playground. It was a Saturday,
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di tempat bermain sekolah. Saat itu hari Sabtu,
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and he was all by himself, just kicking a ball against the side of a wall.
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dan dia sendirian, sedang menendang bola ke tembok.
04:28
I ran up to him and said, "Bill!
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Saya mendatanginya dan berkata, "Bill,
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I just realized that the age of reason starts when you turn seven,
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aku baru tahu kalau usia kebijaksanaan dimulai pada usia 7 tahun,
04:33
and then you're capable of committing any and all sins
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dan baru sesudah itu dosa-dosamu akan dicatat
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against God and man." And Bill said, "So?" And then I said,
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oleh Tuhan." Dan Bill berkata, "Jadi?" Lalu saya menjawab,
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"So, you're six. You have a whole year to do anything you want to
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"Kamu baru 6 tahun. Masih tersisa setahun untuk melakukan apapun
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and God won't notice it." And he said, "So?" And I said,
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dan Tuhan tidak akan tahu." Dan dia berkata, "Jadi?" Dan saya menjawab
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"So? So everything!" And I turned to run. I was so angry with him.
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"Jadi? Semuanya!" Dan saya hendak berlari. Saya sangat marah padanya.
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But when I got to the top of the steps, I turned around dramatically
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Namun setelah menaiki tangga, saya langsung berbalik
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and said, "Oh, by the way, Bill, there is no Santa Claus."
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dan berkata, "Oh, Bill, Sinterklas itu tidak ada."
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
05:02
Now, I didn't know it at the time,
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Pada saat itu saya tidak tahu
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but I really wasn't turning seven on September 10.
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bahwa saya tidak benar-benar berulang tahun pada tanggal 10 September.
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For my 13th birthday, I planned a slumber party with all of my girlfriends,
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Untuk ulang tahun ke-13, saya merencanakan pesta piyama dengan beberapa teman perempuan saya,
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but a couple of weeks beforehand my mother took me aside and said,
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namun beberapa minggu sebelumnya, ibu saya datang dan mengatakan,
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"I need to speak to you privately.
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"Aku harus bicara pribadi denganmu.
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September 10 is not your birthday. It's October 10." And I said, "What?"
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Ulang tahunmu bukan 10 September, tapi 10 Oktober." Dan saya berkata, "Apa?"
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
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And she said, "Listen. The cut-off date to start kindergarten was September 15."
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Ibu mengatakan, "Dengar. Tanggal terakhir untuk bisa masuk TK adalah 15 September."
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
05:34
"So, I told them that your birthday was on September 10,
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"Jadi aku bilang kamu lahir tanggal 10 September,
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and then I wasn't sure that you weren't just going to go blab it all over the place,
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dan ibu tidak yakin kalau kamu bisa merahasiakan ini,
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so I started to tell you your birthday was September 10.
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jad ibu memberitahumu kalau kamu lahir tanggal 10 September.
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But, Julie, you were so ready to start school, honey. You were so ready."
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Tapi, Julie, kamu sudah siap bersekolah, sayang. Benar-benar sudah siap."
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I thought about it, and when I was four,
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Saya memikirkannya, saat saya berusia 4 tahun,
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I was already the oldest of four children,
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saya sudah menjadi anak sulung dari empat bersaudara,
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and my mother even had another child to come,
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dan ibu saya bahkan mengajak anak lainnya untuk datang
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so what I think she understandably really meant was that she was so ready,
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jadi saya rasa maksud sebenarnya adalah ibulah yang sangat siap,
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she was so ready. Then she said,
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dia sudah sangat siap. Lalu ibu berkata,
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"Don't worry, Julie, every year on October 10 when it was your birthday
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"Jangan takut, Julie, setiap tahun tanggal 10 Oktober saat hari ulang tahunmu
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but you didn't realize it, I made sure
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kamu tidak menyadarinya, ibu selalu
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that you ate a piece of cake that day."
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memberimu sepotong kue saat itu."
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
06:12
Which was comforting, but troubling.
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Yang cukup menghibur, namun mengganggu.
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My mother had been celebrating my birthday with me, without me.
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Ibu selalu merayakan ulang tahun saya, baik dengan saya atau pun tidak.
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What was so upsetting about this new piece of information
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Yang sangat mengecewakan tentang informasi baru ini
06:22
was not that I was going to have to change the date of my slumber party
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bukanlah saya harus mengubah tanggal pesta piyama
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with all of my girlfriends,
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bersama teman-teman perempuan saya,
06:26
what was most upsetting was that this meant that I was not a Virgo.
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apa yang paling mengecewakan adalah berarti saya tidak berbintang Virgo.
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I had a huge Virgo poster in my bedroom,
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Saya punya poster Virgo besar di kamar,
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and I read my horoscope every single day, and it was so totally me.
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dan saya membaca ramalan bintang setiap hari, dan sangat cocok.
06:38
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
06:40
And this meant that I was a Libra?
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Artinya saya berbintang Libra?
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So, I took the bus downtown to get the new Libra poster.
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Jadi saya pergi ke kota untuk membeli poster Libra.
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The Virgo poster is a picture of a beautiful woman with long hair,
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Poster Virgo adalah gambar wanita cantik berambut panjang
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sort of lounging by some water,
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yang sedang duduk ditemani air,
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but the Libra poster is just a huge scale.
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namun poster Libra hanyalah timbangan besar.
06:54
This was around the time that I started filling out physically,
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Saat itu badan saya mulai bertambah gemuk
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and I was filling out a lot more than a lot of the other girls,
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saya jauh lebih bertambah gemuk dibandingkan gadis-gadis lainnya,
06:59
and, frankly, the whole idea that my astrological sign was a scale
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dan sejujurnya, bintang saya yang berlambang timbangan
07:03
just seemed ominous and depressing.
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tampak menakutkan dan menyedihkan.
07:06
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
07:09
But I got the new Libra poster,
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Namun saya tetap membeli poster Libra
07:11
and I started to read my new Libra horoscope,
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dan mulai membaca ramalan bintang Libra
07:14
and I was astonished to find that it was also totally me.
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dan saya heran karena itu juga cocok dengan saya.
07:20
It wasn't until years later, looking back
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Namun bertahun-tahun kemudian, mengingat kembali
07:22
on this whole age-of-reason/change-of-birthday thing,
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semua tentang usia kebijaksanaan dan hari ulang tahun,
07:25
that it dawned on me: I wasn't turning seven
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saya tersadar, saya belum berusia 7 tahun
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when I thought I turned seven. I had a whole other month
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saat saya berpikir sudah 7 tahun. Saya memiliki sebulan penuh
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to do anything I wanted to before God started keeping tabs on me.
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untuk melakukan apapun yang saya mau sebelum Tuhan mulai mengawasi saya.
07:34
Oh, life can be so cruel.
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Oh, hidup ini sangat kejam.
07:38
One day, two Mormon missionaries came to my door.
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Suatu hari, dua misionaris Mormon datang ke rumah saya.
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Now, I just live off a main thoroughfare in Los Angeles,
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Saya tinggal di dekat sebuah jalan utama di Los Angeles,
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and my block is -- well, it's a natural beginning
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dan blok saya -- yah, tidak aneh kalau menjadi awal
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for people who are peddling things door to door.
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dari orang yang berjualan dari rumah ke rumah.
07:50
Sometimes I get little old ladies from the Seventh Day Adventist Church
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Pernah ada seorang wanita lanjut dari Gereja Masehi Advent Hari Ketujuh
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showing me these cartoon pictures of heaven.
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yang menunjukkan gambar-gambar kartun surga.
07:55
And sometimes I get teenagers who promise me that they won't join a gang
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Pernah juga ada remaja yang berjanji mereka tidak akan bergabung dengan geng
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and just start robbing people if I only buy
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dan merampok hanya jika saya
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some magazine subscriptions from them.
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berlangganan majalah dari mereka.
08:03
So, normally I just ignore the doorbell, but on this day I answered.
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Jadi biasanya saya tidak menghiraukan bunyi bel, namun hari itu saya menjawab.
08:08
And there stood two boys, each about 19,
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Di sana ada dua pemuda, kira-kira berusia 19 tahun
08:10
in white starched short-sleeved shirts, and they had little name tags
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memakai kemeja lengan pendek dengan tanda pengenal kecil
08:14
that identified them as official representatives
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yang menunjukkan mereka adalah perwakilan resmi
08:16
of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints,
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dari Gereja Yesus Kristus dari Orang-orang Suci Zaman Akhir
08:20
and they said they had a message for me from God.
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mereka berkata mereka membawa pesan dari Tuhan untuk saya.
08:23
I said, "A message for me? From God?" And they said, "Yes."
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Saya berkata, "Pesan untuk saya? Dari Tuhan?" Dan mereka menjawab, "Iya."
08:29
Now, I was raised in the Pacific Northwest,
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Saya dibesarkan di bagian Barat Laut Pasifik
08:31
around a lot of Church of Latter-day Saints people and, you know,
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di tengah banyak orang dari Gereja Yesus Kristus dari Orang-orang Suci Zaman Akhir.
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I've worked with them and even dated them,
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Saya bekerja bersama dan bahkan pernah mengencani salah satunya,
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but I never really knew the doctrine or what they said to people
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namun saya tidak pernah tahu doktrin atau apa yang mereka wartakan
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when they were out on a mission, and I guess I was, sort of, curious,
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saat mereka dalam misinya, dan saya rasa saya agak penasaran,
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so I said, "Well, please, come in." And they looked really happy,
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jadi saya berkata, "Masuklah." Dan mereka terlihat sangat senang,
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because I don't think this happens to them all that often.
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karena saya rasa hal itu tidak begitu sering terjadi.
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
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And I sat them down, and I got them glasses of water --
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Saya duduk dan menyuguhkan segelas air --
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OK, I got it. I got them glasses of water.
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Baik, tidak apa-apa, segelas air.
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Don't touch my hair, that's the thing.
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Jangan sentuh rambut saya, itu saja.
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
09:11
You can't put a video of myself in front of me
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Anda tidak mungkin memvideokan saya
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and expect me not to fix my hair.
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dan berharap saya tidak menata rambut saya dulu.
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OK. So I sat them down and I got them glasses of water,
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Baik. Jadi saya duduk dan menyuguhkan segelas air,
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and after niceties they said, "Do you believe that God loves you with all his heart?"
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setelah berbasa-basi mereka berkata, "Kamu percaya Tuhan mengasihimu dengan segenap hati-Nya?"
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And I thought, "Well, of course I believe in God,
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Saya pikir, "Sudah pasti saya percaya pada Tuhan,
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but, you know, I don't like that word, heart,
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namun saya tidak menyukai kata hati,
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because it anthropomorphizes God,
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karena itu memanusiakan Tuhan,
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and I don't like the word, 'his,' either, because that sexualizes God."
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dan saya tidak menyukai kata "nya" karena menganggap Tuhan punya jenis kelamin."
09:41
But I didn't want to argue semantics with these boys,
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Namun saya tidak mau beradu kata-kata dengan orang ini
09:44
so after a very long, uncomfortable pause, I said
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sehingga setelah lama terdiam, saya berkata
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"Yes, yes, I do. I feel very loved."
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"Ya. Saya merasa sangat dikasihi."
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And they looked at each other and smiled,
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Mereka saling menatap dan tersenyum
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like that was the right answer. And then they said,
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seperti itulah jawaban yang benar. Lalu mereka berkata,
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"Do you believe that we're all brothers and sisters on this planet?"
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"Apa kamu percaya bahwa kita semua di Bumi ini bersaudara?"
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And I said, "Yes, I do. Yes, I do." And I was so relieved
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Saya berkata, "Ya, saya percaya." Dan saya sangat lega
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that it was a question I could answer so quickly.
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karena pertanyaan itu dapat saya jawab dengan cepat.
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And they said, "Well, then we have a story to tell you."
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Lalu mereka berkata, "Begini, kami ingin menceritakan sesuatu."
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And they told me this story all about this guy named Lehi,
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Dan mereka bercerita tentang seorang pria bernama Lehi,
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who lived in Jerusalem in 600 BC.
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yang tinggal di Yerusalem pada tahun 600 SM.
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Now, apparently in Jerusalem in 600 BC,
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Tampaknya di Yerusalem pada tahun 600 SM,
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everyone was completely bad and evil. Every single one of them:
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semua orang benar-benar jahat dan kejam. Semua orang:
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man, woman, child, infant, fetus.
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pria, wanita, anak-anak, bayi, janin.
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And God came to Lehi and said to him, "Put your family on a boat
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Dan Tuhan mendatangi Lehi dan bersabda, "Bawalah keluargamu menuju sebuah perahu
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and I will lead you out of here." And God did lead them.
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dan Aku akan memimpinmu keluar dari sini." Dan Tuhan memimpin mereka.
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He led them to America.
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Dia membawa mereka ke Amerika.
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I said, "America? From Jerusalem to America by boat in 600 BC?"
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Saya berkata, "Amerika? Dari Yerusalem ke Amerika dengan perahu pada tahun 600 SM?"
10:40
And they said, "Yes."
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Dan mereka menjawab, "Iya."
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
10:44
Then they told me how Lehi and his descendants
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Lalu mereka bercerita bagaimana Lehi dan keturunannya
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reproduced and reproduced, and over the course of 600 years
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beranak cucu dan dalam waktu 600 tahun
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there were two great races of them, the Nephites and the Lamanites,
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muncullah dua ras yang hebat, bangsa Nefi dan bangsa Laman,
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and the Nephites were totally, totally good -- each and every one of them --
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bangsa Nefi sangat-sangat baik -- semuanya --
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and the Lamanites were totally bad and evil --
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dan bangsa Laman sangat jahat dan kejam --
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every single one of them just bad to the bone.
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semuanya jahat hingga merasuk ke tulang.
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(Laughter)
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Then, after Jesus died on the cross for our sins,
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Jadi, setelah Yesus wafat di kayu salib karena dosa-dosa kita,
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on his way up to heaven he stopped by America and visited the Nephites.
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saat Dia terangkat ke surga, Dia singgah di Amerika dan mengunjungi bangsa Nefi.
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(Laughter)
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And he told them that if they all remained totally, totally good --
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Dan Dia menyuruh mereka untuk tetap menjadi orang baik --
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each and every one of them --
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semuanya --
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they would win the war against the evil Lamanites.
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mereka akan memenangi pertempuran dengan bangsa Laman yang kejam.
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But apparently somebody blew it,
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Namun sepertinya ada yang mengacaukannya
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because the Lamanites were able to kill all the Nephites.
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karena bangsa Laman dapat membunuh semua bangsa Nefi.
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All but one guy, this guy named Mormon,
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Kecuali satu orang, yang bernama Mormon,
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who managed to survive by hiding in the woods.
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yang berhasil selamat dengan bersembunyi di hutan.
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And he made sure this whole story was written down
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Dan dia memastikan bahwa seluruh kisah ini tertulis
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in reformed Egyptian hieroglyphics chiseled onto gold plates,
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dalam huruf hieroglif Mesir baru yang diukir pada piringan emas
11:33
which he then buried near Palmyra, New York.
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yang dia kuburkan di dekat Palmyra, New York.
11:37
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
11:42
Well, I was just on the edge of my seat.
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Saya hampir terjatuh dari kursi.
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(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
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I said, "What happened to the Lamanites?"
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Saya berkata, "Lalu bagaimana dengan bangsa Laman?"
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And they said, "Well, they became our Native Americans here in the U.S."
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Dan mereka mengatakan, "Mereka adalah orang pribumi di Amerika Serikat."
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And I said, "So, you believe the Native Americans are descended
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Dan saya berkata, "Jadi kamu percaya orang pribumi Amerika adalah keturunan
11:58
from a people who were totally evil?" And they said, "Yes."
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dari orang yang benar-benar jahat?" Dan mereka menjawab, "Iya."
12:02
Then they told me how this guy named Joseph Smith
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Mereka lalu bercerita bagaimana pria bernama Joseph Smith
12:05
found those buried gold plates right in his backyard,
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menemukan piringan emas yang terkubur itu di halaman belakang rumahnya,
12:09
and he also found this magic stone back there that he put into his hat
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dan dia juga menemukan batu ajaib yang dia pasang di topinya
12:12
and then buried his face into, and this allowed him
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di mana dia bisa memasukkan kepalanya dan dia dapat
12:15
to translate the gold plates from the reformed Egyptian into English.
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menerjemahkan piringan emas itu dari bahasa Mesir kuno ke Inggris.
12:19
Well, at this point I just wanted to give these two boys
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Pada saat itu saya hanya ingin menasihati kedua pemuda itu
12:22
some advice about their pitch.
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tentang cara mereka berjualan.
12:24
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
12:27
I wanted to say, "OK, don't start with this story."
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Saya ingin mengatakan, "Jangan mulai dengan cerita yang ini."
12:34
I mean, even the Scientologists know to start with a personality test before they start --
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Maksud saya, bahkan ilmuwan juga tahu mereka harus melakukan tes kepribadian sebelum mulai --
12:39
(Applause)
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(Tepuk tangan)
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-- telling people all about Xenu, the evil intergalactic overlord.
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-- bercerita tentang Xenu, raja galaksi yang kejam.
12:46
Well, then they said, "Do you believe that God speaks to us
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Namun kemudian mereka berkata, "Kamu percaya bahwa Tuhan berbicara
12:48
through his righteous prophets?" And I said, "No, I don't."
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dengan perantara nabi yang tepat?" Dan saya menjawab, "Tidak."
12:51
Because I was, sort of, upset about this Lamanite story
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Karena saya agak kecewa dengan cerita bangsa Laman
12:53
and this crazy gold plate story, but the truth was,
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dan cerita gila tentang piringan emas ini, namun sebenarnya
12:56
I hadn't really thought this through, so I backpedaled a little and I said,
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saya belum memikirkan itu, jadi saya mundur sedikit dan berkata,
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"Well, what exactly do you mean by righteous?
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"Sebenarnya apa maksudnya dengan tepat?
13:03
And what do you mean by prophets? Like, could the prophets be women?"
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Dan apa maksudmu dengan nabi? Contohnya, mungkinkah nabi itu wanita?"
13:07
And they said, "No." And I said, "Why?" And they said,
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Dan mereka berkata, "Tidak." Dan saya bertanya, "Mengapa?" Dan mereka menjawab,
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"Well, it's because God gave women a gift that is so spectacular,
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"Karena Tuhan telah memberi karunia yang sangat luar biasa kepada wanita
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it is so wonderful, that the only gift he had left over to give men
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Sangat luar biasa, sehingga karunia yang tersisa untuk diberikan kepada pria
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was the gift of prophecy."
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adalah untuk bernubuat."
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What is this wonderful gift God gave women, I wondered?
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Apa karunia luar biasa dari Tuhan untuk wanita ini, saya penasaran.
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Maybe their greater ability to cooperate and adapt?
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Mungkin kemampuan untuk bekerja sama dan menyesuaikan diri?
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Women's longer lifespan? The fact that women tend to be
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Usia yang lebih panjang? Fakta di mana wanita cenderung
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much less violent than men? But, no, it wasn't any of these gifts.
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lebih lembut daripada pria? Bukan, itu bukanlah karunia seperti itu.
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They said, "Well, it's her ability to bear children."
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Mereka berkata, "Kemampuan wanita untuk melahirkan."
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I said, "Oh, come on. I mean, even if women tried to have a baby
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Saya menjawab, "Oh, ayolah, walaupun wanita mencoba melahirkan
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every single year from the time they were 15 to the time they were 45,
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setiap tahun dari usia 15 tahun sampai 45 tahun,
13:48
assuming they didn't die from exhaustion,
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dengan asumsi mereka tidak mati kelelahan,
13:50
it still seems like some women would have some time left over
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tampaknya beberapa wanita masih memiliki waktu yang tersisa
13:53
to hear the word of God." And they said, "No."
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untuk mendengar sabda Tuhan. Dan mereka menjawab, "Tidak."
13:57
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
14:00
Well, then they didn't look so fresh-faced and cute to me any more,
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Mereka tidak terlihat segar dan imut lagi bagi saya,
14:02
but they had more to say.
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namun masih ada lagi yang mereka bicarakan,
14:04
They said, "Well, we also believe that if you're a Mormon
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Mereka berkata, "Kami juga percaya jika kamu adalah Mormon
14:07
and if you're in good standing with the church, when you die
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dan prestasimu di gereja bagus, saat kamu meninggal
14:09
you get to go to heaven and be with your family for all eternity."
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kamu akan pergi ke surga dan bersama keluargamu selamanya."
14:14
And I said, "Oh, dear --
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Dan saya berkata, "Ya ampun --
14:16
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
14:23
-- that wouldn't be such a good incentive for me."
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-- itu dorongan yang benar-benar bagus untuk saya."
14:25
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
14:26
And they said, "Oh -- hey, well, we also believe
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Dan mereka mengatakan, "Oh -- kami juga percaya
14:31
that when you go to heaven you get your body restored
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saat kamu pergi ke surga, tubuhmu akan kembali
14:33
to you in its best original state.
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seperti semula.
14:36
Like, if you'd lost a leg, well, you get it back.
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Seperti, jika kakimu hilang, kamu akan mendapatkannya lagi.
14:38
Or, if you'd gone blind, you could see."
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Jika kamu buta, kamu akan bisa melihat."
14:40
I said, "Oh -- now, I don't have a uterus because I had cancer
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Saya berkata, "Oh -- sekarang saya tidak punya rahim karena kanker
14:44
a few years ago. So, does this mean that if I went to heaven
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beberapa tahun lalu. Jadi, apa itu artinya jika saya pergi ke surga
14:47
I would get my old uterus back?" And they said, "Sure."
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rahim saya akan kembali?" Dan mereka menjawab, "Tentu saja."
14:51
And I said, "I don't want it back. I'm happy without it." Gosh.
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Dan saya mengatakan, "Saya tidak mau. Saya senang rahim saya tidak ada." Astaga.
14:57
What if you had a nose job and you liked it?
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Bagaimana orang yang hidungnya dioperasi plastik dan merasa senang?
15:00
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
15:02
Would God force you to get your old nose back?
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Apa Tuhan akan memaksa hidung Anda kembali seperti semula?
15:05
Well, then they gave me this Book of Mormon,
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Kemudian mereka memberikan Kitab Mormon ini
15:07
and they told me to read this chapter and that chapter,
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dan menyuruh untuk membaca bab ini dan bab itu,
15:09
and they said they'd come back some day and check in on me,
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dan mereka berkata akan kembali suatu hari dan memeriksanya,
15:11
and I think I said something like, "Please don't hurry,"
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saya rasa saya mengatakan seperti, "Jangan cepat-cepat,"
15:13
or maybe it was just, "Please don't," and they were gone.
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atau mungkin, "Tidak usah," dan merekapun pergi.
15:17
OK, so, I initially felt really superior to these boys,
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Baik, jadi awalnya saya merasa hebat dibandingkan pemuda ini
15:20
and smug in my more conventional faith. But then,
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dan puas akan iman saya yang lebih konvensional. Namun
15:23
the more I thought about it, the more I had to be honest with myself.
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semakin saya memikirkannya, semakin saya harus jujur pada diri sendiri.
15:26
If someone came to my door and I was hearing Catholic theology
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Jika seseorang mengetuk rumah saya dan saya mendengar teologi Katolik
15:29
and dogma for the very first time, and they said,
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dan ajaran agama itu untuk pertama kalinya dan mereka berkata,
15:32
"We believe that God impregnated a very young girl
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"Kami percaya Tuhan membuat seorang gadis muda mengandung
15:35
without the use of intercourse,
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tanpa persetubuhan
15:37
and the fact that she was a virgin is maniacally important to us --
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dan fakta bahwa dia adalah perawan sungguh penting bagi kita --
15:40
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
15:41
-- and she had a baby, and that's the son of God,"
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-- dan dia melahirkan, dan anak itu adalah Putra Allah,"
15:44
I mean, I would think that's equally ridiculous.
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Maksud saya, saya akan merasa hal itu sama konyolnya.
15:47
I'm just so used to that story.
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Saya hanya terbiasa dengan kisah itu.
15:49
(Laughter)
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(Suara tawa)
15:50
So, I couldn't let myself feel condescending towards these boys.
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Jadi saya tidak bisa membiarkan diri saya merendahkan pemuda ini.
15:53
But the question they asked me when they first arrived
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Namun pertanyaan pertama mereka saat mereka datang
15:55
really stuck in my head:
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benar-benar teringat dalam kepala saya.
15:57
Did I believe that God loved me with all his heart?
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Apa saya percaya Tuhan mengasihi saya dengan segenap hati-Nya?
16:01
Because I wasn't exactly sure how I felt about that question.
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Karena saya tidak yakin tentang perasaan saya akan pertanyaan itu.
16:03
Now, if they'd asked me,
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Kalau mereka bertanya,
16:05
Do you feel that God loves you with all his heart?
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Apa kamu merasa Tuhan mengasihimu dengan segenap hati-Nya?
16:09
Well, that would have been much different, I think I would have instantly answered,
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Itu akan benar-benar sangat berbeda. Saya rasa saya akan langsung menjawab,
16:12
"Yes, yes, I feel it all the time. I feel God's love when I'm hurt and confused,
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"Ya, saya merasakannya setiap saat. Saya merasakan kasih Tuhan saat sedih dan bingung,
16:17
and I feel consoled and cared for. I take shelter in God's love
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saya merasa dihibur dan dijaga. Saya berlindung dalam kasih Tuhan
16:22
when I don't understand why tragedy hits,
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saat saya tidak tahu mengapa tragedi itu terjadi,
16:24
and I feel God's love when I look with gratitude at all the beauty I see."
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saya merasakan kasih Tuhan dengan penuh syukur pada semua keindahan yang saya lihat."
16:28
But since they asked me that question with the word believe in it,
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Namun karena mereka bertanya dengan kata "percaya,"
16:31
somehow it was all different,
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entah bagaimana terasa berbeda
16:33
because I wasn't exactly sure if I believed what I so clearly felt.
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karena saya tidak yakin jika saya percaya apa yang sungguh saya rasakan.
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Julia Sweeney - Actor, comedian, playwrightJulia Sweeney creates comedic works that tackle deep issues: cancer, family, faith.
Why you should listen
Julia Sweeney is a writer, director, actress, comedian and monologist. She is known for being a cast member on Saturday Night Live from 1990 to 1995, where she created and popularized the androgynous character, Pat. She is also well known for her comedic and dramatic monologues. God Said Ha! is a monologue about serious illness, her brother's lymphoma and her own cancer, and her family's crazy reactions to this crisis as they soldiered their way through struggle, confusion and death. This play was performed all over the U.S. and on Broadway at the Lyceum Theater. It was made into a film produced by Quentin Tarantino, and the comedy album from the show was nominated for a Grammy.
Sweeney's second monologue, In the Family Way, played in theatrical runs in New York and Los Angeles. It was ultimately fashioned into a book, a memoir titled If It's Not One Thing, It's Your Mother. Sweeney's third monologue, Letting Go of God, chronicled her journey from Catholicism to atheism. It was made into a film that played on Showtime.
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