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Eve Ensler: Suddenly, my body
Eve Ensler: Plutselig, kroppen min
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Poet, skribent, aktivist Eve Ensler levde i hodet sitt. I dette sterke foredraget fra TEDWomen, snakker hun om sin livslange adskilthet fra kroppen sin -- og hvordan to sjokkerende begivenheter hjalp henne å komme i kontakt med virkeligheten, kroppsligheten ved det å være menneske.
Eve Ensler - Playwright, activist
Eve Ensler created the ground-breaking "Vagina Monologues," whose success propelled her to found V-Day -- a movement to end violence against women and girls everywhere. Full bio
Eve Ensler created the ground-breaking "Vagina Monologues," whose success propelled her to found V-Day -- a movement to end violence against women and girls everywhere. Full bio
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For a long time,
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there was me, and my body.
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var det jeg og kroppen min.
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Me was composed of stories,
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Jeg var satt sammen av historier,
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of cravings, of strivings,
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lengsler, ambisjoner,
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of desires of the future.
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ønsker for fremtiden.
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Me was trying
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Jeg prøvde
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not to be an outcome of my violent past,
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å ikke være et resultat av min voldelige fortid,
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but the separation that had already occurred
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men skillet som allerede hadde oppstått
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between me and my body
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mellom meg og kroppen min
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was a pretty significant outcome.
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var et ganske betydelig resultat.
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Me was always trying to become something, somebody.
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Jeg prøvde hele tiden å bli noe, noen.
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Me only existed in the trying.
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Jeg eksisterte bare i å prøve.
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My body was often in the way.
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Kroppen min var ofte i veien.
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Me was a floating head.
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Jeg var et flytende hode.
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For years, I actually only wore hats.
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I mange år brukte jeg faktisk bare hatter.
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It was a way of keeping my head attached.
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Det var en måte å holde hodet mitt på plass.
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It was a way of locating myself.
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Det var en måte å lokalisere meg selv.
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I worried that [if] I took my hat off
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Jeg var bekymret for at hvis jeg tok hatten min av
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I wouldn't be here anymore.
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ville jeg ikke være her mer.
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I actually had a therapist who once said to me,
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Jeg hadde faktisk en terapaut som sa til meg en gang
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"Eve, you've been coming here for two years,
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"Eve, du har gått her i to år,
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and, to be honest, it never occurred to me that you had a body."
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og ærlig talt har det aldri falt meg inn at du har en kropp."
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All this time I lived in the city
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Hele denne tiden bodde jeg i byen
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because, to be honest,
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fordi, for å være ærlig
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I was afraid of trees.
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var jeg redd for trær.
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I never had babies
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Jeg fikk aldri barn
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because heads cannot give birth.
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fordi hoder kan ikke føde.
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Babies actually don't come out of your mouth.
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Babyer kommer faktisk ikke ut av munnen din.
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As I had no reference point for my body,
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Siden jeg ikke hadde noe referansepunkt for kroppen min
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I began to ask other women about their bodies --
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begynte jeg å spørre andre kvinner om deres kropper --
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in particular, their vaginas,
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spesielt deres vagina,
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because I thought vaginas were kind of important.
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fordi jeg trodde at vaginaer var viktige på en måte.
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This led to me writing "The Vagina Monologues,"
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Det førte til at jeg skrev "Vaginamonologene,"
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which led to me obsessively and incessantly
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som førte til at jeg som besatt og uten stans
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talking about vaginas everywhere I could.
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snakket om vaginaer hvor jeg kunne.
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I did this in front of many strangers.
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Jeg gjorde det foran mange fremmede.
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One night on stage,
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En kveld på scenen,
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I actually entered my vagina.
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gikk jeg faktisk inn i min vagina.
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It was an ecstatic experience.
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Det var en ekstatisk erfaring.
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It scared me, it energized me,
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Det skremte meg, det ga meg energi,
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and then I became a driven person,
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og så ble jeg som besatt,
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a driven vagina.
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en besatt vagina.
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I began to see my body like a thing,
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Jeg begynte å se kroppen min som en ting,
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a thing that could move fast,
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en ting som kunne bevege seg fort,
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like a thing that could accomplish other things,
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som en ting som kunne utføre andre ting,
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many things, all at once.
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mange ting på en gang.
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I began to see my body like an iPad or a car.
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Jeg begynte å se kroppen min som en iPad eller en bil.
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I would drive it and demand things from it.
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Jeg begynte å drive den og kreve ting av den.
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It had no limits. It was invincible.
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Den hadde ingen grenser. Den var uovervinnelig.
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It was to be conquered and mastered like the Earth herself.
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Den skulle erobres og mestres som jorden selv.
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I didn't heed it;
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Jeg aktet den ikke;
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no, I organized it and I directed it.
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nei, jeg organiserte den og styrte den.
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I didn't have patience for my body;
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Jeg hadde ikke tålmodighet for kroppen min;
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I snapped it into shape.
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jeg knakk den i form.
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I was greedy.
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Jeg var grådig.
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I took more than my body had to offer.
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Det krevde mer enn hva kroppen min hadde å tilby.
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If I was tired, I drank more espressos.
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Hvis jeg var trøtt, drakk jeg flere espressoer.
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If I was afraid, I went to more dangerous places.
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Hvis jeg var redd, gikk jeg til flere farlige steder.
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Oh sure, sure, I had moments of appreciation of my body,
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Og selvsagt hadde jeg øyeblikk hvor jeg satte pris på kroppen min,
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the way an abusive parent
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slik en overgripende forelder
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can sometimes have a moment of kindness.
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noen ganger har øyeblikk av godhet.
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My father was really kind to me
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Min far var virkelig snill mot meg,
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on my 16th birthday, for example.
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på min 16-årsdag for eksempel.
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I heard people murmur from time to time
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Jeg hørte folk mumle fra tid til annen
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that I should love my body,
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at jeg skulle elske kroppen min,
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so I learned how to do this.
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så jeg lærte hvordan man gjør det.
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I was a vegetarian, I was sober, I didn't smoke.
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Jeg var vegetarianer, jeg var edru, jeg røykte ikke.
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But all that was just a more sophisticated way
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Men alt det var bare en mer sofistikert måte
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to manipulate my body --
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å manipulere kroppen min på --
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a further disassociation,
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enda en disassosiering,
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like planting a vegetable field on a freeway.
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som å plante en grønnsaksflekk på motorveien.
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As a result of me talking so much about my vagina,
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Som et resultat av at jeg snakket så mye om vaginaen min,
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many women started to tell me about theirs --
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begynte mange kvinner å fortelle meg om sin --
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their stories about their bodies.
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deres historier om deres kropper.
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Actually, these stories compelled me around the world,
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Disse historiene førte meg verden rundt,
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and I've been to over 60 countries.
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og jeg har vært i over 60 land.
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I heard thousands of stories,
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Jeg hørte tusenvis av historier,
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and I have to tell you, there was always this moment
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og jeg må fortelle dere, det var alltid et øyeblikk
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where the women shared with me
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hvor kvinnene delte med meg
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that particular moment when she separated from her body --
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det bestemte øyeblikket hvor hun ble skilt fra kroppen sin --
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when she left home.
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da hun reiste hjemmefra.
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I heard about women being molested in their beds,
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Jeg hørte om kvinner som ble antastet i sine senger,
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flogged in their burqas,
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pisket i sine burkaer,
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left for dead in parking lots,
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etterlatt som døde på parkeringsplasser,
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acid burned in their kitchens.
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brent av syre i sine kjøkken.
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Some women became quiet and disappeared.
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Noen kvinner ble stille og forsvant.
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Other women became mad, driven machines like me.
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Andre kvinner ble gale, besatte maskiner slik som meg.
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In the middle of my traveling,
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Mens jeg holdt på med å reise
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I turned 40 and I began to hate my body,
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rundet jeg 40 og jeg begynte å hate kroppen min,
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which was actually progress,
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som faktisk var en fremgang,
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because at least my body existed enough to hate it.
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for i det minste eksisterte kroppen min nok til å hate den.
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Well my stomach -- it was my stomach I hated.
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Vel, magen -- det var magen min jeg hatet.
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It was proof that I had not measured up,
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Den beviste at jeg ikke holdt mål,
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that I was old and not fabulous and not perfect
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at jeg var gammel og ikke fabelaktig og ikke perfekt
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or able to fit into the predetermined corporate image in shape.
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eller i stand til å passe inn i det forutbestemte forretningsidealet i fasong.
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My stomach was proof that I had failed,
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Magen min var et bevis på at jeg hadde sviktet,
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that it had failed me, that it was broken.
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at den hadde sviktet meg, at den var ødelagt.
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My life became about getting rid of it and obsessing about getting rid of it.
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Livet mitt dreide seg om å bli kvitt den og være besatt av å skulle bli kvitt den.
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In fact, it became so extreme
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Det ble rett og slett så ekstremt
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I wrote a play about it.
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at jeg skrev et teaterstykke om det.
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But the more I talked about it,
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Men jo mer jeg snakket om det,
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the more objectified and fragmented my body became.
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jo mer objektifisert og fragmentert ble kroppen min.
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It became entertainment; it became a new kind of commodity,
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Den ble underholdning, den ble en ny type vare,
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something I was selling.
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noe som jeg kunne selge.
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Then I went somewhere else.
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Så dro jeg et annet sted.
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I went outside
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Jeg gikk utenfor
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what I thought I knew.
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det jeg trodde jeg visste.
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I went to the Democratic Republic of Congo.
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Jeg reiste til Den demokratiske republikken Kongo.
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And I heard stories
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Og jeg hørte historier
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that shattered all the other stories.
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som sprengte alle andre historier.
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I heard stories
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Jeg hørte historier
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that got inside my body.
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som trengte seg inn i kroppen min.
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I heard about a little girl
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Jeg hørte om en liten jente
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who couldn't stop peeing on herself
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som ustanselig tisset på seg
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because so many grown soldiers
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fordi så mange voksne soldater
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had shoved themselves inside her.
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hadde presset seg inn i henne.
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I heard an 80-year-old woman
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Jeg hørte en 80 år gammel dame
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whose legs were broken and pulled out of her sockets
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som fikk beina brukket og trukket ut av ledd
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and twisted up on her head
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og vridd opp over hodet hennes
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as the soldiers raped her like that.
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mens soldatene voldtok henne som det.
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There are thousands of these stories,
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Det er tusenvis av disse historiene,
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and many of the women had holes in their bodies --
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og mange av kvinnene hadde hull i kroppene sine --
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holes, fistula --
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hull, fistula --
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that were the violation of war --
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som var krigsbrudd --
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holes in the fabric of their souls.
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hull i sjelens stoff.
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These stories saturated my cells and nerves,
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Disse historiene gjennomtrengte mine celler og nerver,
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and to be honest,
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og for å være ærlig
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I stopped sleeping for three years.
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sluttet jeg å sove i en periode på tre år.
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All the stories began to bleed together.
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Alle historiene begynte å smelte sammen.
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The raping of the Earth,
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Voldtekten av jorden,
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the pillaging of minerals,
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plyndringen av mineraler,
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the destruction of vaginas --
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ødeleggelsen av vaginaer --
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none of these were separate anymore
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ingen av disse var separate lenger
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from each other or me.
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ikke skilt fra hverandre eller meg.
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Militias were raping six-month-old babies
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Militser voldtok seks måneder gamle babyer
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so that countries far away
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slik at land langt borte
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could get access to gold and coltan
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kunne få tilgang til gull og koltan
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for their iPhones and computers.
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til sine iPhones og pc-er.
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My body had not only become a driven machine,
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Kroppen min hadde ikke bare blitt en besatt maskin,
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but it was responsible now
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men den var ansvarlig nå
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for destroying other women's bodies
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for å ødelegge andre kvinners kropper
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in its mad quest to make more machines
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i sin gale søken etter å lage flere maskiner
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to support the speed and efficiency of my machine.
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for å hjelpe hastigheten og effektiviteten til min maskin.
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Then I got cancer --
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Så fikk jeg kreft --
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or I found out I had cancer.
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eller jeg fant ut at jeg hadde kreft.
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It arrived like a speeding bird
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Det kom som en fugl i flukt
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smashing into a windowpane.
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som kræsjer i et vindu.
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Suddenly, I had a body,
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Plutselig hadde jeg en kropp,
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a body that was pricked
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en kropp som ble prikket
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and poked and punctured,
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og pirket på og punktert,
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a body that was cut wide open,
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en kropp som ble skåret opp,
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a body that had organs removed
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en kropp som fikk fjernet organer
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and transported and rearranged and reconstructed,
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og transportert og omarrangert og rekonstruert,
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a body that was scanned
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en kropp som ble skannet
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and had tubes shoved down it,
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og fikk rør stukket ned i seg,
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a body that was burning from chemicals.
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en kropp som brant av kjemikalier.
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Cancer exploded
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Kreften sprengte
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the wall of my disconnection.
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min vegg av adskillelse.
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I suddenly understood that the crisis in my body
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Jeg forsto plutselig at krisen i kroppen min
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was the crisis in the world,
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var krisen i verden,
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and it wasn't happening later,
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og det skjedde ikke senere,
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it was happening now.
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det skjedde nå.
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Suddenly, my cancer was a cancer that was everywhere,
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Plutselig var min kreft en kreft som var overalt,
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the cancer of cruelty, the cancer of greed,
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grusomhetens kreft, grådighetens kreft,
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the cancer that gets inside people
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kreften som trenger inn i folk
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who live down the streets from chemical plants -- and they're usually poor --
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som lever i nærheten av kjemisk industri -- og de er vanligvis fattige --
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the cancer inside the coal miner's lungs,
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kreften i kullgraveres lunger,
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the cancer of stress for not achieving enough,
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kreften av stress for å ikke oppnå nok,
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the cancer of buried trauma,
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kreften av skjulte traumer,
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the cancer in caged chickens and polluted fish,
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kreften av burhøns og forurenset fisk,
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the cancer in women's uteruses from being raped,
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kreften i kvinners uterus fra voldtekt,
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the cancer that is everywhere from our carelessness.
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kreften som er overalt på grunn av vår skjødesløshet.
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In his new and visionary book,
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I sin nye og visjonære bok,
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"New Self, New World,"
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"Nytt selv, ny verden,"
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the writer Philip Shepherd says,
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sier forfatteren Philip Shepherd,
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"If you are divided from your body,
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"Hvis du er skilt fra kroppen din,
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you are also divided from the body of the world,
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er du også skilt fra verden,
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which then appears to be other than you
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som da synes å være annet enn deg
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or separate from you,
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eller atskilt fra deg,
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rather than the living continuum
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i stedet for det levende kontinuum
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to which you belong."
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som du tilhører."
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Before cancer,
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Før kreft
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the world was something other.
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var verden noe annet.
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It was as if I was living in a stagnant pool
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Det var som om jeg levde i en stillestående pøl
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and cancer dynamited the boulder
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og kreften sprengte demningen
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that was separating me from the larger sea.
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som skilte meg fra havet.
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Now I am swimming in it.
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Nå svømmer jeg i det.
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Now I lay down in the grass
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Nå legger jeg meg ned i gresset
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and I rub my body in it,
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og jeg gnir kroppen i det,
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and I love the mud on my legs and feet.
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og jeg elsker gjørmen på beina og føttene mine.
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Now I make a daily pilgrimage
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Nå gjør jeg en daglig pilgrimsferd
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to visit a particular weeping willow by the Seine,
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for å besøke en bestemt sørgepil ved elven Seinen,
08:13
and I hunger for the green fields
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og jeg hungrer etter de grønne enger
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in the bush outside Bukavu.
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i villmarken utenfor Bukavu [Kongo].
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And when it rains hard rain,
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Og når det regner tungt
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I scream and I run in circles.
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skriker jeg og løper i sirkler.
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I know that everything is connected,
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Jeg vet at alt henger sammen,
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and the scar that runs the length of my torso
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og arret som går over hele overkroppen min
08:29
is the markings of the earthquake.
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er merket etter et jordskjelv.
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And I am there with the three million in the streets of Port-au-Prince.
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Og jeg er der med de tre millionene på gata i Port-au-Prince.
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And the fire that burned in me
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on day three through six of chemo
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på dag tre av seks med kjemoterapi
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is the fire that is burning
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er ilden som brenner
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in the forests of the world.
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i verdens skoger.
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I know that the abscess
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that grew around my wound after the operation,
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som vokste rundt såret mitt etter operasjonen,
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the 16 ounces of puss,
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en halv liter med puss,
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is the contaminated Gulf of Mexico,
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er den forurensede Mexicogulfen,
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and there were oil-drenched pelicans inside me
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og det var oljestenkede pelikaner inne i meg
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and dead floating fish.
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og døde flytende fisk.
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And the catheters they shoved into me without proper medication
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Og kateterene som de stakk inn i meg uten skikkelig medisinering
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made me scream out
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fikk meg til å skrike ut
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the way the Earth cries out from the drilling.
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som jorden skriker av boring.
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In my second chemo,
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my mother got very sick
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ble moren min veldig syk
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and I went to see her.
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og jeg dro for å besøke henne.
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And in the name of connectedness,
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the only thing she wanted before she died
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var det eneste hun ønsket før hun døde
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was to be brought home
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å få komme hjem
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by her beloved Gulf of Mexico.
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ved hennes elskede Meksikogulf.
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So we brought her home,
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Så vi tok henne hjem
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and I prayed that the oil wouldn't wash up on her beach
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og jeg ba om at olje ikke måtte vaske opp på hennes strand
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before she died.
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før hun døde.
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And gratefully, it didn't.
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Og heldigvis skjedde ikke det.
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And she died quietly in her favorite place.
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Og hun sovnet stille inn på sitt favoirttsted.
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And a few weeks later, I was in New Orleans,
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Og noen få uker senere var jeg i New Orleans,
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and this beautiful, spiritual friend
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og denne nydelige, spirituelle vennen min
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told me she wanted to do a healing for me.
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fortalte meg at hun ville gjøre healing for meg
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And I was honored.
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Og jeg følte meg beæret.
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And I went to her house, and it was morning,
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Og jeg dro hjem til henne, og det var tidlig morgen,
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and the morning New Orleans sun was filtering through the curtains.
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og morgensolen i New Orleans ble filtrert gjennom gardinene.
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And my friend was preparing this big bowl,
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Og min venn gjorde klar en stor skål,
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and I said, "What is it?"
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og jeg sa, "Hva er det?"
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And she said, "It's for you.
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Og hun sa, "Det er til deg.
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The flowers make it beautiful,
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Blomstene gjør den vakker,
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and the honey makes it sweet."
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og honningen gjør den søt."
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And I said, "But what's the water part?"
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Og jeg sa, "Men hva er det med vannet?"
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And in the name of connectedness,
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she said, "Oh, it's the Gulf of Mexico."
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sa hun, "Å, det er Meksikogulfen."
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And I said, "Of course it is."
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Og jeg sa, "Selvsagt er det det."
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And the other women arrived and they sat in a circle,
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De andre kvinnene kom og satte seg i en sirkel,
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and Michaela bathed my head with the sacred water.
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og Michaela badet mitt hode med det hellige vannet.
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And she sang -- I mean her whole body sang.
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Og hun sang -- jeg mener hele kroppen hennes sang.
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And the other women sang
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Og de andre kvinnene sang
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and they prayed for me and my mother.
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og de ba for meg og min mor.
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And as the warm Gulf washed over my naked head,
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Og mens den varme Gulfen vasket over mitt nakne hode
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I realized that it held
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forsto jeg at den inneholdt
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the best and the worst of us.
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det beste og det verste i oss.
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It was the greed and recklessness
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Det var grådigheten og skjødesløsheten
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that led to the drilling explosion.
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som førte til boreulykken.
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It was all the lies that got told
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Det var alle løgnene som ble fortalt
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before and after.
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før og etter.
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It was the honey in the water that made it sweet,
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Det var honningen i vannet som gjorde det søtt,
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it was the oil that made it sick.
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det var oljen som gjorde det sykt.
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It was my head that was bald --
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Det var hodet mitt som var skallet --
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and comfortable now without a hat.
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og komfortabelt nå uten en hatt.
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It was my whole self
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Det var mitt hele jeg
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melting into Michaela's lap.
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som smeltet inn i Michaelas fang.
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It was the tears that were indistinguishable from the Gulf
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Det var tårene som ikke kunne skilles fra Gulfen
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that were falling down my cheek.
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som falt på mitt kinn.
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It was finally being in my body.
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Det var endelig væren i kroppen min.
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It was the sorrow
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Det var sorgen
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that's taken so long.
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som hadde tatt så lang tid.
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It was finding my place
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Den fant meg
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and the huge responsibility
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og det store ansvaret
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that comes with connection.
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som følger med forbindelse.
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It was the continuing devastating war in the Congo
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Det var den stadige ødeleggende krigen i Kongo
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and the indifference of the world.
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og verdens likegyldighet.
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It was the Congolese women
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Det var de kongolesiske kvinnene
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who are now rising up.
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som nå reiser seg.
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It was my mother leaving,
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Det var min mor som forlot meg,
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just at the moment
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akkurat i det øyeblikket
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that I was being born.
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da jeg ble født.
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It was the realization
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Det var oppdagelsen
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that I had come very close to dying --
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at jeg hadde vært så nær ved å dø --
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in the same way that the Earth, our mother,
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på samme måten som jorden, vår mor,
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is barely holding on,
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såvidt holder det gående,
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in the same way that 75 percent of the planet
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på samme måte som 75 prosent på jorden
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are hardly scraping by,
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såvidt klarer seg,
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in the same way
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på samme måte som
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that there is a recipe for survival.
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at det fins en strategi for overlevelse.
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What I learned
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is it has to do with attention and resources
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er at det har å gjøre med fokus og ressurser
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that everybody deserves.
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som alle fortjener.
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It was advocating friends
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Det var venner som agiterte
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and a doting sister.
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og en kjærlig søster.
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It was wise doctors and advanced medicine
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Det vare kloke leger og moderne legevitenskap
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and surgeons who knew what to do with their hands.
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og kirurger som visste hva de skulle gjøre med hendene sine.
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It was underpaid and really loving nurses.
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Det var underbetalte og kjærlige sykepleier.
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It was magic healers and aromatic oils.
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Det var magiske healere og aromatiske oljer.
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It was people who came with spells and rituals.
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Det var folk som kom med trylleformularer og ritualer.
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It was having a vision of the future
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Det var å ha en visjon for fremtiden
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and something to fight for,
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og noe å kjempe for,
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because I know this struggle isn't my own.
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for jeg vet at denne kampen ikke er min.
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It was a million prayers.
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Det var en million bønner.
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It was a thousand hallelujahs
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Det var tusen hallelujaer
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and a million oms.
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og en million "om-er".
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It was a lot of anger,
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Det var masse sinne,
12:28
insane humor,
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vanvittig humor,
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a lot of attention, outrage.
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og mye oppmerksomhet, raseri.
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It was energy, love and joy.
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Det var energi, kjærlighet og glede.
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It was all these things.
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Det var alle disse tingene.
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It was all these things.
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Det var alle disse tingene.
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It was all these things
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Det var alle disse tingene
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in the water, in the world, in my body.
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i vannet, i verden, i kroppen min.
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Eve Ensler - Playwright, activistEve Ensler created the ground-breaking "Vagina Monologues," whose success propelled her to found V-Day -- a movement to end violence against women and girls everywhere.
Why you should listen
Inspired by intimate conversations with friends, Eve Ensler wrote The Vagina Monologues. The play recounts tender, funny, gripping and horrifying stories she gathered from hundreds of women about their bodies, their sexual experiences, and yes, their vaginas. Since its first staging in 1996, it has been translated into more than 45 languages, performed in more than 120 countries and re-created as an HBO film.
The Vagina Monologues' success allowed Ensler to create V-Day, a global activist movement to end violence against women and girls, which has so far raised $85 million to prevent violence and protect abused women. In February 2011, Ensler received the Isabelle Stephenson Tony Award for her philanthropic work. Ensler has also drawn praise for The Good Body, a play that cuts to women's obsession with their appearance, and her film What I Want My Words to Do to You, which portrays a writing group she leads at a correctional facility for women. Today, she continues to find new projects and push the envelope. Her latest play, I Am an Emotional Creature: The Secret Life of Girls Around the World, hit the New York Times bestseller list and just wrapped a workshop production in Johannesburg -- nest stop is Paris and then Berkeley in June 2012.
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