Lindy Lou Isonhood: A juror's reflections on the death penalty
リンディ・ルー・アイソンフッド: 死刑制度について陪審員が語る
Lindy Lou Isonhood served as Juror No. 2 on a capital murder trial in 1994 -- an experience that changed her life. Full bio
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You are free to go.
忘れ物のないように」
go directly to your car.
車にまっすぐ向かってください」
into the driver's seat.
死刑を言い渡したところなのです
of our unspoken culture.
暗黙の文化の一部です
the death penalty.
process took place,
justified the death penalty,
"Yes, this man is a monster,
「この男はモンスター」
陪審員席から彼の手を見ていました
as his hair and his mustache.
髪や髭と同じく真っ黒でした
no doubt in his guilt.
that I just didn't understand.
でも何かわかりませんでした
to give this man the death penalty.
only led to one decision,
ただ一つの結論に至るのです
were in conflict with each other,
the judge's instructions,
with the other 11 jurors.
反対票を投じるのをやめたのです
できるのだろうか」
church, ball games --
些細なことに思えました
戻らなければならないのです
to overcome the PTSD
トラウマについて語るのが一番だと
to talk about the trauma
人に話しても
もう気にするな」
to become a silent survivor.
この話題を封印することに決めました
had dropped all of his appeals,
上告を取り下げたことを知りました
just started coming back.
I called Bobby's attorney, and I said,
ボビーの弁護士に電話をして尋ねました
ボビーに会うことはできますか」
on the day of his execution,
刑務所まで運転しながら
and talked about life,
人生について語り合いました
for my hand in his death.
許しを請いました
and bought a margarita.
マルガリータを飲みました
get one big enough --
必要な一杯でした
by the State of Mississippi.
ボビーの死刑は執行されました
やっと話す気になれるほど
enough to talk about it,
to the other jurors.
自分でもわかりませんが
話す必要があると思いました
妥当だと考えていました
that it took so long
what was wrong with him,
なぜかわかりませんが
anything about the trial.
I'm gonna get from everybody else?"
こんな調子なんだろうか」
he was genuinely upset
彼は 私たちが下した決断に対して
that the devastation
感覚に襲われた
話してくれました
of men to be executed
読み上げられたそうです
what he had done.
はっきりわかったそうです
a responsibility in that man's death."
「私には彼の死に責任がある」
with that issue.
思い悩んでいます
not even his wife.
奥さんにもです
wanted to keep the death penalty,
counseling for the jurors.
受けられるようにすべきであると
against the death penalty,
死刑制度に反対しています
crushing depression for weeks,
things to him like,
心に重くのしかかり
saddened by what we were required to do.
心を痛めていることがわかりました
that he left the courthouse
裁判所を出てからのことを話してくれました
in his door and unlock it,
鍵を開け
if it was the right decision.
over and over in his head.
頭の中で繰り返したそうです
the only disillusioned juror.
私だけではなかったことがわかりました
今後陪審員になるかもしれない人々に
into what to expect,
伝えようと話しました
準備しておくことが大切だと
to walk in one morning as a juror
feeling like a murderer.
人を殺してしまったと思わずに済むように
I did find some inspiration,
あることに気づきました
of my granddaughters.
on the death penalty for school,
that this child was being raised
to her this way:
needed to be open for discussion.
もっと語られるべきだと思いました
「死刑廃止」と書いてあります
granddaughter was there, Anna,
「そのTシャツ もらってもいい?」
with this death penalty issue.
まだ考えを変えていません
and I looked at her, and I said,
at her dad, and she said,
感謝の意味ではありません
had taught me some lessons.
not served on that jury,
変わっていなかったでしょう
the eyes of my granddaughters,
they're capable and they're willing
意志と能力を持っていることを
理解できるという自信がつきました
to stand on their own
頼るのではありません
Christian family
in the United States,
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Lindy Lou Isonhood - Wife, mother, grandmother, friendLindy Lou Isonhood served as Juror No. 2 on a capital murder trial in 1994 -- an experience that changed her life.
Why you should listen
As Lindy Lou Isonhood writes: "I was born in Yazoo City, Mississippi, in December 1951 and was raised by my grandmother, a widow with nine children. She was my salvation. From her nurturing I acquired my integrity, independence and strength. She impacted the lives of all around her. I was employed for over half my life: as a federal police officer in the 1970s, then I went on to be the first female letter carrier with the US Postal Service in Jackson for seven years, followed by 18 years in the MS Army National Guard. I ended my working career as an office manager after 13 years with an architectural firm.
"A strong Christian, I am married to a retired colonel who is a very staunch conservative, like me. I'm the mother of two children, a son and a daughter, and three grandchildren -- all girls! The hearts of my life! There is nothing extraordinary about me. I have never achieved fame or any outstanding records or recognition. Never received a college degree although I have many accumulated hours. But my life reached a turning point when I served as a juror in the sentencing phase of a capital murder trial in 1994. This experience changed me from the inside out."
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