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Lindy Lou Isonhood: A juror's reflections on the death penalty
Lindi Lu Ajsonhud (Lindy Lou Isonhood): Osvrt porotnice na smrtnu kaznu
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Lindi Lu Ajsonhud je odrasla u gradu u kome je smrtna kazna svakidašnja pojava, deo kulture koji se podrazumeva. Međutim, nakon što je bila porotnica na suđenju za ubistvo, i nakon što je glasala da se krivac osudi na smrt, nešto u njoj se promenilo. U ovom zanimljivom i ličnom govoru, Ajsonhud se osvrće na pitanje koje je sebi postavljala tokom 25 godina od suđenja: da li sam ja ubica?
Lindy Lou Isonhood - Wife, mother, grandmother, friend
Lindy Lou Isonhood served as Juror No. 2 on a capital murder trial in 1994 -- an experience that changed her life. Full bio
Lindy Lou Isonhood served as Juror No. 2 on a capital murder trial in 1994 -- an experience that changed her life. Full bio
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It was a Thursday,
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Četvrtak je,
00:15
June the 23rd, 1994.
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23. jun 1994. godine.
00:23
(Sighs)
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(Uzdah)
00:24
"Collect your belongings.
You are free to go.
You are free to go.
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„Pokupite svoje stvari.
Slobodni ste da idete.
Slobodni ste da idete.
00:28
When escorted outside,
go directly to your car.
go directly to your car.
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Kada vas isprate napolje,
idite direktno u automobil.
idite direktno u automobil.
00:32
Do not talk to reporters."
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Ne razgovarajte sa novinarima.“
00:36
My head is spinning,
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Vrti mi se u glavi,
00:38
my heart is racing,
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srce mi lupa.
00:40
I can't get a breath.
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Ne mogu da dođem do daha.
00:43
I just want out of there.
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Samo želim napolje.
00:47
When I get to my car,
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Kada sam stigla do auta,
00:49
I throw everything on the back,
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bacam sve na zadnje sedište
00:52
and I just collapse
into the driver's seat.
into the driver's seat.
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i prosto se rušim na vozačevo sedište.
00:55
"I can't do this.
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„Ne mogu to da uradim.
00:57
I can't go home to my family
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Ne mogu da idem kući svojoj porodici
01:02
that I haven't seen in a week
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koju nisam videla nedelju dana
01:06
and pretend to be happy."
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i da se pretvaram da sam srećna.“
01:10
Not even their love and support
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Čak mi ni njihova ljubav i podrška
01:14
could help me at this particular time.
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nisu mogle pomoći
u ovom naročitom trenutku.
u ovom naročitom trenutku.
01:19
We had just sentenced a man to death.
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Upravo smo osudili čoveka na smrt.
01:26
Now what?
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Šta sad?
01:28
Just go home and wash dishes?
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Prosto da idem kući i perem sudove?
01:32
You see, in Mississippi,
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Vidite, u Misisipiju,
01:37
the death penalty is like a part
of our unspoken culture.
of our unspoken culture.
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smrtna kazna je na neki način
podrazumevani deo naše kulture.
podrazumevani deo naše kulture.
01:43
The basic logic is, if you murder someone,
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Osnovna logika kaže: ako ubijete nekoga,
01:47
then you're going to receive
the death penalty.
the death penalty.
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dobićete smrtnu kaznu.
01:51
So when the jury selection
process took place,
process took place,
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Zato, kad je otpočeo proces
izbora porotnika,
izbora porotnika,
01:57
they asked me,
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upitali su me:
02:01
"Could you,
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„Da li ćete moći,
02:03
if the evidence presented
justified the death penalty,
justified the death penalty,
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ukoliko priloženi dokazi
opravdavaju smrtnu kaznu,
opravdavaju smrtnu kaznu,
02:09
could you deliver,
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da li ćete moći da donesete,
02:11
rationally and without reservations,
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racionalno i bez ustupanja,
02:13
a penalty of death?"
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odluku o smrtnoj kazni?“
02:17
My answer was an astounding "yes,"
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Moj odgovor je bio zaprepašćeno „da“,
02:21
and I was selected as Juror Number 2.
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i ja sam odabrana kao porotnik broj dva.
02:26
The trial started.
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Suđenje je počelo.
02:28
From the evidence being presented
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Na osnovu priloženih dokaza
02:32
and from the pictures of the victim,
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i fotografija žrtve,
02:34
my first response was,
"Yes, this man is a monster,
"Yes, this man is a monster,
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moja prvobitna reakcija je bila:
„Da, ovaj čovek je čudovište
„Da, ovaj čovek je čudovište
02:39
and he deserves the death penalty."
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i zaslužuje smrtnu kaznu.“
02:44
For days, I sat and looked at his hands,
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Danima sam sedela
i posmatrala njegove ruke,
i posmatrala njegove ruke,
02:48
the ones that yielded the knife,
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one koje su posegnule za nožem,
02:53
and against his pasty white skin,
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kao i naspram njegove bolećive bele kože,
02:58
his eyes ...
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njegove oči...
03:00
Well, he spent endless days in his cell,
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Proveo je beskrajne dane u svojoj ćeliji,
03:04
no sunlight,
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bez sunčeve svetlosti,
03:05
so his eyes were as black
as his hair and his mustache.
as his hair and his mustache.
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pa su njegove oči bile crne
kao i kosa i brkovi.
kao i kosa i brkovi.
03:10
He was very intimidating,
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Izgledao je veoma zastrašujuće,
03:14
and there was absolutely
no doubt in his guilt.
no doubt in his guilt.
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i nije postojala ni najmanja sumnja
u njegovu krivicu.
u njegovu krivicu.
03:21
But regardless of his guilt,
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Međutim, bez obzira na njegovu krivicu,
03:23
as the days passed,
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kako su dani prolazili,
03:26
I began to see this monster
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počela sam da gledam na ovo čudovište
03:30
as a human being.
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kao na ljudsko biće.
03:34
Something inside of me was changing
that I just didn't understand.
that I just didn't understand.
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Nešto u meni se menjalo
i ja to prosto nisam razumela.
i ja to prosto nisam razumela.
03:39
I was beginning to question myself
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Počela sam da se preispitujem
03:41
as to whether or not I wanted
to give this man the death penalty.
to give this man the death penalty.
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da li zaista želim da osudim
ovog čoveka na smrtnu kaznu.
ovog čoveka na smrtnu kaznu.
03:47
Jury deliberations began,
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Počelo je većanje porotnika
03:50
and the judge gave us jury instructions
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i sudija nam je dao uputstva za porotnike,
03:56
and it was to be used as a tool
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a njih je trebalo da koristimo kao oruđe
03:59
in how to reach a verdict.
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da dođemo do presude.
04:02
Well, using this tool
only led to one decision,
only led to one decision,
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Pa, upotreba ovog oruđa
je dovela do samo jedne odluke,
je dovela do samo jedne odluke,
04:07
and that was the death penalty.
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a to je bila smrtna kazna.
04:10
I felt backed into a corner.
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Osetila sam se sateranom u ćošak.
04:13
My head and my heart
were in conflict with each other,
were in conflict with each other,
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Moja glava i srce
su bili u sukobu jedno s drugim,
su bili u sukobu jedno s drugim,
04:16
and the thought of the death penalty
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a od pomisli na smrtnu kaznu
04:18
made me sick.
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bi mi pozlilo.
04:23
However, following
the judge's instructions,
the judge's instructions,
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Međutim, prateći uputstva sudije,
04:28
being a law-abiding person,
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budući da sam osoba koja poštuje zakon,
04:31
I gave up.
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predala sam se.
04:34
I gave up and voted along
with the other 11 jurors.
with the other 11 jurors.
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Predala sam se i glasala
u saglasju sa 11 ostalih porotnika.
u saglasju sa 11 ostalih porotnika.
04:40
And there it was:
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I eto ga:
04:42
our broken judicial system at work.
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naš pokvaren sudski sistem na delu.
04:50
So here I am in my car,
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Dakle, eto me u svojim kolima
04:52
and I'm wondering:
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i pitam se:
04:54
How is my life ever going to be the same?
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kako će moj život ikad
da bude isti ponovo?
da bude isti ponovo?
04:59
My life was kids, work,
church, ball games --
church, ball games --
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Moj život su bili deca, posao,
crkva, igre loptom -
crkva, igre loptom -
05:04
just your average, normal, everyday life.
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prosto prosečan, normalan,
svakodnevni život.
svakodnevni život.
05:08
Now everything felt trivial.
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Sad se sve činilo beznačajnim.
05:11
I was going down this rabbit hole.
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Propadala sam kroz ponor.
05:14
The anger, the anxiety,
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Bes, anksioznost,
05:18
the guilt, the depression ...
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krivica, depresija...
05:21
it just clung to me.
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sve se to prosto lepilo za mene.
05:23
I knew that my life had to resume,
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Znala sam da moj život mora da se nastavi,
05:29
so I sought counseling.
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pa sam posegla za savetovalištem.
05:31
The counselor diagnosed me with PTSD
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Savetnica mi je dijagnostikovala
posttraumatski stresni poremećaj
posttraumatski stresni poremećaj
05:35
and told me that the best way
to overcome the PTSD
to overcome the PTSD
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i rekla mi je da je najbolji način
da ga prevaziđem
da ga prevaziđem
05:40
was to talk about the trauma.
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da govorim o traumi.
05:43
However, if I talked or tried
to talk about the trauma
to talk about the trauma
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Međutim, ako bih govorila
ili pokušala da govorim o traumi
ili pokušala da govorim o traumi
05:48
outside her office,
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van njene kancelarije,
05:50
I was shut down.
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ućutkivali bi me.
05:52
No one wanted to hear about it.
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Niko nije želeo da sluša o tome.
05:55
He was just a murderer. Get over it.
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Bio je obični ubica. Prevaziđi to.
05:59
It was then that I decided
to become a silent survivor.
to become a silent survivor.
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Tada sam odlučila da postanem
tihi borac za opstanak.
tihi borac za opstanak.
06:06
Twelve years later, 2006,
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Dvanaest godina kasnije, 2006. godine,
06:09
I learned that Bobby Wilcher
had dropped all of his appeals,
had dropped all of his appeals,
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saznala sam da je Bobi Vilčer
odustao od svih žalbi
odustao od svih žalbi
06:15
and his execution date was approaching.
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i da se približava dan
njegovog pogubljenja.
njegovog pogubljenja.
06:19
That was like a punch in the stomach.
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To kao da me je udarilo u stomak.
06:22
All of those buried feelings
just started coming back.
just started coming back.
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Sva ta zakopana osećanja
su samo počela da se vraćaju.
su samo počela da se vraćaju.
06:27
To try and find peace,
I called Bobby's attorney, and I said,
I called Bobby's attorney, and I said,
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Kako bih pokušala da nađem mir,
nazvala sam Bobijevog advokata i rekla:
nazvala sam Bobijevog advokata i rekla:
06:32
"Can I see Bobby before he's executed?"
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„Mogu li da vidim Bobija
pre nego što ga pogube?“
pre nego što ga pogube?“
06:36
Driving to the penitentiary
on the day of his execution,
on the day of his execution,
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Vozeći do zatvora
na dan njegovog pogubljenja,
na dan njegovog pogubljenja,
06:41
in my mind,
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u mom umu,
06:42
Bobby was going to be manic.
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Bobi je trebalo da bude maničan.
06:45
But, surprisingly, he was very calm.
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Međutim, na moje iznenađenje,
bio je veoma smiren.
bio je veoma smiren.
06:50
And for two hours, he and I sat there
and talked about life,
and talked about life,
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I dva sata smo on i ja sedeli
i razgovarali o životu,
i razgovarali o životu,
06:56
and I got to ask him to forgive me
for my hand in his death.
for my hand in his death.
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i ja sam stigla da ga pitam da mi oprosti
zbog mog udela u njegovoj smrti.
zbog mog udela u njegovoj smrti.
07:04
His words to me were:
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Njegove reči upućene meni su glasile:
07:06
"You don't have to apologize.
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„Ne moraš da se izvinjavaš.
07:08
You didn't put me here.
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Nisi me ti smestila ovde.
07:10
I did this myself.
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Sam sam to uradio.
07:14
But if it'll make you feel better,
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Ali ako ćeš da se osećaš bolje,
07:15
I forgive you."
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opraštam ti.“
07:19
On my way home,
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Na putu do kuće,
07:20
I stopped by a restaurant
and bought a margarita.
and bought a margarita.
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zaustavila sam se ispred restorana
i kupila margaritu.
i kupila margaritu.
07:24
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
07:29
I don't think I could
get one big enough --
get one big enough --
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Mislim da nisu imali dovoljno veliku -
07:31
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
07:32
to try and calm down.
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kako bih pokušala da se smirim.
07:35
My phone rang.
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Zazvonio mi je telefon.
07:38
It was Bobby's attorney.
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To je bio Bobijev advokat.
07:41
Within two minutes of his execution,
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Na dva minuta do pogubljenja,
07:44
they had given him a stay.
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odobrili su mu odlaganje.
07:48
This stay gave me time
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Ovo mi je dalo vremena
07:52
to reach out to Bobby.
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da uspostavim kontakt sa Bobijem.
07:55
And as crazy as it may sound,
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I koliko god vam blesavo zvučalo,
07:57
we became friends.
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postali smo prijatelji.
08:00
Three months later,
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Tri meseca kasnije,
08:02
he was executed
by the State of Mississippi.
by the State of Mississippi.
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pogubljen je od strane države Misisipi.
08:07
I'm here to tell you my story,
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Ovde sam da bih vam ispričala svoju priču
08:13
because it was precisely 22 years later
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jer prošle su tačno 22 godine
08:18
that I even wanted to open up
enough to talk about it,
enough to talk about it,
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pre nego što sam čak i poželela
da se dovoljno otvorim i pričam o tome,
da se dovoljno otvorim i pričam o tome,
08:23
when a friend encouraged me.
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kada me je prijatelj ohrabrio.
08:26
"Hey, perhaps you need to talk
to the other jurors.
to the other jurors.
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„Hej, možda bi trebalo da razgovaraš
sa drugim porotnicima.
sa drugim porotnicima.
08:30
You've been through the same experience."
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Prošli ste kroz isto iskustvo.“
08:33
Uncertain of what I was after,
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Iako nesigurna za čim tragam,
08:36
I did need to talk to them.
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bilo mi je potrebno da razgovaram s njima.
08:39
So I set out on my quest,
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Pa sam se zaputila u pohod
08:42
and I actually found most of them.
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i zapravo sam našla većinu njih.
08:45
The first juror I met
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Prvi porotnik kog sam srela
08:47
thought that Bobby got what he deserved.
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smatrao je da je Bobi
dobio što je zaslužio.
dobio što je zaslužio.
08:50
Another juror --
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Drugi porotnik -
08:53
well, they just kind of regretted
that it took so long
that it took so long
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pa, prosto je žalio
što je trebalo toliko vremena
što je trebalo toliko vremena
08:57
to carry the sentence out.
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da se izvrši kazna.
08:59
Then one juror, and I don't know
what was wrong with him,
what was wrong with him,
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A jedan porotnik, pojma nemam
šta nije bilo u redu s njim,
šta nije bilo u redu s njim,
09:02
but he didn't remember
anything about the trial.
anything about the trial.
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ali nije se sećao
bilo čega u vezi sa suđenjem.
bilo čega u vezi sa suđenjem.
09:04
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
09:06
Well,
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Pa,
09:08
I'm thinking in my mind,
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razmišljam u sebi:
09:10
"Jeez, is this the response
I'm gonna get from everybody else?"
I'm gonna get from everybody else?"
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„Isuse, da li je ovo reakcija
koju ću da dobijem od svih?“
koju ću da dobijem od svih?“
09:15
Well, thank God for Allen.
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Hvala bogu na Alenu.
09:19
Allen was a gentle soul.
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Alen je bio nežna duša.
09:22
And when I talked to him,
he was genuinely upset
he was genuinely upset
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I kad sam razgovarala s njim,
bio je istinski potresen
bio je istinski potresen
09:26
about our decision.
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zbog naše odluke.
09:29
And he told me about the day
that the devastation
that the devastation
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I ispričao mi je za dan
kada se razorni udarac
kada se razorni udarac
09:33
really set in on him and hit him.
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ustremio na njega i udario ga.
09:37
He was listening to the radio,
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Slušao je radio
09:40
and the radio had a list of names
of men to be executed
of men to be executed
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i na radiju su čitali spisak imena
muškaraca koji će da budu pogubljeni
muškaraca koji će da budu pogubljeni
09:45
at Parchman Penitentiary.
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u zatvoru Parčman.
09:49
He heard Bobby's name,
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Čuo je Bobijevo ime
09:51
and he then truly realized
what he had done.
what he had done.
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i tada je uistinu shvatio šta je uradio.
09:55
And he said, "You know, I had
a responsibility in that man's death."
a responsibility in that man's death."
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I rekao je: „Znaš, odgovoran
sam za smrt tog čoveka.“
sam za smrt tog čoveka.“
10:01
Now here it is, 20-something years later,
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Eto ga, više od 20 godina kasnije
10:03
and Allen is still dealing
with that issue.
with that issue.
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i Alen se i dalje bavi tim pitanjem.
10:08
And he's never told anyone about it,
not even his wife.
not even his wife.
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A nikad nikome nije rekao za to,
čak ni svojoj supruzi.
čak ni svojoj supruzi.
10:14
He also told me
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Takođe mi je rekao
10:15
that if the State of Mississippi
wanted to keep the death penalty,
wanted to keep the death penalty,
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da, ukoliko država Misisipi
želi da zadrži smrtnu kaznu,
želi da zadrži smrtnu kaznu,
10:18
then hey, they needed to provide
counseling for the jurors.
counseling for the jurors.
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onda, hej, moraju da obezbede
savetovalište za porotnike.
savetovalište za porotnike.
10:24
Then the next juror I met was Jane.
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Džejn je bila sledeća porotnica
s kojom sam se sastala.
s kojom sam se sastala.
10:27
Jane is now totally
against the death penalty,
against the death penalty,
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Džejn je sad u potpunosti
protiv smrtne kazne.
protiv smrtne kazne.
10:31
And there was Bill.
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A tu je bio Bil.
10:33
Bill said he had this
crushing depression for weeks,
crushing depression for weeks,
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Bil je rekao kako je imao depresiju
koja ga je razarala nedeljama,
koja ga je razarala nedeljama,
10:38
and when he went back to work,
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i kada se vratio na posao,
10:40
his colleagues would say
things to him like,
things to him like,
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kolege bi mu govorile stvari poput:
10:44
"Hey, did you fry him?"
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„Hej, jesi li ga spržio?“
10:45
To them, it was just a joke.
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Njima je to bila tek šala.
10:48
Then there was Jon.
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Potom je tu bio Džon.
10:50
Jon said his decision weighed on him,
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Džon je rekao da ga je
njegova odluka slamala
njegova odluka slamala
10:55
and it burdened him daily.
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i opterećivala svakodnevno.
10:58
The final juror that I spoke to was Ken.
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Poslednji porotnik
s kojim sam pričala je bio Ken.
s kojim sam pričala je bio Ken.
11:01
Ken was the foreman of the jury.
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Ken je bio glavni porotnik.
11:05
When we sat down to talk,
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Kada smo seli da razgovaramo,
11:08
it was apparent that he was deeply
saddened by what we were required to do.
saddened by what we were required to do.
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bilo je očito da je bio duboko pogođen
onim što smo bili u obavezi da uradimo.
onim što smo bili u obavezi da uradimo.
11:15
He relived the day
that he left the courthouse
that he left the courthouse
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Ponovo je proživljavao
dan kada je napustio sudnicu,
dan kada je napustio sudnicu,
11:19
and he drove home
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vozio se kući,
11:21
and he went to put his key
in his door and unlock it,
in his door and unlock it,
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i kada je krenuo da stavi ključ
u vrata i da ih otključa,
u vrata i da ih otključa,
11:24
and he said he literally broke down.
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kaže da je bukvalno doživeo slom.
11:30
He said he knew that Bobby was guilty,
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Kaže da je znao da je Bobi kriv,
11:33
but the decision he made,
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ali da za odluku koju je doneo
11:35
he did not know
if it was the right decision.
if it was the right decision.
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nije znao da li je bila prava odluka.
11:40
And he said that he played it
over and over in his head.
over and over in his head.
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I kaže da je izvrteo film
iznova i iznova u glavi.
iznova i iznova u glavi.
11:43
Did we do the right thing?
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Da li smo ispravno postupili?
11:46
Did we do the right thing?
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Da li smo ispravno postupili?
11:49
Did we do the right thing?
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Da li smo ispravno postupili?
11:55
(Sighs)
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(Uzdah)
11:58
All those years,
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Sve te godine,
12:00
and I finally realized that I was not
the only disillusioned juror.
the only disillusioned juror.
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i ja sam konačno shvatila
da nisam jedini razočarani porotnik.
da nisam jedini razočarani porotnik.
12:06
And we talked about sharing our experience
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I razgovarali smo o razmeni iskustava
12:11
with potential jurors
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sa potencijalnim porotnicima
12:15
to give them some insight
into what to expect,
into what to expect,
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kako bismo im pružili nekakav uvid
u to šta da očekuju
u to šta da očekuju
12:20
and to tell them do not be complacent;
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i da im kažemo da ne budu pomirljivi;
12:23
to know what you believe;
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da znaju u šta veruju;
12:26
to know where you stand and be prepared,
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da znaju svoje stanovište
i da budu spremni,
i da budu spremni,
12:31
because you don't want
to walk in one morning as a juror
to walk in one morning as a juror
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jer ne želite da ušetate
jedno jutro kao porotnik
jedno jutro kao porotnik
12:37
and leave at the end of the trial
feeling like a murderer.
feeling like a murderer.
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i da na kraju suđenja odete
osećajući se kao ubica.
osećajući se kao ubica.
12:42
Now, through this storm in my life,
I did find some inspiration,
I did find some inspiration,
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Sad, kroz ovu oluju u svom životu,
otkrila sam inspiraciju,
otkrila sam inspiraciju,
12:46
and it came in the form
of my granddaughters.
of my granddaughters.
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a došla je u obliku mojih unuka.
12:50
My 14-year-old granddaughter, Maddie,
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Moja 14-godišnja unuka Medi
12:53
was writing an essay
on the death penalty for school,
on the death penalty for school,
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je pisala školski esej o smrtnoj kazni
12:57
and she was asking me questions.
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i postavljala mi je pitanja.
12:59
Well, it dawned on me
that this child was being raised
that this child was being raised
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Pa, sinulo mi je da je ovo dete odgajano
13:03
in the same eye-for-an-eye culture
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u istoj kulturi „oko za oko“
13:08
as I was,
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kao i ja,
13:09
or had been.
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ili sam bila.
13:12
And so I explained my experience
to her this way:
to her this way:
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Pa sam joj ovako objasnila moje iskustvo:
13:16
that I had sentenced someone to death
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osudila sam nekoga na smrt
13:21
as I served on a jury.
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služeći u poroti.
13:24
And I asked her,
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I upitala sam je:
13:26
"Did that make me a murderer?"
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„Da li sam zbog toga ubica?“
13:29
She couldn't answer.
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Nije mogla da odgovori.
13:31
I knew then that this topic
needed to be open for discussion.
needed to be open for discussion.
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Tada sam shvatila da ova tema
mora da bude otvorena za razgovor.
mora da bude otvorena za razgovor.
13:36
And guess what happened?
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I pogodite šta se desilo?
13:38
I got invited to speak, just recently,
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Nedavno su me pozvali da govorim
13:42
in an abolitionist community.
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u zajednici abolicionista.
13:45
While I was there, I got a T-shirt.
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Dok sam bila tamo, dobila sam majicu
13:48
It says, "Stop Executions."
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sa natpisom: „Zaustavite pogubljenja“.
13:52
Well, when I get home, my 16-year-old
granddaughter was there, Anna,
granddaughter was there, Anna,
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Kad sam došla kući, moja 16-godišnja
unuka Ana je bila prisutna
unuka Ana je bila prisutna
13:56
and she says, "Can I have that shirt?"
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i rekla je: „Mogu li
da dobijem tu majicu?“
da dobijem tu majicu?“
14:00
Well, I looked at her dad --
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Pogledala sam u njenog oca -
14:02
her dad is my son --
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njen otac je moj sin -
14:04
and I knew that he is still dealing
with this death penalty issue.
with this death penalty issue.
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i znala sam da se on i dalje nosi
s ovim pitanjem smrtne kazne.
s ovim pitanjem smrtne kazne.
14:09
So I turned around
and I looked at her, and I said,
and I looked at her, and I said,
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Pa sam se okrenula,
pogledala u nju i rekla:
pogledala u nju i rekla:
14:12
"Are you gonna wear this?"
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„Da li ćeš da je nosiš?“
14:14
So she turned and she looked
at her dad, and she said,
at her dad, and she said,
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Okrenula se i pogledala u oca i rekla:
14:18
"Dad, I know how you feel,
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„Tata, znam kako se osećaš,
14:19
but I don't believe in the death penalty."
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ali ja ne verujem u smrtnu kaznu.“
14:24
My son looked at me,
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Sin me je pogledao,
14:27
shook his head, and said,
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zavrteo glavom i rekao:
14:31
"Thanks, Mom."
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„Hvala, mama.“
14:34
And I knew it wasn't a nice "Thanks, Mom."
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I znala sam da se nije radilo
o finom „hvala, mama“.
o finom „hvala, mama“.
14:37
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
14:39
So I learned that life
had taught me some lessons.
had taught me some lessons.
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Shvatila sam da me je život
naučio nekim lekcijama.
naučio nekim lekcijama.
14:46
It taught me, if I had
not served on that jury,
not served on that jury,
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Naučila sam, da nisam
služila u toj poroti,
služila u toj poroti,
14:51
that I would still be of the same mindset.
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da bih i dalje bila
istog mentalnog sklopa.
istog mentalnog sklopa.
14:57
It also gave me confidence
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To mi je takođe dalo samopouzdanje
14:59
to be able to see through
the eyes of my granddaughters,
the eyes of my granddaughters,
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da budem u stanju da gledam
kroz oči mojih unuka,
kroz oči mojih unuka,
15:03
that this younger generation,
they're capable and they're willing
they're capable and they're willing
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da su mlađe generacije
u stanju i imaju volje
u stanju i imaju volje
15:09
to tackle these difficult social issues.
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da se bave ovim teškim
društvenim pitanjima.
društvenim pitanjima.
15:14
And because of my experience,
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A zbog mog iskustva,
15:16
my granddaughters,
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moje unuke
15:18
they're now more equipped
to stand on their own
to stand on their own
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su sada spremnije da imaju svoj stav
15:23
and to think for themselves
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i da razmišljaju u svoje ime,
15:26
than to rely on cultural beliefs.
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umesto da se oslanjaju
na kulturološka ubeđenja.
na kulturološka ubeđenja.
15:32
So:
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Dakle:
15:34
being from a conservative,
Christian family
Christian family
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kao neko ko potiče
iz konzervativne hrišćanske porodice
iz konzervativne hrišćanske porodice
15:38
from a very conservative state
in the United States,
in the United States,
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iz veoma konzervativne države
u Sjedinjenim Državama,
u Sjedinjenim Državama,
15:44
I am here to tell you
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ovde sam da vam kažem
15:45
that the death penalty has new opponents.
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da smrtna kazna ima nove protivnike.
15:51
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
15:52
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Lindy Lou Isonhood - Wife, mother, grandmother, friendLindy Lou Isonhood served as Juror No. 2 on a capital murder trial in 1994 -- an experience that changed her life.
Why you should listen
As Lindy Lou Isonhood writes: "I was born in Yazoo City, Mississippi, in December 1951 and was raised by my grandmother, a widow with nine children. She was my salvation. From her nurturing I acquired my integrity, independence and strength. She impacted the lives of all around her. I was employed for over half my life: as a federal police officer in the 1970s, then I went on to be the first female letter carrier with the US Postal Service in Jackson for seven years, followed by 18 years in the MS Army National Guard. I ended my working career as an office manager after 13 years with an architectural firm.
"A strong Christian, I am married to a retired colonel who is a very staunch conservative, like me. I'm the mother of two children, a son and a daughter, and three grandchildren -- all girls! The hearts of my life! There is nothing extraordinary about me. I have never achieved fame or any outstanding records or recognition. Never received a college degree although I have many accumulated hours. But my life reached a turning point when I served as a juror in the sentencing phase of a capital murder trial in 1994. This experience changed me from the inside out."
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