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Lemn Sissay: A child of the state
Lem Sisej (Lemn Sissay): Državno dete
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Književno stvaralaštvo je oduvek bilo inspirisano zbrinutom, usvojenom i napuštenom decom - od Mojsija preko Pepeljuge i Olivera Tvista do Harija Potera. Ali zašto su onda mnoga deca bez roditelja prinuđena da skrivaju vlastitu prošlost? Pesnik i dramatičar Lem Sisej kazuje svoju dirljivu priču.
Lemn Sissay - Poet and playwright
An award-winning playwright and popular broadcaster in the UK, as well as the author of five poetry books, Lemn Sissay has a way with words. Full bio
An award-winning playwright and popular broadcaster in the UK, as well as the author of five poetry books, Lemn Sissay has a way with words. Full bio
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Having spent 18 years as a child of the state
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Provevši 18 godina kao dete države
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in children's homes and foster care,
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po dečjim domovima i
hraniteljskim porodicama
hraniteljskim porodicama
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you could say that I'm an expert on the subject,
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moglo bi se kazati da sam
ekspert u ovoj oblasti
ekspert u ovoj oblasti
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and in being an expert, I want to let you know that
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i kao takav želim da vam
ukažem na činjenicu da
ukažem na činjenicu da
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being an expert does in no way make you right
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ako ste ekspert, to nikako ne znači da ste
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in light of the truth.
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na putu ka istini.
00:38
If you're in care, legally the government is your
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Ako ste pod tuđom negom,
pravno je vlada
pravno je vlada
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parent, loco parentis.
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vaš roditelj, loco parentis.
00:46
Margaret Thatcher was my mother. (Laughter)
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Margaret Tačer je bila moja majka.
(Smeh)
(Smeh)
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Let's not talk about breastfeeding. (Laughter)
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Hajde da ne govorimo o dojenju.
(Smeh)
(Smeh)
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Harry Potter was a foster child.
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Hari Poter je bio usvojeno dete.
00:57
Pip from "Great Expectations" was adopted;
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Pip iz „Velikih očekivanja"
je bio usvojen.
je bio usvojen.
01:02
Superman was a foster child;
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Supermen je bio usvojen;
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Cinderella was a foster child;
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Pepeljuga je bila usvojeno dete;
01:08
Lisbeth Salander, the girl with the dragon tattoo,
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Lizbet Salander,
devojka sa tetovažom zmaja,
devojka sa tetovažom zmaja,
01:12
was fostered and institutionalized;
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bila je pod tuđom negom
i predata institucijama.
i predata institucijama.
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Batman was orphaned;
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Betmen je ostao siroče;
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Lyra Belacqua from Philip Pullman's "Northern Lights"
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Lajru Belakva iz
„Severnih svetlosti" Filipa Pulmana
„Severnih svetlosti" Filipa Pulmana
01:23
was fostered;
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su podigli drugi;
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Jane Eyre, adopted;
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Džejn Ejr - usvojena;
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Roald Dahl's James from "James and the Giant Peach;"
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Džejms iz „Džejmsa i džinovske breskve"
Roalda Dala,
Roalda Dala,
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Matilda; Moses -- Moses! (Laughter)
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Matilda; Mojsije, Mojsije! (Smeh)
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Moses! (Laughter) --
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Mojsije! (Smeh)
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the boys in Michael Morpurgo's "Friend or Foe;"
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Dečaci u „Prijatelju ili
neprijatelju" Majkla Morpurga,
neprijatelju" Majkla Morpurga,
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Alem in Benjamin Zephaniah's "Refugee Boy;"
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Alem iz „Dečaka izbeglice"
Bendžamina Zafanija,
Bendžamina Zafanija,
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Luke Skywalker --
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Luk Skajvoker -
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Luke Skywalker! (Laughter) --
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Luk Skajvoker! (Smeh)
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Oliver Twist;
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Oliver Tvist;
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Cassia in "The Concubine of Shanghai" by Hong Ying;
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Kasija iz „Šangajske konkubine"
Honga Jinga:
Honga Jinga:
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Celie in Alice Walker's "The Color Purple."
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Sili iz „Ljubičaste boje" Elis Voker.
02:04
All of these great fictional characters, all of them
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Svi ovi izmišljeni likovi, sve njih
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who were hurt by their condition,
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koji su bili pogođeni svojim položajem,
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all of them who spawned thousands of other books
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sve njih iz kojih su nastale
hiljade drugih knjiga
hiljade drugih knjiga
02:17
and other films, all of them
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i filmova, sve njih
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were fostered, adopted or orphaned.
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su podigli drugi, svi su usvojeni
ili ostavljeni kao siročad.
ili ostavljeni kao siročad.
02:23
It seems that writers know that the child
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Izgleda da pisci znaju da dete
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outside of family reflects on what family truly is
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koje živi van svoje porodice ukazuje
na ono na čemu porodica zaista počiva
na ono na čemu porodica zaista počiva
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more than what it promotes itself to be.
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više nego što ona sama
pokazuje da jeste.
pokazuje da jeste.
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That is, they also use extraordinary skills
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Oni takođe poseduju neobične veštine
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to deal with extraordinary situations on a daily basis.
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da se svakodnevno nose
sa neobičnim situacijama.
sa neobičnim situacijama.
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How have we not made the connection?
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Kako nismo uspeli da to povežemo?
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And why have we not made the connection, between
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Kako nismo uspeli da povežemo
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— How has that happened? —
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- Kako se to dogodilo -
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between these incredible characters of popular culture
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između ovih neverovatnih
ličnosti popularne kulture
ličnosti popularne kulture
03:03
and religions, and the fostered, adopted or orphaned child
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i religija i zbrinutog, usvojenog
i napuštenog deteta
i napuštenog deteta
03:08
in our midst? It's not our pity that they need.
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u našem okruženju?
Njima ne treba naše sažaljenje
Njima ne treba naše sažaljenje
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It's our respect.
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već naše poštovanje.
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I know famous musicians,
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Znam poznate muzičare,
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I know actors and film stars and millionaires and novelists
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glumce, filmske zvezde, milionere, pisce,
03:23
and top lawyers and television executives
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vrhunske advokate,
televizijske producente,
televizijske producente,
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and magazine editors and national journalists
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urednike magazina, novinare,
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and dustbinmen and hairdressers, all who were
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đubretare i frizere, sve one koji su
03:32
looked after children, fostered, adopted or orphaned,
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bili paženi, zbrinuti,
usvojeni ili napušteni
usvojeni ili napušteni
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and many of them grow into their adult lives
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i koji su odrasli
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in fear of speaking of their background, as if it may
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strahujući da progovore
o svojoj prošlosti, kao da bi im
o svojoj prošlosti, kao da bi im
03:42
somehow weaken their standing in the foreground,
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to nekako oduzelo čvrsto tlo pod nogama,
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as if it were somehow Kryptonite, as if it were a time bomb
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kao da im je to nekakav kriptonit,
kao da su u nekakvoj vremenskoj kapsuli
kao da su u nekakvoj vremenskoj kapsuli
03:50
strapped on the inside. Children in care,
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zarobljeni iznutra. Zbrinuta deca,
03:54
who've had a life in care, deserve the right
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o čijim je životima brinula
država, zaslužuju pravo
država, zaslužuju pravo
03:58
to own and live the memory of their own childhood.
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da poseduju i oživljavaju
sećanje na vlastito detinjstvo.
sećanje na vlastito detinjstvo.
04:03
It is that simple.
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To je tako jednostavno.
04:06
My own mother — and I should say this here —
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Moja rođena majka,
trebalo bi da kažem ovo ovde,
trebalo bi da kažem ovo ovde,
04:10
she same to this country in the late '60s,
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došla je u ovu zemlju
tokom kasnih šezdesetih
tokom kasnih šezdesetih
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and she was, you know, she found herself pregnant,
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i ona je ostala u drugom stanju
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as women did in the late '60s. You know what I mean?
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kao što su i druge žene
u kasnim šezdesetim
u kasnim šezdesetim
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They found themselves pregnant.
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ostajale trudne.
04:21
And she sort of, she had no idea of the context
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Na neki način nije imala
predstavu o okruženju
predstavu o okruženju
04:26
in which she'd landed.
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u koje je dospela.
04:30
In the 1960s -- I should give you some context -- in the 1960s,
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Tokom šezdesetih godina, približiću vam
malo društvene prilike šezdesetih godina,
malo društvene prilike šezdesetih godina,
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if you were pregnant and you were single,
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ako ste bili trudni a sami,
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you were seen as a threat to the community.
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posmatrali su vas
kao pretnju po zajednicu.
kao pretnju po zajednicu.
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You were separated from your family by the state.
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Država bi vas oduzela od porodice.
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You were separated from your family and placed into
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Bili biste oduzeti i smešteni
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mother and baby homes.
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u domove za majke i decu.
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You were appointed a social worker.
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Dobili biste svog socijalnog radnika.
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The adoptive parents were lined up.
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Roditelji koji su hteli
da usvoje su stajali u redu.
da usvoje su stajali u redu.
04:57
It was the primary purpose of the social worker, the aim,
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Primarna svrha
socijalnog radnika, sam cilj,
socijalnog radnika, sam cilj,
05:01
to get the woman at her most vulnerable time
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je bio da primora ženu u najtežem trenutku
05:04
in her entire life, to sign the adoption papers.
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u svom životu da potpiše
dokument o usvajanju.
dokument o usvajanju.
05:09
So the adoption papers were signed.
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Tako se dokumentacija
za usvajanje potpisivala.
za usvajanje potpisivala.
05:11
The mother and baby's homes were often run by nuns.
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Domove za majke i decu su
često vodile časne sestre.
često vodile časne sestre.
05:15
The adoption papers were signed,
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Dokumentacija za usvajanje
bi bila potpisana,
bi bila potpisana,
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the child was given to the adoptive parents, and the mother
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dete bi bilo predato
hraniteljima, a majka bi
hraniteljima, a majka bi
05:22
shipped back to her community
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bila vraćena u svoju zajednicu
05:24
to say that she'd been on a little break.
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da kaže kako je bila na kratkom odsustvu.
05:27
A little break.
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Kratko odsustvo.
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A little break.
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Kratko odsustvo.
05:31
The first secret of shame for a woman
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Prva tajna o sramoti za ženu zato
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for being a woman, "a little break."
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što je žena - „kratko odsustvo".
05:40
The adoption process took, like, a matter of months,
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Proces usvajanja je
trajao, recimo, mesecima
trajao, recimo, mesecima
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so it was a closed shop, you know, sealed deal,
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tako da je to bio gotov posao,
05:47
an industrious, utilitarian solution:
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„industrijsko" utilitarističko rešenje:
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the government, the farmer,
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vlada - poljoprivrednik,
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the adopting parents, the consumer,
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roditelji koji usvajaju - potrošač,
06:01
the mother, the earth, and the child, the crop.
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majka - zemlja, dete - plod.
06:06
It's kind of easy to patronize the past,
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Lako je popovati prošlosti
06:10
to forego our responsibilities in the present.
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i odbaciti naše sadašnje obaveze.
06:15
What happened then is a direct reflection
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Ono što se dogodilo
nekad je direktan odraz
nekad je direktan odraz
06:19
of what is happening now. Everybody believed themselves
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onog što se događa sad.
Svako ko je verovao sebi
Svako ko je verovao sebi
06:24
to be doing the right thing by God and by the state
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da radi pravu stvar u skladu
sa voljom božjom i državnom
sa voljom božjom i državnom
06:29
for the big society, fast-tracking adoption.
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za veliku zajednicu - munjevito usvajanje.
06:36
So anyway, she comes here, 1967, she's pregnant,
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Kako god. Došla je ovde
u drugom stanju 1967. godine
u drugom stanju 1967. godine
06:41
and she comes from Ethiopia that was celebrating
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iz Etiopije koja je proslavljala
06:46
its own jubilee at the time
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te godine jubilej
06:49
under the Emperor Haile Selassie,
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vladavine cara Hajla Salasija
06:51
and she lands months before the Enoch Powell speech,
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i bila je ovde mesecima
pre govora Enoha Pauela -
pre govora Enoha Pauela -
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the "Rivers of Blood" speech.
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pre govora o „Reci krvi".
06:59
She lands months before the Beatles release "The White Album,"
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Bila je ovde mesecima ranije pre
nego što su Bitlsi izdali „Beli album",
nego što su Bitlsi izdali „Beli album",
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months before Martin Luther King was killed.
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pre nego što je Martin Luter King ubijen.
07:06
It was a summer of love if you were white.
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Ako ste tada bili beli,
to je za vas bilo leto ljubavi.
to je za vas bilo leto ljubavi.
07:08
If you were black, it was a summer of hate.
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Ako ste bili crni,
onda je to za vas bilo leto mržnje.
onda je to za vas bilo leto mržnje.
07:12
So she goes from Oxford, she's sent to the north of England
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Tako je ona otišla iz Oksforda,
bila je poslata na sever Engleske
bila je poslata na sever Engleske
07:18
to a mother and baby home, and appointed a social worker.
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u dom za majke i decu
i dobila je svog socijalnog radnika.
i dobila je svog socijalnog radnika.
07:22
It's her plan. You know, I have to say this in the Houses --
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To je bio njen plan.
Znate, moram to reći u parlamentu -
Znate, moram to reći u parlamentu -
07:26
It's her plan to have me fostered for a short period of time
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planirala je da me udomi
na vrlo kratko vreme
na vrlo kratko vreme
07:31
while she studies. But the social worker,
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dok je studirala. Ali je socijalni radnik
07:34
he had a different agenda.
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imao drugačija pravila.
07:37
He found the foster parents, and he said to them,
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Pronašao je hraniteljsku
porodicu i kazao im:
porodicu i kazao im:
07:41
"Treat this as an adoption. He's yours forever.
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"Smatrajte ovo usvajanjem.
Vaš će biti zauvek.
Vaš će biti zauvek.
07:45
His name is Norman." (Laughter)
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Njegovo ime je Norman." (Smeh)
07:49
Norman! (Laughter)
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Norman! (Smeh)
07:51
Norman!
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Norman!
07:54
So they took me. I was a message, they said.
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Tako su me uzeli. Ja sam bio
poruka, kako su rekli,
poruka, kako su rekli,
08:00
I was a sign from God, they said.
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bio sam znak od Boga.
08:02
I was Norman Mark Greenwood.
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Ja sam bio Norman Mark Grinvud.
08:06
Now, for the next 11 years, all I know is that this woman,
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Za narednih jedanaest godina,
sve što znam je da je ta žena,
sve što znam je da je ta žena,
08:10
this birth woman, should have her eyes scratched out
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rođena majka, trebalo bi
da iskopa svoje oči
da iskopa svoje oči
zato što nije potpisala dokumentaciju
o usvajanju. Bila je zla žena,
o usvajanju. Bila je zla žena,
08:12
for not signing the adoption papers. She was an evil woman
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08:15
too selfish to sign, so I spent those 11 years
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previše sebična da bi ih potpisala,
tako da sam proveo tih 11 godina
tako da sam proveo tih 11 godina
08:18
kneeling and praying.
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klečeći i moleći se.
08:21
I tried praying. I swear I tried praying.
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Pokušao sam da se molim.
Kunem se da jesam.
Kunem se da jesam.
08:24
"God, can I have a bike for Christmas?"
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„Gospode, da li mogu
da dobijem bicikl za Božić?"
da dobijem bicikl za Božić?"
08:28
But I would always answer myself, "Yes, of course you can."
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Ali bih uvek odgovarao sebi:
„Da, naravno da možeš."
„Da, naravno da možeš."
08:32
(Laughter)
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( Smeh)
08:34
And then I was supposed to determine whether that
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Onda je trebalo da odredim da li
08:37
was the voice of God or it was the voice of the Devil.
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taj glas dolazi od Boga ili od đavola.
08:40
And it turns out I've got the Devil inside of me.
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Ispostavilo se da đavo obitava u meni.
08:47
Who knew? (Laughter)
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Ko je to znao? (Smeh)
08:50
So anyway, two years sort of passed,
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Kako god, dve godine su nekako prošle,
08:53
and they had a child of their own,
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a oni su imali svoje dete,
08:55
and then another two years passed, and they had another child of their own,
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a onda su prošle još dve godine,
a oni su imali drugo dete.
a oni su imali drugo dete.
08:57
and then another time passed
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Nakon toga je neko vreme prošlo,
08:59
and they had another child that they called an accident,
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a oni su imali dete koje
su nazivali slučajnošću,
su nazivali slučajnošću,
09:02
which I thought was an unusual name. (Laughter)
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za šta sam mislio da
je neobično ime. (Smeh)
je neobično ime. (Smeh)
09:05
And I was on the cusp of, sort of, adolescence,
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Ja sam tada bio
na granici adolescentnosti
na granici adolescentnosti
09:09
so I was starting to take biscuits from the tin without asking.
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tako da sam počeo da uzimam
kolačiće iz posude bez pitanja.
kolačiće iz posude bez pitanja.
09:13
I was starting to stay out a little bit late, etc., etc.
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Počeo sam da ostajem
van kuće do kasno i slično.
van kuće do kasno i slično.
09:17
Now, in their religiosity, in their naivete,
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Sad, u religioznosti i naivnosti su
09:21
my mom and dad, which I believed them to be forever,
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moji mama i tata, za šta sam
verovao da će uvek tako biti,
verovao da će uvek tako biti,
09:23
as they said they were, my mom and dad
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kako su sami kazali,
09:26
conceived that I had the Devil inside of me.
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mislili da đavo obitava u nojim grudima.
I šta - treba da to ispričam
ovde zato što je to način
ovde zato što je to način
09:33
And what -- I should say this here, because this is how
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they engineered my leaving.
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na koji su oni režirali moj odlazak.
09:37
They sat me at a table, my foster mom, and she said to me,
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Seli smo za sto i moja druga majka
me je pitala:
me je pitala:
09:41
"You don't love us, do you?" At 11 years old.
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„Ti nas ne voliš, zar ne?"
Bilo mi je tad 11 godina.
Bilo mi je tad 11 godina.
09:43
They've had three other children. I'm the fourth. The third was an accident.
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Imali su još troje dece
Ja sam bio četvrto, treće-slučajnost.
Ja sam bio četvrto, treće-slučajnost.
09:46
And I said, "Yeah, of course I do." Because you do.
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Odgovorio sam: „Naravno da vas
volim zato što vi volite mene."
volim zato što vi volite mene."
Ona me je zamolila
da odem i razmislim o ljubavi,
da odem i razmislim o ljubavi,
09:50
My foster mother asked me to go away to think about love
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09:52
and what it is and to read the Scriptures and to come back tomorrow
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kao i o tome šta je to i da čitam
biblijske zapise kako bih se vratio sutra
biblijske zapise kako bih se vratio sutra
09:55
and give my most honest and truthful answer.
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i dao svoj najčasniji
i najiskreniji odgovor.
i najiskreniji odgovor.
09:58
So this was an opportunity. If they were asking me
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Ovo je bila prilika. Ako su me već pitali
10:01
whether I loved them or not, then I mustn't love them,
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da li ih volim ili ne,
onda ih ne smem voleti,
onda ih ne smem voleti,
10:03
which led me to the miracle of thought that I thought they wanted me to get to.
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što će me dovesti do svetlosti uma
do kog su oni hteli da dospem.
do kog su oni hteli da dospem.
10:06
"I will ask God for forgiveness and His light will shine
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„Zamoliću Gospoda za oproštaj
i on će mi osvetliti
i on će mi osvetliti
10:09
through me to them. How fantastic." This was an opportunity.
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put do njih. Stvarno fantastično."
Ovo je bila prilika.
Ovo je bila prilika.
10:13
The theology was perfect, the timing unquestionable,
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Uverenja su bila savršena,
vreme za ovo neupitno,
vreme za ovo neupitno,
10:15
and the answer as honest as a sinner could get.
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a odgovor častan
koliko može da ga da grešnik.
koliko može da ga da grešnik.
10:18
"I mustn't love you," I said to them. "But I will ask God for forgiveness."
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„Ja vas ne smem voleti", kazao sam im,
„ali ću moliti boga za oproštaj."
„ali ću moliti boga za oproštaj."
10:23
"Because you don't love us, Norman,
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„S obzirom na to
da nas ne voliš, Normane,
da nas ne voliš, Normane,
10:25
clearly you've chosen your path."
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jasno je da si sam odabrao svoj put".
10:28
Twenty-four hours later, my social worker,
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Dvadeset četiri časa kasnije
me je moj socijalni radnik,
me je moj socijalni radnik,
10:31
this strange man who used to visit me every couple of months,
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čovek koji me je posećivao
svakih nekoliko meseci,
svakih nekoliko meseci,
10:34
he's waiting for me in the car as I say goodbye to my parents.
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čekao u svojim kolima
dok sam se pozdravljao sa roditeljima.
dok sam se pozdravljao sa roditeljima.
10:37
I didn't say goodbye to anybody, not my mother, my father,
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Nisam rekao doviđenja nikome,
ni svojoj majci, ni ocu,
ni svojoj majci, ni ocu,
10:39
my sisters, my brothers, my aunts, my uncles,
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sestrama, braći, tetkama, stričevima,
10:41
my cousins, my grandparents, nobody.
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rođacima, babi i dedi, nikome.
10:45
On the way to the children's home, I started to ask myself,
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Na putu za dom sam upitao sebe:
10:48
"What's happened to me?"
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„Šta mi se to dogodilo?"
10:51
It's not that I'd had the rug pulled from beneath me
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Nije kao da su izvukli tepih ispod mene,
10:55
as much as the entire floor had been taken away.
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koliko deluje da je ceo sprat otrgnut.
10:59
When I got to the —
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Kada sam otišao odatle,
11:03
For the next four, five years,
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narednih četiri ili pet godina
11:08
I was held in four different children's homes.
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sam proveo u četiri različita doma.
11:12
On the third children's home, at 15,
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Kada sam bio u svom trećem domu,
sa petnaest godina sam
sa petnaest godina sam
11:16
I started to rebel, and what I did was,
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počeo da se bunim
i to sam činio tako što sam nabavio
i to sam činio tako što sam nabavio
11:19
I got three tins of paint, Airfix paint that you use for models,
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tri konzerve sa farbom, „Erfiks"
koja se koristi za modele.
koja se koristi za modele.
11:23
and I was -- it was a big children's home, big Victorian children's home --
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Radilo se o velikoj dečijoj kući,
velikoj viktorijanskoj dečijoj kući,
velikoj viktorijanskoj dečijoj kući,
a ja sam bio u malenoj
kupoli na njenom vrhu
kupoli na njenom vrhu
11:27
and I was in a little turret at the top of it,
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11:29
and I poured them, red, yellow and green,
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i izlio sam boje preko
crepova bojama Afrike:
crepova bojama Afrike:
11:32
the colors of Africa, down the tiles.
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crvenom, zelenom i žutom.
11:37
You couldn't see it from the street, because the home
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To se nije moglo videti sa ulice
11:40
was surrounded by beech trees.
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zato što je dom bio okružen bukvama.
11:42
For doing this, I was incarcerated for a year
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Zbog ovoga sam bio zatvoren na godinu dana
11:47
in an assessment center which was actually
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u centru za preispitivanje koji je
11:50
a remand center. It was a virtual prison
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bio u stvari pritvor. To je bio virtuelni
11:55
for young people.
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zatvor za mlade ljude.
Uzgred rečeno, socijalni radnik mi je
Uzgred rečeno, socijalni radnik mi je
11:59
By the way, years later, my social worker said
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pre nekoliko godina rekao da nikada
12:01
that I should never have been put in there.
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nije trebalo da budem tamo.
12:02
I wasn't charged for anything. I hadn't done anything wrong.
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Bio sam bespravno okrivljen.
Nisam uradio ništa loše.
Nisam uradio ništa loše.
12:05
But because I had no family to inquire about me,
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Ali s obzirom na to da nisam imao
porodicu koja bi se raspitivala o meni,
porodicu koja bi se raspitivala o meni,
12:10
they could do anything to me.
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oni su mogli da mi urade bilo šta.
12:14
I'm 17 years old, and
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Bio sam sedamnaestogodišnjak,
12:18
they had a padded cell.
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a oni su imali posebnu ćeliju
za mentalno obolele.
za mentalno obolele.
12:21
They would march me down corridors in last-size order.
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Gurali su me kroz hodnike
u dugim redovima,
u dugim redovima,
12:27
They -- I was put in a dormitory
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Bio sam u spavaonici sa poznatim
12:30
with a confirmed Nazi sympathizer.
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sledbenikom nacizma.
12:34
All of the staff were ex-police -- interesting --
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Svi zaposleni su bili bivši policajci ili,
12:37
and ex-probation officers.
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zanimljivo, nadzornici uslovne kazne.
12:39
The man who ran it was an ex-army officer.
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Čovek koji je upravljao domom
je bio bivši vojni oficir.
je bio bivši vojni oficir.
12:43
Every time I had a visit by a person who I did not know
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Svaki put kada bi me posetila
osoba koju nisam poznavao
osoba koju nisam poznavao
12:46
who would feed me grapes, once every three months,
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i koja me je hranila grožđem
svaka tri meseca,
svaka tri meseca,
12:50
I was strip-searched.
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bio bih pretresen do gole kože.
12:52
That home was full of young boys who were on remand
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Dom je bio pun mladića
koji su bili u pritvoru
koji su bili u pritvoru
12:55
for things like murder.
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zbog stvari poput ubistva.
13:01
And this was the preparation that I was being given
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I to je bila priprema koju sam dobio
13:05
after 17 years as a child of the state.
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nakon sedamnaest godina
života državnog deteta.
života državnog deteta.
13:11
I have to tell this story.
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Moram da vam ispričam ovu priču.
13:13
I have to tell it, because there was no one
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Moram da je ispričam,
zato što nema nikog
zato što nema nikog
13:16
to put two and two together.
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ko će sabrati dva i dva.
13:18
I slowly became aware that I knew nobody
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Polako sam postao svestan
da nisam znao nikoga
da nisam znao nikoga
13:21
that knew me for longer than a year.
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ko je poznavao mene duže od godinu dana.
13:25
See, that's what family does.
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Vidite, to je uticaj porodice.
13:28
It gives you reference points.
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Ona vam daje osećaj vrednosti.
13:30
I'm not defining a good family from a bad family.
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Ne poredim dobre i loše porodice.
Samo kažem da znate
kada vam je rođendan
kada vam je rođendan
13:33
I'm just saying that you know when your birthday is
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iz same činjenice da postoji neko da
vam kaže da vam je rođendan.
vam kaže da vam je rođendan.
13:35
by virtue of the fact that somebody tells you when your birthday is,
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13:37
a mother, a father, a sister, a brother, an aunt, an uncle,
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Majka, otac, sestra, brat, tetka, stric,
13:39
a cousin, a grandparent. It matters to someone,
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rođak, deda ili baba. To nekom znači
13:41
and therefore it matters to you. Understand,
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tako da to znači i vama, Shvatite,
13:43
I was 14 years old, tucked away in myself, into myself,
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imao sam 14 godina
i bio sam uvučen u sebe,
i bio sam uvučen u sebe,
13:48
and I wasn't touched either, physically touched.
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i nisam bio dirnut uopšte, čak ni fizički.
13:52
I'm reporting back. I'm reporting back simply to say that
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Izveštavam. Izveštavam
da bih jednostavno rekao
da bih jednostavno rekao
da su postojale dve stvari
koje sam želeo da uradim
koje sam želeo da uradim
14:01
when I left the children's home I had two things
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14:04
that I wanted to do. One was to find my family,
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kada sam napuštao dom.
Prva je bila da pronađem svoju porodicu,
Prva je bila da pronađem svoju porodicu,
14:08
and the other was to write poetry.
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a druga je bila da pišem poeziju.
14:09
In creativity I saw light.
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U kreativnosti sam pronašao svetlost.
14:12
In the imagination I saw the endless possibility of life,
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U mašti sam pronašao beskonačnu
mogućnost življenja,
mogućnost življenja,
14:17
the endless truth, the permanent creation of reality,
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beskonačnu istinu,
trajnu kreaciju stvarnosti,
trajnu kreaciju stvarnosti,
14:23
the place where anger was an expression
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mesto gde bes predstavlja izraz
14:29
in the search for love, a place where dysfunction
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u potrazi za ljubavlju,
mesto gde disfunkcija
mesto gde disfunkcija
14:33
is a true reaction to untruth.
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predstavlja istinsku reakciju
na neistinu.
na neistinu.
14:38
I've just got to say it to you all: I found all of my family
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Treba da vam kažem samo sledeće:
pronašao sam celu svoju porodicu
pronašao sam celu svoju porodicu
14:41
in my adult life. I spent all of my adult life finding them,
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u svoje zrelo doba. Potrošio sam ga celog
tragajući za njima
tragajući za njima
14:45
and I've now got a fully dysfunctional family just like everybody else.
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Sada imam potpuno nefunkcionalnu
porodicu kao i svi drugi.
porodicu kao i svi drugi.
14:49
But I'm reporting back to you to say quite simply
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Ali obraćam se da bih vam
rekao sasvim jednostavno
rekao sasvim jednostavno
14:52
that you can define how strong a democracy is
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da možete proceniti koliko je
demokratsko društvo snažno
demokratsko društvo snažno
14:58
by how its government treats its child.
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po tome kako se njena vlast ophodi
prema svom detetu.
prema svom detetu.
15:03
I don't mean children. I mean the child of the state.
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Ne mislim na decu nego na državno dete.
15:05
Thanks very much. It's been an honor. (Applause)
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Mnogo vam hvala. Bila mi je čast.
(Aplauz)
(Aplauz)
15:10
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Lemn Sissay - Poet and playwrightAn award-winning playwright and popular broadcaster in the UK, as well as the author of five poetry books, Lemn Sissay has a way with words.
Why you should listen
Lemn Sissay wears many hats as a writer and performer.
The author of five poetry collections, Sissay's poems dot the London landscape and are etched into major landmarks, from the site of the 2012 Summer Olympics to The Royal Festival Hall. In 2006, Desmond Tutu unveiled his sculpture poem "Gilt of Cain," located near Fenchurch Street Station. Currently an associate artist at Southbank Centre and patron of the Letterbox Club, Sissay was named the official poet of the London 2012 Olympics. His poetry art has also been displayed at The Royal Academy.
Sissay is perhaps best known for his work for the BBC, which shines a spotlight on his upbringing as a foster child in the UK. In 1995, he shared his story in the BBC documentary Internal Flight and his BBC radio documentary Child of the State was nominated for a 2010 Sony Award. His play Something Dark charts his quest to find his family. After a long search, he located his birth mom in Gambia and has since come to know the rest of his family.
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