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Janine Shepherd: A broken body isn't a broken person
Janine Shepherd: Tubuh yang hancur tidak berarti orang yang hancur
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Atlit ski lintas alam Janine Shepherd mengharapkan mendapat medali Olimpiade -- sampai dia ditabrak truk saat latihan bersepeda. Dia membagikan kisah luar biasa tentang potensi manusia dalam pemulihan. Pesannya: Anda bukanlah milik tubuh Anda, dan memasrahkan mimpi lama membuka peluang mimpi yang baru untuk tumbuh.
Janine Shepherd - Pilot
Aspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly. Full bio
Aspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly. Full bio
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00:16
Life is about opportunities,
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Hidup adalah tentang kesempatan,
00:19
creating them and embracing them, and for me,
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menciptakan dan mensyukurinya, dan bagi saya
00:22
that was the Olympic dream.
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itu adalah impian akan Olimpiade.
00:24
That's what defined me. That was my bliss.
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Itulah arti hidup saya, kebahagiaan saya.
00:27
As a cross-country skier and member of the Australian ski team,
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Sebagai seorang pemain ski lintas alam dan anggota tim ski Australia
00:31
headed towards the Winter Olympics,
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yang bersiap mengikuti Olimpiade Musim Dingin,
00:33
I was on a training bike ride with my fellow teammates.
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saya sedang berlatih bersama rekan-rekan saya.
00:37
As we made our way up towards
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Saat itu kami sedang mendaki
00:39
the spectacular Blue Mountains west of Sydney,
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Blue Mountains yang spektakuler di sebelah barat Sydney,
00:42
it was the perfect autumn day:
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cuaca musim gugur saat itu sempurna:
00:45
sunshine, the smell of eucalypt and a dream.
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sinar matahari, aroma eukaliptus, dan sebuah impian.
00:49
Life was good.
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Hidup sangat indah.
00:50
We'd been on our bikes for around five and half hours
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Kami sudah berkendara sekitar lima setengah jam
00:53
when we got to the part of the ride that I loved,
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saat kami sampai di rute yang saya sukai,
00:55
and that was the hills, because I loved the hills.
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yaitu perbukitan, karena saya menyukainya.
00:58
And I got up off the seat of my bike, and I started
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Lalu saya turun dari kendaraan saya dan mulai
01:01
pumping my legs, and as I sucked in the cold mountain air,
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memanaskan kaki saya dan saat saya menghirup udara gunung yang dingin
01:04
I could feel it burning my lungs, and I looked up
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saya bisa merasakan udara itu membakar paru-paru saya,
01:07
to see the sun shining in my face.
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saya melihat matahari yang menyidari wajah saya.
01:10
And then everything went black.
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Lalu semuanya hitam.
01:14
Where was I? What was happening?
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Di mana saya? Apa yang terjadi?
01:17
My body was consumed by pain.
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Tubuh saya sangat kesakitan.
01:20
I'd been hit by a speeding utility truck
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Saya ditabrak oleh truk pikap
01:23
with only 10 minutes to go on the bike ride.
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saat saya hanya perlu 10 menit lagi untuk sampai di tujuan.
01:26
I was airlifted from the scene of the accident
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Saya diangkut dari tempat kejadian
01:28
by a rescue helicopter to a large spinal unit in Sydney.
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dengan helikopter penyelamat menuju ke unit tulang belakang besar di Sydney.
01:32
I had extensive and life-threatening injuries.
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Saya menderita cedera berat yang mengancam nyawa.
01:35
I'd broken my neck and my back in six places.
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Leher dan punggung saya patah menjadi enam bagian.
01:39
I broke five ribs on my left side.
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Lima tulang rusuk kiri saya patah.
01:42
I broke my right arm. I broke my collarbone.
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Tangan kanan dan tulang selangka saya patah.
01:44
I broke some bones in my feet.
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Ada beberapa tulang di kaki saya yang patah.
01:47
My whole right side was ripped open, filled with gravel.
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Semua bagian kanan tubuh saya terbuka dan penuh dengan kerikil.
01:50
My head was cut open across the front, lifted back,
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Kepala bagian depan saya terbuka dan tertarik
01:52
exposing the skull underneath.
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sehingga tengkorak saya dapat terlihat.
01:54
I had head injures. I had internal injuries.
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Saya menderita cedera kepala dan cedera dalam.
01:56
I had massive blood loss. In fact, I lost about five liters
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Saya kehilangan banyak darah. Sebenarnya saya kehilangan
01:59
of blood, which is all someone my size would actually hold.
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lima leter darah, yang sebenarnya jumlah total darah untuk orang seukuran saya.
02:02
By the time the helicopter arrived at Prince Henry Hospital
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Saat helikopter itu sampai di Rumah Sakit Prince Henry
02:05
in Sydney, my blood pressure was 40 over nothing.
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di Sydney, tekanan darah saya 40 dan 0.
02:09
I was having a really bad day. (Laughter)
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Saya mendapat hari yang sangat buruk. (Tawa)
02:18
For over 10 days, I drifted between two dimensions.
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Lebih dari 10 hari, saya terombang-ambing di antara 2 dimensi,
02:23
I had an awareness of being in my body, but also
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Saya merasa saya berada di dalam tubuh saya
02:26
being out of my body, somewhere else, watching
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sekaligus di luar tubuh saya, di tempat lain, yang melihat
02:29
from above as if it was happening to someone else.
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dari atas seperti hal itu terjadi pada orang lain.
02:31
Why would I want to go back to a body that was so broken?
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Mengapa saya ingin kembali ke tubuh yang begitu hancur.
02:34
But this voice kept calling me: "Come on, stay with me."
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Namun suara itu tetap memanggil, "Ayo, tetaplah bersamaku."
02:40
"No. It's too hard."
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"Tidak. Itu terlalu sulit."
02:43
"Come on. This is our opportunity."
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"Ayolah. Inilah kesempatan kita."
02:46
"No. That body is broken. It can no longer serve me."
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"Tidak. Tubuh itu sudah hancur dan tidak bisa saya gunakan lagi."
02:49
"Come on. Stay with me. We can do it. We can do it together."
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"Ayolah. Tinggallah bersama saya. Kita bisa melakukannya bersama."
02:55
I was at a crossroads.
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Saya berada di persimpangan.
02:57
I knew if I didn't return to my body, I'd have to leave this world forever.
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Saya tahu jika saya tidak kembali ke tubuh saya, saya akan meninggalkan dunia ini selamanya.
03:01
It was the fight of my life.
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Itulah pertempuran hidup saya.
03:05
After 10 days, I made the decision to return to my body,
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Setelah 10 hari, saya memutuskan untuk kembali ke tubuh saya,
03:10
and the internal bleeding stopped.
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dan pendarahan dalamnya berhenti.
03:14
The next concern was whether I would walk again,
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Masalah berikutnya adalah apakah saya akan bisa berjalan lagi
03:18
because I was paralyzed from the waist down.
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karena saya lumpuh dari pinggang ke bawah.
03:20
They said to my parents, the neck break was a stable fracture,
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Mereka berkata kepada orang tua saya, tulang yang patah di leher saya stabil
03:23
but the back was completely crushed.
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namun punggung saya benar-benar hancur.
03:25
The vertebra at L1 was like you'd dropped a peanut,
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Vertebra pada L1 seperti Anda menjatuhkan kacang,
03:28
stepped on it, smashed it into thousands of pieces.
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menginjaknya, dan meremukannya menjadi berkeping-keping.
03:32
They'd have to operate.
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Mereka harus mengoperasi saya.
03:34
They went in. They put me on a beanbag. They cut me,
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Mereka masuk. Mereka memasukkan saya ke kantung. Mereka memotong saya,
03:37
literally cut me in half, I have a scar
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membelah saya menjadi dua. Ada luka
03:39
that wraps around my entire body.
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yang mengelilingi tubuh saya.
03:42
They picked as much broken bone as they could
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Mereka mengambil sebanyak mungkin tulang yang hancur di tubuh saya
03:45
that had lodged in my spinal cord.
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yang telah bersarang pada saraf tulang belakang saya.
03:47
They took out two of my broken ribs, and they rebuilt my back,
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Mereka mengambil dua tulang rusuk saya yang patah, dan memasang kembali punggung saya.
03:51
L1, they rebuilt it, they took out another broken rib,
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L1, mereka memasangnya, mereka mengambil tulang rusuk lainnya,
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they fused T12, L1 and L2 together.
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mereka menggabungkan T12, L1, dan L2.
03:57
Then they stitched me up. They took an entire hour to stitch me up.
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Lalu mereka menjahit saya. Mereka perlu satu jam untuk menjahit saya.
04:00
I woke up in intensive care, and the doctors were really excited
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Saya tersadar di unit gawat darurat, dan para dokter sangat senang
04:03
that the operation had been a success because at that stage
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karena operasinya sukses karena saat itu
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I had a little bit of movement in one of my big toes,
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saya bisa sedikit menggerakkan kaki saya,
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and I thought, "Great, because I'm going to the Olympics!"
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dan saya merasa, "Bagus, karena saya bisa mengikuti Olimpiade!"
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(Laughter)
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(Tawa)
04:14
I had no idea. That's the sort of thing
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Saya tidak tahu. Ada hal semacam itu
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that happens to someone else, not me, surely.
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yang terjadi pada orang lain, namun sudah pasti bukan saya.
04:19
But then the doctor came over to me, and she said,
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Lalu dokter itu mendatangi saya dan berkata
04:22
"Janine, the operation was a success, and we've picked
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"Janine, operasinya berhasil dan kami telah mengambil
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as much bone out of your spinal cord as we could,
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sebanyak mungkin tulang dari saraf tulang belakangmu,
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but the damage is permanent.
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namun kerusakan itu permanen.
04:29
The central nervous system nerves, there is no cure.
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Sistem saraf pusat itu rusak dan tidak ada obatnya.
04:33
You're what we call a partial paraplegic, and you'll have
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Sebagian dari bagian bawahmu akan lumpuh dan akan ada
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all of the injuries that go along with that.
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berbagai macam cedera yang menyertainya.
04:39
You have no feeling from the waist down, and at most,
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Kamu tidak akan bisa merasakan bagian bawah tubuhmu dan paling banyak
04:42
you might get 10- or 20-percent return.
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hanya akan kembali 10 atau 20 persen.
04:45
You'll have internal injuries for the rest of your life.
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Kamu menderita cedera dalam seumur hidup.
04:48
You'll have to use a catheter for the rest of your life.
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Kamu harus menggunakan kateter seumur hidup.
04:51
And if you walk again, it will be with calipers and a walking frame."
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Dan jika kau bisa berjalan lagi, kamu hanya bisa berjalan dengan alat bantu."
04:56
And then she said, "Janine,
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Lalu kemudian dia berkata, "Janine,
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you'll have to rethink everything you do in your life,
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kau harus memikirkan kembali semua hal yang ingin kau lakukan dalam hidupmu
05:00
because you're never going to be able to do the things you did before."
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karena kamu tidak akan dapat melakukan apa yang dapat kamu lakukan sebelumnya."
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I tried to grasp what she was saying.
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Saya mencoba menangkap perkataannya.
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I was an athlete. That's all I knew. That's all I'd done.
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Saya seorang atlet. Itulah yang saya tahu. Itulah yang saya lakukan.
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If I couldn't do that, then what could I do?
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Jika saya tidak bisa melakukannya. Lalu apa?
05:13
And the question I asked myself is, if I couldn't do that,
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Dan pertanyaan yang saya tanyakan adalah, jika saya tidak bisa melakukannya,
05:17
then who was I?
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lalu siapa saya?
05:23
They moved me from intensive care to acute spinal.
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Mereka memindahkan saya dari unit gawat darurat ke perawatan tulang belakang parah.
05:26
I was lying on a thin, hard spinal bed.
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Saya berbaring di ranjang yang tipis dan keras.
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I had no movement in my legs. I had tight stockings on
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Saya tidak bisa menggerakkan kaki saya, saya dipasangi stoking
05:31
to protect from blood clots.
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untuk melindungi dari pembekuan darah.
05:33
I had one arm in plaster, one arm tied down by drips.
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Satu tangan saya diplester, dan satu tangan saya diikat.
05:36
I had a neck brace and sandbags on either side of my head
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Saya dipasangi penjepit leher dan kantung pasir pada kedua sisi kepala saya
05:39
and I saw my world through a mirror
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dan saya melihat tubuh saya melalui cermin
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that was suspended above my head.
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yang digantung di atas kepala saya.
05:45
I shared the ward with five other people,
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Saya berbagi bangsal dengan lima orang lain
05:48
and the amazing thing is that because we were all lying
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dan yang luar biasa adalah karena kami semua lumpuh,
05:50
paralyzed in a spinal ward, we didn't know what each other looked like.
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dan tidak tahu seperti apa wajah orang lain.
05:55
How amazing is that? How often in life
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Betapa luar biasa. Seberapa sering di dalam hidup kita
05:58
do you get to make friendships, judgment-free,
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di mana kita dapat bersahabat, tanpa prasangka
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purely based on spirit?
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hanya berdasarkan semangat?
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And there were no superficial conversations
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Dan tidak ada percakapan palsu
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as we shared our innermost thoughts, our fears,
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saat kami bertukar pikiran terdalam kami, berbagi ketakutan kami,
06:12
and our hopes for life after the spinal ward.
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dan berbagi harapan akan kehidupan kami selanjutnya.
06:16
I remember one night, one of the nurses came in,
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Saya ingat suatu malam, seorang perawat bernama Jonathan
06:19
Jonathan, with a whole lot of plastic straws.
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datang dengan membawa banyak sedotan plastik.
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He put a pile on top of each of us, and he said,
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Dia menumpuk sedotan itu di atas tubuh kami dan berkata,
06:26
"Start threading them together."
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"Silakan dirangkai."
06:29
Well, there wasn't much else to do in the spinal ward, so we did.
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Tidak ada banyak hal yang bisa dikerjakan di sana, jadi kami merangkainya.
06:32
And when we'd finished, he went around silently
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Dan saat kami selesai, dia berkeliling
06:36
and he joined all of the straws up
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dan bergabung dengan kami merangkai semua sedotan itu
06:38
till it looped around the whole ward, and then he said,
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hingga sedotan itu mengelilingi seluruh bangsal dan dia berkata,
06:42
"Okay, everybody, hold on to your straws."
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"Baiklah, peganglah sedotan anda."
06:46
And we did. And he said, "Right. Now we're all connected."
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Kami menurutinya, lalu dia berkata, "Sekarang kita semua saling terhubung."
06:53
And as we held on, and we breathed as one,
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Dan saat kami memegangnya dan menyatukan nafas
06:58
we knew we weren't on this journey alone.
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kami tahu kami tidak sendirian.
07:02
And even lying paralyzed in the spinal ward,
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Bahkan orang lumpuh yang terbaring di bangsal ini,
07:07
there were moments of incredible depth and richness,
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ada saat kebenaran dan keterhubungan
07:10
of authenticity and connection
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yang sangat mendalam dan kaya
07:13
that I had never experienced before.
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yang belum pernah saya rasakan sebelumnya.
07:18
And each of us knew that when we left the spinal ward
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Dan kami masing-masing tahu saat kami meninggalkan bangsal ini
07:22
we would never be the same.
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kami tidak akan pernah sama lagi.
07:27
After six months, it was time to go home.
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Setelah 6 bulan, tibalah saatnya saya pulang.
07:31
I remember Dad pushing me outside in my wheelchair,
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Saya ingat ayah saya mendorong saya dengan kursi roda
07:35
wrapped in a plaster body cast,
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yang dibungkus lapisan plester
07:38
and feeling the sun on my face for the first time.
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dan saat merasakan sinar matahari untuk pertama kalinya
07:41
I soaked it up and I thought,
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saya merasakannya dan berpikir
07:42
how could I ever have taken this for granted?
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mengapa selama ini saya tidak mensyukurinya?
07:46
I felt so incredibly grateful for my life.
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Saya merasa benar-benar bersyukur akan hidup saya.
07:51
But before I left the hospital, the head nurse
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namun sebelum meninggalkan rumah sakit, kepala perawat
07:53
had said to me, "Janine, I want you to be ready,
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berkata kepada saya, "Janine, saya ingin kau bersiap
07:55
because when you get home, something's going to happen."
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karena saat sampai di rumah, akan terjadi sesuatu."
07:58
And I said, "What?" And she said,
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Dan saya berkata, "Apa?" Dan dia mengatakan,
07:59
"You're going to get depressed."
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"Anda akan menjadi depresi."
08:02
And I said, "Not me, not Janine the Machine,"
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Dan saya berkata, "Bukan saya, bukan Janine sang Mesin."
08:04
which was my nickname.
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itulah julukan saya.
08:06
She said, "You are, because, see, it happens to everyone.
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Dia berkata, "Kau akan depresi, karena itu terjadi pada semua orang
08:09
In the spinal ward, that's normal.
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di bangsal saraf tulang belakang itu. Itu normal.
08:12
You're in a wheelchair. That's normal.
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Kau ada di kursi roda, itu normal.
08:13
But you're going to get home and realize
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Namun kau akan pulang dan melihat
08:16
how different life is."
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seberapa berbeda hidupmu."
08:18
And I got home and something happened.
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Saya pulang dan terjadi sesuatu.
08:24
I realized Sister Sam was right.
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Saya menyadari bahwa Suster Sam benar.
08:27
I did get depressed.
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Saya menjadi depresi.
08:30
I was in my wheelchair. I had no feeling from the waist down,
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Saya duduk di kursi roda dan tidak bisa merasakan bagian bawah tubuh saya
08:33
attached to a catheter bottle. I couldn't walk.
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yang dipasangi botol kateter. Saya tidak bisa berjalan.
08:37
I'd lost so much weight in the hospital
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Berat badan saya turun drastis di rumah sakit
08:39
I now weighed about 80 pounds.
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berat badan saya hanya sekitar 40 kilogram.
08:43
And I wanted to give up.
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Dan saya ingin menyerah.
08:45
All I wanted to do was put my running shoes on and run out the door.
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Saya hanya ingin mengambil sepatu olahraga saya dan berlari keluar.
08:49
I wanted my old life back. I wanted my body back.
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Saya ingin kehidupan lama saya, tubuh saya yang dulu.
08:52
And I can remember Mom sitting on the end of my bed,
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Dan saya ingat ibu duduk di tepi tempat tidur saya
08:55
and saying, "I wonder if life will ever be good again."
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dan berkata, "Saya penasaran apakah hidup bisa normal kembali."
08:59
And I thought, "How could it? Because I've lost everything
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Namun saya pikir, "Bagaimana mungkin? Karena saya kehilangan semua
09:03
that I valued, everything that I'd worked towards.
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yang berharga, semua tujuan kerja keras saya.
09:07
Gone."
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Hilang."
09:10
And the question I asked was, "Why me? Why me?"
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Dan pertanyaan yang saya katakan adalah, "Mengapa saya?"
09:15
And then I remembered my friends
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Lalu saya ingat sahabat-sahabat saya
09:19
that were still in the spinal ward,
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yang masih ada di bangsal itu,
09:21
particularly Maria.
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terutama Maria.
09:23
Maria was in a car accident, and she woke up
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Maria mengalami kecelakaan mobil dan dia terbangun
09:25
on her 16th birthday to the news that she was a complete quadriplegic,
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pada ulang tahunnya yang ke-16 dan mendapat berita bahwa anggota badannya lumpuh total
09:30
had no movement from the neck down,
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sehingga bagian tubuh di bawah lehernya tidak bisa digerakkan,
09:32
had damage to her vocal chords, and she couldn't talk.
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pita suaranya rusak dan dia tidak dapat berbicara.
09:36
They told me, "We're going to move you next to her
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Mereka mengatakan, "Kami akan memindahkanmu di sebelahnya
09:38
because we think it will be good for her."
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karena kami rasa akan bagus baginya."
09:40
I was worried. I didn't know how I'd react
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Saya takut. Saya tidak tahu bagaimana harus bersikap
09:44
to being next to her.
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di sebelahnya.
09:46
I knew it would be challenging, but it was actually a blessing,
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Saya tahu itu akan sulit, namun sebenarnya itu adalah berkat
09:50
because Maria always smiled.
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karena Maria selalu tersenyum.
09:55
She was always happy, and even when she began to talk again,
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Dia selalu gembira, bahkan saat dia mulai berbicara lagi
09:59
albeit difficult to understand, she never complained, not once.
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walaupun sulit dimengerti, dia tidak pernah mengeluh sekalipun.
10:05
And I wondered how had she ever found that level of acceptance.
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Dan saya bingung bagaimana dia bisa berpasrah seperti itu.
10:11
And I realized that this wasn't just my life.
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Dan saya menyadari bahwa bukan hanya hidup saya saja.
10:16
It was life itself. I realized that this wasn't just my pain.
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Namun kehidupan itu sendiri. Bukan hanya derita saya.
10:20
It was everybody's pain. And then I knew, just like before,
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Namun derita semua orang. Lalu saya tahu, sama seperti sebelumnya
10:25
that I had a choice. I could keep fighting this
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saya memiliki pilihan. Saya dapat berjuang
10:30
or I could let go and accept not only my body
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atau saya bisa melepaskan dan menerima bukan hanya tubuh saya
10:35
but the circumstances of my life.
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namun juga kondisi kehidupan saya.
10:38
And then I stopped asking, "Why me?"
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Lalu saya berhenti bertanya, "Mengapa saya?"
10:42
And I started to ask, "Why not me?"
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Dan saya mulai bertanya, "Mengapa bukan saya?"
10:45
And then I thought to myself, maybe being at rock bottom
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Lalu saya berpikir, mungkin berada di tempat paling bawah
10:49
is actually the perfect place to start.
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sebenarnya tempat yang sempurna untuk mulai.
10:56
I had never before thought of myself as a creative person.
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Sebelumnya saya tidak pernah berpikir bahwa saya adalah orang yang kreatif.
11:00
I was an athlete. My body was a machine.
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Saya seorang atlit. Tubuh saya adalah mesin.
11:04
But now I was about to embark on the most creative project
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Namun saya baru akan memulai proyek paling kreatif
11:08
that any of us could ever do:
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yang dapat dikerjakan oleh kita semua
11:10
that of rebuilding a life.
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yaitu membangun kembali kehidupan.
11:13
And even though I had absolutely no idea
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Walaupun saya sama sekali tidak tahu
11:15
what I was going to do, in that uncertainty
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apa yang akan saya lakukan, dalam ketidakpastian itu
11:18
came a sense of freedom.
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muncul rasa kebebasan.
11:21
I was no longer tied to a set path.
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Saya tidak lagi terikat pada suatu jalan.
11:23
I was free to explore life's infinite possibilities.
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Saya bebas menjelajahi peluang hidup yang tidak terbatas.
11:30
And that realization was about to change my life.
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Dan kesadaran itu segera mengubah hidup saya.
11:36
Sitting at home in my wheelchair and my plaster body cast,
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Saat duduk di kursi roda dengan plaster di tubuh saya,
11:41
an airplane flew overhead, and I looked up,
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ada pesawat yang melintas dan saya melihat
11:44
and I thought to myself, "That's it!
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dan berpikir, "Itu dia!
11:47
If I can't walk, then I might as well fly."
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Jika saya tidak bisa berjalan, lebih baik saya terbang."
11:52
I said, "Mom, I'm going to learn how to fly."
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"Ibu, saya akan belajar terbang."
11:54
She said, "That's nice, dear." (Laughter)
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Ibu saya berkata, "Bagus." (Tawa)
11:59
I said, "Pass me the yellow pages."
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"Berikan buku telepon."
12:00
She passed me the phone book, I rang up the flying school,
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Ibu memberi buku telepon dan saya menelepon sekolah terbang,
12:03
I made a booking, said I'd like to make a booking to come out for a flight.
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saya memesan untuk sekali penerbangan.
12:06
They said, "You know, when do you want to come out?"
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Mereka berkata, "Kapan kau mau datang?"
12:08
I said, "Well, I have to get a friend to drive me out
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Saya menjawab, "Saya harus mencari teman untuk mengantar saya
12:10
because I can't drive. Sort of can't walk either.
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karena saya tidak bisa mengemudi. Saya juga tidak bisa berjalan.
12:14
Is that a problem?"
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Itu tidak masalah, kan?"
12:15
I made a booking, and weeks later my friend Chris
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Saya memesan dan minggu depannya, teman saya Chris
12:17
and my mom drove me out to the airport,
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dan ibu saya mengantar saya ke bandara,
12:18
all 80 pounds of me covered in a plaster body cast
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40 kilogram tubuh saya terbungkus plaster
12:21
in a baggy pair of overalls. (Laughter)
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dalam pakaian longgar. (Tawa)
12:24
I can tell you, I did not look like the ideal candidate
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Saya dapat mengatakan, saya tidak terlihat sebagai calon yang ideal
12:27
to get a pilot's license. (Laughter)
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untuk mendapat sertifikat pilot. (Tawa)
12:30
I'm holding on to the counter because I can't stand.
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Saya memegang meja konter itu karena saya tidak bisa berdiri
12:32
I said, "Hi, I'm here for a flying lesson."
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dan berkata, "Hai, saya ingin masuk sekolah penerbangan."
12:34
And they took one look and ran out the back to draw short straws.
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Mereka melihat dan berlari ke belakang.
12:37
"You get her.""No, no, you take her."
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"Layani dia." "Tidak, kau saja."
12:41
Finally this guy comes out. He goes,
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Akhirnya orang ini keluar dan berkata,
12:42
"Hi, I'm Andrew, and I'm going to take you flying."
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"Hai, saya Andrew, dan kita akan terbang."
12:44
I go, "Great." And so they drive me down,
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Saya berkata, "Bagus." Dan mereka mengantar saya
12:46
they get me out on the tarmac,
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ke area parkir pesawat di bandara,
12:47
and there was this red, white and blue airplane.
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dan di sana ada pesawat berwarna merah, putih, dan biru.
12:49
It was beautiful. They lifted me into the cockpit.
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Sangat indah. Mereka mengangkat saya ke kokpit.
12:52
They had to slide me up on the wing, put me in the cockpit.
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Mereka harus meluncurkan saya di sayapnya dan memasukkan saya ke kokpit.
12:55
They sat me down. There are buttons and dials everywhere.
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Mereka duduk, ada tombol di mana-mana
12:57
I'm going, "Wow, how do you ever know what all these buttons and dials do?"
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Saya berkata, "Wow, bagaimana kau bisa tahu fungsi semua tombol ini?"
13:01
Andrew the instructor got in the front, started the airplane up.
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Andrew duduk di depan dan menghidupkan mesinnya.
13:03
He said, "Would you like to have a go at taxiing?"
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Dia berkata, "Kau ingin mencoba mengemudikannya di darat?"
13:05
That's when you use your feet to control the rudder pedals
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Saat itu Anda harus menggunakan kaki untuk mengendalikan pedal kemudi
13:07
to control the airplane on the ground.
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untuk mengendalikan pesawat itu di darat.
13:10
I said, "No, I can't use my legs."
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Saya berkata, "Kaki saya tidak bisa digunakan."
13:12
He went, "Oh."
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Dia menjawab, "Oh,"
13:13
I said, "But I can use my hands," and he said, "Okay."
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Saya meneruskan, "Tapi saya bisa menggunakan tangan," "Baiklah," katanya.
13:16
So he got over to the runway, and he applied the power.
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Jadi dia memasuki landasan pacu dan mendorongnya.
13:19
And as we took off down the runway,
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Dan saat kami lepas landas
13:22
and the wheels lifted up off the tarmac, and we became airborne,
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dan rodanya terangkat dari tanah dan kami mengudara,
13:26
I had the most incredible sense of freedom.
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saya merasa sangat bebas dan merdeka.
13:31
And Andrew said to me,
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Dan Andrew mengatakan
13:33
as we got over the training area,
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saat kami menuju daerah latihan,
13:36
"You see that mountain over there?"
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"Kau lihat gunung di sana?"
13:38
And I said, "Yeah."
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"Ya" kata saya.
13:40
And he said, "Well, you take the controls, and you fly towards that mountain."
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Dia berkata, "Kau pegang kemudinya dan terbanglah menuju gunung itu."
13:45
And as I looked up, I realized
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Saat saya melihat, saya menyadari
13:47
that he was pointing towards the Blue Mountains
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bahwa dia menunjuk Blue Mountain
13:50
where the journey had begun.
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di mana perjalanan ini dimulai.
13:53
And I took the controls, and I was flying.
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Dan saya mengambil alih kemudi dan terbang.
13:58
And I was a long, long way from that spinal ward,
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Dan saya jauh sekali dari bangsal itu
14:01
and I knew right then that I was going to be a pilot.
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dan saat itu saya tahu bahwa saya akan menjadi pilot.
14:05
Didn't know how on Earth I'd ever pass a medical.
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Tidak tahu bagaimana caranya saya bisa lulus tes kesehatan.
14:09
But I'd worry about that later, because right now I had a dream.
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Namun itu urusan belakangan, karena saat ini saya memiliki impian.
14:12
So I went home, I got a training diary out, and I had a plan.
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Jadi saya pulang, saya menuliskan catatan latihan dan memiliki rencana.
14:16
And I practiced my walking as much as I could,
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Dan saya berlatih berjalan sebisa mungkin
14:19
and I went from the point of two people holding me up
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dari mulanya harus ada dua orang yang memegangi saya
14:22
to one person holding me up
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hingga hanya satu orang
14:25
to the point where I could walk around the furniture
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hingga kini saya dapat berjalan tanpa bantuan
14:27
as long as it wasn't too far apart.
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asalkan jaraknya tidak terlalu jauh.
14:30
And then I made great progression to the point
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Lalu kemajuan saya sangat pesat hingga
14:32
where I could walk around the house, holding onto the walls,
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saya dapat berjalan di rumah dengan memegang dinding
14:34
like this, and Mom said she was forever following me,
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seperti ini, dan ibu berkata selamanya dia akan mengikuti saya
14:38
wiping off my fingerprints. (Laughter)
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dan menghapus sidik jari saya. (Tawa)
14:41
But at least she always knew where I was.
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Namun setidaknya dia selalu tahu di mana saya berada.
14:46
So while the doctors continued to operate
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Jadi saat dokter terus mengoperasi
14:48
and put my body back together again,
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dan menyusun tubuh saya kembali,
14:50
I went on with my theory study, and then eventually,
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saya belajar teori terbang dan pada akhirnya
14:54
and amazingly, I passed my pilot's medical,
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dan secara luar biasa, saya lulus tes kesehatan
14:58
and that was my green light to fly.
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dan mendapat lampu hijau untuk terbang.
15:00
And I spent every moment I could out at that flying school,
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Dan saya menghabiskan waktu sebanyak mungkin di sekolah penerbangan
15:03
way out of my comfort zone,
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di luar zona nyaman saya,
15:04
all these young guys that wanted to be Qantas pilots,
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semua pria muda yang ingin menjadi pilot Qantas ini,
15:07
you know, and little old hop-along me in first my plaster cast,
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mereka pertama melihat plester saya,
15:10
and then my steel brace, my baggy overalls,
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lalu kawat baja saya, kantung tubuh saya,
15:13
my bag of medication and catheters and my limp,
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obat-obatan saya, kateter, dan juga kondisi saya yang pincang,
15:16
and they used to look at me and think,
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dan mereka sering melihat saya dan berpikir,
15:18
"Oh, who is she kidding? She's never going to be able to do this."
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"Oh, apa dia bercanda? Dia tidak akan bisa melakukannya."
15:21
And sometimes I thought that too.
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Terkadang saya juga berpikir seperti itu.
15:23
But that didn't matter, because now there was something inside that burned
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Namun itu tidak masalah, karena kini ada sesuatu di dalam yang terbakar
15:27
that far outweighed my injuries.
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yang jauh melebihi cedera saya.
15:32
And little goals kept me going along the way,
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Dan tujuan-tujuan kecil itu tetap membuat saya maju
15:34
and eventually I got my private pilot's license,
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dan pada akhirnya saya mendapat sertifikat pilot saya
15:38
and then I learned to navigate, and I flew my friends around Australia.
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lalu saya belajar mengarahkan pesawat dan menerbangkan teman-teman saya keliling Australia.
15:43
And then I learned to fly an airplane with two engines
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Lalu saya belajar menerbangkan pesawat bermesin ganda
15:46
and I got my twin engine rating.
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dan mendapat sertifikatnya.
15:48
And then I learned to fly in bad weather as well as fine weather
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Lalu saya berjalan terbang pada cuaca buruk dan juga cuaca cerah
15:51
and got my instrument rating.
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dan mendapat rating instrumen.
15:54
And then I got my commercial pilot's license.
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Lalu saya mendapat sertifikat pilot pesawat komersil.
15:57
And then I got my instructor rating.
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Dan saya menerima sertifikat instruktur.
15:59
And then I found myself back at that same school
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Lalu saya kembali ke sekolah yang sama
16:03
where I'd gone for that very first flight,
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di mana saya terbang untuk pertama kalinya
16:05
teaching other people how to fly,
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dan mengajarkan orang lain untuk terbang,
16:08
just under 18 months after I'd left the spinal ward.
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hanya dalam 18 bulan setelah saya meninggalkan bangsal itu.
16:12
(Applause)
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(Tepuk tangan)
16:24
And then I thought, "Why stop there?
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Lalu saya berpikir, "Untuk apa berhenti di sini?
16:26
Why not learn to fly upside down?"
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Mengapa saya tidak belajar terbang terbalik?"
16:29
And I did, and I learned to fly upside down
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Saya belajar untuk terbang terbalik
16:32
and became an aerobatics flying instructor.
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dan menjadi instruktur terbang akrobatik.
16:36
And Mom and Dad? Never been up.
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Lalu orang tua saya? Tidak pernah menentang.
16:42
But then I knew for certain that although my body might be limited,
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Namun saya tahu bahwa walaupun mungkin tubuh saya terbatas,
16:48
it was my spirit that was unstoppable.
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semangat saya tidak dapat dihentikan.
16:53
The philosopher Lao Tzu once said,
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Filsuf Lao Tzu pernah mengatakan,
16:56
"When you let go of what you are,
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"Saat Anda melepaskan diri Anda
16:59
you become what you might be."
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Anda menjadi apa yang Anda bisa."
17:03
I now know that it wasn't until I let go of who I thought I was
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Kini saya tahu bahwa sampai saya melepaskan anggapan saya akan diri saya
17:08
that I was able to create a completely new life.
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saya tidak akan dapat menciptakan kehidupan yang baru.
17:12
It wasn't until I let go of the life I thought I should have
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Sampai saya melepaskan kehidupan yang saya rasa harus saya miliki
17:16
that I was able to embrace the life that was waiting for me.
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saya tidak akan dapat mensyukuri kehidupan yang menunggu saya.
17:21
I now know that my real strength
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Kini saya tahu itulah kekuatan saya yang sebenarnya
17:24
never came from my body,
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tidak pernah datang dari tubuh saya
17:28
and although my physical capabilities have changed dramatically,
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dan walaupun kemampuan fisik saya telah berubah,
17:33
who I am is unchanged.
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diri saya tidak berubah.
17:36
The pilot light inside of me was still a light,
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Cahaya pilot di dalam tubuh saya masih merupakan cahaya
17:41
just as it is in each and every one of us.
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sama seperti cahaya dalam diri kita masing-masing.
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I know that I'm not my body,
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Saya tahu bahwa saya bukanlah milik saya.
17:49
and I also know that you're not yours.
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dan saya juga tahu bahwa Anda bukanlah milik Anda
17:52
And then it no longer matters what you look like,
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Lalu, tampak luar Anda, asal Anda, pekerjaan Anda
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where you come from, or what you do for a living.
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tidak penting lagi.
18:01
All that matters is that we continue to fan the flame of humanity
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Hal yang penting adalah kita terus menyalakan api kemanusiaan
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by living our lives as the ultimate creative expression
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dengan menjalani hidup kita sebagai ekspresif kreatif
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of who we really are,
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dari siapa kita sebenarnya,
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because we are all connected
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karena kita semua terhubung
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by millions and millions of straws,
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dengan jutaan sedotan,
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and it's time to join those up
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dan saatnya menggabungkan sedotan itu
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and to hang on.
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dan bertahan.
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And if we are to move towards our collective bliss,
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Dan jika kita dapat maju menuju kebahagiaan bersama kita
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it's time we shed our focus on the physical
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saatnya kita meninggalkan fokus pada fisik
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and instead embrace the virtues of the heart.
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dan merangkul kebaikan hati kita.
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So raise your straws if you'll join me.
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Jadi angkatlah sedotan Anda jika Anda ingin bergabung.
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Thank you. (Applause)
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Terima kasih. (Tepuk tangan)
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Thank you.
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Terima kasih.
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Janine Shepherd - PilotAspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly.
Why you should listen
Janine Shepherd is a “walking paraplegic.” Defying her disability, she has become a commercial pilot and aerobatics instructor, motivational speaker, best-selling author, and mother of three. A champion cross-country skier in training for the Calgary Olympics, Janine’s life changed forever when she was hit by a truck during a bicycle ride in the Blue Mountains of Australia. Doctors did not expect her to survive.
After six months in hospital—nearly all of it on her back—Janine focused intently on healing both her broken body and crushed morale. A turning point in her recovery came when a small plane flying overhead gave her the most improbable idea. “That’s it!” she exclaimed from her wheelchair. “If I can’t walk, I’ll fly.”
Still encased in a full body cast, Janine had to be lifted into an aircraft for her introductory flight lesson. But within a year she had defied the odds and earned her private pilot’s license. Her talent and skill as a pilot earned Janine a commercial pilot license and ultimately, her flying instructor’s rating. Then she decided to learn to fly upside down, and finally, to teach acrobatic flight to other pilots.
Janine is an ambassador for Spinal Cure Australia and Red Bull Wings For Life, and is committed to helping find a cure for spinal cord injury in the near future. She was awarded the Order of Australia, the nation’s highest honor. She is a contributor to Deepak Chopra’s workshops, and has been featured on 60 Minutes and This Is Your Life.
In the meantime, she seeks to inspire those coping with physical disability and life challenges. Janine is the author of six books, including the newly released memoir Defiant: A Broken Body Is Not a Broken Person. She regularly delivers inspirational keynotes to audiences of thousands in countries around the world.
Janine Shepherd | Speaker | TED.com