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Janine Shepherd: A broken body isn't a broken person
Janine Shepherd: Poškodené telo nie je zničený človek
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Reprezentantka behu na lyžiach Janine Shepherd dúfala v Olympijskú medailu -- až dovtedy, pokým ju nezrazil kamión počas tréningovej jazdy na bicykli. Podelí sa s nami so silným príbehom o ľudskom potenciáli za uzdravenie. Jej odkaz: nie si svoje telo a zbavenie sa svojich starých snov umožňuje prekvitať tým novým.
Janine Shepherd - Pilot
Aspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly. Full bio
Aspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly. Full bio
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Life is about opportunities,
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Život je o príležitostiach,
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creating them and embracing them, and for me,
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ich vytváraní a uchopení. A pre mňa
00:22
that was the Olympic dream.
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to bol Olympijský sen.
00:24
That's what defined me. That was my bliss.
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Toto ma charakterizovalo, toto bolo moje šťastie.
00:27
As a cross-country skier and member of the Australian ski team,
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Ako bežkárka a členka austrálskeho lyžiarskeho tímu
00:31
headed towards the Winter Olympics,
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smerujúceho na zimnú olympiádu
00:33
I was on a training bike ride with my fellow teammates.
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som bola na cvičnej cyklistickej jazde s mojimi priateľmi z tímu.
00:37
As we made our way up towards
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Ako sme prichádzali k
00:39
the spectacular Blue Mountains west of Sydney,
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ohromným Modrým vrchom západne od Sydney,
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it was the perfect autumn day:
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bol perfektný jesenný deň:
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sunshine, the smell of eucalypt and a dream.
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slnečno, vôňa eukalyptu a môj sen.
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Life was good.
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Život bol skvelý.
00:50
We'd been on our bikes for around five and half hours
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Jazdili sme na bicykloch už asi päť a pol hodiny,
00:53
when we got to the part of the ride that I loved,
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až sme sa dostali do úseku, ktorý som milovala,
00:55
and that was the hills, because I loved the hills.
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a to boli hory, lebo ja som milovala hory.
00:58
And I got up off the seat of my bike, and I started
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Zdvihla som sa zo sedadla môjho bicykla a začala som
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pumping my legs, and as I sucked in the cold mountain air,
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zaberať do nôh a ako som sa nadýchla chladného horského vzduchu,
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I could feel it burning my lungs, and I looked up
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cítila som, ako mi spaľuje pľúca, pozrela som sa hore,
01:07
to see the sun shining in my face.
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aby mi slnko osvietilo tvár.
01:10
And then everything went black.
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A potom bola všade tma.
01:14
Where was I? What was happening?
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Kde som to bola? Čo sa to dialo?
01:17
My body was consumed by pain.
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Moje telo pohltila bolesť.
01:20
I'd been hit by a speeding utility truck
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Zrazila som sa s nákladným vozidlom technických služieb
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with only 10 minutes to go on the bike ride.
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a to mi ostávalo iba 10 minút do ciela.
01:26
I was airlifted from the scene of the accident
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Letecky ma prevezli z miesta nehody
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by a rescue helicopter to a large spinal unit in Sydney.
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záchrannou helikoptérou na traumatologické oddelenie v Sydney.
01:32
I had extensive and life-threatening injuries.
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Mala som rozsiahle a životu nebezpečné zranenia.
01:35
I'd broken my neck and my back in six places.
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Zlomila som si krk a chrbát na šiestich miestach.
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I broke five ribs on my left side.
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Zlomila som si päť rebier na ľavej strane,
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I broke my right arm. I broke my collarbone.
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pravú ruku, kľúčnu kosť
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I broke some bones in my feet.
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a niekoľko kostí na nohe.
01:47
My whole right side was ripped open, filled with gravel.
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Moja celá pravá strana bola roztvorená, plná štrku.
01:50
My head was cut open across the front, lifted back,
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Moja hlava bola rozbitá na prednej strane, prehnutá dozadu,
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exposing the skull underneath.
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ukazujúc lebku pod ňou.
01:54
I had head injures. I had internal injuries.
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Mala som poranenia hlavy. Mala som vnútorné zranenia.
01:56
I had massive blood loss. In fact, I lost about five liters
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Mala som rozsiahlu stratu krvi, presnejšie, stratila som päť litrov krvi.
01:59
of blood, which is all someone my size would actually hold.
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To je objem, ktorý má človek mojej veľkosti.
02:02
By the time the helicopter arrived at Prince Henry Hospital
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Než ma priviezli do nemocnice Princa Henryho v Sydney,
02:05
in Sydney, my blood pressure was 40 over nothing.
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môj krvný tlak bol 40 k nule.
02:09
I was having a really bad day. (Laughter)
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Mala som vážne zlý deň. (Smiech)
02:18
For over 10 days, I drifted between two dimensions.
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Počas viac ako 10 dní som sa presúvala medzi dvomi svetmi.
02:23
I had an awareness of being in my body, but also
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Bola som si vedomá svojho tela, ale tiež toho,
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being out of my body, somewhere else, watching
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že v ňom nie som, že som niekde inde pozerajúc
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from above as if it was happening to someone else.
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z vrchu, akoby sa to dialo niekomu inému.
02:31
Why would I want to go back to a body that was so broken?
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Prečo by som sa chcela vrátiť do tela, ktoré je tak zničené?
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But this voice kept calling me: "Come on, stay with me."
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Ale ten hlas ma neustále volal: "No tak, zostaň so mnou."
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"No. It's too hard."
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"Nie. Je to príliš ťažké."
02:43
"Come on. This is our opportunity."
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"Poď, toto je naša príležitosť."
02:46
"No. That body is broken. It can no longer serve me."
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"Nie, to telo je zničené. Už mi nikdy nemôže slúžiť."
02:49
"Come on. Stay with me. We can do it. We can do it together."
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"No tak, zostaň so mnou. Dokážeme to. Spolu to dokážeme."
02:55
I was at a crossroads.
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Bola som na rázcestí.
02:57
I knew if I didn't return to my body, I'd have to leave this world forever.
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Vedela som, že ak sa do svojho tela nevrátim, musela by som tento svet navždy opustiť.
03:01
It was the fight of my life.
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Bol to boj o môj život.
03:05
After 10 days, I made the decision to return to my body,
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Po 10 dňoch som sa rozhodla do svojho tela vrátiť
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and the internal bleeding stopped.
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a vnútorné krvácanie sa zastavilo.
03:14
The next concern was whether I would walk again,
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Mojou ďalšou starosťou bolo, či budem môcť znovu chodiť,
03:18
because I was paralyzed from the waist down.
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pretože som bola od pása dole ochrnutá.
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They said to my parents, the neck break was a stable fracture,
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Mojim rodičom povedali, že zlomenina krku je stabilná,
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but the back was completely crushed.
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ale chrbát bol úplne zničený.
03:25
The vertebra at L1 was like you'd dropped a peanut,
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Stavce L1 boli v takom stave, ako keď vám na zem spadne arašid,
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stepped on it, smashed it into thousands of pieces.
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stúpite naňho a rozbijete ho na tisíc kúskov.
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They'd have to operate.
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Museli ho operovať.
03:34
They went in. They put me on a beanbag. They cut me,
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Vošli dnu. Položili ma na špeciálny operačný stôl a rozrezali ma.
03:37
literally cut me in half, I have a scar
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Doslova ma rozrezali na dve polovice. Mám jazvu,
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that wraps around my entire body.
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ktorá prechádza celým mojím telom.
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They picked as much broken bone as they could
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Vybrali mi čo najviac zlomených kostí,
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that had lodged in my spinal cord.
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ktoré sa usadili v mojej mieche.
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They took out two of my broken ribs, and they rebuilt my back,
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Zobrali dve z mojich zlomených rebier a poskladali mi chrbát,
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L1, they rebuilt it, they took out another broken rib,
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L1, znova poskladali, potom zobrali ďalšie rebro,
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they fused T12, L1 and L2 together.
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spojili T12, L1 a L2.
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Then they stitched me up. They took an entire hour to stitch me up.
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A potom ma zošili. Trvalo im celú hodinu, než ma zošili.
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I woke up in intensive care, and the doctors were really excited
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Zobudila som sa na intenzívnej starostlivosti a lekári sa tešili z toho,
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that the operation had been a success because at that stage
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že operácia bola úspešná, pretože som trochu mohla
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I had a little bit of movement in one of my big toes,
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hýbať jedným z mojich palcov na nohe.
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and I thought, "Great, because I'm going to the Olympics!"
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Vtedy som si pomyslela: "Super, idem na Olympiádu!"
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(Laughter)
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(Smiech)
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I had no idea. That's the sort of thing
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Nemala som predstavu. Toto je jedna z vecí,
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that happens to someone else, not me, surely.
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ktorá sa stáva niekomu inému, určite nie mne.
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But then the doctor came over to me, and she said,
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Ale prišla za mnou doktorka a povedala mi,
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"Janine, the operation was a success, and we've picked
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"Janine, operácia sa podarila. Vybrali sme vám z
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as much bone out of your spinal cord as we could,
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miechy toľko kostí, koľko sa dalo,
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but the damage is permanent.
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ale poškodenie je trvalé.
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The central nervous system nerves, there is no cure.
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Čo sa týka centrálneho nervového systému, na ten lieky nie sú.
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You're what we call a partial paraplegic, and you'll have
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Ste čiastočne ochrnutá a budete mať
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all of the injuries that go along with that.
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všetky zranenia, ktoré s tým súvisia.
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You have no feeling from the waist down, and at most,
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Od pása dole ste ochrnutá a pri najlepšom
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you might get 10- or 20-percent return.
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máte možnosť návratu citlivosti 10 až 20 percent.
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You'll have internal injuries for the rest of your life.
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Vnútorné zranenia budete mať až do konca svojho života.
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You'll have to use a catheter for the rest of your life.
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Katéter budete musieť používať až do konca svojho života.
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And if you walk again, it will be with calipers and a walking frame."
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A ak ešte niekedy budete chodiť, tak iba pomocou ortézy a chodúľky."
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And then she said, "Janine,
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A potom povedala: "Janine,
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you'll have to rethink everything you do in your life,
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budete si musieť premyslieť všetko, čo vo svojom živote robíte,
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because you're never going to be able to do the things you did before."
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pretože už nikdy nebudete schopná robiť veci, ktoré ste robila predtým."
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I tried to grasp what she was saying.
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Snažila som sa pochopiť to, čo mi hovorila.
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I was an athlete. That's all I knew. That's all I'd done.
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Bola som atlét. To je všetko, čo poznám, všetko, čo som robila.
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If I couldn't do that, then what could I do?
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Ak to nebudem môcť robiť, tak potom, čo budem môcť robiť?
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And the question I asked myself is, if I couldn't do that,
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A otázka, ktorú som si položila, je - ak to už nebudem môcť robiť,
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then who was I?
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tak potom, kto som?
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They moved me from intensive care to acute spinal.
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Presunuli ma z intenzívnej starostlivosti na akútne traumatologické oddelenie.
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I was lying on a thin, hard spinal bed.
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Ležala som na tenkej, tvrdej posteli určenej pre chrbát.
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I had no movement in my legs. I had tight stockings on
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Nemohla som hýbať nohami, mala som na nich tesné pančuchy,
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to protect from blood clots.
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ktoré ma chránili pred krvnými zrazeninami.
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I had one arm in plaster, one arm tied down by drips.
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Jednu ruku som mala v sadre, druhú zaviazanú infúziami.
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I had a neck brace and sandbags on either side of my head
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Mala som vystužený krk a na oboch stranách hlavy vrecká s pieskom
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and I saw my world through a mirror
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a svet naokolo som videla v zrkadle,
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that was suspended above my head.
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ktoré bolo zavesené nad mojou hlavou.
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I shared the ward with five other people,
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Zdieľala som izbu s ďalšími piatimi ľudmi
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and the amazing thing is that because we were all lying
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a najúžasnejšie na tom bolo, že sme všetci ležali
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paralyzed in a spinal ward, we didn't know what each other looked like.
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ochrnutí na traumatologickom oddelení a nevedeli sme, ako kto vyzerá.
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How amazing is that? How often in life
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Nie je to úžasné? Ako často máte možnosť
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do you get to make friendships, judgment-free,
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vytvoriť si priateľstvá bez posudzovania,
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purely based on spirit?
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ktoré sú založené čisto na povahe?
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And there were no superficial conversations
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A neboli to iba povrchné rozhovory,
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as we shared our innermost thoughts, our fears,
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zdieľali sme svoje najvnútornejšie myšlienky, naše obavy
06:12
and our hopes for life after the spinal ward.
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a nádeje na život po odchode z traumatologického oddelenia.
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I remember one night, one of the nurses came in,
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Pamätám si jednu noc, prišiel k nám Jonathan, ktorý
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Jonathan, with a whole lot of plastic straws.
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pracuje ako zdravotná sestra, s hromadou plastových slamiek.
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He put a pile on top of each of us, and he said,
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Časť z nich položil na každého z nás a povedal:
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"Start threading them together."
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"Začnite ich spájať."
06:29
Well, there wasn't much else to do in the spinal ward, so we did.
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Kedže nebolo veľa toho, čo by sme na oddelení mohli robiť, tak sme ich spájali.
06:32
And when we'd finished, he went around silently
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A keď sme skončili, potichu prešiel okolo nás
06:36
and he joined all of the straws up
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a pospájal všetky slamky dokopy,
06:38
till it looped around the whole ward, and then he said,
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až pokiaľ sa všetky slamky okolo oddelenia nespojili a potom povedal:
06:42
"Okay, everybody, hold on to your straws."
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"Okej, teraz sa všetci chyťte svojich slamiek."
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And we did. And he said, "Right. Now we're all connected."
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Keď sme urobili, povedal, "Dobre. Teraz sme všetci prepojení."
06:53
And as we held on, and we breathed as one,
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A ako sme sa držali a dýchali ako jeden,
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we knew we weren't on this journey alone.
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vedeli sme, že na tejto ceste nie sme sami.
07:02
And even lying paralyzed in the spinal ward,
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A aj keď som ležala ochrnutá na traumatologickom oddelení,
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there were moments of incredible depth and richness,
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boli tam chvíle neskutočnej hĺbky a bohatstva,
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of authenticity and connection
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nefalšovanosti a spojenia,
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that I had never experienced before.
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aké som nikdy predtým nezažila.
07:18
And each of us knew that when we left the spinal ward
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A každý z nás vedel, že keď opustíme traumatologické oddelenie,
07:22
we would never be the same.
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nikdy nebudeme takí, akí sme boli predtým.
07:27
After six months, it was time to go home.
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Po šiestich mesiacoch bol čas ísť domov.
07:31
I remember Dad pushing me outside in my wheelchair,
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Pamätám si, ako ma môj otec tlačil von na vozíčku
07:35
wrapped in a plaster body cast,
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zabalenú v plastovej bandáži na telo
07:38
and feeling the sun on my face for the first time.
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a po prvýkrát som pocítila slnko na mojej tvári.
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I soaked it up and I thought,
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Vyhrievala som sa a pomyslela si,
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how could I ever have taken this for granted?
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ako som toto mohla niekedy považovať za samozrejmé?
07:46
I felt so incredibly grateful for my life.
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Cítila som nesmiernu vďaku za môj život.
07:51
But before I left the hospital, the head nurse
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Ale predtým, ako som opustila nemocnicu, mi vrchná sestra
07:53
had said to me, "Janine, I want you to be ready,
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povedala: "Janine, chcem, aby si bola pripravená,
07:55
because when you get home, something's going to happen."
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lebo keď prídeš domov, niečo sa stane."
07:58
And I said, "What?" And she said,
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Spýtala som sa: "Čo?" A ona mi odpovedala:
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"You're going to get depressed."
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"Budeš mať depresie."
08:02
And I said, "Not me, not Janine the Machine,"
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Odpovedala som jej: "Ja nie, nie Janine - Mašina,"
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which was my nickname.
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čo je moja prezývka.
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She said, "You are, because, see, it happens to everyone.
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Sestra pokračovala: "Budeš mať, vieš, stáva sa to každému.
08:09
In the spinal ward, that's normal.
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Na traumatologickom oddelení je to normálne.
08:12
You're in a wheelchair. That's normal.
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Si na vozíčku, je to normálne.
08:13
But you're going to get home and realize
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Ale prídeš domov a zistíš,
08:16
how different life is."
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ako sa život zmenil."
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And I got home and something happened.
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Prišla som domov a niečo sa stalo.
08:24
I realized Sister Sam was right.
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Uvedomila som si, že sestrička Sam mala pravdu.
08:27
I did get depressed.
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Mala som depresie.
08:30
I was in my wheelchair. I had no feeling from the waist down,
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Bola som na vozíčku. Od pása dole som bola ochrnutá,
08:33
attached to a catheter bottle. I couldn't walk.
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pripojená na katéter. Nemohla som chodiť.
08:37
I'd lost so much weight in the hospital
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V nemocnici som výrazne schudla,
08:39
I now weighed about 80 pounds.
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vážila som 36 kg.
08:43
And I wanted to give up.
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A chcela som to vzdať.
08:45
All I wanted to do was put my running shoes on and run out the door.
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Jediné, čo som chcela urobiť, bolo obuť si bežecké topánky a vybehnúť z dverí.
08:49
I wanted my old life back. I wanted my body back.
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Chcela som späť svoj starý život. Chcela som späť svoje telo.
08:52
And I can remember Mom sitting on the end of my bed,
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Pamätám si mamu, ako sedela na rohu postele
08:55
and saying, "I wonder if life will ever be good again."
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a hovorila: "Som zvedavá, či život bude ešte niekedy dobrý."
08:59
And I thought, "How could it? Because I've lost everything
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Pomyslela som si: "Ako by mohol byť? Stratila som všetko,
09:03
that I valued, everything that I'd worked towards.
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čo som si cenila, to, na čom som pracovala.
09:07
Gone."
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Stratené."
09:10
And the question I asked was, "Why me? Why me?"
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A pýtala som sa: "Prečo ja, prečo ja?"
09:15
And then I remembered my friends
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Potom som si spomenula na svojich priateľov,
09:19
that were still in the spinal ward,
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ktorí boli stále na traumatologickom oddelení,
09:21
particularly Maria.
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hlavne na Máriu.
09:23
Maria was in a car accident, and she woke up
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Mária mala autonehodu. Prebrala sa
09:25
on her 16th birthday to the news that she was a complete quadriplegic,
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na svoje 16-te narodeniny a dozvedela sa, že je úplne ochrnutá,
09:30
had no movement from the neck down,
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bez citlivosti od krku dole.
09:32
had damage to her vocal chords, and she couldn't talk.
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Mala poškodené hlasivky a nemohla rozprávať.
09:36
They told me, "We're going to move you next to her
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Povedali mi: "Presunieme vás k nej.
09:38
because we think it will be good for her."
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Myslíme si, že to pre ňu bude dobré."
09:40
I was worried. I didn't know how I'd react
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Bála som sa. Nevedela som, ako budem reagovať na to,
09:44
to being next to her.
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že budem vedľa nej.
09:46
I knew it would be challenging, but it was actually a blessing,
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Vedela som, že to bude obtiažne, ale pravdu povediac to bolo požehnanie,
09:50
because Maria always smiled.
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pretože Mária sa vždy usmievala.
09:55
She was always happy, and even when she began to talk again,
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Vždy bola šťastná a aj keď začala znovu rozprávať,
09:59
albeit difficult to understand, she never complained, not once.
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aj keď jej bolo zle rozumieť, nikdy sa nesťažovala, ani raz.
10:05
And I wondered how had she ever found that level of acceptance.
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Divila som sa, ako našla tak hlboký stupeň prijatia.
10:11
And I realized that this wasn't just my life.
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A potom som si uvedomila, že toto nie je iba môj život.
10:16
It was life itself. I realized that this wasn't just my pain.
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Bol to život sám. Uvedomila som si, že to nie je iba moja bolesť.
10:20
It was everybody's pain. And then I knew, just like before,
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Je to každého bolesť. A potom som zistila, tak ako predtým,
10:25
that I had a choice. I could keep fighting this
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že mám možnosť. Buď proti tomu budem bojovať,
10:30
or I could let go and accept not only my body
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alebo to môžem nechať tak a prijať nielen svoje telo,
10:35
but the circumstances of my life.
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ale aj okolnosti môjho života.
10:38
And then I stopped asking, "Why me?"
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A potom som sa prestala pýtať: "Prečo ja?"
10:42
And I started to ask, "Why not me?"
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a začala som sa pýtať: "Prečo nie ja?"
10:45
And then I thought to myself, maybe being at rock bottom
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Vtedy som si pomyslela, možno byť na úplnom dne
10:49
is actually the perfect place to start.
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je vlastne perfektným miestom na začiatok.
10:56
I had never before thought of myself as a creative person.
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Nikdy predtým som si o sebe nemyslela, že som tvorivý človek.
11:00
I was an athlete. My body was a machine.
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Bola som atlét. Moje telo bol stroj.
11:04
But now I was about to embark on the most creative project
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Ale teraz som sa chystala pustiť do najtvorivejšieho projektu,
11:08
that any of us could ever do:
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ktorý by ktokoľvek z nás mohol urobiť:
11:10
that of rebuilding a life.
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a to prestavať si život.
11:13
And even though I had absolutely no idea
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A aj keď som netušila,
11:15
what I was going to do, in that uncertainty
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čo budem robiť, v tej neistote
11:18
came a sense of freedom.
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prišiel pocit slobody.
11:21
I was no longer tied to a set path.
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Už som nemala určenú cestu.
11:23
I was free to explore life's infinite possibilities.
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Mala som voľnosť pri objavovaní nekonečných možností života.
11:30
And that realization was about to change my life.
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A to uvedomenie si mi čoskoro zmenilo život.
11:36
Sitting at home in my wheelchair and my plaster body cast,
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Sediac doma v mojom vozíku a v plastovej bandáži na telo,
11:41
an airplane flew overhead, and I looked up,
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preletelo mi lietadlo nad hlavou, pozrela som sa hore
11:44
and I thought to myself, "That's it!
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a pomyslela si: "To je ono!
11:47
If I can't walk, then I might as well fly."
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Ak nemôžem chodiť, mohla by som aspoň lietať."
11:52
I said, "Mom, I'm going to learn how to fly."
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Povedala som: "Mami, naučím sa lietať."
11:54
She said, "That's nice, dear." (Laughter)
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Ona na to: "To je pekné, zlatko." (Smiech)
11:59
I said, "Pass me the yellow pages."
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Povedala som: "Podaj mi zlaté stránky."
12:00
She passed me the phone book, I rang up the flying school,
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Podala mi telefónny zoznam, zavolala som do leteckej školy,
12:03
I made a booking, said I'd like to make a booking to come out for a flight.
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zarezervovala som si let s tým, že sa chcem preletieť.
12:06
They said, "You know, when do you want to come out?"
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Opýtali sa ma: "A viete, kedy chcete letieť?"
12:08
I said, "Well, I have to get a friend to drive me out
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Odpovedala som: "No, musím si zohnať priateľa, ktorý ma odvezie,
12:10
because I can't drive. Sort of can't walk either.
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kedže nemôžem šoférovať. Tak povediac, nemôžem ani chodiť.
12:14
Is that a problem?"
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Je to problém?"
12:15
I made a booking, and weeks later my friend Chris
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Urobila som rezerváciu a o niekoľko týždňov neskôr ma môj priateľ Chris
12:17
and my mom drove me out to the airport,
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s mojou mamou priviezli na letisko.
12:18
all 80 pounds of me covered in a plaster body cast
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Mojich celých 36 kg zabalených do plastovej bandáži na telo
12:21
in a baggy pair of overalls. (Laughter)
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v nafúknutých monterkách. (Smiech)
12:24
I can tell you, I did not look like the ideal candidate
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Pravdu povediac, nevyzerala som ako ideálny kandidát
12:27
to get a pilot's license. (Laughter)
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na získanie licencie na lietanie. (Smiech)
12:30
I'm holding on to the counter because I can't stand.
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Držím sa pokladne, lebo nemôžem stáť.
12:32
I said, "Hi, I'm here for a flying lesson."
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Povedala som: "Zdravím, prišla som na lekciu lietania."
12:34
And they took one look and ran out the back to draw short straws.
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Pozreli sa na mňa a utiekli dozadu losovať, kto si ma zoberie na starosť.
12:37
"You get her.""No, no, you take her."
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"Ty si ju zoberieš." "Nie, nie, ty si ju zoberieš."
12:41
Finally this guy comes out. He goes,
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Nakoniec vyjde chlapík a vraví:
12:42
"Hi, I'm Andrew, and I'm going to take you flying."
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"Čau, ja som Andrew, zoberiem ťa lietať."
12:44
I go, "Great." And so they drive me down,
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A ja na to: "Super." A tak ma zobrali
12:46
they get me out on the tarmac,
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až von na jazdnú dráhu,
12:47
and there was this red, white and blue airplane.
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kde bolo lietadlo červeno-bielo-modrej farby.
12:49
It was beautiful. They lifted me into the cockpit.
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Bolo to nádherné. Vyzdvihli ma do kokpitu.
12:52
They had to slide me up on the wing, put me in the cockpit.
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Museli ma skĺznuť po krídle a dať do kokpitu.
12:55
They sat me down. There are buttons and dials everywhere.
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Posadili ma. Všade tlačidlá a číselníky.
12:57
I'm going, "Wow, how do you ever know what all these buttons and dials do?"
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Vravím: "Wow, ako vôbec viete, na čo sú všetky tieto tlačidlá a číselníky?"
13:01
Andrew the instructor got in the front, started the airplane up.
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Andrew, inštruktor, nasadol dopredu a naštartoval lietadlo.
13:03
He said, "Would you like to have a go at taxiing?"
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Spýtal sa: "Chceli by ste si vyskúšať rolovať lietadlom?"
13:05
That's when you use your feet to control the rudder pedals
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To je vtedy, keď používate svoje nohy na ovládanie lietadla na zemi
13:07
to control the airplane on the ground.
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pomocou pedálov kormidla.
13:10
I said, "No, I can't use my legs."
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Odpovedala som: "Nie, nemôžem používať svoje nohy."
13:12
He went, "Oh."
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A on: "Aha."
13:13
I said, "But I can use my hands," and he said, "Okay."
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Dodala som: "Ale môžem používať svoje ruky," a on na to: "Ok."
13:16
So he got over to the runway, and he applied the power.
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Dostali sme sa na dráhu a pridal na výkone.
13:19
And as we took off down the runway,
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A ako sme vzlietali z dráhy
13:22
and the wheels lifted up off the tarmac, and we became airborne,
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a kolesá sa dvíhali z betónu a vzlietali sme,
13:26
I had the most incredible sense of freedom.
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mala som ten najohromnejší pocit slobody.
13:31
And Andrew said to me,
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A Andrew mi povedal,
13:33
as we got over the training area,
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ako sme prechádzali okolo tréningového miesta:
13:36
"You see that mountain over there?"
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"Vidíte tamto tie hory?"
13:38
And I said, "Yeah."
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Odpovedala som: "Áno."
13:40
And he said, "Well, you take the controls, and you fly towards that mountain."
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Pokračoval: "Dobre, preberte riadenie a leťte k tým horám."
13:45
And as I looked up, I realized
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A ako som sa pozrela vyššie, uvedomila som si,
13:47
that he was pointing towards the Blue Mountains
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že ukazoval na Modré vrchy,
13:50
where the journey had begun.
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tam, kde sa to všetko začalo.
13:53
And I took the controls, and I was flying.
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Prebrala som riadenie a letela som.
13:58
And I was a long, long way from that spinal ward,
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Bola som ďaleko, ďaleko od traumatologického oddelenia
14:01
and I knew right then that I was going to be a pilot.
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a vtedy som si uvedomila, že zo mňa bude pilot.
14:05
Didn't know how on Earth I'd ever pass a medical.
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Aj keď som nemala poňatia, ako prejdem lekárskymi testami.
14:09
But I'd worry about that later, because right now I had a dream.
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Ale o to sa budem starať neskôr, lebo teraz som mala sen.
14:12
So I went home, I got a training diary out, and I had a plan.
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Prišla som domov, vytiahla som si tréningový diár a vytvorila som si plán.
14:16
And I practiced my walking as much as I could,
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Trénovala som chôdzu tak často, ako som mohla.
14:19
and I went from the point of two people holding me up
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Prešla som z bodu, kedy ma držali dvaja ľudia
14:22
to one person holding me up
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cez bod, kedy ma držal jeden človek,
14:25
to the point where I could walk around the furniture
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až do bodu, kedy som mohla chodiť popri nábytku,
14:27
as long as it wasn't too far apart.
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pokiaľ nebol moc ďaleko od seba.
14:30
And then I made great progression to the point
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A potom som pokročila do bodu,
14:32
where I could walk around the house, holding onto the walls,
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kedy som mohla chodiť po dome pridŕžajúc sa stien,
14:34
like this, and Mom said she was forever following me,
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takto, a mama mi povedala, že ma stále nasledovala
14:38
wiping off my fingerprints. (Laughter)
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a zotierala moje odtlačky prstov. (Smiech)
14:41
But at least she always knew where I was.
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Ale aspoň vždy vedela, kde som bola.
14:46
So while the doctors continued to operate
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Takže zakiaľ doktori pokračovali v operáciách
14:48
and put my body back together again,
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a dávali moje telo späť dokopy,
14:50
I went on with my theory study, and then eventually,
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pokračovala som so svojím štúdiom a napokon,
14:54
and amazingly, I passed my pilot's medical,
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prekvapujúco, prešla som leteckou zdravotnou prehliadkou,
14:58
and that was my green light to fly.
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a to bola moja zelená pre lietanie.
15:00
And I spent every moment I could out at that flying school,
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Odvtedy som strávila každú chvíľu v leteckej škole,
15:03
way out of my comfort zone,
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veľmi ďaleko z mojej komfortnej zóny,
15:04
all these young guys that wanted to be Qantas pilots,
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všetci tí mladí chlapi, ktorí sa chceli stať pilotmi spoločnosti Qantas,
15:07
you know, and little old hop-along me in first my plaster cast,
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viete, a moje staré známe ja najprv v sadrovej výstuži,
15:10
and then my steel brace, my baggy overalls,
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potom moja oceľová ortéza, moje široké monterky,
15:13
my bag of medication and catheters and my limp,
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môj zdravotný vak, katétre a moje krívanie.
15:16
and they used to look at me and think,
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Mali vo zvyku pozrieť sa na mňa a pomyslieť si:
15:18
"Oh, who is she kidding? She's never going to be able to do this."
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"Hmm, z koho si robí srandu? Toto ona nikdy nezvládne."
15:21
And sometimes I thought that too.
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A niekedy som si to myslela aj ja.
15:23
But that didn't matter, because now there was something inside that burned
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Ale nezáležalo na tom, lebo teraz som mala v sebe plameň, ktorý horel,
15:27
that far outweighed my injuries.
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ktorý ďaleko presahoval moje bolesti.
15:32
And little goals kept me going along the way,
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Ale krátke ciele mi pomohli ísť ďalej
15:34
and eventually I got my private pilot's license,
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a napokon som získala licenciu súkromného pilota.
15:38
and then I learned to navigate, and I flew my friends around Australia.
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Potom som sa naučila navigovať a lietala som so svojimi priateľmi po Austrálii.
15:43
And then I learned to fly an airplane with two engines
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A potom som sa naučila riadiť lietadlo s dvoma motormi
15:46
and I got my twin engine rating.
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a dostala som dvojmotorové ohodnotenie.
15:48
And then I learned to fly in bad weather as well as fine weather
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Potom som sa naučila lietať v zlom, ako aj v peknom počasí,
15:51
and got my instrument rating.
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a obdržala som prístrojové ohodnotenie.
15:54
And then I got my commercial pilot's license.
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A potom som obdržala licenciu obchodného pilota.
15:57
And then I got my instructor rating.
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Následne som dostala hodnotenie inštruktora.
15:59
And then I found myself back at that same school
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Potom som bola späť v tej istej škole,
16:03
where I'd gone for that very first flight,
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kde som išla na ten prvý let
16:05
teaching other people how to fly,
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a učila iných ľudí ako lietať.
16:08
just under 18 months after I'd left the spinal ward.
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Všetko za menej ako 18 mesiacov po tom, ako som odišla z traumatologického oddelenia.
16:12
(Applause)
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(Potlesk)
16:24
And then I thought, "Why stop there?
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A potom som si pomyslela: "Prečo prestať len tu?
16:26
Why not learn to fly upside down?"
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Prečo sa nenaučiť lietať hlavou dole?"
16:29
And I did, and I learned to fly upside down
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A tak som to urobila, naučila som sa lietať dole hlavou
16:32
and became an aerobatics flying instructor.
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a stala som sa inštruktorom leteckej akrobacie.
16:36
And Mom and Dad? Never been up.
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A moja mama a otec? Nikdy neleteli.
16:42
But then I knew for certain that although my body might be limited,
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Potom som si uvedomila, že aj keď môže mať moje telo obmedzenia,
16:48
it was my spirit that was unstoppable.
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bol to môj duch, ktorý bol nezastaviteľný.
16:53
The philosopher Lao Tzu once said,
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Filozof Lao Tzu raz povedal:
16:56
"When you let go of what you are,
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"Ak opustiš to, čo si,
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you become what you might be."
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staneš sa tým, čo môžeš byť."
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I now know that it wasn't until I let go of who I thought I was
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Teraz viem, až vtedy, keď som bola schopná opustiť predstavu toho, kým som si myslela, že som bola,
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that I was able to create a completely new life.
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až potom som bola schopná vytvoriť si úplne nový život.
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It wasn't until I let go of the life I thought I should have
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Až pokiaľ som nechala odísť život, ktorý som si myslela, že mám mať,
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that I was able to embrace the life that was waiting for me.
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až potom som bola schopná prijať život, ktorý na mňa čakal.
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I now know that my real strength
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Teraz viem, že moja skutočná sila
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never came from my body,
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nikdy nepochádzala z môjho tela.
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and although my physical capabilities have changed dramatically,
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A aj keď sa moje fyzické možnosti radikálne zmenili,
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who I am is unchanged.
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to, kto som, sa nezmenilo.
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The pilot light inside of me was still a light,
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Svetlo pilota vo mne bolo vždy svetlo,
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just as it is in each and every one of us.
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tak, ako je v každom nás.
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I know that I'm not my body,
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Ja viem, že nie som svoje telo
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and I also know that you're not yours.
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a tiež viem, že vy nie ste svoje.
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And then it no longer matters what you look like,
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A potom už nezáleží na tom, ako vyzeráte,
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where you come from, or what you do for a living.
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odkiaľ pochádzate alebo čím sa živíte.
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All that matters is that we continue to fan the flame of humanity
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To, na čom záleží je, že rozdúchavame oheň ľudstva tým,
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by living our lives as the ultimate creative expression
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že žijeme naše životy ako vyjadrenie najvyššej tvorby,
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of who we really are,
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toho, kým skutočne sme,
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because we are all connected
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lebo my sme všetci spojení
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by millions and millions of straws,
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miliónmi a miliónmi slamiek
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and it's time to join those up
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a nastal čas pospájať ich
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and to hang on.
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a držať sa ich.
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And if we are to move towards our collective bliss,
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A ak sa máme pohnúť bližšie k nášmu kolektívnemu šťastiu,
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it's time we shed our focus on the physical
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je načase, aby sme obrátili zrak z fyzického,
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and instead embrace the virtues of the heart.
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a naopak, prijali cnosti svojho srdca.
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So raise your straws if you'll join me.
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Takže, ak sa ku mne pridáte, zdvihnite svoje slamky.
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Thank you. (Applause)
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Ďakujem. (Potlesk)
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Thank you.
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Ďakujem.
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Janine Shepherd - PilotAspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly.
Why you should listen
Janine Shepherd is a “walking paraplegic.” Defying her disability, she has become a commercial pilot and aerobatics instructor, motivational speaker, best-selling author, and mother of three. A champion cross-country skier in training for the Calgary Olympics, Janine’s life changed forever when she was hit by a truck during a bicycle ride in the Blue Mountains of Australia. Doctors did not expect her to survive.
After six months in hospital—nearly all of it on her back—Janine focused intently on healing both her broken body and crushed morale. A turning point in her recovery came when a small plane flying overhead gave her the most improbable idea. “That’s it!” she exclaimed from her wheelchair. “If I can’t walk, I’ll fly.”
Still encased in a full body cast, Janine had to be lifted into an aircraft for her introductory flight lesson. But within a year she had defied the odds and earned her private pilot’s license. Her talent and skill as a pilot earned Janine a commercial pilot license and ultimately, her flying instructor’s rating. Then she decided to learn to fly upside down, and finally, to teach acrobatic flight to other pilots.
Janine is an ambassador for Spinal Cure Australia and Red Bull Wings For Life, and is committed to helping find a cure for spinal cord injury in the near future. She was awarded the Order of Australia, the nation’s highest honor. She is a contributor to Deepak Chopra’s workshops, and has been featured on 60 Minutes and This Is Your Life.
In the meantime, she seeks to inspire those coping with physical disability and life challenges. Janine is the author of six books, including the newly released memoir Defiant: A Broken Body Is Not a Broken Person. She regularly delivers inspirational keynotes to audiences of thousands in countries around the world.
Janine Shepherd | Speaker | TED.com