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Joe Kowan: How I beat stage fright
Joe Kowan: Kako sam pobijedio strah od nastupa
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Kao mladoj vrsti, čovječanstvu je dobro koristio istančan osjećaj straha, dajući nam lasersku usredotočenost izbjeći da nas pojedu konkurentske zvijeri. Ali manje je prekrasno kada se taj isti organski, kradljivac tijela pojavi ispred 20 ljubitelja folk glazbe na večeri otvorenoh mikrofona utorkom. Dlanovi se znoje, ruke tresu, vid zamagljuje i mozak govori: "BJEŽI: to je strah od javnog nastupa." U ovom šarmantnom, melodičnom malom govoru, Joe Kowan govori o tome kako ga je pobijedio.
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designer
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
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00:12
Joe Kowan: I have stage fright.
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Joe Kowan: Imam strah od javnih nastupa.
00:14
I've always had stage fright,
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Uvijek sam imao strah od javnih nastupa
00:15
and not just a little bit,
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i to ne malen strah,
00:17
it's a big bit.
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već veliki strah.
00:19
And it didn't even matter until I was 27.
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I to nije uopće bilo bitno do moje 27. godine.
00:21
That's when I started writing songs, and even then
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Tada sam počeo pisati pjesme, i čak tada
00:24
I only played them for myself.
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sam ih svirao samo za sebe.
00:26
Just knowing my roommates were in the
same house made me uncomfortable.
same house made me uncomfortable.
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Bilo bi mi neugodno i već kad bih znao da su moji cimeri u kući.
00:30
But after a couple of years,
just writing songs wasn't enough.
just writing songs wasn't enough.
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Ali nakon par godina, samo pisanje pjesama nije bilo dovoljno.
00:32
I had all these stories and ideas,
and I wanted to share them with people,
and I wanted to share them with people,
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Imao sam te priče i ideje, i želio sam ih podijeliti s ljudima,
00:35
but physiologically, I couldn't do it.
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ali psihološki, nisam to mogao učiniti.
00:39
I had this irrational fear.
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Imao sam taj iracionalni strah.
00:42
But the more I wrote, and the more I practiced,
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Što sam više pisao i što sam više vježbao,
00:44
the more I wanted to perform.
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više sam želio nastupati.
00:45
So on the week of my 30th birthday,
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Dakle, u tjednu mog tridesetog rođendana
00:47
I decided I was going to go to this local open mic,
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odlučio sam otići na lokalni otvoreni mikrofon
00:50
and put this fear behind me.
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i ostaviti taj strah iza sebe.
00:52
Well, when I got there, it was packed.
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Pa, kad sam stigao ondje, bilo je puno.
00:55
There were like 20 people there.
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Bilo je dvadesetak ljudi ondje.
00:57
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
00:58
And they all looked angry.
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I izgledali su ljuto.
01:01
But I took a deep breath, and I signed up to play,
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Ali udahnuo sam duboko i prijavio se za sviranje,
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and I felt pretty good.
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i osjećao sam se poprilično dobro.
01:06
Pretty good, until about 10 minutes before my turn,
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Poprilično dobro do otprilike deset minuta prije nego što je došao red na mene,
01:09
when my whole body rebelled, and
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
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kada mi se cijelo tijelo pobunilo i preplavio me val anksioznosti.
01:15
Now, when you experience fear,
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
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Kada osjetiš strah, tvoj simpatički živčani sustav proradi.
01:18
So you have a rush of adrenaline,
your heart rate increases,
your heart rate increases,
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Osjetiš nalet adrenalina, puls ti se poveća,
01:21
your breathing gets faster.
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disanje ti se ubrza.
01:23
Next your non-essential systems start
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
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Sljedeće, tvoj nebitni sistemi se počnu gasiti, poput probave. (Smijeh)
01:29
So your mouth gets dry, and blood is routed
away from your extremities,
away from your extremities,
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Pa ti se usta počnu sušiti, krv ti se počne preusmjeravati iz ekstremiteta
01:32
so your fingers don't work anymore.
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i prsti ti više ne rade.
01:35
Your pupils dilate, your muscles contract,
your Spidey sense tingles,
your Spidey sense tingles,
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Zjenice ti se prošire, mišići ti se stegnu, tvoje Spiderman osjetilo zabruji,
01:38
basically your whole body is trigger-happy.
(Laughter)
(Laughter)
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u osnovi ti cijelo tijelo postane spremno za uzbunu.
01:43
That condition is not conducive
to performing folk music.
to performing folk music.
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Takvo stanje nije pogodno za izvođenje folk glazbe.
01:48
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
01:49
I mean, your nervous system is an idiot.
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Mislim, tvoj živčani sustav je idiot.
01:52
Really? Two hundred thousand years of human evolution, and it still can't tell the difference
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Stvarno? Dvije stotine tisuća godina ljudske evolucije, i još uvijek ne može razlikovati
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between a saber tooth tiger and 20 folksingers
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sabljastozubog tigra i dvadeset folk pjevača
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on a Tuesday night open mic?
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na večeri otvorenog mikrofona utorkom?
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(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
02:02
I have never been more terrified -- until now.
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Nikad nisam bio toliko prestravljen -- dosad.
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(Laughter and cheers)
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(Smijeh i navijanje)
02:15
So then it was my turn,
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Tada je došao red na mene,
02:17
and somehow, I get myself onto
the stage, I start my song,
the stage, I start my song,
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i nekako se popnem na pozornicu, počnem svoju pjesmu,
02:20
I open my mouth to sing the first line,
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otvorim usta da otpjevam prvi stih
02:23
and this completely horrible vibrato --
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i ovaj potpuno jezovit vibrato --
02:25
you know, when your voice wavers --
comes streaming out.
comes streaming out.
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znate, kad ti glas zatreperi -- počne izlaziti.
02:27
And this is not the good kind of vibrato,
like an opera singer has,
like an opera singer has,
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To nije dobra vrsta vibrata, kakav ima operni pjevač.
02:30
this is my whole body just convulsing with fear.
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Ovo je samo moje cijelo tijelo u grčevima od straha.
02:33
I mean, it's a nightmare.
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To je noćna mora.
02:34
I'm embarrassed, the audience
is clearly uncomfortable,
is clearly uncomfortable,
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Sramota me, publici je očito neugodno,
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they're focused on my discomfort.
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i usredotočeni su na moju neugodu.
02:39
It was so bad.
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Bilo je jako loše.
02:43
But that was my first real experience
as a solo singer-songwriter.
as a solo singer-songwriter.
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Ali to je bilo moje prvo pravo iskustvo kao kantautora,
02:47
And something good did happen --
I had the tiniest little glimpse
I had the tiniest little glimpse
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I nešto dobro se dogodilo -- imao sam najmanji mali uvid
02:50
of that audience connection that I was hoping for.
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u onu povezanost s publikom kojoj sam se nadao.
02:52
And I wanted more. But I knew
I had to get past this nervousness.
I had to get past this nervousness.
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Želio sam još ali sam znao da moram nadići tu nervozu.
02:56
That night I promised myself:
I would go back every week
I would go back every week
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Tu noć sam si nešto obećao: da ću se vraćati svaki tjedan
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until I wasn't nervous anymore.
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sve dok ne budem više nervozan.
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And I did. I went back every single week,
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I jesam. Vraćao sam se svaki tjedan,
03:04
and sure enough, week after week,
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i zaista, tjedan za tjednom
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it didn't get any better. The same
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
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nije bilo ništa bolje. Ista se stvar događala svaki tjedan. (Smijeh)
03:12
I couldn't shake it.
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Nisam se mogao toga otresti.
03:14
And that's when I had an epiphany.
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I tada sam dobio prosvjetljenje.
03:16
And I remember it really well, because I
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
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Sjećam ga se jako dobro jer ne dobivam često prosvjetljenja. (Smijeh)
03:22
All I had to do was write a song
that exploits my nervousness.
that exploits my nervousness.
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Samo sam morao napisati pjesmu o svojoj nervozi.
03:26
That only seems authentic when I have stage fright,
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To se čini autentičnim samo kad imam strah od nastupanja
03:28
and the more nervous I was,
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i što sam bio nervozniji
03:29
the better the song would be. Easy.
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to bi pjesma bila bolja. Lako.
03:32
So I started writing a song about having stage fright.
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Pa sam počeo pisati pjesmu o strahu od nastupanja.
03:36
First, fessing up to the problem,
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Prvo, priznavanje problema,
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the physical manifestations, how I would feel,
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fizičke manifestacije, kako bi se osjećao,
03:40
how the listener might feel.
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kako bi se slušatelji mogli osjećati.
03:42
And then accounting for things like my shaky voice,
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I računajući na stvari poput drhtavog glasa,
03:44
and I knew I would be singing about a
half-octave higher than normal,
half-octave higher than normal,
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a znao sam da ću pjevati pola oktave više nego inače,
03:47
because I was nervous.
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jer sam bio nervozan.
03:49
By having a song that explained
what was happening to me,
what was happening to me,
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Imati pjesmu koja objašnjava što se sa mnom događalo,
03:53
while it was happening,
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dok se to događalo,
03:54
that gave the audience permission to think about it.
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dalo je publici dopuštenje da razmišljaju o tome.
03:56
They didn't have to feel bad
for me because I was nervous,
for me because I was nervous,
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Nisu se morali osjećati loše zbog mene jer sam bio nervozan,
03:59
they could experience that with me,
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mogli su to doživjeti sa mnom
04:00
and we were all one big happy, nervous,
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
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i bili smo jedna velika, nervozna, neugodna obitelj. (Smijeh)
04:06
By thinking about my audience,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
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Misleći na moju publiku, prihvaćajući i iskorištavajući moj problem,
04:10
I was able to take something
that was blocking my progress,
that was blocking my progress,
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mogao sam uzeti nešto što je blokiralo moj napredak,
04:13
and turn it into something that
was essential for my success.
was essential for my success.
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i pretvoriti to u nešto nužno za moj uspjeh.
04:17
And having the stage fright song let
me get past that biggest issue
me get past that biggest issue
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Ta pjesma o strahu od javnog nastupa omogućila mi je da prođem najveći problem
04:20
right in the beginning of a performance.
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odmah na početku nastupa.
04:22
And then I could move on,
and play the rest of my songs
and play the rest of my songs
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Tada sam mogao nastaviti i svirati ostale svoje pjesme
04:24
with just a little bit more ease.
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sa samo malo više olakšanja.
04:27
And eventually, over time, I didn't
have to play the stage fright song at all.
have to play the stage fright song at all.
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Na kraju, s vremenom, uopće nisam morao svirati tu pjesmu o strahu od javnog nastupa.
04:33
Except for when I was really
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
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Osim kad sam bio jako nervozan, kao što sam sad. (Smijeh)
04:40
Would it be okay if I played the
stage fright song for you?
stage fright song for you?
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Bi li bilo u redu da vam sada odsviram tu pjesmu?
04:43
(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
04:52
Can I have a sip of water?
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Mogu li dobiti gutljaj vode?
04:55
(Music)
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(Glazba)
05:00
Thank you.
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Hvala.
05:07
♫ I'm not joking, you know, ♫
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♫ Ne šalim se, znate,♫
05:10
♫ this stage fright is real. ♫
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♫ ovaj strah od nastupa je stvaran. ♫
05:15
♫ And if I'm up here trembling and singing, ♫
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♫ I ako ovdje drhtim i pjevam, ♫
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♫ well, you'll know how I feel. ♫
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♫ pa, znat ćete kako se osjećam. ♫
05:23
♫ And the mistake I'd be making, ♫
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♫ I pogreška koju ću činiti, ♫
05:27
♫ the tremolo caused by my whole body shaking. ♫
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♫ tremor uzrokovan trešnjom cijelog mog tijela. ♫
05:31
♫ As you sit there feeling embarrassed for me, ♫
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♫ Dok vi sjedite i neugodno vam je zbog mene, ♫
05:34
♫ well, you don't have to be. ♫
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♫ pa, ne treba vam biti. ♫
05:37
♫ Well, maybe just a little bit. ♫
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♫ Pa, možda samo malo. ♫
05:40
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
05:41
♫ And maybe I'll try to imagine
you all without clothes. ♫
you all without clothes. ♫
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♫ I možda ću vas sve pokušati zamisliti bez odjeće. ♫
05:49
♫ But singing in front of all naked strangers
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
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♫ Ali pjevanje pred golim strancima me straši više nego što možete zamisliti. ♫
05:57
♫ Not to discuss this at length, ♫
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♫ Neću dugo o ovome, ♫
06:01
♫ but my body image was never my strength. ♫
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♫ ali slika o mom tijelu mi nikad nije bila jača strana. ♫
06:06
♫ So frankly, I wish that you all would get dressed, ♫
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♫ Pa iskreno, volio bih da se svi obučete. ♫
06:10
♫ I mean, you're not even really naked. ♫
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♫ Mislim, zapravo niste ni goli. ♫
06:15
♫ And I'm the one with the problem. ♫
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♫ Ja sam onaj s problemom. ♫
06:18
♫ And you tell me, don't worry
so much, you'll be great. ♫
so much, you'll be great. ♫
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♫ I kažete mi: ne brini toliko, bit ćeš odličan. ♫
06:25
♫ But I'm the one living with me ♫
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♫ Ali ja sam onaj koji živi sa mnom ♫
06:28
♫ and I know how I get. ♫
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♫ i znam kakav postanem. ♫
06:30
♫ Your advice is gentle but late. ♫
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♫ Vaš savjet je nježan, ali kasan, ♫
06:35
♫ If not just a bit patronizing. ♫
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♫ a možda pomalo dolazi s visoka. ♫
06:38
♫ And that sarcastic tone doesn't
help me when I sing. ♫
help me when I sing. ♫
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♫ Taj sarkastični ton mi ne pomaže kad pjevam. ♫
06:43
♫ But we shouldn't talk about
these things right now, ♫
these things right now, ♫
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♫ Ali ne bismo trebali pričati o tim stvarima sada. ♫
06:47
♫ really, I'm up on stage, and
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
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♫ Stvarno, ja sam na pozornici a vi u publici. Bok! ♫
06:54
♫ And I'm not making fun of
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
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♫ I ne ismijavam urođeni, iracionalni strah, ♫
07:03
♫ and if I wasn't ready to face this, ♫
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♫ i da se nisam spreman suočiti se s ovim, ♫
07:06
♫ I sure as hell wouldn't be here. ♫
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♫ zasigurno ne bih bio ovdje. ♫
07:10
♫ But if I belt one note out clearly, ♫
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♫ Ali ako jednu notu otpjevam jasno, ♫
07:15
♫ you'll know I'm recovering slowly but surely. ♫
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♫ znat ćete da se oporavljam polako, ali sigurno. ♫
07:20
♫ And maybe next week, I'll set my guitar ringin' ♫
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♫ I možda ću sljedeći tjedan namjestiti gitaru da svira ♫
07:24
♫ my voice clear as water, and everyone singin'. ♫
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♫ moj glas bistar kao voda i svi pjevaju. ♫
07:28
♫ But probably I'll just get up and start groovin', ♫
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♫ Ali vjerojatno ću se samo popeti i početi svirati, ♫
07:32
♫ my vocal cords movin', ♫
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♫ svoje glasnice pokretati, ♫
07:35
♫ at speeds slightly faster than sound. ♫
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♫ brzinom malo bržom od zvuka. ♫
07:48
(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designerBy day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter.
Why you should listen
Joe Kowan is a Boston-based musician and graphic designer who has been struggling with stage fright since he first started writing songs at age 27. Despite his adorably expressed fears, he charms audiences with his own style of quirky folk and acoustic hip-hop, by turns poignant, salacious and comical. In 2009 he released the gangsta' arts and crafts video for his original song “Crafty,” and in 2011 he was a finalist in the USA Songwriting Competition.
Kowan is a senior graphic designer on State Street Global Marketing’s Brand Strategy team. With a BFA in sculpture and design, his work explores diverse areas of design including scenic, print, environmental design and wayfinding.
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