TEDMED 2011
Diana Nyad: Extreme swimming with the world's most dangerous jellyfish
Diana Nyad: Ekstremno plivanje s najopasnijom meduzom na svijetu
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U 1970-ima Diana Nyad postavila je svjetske rekorde u plivanju koji još uvijek nisu oboreni. Trideset godina kasnije, sa 60 godina pokušala je preplivati svoju najdužu plivačku rutu: od Kube do Floride. U ovom zabavnom, snažnom govoru na TEDMED-u govori o tome kako se mentalno pripremiti za postizanje ekstremnih snova, i pita: Što ćete VI učiniti sa svojim divljim, dragocjenim životom?
Diana Nyad - Journalist, swimmer
A record-setting long-distance swimmer, Diana Nyad writes and thinks deeply about motivation. Full bio
A record-setting long-distance swimmer, Diana Nyad writes and thinks deeply about motivation. Full bio
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Yeah, so a couple of years ago I was turning 60,
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Da, prije par godina navršila sam 60 godina,
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and I don't like being 60.
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i ne volim imati 60 godina.
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(Laughter)
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(smijeh)
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And I started grappling
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Počela sam se boriti
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with this existential angst
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s egzistencijalnom tjeskobom
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of what little I had done with my life.
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kako sam malo učinila sa svojim životom.
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It wasn't the resume
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Nije to bio rezime
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of breaking this record here,
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obaranja ovog rekorda,
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it was more like, who had I become?
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bilo je to više u stilu, tko sam postala?
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How had I spent my valuable time?
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Kako sam provela svoje dragocjeno vrijeme?
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How could this have gone by
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Kako je sve to prošlo
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like lightning?
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kao munja?
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And I couldn't forgive myself
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I nisam si mogla oprostiti
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for the countless, countless hours
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nebrojene, nebrojene sate
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I had lost
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koje sam izgubila
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in negative thought --
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razmišljajući negativno --
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all the time I had spent beating myself up
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sve to vrijeme koje sam potrošila mučeći se
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for losing my marriage
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zbog gubitka braka
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and not stopping the sexual abuse when I was a kid
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i što nisam zaustavila seksualno zlostavljanje kad sam bila dijete,
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and career moves
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i zbog profesionalnih poteza,
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and this and this and this.
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i ovog, i onog.
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Just why, why didn't I do it better? Why? Why? Why?
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Zašto nisam bolje postupila? Zašto? Zašto? Zašto?
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And then my mother died at 82.
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A onda je u 82. godini umrla moja majka.
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And so I starting thinking,
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I tako sam počela razmišljati,
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not only am I not happy with the past,
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ne samo da nisam sretna s prošlošću,
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now I'm getting choked with,
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sada me guši i:
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"I've only got 22 years left."
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"Ostale su mi samo još 22 godine."
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What am I going to do with this short amount of time
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Što ću učiniti s tako malo vremena
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that's just fleeting?
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koje samo prolazi?
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And I'm not in the present whatsoever.
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I uopće nisam u sadašnjem trenutku.
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And I decided the remedy to all this malaise
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I odlučila sam da će lijek za sve te slabosti
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was going to be
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biti
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for me to chase
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da ulovim
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an elevated dream,
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jedan uzvišen san,
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an extreme dream,
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ekstreman san,
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something that would require
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nešto što će zahtijevati
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utter conviction
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snažno uvjerenje
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and unwavering passion,
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i nepokolebljivu strast,
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something that would make me
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nešto što će me prisiliti
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be my best self
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da budem najbolja ja
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in every aspect of my life,
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u svakom aspektu života,
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every minute of every day,
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svake minute svakog dana,
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because the dream was so big
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jer san je bio tako velik
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that I couldn't get there
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da ga ne bih bila mogla ostvariti
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without that kind of behavior and that kind of conviction.
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da se nisam tako ponašala i da mu nisam bila tako predana.
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And I decided,
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Odlučila sam.
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it was an old dream that was lingering,
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Bio je to jedan stari san koji sam dugo imala,
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that was from so many years ago,
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već toliko godina,
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three decades ago --
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tri desetljeća --
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the only sort of world class swim
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jedina vrsta plivanja svjetske klase
02:13
I had tried and failed at back in my 20s --
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u kojoj sam se okušala i nisam uspjela u svojim 20-ima --
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was going from Cuba to Florida.
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plivanje od Kube do Floride.
02:19
It was deep in my imagination.
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Bilo je to duboko u mojoj mašti.
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No one's ever done it without a shark cage.
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Nitko to još nikad nije učinio bez kaveza za zaštitu od morskih pasa.
02:24
It's daunting.
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Zastrašujuće je.
02:26
It's more than a hundred miles across a difficult passage of ocean.
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Više od 160 km preko opasnog oceanskog tjesnaca.
02:29
It's probably, at my speed, at my age --
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Mojom brzinom i u mojoj dobi--
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for anybody's speed at anybody's age --
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zapravo bilo čijom brzinom i u bilo kojoj dobi --
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going to take 60, maybe 70, hours
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za to bi vjerojatno trebalo 60, možda 70 sati
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of continuous swimming,
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neprestanog plivanja,
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never getting out on the boat.
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bez izlazaka na brod.
02:41
And I started to train.
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I počela sam trenirati.
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I hadn't swum for 31 years, not a stroke.
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Nisam plivala 31 godinu, niti jedan zamah.
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And I had kept in good shape, but swimming's a whole different animal.
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Održavala sam kondiciju, ali plivanje je nešto potpuno drugačije.
02:49
As a matter of fact,
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Zapravo,
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this picture is supposed to be me during training.
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ovo na fotografiji trebala bih biti ja za vrijeme treninga.
02:54
It's a smiling face.
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Smijem se.
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And when you're training for this sport, you are not smiling.
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Ali kad trenirate ovaj sport, ne smijete se.
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(Laughter)
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(smijeh)
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It's an arduous, difficult sport,
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To je naporan, težak sport
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and I don't remember smiling
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i ne sjećam se da sam se ikad smijala
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at any time during this sport.
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za vrijeme treninga.
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As I said, I respect other sports,
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Kao što rekoh, poštujem druge sportove,
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and I compare this sport sometimes
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a ponekad i uspoređujem ovaj sport
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to cycling and to mountain climbing
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s biciklizmom ili alpinizmom
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and other of the expedition type events,
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i s drugim događajima ekspedicijskog tipa,
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but this is a sensory deprivation,
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ali ovdje postoji senzorna deprivacija,
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a physical duress.
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fizički pritisak.
03:24
And when I started in
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Kad sam počela
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with the eight hours and the 10 hours and the 12 hours
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s osmosatnim treninzima, i sa 10-satnim, 12-satnim
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and the 14 hours and the 15 hours and the 24-hour swims,
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i 14-satnim, i 15-satnim, i 24-satnim treninzima plivanja,
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I knew I had it,
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znala sam da mogu,
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because I was making it through these.
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jer sam sve to mogla.
03:36
And when I said I'm going to go out and do a 15-hour swim,
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kad sam rekla da ću 15 sati plivati,
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and we're coming into the dock after a long day
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a vraćali smo se u pristanište nakon dugog dana
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and it's now night,
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i već je noć,
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and we come in and it's 14 hours and 58 minutes
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vraćamo se nakon 14 sati i 58 minuta
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and I can touch the dock and we're done,
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i već mogu dodirnuti dȍk i gotovi smo,
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the trainer says, "That's great.
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trener kaže: "To je izvrsno.
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It's 14 hours 58 minutes. Who cares the last two minutes?"
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14 sati i 58 minuta. Koga briga za posljednje dvije minute?"
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I say, "No, it's got to be 15 hours,"
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Rekla sam: "Ne, mora biti 15 sati."
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and I swim another minute out and another minute back
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i otplivala sam još jednu minutu dalje i drugu minutu nazad
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to make the 15 hours.
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da bude 15 sati.
04:00
And I put together an expedition.
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Sastavila sam ekspediciju.
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It's not that I didn't have help,
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Nije da nisam imala pomoć,
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but honestly, I sort of led, I was the team leader.
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ali iskreno, ja sam vodila, bila sam vođa tima.
04:06
And to get the government permissions,
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Da biste dobili dopuštenje vlade,
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you read in the paper,
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čitate u novinama,
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you think it's easy to get into Cuba everyday?
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mislite li da je lako ući u Kubu?
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Try going in with an armada like we had
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Pokušajte ući s flotom kao što je bila naša,
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of 50 people and five boats
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50 ljudi i pet brodova,
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and CNN's crew, etc.
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ekipa CNN-a itd.
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The navigation is difficult.
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Navigacija je teška.
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There's a big river called the Gulf Stream
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Tu je velika rijeka koja se zove Golfska struja
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that runs across
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koja teče poprijeko
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and it's not going in the direction you are.
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i ne ide u vašem smjeru.
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It's going to the east and you'd like to go north.
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Ide na istok, a vi biste htjeli na sjever.
04:31
It's tricky.
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Nezgodno je to.
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And there's dehydration.
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A tu je i dehidracija.
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And there's hypothermia.
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I pothlađenost.
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And there are sharks.
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I morski psi.
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And there are all kinds of problems.
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I svi mogući problemi.
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And I gathered together, honestly,
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Okupila sam, iskreno,
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the world's leading experts in every possible way.
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vodeće svjetske stručnjake za sva moguća područja.
04:46
And a month ago,
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Prije mjesec dana,
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the 23rd of September,
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23. rujna
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I stood on that shore
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stajala sam na toj obali
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and I looked across
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i gledala preko
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to that long, long faraway horizon
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prema tom dalekom, dalekom horizontu
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and I asked myself,
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i zapitala sam se,
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do you have it?
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možeš li ti to?
05:00
Are your shoulders ready?
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Jesu li tvoja ramena spremna?
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And they were. They were prepared.
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Bila su. Bila su pripremljena.
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No stone left unturned.
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Sve je bio spremno.
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Was the mind ready?
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Je li um bio spreman?
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You know, you're swimming with the fogged goggles,
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Znate, plivate sa zamagljenim naočalama,
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you're swimming at 60 strokes a minute,
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plivate 60 zamaha u minuti,
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so you're never really focused on anything, you don't see well.
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tako da nikada niste dobro fokusirani ni na što, ne vidite dobro.
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You've got tight bathing caps over your ears
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Preko ušiju imate tijesnu kapu za plivanje
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trying to keep the heat of the head,
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da čuva toplinu glave,
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because it's where the hypothermia starts,
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jer tu počinje pothlađenost,
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and so you don't hear very well.
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tako da ne čujete baš dobro.
05:28
You're really left alone with your own thoughts.
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Zaista ste sami sa svojim mislima.
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And I had all kinds of counting systems ready there
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Imala sam pripravljeno mnogo vrsta brojevnih sustava
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in English, followed by German,
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na engleskom, pa na njemačkom,
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followed by Spanish, followed by French.
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pa na španjolskom, i na francuskom.
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You save the French for last.
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Francuski sam sačuvala za kraj.
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And I had songs, I had a playlist in my head --
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Imala sam i pjesme, listu pjesama u glavi --
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not through headphones, in my own head --
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ne preko slušalica nego u svojoj glavi --
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of 65 songs.
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65 pjesama.
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And I couldn't wait to get into the dark in the middle of the night,
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Jedva sam čekala da se spusti mrak usred noći
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because that's when Neil Young comes out.
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jer tada izlazi Neil Young.
05:53
(Laughter)
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(smijeh)
05:57
And it's odd, isn't it?
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Čudno, zar ne?
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You'd think you'd be singing Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah"
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Pomislili biste da ćete pjevati "Hallelujah" Leonarda Cohena
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out in the majesty of the ocean,
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u veličanstvenosti oceana,
06:03
not songs about heroin addiction in New York City.
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a ne pjesme o ovisnosti o heroinu u New Yorku.
06:06
But no, for some reason
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Ali ne, iz nekog razloga
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I couldn't wait to get into the dark of the night
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jedva sam dočekala da se spusti mrak
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and be singing,
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i da počnem pjevati:
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♫ "A heard you knocking at my cellar door ♫
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"Čuo sam te kako kucaš po mojim podrumskim vratima,
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♫ I love you baby and I want some more ♫
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volim te, dušo, i želim još malo,
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♫ Ooh, ooh, the damage done" ♫
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ooh, ooh, šteta je učinjena"
06:27
(Applause)
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(pljesak)
06:32
The night before I started,
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Noć prije nego što sam krenula
06:34
I finished Stephen Hawking's "The Grand Design."
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pročitala sam knjigu Stephena Hawkingsa "The Grand Design".
06:37
And I couldn't wait
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I jedva sam čekala
06:39
to trip the mind fantastic.
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da me mozak odvede na fantastično putovanje.
06:41
About the 50th hour,
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Oko pedesetog sata
06:43
I was going to start thinking about the edge of the universe.
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počet ću razmišljati o rubu univerzuma.
06:46
Is there an edge?
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Postoji li rub?
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Is this an envelope we're living inside of,
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Živimo li unutar ovojnice
06:50
or no, does it go onto infinity in both time and space?
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ili ne, ide li u beskraj vremena i prostora?
06:53
And there's nothing like swimming for 50 hours in the ocean
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Nema ničeg boljeg od plivanja 50 sati u oceanu
06:56
that gets you thinking about things like this.
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ako želite razmišljati o takvim stvarima.
06:59
I couldn't wait to prove the athlete I am,
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Nisam mogla dočekati da dokažem kakva sam sportašica,
07:03
that nobody else in the world can do this swim.
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i da nitko drugi na svijetu ovo ne može preplivati.
07:06
And I knew I could do it.
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Znala sam da mogu.
07:08
And when I jumped into that water,
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Kad sam skočila u vodu,
07:10
I yelled in my mother's French, "Courage!"
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uzviknula sam na francuskom moje majke: "Hrabro!"
07:13
And I started swimming,
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I počela sam plivati,
07:15
and, oh my God, it was glassy.
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i, o Bože moj, more je bilo stakleno.
07:17
And we knew it, all 50 people on the boat,
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Svi smo znali, svih 50 ljudi na brodu,
07:19
we all knew this was it,
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svi smo znali da je
07:21
this was our time.
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ovo naš trenutak.
07:23
And I reminded myself a couple hours in,
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Nakon nekoliko sam se sati podsjetila,
07:26
you know, the sport is sort of a microcosm of life itself.
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znate, sport je na neki način mikrokozmos samog života.
07:30
First of all, you're going to hit obstacles.
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Kao prvo, morat ćete se suočiti s preprekama.
07:34
And even though you're feeling great at any one moment,
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Iako se izvrsno osjećate u bilo kojem trenutku,
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don't take it for granted, be ready,
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nemojte to uzeti zdravo za gotovo, budite spremni,
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because there's going to be pain, there's going to be suffering.
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jer bit će boli, bit će patnje,
07:43
It's not going to feel this good all the way across.
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nećete se osjećati ovako dobro cijelo vrijeme.
07:46
And I was thinking of the hypothermia
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Mislila sam i na pothlađenost
07:48
and maybe some shoulder pain
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i možda na bolove u ramenima
07:50
and all the other things --
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i na sve druge stvari --
07:52
the vomiting that comes from being in the saltwater.
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povraćanje koje je posljedica boravka u slanoj vodi.
07:54
You're immersed in the liquid.
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Uronjeni ste u tekućinu.
07:57
Your body doesn't like the saltwater.
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A tijelo ne voli slanu vodu.
07:59
After a couple of days, three days,
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Nakon nekoliko dana, nakon tri dana,
08:01
you tend to rebel
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počinjete se buniti
08:03
in a lot of physical ways.
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na razne fizičke načine.
08:05
But no, two hours in,
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Ali ne, nakon dva sata,
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wham! Never in my life ...
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bum! Nikad u životu...
08:11
I knew there were Portuguese men o' war,
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znala sam da u vodi ima portugalskih lađica,
08:13
all kinds of moon jellies, all kinds of things,
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i raznih uhatih klobuka, i raznih drugih stvari,
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but the box jellyfish from the southern oceans
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ali morske ose iz južnih oceana
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is not supposed to be in these waters.
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ne bi trebale biti u ovim vodama.
08:21
And I was on fire --
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Gorjela sam --
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excruciating, excruciating pain.
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strašna, strašna bol.
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I don't know if you can still see
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Ne znam možete li još vidjeti
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the red line here and up the arm.
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crvenu crtu ovdje na ruci.
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Evidently, a piece this big of tentacle
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Očigledno komad ticala ove veličine
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has a hundred-thousand little barbs on it
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ima sto tisuća žarnih stanica
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and each barb is not just stinging your skin,
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i svaka žarna stanica ne samo da ubode,
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it's sending a venom.
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nego šalje i otrov.
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The most venomous animal that lives in the ocean
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Najotrovnija životinja u oceanu
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is the box jellyfish.
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upravo je morska osa.
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And every one of those barbs
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Svaka žarna stanica
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is sending that venom into this central nervous system.
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šalje otrov u središnji živčani sustav.
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So first I feel like boiling hot oil,
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Najprije sam se osjećala kao vrelo ulje,
08:55
I've been dipped in.
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kao da su me umočili u nj.
08:57
And I'm yelling out, "Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!
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Vikala sam: "Vatra! Vatra! Vatra!
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Help me! Somebody help me!"
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Upomoć! Neka mi netko pomogne!"
09:02
And the next thing is paralysis.
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Nakon toga dolazi paraliza.
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I feel it in the back and then I feel it in the chest up here,
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Osjećala sam je u leđima, a onda i u prsima ovdje gore,
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and I can't breathe.
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i nisam mogla disati.
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And now I'm not swimming with a nice long stroke,
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Sada više nisam plivala lijepim dugim zamasima,
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I'm sort of crabbing it this way.
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nego sam se migoljila ovako.
09:14
Then come convulsions.
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Tada su došli grčevi.
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A young man on our boat is an EMT. He dives in to try to help me.
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Jedan mladić na našem brodu liječnik je hitne službe. Skočio je u vodu da mi pomogne.
09:19
He's stung.
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I njega ubada.
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They drag him out on the boat,
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Izvukli su ga na brod,
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and he's -- evidently, I didn't see any of this -- but lying on the boat
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i on je -- naravno, nisam to vidjela -- ležao na brodu
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and giving himself epinephrine shots
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i davao si je injekcije epinefrina
09:28
and crying out.
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i vikao.
09:30
He's 29 years old,
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29 mu je godina,
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very well-built, lean, he's six-foot, five,
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dobro građen, vitak, dvometraš,
09:36
weighs 265 lbs.,
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težak 120 kg
09:38
and he is down.
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i slomljen je.
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And he is crying and he's yelling to my trainer
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Plače i viče mom treneru
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who's trying to help me.
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koji se trudi pomoći meni.
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And he's saying, "Bonnie, I think I'm going to die.
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I kaže: "Bonnie, mislim da ću umrijeti.
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My breath is down to three breaths a minute.
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Moje je disanje na svega tri udisaja u minuti.
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I need help, and I can't help Diana."
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Trebam pomoć i ne mogu pomoći Diani."
09:53
So that was at eight o'clock at night.
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To je bilo u osam sati navečer.
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The doctor, medical team from University of Miami
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Liječnik i medicinska ekipa Sveučilišta u Miamiju
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arrived at five in the morning.
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stigli su u pet sati ujutro.
10:00
So I swam through the night,
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Plivala sam cijelu noć
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and at dawn they got there and they started with prednisone shots.
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i u zoru su stigli i dali mi injekcije prednizona.
10:04
I didn't get out,
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Nisam izišla iz vode,
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but was in the water taking prednisone shots, taking Xanax,
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nego bila u vodi i tu su mi dali injekcije prednizona, pa Xanax,
10:09
oxygen to the face.
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i kisik na lice.
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It was like an ICU unit
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Izgledala sam kao odjel intenzivne njege
10:13
in the water.
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u vodi.
10:15
(Laughter)
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(smijeh)
10:17
And I guess the story is
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Stvar je u tome
10:19
that even Navy SEALS who are stung by the box jelly,
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da su čak i specijalci američke mornarice koje ubode morska osa
10:22
they're done.
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gotovi.
10:24
They either die or they quickly get to a hospital.
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Umru ili ih hitno otpreme u bolnicu.
10:27
And I swam through the night and I swam through the next day.
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A ja sam plivala cijelu noć i cijeli sljedeći dan.
10:30
And the next night at dusk,
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Sljedeće večeri u sumrak
10:32
again, wham!
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opet, bum!
10:34
The box jelly again --
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Još jedna morska osa --
10:36
all across the neck, all across here.
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po cijelom vratu, posvuda ovdje.
10:39
And this time,
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Ovaj put,
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I don't like it, I didn't want to give into it,
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nije mi se to svidjelo, nisam se htjela predati,
10:43
but there's a difference between a non-stop swim
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ali postoji razlika između neprestanog plivanja
10:45
and a staged swim.
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i plivanja u etapama.
10:47
And I gave in
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Popustila sam
10:49
to the staged swim.
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i počela plivati u etapama.
10:51
And they got me out and they started again
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Izvukli su me iz vode i opet počeli
10:54
with the epinephrine and the prednisone
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s epinefrinom i prednizonom
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and with the oxygen and with everything they had on board.
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i kisikom, i sa svime što im je bilo pri ruci.
10:59
And I got back in.
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Vratila sam se u vodu.
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And I swam through that night and into the next day.
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Plivala sam cijelu noć i sljedeći dan.
11:04
And at 41 hours,
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Nakon 41 sata
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this body couldn't make it.
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ovo tijelo više nije moglo.
11:11
The devastation of those stings
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Svi ti ubodi
11:13
had taken the respiratory system down
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toliko su naškodili dišnom sustavu
11:15
so that I couldn't make the progress I wanted.
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da nisam mogla napredovati kao sam htjela.
11:18
And the dream was crushed.
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Moji snovi bili su uništeni.
11:22
And how odd
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Kako je čudna
11:24
is this intelligent person who put this together
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ta inteligentna osoba koja je sve to sastavila
11:27
and got all these world experts together.
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i združila sve te svjetske stručnjake.
11:29
And I knew about the jellyfish,
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Znala sam za meduze,
11:31
but I was sort of cavalier.
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ali mislila sam da sam nekakav vitez.
11:33
A lot of athletes have this, you know,
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Mnogo sportaša ima taj osjećaj, znate,
11:35
sort of invincibility.
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osjećaj neke vrste nepobjedivosti.
11:40
They should worry about me. I don't worry about them.
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Neka se oni brinu zbog mene. Ja se ne brinem zbog njih.
11:42
I'll just swim right through them.
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Samo ću preplivati kroz njih.
11:44
We've got benadryl on board. If I get stung, I'll just grin and bear it.
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Na brodu imamo benadryl. Ako me ubode, primit ću to s osmijehom.
11:47
Well there was no grin and bearing this.
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E pa, ovo se nije moglo primiti s osmijehom.
11:49
As a matter of fact, the best advice I got
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Zapravo, najbolji savjet koji sam dobila
11:52
was from an elementary school class
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bio je od jednog osnovnoškolskog razreda
11:55
in the Caribbean.
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na Karibima.
11:58
And I was telling these kids, 120 of them --
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Govorila sam toj djeci,120 njih --
12:00
they were all in the school on the gymnasium floor --
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svi su sjedili na podu školske dvorane --
12:02
and I was telling them about the jellyfish
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govorila sam im o meduzama
12:04
and how they're gelatinous
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i o tome kako su želatinaste
12:06
and you can't see them at night especially.
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i kako ih se ne može vidjeti, pogotovo noću.
12:08
And they have these
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Imaju i ta
12:11
long 30 to 40 to 50-ft. tentacles.
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10 do 15 metara duga ticala.
12:13
And they do this wrapping.
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I one se omotaju.
12:15
And they can send the poison into the system.
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I mogu poslati otrov u tijelo.
12:17
And a little kid from the back was like this.
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A jedan mališan straga javljao se ovako.
12:19
And I said, "What's your name?" "Henry."
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I rekoh: "Kako se zoveš?" "Henry."
12:21
"Henry, what's your question?"
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"Henry, koje je tvoje pitanje?"
12:23
He said, "Well, I didn't have a question so much
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Rekao je: "Pa, nemam baš pitanje,
12:25
as I had a suggestion."
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nego prijedlog."
12:27
He said, "You know those guys
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Rekao je: "Znate one tipove
12:30
who really believe in what they believe in
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koji stvarno vjeruju u ono u što vjeruju
12:32
and so they wear bombs?"
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i zato nose bombe?"
12:34
And I said, "Well it's odd that you've learned of this
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Rekoh: " Pa, malo je čudno da si o tome učio
12:37
as a noble kind of pursuit, but yeah, I know those guys."
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kao o plemenitoj težnji, ali da, znam te tipove."
12:40
He said, "That's what you need.
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I kaže on: "To tebi treba.
12:42
You need like a school of fish
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Treba ti nekakvo jato riba
12:44
that would swim in front of you like this."
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koje bi ovako plivalo pred tobom."
12:47
(Laughter)
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(smijeh)
12:49
"And when the jellyfish come and they wrap their tentacles around the fish,
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"I onda kad meduze dođu i omotaju svoja ticala oko ribe,
12:52
they're going to be busy with them,
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bit će zauzete njima
12:54
and you'll just scoot around."
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i ti ćeš samo jurnuti uz njih."
12:57
I said, "Oh, it's like a suicide army."
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Rekoh: "Aha, to je kao vojska samoubojica."
13:00
He said, "That's what I'm talking about. That's what you need."
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I kaže on: "Pa o tome i govorim. To ti treba."
13:03
And little did I know,
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Nisam pojma imala
13:05
that you should listen to eight year-olds.
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da treba slušati osmogodišnjake.
13:07
And so I started that swim
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Tako sam započela to plivanje
13:09
in a bathing suit like normal,
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u kupaćem kostimu kao i inače,
13:11
and, no joke, this is it; it came from the shark divers.
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i, bez šale, ovo je to, dobila sam to od ronioca s morskim psima.
13:14
I finished the swim like this.
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Završila sam plivanje ovako.
13:18
I was swimming with this thing on.
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Plivala sam s ovime na glavi.
13:21
That's how scared of the jellyfish I was.
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Toliko sam se bojala meduza.
13:24
So now what do I do?
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I što ću sad?
13:29
I wouldn't mind
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Ne bih imala ništa protiv
13:31
if every one of you came up on this stage tonight
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kad bi se vi svi popeli na ovu pozornicu večeras
13:35
and told us how you've gotten over the big disappointments of your lives.
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i ispričali nam kako ste preboljeli velika razočaranja u životu.
13:38
Because we've all had them, haven't we?
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Jer svi smo ih doživjeli, zar ne?
13:40
We've all had a heartache.
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Svi smo imali slomljeno srce.
13:42
And so my journey now
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I tako se moje putovanje sada
13:44
is to find some sort of grace
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sastoji u traženju neke vrste zahvalnosti
13:47
in the face of this defeat.
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unatoč ovom porazu.
13:51
And I can look at the journey,
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Mogu sagledati cijelo putovanje,
13:54
not just the destination.
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ne samo odredište.
13:56
I can feel proud. I can stand here in front of you tonight
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Mogu se osjećati ponosno. I mogu stajati pred vama večeras
13:58
and say I was courageous.
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i reći da sam bila hrabra.
14:01
Yeah.
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Da.
14:03
(Applause)
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(pljesak)
14:08
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
14:10
And with all sincerity, I can say,
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Potpuno iskreno mogu reći
14:12
I am glad I lived those two years of my life that way,
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da mi je drago da sam te dvije godine života tako proživjela
14:15
because my goal to not suffer regrets anymore,
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jer moj je cilj da više ni za čim ne žalim
14:18
I got there with that goal.
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postignut.
14:20
When you live that way, when you live with that kind of passion,
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Kad tako živite, kad živite s takvom strasti,
14:22
there's no time, there's no time for regrets,
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nema vremena, nema vremena za žaljenje,
14:24
you're just moving forward.
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samo idete naprijed.
14:26
And I want to live every day of the rest of my life that way,
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Želim svaki dan do kraja života živjeti na taj način,
14:28
swim or no swim.
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plivala ili ne.
14:30
But the difference
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Ali razlika
14:32
in accepting this particular defeat
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u prihvaćanju ovoga konkretnog poraza
14:34
is that sometimes,
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jest da ponekad,
14:37
if cancer has won,
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ako je rak pobijedio,
14:41
if there's death and we have no choice,
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ako dođe smrt i nemamo izbora,
14:44
then grace and acceptance
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tada su zahvalnost i prihvaćanje
14:47
are necessary.
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nužni.
14:49
But that ocean's still there.
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Ali taj ocean još uvijek postoji.
14:51
This hope is still alive.
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Ova nada je još živa.
14:53
And I don't want to be the crazy woman
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Ne želim biti luda žena
14:55
who does it for years and years and years,
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koja to čini godinama i godinama,
14:58
and tries and fails and tries and fails and tries and fails,
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i pokušava, i ne uspijeva, pokušava, i ne uspijeva, pokušava, i ne uspijeva,
15:00
but I can swim from Cuba to Florida,
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ali ja mogu preplivati od Kube do Floride,
15:03
and I will swim from Cuba to Florida.
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i ja ću otplivati od Kube do Floride.
15:06
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
15:08
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
15:10
(Applause)
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(pljesak)
15:13
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
15:15
(Applause)
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(pljesak)
15:17
And so, what after that?
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Što nakon toga?
15:19
Are you going to swim the Atlantic?
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Hoćeš li preplivati Atlantik?
15:22
No, that's the last swim.
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Ne, ovo je posljednje.
15:24
It's the only swim I'm interested in.
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To je jedina plivačka dionica koja me zanima.
15:27
But I'm ready.
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Ali spremna sam.
15:29
And by the way, a reporter called me the other day
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Inače, jedan me novinar nazvao neki dan
15:31
and he said he looked on Wikipedia
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i rekao je da je pogledao na Wikipediji
15:33
and he said he saw my birthday was August 22nd 1949,
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i rekao da je vidio da sam se rodila 22. 8. 1949.
15:36
and for some odd reason in Wikipedia,
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i da zbog nekog čudnog razloga na Wikipediji
15:38
they had my death date too.
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imaju i datum moje smrti.
15:40
(Laughter)
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(smijeh)
15:42
He said, "Did you know you're going to die the same place you were born, New York City,
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Rekao je: "Jesi li znala da ćeš umrijeti na istom mjestu gdje si se rodila, u New Yorku,
15:45
and it's going to be in January of '35?"
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i bit će to biti u siječnju 2035.?"
15:48
I said, "Nope. I didn't know."
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Rekoh: "Ne, nisam znala."
15:50
And now I'm going to live to 85.
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Sad ću živjeti do 85. godine.
15:52
I have three more years than I thought.
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Imam tri godine više nego što sam mislila.
15:56
And so I ask myself,
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I pitam se,
15:58
I'm starting to ask myself now,
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sada se počinjem pitati,
16:00
even before this extreme dream
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čak i prije nego što ostvarim
16:02
gets achieved for me,
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ovaj ekstreman san,
16:04
I'm asking myself,
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pitam se,
16:06
and maybe I can ask you tonight too,
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i možda bih to mogla upitati i vas večeras,
16:08
to paraphrase the poet
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da parafraziram pjesnikinju
16:13
Mary Oliver,
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Mary Oliver,
16:16
she says, "So what is it,
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koja kaže: "Pa što je to,
16:20
what is it you're doing,
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što to točno radiš
16:23
with this one wild and precious life of yours?"
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s tim svojim divljim i dragocjenim životom?"
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Thank you very much.
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Najljepša vam hvala.
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Thank you. Thank you.
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Hvala vam. Hvala.
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Thank you. Thank you.
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Hvala. Hvala.
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Live it large. Live it large.
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Živite punim plućima. Živite punim plućima.
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Diana Nyad - Journalist, swimmerA record-setting long-distance swimmer, Diana Nyad writes and thinks deeply about motivation.
Why you should listen
For ten years (1969-1979), Diana Nyad was known as the greatest long-distance swimmer in the world. In 1979, she stroked the then-longest swim in history, making the 102.5-mile journey from the island of Bimini (Bahamas) to Florida. She also broke numerous world records, including what had been a 50-year mark for circling Manhattan Island, setting the new time of 7 hrs 57 min. She is a member of the National Women’s Hall of Fame and the International Swimming Hall of Fame.
At age 60, having not swum a stroke in decades, she began planning for her white whale of distance swims: the 110-mile ocean crossing between Cuba and Florida. She'd tried it once, in her 20s, and severe jellyfish attacks had defeated her then. But now, with a strong team and a new commitment to her vision, she stepped back into the salt. She spoke about this second attempt at TEDMED 2011. And at TEDWomen 2013, in December, she talks about how it feels to have finally done it.
Nyad appears as part of a weekly five-minute radio piece on sports for KCRW called "The Score" (heard during KCRW's broadcast of NPR's All Things Considered), as well as for the Marketplace radio program.
Diana Nyad | Speaker | TED.com