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Gill Hicks: I survived a terrorist attack. Here's what I learned
吉兒席克絲: 我從恐怖攻擊中生存了下來所學到的智慧
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吉兒席克絲（Gill Hicks's）的故事充滿了惻隱之心與人性，她的故事是來自充滿仇恨的廢墟中開始的。2005 年 ７ 月，一位來自倫敦炸彈事件的生存者，向我們分享了那天發生的故事——以及讓她想繼續活下去的深刻教誨及智慧。
Gill Hicks - Survivor and activist
Gill Hicks has dedicated her life to being an advocate for peace. Full bio
Gill Hicks has dedicated her life to being an advocate for peace. Full bio
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00:12
I could never have imagined
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我從未想過
00:15
that a 19-year-old suicide bomber
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一個 19 歲的自殺式炸彈客
00:19
would actually teach me a valuable lesson.
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可以讓我學到
甚麼有價值的一課。
甚麼有價值的一課。
00:24
But he did.
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但他做到了。
00:26
He taught me to never presume anything
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他教會我，永遠不要對你不認識的人
有任何的預設立場。
有任何的預設立場。
00:31
about anyone you don't know.
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00:36
On a Thursday morning in July 2005,
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在 2005 年七月的一個星期二早上，
00:40
the bomber and I, unknowingly,
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炸彈客跟我，不期而遇地，
00:43
boarded the same train carriage
at the same time,
at the same time,
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同時踏上了同一台火車車廂，
00:48
standing, apparently, just feet apart.
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我們離彼此才幾步遠。
00:54
I didn't see him.
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但我卻沒看到他。
00:56
Actually, I didn't see anyone.
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老實說，我根本沒在看人。
00:58
You know not to look
at anyone on the Tube,
at anyone on the Tube,
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大家都知道
不要在車廂盯著別人看，
不要在車廂盯著別人看，
01:00
but I guess he saw me.
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但我猜，他有看到我。
01:04
I guess he looked at all of us,
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我猜，他是緊握著手中的引爆器
看著我們全部的人。
看著我們全部的人。
01:08
as his hand hovered
over the detonation switch.
over the detonation switch.
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01:14
I've often wondered: What was he thinking?
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我常在想：他當時是在想什麼？
01:18
Especially in those final seconds.
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尤其是最後的那幾秒。
01:24
I know it wasn't personal.
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我知道這無關私人恩怨。
01:26
He didn't set out to kill
or maim me, Gill Hicks.
or maim me, Gill Hicks.
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他不是預謀要殺掉我，
或讓我重殘。
或讓我重殘。
01:31
I mean -- he didn't know me.
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我的意思是——他根本不認識
吉爾席克絲，我這個人，
吉爾席克絲，我這個人，
01:33
No.
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根本不認識。
01:35
Instead, he gave me
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然而，他卻給我貼了個標籤，
01:38
an unwarranted and an unwanted label.
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一個我不想要而且莫須有的標籤。
01:44
I had become the enemy.
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我變成了「敵人」。
01:49
To him, I was the "other,"
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對他而言，我是「外人」、
01:52
the "them," as opposed to "us."
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「他們」，跟「我們」是對立的。
01:57
The label "enemy" allowed him
to dehumanize us.
to dehumanize us.
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那個「敵人」的標籤，
剝奪掉了我們的人性。
剝奪掉了我們的人性。
02:03
It allowed him to push that button.
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逼他按下了按鈕。
02:07
And he wasn't selective.
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他別無選擇。
02:10
Twenty-six precious lives were taken
in my carriage alone,
in my carriage alone,
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同車廂的 26 條生命
就這樣被帶走了，
就這樣被帶走了，
02:17
and I was almost one of them.
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我差點成為其中一個。
02:20
In the time it takes to draw a breath,
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就在那幾秒鐘，
02:23
we were plunged into a darkness so immense
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我們被送進了一個
02:27
that it was almost tangible;
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幾乎觸手就可及的無底深淵；
02:29
what I imagine wading
through tar might be like.
through tar might be like.
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我得想像，奮力求生後
會是怎樣的世界。
會是怎樣的世界。
02:35
We didn't know we were the enemy.
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我們不知道，
我們怎麼會被歸類成敵人。
我們怎麼會被歸類成敵人。
02:38
We were just a bunch of commuters
who, minutes earlier,
who, minutes earlier,
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我們只是一群早起
遵守著車廂禮儀的上班族：
02:42
had followed the Tube etiquette:
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02:44
no direct eye contact,
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彼此沒有眼神交會、
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no talking
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沒有說話，
02:48
and absolutely no conversation.
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更沒有交談。
02:53
But in the lifting of the darkness,
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但當悲劇發生後，
02:57
we were reaching out.
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我們伸出了雙手，
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We were helping each other.
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彼此幫忙協助。
03:02
We were calling out our names,
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我們呼喊著我們的名字，
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a little bit like a roll call,
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有點像在點名，
03:08
waiting for responses.
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並等待救援的回應。
03:12
"I'm Gill. I'm here.
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「我是吉兒，我在這，
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I'm alive.
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我還活著......
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OK."
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好。」
03:23
"I'm Gill.
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「我是吉兒，
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Here.
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我在這，
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Alive.
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活著......
03:31
OK."
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好。」
03:35
I didn't know Alison.
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我不認識艾利森。
03:38
But I listened for her check-ins
every few minutes.
every few minutes.
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但我每隔幾分鐘都會聽到他的呼救。
03:43
I didn't know Richard.
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我不認識理查。
03:45
But it mattered to me that he survived.
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但他能活著對我意義重大。
03:50
All I shared with them
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我能分享給他們的
03:52
was my first name.
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就只有我的名字。
03:55
They didn't know
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他們不知道
03:56
that I was a head of a department
at the Design Council.
at the Design Council.
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我就是 Design Council 的
一個部門老大。
一個部門老大。
04:01
And here is my beloved briefcase,
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這一個是我最愛的公事包，
04:04
also rescued from that morning.
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那個早上，它救了我一命。
04:08
They didn't know that I published
architecture and design journals,
architecture and design journals,
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他們不知道我有發行
建築與設計的雜誌，
建築與設計的雜誌，
04:12
that I was a Fellow
of the Royal Society of Arts,
of the Royal Society of Arts,
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我也是一位皇家文藝學會的成員，
04:15
that I wore black --
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我喜歡穿黑色的——
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still do --
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現在仍是——
04:20
that I smoked cigarillos.
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我抽小雪茄，
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I don't smoke cigarillos anymore.
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但現在不抽了。
04:26
I drank gin and I watched TED Talks,
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我喝琴酒，我看 TED 的演講，
04:30
of course, never dreaming
that one day I would be standing,
that one day I would be standing,
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當然，從來沒有夢想過會有這麼一天......
04:37
balancing on prosthetic legs,
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我會跛腳著......
04:40
giving a talk.
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站在這個舞台上演講。
04:42
I was a young Australian woman
doing extraordinary things in London.
doing extraordinary things in London.
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我是一位在倫敦
表現出眾的澳洲年輕女士。
表現出眾的澳洲年輕女士。
04:48
And I wasn't ready for that all to end.
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我還沒有準備好就這樣結束生命。
04:52
I was so determined to survive
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我努力地求生，
04:56
that I used my scarf to tie tourniquets
around the tops of my legs,
around the tops of my legs,
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我用頭巾包紮我的大腿，
05:01
and I just shut everything
and everyone out,
and everyone out,
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並向每個人大聲求救，
05:07
to focus, to listen to myself,
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專注、傾聽著
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to be guided by instinct alone.
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我自己的內心聲音。
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I lowered my breathing rate.
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我降低我的呼吸速度。
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I elevated my thighs.
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抬高我的大腿。
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I held myself upright
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讓自己腰背挺直
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and I fought the urge to close my eyes.
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對抗著我即將閉起來的眼睛。
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I held on for almost an hour,
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我大概堅持了一個小時，
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an hour to contemplate
the whole of my life
the whole of my life
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在那一個小時裡，
我回顧了我的這一生，想著.....
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up until this point.
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05:39
Perhaps I should have done more.
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也許我應該要做更多的事，
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Perhaps I could have
lived more, seen more.
lived more, seen more.
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也許我可以活得更久、看得更多。
05:46
Maybe I should have gone running,
dancing, taken up yoga.
dancing, taken up yoga.
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也許我應該要去跑跑步、
跳跳舞、做瑜珈。
跳跳舞、做瑜珈。
05:52
But my priority and my focus
was always my work.
was always my work.
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但我最在意最關注的
卻都是我的工作。
卻都是我的工作。
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I lived to work.
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我為工作而活，
05:59
Who I was on my business card
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名片上的我
06:02
mattered to me.
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比我自己還重要。
06:05
But it didn't matter down in that tunnel.
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但在那個隧道裡，
我什麼都不是。
我什麼都不是。
06:11
By the time I felt that first touch
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當我第一時間
06:15
from one of my rescuers,
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與救援人員接觸時，
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I was unable to speak,
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我說不出話來。
06:20
unable to say even
a small word, like "Gill."
a small word, like "Gill."
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甚至自己的名字「吉兒」都喊不出來。
06:27
I surrendered my body to them.
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我把我的身體託付給他們。
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I had done all I possibly could,
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我已經竭盡所能的存活下來，
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and now I was in their hands.
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接下來就只能靠他們了。
06:39
I understood
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我這時才明白，
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just who and what humanity really is,
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人性的真正意義。
06:47
when I first saw the ID tag
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就在我被送進醫院，
第一次看到我的 ID 識別卡的時後。
第一次看到我的 ID 識別卡的時後。
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that was given to me
when I was admitted to hospital.
when I was admitted to hospital.
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06:54
And it read:
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上面是這麼寫的：
06:56
"One unknown estimated female."
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「一位身份不明，無法判斷的女士」
07:03
One unknown estimated female.
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「一位身份不明，無法判斷的女士」
07:09
Those four words were my gift.
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這行字是我的禮物。
07:13
What they told me very clearly
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它清楚地告訴了我，
07:15
was that my life was saved,
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我被救活了，
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purely because I was a human being.
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只因為我是個人類。
07:22
Difference of any kind made no difference
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任何的差異不再是距離，
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to the extraordinary lengths
that the rescuers were prepared to go
that the rescuers were prepared to go
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不管有多大的差異，
救援人員隨時待命
救援人員隨時待命
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to save my life,
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準備把我救活。
07:34
to save as many unknowns as they could,
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他們把自己的生命至於生死之外，
竭盡所能地救活每一個人。
竭盡所能地救活每一個人。
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and putting their own lives at risk.
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07:40
To them, it didn't matter
if I was rich or poor,
if I was rich or poor,
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對他們而言，不管
我多有錢或多貧窮、
我多有錢或多貧窮、
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the color of my skin,
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不管我的膚色、
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whether I was male or female,
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不管我是男是女、
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my sexual orientation,
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我的性別傾向、
07:51
who I voted for,
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我投票給誰、
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whether I was educated,
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我在哪受教育、
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if I had a faith or no faith at all.
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不管我有沒有宗教信仰，
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Nothing mattered
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一切都不重要了，
08:01
other than I was a precious human life.
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只因我是一個珍貴的人命。
08:07
I see myself as a living fact.
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我把自己當作一個活生生的例子
08:12
I am proof
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我可以證明
08:14
that unconditional love and respect
can not only save,
can not only save,
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無條件的愛與尊重不僅可以救人，
08:21
but it can transform lives.
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還可以改變一個人的命運。
08:25
Here is a wonderful image
of one of my rescuers, Andy, and I
of one of my rescuers, Andy, and I
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這裡有一張很棒的照片，
我的救命恩人安迪和我，
我的救命恩人安迪和我，
08:29
taken just last year.
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去年拍的照。
08:32
Ten years after the event,
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事發後的十年，
08:34
and here we are, arm in arm.
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我們肩並肩地走在一起。
08:39
Throughout all the chaos,
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經歷了這場紛亂，
08:41
my hand was held tightly.
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我的手握的更緊了。
08:45
My face was stroked gently.
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我的臉滿溢著慈祥。
08:49
What did I feel?
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我感受到甚麼？
08:51
I felt loved.
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我感受到被愛。
08:53
What's shielded me from hatred
and wanting retribution,
and wanting retribution,
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而讓我卸下仇恨與復仇的怨念
08:58
what's given me the courage to say:
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並給我勇氣站出來說：
09:01
this ends with me
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「到我這裡就結束吧！」的是....
09:06
is love.
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愛，
09:08
I was loved.
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我是被愛的。
09:13
I believe the potential
for widespread positive change
for widespread positive change
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我相信正向能量改變的潛力
09:19
is absolutely enormous
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是無窮大的，
09:21
because I know what we're capable of.
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因為我了解人類的能力，
09:24
I know the brilliance of humanity.
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我了解人性的智慧。
09:27
So this leaves me with some
pretty big things to ponder
pretty big things to ponder
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這讓我想起一些很重要的事情，
09:31
and some questions for us all to consider:
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讓大家一起來省思：
09:36
Is what unites us not far greater
than what can ever divide?
than what can ever divide?
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比起分化，還有甚麼事情比
我們團結還更重要的？
我們團結還更重要的？
09:43
Does it have to take
a tragedy or a disaster
a tragedy or a disaster
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一定非得要等悲劇或災害的發生，
09:47
for us to feel deeply
connected as one species,
connected as one species,
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才能讓我們感受到
深藏在人類社會中
深藏在人類社會中
人性的光輝嗎？
09:52
as human beings?
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09:55
And when will we embrace
the wisdom of our era
the wisdom of our era
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我們何時才能擁抱
我們這一世代的智慧，
我們這一世代的智慧，
10:01
to rise above mere tolerance
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體現出我們對所有人的寬容
並原諒所有的人，
10:05
and move to an acceptance
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10:08
for all who are only a label
until we know them?
until we know them?
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讓大家知道，其實我們人類
只有一個標籤？
只有一個標籤？
10:15
Thank you.
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感謝各位！
10:16
(Applause)
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（掌聲）
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Gill Hicks - Survivor and activistGill Hicks has dedicated her life to being an advocate for peace.
Why you should listen
Dr. Gill Hicks is considered to be one of the most thought provoking, powerful and life affirming speakers in Australia and the UK. She is globally known as a survivor of the London terrorist bombings on July 7, 2005. She survived, but suffered severe and permanent injuries, losing both legs from just below the knee.
Originally from Adelaide, Australia, Hicks has lived in London since 1991, however in 2012 Hicks returned to Australia where she operates nationally and internationally through her not for profit M.A.D. for Peace network and her public speaking work.
Her unique and compelling projects and initiative's, aimed at both deterring anyone from following the path of violent extremism and building sustainable models for peace, draw upon Hicks's previous roles within the Arts.
An impressive career before the bombings included being at the helm of some of the UK's most prestigious and respected institutions -- including publishing director of the architecture, design and contemporary culture magazine, Blueprint, director of the Dangerous Minds design consultancy and head curator at the Design Council. It wasn’t until after the bombings that Hicks decided to dedicate her life to being an advocate for peace. She has made it her mission to use her experiences and her new body form to positive effect.
In 2007 Hicks founded the not for profit organisation M.A.D. for Peace, a platform that connects people globally and encourages us to think of "Peace as a Verb," something that we have an individual responsibility to do every day.
In 2008 Hicks released her first book, One Unknown, named after the chilling label given to her as she arrived to hospital as an unidentified body. The book was shortlisted for the Mind Book of the Year Awards.
Since her return to Australia in 2012, Hicks has been recognised as South Australian, Australian of the Year 2015 and is Chair to the Innovation component for the Committee for Adelaide.
In 2013 Hicks welcomed her daughter, Amelie into the world. This, as she describes it, is her finest achievement and greatest acknowledgement of the brilliance and resilience of the human body.
Gill Hicks | Speaker | TED.com