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Shane Koyczan: To This Day ... for the bullied and beautiful
Shane Koyczan: "Še danes" za ozmerjane in lepe
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Obenem komično in tesnobno, pesnik Shane Koyczan izpostavlja, kaj pomeni biti mlad ... in drugačen. "Še danes" je njegova govorjena pesem o zmerjanju, ki je prevzela milijone kot popularen video (ustvarili so ga gledalci, in sicer 80 animatorjev). V tem posnetku jo fantastično uprizori v živo z ozadjem pesmi, na violini pa ga spremlja Hannah Epperson.
Shane Koyczan - Poet
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio
Double-click the English transcript below to play the video.
00:21
There's so many of you.
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Toliko vas je.
00:28
When I was a kid,
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Ko sem bil majhen,
00:30
I hid my heart under the bed, because my mother said,
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sem svoje srce skril pod posteljo, ker mi je mama dejala:
00:33
"If you're not careful, someday someone's going to break it."
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"Če ne boš previden, ti ga bo nekdo nekega dne strl."
00:37
Take it from me. Under the bed is not a good hiding spot.
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Verjemite mi, da pod posteljo ni dobro skrivališče.
00:40
I know because I've been shot down so many times
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Vem, ker so me že tolikokrat zatrli,
00:42
I get altitude sickness just from standing up for myself.
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da se mi zvrti od višine, že ko se postavim zase.
00:46
But that's what we were told.
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A to nam pravijo.
00:49
Stand up for yourself.
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Da se moramo postaviti zase.
00:51
And that's hard to do if you don't know who you are.
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To je težko, če ne veš, kdo si.
00:54
We were expected to define ourselves at such an early age,
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Pri tako majhni starosti so od nas pričakovali,
da se definiramo,
da se definiramo,
00:57
and if we didn't do it, others did it for us.
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in, če se nismo sami, so nas pa drugi.
01:01
Geek. Fatty. Slut. Fag.
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Geek. Debeluh. Kurba. Peder.
01:06
And at the same time we were being told what we were,
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Ob istem času, ko so nam govorili, kaj smo,
01:09
we were being asked,
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so nas spraševali:
01:10
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
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"Kaj hočeš postati, ko odrasteš?"
01:13
I always thought that was an unfair question.
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Od nekdaj se mi je to zdelo nepošteno vprašanje.
01:15
It presupposes that we can't be what we already are.
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Predpostavlja, da ne moremo biti to, kar že smo.
01:19
We were kids.
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Bili smo otroci.
01:20
When I was a kid, I wanted to be a man.
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Ko sem bil otrok, sem si želel biti moški.
01:24
I wanted a registered retirement savings plan
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Želel sem ustvariti načrt za varčevanje za pokoj,
01:26
that would keep me in candy long enough to make old age sweet.
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ki bi dovolj dolgo skrbelo za zalogo sladkarij,
ki bi sladkale moja stara leta.
ki bi sladkale moja stara leta.
01:30
When I was a kid, I wanted to shave.
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Ko sem bil otrok, sem se hotel briti.
01:33
Now, not so much.
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Zdaj pa niti ne.
01:36
When I was eight, I wanted to be a marine biologist.
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Ko sem bil star osem let, sem hotel biti morski biolog.
01:40
When I was nine, I saw the movie "Jaws,"
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Ko sem bil star devet let, sem videl film "Žrelo"
01:42
and thought to myself, "No, thank you."
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in sem si mislil: "Ne, hvala."
01:45
And when I was 10, I was told that my parents left because they didn't want me.
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Ko sem bil star deset, so mi dejali,
da so me starši zapustili, ker me niso želeli imeti.
da so me starši zapustili, ker me niso želeli imeti.
01:49
When I was 11, I wanted to be left alone.
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Ko sem bil star 11, sem želel biti sam.
01:50
When I was 12, I wanted to die. When I was 13, I wanted to kill a kid.
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Ko sem bil star 12, sem želel umreti.
Ko sem bil star 13, sem želel ubiti nekega mulca.
Ko sem bil star 13, sem želel ubiti nekega mulca.
01:54
When I was 14, I was asked to seriously consider a career path.
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Ko sem bil star 14, so mi dejali,
naj resno razmislim o karieri.
naj resno razmislim o karieri.
01:58
I said, "I'd like to be a writer."
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Rekel sem: "Rad bi bil pisatelj."
02:01
And they said, "Choose something realistic."
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Rekli so mi: "Izberi si nekaj realističnega."
02:04
So I said, "Professional wrestler."
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Na to sem dejal: "Poklicni rokoborec."
02:08
And they said, "Don't be stupid."
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Dejali so: "Ne bodi neumen."
02:10
See, they asked me what I wanted to be,
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Veste, vprašali so me, kaj hočem biti,
02:12
then told me what not to be.
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in mi nato dejali, česa ne smem biti.
02:15
And I wasn't the only one.
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Nisem bil edini.
02:17
We were being told that we somehow must become
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Dejali so nam, da moramo nekako postati,
02:19
what we are not, sacrificing what we are
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kar nismo, žrtvovati, kar smo,
02:21
to inherit the masquerade of what we will be.
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da bi podedovali pretvarjanje tega, kar bomo postali.
02:24
I was being told to accept the identity
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Dejali so mi, naj sprejmem identiteto,
02:26
that others will give me.
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ki mi jo bodo nadeli drugi.
02:29
And I wondered, what made my dreams so easy to dismiss?
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Spraševal sem se, zakaj so moje sanje tako zlahka odpisali.
02:33
Granted, my dreams are shy,
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Moje sanje so resda majhne,
02:36
because they're Canadian. (Laughter)
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ker so iz Kanade. (smeh)
02:41
My dreams are self-conscious and overly apologetic.
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Moje sanje so nesamozavestne in preveč opravičujoče.
02:45
They're standing alone at the high school dance,
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Same stojijo na srednješolskem plesu
02:47
and they've never been kissed.
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in nikoli jih še nihče ni poljubil.
02:49
See, my dreams got called names too.
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Veste, tudi moje sanje so zmerjali.
02:52
Silly. Foolish. Impossible.
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Trapaste. Butaste. Nemogoče.
02:56
But I kept dreaming.
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A jaz sem sanjal naprej.
02:58
I was going to be a wrestler. I had it all figured out.
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Postal naj bi rokoborec. Vse mi je bilo jasno.
03:00
I was going to be The Garbage Man.
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Bil bi "Smetar".
03:03
My finishing move was going to be The Trash Compactor.
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Moja glavna poteza bi bila "Stiskalec smeti".
03:07
My saying was going to be, "I'm taking out the trash!"
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Moj moto bi bil: "Ven bom odnesel smeti."
03:11
(Laughter) (Applause)
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(smeh) (aplavz)
03:16
And then this guy, Duke "The Dumpster" Droese,
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Potem pa se je pojavil ta tip, Duke "Kontejner" Droese,
03:21
stole my entire shtick.
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ki je popolnoma ukradel mojo idejo.
03:25
I was crushed, as if by a trash compactor.
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Stisnilo me je, kot bi to storil stiskalec smeti.
03:31
I thought to myself, "What now? Where do I turn?"
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Sam sebi sem rekel: "Kaj pa zdaj? Kam se obrnem?"
03:34
Poetry.
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K poeziji.
03:37
Like a boomerang, the thing I loved came back to me.
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Stvar, ki sem jo oboževal,
se je kot bumerang vrnila nazaj k meni.
se je kot bumerang vrnila nazaj k meni.
03:41
One of the first lines of poetry I can remember writing
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Ena izmed mojih prvih vrstic, ki se jih spominjam,
03:43
was in response to a world that demanded I hate myself.
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je bil odgovor svetu, ki je zahteval,
da sovražim samega sebe.
da sovražim samega sebe.
03:46
From age 15 to 18, I hated myself
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Od starosti 15 do 18 sem se sovražil,
03:49
for becoming the thing that I loathed: a bully.
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ker sem postal, to kar sem preziral: nasilnež.
03:53
When I was 19, I wrote,
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Ko sem bil star 19, sem napisal:
03:56
"I will love myself despite the ease with which
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"Ljubil bom samega sebe kljub lahkoti,
03:58
I lean toward the opposite."
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s katero se nagibam k nasprotnem."
04:01
Standing up for yourself doesn't have to mean
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To, da se postaviš zase, ne pomeni nujno,
04:05
embracing violence.
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da sprejmeš nasilje.
04:07
When I was a kid,
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Ko sem bil otrok,
04:09
I traded in homework assignments for friendship,
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sem domače naloge menjal v zameno za prijateljstvo,
04:12
then gave each friend a late slip for never showing up on time,
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in svojim prijateljem odpustil, kadar so zamudili
04:14
and in most cases not at all.
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ali se (pogosto) sploh niso prikazali.
04:17
I gave myself a hall pass to get through each broken promise.
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Sam sebi sem omogočil beg iz učilnice,
da sem se spopadel z vsako prelomljeno obljubo.
da sem se spopadel z vsako prelomljeno obljubo.
04:20
And I remember this plan, born out of frustration
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Tega načrta se spominjam. Nastal je iz frustracije
04:22
from a kid who kept calling me "Yogi,"
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zaradi otroka, ki me je klical "Yogi"
04:24
then pointed at my tummy and said, "Too many picnic baskets."
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nato pa je pokazal na moj trebuh in dejal: "Preveč piknikov."
04:28
Turns out it's not that hard to trick someone,
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Izkazalo se je, da ni tako težko prelisičiti nekoga.
04:30
and one day before class, I said,
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Nekega dne sem pred poukom rekel:
04:32
"Yeah, you can copy my homework,"
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"Ja, lahko prepišeš nalogo,"
04:34
and I gave him all the wrong answers
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in mu dal napačne odgovore,
04:36
that I'd written down the night before.
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ki sem jih zapisal prejšnji večer.
04:38
He got his paper back expecting a near-perfect score,
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Ko je dobil nalogo nazaj,
je pričakoval skoraj popoln rezultat
je pričakoval skoraj popoln rezultat
04:40
and couldn't believe it when he looked across the room at me and held up a zero.
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in ni mogel verjeti, ko me je pogledal preko sobe in pokazal list z oceno nezadostno.
04:44
I knew I didn't have to hold up my paper of 28 out of 30,
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Vedel sem, da mi ni treba pokazati svojega rezultata,
ki je bil 28 od 30,
ki je bil 28 od 30,
04:47
but my satisfaction was complete when he looked at me, puzzled,
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a moje zadovoljstvo je bilo popolno,
ko me je zmedeno pogledal
ko me je zmedeno pogledal
04:50
and I thought to myself, "Smarter than the average bear, motherfucker."
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in sem si mislil: "Pametnejši kot navaden medved, pičkica."
04:54
(Laughter) (Applause)
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(smeh) (aplavz)
05:02
This is who I am.
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To sem jaz.
05:05
This is how I stand up for myself.
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Tako se postavim zase.
05:09
When I was a kid,
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Ko sem bil otrok,
05:11
I used to think that pork chops and karate chops were the same thing.
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sem mislil, da sta kotlet in kotel ista reč.
05:15
I thought they were both pork chops.
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Mislil sem, da sta oba kotlet.
05:18
And because my grandmother thought it was cute,
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Ker se je moji babici to zdelo prisrčno
05:20
and because they were my favorite, she let me keep doing it.
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in ker sem bil njen najljubši, mi je pustila,
da nadaljujem s tem.
da nadaljujem s tem.
05:23
Not really a big deal.
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Ni bila velika reč.
05:24
One day, before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees,
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Nekega dne, preden sem spoznal,
da debeli otroci niso narejeni za plezanje po drevesih,
da debeli otroci niso narejeni za plezanje po drevesih,
05:28
I fell out of a tree and bruised the right side of my body.
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sem padel z drevesa in si potolkel desno stran telesa.
05:31
I didn't want to tell my grandmother about it
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Nisem hotel povedati babici,
05:33
because I was scared I'd get in trouble for playing somewhere I shouldn't have been.
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ker me je bilo strah, da bom v težavah,
ker sem se igral, kjer se ne bi smel.
ker sem se igral, kjer se ne bi smel.
05:36
A few days later, the gym teacher noticed the bruise,
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Nekaj dni kasneje je učiteljica pri športni vzgoji
opazila modrico
opazila modrico
05:38
and I got sent to the principal's office.
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in poslali so me k ravnatelju.
05:41
From there, I was sent to another small room
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Potem so me poslali v še eno manjšo sobo,
05:42
with a really nice lady who asked me all kinds of questions about my life at home.
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kjer me je zelo prijazna gospa spraševala vse vrste vprašanj o mojem življenju doma.
05:48
I saw no reason to lie.
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Nisem videl razlogov za laž.
05:50
As far as I was concerned, life was pretty good.
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Kar se mene tiče, je bilo življenje kar dobro.
05:52
I told her, whenever I'm sad, my grandmother gives me karate chops.
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Povedal sem, da me babi, kadar sem žalosten, da v kotel.
05:56
(Laughter)
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(smeh)
06:04
This led to a full-scale investigation,
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To je pripeljalo do temeljite preiskave
06:08
and I was removed from the house for three days,
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in za tri dni so me odpeljali iz hiše,
06:11
until they finally decided to ask how I got the bruises.
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ko so se končno odločili, da bi vprašali, od kje modrice.
06:15
News of this silly little story quickly spread through the school,
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Ta kratka smešna zgodbica se je hitro razširila po šoli
06:17
and I earned my first nickname:
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in prislužil sem si prvi vzdevek:
06:20
Porkchop.
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Kotlet.
06:22
To this day, I hate pork chops.
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Še danes sovražim kotlete.
06:29
I'm not the only kid who grew up this way,
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Nisem edini otrok, ki je tako odrasel;
06:31
surrounded by people who used to say that rhyme
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obkrožen z ljudmi, ki so govorili,
06:34
about sticks and stones,
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da besede ne bolijo toliko kot poškodbe,
06:37
as if broken bones hurt more than the names we got called,
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kot da bi zlomi kosti boleli bolj kot žaljivke,
06:39
and we got called them all.
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katerih žrtev smo bili vsi.
06:41
So we grew up believing no one would ever fall in love with us,
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Odrasli smo misleč, da se nihče nikoli ne bo zaljubil v nas,
06:45
that we'd be lonely forever,
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da bomo večno osamljeni,
06:47
that we'd never meet someone to make us feel like the sun
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da ne bomo nikoli spoznali nekoga,
ki bi v nas prebudil občutek, da so sonce
ki bi v nas prebudil občutek, da so sonce
06:50
was something they built for us in their toolshed.
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za nas zgradili oni v svoji delavnici.
06:52
So broken heartstrings bled the blues, and we tried to empty ourselves so we'd feel nothing.
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Zlomljeno srce je pelo blues
in mi smo se poskusili izprazniti, da ne bi ničesar čutili.
in mi smo se poskusili izprazniti, da ne bi ničesar čutili.
06:56
Don't tell me that hurt less than a broken bone,
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Ne recite mi, da to boli manj kot zlom kosti,
06:58
that an ingrown life is something surgeons can cut away,
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da je vase zaprto življenje nekaj, kar lahko kirurgi izrežejo,
07:01
that there's no way for it to metastasize; it does.
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za katerega ni načina, da bi ga presadili, a boli.
07:04
She was eight years old,
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Stara je bila osem let,
07:06
our first day of grade three when she got called ugly.
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bil je prvi dan tretjega razreda, ko so ji rekla, da je grda.
07:09
We both got moved to the back of class
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Oba sva se premaknila na zadnji del razreda,
07:12
so we would stop getting bombarded by spitballs.
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da naju bi nehali obmetavati s papirčki.
07:14
But the school halls were a battleground.
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A hodniki šole so bili bojišče.
07:16
We found ourselves outnumbered day after wretched day.
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Vsak mučen dan sva bila v manjšini.
07:19
We used to stay inside for recess, because outside was worse.
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Med odmorom sva ostala notri, ker je bilo zunaj huje.
07:22
Outside, we'd have to rehearse running away,
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Zunaj sva vadila, kako pobegniti
07:24
or learn to stay still like statues, giving no clues that we were there.
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ali kako stati pri miru kot kipa in ne nakazati, da sva tam.
07:28
In grade five, they taped a sign to the front of her desk
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V petem razredu so na sprednji del njene mize nalepili list,
07:31
that read, "Beware of dog."
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na katerem je pisalo: "Pozor, hud pes!"
07:33
To this day, despite a loving husband, she doesn't think she's beautiful
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Še danes, kljub ljubečemu možu ne misli, da je lepa,
07:38
because of a birthmark that takes up a little less than half her face.
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ker ima na skoraj polovici obraza materino znamenje.
07:42
Kids used to say, "She looks like a wrong answer
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Otroci so rekli: "Videti je kot napačen odgovor,
07:44
that someone tried to erase, but couldn't quite get the job done."
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ki ga je nekdo poskusil izbrisati, a mu ni popolnoma uspelo."
07:47
And they'll never understand that she's raising two kids
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In nikoli ne bodo razumeli, da vzgaja dva otroka,
07:50
whose definition of beauty begins with the word "Mom,"
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katerih definicija lepote se začne z besedo "mama",
07:55
because they see her heart before they see her skin,
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ker vidijo njeno srce, prej kot vidijo njeno kožo,
07:57
because she's only ever always been amazing.
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ker je od zmeraj bila nič manj kot neverjetna.
07:58
He was a broken branch grafted onto a different family tree,
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On je bil lomljena veja,
ki so jo pripeli na drugo družinsko drevo,
ki so jo pripeli na drugo družinsko drevo,
08:04
adopted,
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posvojen,
08:06
not because his parents opted for a different destiny.
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in ne ker bi njegovi starši izbrali drugačno usodo.
08:10
He was three when he became a mixed drink
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Ko je bil star tri leta, je postal koktejl
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of one part left alone and two parts tragedy,
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iz samote in tragedije.
08:15
started therapy in eighth grade,
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V osmem razredu je začel s terapijo,
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had a personality made up of tests and pills,
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imel je osebnost iz testov in tablet,
08:20
lived like the uphills were mountains and the downhills were cliffs,
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živel tako kot bi bile vzpetine in spusti gore prepadi.
08:24
four fifths suicidal, a tidal wave of antidepressants,
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Delno je bil sestavljen iz samomorilskih nagnenj,
monsuna antidepresivov.
monsuna antidepresivov.
08:27
and an adolescence being called "Popper,"
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V puberteti so ga klicali "fiksar"
08:30
one part because of the pills,
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delno zaradi tablet
08:32
99 parts because of the cruelty.
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a večinoma iz krutosti.
08:35
He tried to kill himself in grade 10
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V drugem letniku se je poskušal ubiti,
08:38
when a kid who could still go home to Mom and Dad
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ker si je nek mulc, ki je še vedno
lahko šel domov k mami in očetu,
lahko šel domov k mami in očetu,
08:40
had the audacity to tell him, "Get over it."
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drznil reči: "Preboli že."
08:44
As if depression is something that could be remedied
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Kot da bi se depresijo lahko pozdravilo
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by any of the contents found in a first aid kit.
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z nečim iz prve pomoči.
08:49
To this day, he is a stick of TNT lit from both ends,
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Še danes je kot palica TNT-ja, ki je prižgana z obeh strani,
08:52
could describe to you in detail the way the sky bends
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ki bi vam lahko podrobno opisal, kako se upogiba nebo
08:55
in the moment before it's about to fall,
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trenutek preden se bi sesulo.
08:57
and despite an army of friends who all call him an inspiration,
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Kljub gruči prijateljev, ki mu pravijo, da je navdih,
09:00
he remains a conversation piece between people who can't understand
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ostaja predmet pogovora za ljudi, ki ne razumejo,
09:03
sometimes being drug-free has less to do with addiction
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da je biti brez drog manj povezano z zasvojenostjo
09:06
and more to do with sanity.
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in več z duševnim zdravjem.
09:09
We weren't the only kids who grew up this way.
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Nismo bili edini otroci, ki smo tako odrasli.
09:12
To this day, kids are still being called names.
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Še danes se otroke zmerja.
09:16
The classics were, "Hey stupid," "Hey spaz."
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Običajno jim pravijo: "Kje si tele," ali "Kje si budala."
09:21
Seems like every school has an arsenal of names
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Zdi se, da ima vsaka šola orožarno zmerljivk,
09:24
getting updated every year,
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ki se vsako leto posodablja.
09:26
and if a kid breaks in a school and no one around chooses to hear,
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Če se nek otrok v šoli zlomi ter ni nikogar naokrog,
ki bi to želel slišati,
ki bi to želel slišati,
09:29
do they make a sound?
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ali sploh oddajajo zvok?
09:31
Are they just background noise from a soundtrack stuck
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Ali so le zvoki iz ozadja na plošči, ki se je zataknila,
09:33
on repeat when people say things like, "Kids can be cruel."
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ko ljudje rečejo nekaj takega kot: "Otroci so lahko kruti."
09:38
Every school was a big top circus tent,
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Vsaka šola je bil velik cirkuški šotor
09:41
and the pecking order went from acrobats to lion tamers,
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in prehranjevalna veriga je šla
od akrobatov do krotilcev levov,
od akrobatov do krotilcev levov,
09:44
from clowns to carnies, all of these miles ahead of who we were.
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od klovnov so delavcev,
ki so bili kilometre pred tem, kdo smo.
ki so bili kilometre pred tem, kdo smo.
09:47
We were freaks -- lobster claw boys and bearded ladies,
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Mi smo bili čudaki: fantje s kleščami
namesto rok, bradate ženske
namesto rok, bradate ženske
09:51
oddities juggling depression and loneliness,
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čudni ljudje, ki so žonglirali z depresijo in osamljenostjo,
09:54
playing solitaire, spin the bottle,
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ki so igrali pasjanso, zavrti steklenico,
09:55
trying to kiss the wounded parts of ourselves and heal,
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poskušali poljubiti ranjene dele samega sebe,
da bi se pozdravili.
da bi se pozdravili.
09:58
but at night, while the others slept,
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Ponoči pa, ko so vsi spali,
10:01
we kept walking the tightrope.
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smo še kar hodili po vrvi.
10:03
It was practice, and yes, some of us fell.
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To je bila vaja in nekateri izmed nas so padli.
10:06
But I want to tell them that all of this
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A želel sem jim povedati, da so vse to
10:10
is just debris left over when we finally decide to smash
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le črepinje, če se končno odločimo razbiti
10:14
all the things we thought we used to be,
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vse reči, za katero smo mislili, da smo to mi,
10:17
and if you can't see anything beautiful about yourself,
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in če pri sebi ne vidite ničesar lepega,
10:20
get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer,
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si kupite boljše ogledalo, se bolj pozorno zazrite
in malo dalj strmite,
in malo dalj strmite,
10:25
because there's something inside you that made you keep trying
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ker je znotraj vas nekaj, zaradi česar ste se še naprej trudili,
10:28
despite everyone who told you to quit.
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kljub vsem, ki so vam dejali, da odnehajte.
10:30
You built a cast around your broken heart and signed it yourself.
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Okoli zlomljenega srca, ste si zgradili mavec
in ga sami podpisali.
in ga sami podpisali.
10:32
You signed it, "They were wrong."
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Napisali ste: "Niso imeli prav."
10:34
Because maybe you didn't belong to a group or a clique.
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Morda niste pripadali skupini ali kliki.
10:37
Maybe they decided to pick you last for basketball or everything.
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Morda so vas vedno izbrali zadnje pri košarki.
10:40
Maybe you used to bring bruises and broken teeth to show-and-tell, but never told,
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Morda ste na "pokaži, kaj znaš" prinesli modrice
in zlomljene zobe, a tega nikoli niste povedali,
in zlomljene zobe, a tega nikoli niste povedali,
10:44
because how can you hold your ground
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ker, kako naj se postaviš zase,
10:45
if everyone around you wants to bury you beneath it?
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če ti vsi spodkopavajo tla pod nogami?
10:47
You have to believe that they were wrong.
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Morali ste verjeti, da nimajo prav.
10:52
They have to be wrong.
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Morajo se motiti.
10:54
Why else would we still be here?
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Zakaj bi drugače še bili tu?
10:58
We grew up learning to cheer on the underdog
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Med odraščanjem so nas naučili naj spodbujamo neverjetnega zmagovalca,
11:01
because we see ourselves in them.
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ker sami sebe vidimo v njih.
11:03
We stem from a root planted in the belief
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Zrasli smo iz korenine, ki so jo posadili v vero,
11:05
that we are not what we were called.
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da nismo to, kar nam pravijo, da smo.
11:08
We are not abandoned cars stalled out
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Nismo zapuščeni avtomobili, ki so se pokvarili
11:10
and sitting empty on some highway,
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in prazni stojijo na avtocesti.
11:12
and if in some way we are, don't worry.
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Če pa na nek način smo, naj vas ne skrbi.
11:14
We only got out to walk and get gas.
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Samo stopiti moramo ven in iti po bencin.
11:16
We are graduating members from the class of We Made It,
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Mi smo maturanti razreda "Uspelo nam je"
11:20
not the faded echoes of voices crying out,
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in ne medli odmevi glasov, ki kričijo:
11:22
"Names will never hurt me."
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"Zmerljivke me ne bolijo."
11:26
Of course they did.
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Seveda, da nas.
11:31
But our lives will only ever always
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A naša življenja bodo vedno
11:33
continue to be a balancing act
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bila lovljenje ravnotežja,
11:36
that has less to do with pain
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ki se manj nanaša na bolečino
11:38
and more to do with beauty.
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in več na lepoto.
11:42
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Shane Koyczan - PoetShane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world.
Why you should listen
Shane Koyczan is a poet, author and performer. He performed at the opening ceremonies of the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics, where an audience of more than 1 billion people worldwide heard his piece “We Are More.”
He has published three books: Stickboy, Our Deathbeds Will Be Thirsty and Visiting Hours, selected by both the Guardian and the Globe and Mail for their Best Books of the Year lists.
In 2012, he released a full-length album with his band Shane Koyczan and the Short Story Long. The album includes the viral hit “To This Day,” which explores the anguish of anyone who grew up feeling different or just a little bit alone. To bring visual life to this image-rich poem, Koyczan invited artists from around the world to contribute 20-second segments of animation to the project. Posted on YouTube on February 19, 2013, by the close of the month the video had been viewed 6 million times.
Shane Koyczan | Speaker | TED.com