Ingrid Betancourt: What six years in captivity taught me about fear and faith
Ingrid Betancourt: Wat zes jaar gevangenschap me leerde over de angst en het geloof
Ingrid Betancourt was a presidential candidate in Colombia in 2002 when she was kidnapped by guerilla rebels. After six years in captivity and a high-profile rescue, she now writes about what she learned about fear, forgiveness and the divine. Full bio
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dat ik moedig was.
I'd climb the highest tree,
klom ik in de hoogste boom
any temperature."
Colombian politics,
to withstand any temperature.
temperaturen kon verdragen.
in het land beëindigen.
and drug traffickers.
corrupte, onaantastbare politici
van de republiek aan,
out of the country one morning,
in the French ambassador's armored car.
van de Franse ambassadeur
maar bleef ongedeerd.
but emerged unharmed.
with the highest number of votes.
met meerderheid van stemmen.
because I was brave.
de mensen blij maakte.
candidate in Colombia
presidentskandidaat
aan het bijstellen
by a group of armed men.
door een groep gewapende mannen
with military garments.
ze waren van rubber.
wore leather boots.
leren laarzen droeg.
everything happened very quickly.
to stop the vehicle.
de motor uit te zetten,
stepped on an antipersonnel mine
een van zijn mannen op een landmijn
that the young man understood:
because I'm reliving these emotions --
ik beleef de emoties opnieuw -
that something inside of me was breaking
iets in me breken
with his fear.
en ik kon niet denken,
van mijn kinderen.
the deepest depths of the jungle,
diep de jungle in,
was what was happening to my mind,
all the phone numbers,
uit mijn leven.
to doubt my mental health.
aan mijn mentale gezondheid.
behavioral changes
zichtbaar veranderde
in moments of panic.
in ogenblikken van paniek,
chained by the neck to a tree.
in weer en wind,
to use the bathroom.
the right moment, the right way to do it,
when I talk about all of this,
wanneer ik over dit alles praat,
and mental block,
en de geestelijke blokkade
that the guerrillas had built
dat de guerrillas hadden aangelegd
guns at us 24 hours a day.
24 uur per dag onder schot hielden.
die schreeuwden:
in numbered sequence.
met achtereenvolgende nummers.
call me by my name."
roep me dan bij mijn naam."
to that of the other hostages,
van mijn lotgenoten,
they would be punished.
belangrijker dan de angst
to defend my identity,
a thing or a number.
veranderden in een ding, in een nummer.
als menselijke waardigheid.
heel goed geanalyseerd;
supportive trust,
in elkaar te hebben,
while I was in the jungle.
toen ik in de jungle was.
scorpions, anacondas ...
with a 24-foot long anaconda
een anaconda van 8 m lang
did us as much harm
dat lotgenoten elkaar verklikten
they sparked betrayals,
for a long time was with Lucho.
for two years longer than I had.
ontvoerd dan ik.
ons vast te maken aan elkaar
to lower ourselves into that dark water
dat donkere water in te gaan,
in de mangrovebossen
we would hide in the mangroves.
and let the current carry us.
met de stroom meevoeren.
through that with Lucho,
was so damaging to us
ons zoveel schade toebrachten
that I want to give to you.
how to develop faith.
for more than eight years.
the biggest scaredy-cat of us all.
het bangste van ons allemaal was.
a master's degree in escape attempts.
een master in vluchtpogingen.
had to learn how to swim.
eerst had leren zwemmen.
all these preparations in total secrecy.
volste geheim uitvoeren.
had everything ready,
one afternoon and said,
and I can't find the way out.
en het lukt me niet om weg te komen.
die hele nacht regende.
and we started marching.
we begonnen te lopen
that Pincho had died,
dat Pincho dood was
een anaconda.
because they were torture for me.
die hij op de radio gaf:
that rescued me from the jungle."
die me uit de jungle haalde."
van verstand of emotie.
everything that we are --
we have inside of us
op de kracht die in ons is,
raging around our boat.
heel veel, heel veel,
into the helicopter
eindelijk uit de jungle haalde,
as when they kidnapped me.
als toen ze me ontvoerden.
referendum in Colombia;
voor de vrede in Colombia,
between Mexico and the United States;
tussen Mexico en de Verenigde Staten,
of using fear politically
om geronseld te worden
our principles, unity, faith.
aan onze principes, eenheid en geloof.
the first time I felt fear,
voor de eerste keer bang was
what to do with that fear.
hoe die angst te hanteren.
until you reach the stars,
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Ingrid Betancourt - Writer, peace advocateIngrid Betancourt was a presidential candidate in Colombia in 2002 when she was kidnapped by guerilla rebels. After six years in captivity and a high-profile rescue, she now writes about what she learned about fear, forgiveness and the divine.
Why you should listen
Born December 25, 1961, in Colombia, Ingrid Betancourt is a French-Colombian activist in the cause of freedom. She was a politician and presidential candidate in Colombia, celebrated for her determination to combat widespread corruption. In February 2002 she was taken hostage by the FARC, a communist guerrilla organization. For six and a half years, the FARC held her hostage in the Amazonian jungle. She was rescued on July 2, 2008.
Since her release, Betancourt has become a memoirist and fiction writer. Her first book, Even Silence Has Its End, which lyrically recounts her six years in the impenetrable jungle, was published in 2010. In 2016, she published a second work -- this time of fiction -- called The Blue Line, about the disappearances in Argentina during the Dirty War from 1976 to 1983.
Betancourt has received multiple international awards, including the French National Order of the Légion d’Honneur, the Spanish Prince of Asturias Prize of Concord, the Italian Prize Grinzane Cavour, and was nominated to the Nobel Peace Prize for her commitment to democratic values, freedom and tolerance.
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