Ingrid Betancourt: What six years in captivity taught me about fear and faith
Ingrid Betankur (Ingrid Betancourt): Šta me je šest godina zatočeništva naučilo o strahu i veri
Ingrid Betancourt was a presidential candidate in Colombia in 2002 when she was kidnapped by guerilla rebels. After six years in captivity and a high-profile rescue, she now writes about what she learned about fear, forgiveness and the divine. Full bio
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I'd climb the highest tree,
penjala na najviše drvo
životinji bez straha.
any temperature."
Colombian politics,
to withstand any temperature.
svaku temperaturu.
sa korupcijom u zemlji;
and drug traffickers.
predsednika republike
jednog jutra moju decu,
out of the country one morning,
in the French ambassador's armored car.
ambasadora Francuske
but emerged unharmed.
ali sam ostala nepovređena.
with the highest number of votes.
sa najvećim brojem glasova.
because I was brave.
veličali zbog hrabrosti.
candidate in Colombia
za predsednika Kolumbije
grupa naoružanih ljudi
by a group of armed men.
with military garments.
njihove čizme. Bile su gumene.
wore leather boots.
gerilci iz trupa ROSK-a.
everything happened very quickly.
sve se izdešavalo veoma brzo.
da se vozilo zaustavi,
to stop the vehicle.
od njegovih ljudi nagazio
stepped on an antipersonnel mine
i poleteo u vazduh.
u sedećem položaju ispred mene
that the young man understood:
je odletela daleko.
because I'm reliving these emotions --
jer ponovo proživljam te emocije,
da se nešto u meni slomilo
that something inside of me was breaking
with his fear.
i nisam mogla da razmišljam.
the deepest depths of the jungle,
na spavanje sa strahom.
was what was happening to my mind,
iz pamćenja bili izbrisani
all the phone numbers,
u svoje mentalno zdravlje.
to doubt my mental health.
behavioral changes
u trenucima panike.
in moments of panic.
chained by the neck to a tree.
oko vrata za jedno drvo.
to use the bathroom.
veliku potrebu za toaletom.
the right moment, the right way to do it,
kada govorim o ovome,
when I talk about all of this,
da bih to uspela.
da usled panike i mentalne blokade,
and mental block,
that the guerrillas had built
koji je gerila napravila usred džungle,
koji su nas držali na nišanu 24h.
guns at us 24 hours a day.
su se probudili uplašeni
prema rednim brojevima.
in numbered sequence.
call me by my name."
zovite me po imenu.“
to that of the other hostages,
oni su bili uplašeni, svi smo to bili,
da će zbog mene biti kažnjeni.
they would be punished.
to defend my identity,
da branim svoj identitet,
u neku stvar ili broj.
a thing or a number.
ljudskim dostojanstvom.
i naprave razdor među nama.
supportive trust,
međusobno poverenje,
while I was in the jungle.
nijedan dan dok sam bila u džungli.
scorpions, anacondas ...
with a 24-foot long anaconda
u jednom zalogaju.
did us as much harm
nije toliko naudila
they sparked betrayals,
for a long time was with Lucho.
u zatočeništvu nego ja.
for two years longer than I had.
da uđemo u tu mutnu vodu
to lower ourselves into that dark water
we would hide in the mangroves.
među drvećem mangrova.
da bismo potom ušli u vodu
and let the current carry us.
through that with Lucho,
zajedničkim snagama,
sve te manipulacije gerile toliko naudile
was so damaging to us
koji želim da vam predam.
that I want to give to you.
da utvrdite veru.
how to develop faith.
for more than eight years.
the biggest scaredy-cat of us all.
što je bio najplašljiviji od svih nas.
takoreći, master iz pokušaja bekstva.
a master's degree in escape attempts.
had to learn how to swim.
all these preparations in total secrecy.
da odradimo u potpunoj tajnosti.
had everything ready,
one afternoon and said,
jednog popodneva i pitao me:
i ne mogu da nađem izlaz.
and I can't find the way out.
kiša padala sve vreme.
zato što je Pinćo pobegao.
and we started marching.
i počeli smo da hodamo.
that Pincho had died,
da je Pinćo mrtav
because they were torture for me.
koju je dao za radio:
that rescued me from the jungle."
da me izbavi iz džungle.“
ni vezana za emocije.
da transformišemo sve ono što jesmo,
everything that we are --
da vidimo još dalje.
we have inside of us
oluja oko naše barke.
raging around our boat.
into the helicopter
konačno izvukao iz džungle,
as when they kidnapped me.
kao kada su me oteli.
čak i u ovom trenutku.
referendum in Colombia;
between Mexico and the United States;
of using fear politically
naše principe, složnost, veru.
our principles, unity, faith.
deo naše ljudske prirode
the first time I felt fear,
kada sam prvi put osetila strah
šta ću da uradim sa tim strahom.
what to do with that fear.
until you reach the stars,
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Ingrid Betancourt - Writer, peace advocateIngrid Betancourt was a presidential candidate in Colombia in 2002 when she was kidnapped by guerilla rebels. After six years in captivity and a high-profile rescue, she now writes about what she learned about fear, forgiveness and the divine.
Why you should listen
Born December 25, 1961, in Colombia, Ingrid Betancourt is a French-Colombian activist in the cause of freedom. She was a politician and presidential candidate in Colombia, celebrated for her determination to combat widespread corruption. In February 2002 she was taken hostage by the FARC, a communist guerrilla organization. For six and a half years, the FARC held her hostage in the Amazonian jungle. She was rescued on July 2, 2008.
Since her release, Betancourt has become a memoirist and fiction writer. Her first book, Even Silence Has Its End, which lyrically recounts her six years in the impenetrable jungle, was published in 2010. In 2016, she published a second work -- this time of fiction -- called The Blue Line, about the disappearances in Argentina during the Dirty War from 1976 to 1983.
Betancourt has received multiple international awards, including the French National Order of the Légion d’Honneur, the Spanish Prince of Asturias Prize of Concord, the Italian Prize Grinzane Cavour, and was nominated to the Nobel Peace Prize for her commitment to democratic values, freedom and tolerance.
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