Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
دِسا: آیا میتوانیم عاشق بودن را تمام کنیم؟
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collective called Doomtree.
بنام دومزتری هستم.
touring rapper and singer.
خواننده و تورهای رَپ میگذرانم.
this is what our shows look like.
معمولا نمایشها به این شکل است.
There's a lot of sweating.
و کلی عرق میریزیم.
unintentional body checks onstage.
برخوردهای غیر عمدی پیش می آید.
intentional body checks onstage.
برخوردهای کاملا عمدی پیش می آید.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
my own music as a solo artist,
موسیقی خودم را تنها اجرا میکنم،
more melancholy sounds.
the rough mixes of a new album,
یک آلبوم جدید را به مادرم دادم،
but why is it always so sad?"
اما چرا همیشه اینقدر غم انگیز؟»
out with that you know that phrase?"
داری که از این حرفها بلدی؟»
I've written so many sad love songs
آهنگهای عاشقانه ی غم انگیز زیادی نوشته ام
I need help with my breakup."
برای جدا شدن احتیاج به کمک دارم.»
and touring those songs for a long time,
و تور این آهنگها در یک مدت طولانی،
was essentially romantic devastation.
در بحرانهای احساسی است.
خیلی عمومی صحبت نمی کردم،
had been written about the same guy.
درباره یک نفر نوشته شده بودند.
to sort ourselves out,
تا مشکلاتمان را حل کنیم،
that I couldn't rebound
to recover from so regularly.
راحت بهبود پیدا می کنند، جدا شوم.
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
فایدهای برای هیچکدام ما ندارد،
how to put the love down.
گذر از این عشق پیدا کنم.
شراب سفید می نوشیدم،
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
دکتر هلن فیشر دیدم،
been able to map the coordinates of love
if I could find my love in my brain,
جای عشق را در مغزم پیدا کنم،
passes and whiskey."
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
دانشگاه مینه سوتا کار می کند.
with a sample size of one, me.
به اندازه من دوباره انجامش دهیم.
of forest green scrubs,
is a big, tubular magnet
یک آهنربای بزرگ استوانه ای است
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
از اکسیژن را در خون شما دنبال می کند.
what parts of your brain
که چه بخشی از مغز شما
at any given moment.
are associated with a task,
will always light up the same region,
همیشه همان محل را روشن می کند،
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
که شبیه به دوست پسر قبلیم بود
high-resolution images of my brain.
از مغز من آماده شد.
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
تا داخل چروکها را ببینیم،
called the "brain skin rug."
نامش را «فرش پوستی مغز» گذاشت.
when I looked at images of both men.
به دیدن عکس این دو مرد پاسخ داده.
and when I looked at my ex,
قبلی نگاه می کردم دنبال کنیم،
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
که توانستیم عشقِ تنها را پیدا کنیم،
to step on a scale fully dressed
would be the weight of my clothing.
we subtracted one from the other,
یکی را از دیگری کم کردیم،
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
پیش بینی کرده بود یافتیم.
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
وجود داشت، ناحیه وِنترال تِگمنتال،
is the anterior cingulate
انتریور سینگولیت نام دارد
is the caudates.
the data with her team
تحلیل داده ها را با کمک گروهش
my feelings for this dude.
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
و بیش از حد طول کشیده بود.
felt like such a vindication,
حسی مانند اعلام بیگناهی داشت.
but now I know exactly where."
اما حالا می دانم دقیقا کجاست.»
who had her mark.
که حالا می دانست هدفش کجاست.
on a course of treatment
Penijean Gracefire,
پنیجین گریسفایر بود،
was training my brain.
آموزش مغز من است.
that we would train a muscle,
and resilient enough
to my circumstances.
we would anticipate
انتظار ما این است که
we would ask that that muscle slow.
میخواهم که این عضله آرام شود.
viable, loving romantic relationship,
رابطه عشقی دراز مدت هستم،
of my brain should engage,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
مطمئن احساسی دراز مدت نیستم،
just smaller than a dime
کوچکتر از سکه را با خود آورد
to detect my brainwaves
I could see my brain working in real time.
فعالیت مغزم را در لحظه می دیدم.
of my brain were hyperactive,
از مغزم بیش فعال است،
just those parts of my brain
آن بخشهای مغز را جدا کنیم،
with the romantic regulation
have to do or think anything.
تا فکر یا کار خاصی بکنم.
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
سلامت عمل می کرد،
or vibraphone music.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
یک دستگاه ژیروسکوپ
essentially unconscious.
the other things I had learned
my conscious mind.
my left calf muscle is doing,
میکنم، ماهیچه ساق پای چپم چه می کند.
to engage when I wobble to the right.
عضله بزرگ پشتی ام کی درگیر می شود.
don't know a lot about, like,
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
یا شکل موج صدای یک زنگ نمی فهمیدند،
because the body paired the stimuli.
چون بدن با محرک مرتبط شده بود،
Olman's fMRI machine,
in the interest of scientific rigor,
بخاطر سختگیری علمی،
که عکسها مربوط به کیست،
didn't know who was who,
influence the results.
to analyze that second set of data,
تا گروه دوم داده را تحلیل کنند،
comma, yes, question mark.
ویرگول، بله، علامت سوال.
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
نگاهی به درونم بیاندازم،
that I'd had at the outset.
of the Spotless Mind."
and amity and attraction and respect
و جاذبه و احترام داشتم
that you amass after long-term love.
عشقی طولانی مدت جمع می کنید.
had risen to the surface,
خیرخواهانه به سطح آمده بودند،
and the less-generous feelings
a small thing in some way,
your wisdom teeth,"
in which I did those two things.
را انجام می دادم واقعا برایت مهم بود.
philosophical privilege
غیر معمول فلسفی را داشتم
it at the merch table at my shows.
نمایش هایم فروخته شدند.
of friends back in Minneapolis,
از دوستان در مینیاپولیس،
from the ceiling at my big shows.
to better understand love,
تا عشق را بهتر درک کنم،
Valentine's heart.
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
که جایی در عمق جمجمه شما مخفی شده،
and you make each other happy,
و همدیگر را خوشحال کردید،
of neuroscientists
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Dessa - Rapper, singer and writerDessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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