Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
Dessa: Podemos escolher nos desapaixonar?
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collective called Doomtree.
chamado Doomtree.
touring rapper and singer.
e cantora de turnê.
this is what our shows look like.
nossos shows são assim.
There's a lot of sweating.
unintentional body checks onstage.
não intencionais no palco.
intentional body checks onstage.
totalmente intencionais no palco.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
my own music as a solo artist,
minha própria música como artista solo,
more melancholy sounds.
a sons mais melancólicos.
the rough mixes of a new album,
as mixagens de um novo álbum
but why is it always so sad?"
mas por que é sempre tão triste?"
out with that you know that phrase?"
para conhecer essa expressão?"
I've written so many sad love songs
escrevi tantas canções tristes de amor
Preciso de ajuda na minha separação".
I need help with my breakup."
and touring those songs for a long time,
essas músicas por um longo tempo,
was essentially romantic devastation.
era essencialmente desolação romântica.
had been written about the same guy.
foi escrita sobre o mesmo cara.
to sort ourselves out,
that I couldn't rebound
porque não conseguia me recuperar
se recuperar tão normalmente.
to recover from so regularly.
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
fazendo nenhum bem para nós,
descobrir como acabar com o amor.
how to put the love down.
chamada Dra. Helen Fisher,
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
been able to map the coordinates of love
conseguiu mapear as coordenadas do amor
if I could find my love in my brain,
meu amor no meu cérebro,
a um laboratório de fMRI,
passes and whiskey."
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
Magnética da Universidade de Minnesota.
with a sample size of one, me.
com um tamanho da amostra de um, eu.
of forest green scrubs,
é essencialmente um grande imã tubular
is a big, tubular magnet
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
do ferro desoxigenado no sangue.
what parts of your brain
quais partes do seu cérebro
em um dado momento.
at any given moment.
estruturas são associadas a uma tarefa,
are associated with a task,
sempre iluminará a mesma região,
will always light up the same region,
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
que meio que lembrava meu ex-namorado,
high-resolution images of my brain.
de alta resolução do meu cérebro.
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
de todas as pregas, essencialmente,
called the "brain skin rug."
chamou de "tapete de pele do cérebro".
when I looked at images of both men.
ao olhar para as imagens dos dois homens.
and when I looked at my ex,
e quando olhava para o meu ex,
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
de dados que encontramos o amor sozinho,
to step on a scale fully dressed
numa balança completamente vestida
would be the weight of my clothing.
seria o peso da minha roupa.
de dados, subtraímos um do outro,
we subtracted one from the other,
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
nas regiões que a Dra. Fisher previu.
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
a área tegmental ventral,
is the anterior cingulate
is the caudates.
são os núcleos caudados.
the data with her team
de analisar os dados com sua equipe
my feelings for this dude.
meus sentimentos por esse cara.
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
felt like such a vindication,
era uma bela justificativa,
but now I know exactly where."
mas agora eu sei exatamente onde".
who had her mark.
como um assassino que tinha sua marca.
on a course of treatment
Penijean Gracefire,
chamada Penijean Gracefire
was training my brain.
exercitando o meu cérebro.
that we would train a muscle,
da mesma maneira que um músculo,
flexível e resistente
and resilient enough
to my circumstances.
às minhas circunstâncias.
we would anticipate
we would ask that that muscle slow.
esperamos que esse músculo desacelere.
viable, loving romantic relationship,
romântico longo, viável e amoroso,
of my brain should engage,
do meu cérebro devem se acionar,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
just smaller than a dime
um pouco menores que uma moeda,
to detect my brainwaves
pra detectar ondas cerebrais
cabelo e couro cabeludo.
I could see my brain working in real time.
meu cérebro trabalhando em tempo real.
of my brain were hyperactive,
do meu cérebro estavam hiperativas,
hipoativas, exibidas aqui em azul;
que é para onde eu queria ir.
just those parts of my brain
aquelas partes do meu cérebro
with the romantic regulation
have to do or think anything.
fazer nem pensar em nada.
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
operava naquele patamar saudável,
or vibraphone music.
de harpa ou vibrafone.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
à velocidade de uma máquina giroscópica
essentially unconscious.
seria inconsciente.
the other things I had learned
minha mente consciente.
my conscious mind.
my left calf muscle is doing,
da panturrilha está fazendo,
se acionar quando viramos para a direita.
to engage when I wobble to the right.
don't know a lot about, like,
provavelmente não entendem muito
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
de onda de um sino tocando,
because the body paired the stimuli.
porque o corpo liga os estímulos.
Olman's fMRI machine,
magnética da Dra. Cheryl Olman
in the interest of scientific rigor,
no interesse do rigor científico,
didn't know who was who,
não sabiam quem era quem,
influence the results.
to analyze that second set of data,
esse segundo conjunto de dados,
parece ter sido erradicado, basicamente.
vírgula, sim, ponto de interrogação.
comma, yes, question mark.
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
um momento para introspecção.
that I'd had at the outset.
que eu tinha desde o início.
of the Spotless Mind."
de uma Mente sem Lembranças".
and amity and attraction and respect
amizade, atração, respeito
that you amass after long-term love.
acumulamos após um amor de longo prazo.
had risen to the surface,
favoráveis haviam aflorado
and the less-generous feelings
a small thing in some way,
mas para mim foi muito importante.
your wisdom teeth,"
seus dentes do siso",
in which I did those two things.
em que eu fizesse essas duas coisas.
philosophical privilege
realmente incomum
para imprimir em 3D meu núcleo caudado.
transformei em um colar
it at the merch table at my shows.
na mesa de merchandising.
of friends back in Minneapolis,
de alguns amigos em Minneapolis,
from the ceiling at my big shows.
to better understand love,
a oportunidade de entender melhor o amor,
Valentine's heart.
e simétrico de Dia dos Namorados.
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
enterrado no fundo do crânio,
and you make each other happy,
e se vocês se fazem felizes,
of neuroscientists
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Dessa - Rapper, singer and writerDessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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