Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
Dessa: Možemo li se svjesno odljubiti?
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collective called Doomtree.
touring rapper and singer.
kao reperica i pjevačica.
this is what our shows look like.
naši koncerti izgledaju ovako.
There's a lot of sweating.
unintentional body checks onstage.
tjelesnih dodira na sceni.
intentional body checks onstage.
tjelesnih dodira na sceni.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
my own music as a solo artist,
more melancholy sounds.
the rough mixes of a new album,
nedovršen snimak novog albuma
but why is it always so sad?"
ali zašto je uvijek tako tužno?"
da se iskrvari uz nju."
out with that you know that phrase?"
znala takvu frazu?"
I've written so many sad love songs
toliko tužnih ljubavnih pjesama,
I need help with my breakup."
Treba mi pomoć oko prekida."
and touring those songs for a long time,
putovala izvodeći te pjesme,
was essentially romantic devastation.
rada bilo romantično uništenje.
had been written about the same guy.
napisana o istom tipu.
to sort ourselves out,
raščistiti našu situaciju,
that I couldn't rebound
što se ne mogu oporaviti
to recover from so regularly.
toliko uobičajeno oporavljaju.
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
činim dobro nijednome od nas,
how to put the love down.
kako da se ostavim ljubavi.
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
been able to map the coordinates of love
odrediti koordinate ljubavi
if I could find my love in my brain,
otkriti mjesto ljubavi u svome mozgu,
za magnetsku rezonanciju,
passes and whiskey."
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
rezonanciju na Sveučilištu Minnesota.
with a sample size of one, me.
uzorku jedne osobe, mene.
of forest green scrubs,
is a big, tubular magnet
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
željeza u vašoj krvi.
what parts of your brain
dijelovi važeg mozga
at any given moment.
u svakom pojedinom trenutku.
are associated with a task,
povezane s kojim zadatkom,
will always light up the same region,
uvijek osvijetliti isto područje,
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
liči na mog bivšeg dečka
high-resolution images of my brain.
u vrlo visokoj rezoluciji.
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
pogledati u svaki nabor,
called the "brain skin rug."
"tepihom od moždane kože".
when I looked at images of both men.
ponašao gledajući slike oba muškarca.
and when I looked at my ex,
i kada sam gledala u svog bivšeg,
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
pronaći ćemo samu ljubav,
to step on a scale fully dressed
na vagu potpuno odjevena
would be the weight of my clothing.
težina moje odjeće.
we subtracted one from the other,
oduzeli smo jedne od drugih,
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
u području koje je predvidjela dr. Fisher.
točkici, ventralno-tegmentalnom području,
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
is the anterior cingulate
is the caudates.
analizira podatke sa svojim timom
the data with her team
my feelings for this dude.
moje osjećaje za tog tipa.
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
otišla ovoliko daleko.
felt like such a vindication,
doimalo se kao oslobođenje.
but now I know exactly where."
ali sada znam točno gdje."
who had her mark.
koji vidi svoju metu.
on a course of treatment
Penijean Gracefire,
was training my brain.
trenirati moj mozak.
that we would train a muscle,
bismo trenirali mišić,
and resilient enough
to my circumstances.
we would anticipate
we would ask that that muscle slow.
tog mišića da uspori.
viable, loving romantic relationship,
održivoj, ispunjenoj ljubavnoj vezi,
of my brain should engage,
bi trebali biti aktivni,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
održivoj, ispunjenoj ljubavnoj vezi,
just smaller than a dime
manjih od novčića
to detect my brainwaves
da prepoznaju moje moždane valove
I could see my brain working in real time.
vidjeti rad svog mozga u realnom vremenu.
of my brain were hyperactive,
dijelove mozga koji su bili hiperaktivni,
just those parts of my brain
te dijelove mog mozga
with the romantic regulation
have to do or think anything.
činiti niti misliti.
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
na zdravom pragu,
or vibraphone music.
harfe i vibrafona.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
kako se rotira brzinom zvrka
essentially unconscious.
odvijati nesvjesno.
the other things I had learned
o drugim stvarima koje sam naučila
my conscious mind.
my left calf muscle is doing,
radi mišić moga lijevog bedra,
to engage when I wobble to the right.
što činiti ako krenem udesno.
don't know a lot about, like,
ne znaju previše o, recimo,
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
ili valovima zvuka zvona,
because the body paired the stimuli.
tijelo uparilo ta dva podražaja.
Olman's fMRI machine,
dr. Cheryl Olman,
in the interest of scientific rigor,
znanstvene nepristranosti,
didn't know who was who,
nisu znali koji je koji,
influence the results.
to analyze that second set of data,
drugi set podataka,
comma, yes, question mark.
zarez, da, upitnik.
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
trenutak introspekcije,
that I'd had at the outset.
koje sam imala i ranije.
of the Spotless Mind."
"Vječni sjaj nepobjedivog uma."
and amity and attraction and respect
i prijateljstvo i privlačnost i poštovanje
that you amass after long-term love.
nakupite nakon dugotrajne ljubavi.
had risen to the surface,
osjećaji isplivali na površinu,
and the less-generous feelings
velikodušni osjećaji
a small thing in some way,
your wisdom teeth,"
in which I did those two things.
redoslijed tih dviju stvari.
philosophical privilege
filozofsku povlasticu
3D ispis moje repate jezgre.
it at the merch table at my shows.
prodala na štandu tijekom koncerata.
of friends back in Minneapolis,
prijatelja iz Minneapolisa,
from the ceiling at my big shows.
mojim većim koncertima.
to better understand love,
bolje razumjeti ljubav,
Valentine's heart.
valentinsko srce.
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
utisnutih duboko u vašoj lubanji,
and you make each other happy,
i usrećujete jedno drugo,
of neuroscientists
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Dessa - Rapper, singer and writerDessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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