Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
Dessa: Megszüntethetjük a szerelmet?
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collective called Doomtree.
touring rapper and singer.
rapper és énekes vagyok.
this is what our shows look like.
There's a lot of sweating.
unintentional body checks onstage.
meglökünk a színpadon.
intentional body checks onstage.
valakit a színpadon.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
my own music as a solo artist,
more melancholy sounds.
the rough mixes of a new album,
ajándékoztam édesanyámnak.
but why is it always so sad?"
mindig annyira szomorú?" – kérdezte.
out with that you know that phrase?"
ismered ezt a kifejezést?" – csodálkoztam.
I've written so many sad love songs
szomorú szerelmesdalt írtam,
ilyen üzeneteket kapok:
I need help with my breakup."
és segítségre van szükségem."
and touring those songs for a long time,
koncerteztem azokkal a dalokkal,
was essentially romantic devastation.
katasztrófa jellemzi karrierem.
had been written about the same guy.
ugyanarról a fiúról írtam.
to sort ourselves out,
that I couldn't rebound
és nem tudtam összerakni magam,
to recover from so regularly.
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
egyikünknek sem tesz jót,
how to put the love down.
kilépni a szerelemből.
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
been able to map the coordinates of love
if I could find my love in my brain,
a szerelmet az agyamban,
passes and whiskey."
és whiskeyt tudok felajánlani."
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
Rezonancia Kutatóközpontban.
Fischer doktornő eljárását,
with a sample size of one, me.
kipróbálja: rajtam.
of forest green scrubs,
is a big, tubular magnet
nagy, hengeres mágnes,
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
oxigénhiányos vas útját.
what parts of your brain
at any given moment.
nagyobb anyagcsereigénye.
adott tevékenységhez.
are associated with a task,
will always light up the same region,
ugyanaz a terület aktiválódik,
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
másik fickó képét,
high-resolution images of my brain.
képeim voltak az agyamról.
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
hogy látszódjanak a tekervények,
called the "brain skin rug."
ahogy dr. Cheryl Olman nevezte.
when I looked at images of both men.
amikor a két képre néztem.
and when I looked at my ex,
vagy az exem képét néztem,
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
kirajzolta tisztán a szerelmet,
to step on a scale fully dressed
would be the weight of my clothing.
we subtracted one from the other,
kivontuk egymásból,
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
előre jelzett területet kaptuk.
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
a kis narancssárga pöttynél,
is the anterior cingulate
is the caudates.
the data with her team
Andrea és Phil,
az adatok elemzésére,
mutató ponttal
my feelings for this dude.
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
felt like such a vindication,
ennek bizonyítékát látni:
but now I know exactly where."
már azt is tudom, pontosan hol.”
who had her mark.
mint a gyilkos kézjegyem.
on a course of treatment
Penijean Gracefire,
was training my brain.
that we would train a muscle,
hasonlóan megdolgoztatjuk,
and resilient enough
to my circumstances.
we would anticipate
vagyunk, előre tudjuk,
we would ask that that muscle slow.
hogy lazuljon el.
viable, loving romantic relationship,
átélem a romantikus szerelemet,
of my brain should engage,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
túlfűtött kapcsolatban,
just smaller than a dime
to detect my brainwaves
hogy vegyék agyhullámaim
I could see my brain working in real time.
követhettem az agyműködésem.
melyet szintén megmutatott,
of my brain were hyperactive,
mely része hiperaktív.
just those parts of my brain
az agyam azon részeit,
with the romantic regulation
voltak kapcsolatban,
is beazonosítottunk.
have to do or think anything.
se ne gondolkozzam semmin.
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
ebbe az egészséges zónába esett,
or vibraphone music.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
forgó giroszkóphoz hasonlított
essentially unconscious.
tudattalanul zajlik.
the other things I had learned
my conscious mind.
my left calf muscle is doing,
a bal lábikránk izommunkája,
to engage when I wobble to the right.
hogy működjön, amikor jobbra intek.
don't know a lot about, like,
sokat tud a fehérjeszerkezetről,
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
because the body paired the stimuli.
kialakította ezt a reflexet.
Olman's fMRI machine,
in the interest of scientific rigor,
és csapata nem tudta, hogy ki kicsoda,
didn't know who was who,
influence the results.
to analyze that second set of data,
a második adatmennyiséget,
comma, yes, question mark.
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
that I'd had at the outset.
fedeztem volna fel, mint a kezdetekkor.
of the Spotless Mind."
and amity and attraction and respect
barátság, vonzalom és tisztelet,
that you amass after long-term love.
mindenféle bonyolult érzés.
had risen to the surface,
and the less-generous feelings
jóindulatú érzelmek
a small thing in some way,
your wisdom teeth,"
in which I did those two things.
a műveletek sorrendjének!
philosophical privilege
3D-ben az agytörzsem,
nyakláncot készítettem belőle,
it at the merch table at my shows.
alatt a standokon.
of friends back in Minneapolis,
from the ceiling at my big shows.
to better understand love,
hogy jobban megértsem a szerelmet,
Valentine's heart.
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
belsejébe ágyazódva,
feltűnik a színen,
and you make each other happy,
és boldogok vagyunk együtt,
of neuroscientists
egy idegtudós csapatot
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Dessa - Rapper, singer and writerDessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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