Dessa: Can we choose to fall out of love?
डेसा: क्या हम प्यार की भावना से निकल सकते हैं?
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collective called Doomtree.
हिप हॉप ग्रुप का हिस्सा हूँ।
touring rapper and singer.
प्रदर्शन से कमाती हूँ।
this is what our shows look like.
हमारा शो कुछ ऐसा दीखता है।
There's a lot of sweating.
बहुत पसीना आता है।
unintentional body checks onstage.
अपना बर्ताव बदलने लगते हैं।
intentional body checks onstage.
an intramural hockey game and a concert.
के मेल की तरह है।
my own music as a solo artist,
प्रदर्शन अकेले करती हूँ,
more melancholy sounds.
the rough mixes of a new album,
मेरे नए अलबम के कुछ गाने बताए,
but why is it always so sad?"
लेकिन इसमें हमेशा उदासी क्यों है?"
कान फंटने लगते हैं।"
out with that you know that phrase?"
सब बोलना कहाँ से सीखा?"
I've written so many sad love songs
मैंने इतने सारे उदास प्रेम के गीत लिखे
मुझे अपने ब्रेक अप के साथ मदद चाहिए।"
I need help with my breakup."
and touring those songs for a long time,
उनका प्रदर्शन करने और रिकॉर्ड करने के बाद,
was essentially romantic devastation.
रोमानी दुख में है।
had been written about the same guy.
एक ही लड़के के बारे में लिखे गए थे।
to sort ourselves out,
हमने सुलह करने की कोशिश की,
that I couldn't rebound
कि जिस चीज़ से लोग इतनी आसानी से उभरते हैं
to recover from so regularly.
नहीं बढ़ पा रही थी।
it wasn't doing either of us any good,
हम दोनों के लिए अच्छा नहीं है,
how to put the love down.
अपने प्यार को कैसे जाने दूँ।
named Dr. Helen Fisher,
एक TED टॉक देखि,
been able to map the coordinates of love
वे दिमाग में प्यार के निर्देशांक का
if I could find my love in my brain,
अपने दिमाग में प्यार ढूँढ सकती हूँ,
जाने के लिए,
passes and whiskey."
यूनिवर्सिटी ऑफ़ मिनेसोटा
Center for Magnetic Resonance Research.
में काम करती हैं।
with a sample size of one, me.
एक नमूना लिया, मैं।
of forest green scrubs,
पहना दिए गए,
is a big, tubular magnet
एक बड़े, ट्यूब से मैगनेट की तरह है
of deoxygenated iron in your blood.
आयरन की प्रगति मापता है।
कि आपके दिमाग के कौनसे भागों की
what parts of your brain
at any given moment.
उपापचयी मांग सबसे ज़्यादा है।
are associated with a task,
सम्बंधित हैं,
will always light up the same region,
उससे हमेशा एक ही जगह लाइट जलेगी,
who just sort of resembled my ex-boyfriend
जो थोड़ा सा उसकी तरह दिखता था
high-resolution images of my brain.
तसवीरें आई।
inside all of the wrinkles, essentially,
अन्दर देख सकते,
called the "brain skin rug."
"ब्रेन स्किन रग" कहती।
when I looked at images of both men.
देख कर मेरे दिमाग का क्या बर्ताव था।
and when I looked at my ex,
और जब मैंने अपने एक्स को देखा,
that we'd be able to find the love alone,
हमने पाया कि हम प्यार को वैसे पाते,
to step on a scale fully dressed
वेट मशीन पर मैं कपड़ों में खड़ी होती
would be the weight of my clothing.
सिर्फ़ मेरे कपड़ों का भार होता।
we subtracted one from the other,
हमने एक में से दूसरे को सबट्रैक्ट किया,
that Dr. Fisher would have predicted.
जहाँ डॉ फिशर शायद बोलती।
orange dot, the ventral tegmental area,
जो वेंट्रल टेगमेंटल एरिया है,
is the anterior cingulate
is the caudates.
the data with her team
सहभागी एंड्रिया और फिल के
एक स्लाइड।
my feelings for this dude.
का प्रतीक था।
I was going to these outrageous lengths.
कर रही थी।
felt like such a vindication,
पूरी तरह से साबित हुआ,
but now I know exactly where."
लेकिन अब मुझे पता है कि कहाँ।"
who had her mark.
जिसे अपना निशाना पता तह।
on a course of treatment
एक इलाज की प्रक्रिया शुरू की जाए
Penijean Gracefire,
औरत के साथ काम किया,
was training my brain.
मेरे दिमाग का प्रशिक्षण करेंगे।
नहीं कर रहे थे।
that we would train a muscle,
जैसे किसी मस्पेशियो का करते,
and resilient enough
सही तरह से अपनी प्रतिक्रिया दे।
to my circumstances.
we would anticipate
हमें लगता है
we would ask that that muscle slow.
तब वह धीमा हो जाता है।
viable, loving romantic relationship,
भावनात्मक, प्यार भरे रिश्ते में होती हूँ,
of my brain should engage,
उसमें हिस्सा लेना चाहिए,
viable, emotional, loving relationship,
just smaller than a dime
के साथ आई
to detect my brainwaves
मस्तिष्क की तरंगों
I could see my brain working in real time.
अपने दिमाग को चलते देख सकती।
of my brain were hyperactive,
बहुत तेज़ी से चल रहे हैं,
just those parts of my brain
अकेले देख सकते हैं,
with the romantic regulation
सम्बंधित है
have to do or think anything.
मुझे कुछ करने या सोचने की ज़रूरत नहीं है।
had to hold pretty still
in that healthy threshold,
के अन्दर काम करता,
or vibraphone music.
at roughly the speed of a gyro machine
अपने दिमाग को एक गायरो मशीन
essentially unconscious.
अचैतन्य होता।
the other things I had learned
चीज़ों के बारे में सोचा,
my conscious mind.
के साथ उपयोग करके।
my left calf muscle is doing,
मेरे बाएँ पैर की मासपशियो क्या कर रहे हैं,
to engage when I wobble to the right.
जब मैं बाई ओर हिलने लगती हूँ।
don't know a lot about, like,
or the waveform of a ringing bell,
की तरंगों के बारे में न पता हो,
because the body paired the stimuli.
शरीर की सम्बंधित की गई उसकाव से।
Olman's fMRI machine,
ऍफ़एमआरआई मशीन पर गई,
in the interest of scientific rigor,
वैज्ञानिक कारणों के लिए
didn't know who was who,
पता नहीं था कौन कौन है,
influence the results.
प्रभाव न डालें।
to analyze that second set of data,
विश्लेषण किया,
comma, yes, question mark.
अल्प विराम, हाँ, प्रश्न चिह्न।
the desired result.
a moment to introspect,
उस चीज़ के बारे में सोचा,
that I'd had at the outset.
बहार से महसूस हो रही थी।
of the Spotless Mind."
दी स्पॉटलेस माइंड" नहीं है।
and amity and attraction and respect
और मित्रता और आकर्षण और सम्मान था
that you amass after long-term love.
प्यार में होने के बाद होती हैं।
had risen to the surface,
अच्छी वाली भावनाएँ ही क्यों आ रही हैं,
and the less-generous feelings
a small thing in some way,
अलग तरीके से उभारना,
your wisdom teeth,"
in which I did those two things.
किस क्रम में करती हूँ।
philosophical privilege
तात्विक अधिकार था
को 3D प्रिंट करके दिया।
it at the merch table at my shows.
मर्च की तरह बेच दिया।
of friends back in Minneapolis,
कुछ दोस्तों की मदद से,
from the ceiling at my big shows.
to better understand love,
समझने का एक अच्छा मौका मिला
Valentine's heart.
buried somewhere deep within your skull,
भेड़ के अजीब सींग हैं,
and you make each other happy,
और आप एक दूसरे को खुश करते हो,
समूह इकठ्ठा करते हैं
of neuroscientists
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Dessa - Rapper, singer and writerDessa is an internationally touring rapper, singer and writer who built a career by defying genre conventions and audience expectations.
Why you should listen
As a writer, Dessa has contributed to the New York Times, National Geographic Traveler and literary journals across the United States. As a musician, she's recorded critically acclaimed studio albums, co-composed for a 100-voice choir, collaborated with full orchestras and contributed to The Hamilton Mixtape on the invitation of Lin-Manuel Miranda.
On stage and on the page, Dessa's work is driven by an interest in finding unexpected connections -- between heartache and neuroscience, aerodynamics and grief, or simply between two people who live far away and in disparate circumstances. Her delivery is crafted to balance wit and tenderness, intellectual rigor and a poetic sensibility.
Dessa started out in Minneapolis, Minnesota as a member of the Doomtree hip-hop crew, a tight-knit group known for their explosive live shows, innovative sound and fiercely independent business model. For years, the seven-member crew shared stages, hotel rooms and head colds building an international following one sweaty show at a time. Dessa's work within the collective and as a solo artist earned several entries on the Billboard Top 200 charts (Chime, Parts of Speech and All Hands). Alone or with Doomtree, she's performed at Lollapalooza, Glastonbury, SXSW, velvet-lined theaters in LA and New York, punk venues in Central Europe, black box rooms from Tijuana to Beijing and once while standing on a wooden chair in South Africa. According to the LA Times, Dessa "sounds like no one else" and was called "a national treasure" by NPR's All Songs Considered.
Since her teenage years, however, Dessa wanted to become a published writer. So while recording and touring as a musician, she continued to write poetry, essays and short stories. Under the Doomtree banner, she began printing short books, some barely larger than a matchbook. In 2013, Doomtree Press published Spiral Bound, a collection of poetry and prose. In 2015, Dessa partnered with Rain Taxi on a poetry chapbook titled A Pound of Steam. On the strength of that collection, a New York literary agent telephoned; within a few years, Dutton Books (Penguin Random House) published her first book-length collection of essays, My Own Devices: True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love, named one of the best books of 2018 by both NPR and Amazon. She also became a frequent radio contributor: on behalf of Minnesota Public Radio, she's interviewed best-selling authors in front of live audiences (most recently talking with Michael Pollan about his exploration into psychedelic drugs). At WNYC's The Greene Space, she served as Artist in Residence, designing a series called HEARTBREAKERS that investigated research on love, sex and determinism with both scientists and musicians.
In recent years, Dessa partnered with the Grammy-winning Minnesota Orchestra to stage six sold-out performances at Minneapolis's Orchestra Hall (all arranged by composer/musician Andy Thompson and conducted by Sarah Hicks). The Minnesota Orchestra and Dessa cut a live record together in March of 2019, Sound the Bells: Recorded Live at Orchestra Hall, slated for release in November of 2019.
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