ABOUT THE SPEAKERS
Adam Driver - Actor and Marine Corps veteran
Adam Driver is working to bridge the cultural gap between the United States Armed Forces and the performing arts communities by bringing the best modern American theater to the military.

Why you should listen

Before he was an actor, Adam Driver was a Marine with the 1/1 Weapons Company at Camp Pendleton, California. After the Marines, he attended Juilliard and went on to star in films like Star Wars: Episode VII, While We're Young, Midnight Special and on HBO's "Girls." His performance in "Girls" has garnered him three Emmy nominations for Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Comedy Series, and he won the Volpi Cup Award for Best Actor for Hungry Hearts, which premiered at the 2014 Venice International Film Festival.

Driver co-founded Arts in the Armed Forces (AITAF), a nonprofit that that honors, educates, inspires and entertains active duty and veteran members of the United States Armed Forces and their families by engaging them in the power and social service of the performing arts. The organization enlists artists of the highest quality and chooses thought-provoking content with an eye to what might speak to this particular audience.

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Jesse J. Perez - Actor
Jesse J. Perez works as a guest director and teacher at Juilliard, and he has done numerous readings for Arts in the Armed Forces.

Why you should listen

Jesse J. Perez has starred in numerous off-Broadway performances including "Informed Consent," "Up Against the Wind and Triple Happiness." He has also worked at The Chekhov Project: Lake Lucille as a choreographer and done numerous readings for Arts in the Armed Forces.

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Matt Johnson - Drummer
Matt Johnson has played on some of the most critically acclaimed records in almost everyone's collections.

Why you should listen
From recording the seminal cult-creating album Grace with Jeff Buckley, to touring with the beloved St. Vincent, Matt Johnson has worked with a wide spectrum of artists over the past two decades including Rufus Wainwright, Martha Wainwright, Australia’s brother-sister duo Angus and Julia Stone, Elysian Fields, Beth Orton and Duncan Sheik.
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Adam Driver: My journey from Marine to actor

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Before he fought in the galactic battles of Star Wars: The Force Awakens, Adam Driver was a United States Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company. He tells the story of how and why he became a Marine, the complex transition from soldier to civilian -- and Arts in the Armed Forces, his nonprofit that brings theater to the military. Because, as he says: "Self-expression is just as valuable a tool as a rifle on your shoulder." Followed by a spirited performance of Marco Ramirez's "I am not Batman" by Jesse J. Perez and Matt Johnson. (Adult language)
- Actor and Marine Corps veteran
Adam Driver is working to bridge the cultural gap between the United States Armed Forces and the performing arts communities by bringing the best modern American theater to the military. Full bio - Actor
Jesse J. Perez works as a guest director and teacher at Juilliard, and he has done numerous readings for Arts in the Armed Forces. Full bio - Drummer
Matt Johnson has played on some of the most critically acclaimed records in almost everyone's collections. Full bio

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I was a Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company,
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81's platoon,
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out in Camp Pendleton, California.
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Oorah!
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Audience: Oorah!
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(Laughter)
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I joined a few months after September 11,
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feeling like I think most people
in the country did at the time,
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filled with a sense
of patriotism and retribution
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and the desire to do something --
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that, coupled with that fact
that I wasn't doing anything.
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I was 17, just graduated
from high school that past summer,
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living in the back room
of my parents' house paying rent,
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in the small town I was raised in
in Northern Indiana,
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called Mishawaka.
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I can spell that later
for people who are interested --
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(Laughter)
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Mishawaka is many good things
but cultural hub of the world it is not,
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so my only exposure to theater and film
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was limited to the plays
I did in high school
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and Blockbuster Video,
may she rest in peace.
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(Laughter)
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I was serious enough about acting
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that I auditioned for Juilliard
when I was a senior in high school,
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didn't get in,
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determined college wasn't for me
and applied nowhere else,
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which was a genius move.
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I also did that Hail Mary
LA acting odyssey
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that I always heard stories about,
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of actors moving to LA
with, like, seven dollars
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and finding work and successful careers.
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I got as far as Amarillo, Texas,
before my car broke down.
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I spent all my money repairing it,
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finally made it to Santa Monica --
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not even LA --
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stayed for 48 hours wandering
the beach, basically,
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got in my car, drove home,
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thus ending my acting career, so --
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(Laughter)
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Seventeen, Mishawaka ...
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parents' house, paying rent,
selling vacuums ...
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telemarketing,
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cutting grass at the local
4-H fairgrounds.
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This was my world
going into September, 2001.
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So after the 11th,
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and feeling an overwhelming sense of duty,
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and just being pissed off
in general -- at myself,
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my parents, the government;
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not having confidence,
not having a respectable job,
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my shitty mini-fridge that I just
drove to California and back --
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I joined the Marine Corps and loved it.
I loved being a Marine.
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It's one of the things I'm most proud
of having done in my life.
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Firing weapons was cool,
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driving and detonating
expensive things was great.
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But I found I loved
the Marine Corps the most
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for the thing I was looking
for the least when I joined,
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which was the people:
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these weird dudes --
a motley crew of characters
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from a cross section
of the United States --
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that on the surface I had
nothing in common with.
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And over time,
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all the political and personal bravado
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that led me to the military dissolved,
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and for me, the Marine Corps
became synonymous with my friends.
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And then, a few years into my service
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and months away from deploying to Iraq,
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I dislocated my sternum
in a mountain-biking accident,
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and had to be medically separated.
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Those never in the military
may find this hard to understand,
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but being told I wasn't getting deployed
to Iraq or Afghanistan
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was very devastating for me.
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I have a very clear image of leaving
the base hospital on a stretcher
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and my entire platoon is waiting
outside to see if I was OK.
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And then, suddenly,
I was a civilian again.
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I knew I wanted to give
acting another shot,
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because -- again, this is me --
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I thought all civilian problems
are small compared to the military.
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I mean, what can you really
bitch about now, you know?
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"It's hot.
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Someone should turn
on the air conditioner."
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"This coffee line is too long."
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I was a Marine,
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I knew how to survive.
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I'd go to New York and become an actor.
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If things didn't work out,
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I'd live in Central Park
and dumpster-dive behind Panera Bread.
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(Laughter)
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I re-auditioned for Juilliard
and this time I was lucky,
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I got in.
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But I was surprised
by how complex the transition was
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from military to civilian.
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And I was relatively healthy; I can't
imagine going through that process
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on top of a mental or physical injury.
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But regardless, it was difficult.
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In part, because I was in acting school --
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I couldn't justify going
to voice and speech class,
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throwing imaginary balls of energy
at the back of the room,
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doing acting exercises
where I gave birth to myself --
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(Laughter)
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while my friends were serving
without me overseas.
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But also, because I didn't
know how to apply the things
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I learned in the military
to a civilian context.
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I mean that both practically
and emotionally.
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Practically, I had to get a job.
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And I was an Infantry Marine,
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where you're shooting machine guns
and firing mortars.
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There's not a lot of places you can
put those skills in the civilian world.
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(Laughter)
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Emotionally, I struggled to find meaning.
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In the military, everything has meaning.
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Everything you do
is either steeped in tradition
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or has a practical purpose.
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You can't smoke in the field
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because you don't want
to give away your position.
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You don't touch your face --
you have to maintain
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a personal level of health and hygiene.
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You face this way when "Colors" plays,
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out of respect for people
who went before you.
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Walk this way, talk this way
because of this.
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Your uniform is maintained to the inch.
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How diligently you followed
those rules spoke volumes
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about the kind of Marine you were.
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Your rank said something
about your history
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and the respect you had earned.
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In the civilian world there's no rank.
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Here you're just another body,
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and I felt like I constantly had
to prove my worth all over again.
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And the respect civilians were giving me
while I was in uniform
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didn't exist when I was out of it.
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There didn't seem to be a ...
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a sense of community,
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whereas in the military,
I felt this sense of community.
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How often in the civilian world
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are you put in a life-or-death situation
with your closest friends
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and they constantly demonstrate
that they're not going to abandon you?
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And meanwhile, at acting school ...
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(Laughter)
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I was really, for the first time,
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discovering playwrights
and characters and plays
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that had nothing to do with the military,
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but were somehow describing
my military experience
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in a way that before
to me was indescribable.
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And I felt myself becoming less aggressive
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as I was able to put words
to feelings for the first time
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and realizing what
a valuable tool that was.
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And when I was reflecting
on my time in the military,
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I wasn't first thinking
on the stereotypical drills
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and discipline and pain of it;
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but rather, the small,
intimate human moments,
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moments of great feeling:
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friends going AWOL
because they missed their families,
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friends getting divorced,
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grieving together, celebrating together,
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all within the backdrop of the military.
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I saw my friends battling
these circumstances,
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and I watched the anxiety
it produced in them and me,
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not being able to express
our feelings about it.
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The military and theater communities
are actually very similar.
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You have a group of people
trying to accomplish a mission
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greater than themselves;
it's not about you.
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You have a role, you have to know
your role within that team.
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Every team has a leader or director;
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sometimes they're smart,
sometimes they're not.
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You're forced to be intimate
with complete strangers
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in a short amount of time;
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the self-discipline, the self-maintenance.
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I thought, how great would it be
to create a space
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that combined these two seemingly
dissimilar communities,
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that brought entertainment
to a group of people
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that, considering their occupation,
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could handle something
a bit more thought-provoking
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than the typical mandatory-fun events
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that I remember being
"volun-told" to go to in the military --
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(Laughter)
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all well-intended but slightly
offensive events,
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like "Win a Date with a San Diego
Chargers Cheerleader,"
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where you answer a question
about pop culture,
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and if you get it right you win a date,
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which was a chaperoned walk
around the parade deck
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with this already married,
pregnant cheerleader --
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(Laughter)
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Nothing against cheerleaders,
I love cheerleaders.
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The point is more, how great would it
be to have theater presented
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through characters that were accessible
without being condescending.
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So we started this nonprofit
called Arts in the Armed Forces,
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where we tried to do that,
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tried to join these two seemingly
dissimilar communities.
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We pick a play or select monologues
from contemporary American plays
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that are diverse in age and race
like a military audience is,
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grab a group of incredible
theater-trained actors,
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arm them with incredible material,
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keep production value
as minimal as possible --
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no sets, no costumes,
no lights, just reading it --
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to throw all the emphasis on the language
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and to show that theater can
be created at any setting.
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It's a powerful thing,
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getting in a room with complete strangers
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and reminding ourselves of our humanity,
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and that self-expression
is just as valuable a tool
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as a rifle on your shoulder.
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And for an organization like the military,
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that prides itself on having
acronyms for acronyms,
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you can get lost in the sauce
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when it comes to explaining
a collective experience.
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And I can think of no better community
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to arm with a new means of self-expression
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than those protecting our country.
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We've gone all over
the United States and the world,
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from Walter Reed in Bethesda, Maryland,
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to Camp Pendleton,
to Camp Arifjan in Kuwait,
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to USAG Bavaria,
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on- and off-Broadway theaters in New York.
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And for the performing artists we bring,
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it's a window into a culture
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they otherwise would not
have had exposure to.
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And for the military, it's the exact same.
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And in doing this for the past six years,
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I'm always reminded
that acting is many things.
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It's a craft, it's a political act,
it's a business, it's --
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whatever adjective
is most applicable to you.
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But it's also a service.
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I didn't get to finish mine,
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so whenever I get to be of service
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to this ultimate service industry,
the military, for me, again --
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there's not many things better than that.
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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We're going to be doing a piece
from Marco Ramirez,
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called "I am not Batman."
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An incredible actor
and good friend of mine, Jesse Perez,
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is going to be reading,
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and Matt Johnson,
who I just met a couple hours ago.
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They're doing it together
for the first time,
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so we'll see how it goes.
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Jesse Perez and Matt Johnson.
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(Applause)
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Jesse Perez: It's the middle of the night
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and the sky is glowing
like mad, radioactive red.
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And if you squint,
you can maybe see the moon
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through a thick layer of cigarette smoke
and airplane exhaust
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that covers the whole city,
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like a mosquito net
that won't let the angels in.
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(Drum beat)
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And if you look up high enough,
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you can see me standing
on the edge of an 87-story building.
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And up there, a place for gargoyles
and broken clock towers
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that have stayed still and dead
for maybe like 100 years,
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up there is me.
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(Beat)
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And I'm frickin' Batman.
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(Beat)
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And I gots Batmobiles and batarangs
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and frickin' bat caves, like, for real.
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And all it takes is a broom closet
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or a back room or a fire escape,
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and Danny's hand-me-down jeans are gone.
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09:54
And my navy blue polo shirt,
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09:56
the one that looks kinda good on me
but has that hole on it near the butt
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10:00
from when it got snagged
on the chain-link fence behind Arturo's
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10:03
but it isn't even a big deal
because I tuck that part in
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10:05
and it's, like, all good.
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10:07
That blue polo shirt -- it's gone, too!
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10:09
And I get like, like ... transformational.
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10:12
(Beat)
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1000
10:13
And nobody pulls out a belt
and whips Batman for talkin' back.
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10:16
(Beat)
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10:17
Or for not talkin' back.
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10:19
And nobody calls Batman simple
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10:21
or stupid
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10:23
or skinny.
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10:24
And nobody fires Batman's brother
from the Eastern Taxi Company
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10:28
'cause they was making cutbacks, neither.
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10:30
'Cause they got nothing but respect.
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10:31
And not like afraid-respect,
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10:34
just, like, respect-respect.
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10:36
(Laughter)
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'Cause nobody's afraid of you.
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10:39
'Cause Batman doesn't mean nobody no harm.
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10:41
(Beat)
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10:42
Ever.
(Double beat)
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10:43
'Cause all Batman really wants
to do is save people
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10:46
and maybe pay abuela's bills one day
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10:48
and die happy.
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10:49
And maybe get, like, mad-famous for real.
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10:51
(Laughter)
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10:52
Oh -- and kill the Joker.
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10:53
(Drum roll)
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10:55
Tonight, like most nights, I'm all alone.
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10:58
And I'm watchin' and I'm waitin'
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11:00
like a eagle
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11:01
or like a --
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11:02
no, yeah, like a eagle.
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11:04
(Laughter)
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11:05
And my cape is flapping in the wind
cause it's frickin' long
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11:08
and my pointy ears are on,
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11:09
and that mask that covers like half
my face is on, too,
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11:12
and I got, like, bulletproof stuff
all in my chest so no one can hurt me.
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11:16
And nobody -- nobody! --
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11:17
is gonna come between Batman ...
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11:19
and justice.
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11:21
(Drums)
(Laughter)
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11:22
From where I am,
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11:24
I can hear everything.
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11:26
(Silence)
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11:27
Somewhere in the city,
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11:28
there's a old lady picking
Styrofoam leftovers up out of a trash can
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11:31
and she's putting a piece
of sesame chicken someone spit out
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11:34
into her own mouth.
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11:35
And somewhere there's a doctor
with a wack haircut in a black lab coat
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11:39
trying to find a cure for the diseases
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11:41
that are gonna make us
all extinct for real one day.
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11:44
And somewhere there's a man,
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11:45
a man in a janitor's uniform,
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11:46
stumbling home drunk and dizzy
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11:48
after spending half his paycheck
on 40-ounce bottles of twist-off beer,
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3752
11:52
and the other half on a four-hour visit
to some lady's house
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11:55
on a street where the lights
have all been shot out
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11:58
by people who'd rather do
what they do in this city in the dark.
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3033
12:01
And half a block away from janitor man,
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1926
12:03
there's a group of good-for-nothings
who don't know no better,
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2914
12:05
waiting for janitor man
with rusted bicycle chains
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12:08
and imitation Louisville Sluggers,
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1669
12:10
and if they don't find a cent on him,
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12:12
which they won't,
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1151
12:13
they'll just pound at him till the muscles
in their arms start burning,
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3358
12:16
till there's no more teeth to crack out.
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2073
12:18
But they don't count on me.
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1499
12:20
They don't count on no Dark Knight,
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2247
12:22
with a stomach full of grocery-store
brand macaroni and cheese
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2994
12:25
and cut-up Vienna sausages.
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1589
12:27
(Laughter)
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1001
12:28
'Cause they'd rather believe
I don't exist.
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12:31
And from 87 stories up, I can hear
one of the good-for-nothings say,
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3613
12:35
"Gimme the cash!" -- real fast like that,
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2301
12:37
just, "Gimme me the fuckin' cash!"
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1743
12:39
And I see janitor man mumble something
in drunk language and turn pale,
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3553
12:43
and from 87 stories up,
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1177
12:44
I can hear his stomach trying
to hurl its way out his Dickies.
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3108
12:47
So I swoop down, like, mad-fast
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1881
12:49
and I'm like darkness, I'm like, "Swoosh!"
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3015
12:52
And I throw a batarang
at the one naked lightbulb.
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12:54
(Cymbal)
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1039
12:56
And they're all like, "Whoa, muthafucker!
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2128
12:58
Who just turned out the lights?"
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1591
12:59
(Laughter)
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1001
13:00
"What's that over there?"
"What?"
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1669
13:02
"Gimme me what you got, old man!"
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13:04
"Did anybody hear that?"
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13:05
"Hear what? There ain't nothing.
No, really -- there ain't no bat!"
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3840
13:09
But then ...
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1227
13:10
one out of the three good-for-nothings
gets it to the head -- pow!
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3479
13:13
And number two swings blindly
into the dark cape before him,
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2857
13:16
but before his fist hits anything,
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1809
13:18
I grab a trash can lid and --
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1904
13:20
right in the gut!
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1187
13:21
And number one comes
back with the jump kick,
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2115
13:23
but I know judo karate, too,
so I'm like --
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13:26
(Drums)
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13:30
Twice!
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13:31
(Drums)
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1001
13:32
(Laughter)
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1225
13:33
(Drums)
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1452
13:35
But before I can do any more damage,
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1760
13:37
suddenly we all hear a "click-click."
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2199
13:40
And suddenly everything gets quiet.
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2236
13:43
And the one good-for-nothing left standing
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2016
13:45
grips a handgun and aims it straight up,
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1937
13:47
like he's holding Jesus hostage,
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1581
13:48
like he's threatening maybe
to blow a hole in the moon.
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2885
13:51
And the good-for-nothing
who got it to the head,
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2272
13:53
who tried to jump-kick me,
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1268
13:55
and the other good-for-nothing
who got it in the gut,
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2493
13:57
is both scrambling back away
from the dark figure before 'em.
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2881
14:00
And the drunk man, the janitor man,
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1683
14:02
is huddled in a corner,
praying to Saint Anthony
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2263
14:04
'cause that's the only one
he could remember.
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2116
14:06
(Double beat)
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1001
14:07
And there's me:
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1152
14:09
eyes glowing white,
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1370
14:10
cape blowing softly in the wind.
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2007
14:12
(Beat)
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1001
14:13
Bulletproof chest heaving,
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1497
14:15
my heart beating right through it
in a Morse code for:
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2540
14:17
"Fuck with me
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1151
14:19
just once
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1151
14:20
come on
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1151
14:21
just try."
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1150
14:22
And the one good-for-nothing
left standing,
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2080
14:24
the one with the handgun --
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1315
14:26
yeah, he laughs.
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1151
14:27
And he lowers his arm.
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1182
14:28
And he points it at me
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1310
14:29
and gives the moon a break.
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1451
14:31
And he aims it right
between my pointy ears,
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2173
14:33
like goal posts and he's special teams.
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2949
14:37
And janitor man is still
calling Saint Anthony,
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2669
14:40
but he ain't pickin' up.
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1356
14:42
And for a second,
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1678
14:43
it seems like ...
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1254
14:47
maybe I'm gonna lose.
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1725
14:50
Nah!
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1158
14:52
(Drums)
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1016
14:53
Shoot! Shoot! Fwa-ka-ka!
402
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1185
14:54
"Don't kill me, man!"
403
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1151
14:55
Snap! Wrist crack! Neck! Slash!
404
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1958
14:57
Skin meets acid:
"Ahhhhhhh!"
405
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3983
15:01
And he's on the floor
406
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1238
15:02
and I'm standing over him
407
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1198
15:03
and I got the gun in my hands now
408
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1909
15:05
and I hate guns, I hate holding 'em
'cause I'm Batman.
409
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2664
15:08
And, asterisk:
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1178
15:09
Batman don't like guns 'cause his parents
got iced by guns a long time ago.
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3558
15:13
But for just a second,
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1215
15:14
my eyes glow white,
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1318
15:15
and I hold this thing
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1159
15:17
for I could speak to the good-for-nothing
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1983
15:19
in a language he maybe understands.
416
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1746
15:20
Click-click!
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1547
15:22
(Beat)
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1013
15:23
And the good-for-nothings
become good-for-disappearing
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2565
15:26
into whatever toxic waste, chemical
sludge shithole they crawled out of.
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3695
15:30
And it's just me and janitor man.
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1976
15:33
And I pick him up,
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1470
15:35
and I wipe sweat and cheap perfume
off his forehead.
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3133
15:38
And he begs me not to hurt him
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1436
15:39
and I grab him tight
by his janitor-man shirt collar,
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2530
15:42
and I pull him to my face
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1287
15:43
and he's taller than me
but the cape helps,
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2080
15:45
so he listens when I look him
straight in the eyes.
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2393
15:48
And I say two words to him:
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1721
15:50
"Go home."
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1608
15:53
And he does,
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1246
15:54
checking behind his shoulder
every 10 feet.
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2468
15:57
And I swoosh from building
to building on his way there
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2589
15:59
'cause I know where he lives.
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1404
16:01
And I watch his hands tremble
as he pulls out his key chain
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2804
16:03
and opens the door to his building.
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1709
16:05
And I'm back in bed
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1271
16:06
before he even walks in
through the front door.
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2272
16:09
And I hear him turn on the faucet
439
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1619
16:11
and pour himself a glass
of warm tap water.
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2256
16:13
And he puts the glass back in the sink.
441
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1896
16:16
And I hear his footsteps.
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1401
16:18
And they get slower
as they get to my room.
443
966630
2055
16:21
And he creaks my door open,
like, mad-slow.
444
969758
3125
16:25
And he takes a step in,
445
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1828
16:27
which he never does.
446
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1356
16:29
(Beat)
447
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1000
16:31
And he's staring off into nowhere,
448
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1630
16:32
his face, the color
of sidewalks in summer.
449
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2665
16:35
And I act like I'm just waking up
450
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1581
16:37
and I say, "Ah, what's up, Pop?"
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2409
16:40
And janitor man says nothing to me.
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2271
16:43
But I see in the dark,
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1161
16:44
I see his arms go limp
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1373
16:46
and his head turns back, like, towards me.
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2114
16:48
And he lifts it for I can see his face,
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2376
16:50
for I could see his eyes.
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1866
16:52
And his cheeks is drippin',
but not with sweat.
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2372
16:55
And he just stands there breathing,
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1781
16:57
like he remembers my eyes glowing white,
460
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2432
16:59
like he remembers my bulletproof chest,
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2690
17:03
like he remembers he's my pop.
462
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1943
17:09
And for a long time I don't say nothin'.
463
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2956
17:14
And he turns around, hand on the doorknob.
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2026
17:16
And he ain't looking my way,
465
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1428
17:18
but I hear him mumble two words to me:
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2542
17:22
"I'm sorry."
467
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1414
17:26
And I lean over, and I open
my window just a crack.
468
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3279
17:30
If you look up high enough,
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1685
17:33
you could see me.
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1576
17:35
And from where I am --
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1417
17:37
(Cymbals)
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17:39
I could hear everything.
473
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1750
17:44
(Applause)
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8424
17:52
Thank you.
475
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1217
17:53
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKERS
Adam Driver - Actor and Marine Corps veteran
Adam Driver is working to bridge the cultural gap between the United States Armed Forces and the performing arts communities by bringing the best modern American theater to the military.

Why you should listen

Before he was an actor, Adam Driver was a Marine with the 1/1 Weapons Company at Camp Pendleton, California. After the Marines, he attended Juilliard and went on to star in films like Star Wars: Episode VII, While We're Young, Midnight Special and on HBO's "Girls." His performance in "Girls" has garnered him three Emmy nominations for Outstanding Supporting Actor in a Comedy Series, and he won the Volpi Cup Award for Best Actor for Hungry Hearts, which premiered at the 2014 Venice International Film Festival.

Driver co-founded Arts in the Armed Forces (AITAF), a nonprofit that that honors, educates, inspires and entertains active duty and veteran members of the United States Armed Forces and their families by engaging them in the power and social service of the performing arts. The organization enlists artists of the highest quality and chooses thought-provoking content with an eye to what might speak to this particular audience.

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Jesse J. Perez - Actor
Jesse J. Perez works as a guest director and teacher at Juilliard, and he has done numerous readings for Arts in the Armed Forces.

Why you should listen

Jesse J. Perez has starred in numerous off-Broadway performances including "Informed Consent," "Up Against the Wind and Triple Happiness." He has also worked at The Chekhov Project: Lake Lucille as a choreographer and done numerous readings for Arts in the Armed Forces.

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Matt Johnson - Drummer
Matt Johnson has played on some of the most critically acclaimed records in almost everyone's collections.

Why you should listen
From recording the seminal cult-creating album Grace with Jeff Buckley, to touring with the beloved St. Vincent, Matt Johnson has worked with a wide spectrum of artists over the past two decades including Rufus Wainwright, Martha Wainwright, Australia’s brother-sister duo Angus and Julia Stone, Elysian Fields, Beth Orton and Duncan Sheik.
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