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Geena Rocero: Why I must come out
Geena Rocero: Zakaj se moram razkriti
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Ko se je foto model Geena Rocero prvič videla oblečeno v bikini na profesionalni modni fotografiji, je bila vzhičena. "Pomislila sem ... prispela si!" je ponosno dejala. To mogoče ni običajna izkušnja, toda kot razkriva Rocerova, je to mogoče pripisati temu, da je bila rojena z oznako spola 'moški'. Geena Rocero v ganljivem osebnem nagovoru ugotavlja, da preko transspolnega aktivizma odkriva povsem nove razsežnosti ponosa in usmerjenosti k cilju.
Geena Rocero - Model and activist
Geena Rocero is a professional model for fashion and beauty companies around the world. And she uses her platform to share a powerful story. Full bio
Geena Rocero is a professional model for fashion and beauty companies around the world. And she uses her platform to share a powerful story. Full bio
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00:13
The world makes you something that you're not,
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Svet vas naredi nekaj kar niste,
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but you know inside what you are,
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ampak v sebi veste, kaj ste
00:20
and that question burns in your heart:
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in v duši vas žge vprašanje:
00:23
How will you become that?
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Kako boste to postali?
00:26
I may be somewhat unique in this,
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Sama sem pri tem nekaj posebnega,
00:29
but I am not alone,
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a nisem edina,
00:31
not alone at all.
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še zdaleč ne.
00:34
So when I became a fashion model,
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Ko sem postala model,
00:36
I felt that I'd finally achieved the dream
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sem čutila, da sem končno
dosegla svoje sanje,
dosegla svoje sanje,
00:38
that I'd always wanted since I was a young child.
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ki sem jih sanjala že od otroštva.
00:41
My outside self finally matched my inner truth,
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Moja zunanjost se je končno ujemala
z mojo notranjo resnico,
z mojo notranjo resnico,
00:45
my inner self.
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z mojim notranjim jazom.
00:47
For complicated reasons which I'll get to later,
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Zaradi zapletenih razlogov,
ki jih bom opisala kasneje,
ki jih bom opisala kasneje,
00:52
when I look at this picture,
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ko pogledam to sliko,
00:55
at that time I felt like, Geena, you've done it,
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tedaj sem si rekla, Geena, uspelo ti je,
00:57
you've made it,
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posrečilo se ti je,
00:58
you have arrived.
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prispela si.
01:01
But this past October,
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Toda pretekli oktober
01:04
I realized that I'm only just beginning.
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sem spoznala, da šele začenjam.
01:08
All of us are put in boxes by our family,
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Vsi smo spravljeni v predalčke.
Tja nas dajejo družina,
Tja nas dajejo družina,
01:13
by our religion,
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vera,
01:14
by our society,
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družba,
01:16
our moment in history,
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naš trenutek v zgodovini,
01:19
even our own bodies.
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celo naša lastna telesa.
01:21
Some people have the courage to break free,
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Nekateri imajo pogum,
da se tega osvobodijo,
da se tega osvobodijo,
01:24
not to accept the limitations imposed by
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da ne sprejmejo omejitev,
ki jim jih postavlja
ki jim jih postavlja
01:26
the color of their skin
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barva njihove kože
01:28
or by the beliefs of those that surround them.
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ali prepričanja tistih okrog njih.
01:32
Those people are always the threat
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To so ljudje, ki so vedno grožnja
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to the status quo,
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statusu quo,
01:35
to what is considered acceptable.
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tistemu kar je sprejemljivo.
01:39
In my case, for the last nine years,
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Pri meni zadnjih devet let
01:45
some of my neighbors,
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nekateri moji sosedje,
01:47
some of my friends, colleagues, even my agent,
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nekateri moji prijatelji,
sodelavci, celo moj agent
sodelavci, celo moj agent
01:50
did not know about my history.
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niso poznali moje preteklosti.
01:52
I think, in mystery, this is called the reveal.
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Mislim, da se temu
v kriminalkah reče razkritje.
v kriminalkah reče razkritje.
01:56
Here is mine.
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Tukaj je moje.
02:00
I was assigned boy at birth
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Ob rojstvu mi je bil dodeljen
spol dečka
spol dečka
02:03
based on the appearance of my genitalia.
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glede na videz mojih genitalij.
02:06
I remember when I was five years old
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Spominjam se, da sem se pri petih letih
02:08
in the Philippines walking around our house,
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sprehajala okrog domače hiše na Filipinih
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I would always wear this t-shirt on my head.
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in na glavi vedno nosila majico.
02:13
And my mom asked me,
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In mama me je vprašala
02:15
"How come you always wear
that t-shirt on your head?"
that t-shirt on your head?"
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"Zakaj vedno nosiš to majico na glavi?"
02:18
I said, "Mom, this is my hair. I'm a girl."
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Odgovorila sem: "Mami, to so moji lasje,
punčka sem."
punčka sem."
02:23
I knew then how to self-identify.
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Že tedaj sem vedela,
kako se identificirati.
kako se identificirati.
02:27
Gender has always been considered a fact,
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Spol je bil vedno razumljen kot dejstvo,
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immutable,
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nespremenljivo,
02:34
but we now know it's actually more fluid,
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ampak danes vemo, da je pravzaprav
veliko bolj prožno,
veliko bolj prožno,
02:37
complex and mysterious.
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kompleksno in skrivnostno.
02:41
Because of my success, I never had the courage
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Zaradi lastnega uspeha
nikoli nisem imela poguma,
nikoli nisem imela poguma,
02:44
to share my story,
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da bi delila svojo zgodbo,
02:46
not because I thought what I am is wrong,
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a ne, ker bi mislila, da je to,
kar sem, nekaj napačnega,
kar sem, nekaj napačnega,
02:49
but because of how the world treats those of us
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ampak zaradi tega kako svet ravna
s tistimi izmed nas,
s tistimi izmed nas,
02:52
who wish to break free.
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ki si želijo osvoboditve.
02:55
Every day,
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Vsak dan
02:57
I am so grateful because I am a woman.
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sem tako hvaležna, ker sem ženska.
03:01
I have a mom and dad and family
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Imam mamo in očeta in družino,
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who accepted me for who I am.
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ki so me sprejeli tako kot sem.
03:07
Many are not so fortunate.
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Mnogi nimajo te sreče.
03:12
There's a long tradition in Asian culture
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V azijski kulturi je dolga tradicija
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that celebrates the fluid mystery of gender.
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čaščenja skrivnostne
nedoločljivosti spola.
nedoločljivosti spola.
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There is a Buddhist goddess of compassion.
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Tu je budistična boginja sočutja.
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There is a Hindu goddess, hijra goddess.
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Tu je hindujska boginja, hidžra.
03:25
So when I was eight years old,
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Ko sem bila stara osem let
03:27
I was at a fiesta in the Philippines celebrating
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sem bila na Filipinih na slavju prirejenem
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these mysteries.
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v čast tem skrivnostim.
03:32
I was in front of the stage,
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Bila sem tik pred odrom
03:34
and I remember, out comes this beautiful woman
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in spominjam se prihoda te čudovite ženske
03:37
right in front of me,
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prav pred mano
03:39
and I remember that moment something hit me:
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in spominjam se,
da me je takrat spreletelo:
da me je takrat spreletelo:
03:41
That is the kind of woman I would like to be.
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Takšna ženska hočem biti jaz.
03:45
So when I was 15 years old,
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In ko sem bila stara 15 let,
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still dressing as a boy,
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še vedno oblečena kot fant,
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I met this woman named T.L.
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sem srečala žensko imenovano T. L.
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She is a transgender beauty pageant manager.
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Je organizatorka
transspolnih lepotnih tekmovanj.
transspolnih lepotnih tekmovanj.
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That night she asked me,
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Tistega večera me je vprašala:
03:56
"How come you are not joining the beauty pageant?"
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"Zakaj se ne prijaviš na tekmovanje?"
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She convinced me that if I joined
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Prepričala me je, da bo, če se prijavim
04:01
that she would take care of the registration fee
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poskrbela za prijavnino,
04:05
and the garments,
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oblačila
04:06
and that night,
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in tisti večer
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I won best in swimsuit
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sem osvojila naziv najlepše v kopalkah
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and best in long gown
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in v večerni obleki
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and placed second runner up
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in se uvrstila kot druga spremljevalka
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among 40-plus candidates.
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med več kot štiridesetimi prijavljenimi.
04:17
That moment changed my life.
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Tisti trenutek mi je spremenil življenje.
04:20
All of a sudden, I was introduced
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Naenkrat sem postala
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to the world of beauty pageants.
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del sveta lepotnih tekmovanj.
04:25
Not a lot of people could say that your first job
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Ni jih veliko, ki lahko rečejo,
da je njihova prva služba
da je njihova prva služba
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is a pageant queen for transgender women,
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kraljica lepotnih tekmovanj
za transspolne ženske,
za transspolne ženske,
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but I'll take it.
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ampak jaz sprejmem.
04:32
So from 15 to 17 years old, I joined
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Tako sem se med 15 in 17 letom udeleževala
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the most prestigious pageant
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tako najbolj prestižnih tekmovanj
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to the pageant where it's at
the back of the truck, literally,
the back of the truck, literally,
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kot tistih, ki so dobesedno potekala
na prikolici tovornjaka,
na prikolici tovornjaka,
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or sometimes it would be a
pavement next to a rice field,
pavement next to a rice field,
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ali pa na pločniku poleg riževega polja
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and when it rains --
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in kadar je deževalo -
04:46
it rains a lot in the Philippines --
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in na Filipinih pogosto dežuje -
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the organizers would have to move it
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so morali organizatorji
tekmovanje preseliti
tekmovanje preseliti
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inside someone's house.
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v hišo katerega od prebivalcev.
04:55
I also experienced the goodness of strangers,
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Izkusila sem tudi prijaznost neznancev,
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especially when we would travel
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še posebej kadar smo potovali
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in remote provinces in the Philippines.
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v oddaljene province Filipinov.
05:01
But most importantly, I met
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A najpomembnejše, spoznala sem
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some of my best friends in that community.
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nekatere izmed mojih najboljših
prijateljev v tisti skupnosti.
prijateljev v tisti skupnosti.
05:06
In 2001,
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Leta 2001 me je poklicala moja mama,
05:08
my mom, who had moved to San Francisco,
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ki se je preselila v San Francisco
05:11
called me and told me that my
green card petition came through,
green card petition came through,
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in mi povedala,
da so mi odobrili zeleno karto
da so mi odobrili zeleno karto
05:14
that I could now move to the United States.
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in da se lahko sedaj preselim v ZDA.
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I resisted it.
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Upirala sem se.
05:19
I told my mom, "Mom, I'm having fun.
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Rekla sem: "Mama, zabavam se.
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I'm here with my friends,
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Tu sem s prijatelji,
05:22
I love traveling, being a beauty pageant queen."
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rada potujem in rada sem kraljica
lepotnih tekmovanj."
lepotnih tekmovanj."
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But then two weeks later she called me, she said,
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Toda po dveh tednih
me je poklicala in rekla
me je poklicala in rekla
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"Did you know that if you move to the United States
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"Ali veš, da lahko ob selitvi v ZDA
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you could change your name and gender marker?"
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spremeniš svoje ime in oznako spola?"
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That was all I needed to hear.
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To je bilo vse kar sem želela slišati.
05:38
My mom also told me to put two E's
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Svetovala mi je naj uporabim dva 'E'
05:39
in the spelling of my name.
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pri črkovanju svojega imena.
05:42
She also came with me when I had my surgery
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Spremljala me je tudi med operacijami
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in Thailand at 19 years old.
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na Tajskem pri devetnajstih letih.
05:47
It's interesting, in some of the
most rural cities in Thailand,
most rural cities in Thailand,
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Zanimivo je, da v nekaterih najbolj
podeželskih krajih na Tajskem
podeželskih krajih na Tajskem
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they perform some of the most prestigious,
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opravljajo nekatere od najbolj prestižnih,
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safe and sophisticated surgery.
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varnih in prefinjenih operacij.
05:58
At that time in the United States,
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Takrat so ZDA
06:00
you needed to have surgery
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še zahtevale operacijo
06:01
before you could change your
name and gender marker.
name and gender marker.
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preden je bila mogoča sprememba
imena in oznake spola.
imena in oznake spola.
06:04
So in 2001, I moved to San Francisco,
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Tako sem se leta 2001
preselila v San Francisco.
preselila v San Francisco.
06:09
and I remember looking at
my California driver's license
my California driver's license
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Spominjam se opazovanja mojega
kalifornijskega vozniškega dovoljenja
kalifornijskega vozniškega dovoljenja
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with the name Geena
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z imenom Geena
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and gender marker F.
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in oznako spola Ž.
06:17
That was a powerful moment.
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To je bil izjemen trenutek.
06:20
For some people,
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Za nekatere
06:22
their I.D. is their license to drive
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je osebni dokument
le dovoljenje za vožnjo
le dovoljenje za vožnjo
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or even to get a drink,
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ali dokument, s katerim lahko
naročijo alkohol,
naročijo alkohol,
06:26
but for me, that was my license to live,
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ampak zame je bilo
dovoljenje za življenje,
dovoljenje za življenje,
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to feel dignified.
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da se počutim dostojanstveno.
06:32
All of a sudden, my fears were minimized.
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Naenkrat so se moji strahovi
povsem zmanjšali.
povsem zmanjšali.
06:35
I felt that I could conquer my dream
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Čutila sem, da lahko osvojim svoje sanje,
06:37
and move to New York and be a model.
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da se preselim v New York
in postanem model.
in postanem model.
06:41
Many are not so fortunate.
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Mnogi nimajo te sreče.
06:45
I think of this woman named Ayla Nettles.
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V mislih imam to žensko, Aylo Nettles.
06:48
She's from New York, she's a young woman
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Je mlada ženska iz New Yorka,
06:50
who was courageously living her truth,
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ki je pogumno živela svojo resnico,
06:53
but hatred ended her life.
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a se je njeno življenje
končalo zaradi sovraštva.
končalo zaradi sovraštva.
06:56
For most of my community,
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Za večino iz moje skupnosti
06:58
this is the reality in which we live.
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je to realnost v kateri živimo.
07:01
Our suicide rate is nine times higher
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Stopnja samomorov med nami je
devetkrat višja
devetkrat višja
07:04
than that of the general population.
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kot med preostalo populacijo.
07:06
Every November 20,
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Vsakega 20. novembra
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we have a global vigil
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imamo svetovno vigilijo
07:10
for Transgender Day of Remembrance.
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na Dan spomina na transspolne osebe.
07:14
I'm here at this stage
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Na tem odru stojim
07:15
because it's a long history of people who fought
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zaradi dolge zgodovine ljudi,
ki so se borili
ki so se borili
07:18
and stood up for injustice.
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in se upirali nepravičnosti.
07:20
This is Marsha P. Johnson and Sylvia Rivera.
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Tu sta Marsha P. Johnson in Sylvia Rivera.
07:26
Today, this very moment,
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Danes, prav ta trenutek tukaj,
07:28
is my real coming out.
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je moje pravo razkritje.
07:31
I could no longer live my truth
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Nisem več mogla živeti moje resnice
07:34
for and by myself.
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sama in zgolj zase.
07:37
I want to do my best to help others
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Največ hočem narediti,
da bi pomagala drugim,
da bi pomagala drugim,
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live their truth without shame and terror.
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živeti svojo resnico
brez sramu in nasilja.
brez sramu in nasilja.
07:44
I am here, exposed,
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Tukaj sem, razgaljena
07:48
so that one day there will never be a need
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zato, da nekega dne ne bo več potrebna
07:51
for a November 20 vigil.
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vigilija 20. novembra.
07:55
My deepest truth allowed me to accept who I am.
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Moja najgloblja resnica mi je dovolila,
da sprejmem kdo sem.
da sprejmem kdo sem.
08:01
Will you?
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Boste tudi vi?
08:03
Thank you very much.
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Najlepša hvala.
08:05
(Applause)
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(Aplavz)
08:08
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. (Applause)
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Hvala. Hvala. Hvala.
(Aplavz)
(Aplavz)
08:14
Kathryn Schulz: Geena, one quick question for you.
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Kathryn Schulz: Geena, še eno vprašanje.
08:16
I'm wondering what you would say,
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Zanima me, kaj bi imela povedati,
08:18
especially to parents,
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še posebno staršem,
08:20
but in a more broad way, to friends,
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ampak širše tudi prijateljem,
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to family, to anyone who finds themselves
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družini, komurkoli,
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encountering a child or a person
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ki se sreča z otrokom ali osebo,
08:26
who is struggling with and uncomfortable with
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ki se bori in ni srečen
08:28
a gender that's being assigned them,
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s spolom, ki jim je bil dodeljen.
08:30
what might you say
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Kaj bi rekla
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to the family members of that person
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družinskim članom take osebe,
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to help them become good and caring and kind
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da bi jim lahko pomagala
postati dobri in skrbeči
postati dobri in skrbeči
08:36
family members to them?
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družinski člani takim ljudem?
08:38
Geena Rocero: Sure. Well,
first, really, I'm so blessed.
first, really, I'm so blessed.
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G.R: Seveda. Najprej, resnično imam srečo.
08:40
The support system, with my mom especially,
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Podporni sistem, še posebno moja mama,
08:43
and my family, that in itself
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in moja družina, že samo to
08:45
is just so powerful.
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nosi tako veliko moč.
08:47
I remember every time I would coach
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Spominjam se, vsakič, ko sem poučevala
08:49
young trans women, I would mentor them,
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mlade transspolne ženske
in bila njihova mentorica
in bila njihova mentorica
08:52
and sometimes when they would call me
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so me kdaj poklicale
08:54
and tell me that their parents can't accept it,
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in mi povedale, da njihovi starši
tega ne sprejemajo.
tega ne sprejemajo.
08:56
I would pick up that phone call and tell my mom,
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Pograbila sem telefon
in rekla mami
in rekla mami
08:58
"Mom, can you call this woman?"
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"Mami, ali lahko ti govoriš s to žensko?"
09:00
And sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't, so —
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In včasih deluje, včasih ne, tako da -
09:03
But it's just, gender identity
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Toda, spolna identiteta
09:07
is in the core of our being, right?
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je osnova našega bitja, kajne?
09:09
I mean, we're all assigned gender at birth,
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Hočem reči, vsem določijo spol ob rojstvu,
09:13
so what I'm trying to do
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kar hočem doseči jaz
09:15
is to have this conversation that
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je to, da se začnemo pogovarjati o tem,
09:17
sometimes that gender assignment doesn't match,
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da se včasih določeni spol
ne ujema z osebo
ne ujema z osebo
09:20
and there should be a space
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in da bi moral obstajati prostor,
09:22
that would allow people to self-identify,
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ki bi dovoljeval ljudem,
da se sami identificirajo.
da se sami identificirajo.
09:25
and that's a conversation that we should have
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To je pogovor, ki bi ga morali imeti
09:27
with parents, with colleagues.
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s starši, s sodelavci.
09:30
The transgender movement,
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Transspolno gibanje
09:31
it's at the very beginning,
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je še v povojih,
09:34
to compare to how the gay movement started.
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če ga primerjamo
z začetki gejevskega gibanja.
z začetki gejevskega gibanja.
09:37
There's still a lot of work that needs to be done.
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Potrebnega je še veliko dela.
09:39
There should be an understanding.
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Moralo bi biti tudi razumevanje.
09:41
There should be a space of curiosity
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Moral bi biti tudi prostor za radovednost
09:43
and asking questions,
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in postavljanje vprašanj
09:45
and I hope all of you guys will be my allies.
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in upam, da boste vsi vi moji zavezniki.
09:48
KS: Thank you. That was so lovely.
GR: Thank you.
GR: Thank you.
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KS: Hvala. To je bilo čudovito.
GR: Hvala.
GR: Hvala.
09:50
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Geena Rocero - Model and activistGeena Rocero is a professional model for fashion and beauty companies around the world. And she uses her platform to share a powerful story.
Why you should listen
As Cameron Russell puts it, professional models are people who have won the genetic lottery, born with the DNA for long legs, great skin and dazzling smiles. The advertising industry presents these gorgeous folks as idealized versions of ourselves to sell us clothes, makeup, cars. But behind the fabulousness, there's always an interesting story.
Born in Manila, Geena Rocero moved to New York in 2005 to pursue a modeling career. Signed to Next Models, she has worked with Rimmel Cosmetics, Hanes, and many other fashion and beauty companies. Through her own experience into womanhood, she realized her bigger purpose in life was to share her journey and work towards justice and beauty.
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