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Shane Koyczan: To This Day ... for the bullied and beautiful
Šejn Kojčan (Shane Koyczan): "Do dana današnjeg"... za maltretirane i lepe
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Sa jedne strane smešan i sablasan, pesnik Šejn Kojčan opipava puls osećaja mladosti i... različitosti. "Do dana današnjeg", njegova poema o maltretiranju, opčinila je milione kao viralni video (koji je, u crowd-source stilu, napravilo 80 animatora). Ovde, uživo izlaže izvanrednu reprizu sa pozadinskom pričom i violinskom pratnjom Hane Eperson (Hanna Epperson).
Shane Koyczan - Poet
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio
Double-click the English transcript below to play the video.
00:21
There's so many of you.
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Koliko vas je.
00:28
When I was a kid,
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Kad sam bio klinac,
00:30
I hid my heart under the bed, because my mother said,
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sakrio sam srce ispod kreveta,
jer mi je mama rekla:
jer mi je mama rekla:
00:33
"If you're not careful, someday someone's going to break it."
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"Ako nisi pažljiv, slomiće ti neko
srce jednog dana."
srce jednog dana."
00:37
Take it from me. Under the bed is not a good hiding spot.
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Poslušajte me.
Nije dobro mesto za skrivanje ispod kreveta.
Nije dobro mesto za skrivanje ispod kreveta.
00:40
I know because I've been shot down so many times
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Znam, jer sam bio oboren
toliko mnogo puta
toliko mnogo puta
00:42
I get altitude sickness just from standing up for myself.
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da mi se zavrti u glavi dok se
samo zauzimam za sebe.
samo zauzimam za sebe.
00:46
But that's what we were told.
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Ali to nam je rečeno.
00:49
Stand up for yourself.
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Zauzmi se za sebe.
00:51
And that's hard to do if you don't know who you are.
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A to je teško uraditi
ako ne znaš ko si.
ako ne znaš ko si.
00:54
We were expected to define ourselves at such an early age,
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Očekivano je od nas da se definišemo
pri tako ranom uzrastu
pri tako ranom uzrastu
00:57
and if we didn't do it, others did it for us.
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i ukoliko nismo,
drugi su to uradili za nas.
drugi su to uradili za nas.
01:01
Geek. Fatty. Slut. Fag.
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Štreber. Debeljuca.
Drolja. Peder.
Drolja. Peder.
01:06
And at the same time we were being told what we were,
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U isto vreme dok su nam govorili šta smo,
01:09
we were being asked,
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pitali su nas:
01:10
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
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"Šta želiš da budeš kad odrasteš?"
01:13
I always thought that was an unfair question.
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Oduvek sam mislio da to
nije pošteno pitanje.
nije pošteno pitanje.
01:15
It presupposes that we can't be what we already are.
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Pretpostavlja se da ne možemo biti
ono što već jesmo.
ono što već jesmo.
01:19
We were kids.
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Bili smo deca.
01:20
When I was a kid, I wanted to be a man.
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Kad sam bio klinac,
hteo sam da budem čovek.
hteo sam da budem čovek.
01:24
I wanted a registered retirement savings plan
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Želeo sam registrovani plan
penzione štednje
penzione štednje
01:26
that would keep me in candy long enough to make old age sweet.
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koji bi mi obezbedio dovoljno slatkiša
da mi osladi stare dane.
da mi osladi stare dane.
01:30
When I was a kid, I wanted to shave.
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Kad sam bio klinac,
hteo sam da se brijem.
hteo sam da se brijem.
01:33
Now, not so much.
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Sada, ne baš.
01:36
When I was eight, I wanted to be a marine biologist.
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Kada sam imao osam godina,
hteo sam da budem morski biolog.
hteo sam da budem morski biolog.
01:40
When I was nine, I saw the movie "Jaws,"
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Kada sam imao devet,
pogledao sam film "Ralje"
pogledao sam film "Ralje"
01:42
and thought to myself, "No, thank you."
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i pomislio: "Neka hvala."
01:45
And when I was 10, I was told that my parents left because they didn't want me.
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A kada sam imao 10 godina, rekli su mi
da su me roditelji napustili jer me nisu želeli.
da su me roditelji napustili jer me nisu želeli.
01:49
When I was 11, I wanted to be left alone.
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Kada sam imao 11 godina,
hteo sam da me ostave na miru.
hteo sam da me ostave na miru.
01:50
When I was 12, I wanted to die. When I was 13, I wanted to kill a kid.
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Kada sam imao 12, hteo sam da umrem.
Kada sam imao 13, hteo sam da ubijem klinca.
Kada sam imao 13, hteo sam da ubijem klinca.
01:54
When I was 14, I was asked to seriously consider a career path.
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Kada sam imao 14, rečeno mi je
da dobro razmislim o karijeri.
da dobro razmislim o karijeri.
01:58
I said, "I'd like to be a writer."
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Rekoh: "Želim da budem pisac."
02:01
And they said, "Choose something realistic."
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A oni su rekli: "Izaberi nešto realnije."
02:04
So I said, "Professional wrestler."
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Onda rekoh: "Profesionalni rvač."
02:08
And they said, "Don't be stupid."
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A oni su rekli: "Ne budi blesav."
02:10
See, they asked me what I wanted to be,
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Vidite, oni su me pitali
šta želim da budem,
šta želim da budem,
02:12
then told me what not to be.
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a onda rekli šta ne mogu da budem.
02:15
And I wasn't the only one.
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I nisam bio jedini.
02:17
We were being told that we somehow must become
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Govoreno nam je da nekako
moramo da postanemo
moramo da postanemo
02:19
what we are not, sacrificing what we are
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ono što nismo,
žrtvujući ono što jesmo
žrtvujući ono što jesmo
02:21
to inherit the masquerade of what we will be.
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da nasledimo maskaradu
onoga što ćemo biti.
onoga što ćemo biti.
02:24
I was being told to accept the identity
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Rečeno mi je da prihvatim identitet
02:26
that others will give me.
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koji će mi drugi dodeliti.
02:29
And I wondered, what made my dreams so easy to dismiss?
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I pitao sam se, zašto je tako lako
odbaciti moje snove?
odbaciti moje snove?
02:33
Granted, my dreams are shy,
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Doduše, moji snovi su stidljivi,
02:36
because they're Canadian. (Laughter)
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jer su kanadski.
(Smeh)
(Smeh)
02:41
My dreams are self-conscious and overly apologetic.
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Moji snovi su samosvesni
i preterano pravdalački.
i preterano pravdalački.
02:45
They're standing alone at the high school dance,
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Stoje sami na maturskoj večeri
02:47
and they've never been kissed.
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i nikada se nisu ljubili.
02:49
See, my dreams got called names too.
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Vidite, moje snove su takođe vređali.
02:52
Silly. Foolish. Impossible.
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Blesavo. Budalasto. Nemoguće.
02:56
But I kept dreaming.
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Ali sam nastavio da sanjarim.
02:58
I was going to be a wrestler. I had it all figured out.
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Trebalo je da budem rvač.
Sve sam smislio.
Sve sam smislio.
03:00
I was going to be The Garbage Man.
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Trebalo je da se zovem Smećar.
03:03
My finishing move was going to be The Trash Compactor.
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Moj završni potez je trebao da bude
Kompaktor smeća.
Kompaktor smeća.
03:07
My saying was going to be, "I'm taking out the trash!"
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Moje geslo je trebalo da bude:
"Iznosim smeće!"
"Iznosim smeće!"
03:11
(Laughter) (Applause)
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(Smeh)
(Aplauz)
(Aplauz)
03:16
And then this guy, Duke "The Dumpster" Droese,
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I onda mi taj lik,
Djuk "Kontejner" Drozi,
Djuk "Kontejner" Drozi,
03:21
stole my entire shtick.
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ukrade ceo štos.
03:25
I was crushed, as if by a trash compactor.
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Bio sam slomljen,
kao da me slomio kompaktor smeća.
kao da me slomio kompaktor smeća.
03:31
I thought to myself, "What now? Where do I turn?"
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Pomislio sam:
"Šta sada? Kako dalje?"
"Šta sada? Kako dalje?"
03:34
Poetry.
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Poezija.
03:37
Like a boomerang, the thing I loved came back to me.
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Kao bumerang,
stvar koju sam voleo mi se vratila.
stvar koju sam voleo mi se vratila.
03:41
One of the first lines of poetry I can remember writing
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Jedan od prvih stihova poezije
koji se sećam da sam napisao
koji se sećam da sam napisao
03:43
was in response to a world that demanded I hate myself.
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je bio odgovor svetu koji
zahteva da mrzim sebe.
zahteva da mrzim sebe.
03:46
From age 15 to 18, I hated myself
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Od 15. do 18. godine,
mrzeo sam sebe
mrzeo sam sebe
03:49
for becoming the thing that I loathed: a bully.
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jer sam postao ono
što sam prezirao: siledžija.
što sam prezirao: siledžija.
03:53
When I was 19, I wrote,
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Kad sam imao 19 godina,
napisao sam:
napisao sam:
03:56
"I will love myself despite the ease with which
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"Voleću sebe uprkos lakoći kojom
03:58
I lean toward the opposite."
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naginjem suprotnom."
04:01
Standing up for yourself doesn't have to mean
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Zauzeti se za sebe
ne mora da znači
ne mora da znači
04:05
embracing violence.
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prigrliti nasilje.
04:07
When I was a kid,
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Kad sam bio klinac,
04:09
I traded in homework assignments for friendship,
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trampio sam domaće zadatke
za prijateljstva,
za prijateljstva,
04:12
then gave each friend a late slip for never showing up on time,
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a zatim delio izgovore prijateljima
za stalna kašnjenja
za stalna kašnjenja
04:14
and in most cases not at all.
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ili u većini slučajeva za nepojavljivanja.
04:17
I gave myself a hall pass to get through each broken promise.
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I davao sebi školske propusnice da
prebrodim svako prekršeno obećanje.
prebrodim svako prekršeno obećanje.
04:20
And I remember this plan, born out of frustration
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Sećam se jednog plana,
skovanog iz frustracije
skovanog iz frustracije
04:22
from a kid who kept calling me "Yogi,"
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zbog jednog klinca koji me
stalno zvao "Jogi"
stalno zvao "Jogi"
04:24
then pointed at my tummy and said, "Too many picnic baskets."
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i pokazivao prstom na moj stomak
govoreći: "Previše piknik korpi".
govoreći: "Previše piknik korpi".
04:28
Turns out it's not that hard to trick someone,
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Ispada da nije teško prevariti nekog
04:30
and one day before class, I said,
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i jednog dana pre časa, rekao sam:
04:32
"Yeah, you can copy my homework,"
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"Da, možeš da prepišeš moj domaći",
04:34
and I gave him all the wrong answers
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i dao sam mu sve pogrešne odgovore
04:36
that I'd written down the night before.
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koje sam napisao noć pre.
04:38
He got his paper back expecting a near-perfect score,
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Vraćen mu je rad,
i očekujući skoro savršen rezultat,
i očekujući skoro savršen rezultat,
04:40
and couldn't believe it when he looked across the room at me and held up a zero.
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nije mogao da veruje kada me pogledao
preko učionice i pokazao nulu.
preko učionice i pokazao nulu.
04:44
I knew I didn't have to hold up my paper of 28 out of 30,
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Znao sam da ne moram da
pokažem svoj rad sa 28 od 30,
pokažem svoj rad sa 28 od 30,
04:47
but my satisfaction was complete when he looked at me, puzzled,
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ali moje zadovoljstvo je bilo potpuno
kada me pogledao, zbunjen,
kada me pogledao, zbunjen,
04:50
and I thought to myself, "Smarter than the average bear, motherfucker."
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i pomislio sam:
"Pametniji nego prosečan medved, kretenu".
"Pametniji nego prosečan medved, kretenu".
04:54
(Laughter) (Applause)
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(Smeh)
(Aplauz)
(Aplauz)
05:02
This is who I am.
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Ovo sam ja.
05:05
This is how I stand up for myself.
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Ovako se zauzimam za sebe.
05:09
When I was a kid,
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Kad sam bio klinac,
05:11
I used to think that pork chops and karate chops were the same thing.
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mislio sam da su svinjski odresci
i karate pokreti ista stvar.
i karate pokreti ista stvar.
05:15
I thought they were both pork chops.
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Mislio sam da oba pojma
znače krmenadla.
znače krmenadla.
05:18
And because my grandmother thought it was cute,
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I pošto je moja baka mislila
da je to slatko
da je to slatko
05:20
and because they were my favorite, she let me keep doing it.
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i pošto su to bile moje omiljene stvari,
pustila me je da u to verujem.
pustila me je da u to verujem.
05:23
Not really a big deal.
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Nije baš velika stvar.
05:24
One day, before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees,
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Jednog dana, pre nego što sam otkrio da
debela deca nisu stvorena da se penju na drveće,
debela deca nisu stvorena da se penju na drveće,
05:28
I fell out of a tree and bruised the right side of my body.
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pao sam sa drveta i izudarao
desnu stranu tela.
desnu stranu tela.
05:31
I didn't want to tell my grandmother about it
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Nisam hteo da kažem baki
05:33
because I was scared I'd get in trouble for playing somewhere I shouldn't have been.
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mislio sam da ću biti u nevolji jer sam
se igrao gde nisam smeo.
se igrao gde nisam smeo.
05:36
A few days later, the gym teacher noticed the bruise,
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Nekoliko dana kasnije,
nastavnik fizičkog je primetio modrice
nastavnik fizičkog je primetio modrice
05:38
and I got sent to the principal's office.
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i bio sam poslat kod direktora.
05:41
From there, I was sent to another small room
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Odatle sam bio poslat
u još jednu malu sobu
u još jednu malu sobu
05:42
with a really nice lady who asked me all kinds of questions about my life at home.
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sa jako finom ženom koja me pitala
svakojaka pitanja u vezi sa mojim životom kod kuće.
svakojaka pitanja u vezi sa mojim životom kod kuće.
05:48
I saw no reason to lie.
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Nisam video razloga da lažem.
05:50
As far as I was concerned, life was pretty good.
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Koliko se meni činilo,
imao sam poprilično dobar život.
imao sam poprilično dobar život.
05:52
I told her, whenever I'm sad, my grandmother gives me karate chops.
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Rekao sam joj, kad god sam tužan,
moja baka mi dalje karate udarce.
moja baka mi dalje karate udarce.
05:56
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
06:04
This led to a full-scale investigation,
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To je dovelo do potpune istrage,
06:08
and I was removed from the house for three days,
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a ja sam bio uklonjen iz kuće
naredna tri dana,
naredna tri dana,
06:11
until they finally decided to ask how I got the bruises.
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dok nisu napokon odlučili da me pitaju
kako sam dobio modrice.
kako sam dobio modrice.
06:15
News of this silly little story quickly spread through the school,
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Vest o ovoj maloj smešnoj priči
brzo se proširila kroz školu
brzo se proširila kroz školu
06:17
and I earned my first nickname:
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i zaradio sam svoj prvi nadimak:
06:20
Porkchop.
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Krmenadla.
06:22
To this day, I hate pork chops.
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Do današnjeg dana,
mrzim kmenadle.
mrzim kmenadle.
06:29
I'm not the only kid who grew up this way,
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Nisam jedini klinac koji je
odrastao na ovaj način,
odrastao na ovaj način,
06:31
surrounded by people who used to say that rhyme
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okružen ljudima koji su
govorili onu rimu
govorili onu rimu
06:34
about sticks and stones,
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o štapovima i kamenju,
06:37
as if broken bones hurt more than the names we got called,
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kao da polomljene kosti bole više
od imena kojim su nas nazivali,
od imena kojim su nas nazivali,
06:39
and we got called them all.
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a bili smo nazivanim svim mogućim.
06:41
So we grew up believing no one would ever fall in love with us,
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Odrasli smo verujući da se niko
nikada neće zaljubiti u nas,
nikada neće zaljubiti u nas,
06:45
that we'd be lonely forever,
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da ćemo zauvek biti usamljeni,
06:47
that we'd never meet someone to make us feel like the sun
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da nikada nećemo upoznati nekoga zbog
koga ćemo se osećati kao Sunce,
koga ćemo se osećati kao Sunce,
06:50
was something they built for us in their toolshed.
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to je bilo nešto što su
gradili za nas u šupi.
gradili za nas u šupi.
06:52
So broken heartstrings bled the blues, and we tried to empty ourselves so we'd feel nothing.
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Tako su slomljena srca krvarila bluz i pokušali smo
da se ispraznimo da ne osećamo išta.
da se ispraznimo da ne osećamo išta.
06:56
Don't tell me that hurt less than a broken bone,
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Nemoj mi reći da to boli manje
od polomljene kosti,
od polomljene kosti,
06:58
that an ingrown life is something surgeons can cut away,
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da je život u osami nešto što
hirurzi mogu da odstrane,
hirurzi mogu da odstrane,
07:01
that there's no way for it to metastasize; it does.
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da nema načina da se razvije;
postoji način.
postoji način.
07:04
She was eight years old,
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Imala je osam godina,
07:06
our first day of grade three when she got called ugly.
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naš prvi dan trećeg razreda
kada su je nazvali ružnom.
kada su je nazvali ružnom.
07:09
We both got moved to the back of class
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Oboje smo bili premešteni
u zadnji deo učionice
u zadnji deo učionice
07:12
so we would stop getting bombarded by spitballs.
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da bi nas prestali
bombardovati pljucama.
bombardovati pljucama.
07:14
But the school halls were a battleground.
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Ali školski hodnici su bili
bojna polja.
bojna polja.
07:16
We found ourselves outnumbered day after wretched day.
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Bili smo brojčano nadjačani
svakog prokletog dana.
svakog prokletog dana.
07:19
We used to stay inside for recess, because outside was worse.
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Ostajali smo unutra za vreme odmora,
jer je napolju bilo još gore.
jer je napolju bilo još gore.
07:22
Outside, we'd have to rehearse running away,
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Napolju, morali smo da
vežbamo bežanje
vežbamo bežanje
07:24
or learn to stay still like statues, giving no clues that we were there.
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ili da naučimo da budemo mirni kao kipovi,
da ne dajemo znake da smo bili tamo.
da ne dajemo znake da smo bili tamo.
07:28
In grade five, they taped a sign to the front of her desk
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U petom razredu, zalepili su znak
na prednji deo njene klupe
na prednji deo njene klupe
07:31
that read, "Beware of dog."
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na kojem je stajalo:
"Čuvaj se psa".
"Čuvaj se psa".
07:33
To this day, despite a loving husband, she doesn't think she's beautiful
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Do današnjeg dana, uprkos mužu punom ljubavi,
ne oseća se lepom
ne oseća se lepom
07:38
because of a birthmark that takes up a little less than half her face.
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zbog belega koji zauzima malo manje
od polovine njenog lica.
od polovine njenog lica.
07:42
Kids used to say, "She looks like a wrong answer
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Klinci su govorili:
"Izgleda kao pogrešan odgovor
"Izgleda kao pogrešan odgovor
07:44
that someone tried to erase, but couldn't quite get the job done."
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koji su probali da izbrišu,
ali nisu to baš dobro odradili".
ali nisu to baš dobro odradili".
07:47
And they'll never understand that she's raising two kids
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Nikada neće razumeti da ona
odgaja dvoje dece
odgaja dvoje dece
07:50
whose definition of beauty begins with the word "Mom,"
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čija definicija lepote počinje
sa rečima "Mama",
sa rečima "Mama",
07:55
because they see her heart before they see her skin,
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zato što oni vide njeno srce
pre njene kože,
pre njene kože,
07:57
because she's only ever always been amazing.
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jer je ona oduvek jednostavno
bila neverovatna.
bila neverovatna.
07:58
He was a broken branch grafted onto a different family tree,
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On je bio polomljena grančica nakalemljena
na drugačije porodično stablo,
na drugačije porodično stablo,
08:04
adopted,
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usvojen,
08:06
not because his parents opted for a different destiny.
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ne zato što su mu se roditelji
opredelili za drugačiju sudbinu.
opredelili za drugačiju sudbinu.
08:10
He was three when he became a mixed drink
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Imao je tri kada je postao
mešano piće
mešano piće
08:12
of one part left alone and two parts tragedy,
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jedan deo ostavljen sam
i dva dela tragedije,
i dva dela tragedije,
08:15
started therapy in eighth grade,
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počeo je sa terapijom
u osmom razredu,
u osmom razredu,
08:17
had a personality made up of tests and pills,
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imao ličnost sačinjenu
od testova i pilula,
od testova i pilula,
08:20
lived like the uphills were mountains and the downhills were cliffs,
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živeo je kao da su uzbrdice planine
a nizbrdice litice,
a nizbrdice litice,
08:24
four fifths suicidal, a tidal wave of antidepressants,
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četiri petine samoubica,
cunami antidepresanata,
cunami antidepresanata,
08:27
and an adolescence being called "Popper,"
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i mladost zvana "Gutač",
08:30
one part because of the pills,
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jednim delom zbog pilula,
08:32
99 parts because of the cruelty.
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99 delova zbog okrutnosti.
08:35
He tried to kill himself in grade 10
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Probao je da se ubije u 10. razredu
08:38
when a kid who could still go home to Mom and Dad
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jer je klinac koji je imao mogućnosti
da ode kući mami i tati
da ode kući mami i tati
08:40
had the audacity to tell him, "Get over it."
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imao smelosti da mu kaže:
"Pređi preko toga".
"Pređi preko toga".
08:44
As if depression is something that could be remedied
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Kao da je depresija nešto
što se može lečiti
što se može lečiti
08:46
by any of the contents found in a first aid kit.
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stvarima iz kutije za prvu pomoć.
08:49
To this day, he is a stick of TNT lit from both ends,
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Do današnjeg dana,
on je štap dinamita upaljen sa oba kraja,
on je štap dinamita upaljen sa oba kraja,
08:52
could describe to you in detail the way the sky bends
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mogao bi da opiše u detalje
kako se nebo krivi
kako se nebo krivi
08:55
in the moment before it's about to fall,
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u momentima pre nego li padne,
08:57
and despite an army of friends who all call him an inspiration,
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uprkos armiji prijatelja koji ga
nazivaju inspiracijom,
nazivaju inspiracijom,
09:00
he remains a conversation piece between people who can't understand
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ostaje tema razgovora između ljudi
koji ne mogu da razumeju
koji ne mogu da razumeju
09:03
sometimes being drug-free has less to do with addiction
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da ponekad biti čist od droge
ima manje veze sa zavisnošću
ima manje veze sa zavisnošću
09:06
and more to do with sanity.
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a više sa prisebnošću.
09:09
We weren't the only kids who grew up this way.
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Nismo bili jedini klinci koji su
odrasli na ovaj način.
odrasli na ovaj način.
09:12
To this day, kids are still being called names.
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Do dana današnjeg,
decu i dalje nazivaju pogrdnim imenima.
decu i dalje nazivaju pogrdnim imenima.
09:16
The classics were, "Hey stupid," "Hey spaz."
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Klasika je, "Hej glupane",
"Hej trzajko".
"Hej trzajko".
09:21
Seems like every school has an arsenal of names
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Izgleda da svaka škola ima
arsenal imena
arsenal imena
09:24
getting updated every year,
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ažuriran svake godine,
09:26
and if a kid breaks in a school and no one around chooses to hear,
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ako se klinac slomi u školi i niko
u okolini ne odluči da to čuje,
u okolini ne odluči da to čuje,
09:29
do they make a sound?
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da li će načiniti zvuk?
09:31
Are they just background noise from a soundtrack stuck
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Da li su to samo pozadinski zvuci
sa trake zaglavljeni
sa trake zaglavljeni
09:33
on repeat when people say things like, "Kids can be cruel."
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na ponavljanju kada ljudi kažu stvari kao:
"Deca mogu biti okrutna".
"Deca mogu biti okrutna".
09:38
Every school was a big top circus tent,
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Svaka škola je bila veliki cirkuski šator,
09:41
and the pecking order went from acrobats to lion tamers,
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i raspored kljucanja je išao
od akrobata do ukrotitelja lavova,
od akrobata do ukrotitelja lavova,
09:44
from clowns to carnies, all of these miles ahead of who we were.
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od klovnova do učesnika,
svi oni kilometrima ispred onoga što smo mi bili.
svi oni kilometrima ispred onoga što smo mi bili.
09:47
We were freaks -- lobster claw boys and bearded ladies,
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Bili smo nakaze - dečaci sa klještima jastoga
i bradate žene,
i bradate žene,
09:51
oddities juggling depression and loneliness,
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čudaci koji žonglirajući depresiju
i usamljenost,
i usamljenost,
09:54
playing solitaire, spin the bottle,
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igraju pasijans,
zavrtimo flašu,
zavrtimo flašu,
09:55
trying to kiss the wounded parts of ourselves and heal,
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pokušavamo da poljubimo svoje
ranjene delove i da se izlečimo,
ranjene delove i da se izlečimo,
09:58
but at night, while the others slept,
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ali noćima,
dok su drugi spavali,
dok su drugi spavali,
10:01
we kept walking the tightrope.
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mi smo šetali po zategnutom užetu.
10:03
It was practice, and yes, some of us fell.
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Bila je to vežba, i da,
neki od nas su pali.
neki od nas su pali.
10:06
But I want to tell them that all of this
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Ali želim da im kažem
da je sve ovo
da je sve ovo
10:10
is just debris left over when we finally decide to smash
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samo otpad preostao kada budemo
konačno odlučili da razbijemo
konačno odlučili da razbijemo
10:14
all the things we thought we used to be,
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sve one stvari koje smo
mislili da smo bili
mislili da smo bili
10:17
and if you can't see anything beautiful about yourself,
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i ako ne možeš videti
ništa lepo u sebi,
ništa lepo u sebi,
10:20
get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer,
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nabavi bolje ogledalo, pogledaj malo bliže,
zuri malo duže,
zuri malo duže,
10:25
because there's something inside you that made you keep trying
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jer ima nešto u tebi što te
je teralo da pokušavaš
je teralo da pokušavaš
10:28
despite everyone who told you to quit.
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urpkos svima koji su ti rekli
da prestaneš.
da prestaneš.
10:30
You built a cast around your broken heart and signed it yourself.
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Stavio si gips oko polomljenog srca
i potpisao ga sam.
i potpisao ga sam.
10:32
You signed it, "They were wrong."
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Potpisao ga sa:
"Nisu bili u pravu".
"Nisu bili u pravu".
10:34
Because maybe you didn't belong to a group or a clique.
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Možda nisi pripadao nekoj
grupi ili skupini.
grupi ili skupini.
10:37
Maybe they decided to pick you last for basketball or everything.
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Možda su odlučili da te biraju poslednjeg
za košarku ili za sve.
za košarku ili za sve.
10:40
Maybe you used to bring bruises and broken teeth to show-and-tell, but never told,
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Možda si donosio modrice i polomljene zube
na prezentacije, ali nikad nisi rekao,
na prezentacije, ali nikad nisi rekao,
10:44
because how can you hold your ground
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jer kako bi mogao da se braniš
10:45
if everyone around you wants to bury you beneath it?
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kada te svako želi zakopati?
10:47
You have to believe that they were wrong.
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Moraš da veruješ da su
svi oni pogrešili.
svi oni pogrešili.
10:52
They have to be wrong.
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Mora da nisu u pravu.
10:54
Why else would we still be here?
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Zašto bismo još inače bili ovde?
10:58
We grew up learning to cheer on the underdog
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Odrasli smo učeći da navijamo
za gubitnike
za gubitnike
11:01
because we see ourselves in them.
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jer vidimo sebe u njima.
11:03
We stem from a root planted in the belief
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Mi rastemo iz korena zasađenog
u verovanju
u verovanju
11:05
that we are not what we were called.
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da nismo ono što nas nazivaju.
11:08
We are not abandoned cars stalled out
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Nismo napušteni povučeni auti
11:10
and sitting empty on some highway,
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koji stoje prazno na
nekom autoputu,
nekom autoputu,
11:12
and if in some way we are, don't worry.
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a i da u neku ruku jesmo,
bez brige.
bez brige.
11:14
We only got out to walk and get gas.
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Samo smo izašli da se prošetamo
i kupimo gorivo.
i kupimo gorivo.
11:16
We are graduating members from the class of We Made It,
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Mi smo maturanti razreda
Uspeli smo,
Uspeli smo,
11:20
not the faded echoes of voices crying out,
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ne bledeći odjeci plačućih
glasova iznutra,
glasova iznutra,
11:22
"Names will never hurt me."
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"Imena me nikada neće povrediti".
11:26
Of course they did.
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Naravno da jesu.
11:31
But our lives will only ever always
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Ali naši životi će jedino biti
11:33
continue to be a balancing act
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i dalje čin balansiranja
11:36
that has less to do with pain
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koje ima manje veze
sa bolom
sa bolom
11:38
and more to do with beauty.
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a više sa lepotom.
11:42
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Shane Koyczan - PoetShane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world.
Why you should listen
Shane Koyczan is a poet, author and performer. He performed at the opening ceremonies of the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics, where an audience of more than 1 billion people worldwide heard his piece “We Are More.”
He has published three books: Stickboy, Our Deathbeds Will Be Thirsty and Visiting Hours, selected by both the Guardian and the Globe and Mail for their Best Books of the Year lists.
In 2012, he released a full-length album with his band Shane Koyczan and the Short Story Long. The album includes the viral hit “To This Day,” which explores the anguish of anyone who grew up feeling different or just a little bit alone. To bring visual life to this image-rich poem, Koyczan invited artists from around the world to contribute 20-second segments of animation to the project. Posted on YouTube on February 19, 2013, by the close of the month the video had been viewed 6 million times.
Shane Koyczan | Speaker | TED.com