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Shane Koyczan: To This Day ... for the bullied and beautiful
夏恩．科伊贊（Shane Koyczan）：「時至今日」…給霸凌的受害者和人間之美
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藉由幽默又震撼的轉折，詩人 夏恩．科伊贊（Shane Koyczan）談到了熱門議題，年少與…不同是什麼樣子。「時至今日」是他對霸凌的所創作的有聲詩，搭配著令成千上萬人為之著迷的影片（由 80 位網路上的動畫師共同創作）。在此， 他在小提琴家漢娜．愛普森（Hannah Epperson）伴奏之下，展現了往事歷歷在目的現場完美演出。
Shane Koyczan - Poet
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio
Shane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world. Full bio
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00:21
There's so many of you.
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這裡好多人啊
00:28
When I was a kid,
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當我還是小孩子的時候
00:30
I hid my heart under the bed, because my mother said,
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我把我的心藏在床底下，因為我媽媽曾對我說
00:33
"If you're not careful, someday someone's going to break it."
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「如果你不夠小心的話，總有一天會有人破壞它。」
00:37
Take it from me. Under the bed is not a good hiding spot.
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聽我的，床底下不是一個藏東西的好地方
00:40
I know because I've been shot down so many times
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我會知道是因為我受傷過很多次
00:42
I get altitude sickness just from standing up for myself.
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我得到高山症就因為我為自己挺身而出
00:46
But that's what we were told.
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但這是別人常常告誡我們的
00:49
Stand up for yourself.
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為自己而戰
00:51
And that's hard to do if you don't know who you are.
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如果你不知道自己的份量的話，這是很難做到的
00:54
We were expected to define ourselves at such an early age,
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我們在很小的時候就被期望能自我定義
00:57
and if we didn't do it, others did it for us.
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而如果我們沒有如此做的話，其他人會幫我們做
01:01
Geek. Fatty. Slut. Fag.
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怪胎、死胖子、婊子、娘泡
01:06
And at the same time we were being told what we were,
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在此同時，我們被告知我們是甚麼
01:09
we were being asked,
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我們會被問
01:10
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
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「你長大之後想要做甚麼？」
01:13
I always thought that was an unfair question.
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我一直覺得這是個不公平的問題
01:15
It presupposes that we can't be what we already are.
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它的先決條件是我們不能成為我們已經是的人
01:19
We were kids.
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我們是小孩子
01:20
When I was a kid, I wanted to be a man.
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當我還是小孩子時，我想要成為一個男人
01:24
I wanted a registered retirement savings plan
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我想要有我自己的退休儲蓄計畫
01:26
that would keep me in candy long enough to make old age sweet.
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這可以讓我生活無憂一段夠長的時間
讓我老年生活依然甜美
讓我老年生活依然甜美
01:30
When I was a kid, I wanted to shave.
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當我還是小孩子時，我想要刮鬍子
01:33
Now, not so much.
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現在呢，就不那麼想了
01:36
When I was eight, I wanted to be a marine biologist.
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當我八歲的時候，我想要成為一個海洋生物學家
01:40
When I was nine, I saw the movie "Jaws,"
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當我九歲的時候，我看了電影「大白鯊」
01:42
and thought to myself, "No, thank you."
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我那時就自己想「算了，敬謝不敏。」
01:45
And when I was 10, I was told that my parents left because they didn't want me.
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當我十歲時
我被告知我的雙親離開了，因為他們不想要我
我被告知我的雙親離開了，因為他們不想要我
01:49
When I was 11, I wanted to be left alone.
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當我十一歲時，我只想要獨自生活
01:50
When I was 12, I wanted to die. When I was 13, I wanted to kill a kid.
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當我十二歲時，我想去死
當我十三歲時，我想要殺一個小孩
當我十三歲時，我想要殺一個小孩
01:54
When I was 14, I was asked to seriously consider a career path.
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當我十四歲時，我被要求審慎的考慮我的生涯道路
01:58
I said, "I'd like to be a writer."
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我當時說：「我想要成為一名作家。」
02:01
And they said, "Choose something realistic."
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然後他們說：「選個實際一點的。」
02:04
So I said, "Professional wrestler."
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所以我就說：「職業摔角手。」
02:08
And they said, "Don't be stupid."
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他們又說：「別鬧了。」
02:10
See, they asked me what I wanted to be,
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看吧，他們問我想要成為甚麼
02:12
then told me what not to be.
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然後又否決我們的決定
02:15
And I wasn't the only one.
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而且我不是唯一的案例
02:17
We were being told that we somehow must become
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我們被告知，不知何故的，我們必須成為
02:19
what we are not, sacrificing what we are
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我們不是的那種人，犧牲我們已經成為的人
02:21
to inherit the masquerade of what we will be.
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去繼承我們將成為的化妝舞會上的一員
02:24
I was being told to accept the identity
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我曾被告知要去接受
02:26
that others will give me.
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其他人要給我的身分
02:29
And I wondered, what made my dreams so easy to dismiss?
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然後我就很困惑
是甚麼讓我的夢想這麼輕易的就被打發了？
是甚麼讓我的夢想這麼輕易的就被打發了？
02:33
Granted, my dreams are shy,
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告訴你們，我的夢想很害羞
02:36
because they're Canadian. (Laughter)
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因為它們是加拿大人（笑聲）
02:41
My dreams are self-conscious and overly apologetic.
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我的夢想叫做自我意識和過度歉疚
02:45
They're standing alone at the high school dance,
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它們站在高中舞會的角落
02:47
and they've never been kissed.
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而且它們從來沒被親吻過
02:49
See, my dreams got called names too.
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你們看，我的夢想也被取了綽號
02:52
Silly. Foolish. Impossible.
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愚蠢、傻子、不可能
02:56
But I kept dreaming.
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但我仍舊夢想著
02:58
I was going to be a wrestler. I had it all figured out.
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我要成為一個摔角手
我已經全都想好了
我已經全都想好了
03:00
I was going to be The Garbage Man.
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我要取一個外號叫做「垃圾處理員」
03:03
My finishing move was going to be The Trash Compactor.
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我的必殺技叫做垃圾搗碎機
03:07
My saying was going to be, "I'm taking out the trash!"
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我的專屬台詞會是「我要出去倒垃圾了！」
03:11
(Laughter) (Applause)
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（掌聲）（笑聲）
03:16
And then this guy, Duke "The Dumpster" Droese,
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而這個傢伙，杜克．垃圾車．杜魯斯
03:21
stole my entire shtick.
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偷走了我全部的創意
03:25
I was crushed, as if by a trash compactor.
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我的心整個粉碎了，就像是被垃圾搗碎機搗過一樣
03:31
I thought to myself, "What now? Where do I turn?"
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我當時就自己想：「現在怎麼辦？我要改變成為甚麼？」
03:34
Poetry.
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寫詩
03:37
Like a boomerang, the thing I loved came back to me.
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就像回力鏢一樣，我所愛的東西又回到了我身邊
03:41
One of the first lines of poetry I can remember writing
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我記得並寫下的其中一首詩的首句
03:43
was in response to a world that demanded I hate myself.
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是反映當時我恨透自己的那個世界
03:46
From age 15 to 18, I hated myself
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在我15到18歲時，我恨透了我自己
03:49
for becoming the thing that I loathed: a bully.
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因為我變成了我厭惡的東西：一個惡霸
03:53
When I was 19, I wrote,
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當我19歲時，我寫道
03:56
"I will love myself despite the ease with which
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「我會愛我自己，儘管我可以很輕鬆地
03:58
I lean toward the opposite."
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將自己倒向我所恨的一方。」
04:01
Standing up for yourself doesn't have to mean
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為自己而戰不一定是代表
04:05
embracing violence.
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要擁抱暴力
04:07
When I was a kid,
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當我還是小孩子時
04:09
I traded in homework assignments for friendship,
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我利用家庭作業當作交易友誼的籌碼
04:12
then gave each friend a late slip for never showing up on time,
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然後給每個朋友一張
不用準時赴約的約會連到單
不用準時赴約的約會連到單
04:14
and in most cases not at all.
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這是在絕大多數的情況下
並不是每次都會如此
並不是每次都會如此
04:17
I gave myself a hall pass to get through each broken promise.
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每次失約的時候
我就能祭出我的放風通行證
我就能祭出我的放風通行證
04:20
And I remember this plan, born out of frustration
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然後我記得這個計畫，是從挫折中激發出來的
04:22
from a kid who kept calling me "Yogi,"
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從一個小孩一直叫我「瑜伽熊」 開始
04:24
then pointed at my tummy and said, "Too many picnic baskets."
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接著指著我的肚子說：「這裡有好多野餐盒喔！」
04:28
Turns out it's not that hard to trick someone,
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原來要整一個人不是一件困難的事
04:30
and one day before class, I said,
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某天在上課前，我說：
04:32
"Yeah, you can copy my homework,"
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「好啊，你可以抄我的作業。」
04:34
and I gave him all the wrong answers
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然後我給他全是錯的答案
04:36
that I'd written down the night before.
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那是我在前一晚先寫下來的
04:38
He got his paper back expecting a near-perfect score,
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當他拿回他的作業時，滿心期望著那近乎完美的分數
04:40
and couldn't believe it when he looked across the room at me and held up a zero.
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當他的視線穿越整個教室看著我的時候
他手裡拿著零分的作業，臉上充滿不可置信的神情
他手裡拿著零分的作業，臉上充滿不可置信的神情
04:44
I knew I didn't have to hold up my paper of 28 out of 30,
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我知道沒有把滿分30分
而我得到28分的作業舉起來的必要
而我得到28分的作業舉起來的必要
04:47
but my satisfaction was complete when he looked at me, puzzled,
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但當他滿臉疑惑的看著我時，我的滿足感充斥著我
04:50
and I thought to myself, "Smarter than the average bear, motherfucker."
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我心裡想：「我比一般的熊聰明嘛，混帳東西。」
04:54
(Laughter) (Applause)
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（笑聲）（掌聲）
05:02
This is who I am.
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這就是我
05:05
This is how I stand up for myself.
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這是我為自己而戰的方式
05:09
When I was a kid,
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當我還是小孩子時
05:11
I used to think that pork chops and karate chops were the same thing.
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我當時還以為豬排 (pork chops) 和
空手道手刀 (karate chops) 是一樣的東西
空手道手刀 (karate chops) 是一樣的東西
05:15
I thought they were both pork chops.
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我以為他們都是豬排那一類的
05:18
And because my grandmother thought it was cute,
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因為我的祖母覺得這個想法很可愛
05:20
and because they were my favorite, she let me keep doing it.
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也因為這兩樣都是我最愛的東西，所以她不去糾正我
05:23
Not really a big deal.
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這不是甚麼大事
05:24
One day, before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees,
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某一天，在我了解到胖小孩對於爬樹不在行之前
05:28
I fell out of a tree and bruised the right side of my body.
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我從樹上掉了下來
並造成我右半身挫傷
並造成我右半身挫傷
05:31
I didn't want to tell my grandmother about it
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我那時不想要告訴我祖母這件事
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because I was scared I'd get in trouble for playing somewhere I shouldn't have been.
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因為我怕在我不該出現的地方玩耍會帶來麻煩
05:36
A few days later, the gym teacher noticed the bruise,
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幾天過後，體育老師注意到了我的傷口
05:38
and I got sent to the principal's office.
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然後我就被叫到校長室去了
05:41
From there, I was sent to another small room
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又從那裏被送到另一間小房間去
05:42
with a really nice lady who asked me all kinds of questions about my life at home.
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那裏有位很友善的女士
問我各式各樣關於我家庭生活的問題
問我各式各樣關於我家庭生活的問題
05:48
I saw no reason to lie.
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我當時覺得沒有說謊的必要
05:50
As far as I was concerned, life was pretty good.
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就我有記憶以來，那時的生活滿不錯的
05:52
I told her, whenever I'm sad, my grandmother gives me karate chops.
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我告訴她，當我難過的時候
我的祖母會賞我一個空手道手刀
我的祖母會賞我一個空手道手刀
05:56
(Laughter)
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（笑聲）
06:04
This led to a full-scale investigation,
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這導致了全面性的調查
06:08
and I was removed from the house for three days,
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我因此被迫離開家裡三天
06:11
until they finally decided to ask how I got the bruises.
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直到他們終於決定問我，我的傷口是怎麼來的
06:15
News of this silly little story quickly spread through the school,
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這個愚蠢的小故事很快地在學校裡傳了開來
06:17
and I earned my first nickname:
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我贏得了第一個綽號
06:20
Porkchop.
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豬排
06:22
To this day, I hate pork chops.
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時至今日，我還是恨透了豬排
06:29
I'm not the only kid who grew up this way,
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我不是唯一一個在這種情況下成長的小孩
06:31
surrounded by people who used to say that rhyme
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成天被那些愛講
06:34
about sticks and stones,
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「棍棒和石頭」順口溜的人圍繞著
（兒童順口溜，意指不要理會言語傷害）
（兒童順口溜，意指不要理會言語傷害）
06:37
as if broken bones hurt more than the names we got called,
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說得好像粉身碎骨所受的傷
比我們被取那些綽號還要來得痛一樣
比我們被取那些綽號還要來得痛一樣
06:39
and we got called them all.
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而且每一種綽號我們都被叫過
06:41
So we grew up believing no one would ever fall in love with us,
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所以當我們長大時，我們深信沒有人會愛我們
06:45
that we'd be lonely forever,
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我們會永遠地孤獨
06:47
that we'd never meet someone to make us feel like the sun
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我們永遠不會遇到一份獨一無二的愛
06:50
was something they built for us in their toolshed.
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就像是有個人會在工具間裡
為我們打造專屬的太陽
為我們打造專屬的太陽
06:52
So broken heartstrings bled the blues, and we tried to empty ourselves so we'd feel nothing.
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因此，斷了的心弦流下憂鬱的鮮血
我們試著讓自己放空，才不會有任何受傷的感覺
我們試著讓自己放空，才不會有任何受傷的感覺
06:56
Don't tell me that hurt less than a broken bone,
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不要告訴我，那種傷害沒有粉身碎骨來得痛
06:58
that an ingrown life is something surgeons can cut away,
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不要告訴我，內心世界所受的傷害是可以用手術切除的
07:01
that there's no way for it to metastasize; it does.
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不要告訴我，這種傷害是不會擴散的
它會的
它會的
07:04
She was eight years old,
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她，當時是個 8 歲大的小女孩
07:06
our first day of grade three when she got called ugly.
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在我們升三年級的第一天，她被人家叫做醜八怪
07:09
We both got moved to the back of class
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我們兩個當時必須把座位移到教室的最後面
07:12
so we would stop getting bombarded by spitballs.
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這樣子我們才不會被滿是口水的紙球轟炸
07:14
But the school halls were a battleground.
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但學校走廊是個戰場
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We found ourselves outnumbered day after wretched day.
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悲慘的日子接二連三
我們發現自己寡不敵眾
我們發現自己寡不敵眾
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We used to stay inside for recess, because outside was worse.
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我們習慣待在教室內休息
因為教室外的狀況更糟
因為教室外的狀況更糟
07:22
Outside, we'd have to rehearse running away,
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在教室外，我們必須不斷演練逃跑路線
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or learn to stay still like statues, giving no clues that we were there.
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我們學會像雕像一樣站著不動
讓別人不知道我們在那裏
讓別人不知道我們在那裏
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In grade five, they taped a sign to the front of her desk
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在五年級時，他們在那女孩的桌上貼了一張告示牌
07:31
that read, "Beware of dog."
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上面寫著「小心惡犬」
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To this day, despite a loving husband, she doesn't think she's beautiful
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時至今日，儘管有一個愛她的丈夫
她還是從不承認她自己有多美
她還是從不承認她自己有多美
07:38
because of a birthmark that takes up a little less than half her face.
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因為胎記佈滿她的半個臉龐
07:42
Kids used to say, "She looks like a wrong answer
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小孩們常常說：「她的樣子就像是
07:44
that someone tried to erase, but couldn't quite get the job done."
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有人想把寫錯的答案擦掉，但是卻擦不乾淨。」
07:47
And they'll never understand that she's raising two kids
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而他們永遠也不可能知道
那個女孩現在已經是兩個孩子的媽了
那個女孩現在已經是兩個孩子的媽了
07:50
whose definition of beauty begins with the word "Mom,"
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而這兩個孩子對美麗這個詞的定義
源自於「母親」
源自於「母親」
07:55
because they see her heart before they see her skin,
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因為他們看到的是內在而不是外在
07:57
because she's only ever always been amazing.
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因為母親永遠是世界上最棒的
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He was a broken branch grafted onto a different family tree,
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而這個小男孩，就像是園藝裡被移花接木的樹枝
08:04
adopted,
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他是被領養的
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not because his parents opted for a different destiny.
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並不是因為他的父母選擇了不同的人生
08:10
He was three when he became a mixed drink
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他在 3 歲時的遭遇就像是
08:12
of one part left alone and two parts tragedy,
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一杯由一份遺棄和兩份悲慘所調成的酒
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started therapy in eighth grade,
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他 8 歲時開始接受治療
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had a personality made up of tests and pills,
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無數的測試和藥丸造就了他的人格
08:20
lived like the uphills were mountains and the downhills were cliffs,
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過著就像是向上是峭壁、向下是懸崖
這樣進退兩難的生活
這樣進退兩難的生活
08:24
four fifths suicidal, a tidal wave of antidepressants,
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服用八成是打算自殺的大量抗憂鬱劑
08:27
and an adolescence being called "Popper,"
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還有一個被叫做「藥罐子」的青春期
08:30
one part because of the pills,
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其中 1% 是因為吃藥
08:32
99 parts because of the cruelty.
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99% 是因為現實的殘酷
08:35
He tried to kill himself in grade 10
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他在 10 年級時嘗試自殺
08:38
when a kid who could still go home to Mom and Dad
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當一般的小孩可以回家找父母親尋求慰藉
08:40
had the audacity to tell him, "Get over it."
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而父母可以大膽的對孩子說：「勇於面對問題！」
08:44
As if depression is something that could be remedied
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說得好像憂鬱症是那種可以
08:46
by any of the contents found in a first aid kit.
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隨時從急救包就找到解藥的病
08:49
To this day, he is a stick of TNT lit from both ends,
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時至今日，這男孩就像是兩頭燒的炸藥一樣
08:52
could describe to you in detail the way the sky bends
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說得清楚一點
08:55
in the moment before it's about to fall,
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就像是天要塌下來了的前一秒那樣
08:57
and despite an army of friends who all call him an inspiration,
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儘管有一堆朋友都稱他為鼓舞人心的人
09:00
he remains a conversation piece between people who can't understand
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他仍只是不了解他的人們口裡的
支字片語
支字片語
09:03
sometimes being drug-free has less to do with addiction
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有時候不碰毒品和癮頭無關
09:06
and more to do with sanity.
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而是因為清醒
09:09
We weren't the only kids who grew up this way.
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我們不是唯一在這樣環境成長的小孩
09:12
To this day, kids are still being called names.
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時至今日，仍有小孩被取了難聽的綽號
09:16
The classics were, "Hey stupid," "Hey spaz."
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最經典的有：「嘿，白痴。」「嘿，怪胎。」
09:21
Seems like every school has an arsenal of names
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好像每間學校都有一個綽號工廠
09:24
getting updated every year,
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而且每一年都會持續更新
09:26
and if a kid breaks in a school and no one around chooses to hear,
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如果有個小孩在學校裡受了傷，卻沒有人選擇去聆聽
09:29
do they make a sound?
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這些小孩還會為自己發聲嗎？
09:31
Are they just background noise from a soundtrack stuck
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當人們說著類似：「小孩也是滿殘酷的。」這樣的話
09:33
on repeat when people say things like, "Kids can be cruel."
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難道他們只是跳針唱片的背景雜音嗎？
09:38
Every school was a big top circus tent,
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每間每間學校都是一個大馬戲團帳篷
09:41
and the pecking order went from acrobats to lion tamers,
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而出場順序從雜耍演員到馴獸師
09:44
from clowns to carnies, all of these miles ahead of who we were.
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從小丑到遊戲攤販
我排在這好幾哩長的隊伍中
我排在這好幾哩長的隊伍中
09:47
We were freaks -- lobster claw boys and bearded ladies,
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我們都是怪物
龍蝦男孩（手部病變）和大鬍子女仕
龍蝦男孩（手部病變）和大鬍子女仕
09:51
oddities juggling depression and loneliness,
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怪人們
雜耍著憂鬱和孤單
雜耍著憂鬱和孤單
09:54
playing solitaire, spin the bottle,
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我們表演紙牌戲法，轉轉瓶子
09:55
trying to kiss the wounded parts of ourselves and heal,
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試著去舔拭並治癒我們受傷的部位
09:58
but at night, while the others slept,
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但在夜晚時，當其他人都已沉眠
10:01
we kept walking the tightrope.
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我們還是走在繩索上
10:03
It was practice, and yes, some of us fell.
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這是在練習，而且沒錯，我們其中一些人會摔下去
10:06
But I want to tell them that all of this
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但是我想要告訴他們
10:10
is just debris left over when we finally decide to smash
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這些都只是我們決定要把過往的一切
10:14
all the things we thought we used to be,
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都打碎時，所遺留的殘骸而已
10:17
and if you can't see anything beautiful about yourself,
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如果你看不到自己的美
10:20
get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer,
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就去買一面好一點的鏡子吧
看仔細一點，凝視久一點
看仔細一點，凝視久一點
10:25
because there's something inside you that made you keep trying
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因為在你的內心裡，有個東西
10:28
despite everyone who told you to quit.
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告訴你堅持下去
儘管全世界的人都叫你放棄
儘管全世界的人都叫你放棄
10:30
You built a cast around your broken heart and signed it yourself.
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你要在你受傷的心周圍築一道銅牆鐵壁，並在上面簽名
10:32
You signed it, "They were wrong."
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你簽的是：「他們錯了。」
10:34
Because maybe you didn't belong to a group or a clique.
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因為你可能不屬於一個團體或族群
10:37
Maybe they decided to pick you last for basketball or everything.
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也許他們在分組時會把你當成最後的選擇
10:40
Maybe you used to bring bruises and broken teeth to show-and-tell, but never told,
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也許你在玩真心話大冒險時，總帶著淤青和斷牙
但你從不說出口
但你從不說出口
10:44
because how can you hold your ground
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因為當你身旁的每一個人
都想要挖洞把你埋進去
都想要挖洞把你埋進去
10:45
if everyone around you wants to bury you beneath it?
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你要怎能捍衛自己的地盤？
10:47
You have to believe that they were wrong.
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你必須堅信，他們是錯的
10:52
They have to be wrong.
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他們必須是錯的
10:54
Why else would we still be here?
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否則為什麼我們還會在這裡？
10:58
We grew up learning to cheer on the underdog
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我們在成長的過程裡，學著去鼓勵弱者
11:01
because we see ourselves in them.
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因為我們在那些人之中看到了自我
11:03
We stem from a root planted in the belief
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我們破繭而出
11:05
that we are not what we were called.
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深信我們不是我們所被稱呼的樣子
11:08
We are not abandoned cars stalled out
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我們不是被拋棄在路旁的車子
11:10
and sitting empty on some highway,
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然後就在高速公路上放空
11:12
and if in some way we are, don't worry.
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而如果某方面來說我們是如此的話，不要擔心
11:14
We only got out to walk and get gas.
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我們只要走出車外，找點汽油
11:16
We are graduating members from the class of We Made It,
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我們是「我做得到」課程中的畢業生
11:20
not the faded echoes of voices crying out,
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不是在我們大聲呼喊
11:22
"Names will never hurt me."
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「綽號永遠傷不了我」之後
逐漸消失的迴音
逐漸消失的迴音
11:26
Of course they did.
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那當然會傷你的心
11:31
But our lives will only ever always
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但我們的人生永遠會
11:33
continue to be a balancing act
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面臨要面面俱到的局面
11:36
that has less to do with pain
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然而那與痛苦無關
11:38
and more to do with beauty.
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而是更多美好的事物
11:42
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Shane Koyczan - PoetShane Koyczan makes spoken-word poetry and music. His poem "To This Day" is a powerful story of bullying and survival, illustrated by animators from around the world.
Why you should listen
Shane Koyczan is a poet, author and performer. He performed at the opening ceremonies of the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics, where an audience of more than 1 billion people worldwide heard his piece “We Are More.”
He has published three books: Stickboy, Our Deathbeds Will Be Thirsty and Visiting Hours, selected by both the Guardian and the Globe and Mail for their Best Books of the Year lists.
In 2012, he released a full-length album with his band Shane Koyczan and the Short Story Long. The album includes the viral hit “To This Day,” which explores the anguish of anyone who grew up feeling different or just a little bit alone. To bring visual life to this image-rich poem, Koyczan invited artists from around the world to contribute 20-second segments of animation to the project. Posted on YouTube on February 19, 2013, by the close of the month the video had been viewed 6 million times.
Shane Koyczan | Speaker | TED.com