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Casey Gerald: The gospel of doubt
Kejsi Džerald (Casey Gerald): Jevanđelje sumnje
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Šta da radite kada se verovanja kojih ste se čvrsto držali ispostave kao neistinita? Kada je religija izneverila Kejsija Džeralda, potražio je nešto novo u šta će da veruje - posao, vladu, filantropiju - ali je zatekao samo lažne spasitelje. Ovim dirljivim govorom, Džerald nas podstiče da preispitamo naša verovanja i da prigrlimo neizvesnost.
Casey Gerald - American
Casey Gerald chronicles the current state of the American Dream and explores ways to sustain it for a new generation. Full bio
Casey Gerald chronicles the current state of the American Dream and explores ways to sustain it for a new generation. Full bio
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00:12
There we were,
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Eto nas,
00:15
souls and bodies packed
into a Texas church
into a Texas church
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duše i tela natrpana u crkvi u Teksasu,
00:19
on the last night of our lives.
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poslednje noći naših života.
00:22
Packed into a room just like this,
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Natrpani u prostoriji nalik ovoj,
00:25
but with creaky wooden pews
draped in worn-down red fabric,
draped in worn-down red fabric,
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ali sa škripavim drvenim klupama
presvučenim izlizanom crvenom tkaninom;
presvučenim izlizanom crvenom tkaninom;
00:31
with an organ to my left
and a choir at my back
and a choir at my back
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orgulje su mi s desne strane,
a hor mi je iza leđa
a hor mi je iza leđa
00:33
and a baptism pool
built into the wall behind them.
built into the wall behind them.
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i krstionica je ugrađena u zid iza njih.
00:37
A room like this, nonetheless.
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Prostorija poput ove, u svakom slučaju.
00:41
With the same great feelings of suspense,
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S istim snažnim osećanjem neizvesnosti,
00:45
the same deep hopes for salvation,
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istog dubokog pouzdanja u spas,
00:48
the same sweat in the palms
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istog znoja na dlanovima,
00:50
and the same people
in the back not paying attention.
in the back not paying attention.
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i s istim ljudima u pozadini
koji ne obraćaju pažnju.
koji ne obraćaju pažnju.
00:53
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
00:56
This was December 31, 1999,
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Bio je 31. decembar 1999.
01:01
the night of the Second Coming of Christ,
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noć Hristovog drugog silaska
01:04
and the end of the world as I knew it.
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i kraj poznatog sveta.
01:08
I had turned 12 that year
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Te godine sam napunio 12 godina
01:09
and had reached the age of accountability.
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i dosegao sam doba odgovornosti.
01:12
And once I stopped complaining
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I čim sam prestao da se žalim
01:14
about how unfair it was
that Jesus would return
that Jesus would return
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zbog toga koliko je nepravedno
što se Isus vraća
što se Isus vraća
01:17
as soon as I had to be accountable
for all that I had done,
for all that I had done,
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istog trena kad sam ja postao odgovoran
za sve što sam uradio,
za sve što sam uradio,
01:20
I figured I had better get
my house in order very quickly.
my house in order very quickly.
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shvatio sam da bi mi bolje bilo
da se brzo dovedem u red.
da se brzo dovedem u red.
Pa sam odlazio u crkvu
što sam češće mogao.
što sam češće mogao.
01:24
So I went to church as often as I could.
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01:26
I listened for silence as anxiously
as one might listen for noise,
as one might listen for noise,
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Osluškivao sam tišinu s nestrpljenjem,
kao što neki slušaju buku,
kao što neki slušaju buku,
01:31
trying to be sure that the Lord
hadn't pulled a fast one on me
hadn't pulled a fast one on me
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pokušavajući da budem siguran
da me Gospod neće preduhitriti
da me Gospod neće preduhitriti
01:34
and decided to come back early.
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i odlučiti da dođe ranije.
01:36
And just in case he did,
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A u slučaju da to uradi,
01:38
I built a backup plan,
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napravio sam rezervni plan,
01:41
by reading the "Left Behind" books
that were all the rage at the time.
that were all the rage at the time.
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čitajući knjige "Izostavljeni"
za kojima je tada vladala pomama.
za kojima je tada vladala pomama.
01:45
And I found in their pages
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I saznao sam na tim stranicama
01:47
that if I was not taken
in the rapture at midnight,
in the rapture at midnight,
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da ako se ne vaznesem u zanosu u ponoć,
01:49
I had another shot.
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imam još jednu priliku.
01:51
All I had to do was avoid
taking the mark of the beast,
taking the mark of the beast,
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Sve što je potrebno
je da izbegavam primanje pečata zveri,
je da izbegavam primanje pečata zveri,
01:55
fight off demons, plagues
and the Antichrist himself.
and the Antichrist himself.
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da odagnam demone,
kugu i samog Antihrista.
kugu i samog Antihrista.
01:58
It would be hard --
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Biće teško -
02:00
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
02:03
but I knew I could do it.
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ali znao sam da to mogu.
02:04
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
02:06
But planning time was over now.
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No vreme planiranja beše gotovo.
02:08
It was 11:50pm.
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Bilo je 23:50.
02:10
We had 10 minutes left,
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Preostalo je 10 minuta,
02:11
and my pastor called us
out of the pews and down to the altar
out of the pews and down to the altar
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a moj pastor nas je pozvao
da izađemo iz klupa pred oltar
da izađemo iz klupa pred oltar
02:14
because he wanted to be praying
when midnight struck.
when midnight struck.
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jer je želeo da izgovara molitvu
kad ponoć zakuca.
kad ponoć zakuca.
02:19
So every faction of the congregation
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Pa je svaki član pastve
02:21
took its place.
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zauzeo svoje mesto.
02:23
The choir stayed in the choir stand,
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Hor je ostao na pevalištu,
02:24
the deacons and their wives --
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đakoni i njihove žene -
iliti baptistička buržoazija,
kako volim da ih zovem -
kako volim da ih zovem -
02:26
or the Baptist Bourgeoisie
as I like to call them --
as I like to call them --
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02:28
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
02:30
took first position in front of the altar.
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zauzeli su prva mesta pred oltarom.
02:32
You see, in America,
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Vidite, u Americi,
02:34
even the Second Coming of Christ
has a VIP section.
has a VIP section.
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čak i drugi Hristov silazak
ima VIP odeljak.
ima VIP odeljak.
02:37
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
02:40
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
02:45
And right behind the Baptist Bourgeoisie
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A odmah iza baptističke buržoazije
02:47
were the elderly --
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su bili stariji -
02:49
these men and women whose young backs
had been bent under hot suns
had been bent under hot suns
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ovi muškarci i žene čija su se mlada pleća
poginjala pod vrelim suncem
poginjala pod vrelim suncem
02:54
in the cotton fields of East Texas,
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na poljima pamuka u Istočnom Teksasu
02:57
and whose skin seemed to be burnt
a creaseless noble brown,
a creaseless noble brown,
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i čija je koža, kako se činilo,
potamnila u besprekornu plemenitu smeđu,
potamnila u besprekornu plemenitu smeđu,
03:00
just like the clay of East Texas,
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baš poput ilovače iz Istočnog Teksasa
03:03
and whose hopes and dreams
for what life might become
for what life might become
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i čije su nade i snovi
o tome kakav bi život bio
o tome kakav bi život bio
03:05
outside of East Texas
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van Istočnog Teksasa,
03:06
had sometimes been bent and broken
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ponekad poginjani i slamani
03:08
even further than their backs.
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i više od njihovih leđa.
03:09
Yes, these men and women
were the stars of the show for me.
were the stars of the show for me.
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Da, ovi muškarci i žene
su za mene bili zvezde ove predstave.
su za mene bili zvezde ove predstave.
03:14
They had waited their whole lives
for this moment,
for this moment,
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Čekali su čitav svoj život
na ovaj trenutak,
na ovaj trenutak,
03:17
just as their medieval predecessors
had longed for the end of the world,
had longed for the end of the world,
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baš kao što su njihovi srednjovekovni
preci žudeli za krajem sveta
preci žudeli za krajem sveta
03:21
and just as my grandmother
waited for the Oprah Winfrey Show
waited for the Oprah Winfrey Show
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i baš kao što je moja baka
čekala na emisiju Opre Vinfri
čekala na emisiju Opre Vinfri
03:24
to come on Channel 8
every day at 4 o'clock.
every day at 4 o'clock.
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da počne na Kanalu 8
svakog dana u 16 sati.
svakog dana u 16 sati.
03:28
And as she made her way to the altar,
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I kako je prilazila oltaru,
03:30
I snuck right in behind her,
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prišunjao sam se tik iza nje
03:32
because I knew for sure
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jer sam bio siguran
03:34
that my grandmother was going to heaven.
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da će moja baka da ode u raj.
03:37
And I thought that if I held on
to her hand during this prayer,
to her hand during this prayer,
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I mislio sam da ako se držim
za njenu ruku tokom molitve,
za njenu ruku tokom molitve,
03:42
I might go right on with her.
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možda ću otići direktno s njom.
03:44
So I held on
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Pa sam se držao
03:46
and I closed my eyes
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i zatvorio sam oči
03:49
to listen,
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da bih osluškivao,
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to wait.
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da bih čekao.
03:52
And the prayers got louder.
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A molitve su postale glasnije.
03:54
And the shouts of response
to the call of the prayer
to the call of the prayer
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A odgovori koje su izvikivali
na poziv iz molitve
na poziv iz molitve
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went up higher even still.
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su postajali još glasniji.
03:58
And the organ rolled on in
to add the dirge.
to add the dirge.
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I orgulje su zagrmele
kako bi pojačale tugovanku.
kako bi pojačale tugovanku.
04:01
And the heat came on to add to the sweat.
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I toplota dođe da bi dodala znoj.
04:03
And my hand gripped firmer,
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Stiskao sam ruku sve jače,
04:05
so I wouldn't be the one
left in the field.
left in the field.
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kako ne bih bio ostavljen na polju.
04:07
My eyes clenched tighter
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Stiskao sam oči jače
04:08
so I wouldn't see the wheat
being separated from the chaff.
being separated from the chaff.
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da ne bih video
kako se žito odvaja od kukolja.
kako se žito odvaja od kukolja.
04:11
And then a voice rang out above us:
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A onda je glas zazvonio iznad nas:
04:14
"Amen."
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"Amin".
04:17
It was over.
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Bilo je gotovo.
04:20
I looked at the clock.
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Pogledao sam na sat.
04:22
It was after midnight.
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Bila je prošla ponoć.
04:25
I looked at the elder believers
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Pogledao sam u starije vernike
04:27
whose savior had not come,
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čiji spasitelj nije došao,
koji su bili suviše ponosni
da bi pokazali znake razočaranja,
da bi pokazali znake razočaranja,
04:30
who were too proud to show
any signs of disappointment,
any signs of disappointment,
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04:33
who had believed too much and for too long
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koji su verovali isuviše mnogo
i isuviše dugo
i isuviše dugo
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to start doubting now.
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da bi sada počeli da sumnjaju.
04:39
But I was upset on their behalf.
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Ali ja sam bio ljut u njihovo ime.
04:42
They had been duped,
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Nasamareni su,
04:44
hoodwinked, bamboozled,
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izigrani, prevareni,
04:45
and I had gone right along with them.
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a ja sam pristao za njima,
Izgovarao sam njihove molitve,
04:48
I had prayed their prayers,
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04:50
I had yielded not to temptation
as best I could.
as best I could.
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odupirao sam se iskušenju
što sam bolje mogao.
što sam bolje mogao.
04:53
I had dipped my head not once, but twice
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Umočio sam glavu, ne jednom, već dva puta
04:56
in that snot-inducing baptism pool.
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u tu krstionicu koja izaziva sline na nos.
04:58
I had believed.
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Verovao sam.
05:01
Now what?
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Šta sad?
05:03
I got home just in time
to turn on the television
to turn on the television
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Vratio sam se kući na vreme
da uključim televizor
da uključim televizor
i gledam Pitera Dženingsa
kako najavljuje novi milenijum
kako najavljuje novi milenijum
05:06
and watch Peter Jennings
announce the new millennium
announce the new millennium
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05:09
as it rolled in around the world.
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kako je započinjao širom sveta.
05:11
It struck me that it would have
been strange anyway,
been strange anyway,
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Palo mi je na pamet
da bi ionako bilo čudno
da bi ionako bilo čudno
05:15
for Jesus to come back again and again
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da Isus silazi iznova i iznova
05:18
based on the different time zones.
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zbog različitih vremenskih zona.
05:19
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
05:27
And this made me feel
even more ridiculous --
even more ridiculous --
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A zbog toga sam se osećao još smešnije -
05:30
hurt, really.
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povređeno, zaista.
05:33
But there on that night,
I did not stop believing.
I did not stop believing.
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Ali te noći nisam prestao da verujem.
05:37
I just believed a new thing:
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Samo sam verovao u nešto novo:
05:39
that it was possible not to believe.
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da je moguće ne verovati.
Moguće je da su odgovori
koje sam znao bili pogrešni,
koje sam znao bili pogrešni,
05:42
It was possible the answers
I had were wrong,
I had were wrong,
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05:45
that the questions themselves were wrong.
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da su sama pitanja pogrešna.
05:47
And now, where there was once
a mountain of certitude,
a mountain of certitude,
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A sad, gde je nekad stajala
planina ubeđenosti,
planina ubeđenosti,
05:51
there was, running right down
to its foundation,
to its foundation,
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skroz do njenih temelja se slivao
05:55
a spring of doubt,
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potok sumnje,
05:57
a spring that promised rivers.
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potok koji je obećavao reke.
06:00
I can trace the whole drama of my life
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Mogao bih čitavu dramu svog života
da dovedem u vezu
da dovedem u vezu
06:03
back to that night in that church
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s tom noći u toj crkvi
06:05
when my savior did not come for me;
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kad moj spasitelj nije došao po mene;
06:08
when the thing I believed most certainly
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kada se ono u što sam najviše verovao
06:11
turned out to be, if not a lie,
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ispostavilo da je, ako ne laž,
06:13
then not quite the truth.
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onda nije baš ni istina.
06:16
And even though most of you
prepared for Y2K in a very different way,
prepared for Y2K in a very different way,
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I iako se većina vas pripremala
za 2000. veoma drugačije,
za 2000. veoma drugačije,
06:20
I'm convinced that you are here
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ubeđen sam da ste ovde
06:23
because some part of you has done
the same thing that I have done
the same thing that I have done
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jer je neki delić vas učinio isto što i ja
06:27
since the dawn of this new century,
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od praskozorja ovog novog veka,
otkad me je majka napustila,
a otac se držao po strani
a otac se držao po strani
06:30
since my mother left
and my father stayed away
and my father stayed away
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06:32
and my Lord refused to come.
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i moj Gospod je odbio da dođe.
06:34
And I held out my hand,
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Pa sam ispružio ruku,
06:36
reaching for something to believe in.
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posežući za nečim u šta ću da verujem.
06:40
I held on when I arrived at Yale at 18,
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Posezao sam za tim,
stigavši sa 18 godina na Jejl,
stigavši sa 18 godina na Jejl,
06:44
with the faith that my journey
from Oak Cliff, Texas
from Oak Cliff, Texas
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s verom da je moje putovanje
iz Oak Klifa u Teksasu
iz Oak Klifa u Teksasu
06:46
was a chance to leave behind
all the challenges I had known,
all the challenges I had known,
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bilo prilika da ostavim za sobom
sve izazove koje sam znao,
sve izazove koje sam znao,
06:50
the broken dreams
and broken bodies I had seen.
and broken bodies I had seen.
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srušene snove
i urušena tela koja sam video.
i urušena tela koja sam video.
06:54
But when I found myself back home
one winter break,
one winter break,
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Ali kad sam se zatekao kod kuće,
jedne zime na raspustu,
jedne zime na raspustu,
06:59
with my face planted in the floor,
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lica zalepljenog za pod,
07:02
my hands tied behind my back
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ruku vezanih iza leđa
a provalnikov pištolj
mi je pritiskao glavu,
mi je pritiskao glavu,
07:05
and a burglar's gun pressed to my head,
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07:07
I knew that even the best education
couldn't save me.
couldn't save me.
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znao sam da me ni najbolje obrazovanje
ne može spasiti.
ne može spasiti.
07:12
I held on when I showed up
at Lehman Brothers
at Lehman Brothers
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Posezao sam za tim
kad sam se pojavio u Liman Bradersu
kad sam se pojavio u Liman Bradersu
07:15
as an intern in 2008.
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kao pripravnik 2008.
07:19
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
07:23
So hopeful --
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Tako pun nade -
07:25
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
07:28
that I called home to inform my family
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da sam nazvao svoje kod kuće da im kažem
07:30
that we'd never be poor again.
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da više nećemo biti siromašni.
07:31
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
No gledajući kako se ovaj finansijski hram
07:34
But as I witnessed this temple of finance
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07:36
come crashing down before my eyes,
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ruši pred mojim očima,
07:38
I knew that even the best job
couldn't save me.
couldn't save me.
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znao sam da me ni najbolji posao
ne može spasiti.
ne može spasiti.
07:42
I held on when I showed up
in Washington DC as a young staffer,
in Washington DC as a young staffer,
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Posezao sam za tim kad sam se pojavio
u Vašingtonu kao mladi državni uposlenik
u Vašingtonu kao mladi državni uposlenik
07:48
who had heard a voice
call out from Illinois,
call out from Illinois,
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koji je čuo glas kako pozivaše iz Ilinoisa
07:50
saying, "It's been a long time coming,
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rečima: "Dugo je vremena prošlo,
07:53
but in this election, change
has come to America."
has come to America."
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ali na ovim izborima
promena je stigla u Ameriku."
promena je stigla u Ameriku."
07:58
But as the Congress ground to a halt
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No kako se kongres nasukao na tlo,
08:00
and the country ripped at the seams
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a zemlja se raspadala po šavovima
08:02
and hope and change
began to feel like a cruel joke,
began to feel like a cruel joke,
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a nada i promena
su počele da zvuče kao okrutan vic,
su počele da zvuče kao okrutan vic,
08:04
I knew that even
the political second coming
the political second coming
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znao sam da me čak
ni drugi politički dolazak
ni drugi politički dolazak
08:07
could not save me.
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ne može spasiti.
08:09
I had knelt faithfully at the altar
of the American Dream,
of the American Dream,
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S verom sam klekao na oltar američkog sna,
08:14
praying to the gods of my time
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moleći se bogovima svog vremena:
08:17
of success,
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uspehu,
08:18
and money,
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novcu
08:20
and power.
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i moći.
08:22
But over and over again,
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Ali iznova i iznova
08:24
midnight struck, and I opened my eyes
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ponoć je kucala i ja sam otvarao oči,
08:27
to see that all of these gods were dead.
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uviđajući da su svi ti bogovi mrtvi.
08:31
And from that graveyard,
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A iz tog groblja,
08:32
I began the search once more,
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krenuo sam ponovo u potragu,
08:34
not because I was brave,
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ne jer sam bio hrabar,
08:35
but because I knew
that I would either believe
that I would either believe
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već zato što sam znao da ću da verujem
08:39
or I would die.
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ili da umrem.
08:40
So I took a pilgrimage
to yet another mecca,
to yet another mecca,
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Pa sam krenuo na hodočašće
ka još jednoj Meki,
ka još jednoj Meki,
Poslovnoj školi na Harvardu -
08:44
Harvard Business School --
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08:45
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
08:48
this time, knowing that I could not
simply accept the salvation
simply accept the salvation
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ovaj put znajući da ne mogu
prosto da prihvatim spas
prosto da prihvatim spas
08:52
that it claimed to offer.
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koji tvrde da mi nude.
08:53
No, I knew there'd be more work to do.
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Ne, znao sam da će tu biti
još mnogo da se radi.
još mnogo da se radi.
08:56
The work began in the dark corner
of a crowded party,
of a crowded party,
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Delanje je počelo u mračnom uglu
žurke pune ljudi,
žurke pune ljudi,
09:02
in the late night of an early,
miserable Cambridge winter,
miserable Cambridge winter,
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u kasnu noć rane, bedne kembridžke zime,
09:06
when three friends and I asked a question
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kada smo se tri prijatelja i ja zapitali
nešto što se mladi ljudi pitaju,
tragajući za nečim stvarnim
tragajući za nečim stvarnim
09:08
that young folks searching
for something real have asked
for something real have asked
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09:11
for a very long time:
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već dugo vremena:
09:12
"What if we took a road trip?"
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"Šta ako bismo pošli na putovanje?"
09:14
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
09:18
We didn't know where'd we go
or how we'd get there,
or how we'd get there,
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Nismo znali kuda ćemo ići
ili kako ćemo tamo stići,
ili kako ćemo tamo stići,
09:20
but we knew we had to do it.
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no znali smo da moramo to da učinimo.
09:23
Because all our lives we yearned,
as Jack Kerouac wrote,
as Jack Kerouac wrote,
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Jer smo čitavog svog života žudeli,
kako je Džek Keruak napisao:
kako je Džek Keruak napisao:
09:26
to "sneak out into the night
and disappear somewhere,"
and disappear somewhere,"
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"da se iskrademo po noći
i nestanemo negde",
i nestanemo negde",
09:30
and go find out what everybody was doing
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i da otkrijemo šta svi ostali rade
09:33
all over the country.
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širom države.
09:35
So even though there were
other voices who said
other voices who said
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Pa, iako su nam drugi glasovi govorili
09:37
that the risk was too great
and the proof too thin,
and the proof too thin,
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da je rizik prevelik, a dokaz suviše slab,
09:40
we went on anyhow.
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svejedno smo krenuli.
09:42
We went on 8,000 miles across America
in the summer of 2013,
in the summer of 2013,
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Prešli smo oko 13000 kilometara
duž Amerike, u leto 2013,
duž Amerike, u leto 2013,
09:48
through the cow pastures of Montana,
through the desolation of Detroit,
through the desolation of Detroit,
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kroz kravlje pašnjake Montane,
kroz pustoš Detroita,
kroz pustoš Detroita,
09:51
through the swamps of New Orleans,
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kroz močvare Nju Orleansa,
09:53
where we found and worked
with men and women
with men and women
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gde smo zatekli muškarce i žene
i radili s njima,
i radili s njima,
09:56
who were building small businesses
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koji su osnivali male firme
09:57
that made purpose their bottom line.
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čija je svrha bila osnovna dobit.
10:01
And having been trained
at the West Point of capitalism,
at the West Point of capitalism,
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I kako sam obučen
na Vest Pointu kapitalizma,
na Vest Pointu kapitalizma,
10:04
this struck us as a revolutionary idea.
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ovo mi se učinilo
kao revolucionarna ideja.
kao revolucionarna ideja.
10:06
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
10:07
And this idea spread,
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A ova ideja se širila,
10:10
growing into a nonprofit
called MBAs Across America,
called MBAs Across America,
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prerastajući u neprofitnu organizaciju
po imenu MBA-ovi širom Amerike,
po imenu MBA-ovi širom Amerike,
10:14
a movement that landed me here
on this stage today.
on this stage today.
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pokret koji me je smestio
danas ovde na ovu scenu.
danas ovde na ovu scenu.
10:19
It spread because we found
a great hunger in our generation
a great hunger in our generation
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Širio se jer smo u našoj generaciji
otkrili veliku glad
otkrili veliku glad
10:23
for purpose, for meaning.
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za svrhom, za smislom.
10:27
It spread because we found
countless entrepreneurs
countless entrepreneurs
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Širila se jer smo otkrili
bezbroj preduzetnika
bezbroj preduzetnika
10:30
in the nooks and crannies of America
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u američkim zapećcima i pukotinama
10:31
who were creating jobs and changing lives
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koji su stvarali poslove i menjali živote
10:34
and who needed a little help.
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i kojima je trebala mala pomoć.
10:37
But if I'm being honest, it also spread
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Ali, ako ćemo iskreno, takođe se širila
10:40
because I fought to spread it.
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jer sam se ja borio za to.
10:43
There was no length
to which I would not go
to which I would not go
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Nema kuda ne bih pošao
da propovedam ovo jevanđelje,
10:45
to preach this gospel,
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10:46
to get more people to believe
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da navedem što više ljudi da poveruju
10:49
that we could bind the wounds
of a broken country,
of a broken country,
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da možemo uvezati rane povređene države,
10:51
one social business at a time.
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jednim po jednim društvenim preduzećem.
10:55
But it was this journey of evangelism
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Ali me je ovo jevanđelističko putovanje
10:59
that led me to the rather different gospel
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dovelo do nešto drugačijeg jevanđelja
11:02
that I've come to share with you today.
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koje sam došao da podelim danas s vama.
11:05
It began one evening almost a year ago
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Začelo se jedne večeri
pre skoro godinu dana
pre skoro godinu dana
11:10
at the Museum of Natural History
in New York City,
in New York City,
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u Muzeju prirodnjačke istorije u Njujorku,
11:14
at a gala for alumni
of Harvard Business School.
of Harvard Business School.
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na gali za bivše studente
Poslovne škole na Harvardu.
Poslovne škole na Harvardu.
11:18
Under a full-size replica of a whale,
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Ispod replike kita u prirodnoj veličini,
11:21
I sat with the titans of our time
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sedeo sam s titanima našeg doba,
11:23
as they celebrated their peers
and their good deeds.
and their good deeds.
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dok su slavili svoje kolege
i njihova dobra dela.
i njihova dobra dela.
Prostoriju je ispunjavao ponos
11:27
There was pride in a room
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11:29
where net worth
and assets under management
and assets under management
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gde su neto vrednost i dobra
pod ovim menadžmentom
pod ovim menadžmentom
11:31
surpassed half a trillion dollars.
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prelazila pola biliona dolara.
11:35
We looked over all that we had made,
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Tada pogledasmo sve što smo stvorili
11:37
and it was good.
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i, gle, dobro beše veoma.
11:39
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
11:42
But it just so happened,
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Ali desilo se
11:44
two days later,
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da sam dva dana kasnije
11:46
I had to travel up the road to Harlem,
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morao da putujem gore u Harlem,
11:49
where I found myself
sitting in an urban farm
sitting in an urban farm
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gde sam se zatekao
kako sedim na urbanoj farmi
kako sedim na urbanoj farmi
11:51
that had once been a vacant lot,
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koja je nekad bila napušteni plac,
11:54
listening to a man named Tony
tell me of the kids
tell me of the kids
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slušajući kako mi čovek, po imenu Toni,
govori o deci
govori o deci
11:57
that showed up there every day.
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koja su tu dolazila svakodnevno.
11:59
All of them lived below the poverty line.
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Sva su živela ispod granice siromaštva.
12:04
Many of them carried
all of their belongings in a backpack
all of their belongings in a backpack
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Mnogi su nosili sve što su imali u rancu
12:07
to avoid losing them
in a homeless shelter.
in a homeless shelter.
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kako to ne bi izgubili
u skloništu za beskućnike.
u skloništu za beskućnike.
12:10
Some of them came to Tony's program,
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Neki su dolazili kod Tonija u program,
12:13
called Harlem Grown,
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pod nazivom Harlem Grown,
12:15
to get the only meal they had each day.
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da bi dobili jedini obrok
koji imaju svakog dana.
koji imaju svakog dana.
12:19
Tony told me that he started Harlem Grown
with money from his pension,
with money from his pension,
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Toni mi je rekao da je osnovao
Harlem Grown novcem od penzije,
Harlem Grown novcem od penzije,
12:24
after 20 years as a cab driver.
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nakon 20 godina provedenih taksirajući.
12:28
He told me that he didn't give
himself a salary,
himself a salary,
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Rekao mi je da sebi ne daje platu
12:31
because despite success,
the program struggled for resources.
the program struggled for resources.
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jer, uprkos uspehu,
program je muku mučio s resursima.
program je muku mučio s resursima.
12:35
He told me that he would take any help
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Rekao mi je da bi prihvatio
bilo kakvu pomoć
bilo kakvu pomoć
12:38
that he could get.
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koja mu se ponudi.
12:40
And I was there as that help.
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A ja sam bio tu da je ponudim.
12:44
But as I left Tony,
I felt the sting and salt of tears
I felt the sting and salt of tears
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No, kako sam odlazio od Tonija
osetio sam peckanje i so suza
osetio sam peckanje i so suza
12:49
welling up in my eyes.
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koje su mi navirale u očima.
12:52
I felt the weight of revelation
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Osetio sam teret otkrovenja
12:55
that I could sit in one room on one night,
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da sam mogao da sedim
u jednoj prostoriji jedne noći,
u jednoj prostoriji jedne noći,
12:59
where a few hundred people
had half a trillion dollars,
had half a trillion dollars,
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gde je nekoliko stotina ljudi
posedovalo pola biliona dolara,
posedovalo pola biliona dolara,
13:04
and another room, two days later,
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a u drugoj prostoriji, dva dana kasnije,
13:06
just 50 blocks up the road,
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samo 50 blokova naviše,
13:09
where a man was going without a salary
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gde čovek radi bez plate
13:12
to get a child her only meal of the day.
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kako bi obezbedio detetu
jedini obrok u toku dana.
jedini obrok u toku dana.
13:16
And it wasn't the glaring inequality
that made me want to cry,
that made me want to cry,
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I nije me silina nejednakosti
terala na plač,
terala na plač,
13:20
it wasn't the thought of hungry,
homeless kids,
homeless kids,
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nije to bila pomisao na gladnu decu
bez domova,
bez domova,
13:23
it wasn't rage toward the one percent
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nije to bio bes prema jednom procentu,
13:25
or pity toward the 99.
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ili sažaljenje prema 99 procenata.
13:27
No, I was disturbed
because I had finally realized
because I had finally realized
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Ne, bio sam uznemiren
jer sam konačno shvatio
jer sam konačno shvatio
13:32
that I was the dialysis
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da sam bio dijaliza
13:34
for a country that needed
a kidney transplant.
a kidney transplant.
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za državu kojoj je potrebna
transplatacija bubrega.
transplatacija bubrega.
13:38
I realized that my story
stood in for all those
stood in for all those
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Shvatio sam da je moja priča
zauzimala mesto svima onima
zauzimala mesto svima onima
od kojih se očekivalo da se usprave
uz pomoć petlji na čizmama,
uz pomoć petlji na čizmama,
13:42
who were expected to pick
themselves up by their bootstraps,
themselves up by their bootstraps,
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13:45
even if they didn't have any boots;
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čak iako uopšte nisu imali čizme;
13:48
that my organization stood in
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da se moja organizacija zauzimala
13:49
for all the structural, systemic help
that never went to Harlem
that never went to Harlem
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za svu strukturalnu, sistematsku pomoć
koja nikad nije stizala do Harlema
koja nikad nije stizala do Harlema
13:53
or Appalachia or the Lower 9th Ward;
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ili Apalačije ili Donjeg IX Varda;
13:55
that my voice stood in
for all those voices
for all those voices
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da je moj glas zauzimao mesto
svim tim glasovima
svim tim glasovima
14:01
that seemed too unlearned,
too unwashed, too unaccommodated.
too unwashed, too unaccommodated.
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koji su se činili suviše neukim,
suviše neopranim, bez ikakvog smeštaja.
suviše neopranim, bez ikakvog smeštaja.
14:07
And the shame of that,
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A sram od toga,
14:09
that shame washed over me
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taj sram me je preplavio
14:11
like the shame of sitting
in front of the television,
in front of the television,
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kao sram kad sam sedeo ispred televizora,
gledajući Pitera Dženingsa
dok najavljuje novi milenijum
dok najavljuje novi milenijum
14:14
watching Peter Jennings
announce the new millennium
announce the new millennium
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14:17
again
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iznova
14:18
and again
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i iznova
14:20
and again.
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i iznova.
14:21
I had been duped,
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Nasamaren sam,
14:24
hoodwinked,
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izigran,
14:25
bamboozled.
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prevaren.
14:27
But this time, the false savior was me.
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Ali ovog puta, lažni spasitelj sam bio ja.
14:31
You see, I've come a long way
from that altar
from that altar
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Vidite, prešao sam dug put od tog oltara,
14:35
on the night I thought
the world would end,
the world would end,
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te noći kad sam mislio
da će svetu doći kraj,
da će svetu doći kraj,
14:38
from a world where people spoke in tongues
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od sveta u kom su ljudi
govorili koještarije
govorili koještarije
14:41
and saw suffering
as a necessary act of God
as a necessary act of God
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i na patnju gledali
kao neophodnu božju datost
kao neophodnu božju datost
14:44
and took a text to be infallible truth.
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i uzimali su spise kao nepogrešivu istinu.
14:46
Yes, I've come so far
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Da, toliko sam se odmakao
14:48
that I'm right back where I started.
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da sam tačno tamo odakle sam krenuo.
14:52
Because it simply is not true to say
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Jer prosto nije istina kad se kaže
14:54
that we live in an age of disbelief --
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da živimo u dobu neverovanja -
14:56
no, we believe today just as much
as any time that came before.
as any time that came before.
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ne, danas verujemo isto koliko smo
i prethodnih epoha.
i prethodnih epoha.
15:01
Some of us may believe
in the prophecy of Brené Brown
in the prophecy of Brené Brown
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Neki od nas možda veruju
u proročanstvo Brene Braun
u proročanstvo Brene Braun
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or Tony Robbins.
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ili Tonija Robinsa.
15:06
We may believe in the bible
of The New Yorker
of The New Yorker
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Možda verujemo u bibliju "Njujorker"
15:08
or the Harvard Business Review.
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ili "Harvard Biznis Rivju".
15:10
We may believe most deeply
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Možda verujemo najpredanije
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when we worship right here
at the church of TED,
at the church of TED,
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kada obavljamo službu
baš ovde u crkvi TED-a,
baš ovde u crkvi TED-a,
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but we desperately want to believe,
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ali očajnički želimo da verujemo,
15:17
we need to believe.
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potrebno nam je da verujemo.
15:20
We speak in the tongues
of charismatic leaders
of charismatic leaders
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Govorimo koještarije harizmatičnih vođa
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that promise to solve all our problems.
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koji obećavaju
da će da nam reše sve probleme.
da će da nam reše sve probleme.
15:24
We see suffering as a necessary act
of the capitalism that is our god,
of the capitalism that is our god,
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Gledamo na patnju kao neophodnu datost
kapitalizma koji je naš bog,
kapitalizma koji je naš bog,
15:28
we take the text of technological progress
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uzimamo spise tehnološkog napretka
15:31
to be infallible truth.
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kao nepobitnu istinu.
15:34
And we hardly realize
the human price we pay
the human price we pay
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A skoro nikad nismo svesni
ljudske cene koju plaćamo
ljudske cene koju plaćamo
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when we fail to question one brick,
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kad ne dovedemo u pitanje
makar jedan element
makar jedan element
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because we fear it might shake
our whole foundation.
our whole foundation.
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jer se plašimo da bi to uzdrmalo
naše celokupne temelje.
naše celokupne temelje.
15:45
But if you are disturbed
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Ali ako vas uznemiravaju
15:48
by the unconscionable things
that we have come to accept,
that we have come to accept,
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beskrupulozne stvari
koje smo naučili da prihvatamo,
koje smo naučili da prihvatamo,
15:51
then it must be questioning time.
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onda mora da je došlo vreme
za preispitivanje.
za preispitivanje.
15:55
So I have not a gospel
of disruption or innovation
of disruption or innovation
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Dakle, ne donosim jevanđelje
raskola ili inovacije
raskola ili inovacije
16:00
or a triple bottom line.
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ili trostruke osnovne dobiti.
16:02
I do not have a gospel of faith
to share with you today, in fact.
to share with you today, in fact.
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Zapravo ne donosim jevanđelje vere
koje bih danas podelio s vama.
koje bih danas podelio s vama.
16:07
I have and I offer a gospel of doubt.
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Donosim i nudim vam jevanđelje sumnje.
16:12
The gospel of doubt does not ask
that you stop believing,
that you stop believing,
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Jevanđelje sumnje ne zahteva
da prestanete da verujete,
da prestanete da verujete,
16:15
it asks that you believe a new thing:
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zahteva od vas da verujete u nešto novo:
16:18
that it is possible not to believe.
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da je moguće ne verovati.
16:21
It is possible the answers
we have are wrong,
we have are wrong,
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Moguće je da su naši odgovori pogrešni,
16:23
it is possible the questions
themselves are wrong.
themselves are wrong.
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moguće je da su sama pitanja pogrešna.
16:26
Yes, the gospel of doubt means
that it is possible that we,
that it is possible that we,
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Da, jevanđelje sumnje znači
da je moguće da mi,
da je moguće da mi,
16:30
on this stage, in this room,
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na ovoj sceni, u ovoj prostoriji,
16:33
are wrong.
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nismo u pravu.
16:34
Because it raises the question, "Why?"
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Jer povlači za sobom pitanje: "Zašto?"
16:37
With all the power
that we hold in our hands,
that we hold in our hands,
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Uz svu moć koja nam je u rukama,
16:40
why are people still suffering so bad?
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zašto ljudi i dalje toliko pate?
16:45
This doubt leads me to share
that we are putting my organization,
that we are putting my organization,
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Ova sumnja me navodi da kažem
da moju organizaciju,
da moju organizaciju,
16:49
MBAs Across America,
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MBA-ovi širom Amerike,
16:51
out of business.
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gasimo.
16:52
We have shed our staff
and closed our doors
and closed our doors
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Raspustili smo osoblje
i zatvorili naša vrata
i zatvorili naša vrata
16:55
and we will share our model freely
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i delićemo naš model besplatno
16:57
with anyone who sees
their power to do this work
their power to do this work
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svakome ko smogne snage
da radi ovaj posao,
da radi ovaj posao,
17:00
without waiting for our permission.
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bez čekanja na naše odobrenje.
17:02
This doubt compels me
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Ova sumnja me navodi
17:05
to renounce the role of savior
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da se odreknem uloge spasitelja
17:07
that some have placed on me,
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koju su mi neki nametnuli
17:08
because our time is too short
and our odds are too long
and our odds are too long
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jer je naše vreme isuviše kratko,
a šanse su nam isuviše tanke
a šanse su nam isuviše tanke
17:12
to wait for second comings,
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da bi čekali na druge silaske,
17:13
when the truth is that
there will be no miracles here.
there will be no miracles here.
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jer istina je da se ovde neće zbiti čuda.
17:18
And this doubt, it fuels me,
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A ova sumnja me pokreće,
17:20
it gives me hope
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daje mi nadu
17:22
that when our troubles overwhelm us,
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da kad nas naše muke nadvladaju,
17:25
when the paths laid out for us
seem to lead to our demise,
seem to lead to our demise,
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kad nam se učini da putevi pred nama
vode u našu propast,
vode u našu propast,
17:30
when our healers bring
no comfort to our wounds,
no comfort to our wounds,
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kad naši iscelitelji
ne donesu melem za naše rane,
ne donesu melem za naše rane,
17:34
it will not be our blind faith --
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neće to biti naša slepa vera -
17:37
no, it will be our humble doubt
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ne, biće to naša skromna sumnja
17:40
that shines a little light
into the darkness of our lives
into the darkness of our lives
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koja će da donese malo svetla
u tamu našeg postojanja
u tamu našeg postojanja
17:44
and of our world
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i našeg sveta
17:45
and lets us raise our voice to whisper
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i koja će nam omogućiti
da podignemo glas u šapat
da podignemo glas u šapat
17:48
or to shout
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ili u poklič
17:50
or to say simply,
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ili da jednostavno kažemo,
17:52
very simply,
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veoma jednostavno:
17:53
"There must be another way."
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"Mora da postoji drugi način."
17:57
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
17:58
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Casey Gerald - AmericanCasey Gerald chronicles the current state of the American Dream and explores ways to sustain it for a new generation.
Why you should listen
Casey Gerald has witnessed every facet of the American Dream -- from his harrowing childhood in Texas, to his tenure at the heights of America's elite institutions, to his journeys through the cities and towns of the American heartland where he has spent his recent years as cofounder and CEO of MBAs Across America. Now his work as a writer, speaker, and business leader centers on the question: will the American dream survive another generation?
Gerald began his career in economic policy and government innovation at the Center for American Progress, and he has worked as a strategist with startup social ventures such as The Future Project as well as companies like The Neiman Marcus Group.
Born and raised in Dallas, Gerald received an MBA from Harvard Business School, where he delivered the 2014 commencement address, and a BA in Political Science from Yale College. He has been featured on MSNBC, in The New York Times, Financial Times, The Guardian, and he has appeared on the cover of Fast Company, which also named him one of the "Most Creative People in Business." He currently serves on the advisory board of NPR's Generation Listen.
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