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Andrew Solomon: Love, no matter what
Andrew Solomon: Ljubav, bez obzira na sve
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Kako je odgajati dijete koje se od vas razlikuje na neki temeljni način (kao primjerice čudo od djeteta, dijete s drugačijim sposobnostima ili kriminalca)? U ovom dirljivom govoru, pisac Andrew Solomon dijeli svoje spoznaje iz razgovora s desecima roditelja koje je pitao: "Koja je granica između bezuvjetne ljubavi i bezuvjetnog prihvaćanja?"
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"Čak i u potpuno nereligioznom kontekstu,
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"Even in purely non-religious terms,
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homosexuality represents a misuse of the sexual faculty.
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homoseksualnost predstavlja zlouporabu
seksualnih mogućnosti.
seksualnih mogućnosti.
00:22
It is a pathetic little second-rate substitute for reality --
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Ona je jadna, drugorazredna
zamjena za stvarnost --
zamjena za stvarnost --
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a pitiable flight from life.
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jadan bijeg od života.
00:29
As such, it deserves no compassion,
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Kao takva ne zaslužuje suosjećanje,
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it deserves no treatment
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ne zaslužuje da se prema njoj odnosi
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as minority martyrdom,
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kao prema teškoj patnji manjine
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and it deserves not to be deemed anything but a pernicious sickness."
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i ne zaslužuje da se smatra ičim drugim
doli opasnom bolešću."
doli opasnom bolešću."
00:45
That's from Time magazine in 1966, when I was three years old.
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Ovo je citat iz časopisa Time iz 1966.
kada sam imao tri godine.
kada sam imao tri godine.
00:50
And last year, the president of the United States
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Prošle je godine predsjednik SAD-a
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came out in favor of gay marriage.
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podržao gay brakove.
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(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
01:04
And my question is, how did we get from there to here?
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Moje pitanje je kako smo
stigli odatle do ovdje?
stigli odatle do ovdje?
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How did an illness become an identity?
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Kako je bolest postala identitet?
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When I was perhaps six years old,
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Kada sam imao otprilike šest godina,
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I went to a shoe store with my mother and my brother.
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otišao sam s majkom i bratom
u trgovinu cipela.
u trgovinu cipela.
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And at the end of buying our shoes,
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Kada smo kupili cipele,
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the salesman said to us that we could each have a balloon to take home.
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prodavač nam je rekao da možemo
dobiti po jedan balon svaki.
dobiti po jedan balon svaki.
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My brother wanted a red balloon, and I wanted a pink balloon.
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Moj brat je htio crveni balon,
a ja sam htio ružičasti.
a ja sam htio ružičasti.
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My mother said that she thought I'd really rather have a blue balloon.
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Moja majka je rekla da misli
kako bih ja radije htio plavi balon.
kako bih ja radije htio plavi balon.
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But I said that I definitely wanted the pink one.
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No ja sam rekao da bih
bez dvojbe htio ružičasti.
bez dvojbe htio ružičasti.
01:40
And she reminded me that my favorite color was blue.
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Na što me ona podsjetila
da mi je omiljena boja plava.
da mi je omiljena boja plava.
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The fact that my favorite color now is blue, but I'm still gay --
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Činjenica da mi je danas omiljena
boja plava, no da sam i dalje gay --
boja plava, no da sam i dalje gay --
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(Laughter) --
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(Smijeh) --
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is evidence of both my mother's influence and its limits.
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je istovremeno dokaz majčinog utjecaja
i njegovih ograničenja.
i njegovih ograničenja.
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(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
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(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
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When I was little, my mother used to say,
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Kada sam bio mali,
moja majka je često govorila:
moja majka je često govorila:
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"The love you have for your children is like no other feeling in the world.
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"Ljubav prema vlastitoj djeci se ne može
mjeriti s nijednim drugim osjećajem.
mjeriti s nijednim drugim osjećajem.
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And until you have children, you don't know what it's like."
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I dok ne budeš imao svoju djecu,
nećeš znati kako je to."
nećeš znati kako je to."
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And when I was little, I took it as the greatest compliment in the world
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Kada sam bio mali, mislio sam
kako je najveći kompliment na svijetu
kako je najveći kompliment na svijetu
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that she would say that about parenting my brother and me.
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što može reći tako nešto
o odgoju mog brata i mene.
o odgoju mog brata i mene.
02:24
And when I was an adolescent, I thought
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Kada sam bio adolescent, mislio sam
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that I'm gay, and so I probably can't have a family.
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kako vjerojatno neću moći
imati obitelj jer sam gay.
imati obitelj jer sam gay.
02:30
And when she said it, it made me anxious.
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Kada je ona to rekla to me uznemirilo.
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And after I came out of the closet,
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Kada sam priznao da sam gay,
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when she continued to say it, it made me furious.
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a ona je to nastavila govoriti,
to me činilo bijesnim.
to me činilo bijesnim.
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I said, "I'm gay. That's not the direction that I'm headed in.
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Rekao sam: "Ja sam gay.
Moj život ne ide u tom pravcu.
Moj život ne ide u tom pravcu.
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And I want you to stop saying that."
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Želim da to prestaneš govoriti."
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About 20 years ago, I was asked by my editors at The New York Times Magazine
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Prije otprilike 20 godina, moji urednici
u The New York Timesu su me zamolili
u The New York Timesu su me zamolili
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to write a piece about deaf culture.
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da napišem članak o kulturi gluhih osoba.
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And I was rather taken aback.
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Bio sam prilično zatečen.
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I had thought of deafness entirely as an illness.
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O gluhoći sam razmišljao
isključivo kao o bolesti.
isključivo kao o bolesti.
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Those poor people, they couldn't hear.
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Ti jadni ljudi ne mogu čuti.
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They lacked hearing, and what could we do for them?
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Nemaju osjet sluha
i što mi možemo učiniti za njih?
i što mi možemo učiniti za njih?
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And then I went out into the deaf world.
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Tada sam otišao u svijet gluhih osoba.
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I went to deaf clubs.
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Išao sam u klubove za gluhe.
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I saw performances of deaf theater and of deaf poetry.
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Gledao sam nastupe kazališta za gluhe
i poezije za gluhe.
i poezije za gluhe.
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I even went to the Miss Deaf America contest in Nashville, Tennessee
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Čak sam išao na izbor Gluhe Miss Amerike
u Nashvilleu, u državi Tennessee
u Nashvilleu, u državi Tennessee
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where people complained about that slurry Southern signing.
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gdje su se ljudi žalili na nerazumljivi
južnjački znakovni jezik.
južnjački znakovni jezik.
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(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
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And as I plunged deeper and deeper into the deaf world,
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Kada sam dublje uronio u svijet gluhih,
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I become convinced that deafness was a culture
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uvjerio sam se da je gluhoća kultura
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and that the people in the deaf world who said,
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i da ljudi u svijetu gluhih koji su govorili:
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"We don't lack hearing, we have membership in a culture,"
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"Nama ne nedostaje osjet sluha,
mi smo članovi jedne kulture."
mi smo članovi jedne kulture."
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were saying something that was viable.
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govore o nečem smislenom.
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It wasn't my culture,
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To nije bila moja kultura
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and I didn't particularly want to rush off and join it,
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i nisam joj se posebno želio priključiti,
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but I appreciated that it was a culture
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ali sam shvatio da to jest kultura
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and that for the people who were members of it,
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i da za osobe koje joj pripadaju
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it felt as valuable as Latino culture or gay culture or Jewish culture.
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ima jednaku vrijednost kao
latinoamerička, gay ili židovska kultura.
latinoamerička, gay ili židovska kultura.
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It felt as valid perhaps even as American culture.
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Možda su je doživljavali jednako valjanom
poput američke kulture.
poput američke kulture.
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Then a friend of a friend of mine had a daughter who was a dwarf.
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Zatim je prijateljica mog prijatelja
dobila kćer koja je patuljak.
dobila kćer koja je patuljak.
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And when her daughter was born,
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Kada joj se rodila kćer,
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she suddenly found herself confronting questions
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odjednom se suočila s pitanjima
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that now began to seem quite resonant to me.
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koja su mi se činila prilično jasnima.
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She was facing the question of what to do with this child.
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Suočila se s pitanjem
što činiti s tim djetetom.
što činiti s tim djetetom.
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Should she say, "You're just like everyone else but a little bit shorter?"
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Bi li mu trebala reći:
"Ti si isti kao svi drugi samo malo niži?"
"Ti si isti kao svi drugi samo malo niži?"
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Or should she try to construct some kind of dwarf identity,
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Ili je trebala izgraditi neku vrst
identiteta patuljka,
identiteta patuljka,
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get involved in the Little People of America,
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uključiti se u udrugu Osoba malog rasta,
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become aware of what was happening for dwarfs?
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osvijestiti što se događa s patuljcima?
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And I suddenly thought,
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Tada sam pomislio
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most deaf children are born to hearing parents.
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kako većina gluhe djece
imaju roditelje koji čuju.
imaju roditelje koji čuju.
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Those hearing parents tend to try to cure them.
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Ti roditelji ih pokušavaju izliječiti.
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Those deaf people discover community somehow in adolescence.
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Te gluhe osobe u adolescenciji
otkrivaju svoju zajednicu.
otkrivaju svoju zajednicu.
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Most gay people are born to straight parents.
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Većina gay osoba imaju roditelje
koji su heteroseksualni.
koji su heteroseksualni.
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Those straight parents often want them to function
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Ti heteroseksualni roditelji uglavnom žele
da njihova djeca funkcioniraju
da njihova djeca funkcioniraju
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in what they think of as the mainstream world,
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u svijetu kojeg oni vide kao uobičajen
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and those gay people have to discover identity later on.
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te ta gay djeca moraju kasnije
otkriti vlastiti identitet.
otkriti vlastiti identitet.
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And here was this friend of mine
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I tu je primjer moje prijateljice
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looking at these questions of identity with her dwarf daughter.
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koja se suočavala s pitanjima identiteta
svoje kćeri patuljastog rasta.
svoje kćeri patuljastog rasta.
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And I thought, there it is again:
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Pomislio sam kako se opet radi o istom:
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A family that perceives itself to be normal
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obitelj koja sebe doživljava normalnom
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with a child who seems to be extraordinary.
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s neobičnim djetetom.
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And I hatched the idea that there are really two kinds of identity.
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Javila mi se ideja da postoje
dvije vrste identiteta.
dvije vrste identiteta.
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There are vertical identities,
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Postoji vertikalni identitet
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which are passed down generationally from parent to child.
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koji se prenosi generacijski
s roditelja na dijete.
s roditelja na dijete.
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Those are things like ethnicity, frequently nationality, language, often religion.
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To su stvari poput etničke pripadnosti,
nacionalnosti, jezika i često vjere.
nacionalnosti, jezika i često vjere.
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Those are things you have in common with your parents and with your children.
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To su stvari koje su zajedničke vama,
vašim roditeljima i vašoj djeci.
vašim roditeljima i vašoj djeci.
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And while some of them can be difficult,
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I iako neke od njih mogu biti teške,
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there's no attempt to cure them.
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ne pokušava ih se izliječiti.
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You can argue that it's harder in the United States --
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Možete tvrditi da je u SAD-u,
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our current presidency notwithstanding --
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bez obzira na trenutnog predsjednika,
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to be a person of color.
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teže biti osoba koja nije bijele kože.
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And yet, we have nobody who is trying to ensure
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A ipak nitko ne pokušava osigurati
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that the next generation of children born to African-Americans and Asians
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da se iduća generacija djece
čiji su roditelji afroamerikaci ili azijati
čiji su roditelji afroamerikaci ili azijati
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come out with creamy skin and yellow hair.
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rodi svijetloputa i plavokosa.
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There are these other identities which you have to learn from a peer group.
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Postoji i druga vrst identiteta
koja se uči od vršnjaka
koja se uči od vršnjaka
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And I call them horizontal identities,
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koju nazivam horizontalnim identitetom
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because the peer group is the horizontal experience.
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jer je grupa vršnjaka horizontalno iskustvo.
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These are identities that are alien to your parents
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To su identiteti strani vašim roditeljima
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and that you have to discover when you get to see them in peers.
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i koje morate otkriti od vršnjaka.
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And those identities, those horizontal identities,
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Te horizontalne identitete,
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people have almost always tried to cure.
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su ljudi gotovo uvijek pokušavali liječiti.
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And I wanted to look at what the process is
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Htio sam saznati kojim procesom
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through which people who have those identities
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se osobe koje imaju te identitete
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come to a good relationship with them.
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mire s njima.
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And it seemed to me that there were three levels of acceptance
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I činilo mi se da postoje
tri razine prihvaćanja
tri razine prihvaćanja
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that needed to take place.
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koje se moraju dogoditi.
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There's self-acceptance, there's family acceptance, and there's social acceptance.
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Prihvaćanje samih sebe,
roditeljsko i društveno prihvaćanje.
roditeljsko i društveno prihvaćanje.
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And they don't always coincide.
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I ona se uvijek ne podudaraju.
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And a lot of the time, people who have these conditions are very angry
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Osobe koje imaju ova stanja su često ljute
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because they feel as though their parents don't love them,
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jer osjećaju da ih roditelji ne vole
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when what actually has happened is that their parents don't accept them.
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dok ih zapravo roditelji ne prihvaćaju.
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Love is something that ideally is there unconditionally
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Idealno, ljubav postoji bezuvjetno
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throughout the relationship between a parent and a child.
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između djeteta i roditelja.
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But acceptance is something that takes time.
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No za prihvaćanje treba vremena.
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It always takes time.
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Uvijek treba vremena.
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One of the dwarfs I got to know was a guy named Clinton Brown.
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Jedna osoba patuljastog rasta
koju sam upoznao se zvao Clinton Brown.
koju sam upoznao se zvao Clinton Brown.
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When he was born, he was diagnosed with diastrophic dwarfism,
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Kad se rodio, dijagnosticiran mu je
teški oblik patuljastosti,
teški oblik patuljastosti,
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a very disabling condition,
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stanje teškog invaliditeta.
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and his parents were told that he would never walk, he would never talk,
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Roditeljima je rečeno da neće
nikada hodati, govoriti,
nikada hodati, govoriti,
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he would have no intellectual capacity,
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imati ikakve intelektualne mogućnosti
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and he would probably not even recognize them.
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te da ih vjerojatno neće ni prepoznavati.
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And it was suggested to them that they leave him at the hospital
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Predloženo im je da ga ostave u bolnici
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so that he could die there quietly.
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kako bi mogao mirno umrijeti.
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And his mother said she wasn't going to do it.
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Njegova majka je to odbila.
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And she took her son home.
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I odvela ga kući.
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And even though she didn't have a lot of educational or financial advantages,
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I iako nije imala velikih obrazovnih
i financijskih mogućnosti,
i financijskih mogućnosti,
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she found the best doctor in the country
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pronašla je najboljeg doktora u zemlji
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for dealing with diastrophic dwarfism,
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za njegovo stanje
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and she got Clinton enrolled with him.
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i upisala je Clintona kod njega.
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And in the course of his childhood,
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Tokom djetinjstva
07:28
he had 30 major surgical procedures.
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Clinton je prošao 30 velikih operacija.
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And he spent all this time stuck in the hospital
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I proveo je svo to vrijeme u bolnici
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while he was having those procedures,
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dok je prolazio te zahvate.
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as a result of which he now can walk.
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Rezultat je da danas može hodati.
07:37
And while he was there, they sent tutors around to help him with his school work.
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Dok je bio tamo, slali su učitelje
da mu pomognu sa školovanjem.
da mu pomognu sa školovanjem.
07:41
And he worked very hard because there was nothing else to do.
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Naporno je radio jer ionako
nije imao što drugo činiti.
nije imao što drugo činiti.
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And he ended up achieving at a level
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Na koncu je dosegao stupanj obrazovanja
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that had never before been contemplated by any member of his family.
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o kojem nitko u njegovoj obitelji
do tada nije ni razmišljao.
do tada nije ni razmišljao.
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He was the first one in his family, in fact, to go to college,
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Bio je prva osoba iz svoje obitelji
koja je otišla na fakultet.
koja je otišla na fakultet.
07:53
where he lived on campus and drove a specially-fitted car
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Stanovao je na kampusu
i vozio automobil prilagođen
i vozio automobil prilagođen
07:56
that accommodated his unusual body.
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njegovom neobičnom tijelu.
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And his mother told me this story of coming home one day --
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Njegova majka mi je ispričala
kako je jednom došla kući --
kako je jednom došla kući --
08:02
and he went to college nearby --
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on je pohađao obližnji fakultet --
08:04
and she said, "I saw that car, which you can always recognize,
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i ugledala njegov prepoznatljiv automobil
08:07
in the parking lot of a bar," she said. (Laughter)
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na parkiralištu jednog kafića. (Smijeh)
08:11
"And I thought to myself, they're six feet tall, he's three feet tall.
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"Pomislila sam, oni su visoki 180, a on 90cm.
08:16
Two beers for them is four beers for him."
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Ono što je njima dva piva, njemu su četiri."
08:18
She said, "I knew I couldn't go in there and interrupt him,
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"Znala sam da ne mogu ući i prekinuti ga,
08:21
but I went home, and I left him eight messages on his cell phone."
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pa sam otišla kući i ostavila mu
osam poruka na mobitel."
osam poruka na mobitel."
08:25
She said, "And then I thought,
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"Tada sam pomislila da ne bih vjerovala
08:27
if someone had said to me when he was born
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da mi je netko rekao kada se rodio
08:29
that my future worry would be that he'd go drinking and driving with his college buddies -- "
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kako ću se u budućnosti brinuti što
s prijateljima pije i onda vozi."
s prijateljima pije i onda vozi."
08:34
(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
08:43
And I said to her, "What do you think you did
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Pitao sam je: "Što misliš da si učinila
08:45
that helped him to emerge as this charming, accomplished, wonderful person?"
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da mu je pomoglo da postane takva
šarmantna, uspješna i prekrasna osoba?"
šarmantna, uspješna i prekrasna osoba?"
08:50
And she said, "What did I do? I loved him, that's all.
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"Što sam učinila? Voljela sam ga, samo to.
08:54
Clinton just always had that light in him.
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Clinton je uvijek imao tu iskru,
08:57
And his father and I were lucky enough to be the first to see it there."
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a njegov otac i ja smo imali tu sreću
da je prvi ugledamo."
da je prvi ugledamo."
09:04
I'm going to quote from another magazine of the '60s.
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Navest ću citat iz još jednog časopisa iz 60tih.
09:07
This one is from 1968 -- The Atlantic Monthly, voice of liberal America --
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Ovaj je iz 1968., iz The Atlantic Monthly,
glasa liberalne Amerike --
glasa liberalne Amerike --
09:13
written by an important bioethicist.
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a napisao ga je važan bioetičar.
09:15
He said, "There is no reason to feel guilty
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Rekao je: "Ne treba osjećati krivnju
09:19
about putting a Down syndrome child away,
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zbog uklanjanja djeteta s Downovim sindromom,
09:22
whether it is put away in the sense of hidden in a sanitarium
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bilo da se radi o skrivanju u sanatorij
09:27
or in a more responsible, lethal sense.
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ili odgovornijem, smrtonosnom načinu.
09:31
It is sad, yes -- dreadful. But it carries no guilt.
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Da, to je tužno i strašno. Ali nema krivnje.
09:36
True guilt arises only from an offense against a person,
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Istinska krivnja proizlazi iz napada na osobu,
09:40
and a Down's is not a person."
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a Downovac nije osoba."
09:45
There's been a lot of ink given to the enormous progress that we've made
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Puno se pisalo o
napretku koji smo postigli
napretku koji smo postigli
09:49
in the treatment of gay people.
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u odnosu spram gay osoba.
09:51
The fact that our attitude has changed is in the headlines every day.
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To se svakodnevno vidi
u novinskim naslovima.
u novinskim naslovima.
09:55
But we forget how we used to see people who had other differences,
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No zaboravljamo kako smo gledali
osobe s drugim razlikama,
osobe s drugim razlikama,
10:00
how we used to see people who were disabled,
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kako smo gledali osobe s invaliditetom,
10:02
how inhuman we held people to be.
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kako smo ih doživljavali nečovječnima.
10:05
And the change that's been accomplished there,
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Na tu promjenu
10:07
which is almost equally radical,
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koja je gotovo jednako radikalna,
10:09
is one that we pay not very much attention to.
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gotovo uopće ne obraćamo pozornost.
10:11
One of the families I interviewed, Tom and Karen Robards,
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Jedna od obitelji koju sam intervjuirao,
Tom i Karen Robards,
Tom i Karen Robards,
10:15
were taken aback when, as young and successful New Yorkers,
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su bili zatečeni kada im je,
kao mladim i uspješnim njujorčanima,
kao mladim i uspješnim njujorčanima,
10:19
their first child was diagnosed with Down syndrome.
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prvom djetetu dijagnosticiran
Downov sindrom.
Downov sindrom.
10:23
They thought the educational opportunities for him were not what they should be,
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Smatrali su da obrazovne mogućnosti
za njega nisu kakve bi trebale biti.
za njega nisu kakve bi trebale biti.
10:27
and so they decided they would build a little center --
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Stoga su odlučili izgraditi mali centar -
10:31
two classrooms that they started with a few other parents --
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dvije učionice koje su
pokrenuli s još nekoliko roditelja --
pokrenuli s još nekoliko roditelja --
10:34
to educate kids with D.S.
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za obrazovanje djece s Downovim sindromom.
10:37
And over the years, that center grew into something called the Cooke Center,
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Kroz godine taj centar
je izrastao u Centar Cooke
je izrastao u Centar Cooke
10:41
where there are now thousands upon thousands
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u kojem se obrazuje na tisuće djece
10:43
of children with intellectual disabilities who are being taught.
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s intelektualnim poteškoćama.
10:47
In the time since that Atlantic Monthly story ran,
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Od objave članka u Atlantic Monhtleyju
10:50
the life expectancy for people with Down syndrome has tripled.
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životni vijek osoba s Downom se utrostručio.
10:54
The experience of Down syndrome people includes those who are actors,
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Osobe s Downovim sindromom
postaju glumci, pisci,
postaju glumci, pisci,
10:59
those who are writers, some who are able to live fully independently in adulthood.
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a neki od njih su potpuno samostalni
u odrasloj dobi.
u odrasloj dobi.
11:05
The Robards had a lot to do with that.
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Robardovi su prilično zaslužni za to.
11:07
And I said, "Do you regret it?
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Pitao sam ih: "Žalite li zbog toga?
11:08
Do you wish your child didn't have Down syndrome?
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Biste li željeli da vaše dijete nema Down?
11:11
Do you wish you'd never heard of it?"
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Biste li željeli da nikad niste čuli za Down?"
11:12
And interestingly his father said,
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Otac je imao zanimljiv odgovor:
11:15
"Well, for David, our son, I regret it,
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"Žalim zbog našeg sina Davida
11:17
because for David, it's a difficult way to be in the world,
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jer mu to otežava život
11:21
and I'd like to give David an easier life.
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i volio bih mu pružiti lakši život.
11:24
But I think if we lost everyone with Down syndrome, it would be a catastrophic loss."
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No mislim da bi gubitak svih osoba s Downom
bio katastrofalan gubitak.
bio katastrofalan gubitak.
11:29
And Karen Robards said to me, "I'm with Tom.
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Karen Robards mi je rekla:
"Slažem se s Tomom.
"Slažem se s Tomom.
11:32
For David, I would cure it in an instant to give him an easier life.
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Izliječila bih ga odmah
da mu pružim lakši život.
da mu pružim lakši život.
11:36
But speaking for myself -- well, I would never have believed 23 years ago when he was born
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Govoreći u svoje ime, ne bih nikad povjerovala,
kada se rodio prije 23 godine,
kada se rodio prije 23 godine,
11:41
that I could come to such a point --
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da ću doći do te točke.
11:43
speaking for myself, it's made me so much better and so much kinder
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Govoreći u svoje ime, postala sam
bolja i ljubaznija osoba
bolja i ljubaznija osoba
11:48
and so much more purposeful in my whole life,
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i moj život je toliko svrhovitiji
11:51
that speaking for myself, I wouldn't give it up for anything in the world."
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da to, govoreći u svoje ime,
ne bih mijenjala nizašto."
ne bih mijenjala nizašto."
11:57
We live at a point when social acceptance for these and many other conditions
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Živimo u vremenu kada je društveno
prihvaćanje ovog i mnogih drugih stanja
prihvaćanje ovog i mnogih drugih stanja
12:02
is on the up and up.
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u konstantnom porastu.
12:03
And yet we also live at the moment
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No također živimo u vremenu
12:05
when our ability to eliminate those conditions
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kada su naše mogućnosti
uklanjanja takvih stanja
uklanjanja takvih stanja
12:08
has reached a height we never imagined before.
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dosegle nezamislive razine.
12:11
Most deaf infants born in the United States now
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Većina američke novorođenčadi
12:14
will receive Cochlear implants,
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će dobiti umjetne pužnice
12:16
which are put into the brain and connected to a receiver,
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koje se usađuju u mozak
i povezuju s prijamnikom
i povezuju s prijamnikom
12:21
and which allow them to acquire a facsimile of hearing and to use oral speech.
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koji im omogućava da čuju i koriste govor.
12:26
A compound that has been tested in mice, BMN-111,
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Kemijski spoj BMN-111
koji je testiran na miševima
koji je testiran na miševima
12:30
is useful in preventing the action of the achondroplasia gene.
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je koristan u prevenciji djelovanja
gena za ahondroplaziju.
gena za ahondroplaziju.
12:35
Achondroplasia is the most common form of dwarfism,
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Ahonroplazija ja najčešći oblik
poremećaja patuljastog rasta.
poremećaja patuljastog rasta.
12:38
and mice who have been given that substance and who have the achondroplasia gene,
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Miševi koji su primili taj spoj
i koji imaju gen za ahondroplaziju
i koji imaju gen za ahondroplaziju
12:42
grow to full size.
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narastu do pune veličine.
12:44
Testing in humans is around the corner.
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Na korak smo do testiranja na ljudima.
12:46
There are blood tests which are making progress
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Razvijaju se testovi krvi
12:48
that would pick up Down syndrome more clearly and earlier in pregnancies than ever before,
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koji će prepoznati Downov sindrom u trudnoći
ranije i jasnije nego ikada do sada
ranije i jasnije nego ikada do sada
12:54
making it easier and easier for people to eliminate those pregnancies,
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te će biti sve lakše eliminirati
ili okončati
ili okončati
12:59
or to terminate them.
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takve trudnoće.
13:00
And so we have both social progress and medical progress.
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Uočavamo i društveni i medicinski napredak
13:05
And I believe in both of them.
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i vjerujem u oba.
13:07
I believe the social progress is fantastic and meaningful and wonderful,
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Vjerujem da je društveni napredak
izvanredan, značajan i predivan,
izvanredan, značajan i predivan,
13:11
and I think the same thing about the medical progress.
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a isto mislim i za medicinski napredak.
13:14
But I think it's a tragedy when one of them doesn't see the other.
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No mislim da je tragedija kada se
međusobno ne uočavaju.
međusobno ne uočavaju.
13:18
And when I see the way they're intersecting
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Kada vidim kako se presijecaju
13:20
in conditions like the three I've just described,
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u uvjetima poput ovih koje sam opisao,
13:23
I sometimes think it's like those moments in grand opera
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ponekad pomislim da je to kao kad u operi
13:26
when the hero realizes he loves the heroine
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junak shvati da voli junakinju
13:29
at the exact moment that she lies expiring on a divan.
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točno kada ona leži izdišući na sofi.
13:33
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
13:36
We have to think about how we feel about cures altogether.
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Moramo promisliti općenito o našim
stavovima prema lijekovima.
stavovima prema lijekovima.
13:40
And a lot of the time the question of parenthood is,
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Često se u roditeljstvu postavlja pitanje
13:43
what do we validate in our children,
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što uvažavamo kod naše djece,
13:45
and what do we cure in them?
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a što želimo izliječiti?
13:47
Jim Sinclair, a prominent autism activist, said,
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Istaknuti aktivist za autizam,
Jim Sinclair, je rekao:
Jim Sinclair, je rekao:
13:51
"When parents say 'I wish my child did not have autism,'
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"Kada roditelji kažu 'volio bih da
moje dijete nema autizam',
moje dijete nema autizam',
13:55
what they're really saying is 'I wish the child I have did not exist
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zapravo govore 'volio bih da
dijete koje imam ne postoji
dijete koje imam ne postoji
14:00
and I had a different, non-autistic child instead.'
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i da imam drugačije, ne-autistično dijete
umjesto ovog.'
umjesto ovog.'
14:04
Read that again. This is what we hear when you mourn over our existence.
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Razmislite o tome.
To čujemo kada oplakujete naše postojanje.
To čujemo kada oplakujete naše postojanje.
14:09
This is what we hear when you pray for a cure --
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To čujemo kada se molite za lijek --
14:12
that your fondest wish for us
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da je vaša najveća želja za nas
14:14
is that someday we will cease to be
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da jedan dan prestanemo postojati
14:17
and strangers you can love will move in behind our faces."
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i da se stranci koje ćete voljeti
usele iza naših lica."
usele iza naših lica."
14:22
It's a very extreme point of view,
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Ovo je vrlo ekstremno gledište,
14:25
but it points to the reality that people engage with the life they have
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no ukazuje na stvarnost u kojoj
se ljudi nose sa životom koji imaju
se ljudi nose sa životom koji imaju
14:29
and they don't want to be cured or changed or eliminated.
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i ne žele biti izliječeni, promijenjeni
ili eliminirani.
ili eliminirani.
14:34
They want to be whoever it is that they've come to be.
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Žele biti osobe kojima su postale.
14:37
One of the families I interviewed for this project
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Jedna od obitelji koju sam intervjuirao
za ovaj projekt
za ovaj projekt
14:41
was the family of Dylan Klebold who was one of the perpetrators of the Columbine massacre.
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je bila obitelj Dylana Klebolda,
jednog od počinitelja masakra u Columbineu.
jednog od počinitelja masakra u Columbineu.
14:46
It took a long time to persuade them to talk to me,
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Trebalo mi je dosta vremena da
ih nagovorim da razgovaraju sa mnom.
ih nagovorim da razgovaraju sa mnom.
14:49
and once they agreed, they were so full of their story
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Kada su konačno pristali
imali su toliko za reći
imali su toliko za reći
14:52
that they couldn't stop telling it.
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da se nisu mogli zaustaviti.
14:53
And the first weekend I spent with them -- the first of many --
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U prvom od mnogih vikenda koje
sam proveo s njima,
sam proveo s njima,
14:56
I recorded more than 20 hours of conversation.
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snimio sam više od 20 sati razgovora.
14:59
And on Sunday night, we were all exhausted.
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U nedjelju navečer smo svi bili iscrpljeni.
15:01
We were sitting in the kitchen. Sue Klebold was fixing dinner.
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Sjedili smo u kuhinji.
Sue Klebold je pripremala večeru.
Sue Klebold je pripremala večeru.
15:04
And I said, "If Dylan were here now,
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Rekao sam: "Da je Dylan sada ovdje,
15:07
do you have a sense of what you'd want to ask him?"
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imate li ideju što biste ga pitali?"
15:10
And his father said, "I sure do.
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Njegov otac je odgovorio: "Naravno da imam.
15:12
I'd want to ask him what the hell he thought he was doing."
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Pitao bih ga kog vraga je mislio da radi."
15:16
And Sue looked at the floor, and she thought for a minute.
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Sue je pogledala u pod i malo razmislila.
15:19
And then she looked back up and said,
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Digla je pogled i rekla:
15:21
"I would ask him to forgive me for being his mother
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"Pitala bih ga da mi
oprosti što sam mu bila majka
oprosti što sam mu bila majka
15:25
and never knowing what was going on inside his head."
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i što nisam znala
što se zbiva u njegovoj glavi."
što se zbiva u njegovoj glavi."
15:30
When I had dinner with her a couple of years later --
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Kada sam nakon par godina
s njom jeo večeru --
s njom jeo večeru --
15:33
one of many dinners that we had together --
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jednu od naših mnogih večera --
15:35
she said, "You know, when it first happened,
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rekla je: "Kada se to tek dogodilo,
15:38
I used to wish that I had never married, that I had never had children.
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priželjkivala sam da se nikad nisam udala,
da nikad nisam imala djecu.
da nikad nisam imala djecu.
15:42
If I hadn't gone to Ohio State and crossed paths with Tom,
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Da nisam otišla u Ohio i susrela Toma,
15:45
this child wouldn't have existed and this terrible thing wouldn't have happened.
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ovo dijete ne bi postojalo i ova
užasna stvar se ne bi nikad dogodila.
užasna stvar se ne bi nikad dogodila.
15:49
But I've come to feel that I love the children I had so much
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No s vremenom sam počela osjećati
da toliko volim djecu koju sam dobila
da toliko volim djecu koju sam dobila
15:54
that I don't want to imagine a life without them.
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da ne želim zamisliti život bez njih.
15:57
I recognize the pain they caused to others, for which there can be no forgiveness,
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Uviđam da za bol koju su nanijeli drugima
nema oprosta,
nema oprosta,
16:02
but the pain they caused to me, there is," she said.
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no za bol koju su nanijeli meni, ima.
16:05
"So while I recognize that it would have been better for the world
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Iako uviđam da bi za svijet bilo bolje
16:09
if Dylan had never been born,
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da se Dylan nikad nije rodio,
16:12
I've decided that it would not have been better for me."
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odlučila sam da
to ne bi bilo bolje za mene."
to ne bi bilo bolje za mene."
16:17
I thought it was surprising how all of these families had all of these children with all of these problems,
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Pomislio sam kako je iznenađujuće da sve
obitelji s djecom sa svim tim problemima,
obitelji s djecom sa svim tim problemima,
16:24
problems that they mostly would have done anything to avoid,
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problemima za koje
bi učinili sve da ih izbjegnu,
bi učinili sve da ih izbjegnu,
16:27
and that they had all found so much meaning in that experience of parenting.
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su pronašli toliko smisla u roditeljstvu.
16:30
And then I thought, all of us who have children
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Zatim sam pomislio, svi mi koji imamo djecu
16:34
love the children we have, with their flaws.
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volimo tu djecu zajedno s njihovim manama.
16:36
If some glorious angel suddenly descended through my living room ceiling
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Da se blistavi anđeo iznenada spusti kroz
strop moje dnevne sobe
strop moje dnevne sobe
16:41
and offered to take away the children I have
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i ponudi mi da će djecu koju imam
16:43
and give me other, better children -- more polite, funnier, nicer, smarter --
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zamijeniti drugom, boljom djecom -
pristojnijom, ljubaznijom, pametnijom
pristojnijom, ljubaznijom, pametnijom
16:49
I would cling to the children I have and pray away that atrocious spectacle.
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čvrsto bih zgrabio djecu koju imam
i molio da taj strahoviti prizor nestane.
i molio da taj strahoviti prizor nestane.
16:54
And ultimately I feel
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U konačnici osjećam
16:56
that in the same way that we test flame-retardant pajamas in an inferno
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da na isti način testiramo
pidžame otporne na vatru
pidžame otporne na vatru
17:00
to ensure they won't catch fire when our child reaches across the stove,
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kako bi osigurali da se neće zapaliti
kada naše dijete posegne preko štednjaka,
kada naše dijete posegne preko štednjaka,
17:05
so these stories of families negotiating these extreme differences
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tako i ove priče o obiteljima koje
savlađuju ekstremne razlike
savlađuju ekstremne razlike
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reflect on the universal experience of parenting,
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odražavaju univerzalno
iskustvo roditeljstva,
iskustvo roditeljstva,
17:11
which is always that sometimes you look at your child and you think,
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a to je da ponekad pogledate
svoje dijete i pomislite:
svoje dijete i pomislite:
17:15
where did you come from?
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otkud si ti došao?
17:18
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
17:20
It turns out that while each of these individual differences is siloed --
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Ispostavlja se da, iako je svaka od ovih
individualnih razlika zasebna --
individualnih razlika zasebna --
17:25
there are only so many families dealing with schizophrenia,
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postoji određeni broj obitelji
koje se nose sa shizofrenijom,
koje se nose sa shizofrenijom,
17:28
there are only so many families of children who are transgender,
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samo određeni broj obitelji
čija su djeca transrodna,
čija su djeca transrodna,
17:30
there are only so many families of prodigies --
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samo određeni broj obitelji
s iznimno nadarenom djecom --
s iznimno nadarenom djecom --
17:32
who also face similar challenges in many ways --
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koji se suočavaju sa sličnim izazovima --
17:35
there are only so many families in each of those categories --
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postoji samo određeni broj obitelji
u svakoj od ovih kategorija --
u svakoj od ovih kategorija --
17:37
but if you start to think
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no ako počnete razmišljati
17:39
that the experience of negotiating difference within your family
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da je iskustvo savlađivanja razlika
unutar vaše obitelji
unutar vaše obitelji
17:42
is what people are addressing,
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ono što ljudi pokušavaju riješiti,
17:44
then you discover that it's a nearly universal phenomenon.
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tada shvatite da se radi o
gotovo univerzalnom fenomenu.
gotovo univerzalnom fenomenu.
17:48
Ironically, it turns out, that it's our differences, and our negotiation of difference,
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Ironično, ispostavlja se da su upravo
razlike i naše savlađivanje razlika
razlike i naše savlađivanje razlika
ono što nas ujedinjuje.
17:53
that unite us.
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17:55
I decided to have children while I was working on this project.
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Odlučio sam imati djecu
dok sam radio na ovom projektu.
dok sam radio na ovom projektu.
18:01
And many people were astonished and said,
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Mnogi su bili zaprepašteni i govorili su:
18:04
"But how can you decide to have children
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"Kako možeš odlučiti imati djecu
18:05
in the midst of studying everything that can go wrong?"
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usred istraživanja što
sve može poći po zlu?"
sve može poći po zlu?"
18:10
And I said, "I'm not studying everything that can go wrong.
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Odgovorio sam: "Ne istražujem
što sve može poći po zlu.
što sve može poći po zlu.
18:13
What I'm studying is how much love there can be,
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Istražujem koliko ljubavi može postojati
18:16
even when everything appears to be going wrong."
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čak i kad se čini da sve ide po zlu."
18:21
I thought a lot about the mother of one disabled child I had seen,
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Puno sam razmišljao o majci
jednog djeteta s poteškoćama,
jednog djeteta s poteškoćama,
18:26
a severely disabled child who died through caregiver neglect.
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djeteta s ozbiljnim invaliditetom koje
je umrlo zbog njegovateljeva zanemarivanja.
je umrlo zbog njegovateljeva zanemarivanja.
18:30
And when his ashes were interred, his mother said,
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Kada su ga sahranili,
njegova majka je rekla:
njegova majka je rekla:
18:33
"I pray here for forgiveness for having been twice robbed,
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"Molim za oprost jer mi je dvaput oduzeto,
18:41
once of the child I wanted and once of the son I loved."
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jednom dijete koje sam željela
i jednom sin kojeg sam voljela."
i jednom sin kojeg sam voljela."
18:47
And I figured it was possible then for anyone to love any child
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Tada sam shvatio da svatko
može voljeti dijete
može voljeti dijete
18:52
if they had the effective will to do so.
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ako imaju stvarnu želju.
18:54
So my husband is the biological father of two children
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Moj suprug je biološki otac dvoje djece
18:59
with some lesbian friends in Minneapolis.
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prijateljica lezbijki iz Minneapolisa.
19:02
I had a close friend from college who'd gone through a divorce and wanted to have children.
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Imam blisku prijateljicu s fakulteta
koja se razvela, a htjela je imati djecu
koja se razvela, a htjela je imati djecu
19:08
And so she and I have a daughter,
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pa s njom imam kćer
19:10
and mother and daughter live in Texas.
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i njih dvije žive u Texasu.
19:12
And my husband and I have a son who lives with us all the time
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Moj suprug i ja imamo sina koji živi s nama
19:15
of whom I am the biological father,
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čiji sam ja biološki otac,
19:17
and our surrogate for the pregnancy was Laura,
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a surogat majka je Laura,
19:21
the lesbian mother of Oliver and Lucy in Minneapolis.
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lezbijska majka Olivera i Lucy
iz Minneapolisa.
iz Minneapolisa.
19:24
(Applause)
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(Pljesak)
19:33
So the shorthand is five parents of four children in three states.
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Ukratko, pet roditelja,
četvero djece, tri države.
četvero djece, tri države.
19:39
And there are people who think that the existence of my family
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Postoje ljudi koji misle
da postojanje moje obitelji
da postojanje moje obitelji
19:42
somehow undermines or weakens or damages their family.
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nekako potkopava, oslabljuje ili oštećuje
njihovu obitelj.
njihovu obitelj.
19:47
And there are people who think that families like mine
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Postoje ljudi koji misle
da obitelji poput moje
da obitelji poput moje
19:50
shouldn't be allowed to exist.
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ne bi smjele postojati.
19:52
And I don't accept subtractive models of love, only additive ones.
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Ja ne prihvaćam oduzimajuće
modele ljubavi, već samo dodajuće.
modele ljubavi, već samo dodajuće.
19:58
And I believe that in the same way that we need species diversity
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Vjerujem da kao što
je potrebna raznolikost vrsta
je potrebna raznolikost vrsta
20:01
to ensure that the planet can go on,
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da bi se osigurao opstanak planete,
20:03
so we need this diversity of affection and diversity of family
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isto tako je potrebna raznolikost ljubavi
i raznolikost obitelji
i raznolikost obitelji
20:08
in order to strengthen the ecosphere of kindness.
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kako bi ojačala ekosfera dobrote.
20:12
The day after our son was born,
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Dan nakon što nam se rodio sin,
20:15
the pediatrician came into the hospital room and said she was concerned.
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pedijatrica je došla u bolničku sobu
i rekla da je zabrinuta.
i rekla da je zabrinuta.
20:19
He wasn't extending his legs appropriately.
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Nije pružao noge kako treba.
20:22
She said that might mean that he had brain damage.
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Rekla je da to možda znači da ima oštećenje mozga.
20:25
In so far as he was extending them, he was doing so asymmetrically,
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Noge je pružao asimetrično
20:29
which she thought could mean that there was a tumor of some kind in action.
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te je ona mislila da to može značiti da
ima neku vrst tumora.
ima neku vrst tumora.
20:32
And he had a very large head, which she thought might indicate hydrocephalus.
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Također je imao veliku glavu
i mislila da to ukazuje na hidrocefalus.
i mislila da to ukazuje na hidrocefalus.
20:37
And as she told me all of these things,
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Dok mi je govorila sve te stvari,
20:39
I felt the very center of my being pouring out onto the floor.
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osjetio sam kako mi utroba tone.
20:43
And I thought, here I had been working for years
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Pomislio sam kako godinama radim
20:45
on a book about how much meaning people had found
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na knjizi o tome koliko su
smisla ljudi našli
smisla ljudi našli
20:48
in the experience of parenting children who are disabled,
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u iskustvu podizanja djece s poteškoćama,
20:51
and I didn't want to join their number.
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ali ja im se nisam želio pridružiti.
20:55
Because what I was encountering was an idea of illness.
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Ono s čime sam se suočavao
je bila ideja bolesti.
je bila ideja bolesti.
20:58
And like all parents since the dawn of time,
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I kao i svi roditelji otkad je svijeta,
21:00
I wanted to protect my child from illness.
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želio sam zaštititi svoje dijete od bolesti.
21:03
And I wanted also to protect myself from illness.
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Želio sam zaštititi i sebe od bolesti.
21:07
And yet, I knew from the work I had done
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Ipak sam znao iz rada kojim sam se bavio
21:09
that if he had any of the things we were about to start testing for,
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da bude li imao ijednu od stvari
za koje su ga krenuli testirati,
za koje su ga krenuli testirati,
21:13
that those would ultimately be his identity,
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one će u konačnici biti njegov identitet
21:16
and if they were his identity they would become my identity,
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i ako budu njegov identitet postat će i moj
21:21
that that illness was going to take a very different shape as it unfolded.
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te će ta bolest poprimiti drugačiji oblik
kako vrijeme bude prolazilo.
kako vrijeme bude prolazilo.
21:25
We took him to the MRI machine, we took him to the CAT scanner,
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Odveli smo ga na magnetsku rezonancu i CT,
21:28
we took this day-old child and gave him over for an arterial blood draw.
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djete staro jedan dan smo odveli na vađenje krvi.
Osjećali smo se bespomoćno.
21:32
We felt helpless.
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21:33
And at the end of five hours,
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Pet sati kasnije
21:34
they said that his brain was completely clear
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rekli su da mu je mozak potpuno čist
21:37
and that he was by then extending his legs correctly.
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i da je počeo pružati noge kako treba.
21:40
And when I asked the pediatrician what had been going on,
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Kada sam upitao pedijatricu što je bilo,
21:43
she said she thought in the morning he had probably had a cramp.
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rekla mi je da je vjerojatno
imao grč u nozi.
imao grč u nozi.
21:47
(Laughter)
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(Smijeh)
21:51
But I thought how my mother was right.
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Pomislio sam kako mi je
majka bila u pravu.
majka bila u pravu.
21:58
I thought, the love you have for your children
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Pomislio sam kako
ljubav prema svom djetetu
ljubav prema svom djetetu
22:02
is unlike any other feeling in the world,
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nije usporediva s
nijednim drugim osjećajem
nijednim drugim osjećajem
22:05
and until you have children, you don't know what it feels like.
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i dok nemate djecu, ne znate kako je to.
22:11
I think children had ensnared me
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Mislim da su me djeca uhvatila u zamku
22:14
the moment I connected fatherhood with loss.
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onaj trenutak kad sam
povezao očinstvo s gubitkom.
povezao očinstvo s gubitkom.
No nisam siguran da bih to primjetio
22:17
But I'm not sure I would have noticed that
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22:19
if I hadn't been so in the thick of this research project of mine.
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da nisam bio usred
svog istraživačkog projekta.
svog istraživačkog projekta.
Susreo sam toliko neobične ljubavi
22:25
I'd encountered so much strange love,
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22:28
and I fell very naturally into its bewitching patterns.
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te sam se prirodno uklopio
u njen očaravajući obrazac.
u njen očaravajući obrazac.
Vidio sam kako sjaj može osvijetliti
čak i najbijednije ranjivosti.
čak i najbijednije ranjivosti.
22:32
And I saw how splendor can illuminate even the most abject vulnerabilities.
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22:38
During these 10 years, I had witnessed and learned
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Tijekom tih deset godina
svjedočio sam i učio
svjedočio sam i učio
o zastrašujućoj radosti
nepodnošljive odgovornosti
nepodnošljive odgovornosti
22:42
the terrifying joy of unbearable responsibility,
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te sam spoznao kako pobjeđuje sve ostalo.
22:46
and I had come to see how it conquers everything else.
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Iako sam ponekad mislio da su roditelji
koje sam intervjuirao budale
koje sam intervjuirao budale
22:49
And while I had sometimes thought the parents I was interviewing were fools,
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koje su se osudile na doživotno putovanje
s nezahvalnom djecom
s nezahvalnom djecom
22:54
enslaving themselves to a lifetime's journey with their thankless children
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i koje pokušavaju
izroditi identitet iz jada,
izroditi identitet iz jada,
22:58
and trying to breed identity out of misery,
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shvatio sam da mi je moje istraživanje
izgradilo most
izgradilo most
23:01
I realized that day that my research had built me a plank
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te da sam bio spreman pridružiti im se
na njihovom putovanju.
na njihovom putovanju.
23:06
and that I was ready to join them on their ship.
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Hvala vam.
23:09
Thank you.
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(Pljesak)
23:11
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Andrew Solomon - WriterAndrew Solomon writes about politics, culture and psychology.
Why you should listen
Andrew Solomon is a writer, lecturer and Professor of Clinical Psychology at Columbia University. He is president of PEN American Center. He writes regularly for The New Yorker and the New York Times.
Solomon's newest book, Far and Away: Reporting from the Brink of Change, Seven Continents, Twenty-Five Years was published in April, 2016. His previous book, Far From the Tree: Parents, Children, and the Search for Identity won the National Book Critics Circle award for nonfiction, the Wellcome Prize and 22 other national awards. It tells the stories of parents who not only learn to deal with their exceptional children but also find profound meaning in doing so. It was a New York Times bestseller in both hardcover and paperback editions. Solomon's previous book, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression, won the 2001 National Book Award for Nonfiction, was a finalist for the 2002 Pulitzer Prize and was included in The Times of London's list of one hundred best books of the decade. It has been published in twenty-four languages. Solomon is also the author of the novel A Stone Boat and of The Irony Tower: Soviet Artists in a Time of Glasnost.
Solomon is an activist in LGBT rights, mental health, education and the arts. He is a member of the boards of directors of the National LGBTQ Force and Trans Youth Family Allies. He is a member of the Board of Visitors of Columbia University Medical Center, serves on the National Advisory Board of the Depression Center at the University of Michigan, is a director of Columbia Psychiatry and is a member of the Advisory Board of the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance. Solomon also serves on the boards of the Metropolitan Museum of Art, Yaddo and The Alex Fund, which supports the education of Romani children. He is also a fellow of Berkeley College at Yale University and a member of the New York Institute for the Humanities and the Council on Foreign Relations.
Solomon lives with his husband and son in New York and London and is a dual national. He also has a daughter with a college friend; mother and daughter live in Texas but visit often.
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