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Sebastian Junger: Why veterans miss war
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Civilians don't miss war. But soldiers often do. Journalist Sebastian Junger shares his experience embedded with American soldiers at Restrepo, an outpost in Afghanistan's Korengal Valley that saw heavy combat. Giving a look at the "altered state of mind" that comes with war, he shows how combat gives soldiers an intense experience of connection. In the end, could it actually be "the opposite of war" that soldiers miss?
Sebastian Junger - Journalist and documentarian
The author of "The Perfect Storm" and the director of the documentaries "Restrepo" and "Korengal," Sebastian Junger tells non-fiction stories with grit and emotion. Full bio
The author of "The Perfect Storm" and the director of the documentaries "Restrepo" and "Korengal," Sebastian Junger tells non-fiction stories with grit and emotion. Full bio
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I'm going to ask and try to answer,
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in some ways, kind of an uncomfortable question.
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Both civilians, obviously, and soldiers
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suffer in war;
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I don't think any civilian has ever missed
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the war that they were subjected to.
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I've been covering wars for almost 20 years,
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and one of the remarkable things for me
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is how many soldiers find themselves missing it.
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How is it someone can go through
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the worst experience imaginable,
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and come home, back to their home,
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and their family, their country, and miss the war?
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How does that work? What does it mean?
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We have to answer that question,
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because if we don't, it'll be impossible
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to bring soldiers back
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to a place in society where they belong,
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and I think it'll also be impossible to stop war,
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if we don't understand how that mechanism works.
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The problem is that war
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does not have a simple, neat truth,
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one simple, neat truth.
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Any sane person hates war,
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hates the idea of war,
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wouldn't want to have anything to do with it,
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doesn't want to be near it,
doesn't want to know about it.
doesn't want to know about it.
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That's a sane response to war.
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But if I asked all of you in this room,
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who here has paid money
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to go to a cinema
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and be entertained by a Hollywood war movie,
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most of you would probably raise your hands.
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That's what's so complicated about war.
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And trust me, if a room full of peace-loving people
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finds something compelling about war,
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so do 20-year-old soldiers
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who have been trained in it, I promise you.
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That's the thing that has to be understood.
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I've covered war for about 20 years, as I said,
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but my most intense experiences in combat
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were with American soldiers in Afghanistan.
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I've been in Africa, the Middle East,
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Afghanistan in the '90s,
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but it was with American soldiers in 2007, 2008,
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that I was confronted with
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very intense combat.
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I was in a small valley called the Korengal Valley
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in eastern Afghanistan.
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It was six miles long.
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There were 150 men of
Battle Company in that valley,
Battle Company in that valley,
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and for a while, while I was there,
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almost 20 percent of all the combat
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in all of Afghanistan was happening
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in those six miles.
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A hundred and fifty men were absorbing
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almost a fifth of the combat for all of NATO forces
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in the country, for a couple months.
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It was very intense.
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I spent most of my time at a small outpost
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called Restrepo.
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It was named after the platoon medic
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that had been killed about two
months into the deployment.
months into the deployment.
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It was a few plywood B-huts
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clinging to a side of a ridge,
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and sandbags, bunkers, gun positions,
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and there were 20 men up there
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of Second Platoon, Battle Company.
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I spent most of my time up there.
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There was no running water.
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There was no way to bathe.
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The guys were up there for a month at a time.
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They never even got out of their clothes.
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They fought. The worked.
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They slept in the same clothes.
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They never took them off,
and at the end of the month,
and at the end of the month,
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they went back down to the company headquarters,
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and by then, their clothes were unwearable.
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They burned them and got a new set.
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There was no Internet. There was no phone.
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There was no communication
with the outside world up there.
with the outside world up there.
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There was no cooked food.
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There was nothing up there
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that young men typically like:
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no cars, no girls, no television, nothing
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except combat.
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Combat they did learn to like.
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I remember one day, it was a very hot day
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in the spring,
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and we hadn't been in a fight
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in a couple of weeks, maybe.
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Usually, the outpost was attacked,
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and we hadn't seen any
combat in a couple of weeks,
combat in a couple of weeks,
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and everyone was just stunned
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with boredom and heat.
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And I remember the lieutenant walking past me
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sort of stripped to the waist.
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It was incredibly hot.
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Stripped to the waist, walked past me muttering,
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"Oh God, please someone attack us today."
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That's how bored they were.
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That's war too, is a lieutenant saying,
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"Please make something happen
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because we're going crazy."
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To understand that,
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you have to, for a moment,
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think about combat not morally --
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that's an important job to do —
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but for a moment, don't think about it morally,
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think about it neurologically.
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Let's think about what happens in your brain
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when you're in combat.
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First of all, the experience
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is very bizarre, it's a very bizarre one.
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It's not what I had expected.
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Usually, you're not scared.
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I've been very scared in combat,
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but most of the time when I was out there,
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I wasn't scared.
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I was very scared beforehand
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and incredibly scared afterwards,
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and that fear that comes afterwards can last years.
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I haven't been shot at in six years,
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and I was woken up very abruptly this morning
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by a nightmare that I was being strafed by aircraft,
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six years later.
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I've never even been strafed by aircraft,
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and I was having nightmares about it.
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Time slows down.
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You get this weird tunnel vision.
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You notice some details very, very, very accurately
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and other things drop out.
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It's almost a slightly altered state of mind.
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What's happening in your brain
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is you're getting an enormous amount of adrenaline
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pumped through your system.
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Young men will go to great lengths
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to have that experience.
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It's wired into us.
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It's hormonally supported.
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The mortality rate for young men in society
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is six times what it is for young women
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from violence and from accidents,
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just the stupid stuff that young men do:
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jumping off of things they shouldn't jump off of,
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lighting things on fire they shouldn't light on fire,
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I mean, you know what I'm talking about.
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They die at six times the rate
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that young women do.
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Statistically, you are safer as a teenage boy,
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you would be safer in the fire department
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or the police department in most American cities
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than just walking around the
streets of your hometown
streets of your hometown
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looking for something to do,
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statistically.
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You can imagine how that plays out in combat.
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At Restrepo, every guy up there was almost killed,
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including me,
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including my good friend Tim Hetherington,
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who was later killed in Libya.
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There were guys walking around
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with bullet holes in their uniforms,
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rounds that had cut through the fabric
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and didn't touch their bodies.
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I was leaning against some sandbags one morning,
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not much going on, sort of spacing out,
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and some sand was kicked into the side of,
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sort of hit the side of my face.
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Something hit the side of my face,
and I didn't know what it was.
and I didn't know what it was.
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You have to understand about bullets
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that they go a lot faster than sound,
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so if someone shoots at you
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from a few hundred meters,
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the bullet goes by you, or hits you obviously,
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half a second or so before
the sound catches up to it.
the sound catches up to it.
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So I had some sand sprayed in the side of my face.
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Half a second later, I heard dut-dut-dut-dut-duh.
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It was machine gun fire.
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It was the first round, the first burst
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of an hour-long firefight.
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What had happened was the bullet hit,
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a bullet hit three or four inches
from the side of my head.
from the side of my head.
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Imagine, just think about it, because I certainly did,
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think about the angle of deviation that saved my life.
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At 400 meters, it missed me by three inches.
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Just think about the math on that.
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Every guy up there
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had some experience like that,
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at least once, if not many times.
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The boys are up there for a year.
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They got back.
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Some of them got out of the Army
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and had tremendous psychological
problems when they got home.
problems when they got home.
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Some of them stayed in the Army
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and were more or less okay, psychologically.
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I was particularly close to a
guy named Brendan O'Byrne.
guy named Brendan O'Byrne.
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I'm still very good friends with him.
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He came back to the States. He got out of the Army.
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I had a dinner party one night.
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I invited him,
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and he started talking with a woman,
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one of my friends,
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and she knew how bad it had been out there,
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and she said, "Brendan,
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is there anything at all that you miss about
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being out in Afghanistan, about the war?"
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And he thought about it quite a long time,
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and finally he said, "Ma'am, I miss almost all of it."
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And he's one of the most traumatized people
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I've seen from that war.
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"Ma'am, I miss almost all of it."
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What is he talking about?
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He's not a psychopath.
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He doesn't miss killing people.
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He's not crazy. He doesn't miss getting shot at
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and seeing his friends get killed.
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What is it that he misses? We have to answer that.
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If we're going to stop war, we
have to answer that question.
have to answer that question.
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I think what he missed is brotherhood.
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He missed, in some ways,
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the opposite of killing.
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What he missed was connection
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to the other men he was with.
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Now, brotherhood is different from friendship.
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Friendship happens in society, obviously.
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The more you like someone,
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the more you'd be willing to do for them.
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Brotherhood has nothing to do
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with how you feel about the other person.
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It's a mutual agreement in a group
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that you will put the welfare of the group,
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you will put the safety of everyone in the group
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above your own.
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In effect, you're saying,
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"I love these other people more than I love myself."
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Brendan was a team leader
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in command of three men,
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and the worst day in Afghanistan —
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He was almost killed so many times.
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It didn't bother him.
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The worst thing that happened to him in Afghanistan
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was one of his men was hit in the head with a bullet
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in the helmet, knocked him over.
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They thought he was dead.
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It was in the middle of a huge firefight.
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No one could deal with it, and a minute later,
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Kyle Steiner sat back up
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from the dead, as it were,
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because he'd come back to consciousness.
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The bullet had just knocked him out.
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It glanced off the helmet.
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He remembers people saying,
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as he was sort of half-conscious,
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he remembers people saying,
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"Steiner's been hit in the head. Steiner's dead."
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And he was thinking, "I'm not dead."
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And he sat up.
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And Brendan realized after that
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that he could not protect his men,
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and that was the only time he cried in Afghanistan,
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was realizing that.
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That's brotherhood.
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This wasn't invented recently.
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Many of you have probably read "The Iliad."
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Achilles surely would have risked his life
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or given his life to save his friend Patroclus.
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In World War II, there were many stories
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of soldiers who were wounded,
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were brought to a rear base hospital,
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who went AWOL,
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crawled out of windows, slipped out doors,
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went AWOL, wounded,
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to make their way back to the front lines
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to rejoin their brothers out there.
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So you think about Brendan,
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you think about all these soldiers
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having an experience like that, a bond like that,
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in a small group,
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where they loved 20 other people
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in some ways more than they loved themselves,
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you think about how good that would feel, imagine it,
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and they are blessed with that experience for a year,
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and then they come home,
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and they are just back in society
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like the rest of us are,
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not knowing who they can count on,
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not knowing who loves them, who they can love,
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not knowing exactly what anyone they know
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would do for them if it came down to it.
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That is terrifying.
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Compared to that,
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war, psychologically, in some ways, is easy,
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compared to that kind of alienation.
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That's why they miss it,
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and that's what we have to understand
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and in some ways fix in our society.
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Thank you very much.
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Sebastian Junger - Journalist and documentarianThe author of "The Perfect Storm" and the director of the documentaries "Restrepo" and "Korengal," Sebastian Junger tells non-fiction stories with grit and emotion.
Why you should listen
Sebastian Junger thundered onto the media landscape with his non-fiction book, The Perfect Storm. A correspondent for Vanity Fair and ABC News, Junger has covered stories all across the globe, igniting a new interest in non-fiction. One of his main interests: war.
From 2007 to 2008, Junger and photographer Tim Hetherington embedded with the 173rd Airborne Brigade Combat Team in Afghanistan. They spent intensive time with the soldiers at the Restrepo outpost in the Korengal Valley, which saw more combat than any other part of Afghanistan. The experience became Junger's book WAR, and the documentary "Restrepo," which was nominated for the Academy Award for Best Documentary in 2011.
Junger and Hetherington planned to make a second documentary on the topic, "Korengal," meant to help soldiers and civilians alike understand the fear, courage and complexity involved in combat. It's a project that Junger decided to carry on after Hetherington was killed in Libya while covering the civil war there. Junger self-financed and released the film.
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