TEDMED 2010
Charity Tillemann-Dick: Singing after a double lung transplant
Charity Tillemann-Dicková: Spev po obojstrannej transplantácii pľúc.
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„Nikdy viac nebudete spievať", povedal jej doktor. V príbehu z úplného okraja medicínskej pravdepodobnosti však operná sopranistka Charity Tillemann-Dicková hovorí o dvojitom príbehu prežitia, prežitia jej tela pri dvojnásobnej transplantácii pľúc a prežitia jej ducha, ktorý bol poháňaný neotrasiteľnou vôľou spievať. Pôsobivý príbeh z konferencie TEDMED 2010.
Charity Tillemann-Dick - Soprano
Charity Tillemann-Dick is a soprano who has appeared on opera and concert stages around the world. Her roles have included Titania in "A Midsummer's Night Dream," Gilda in "Rigoletto" and Violetta in "La Traviata." Full bio
Charity Tillemann-Dick is a soprano who has appeared on opera and concert stages around the world. Her roles have included Titania in "A Midsummer's Night Dream," Gilda in "Rigoletto" and Violetta in "La Traviata." Full bio
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You may not know this,
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Možno to neviete,
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but you are celebrating an anniversary with me.
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ale spolu so mnou oslavujete výročie.
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I'm not married,
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Nie som vydatá,
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but one year ago today,
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ale dnes presne pred rokom
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I woke up
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som sa prebrala
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from a month-long coma,
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z jednomesačnej kómy,
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following a double lung transplant.
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ktorá nasledovala po obojstrannej transplantácii pľúc.
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Crazy, I know. Insane.
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Bláznivé, viem. Šialené.
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Thank you.
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Ďakujem.
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Six years before that,
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Šesť rokov predtým
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I was starting my career
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som začínala svoju kariéru
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as an opera singer in Europe,
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opernej speváčky v Európe,
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when I was diagnosed with
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keď mi bola diagnostikovaná
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idiopathic pulmonary hypertension --
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idiopatická pľúcna hypertenzia,
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also known as PH.
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tiež známa ako PH.
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It happens when there's a thickening
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Dochádza k nej pri zhrubnutí
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in the pulmonary veins,
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pľúcnych žíl,
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making the right side of the heart
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čo núti pravú stranu srdca
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work overtime,
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pracovať nadčas
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and causing what I call
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a spôsobuje tak to, čo nazývam
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the reverse-Grinch effect.
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obrátený Grinchov efekt.
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My heart was three-and-a-half sizes
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Moje srdce bolo tri a polkrát väčšie
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too big.
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ako normálne.
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Physical activity becomes very difficult
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Pre ľudí v tomto stave sa fyzická aktivita
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for people with this condition,
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stáva veľmi zložitou
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and usually after two to five years,
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a zvyčajne po dvoch až piatich rokoch
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you die.
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zomriete.
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I went to see this specialist,
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Išla som k špecialistke,
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and she was top-of-the-field
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ktorá bola špičkou v odbore
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and told me I had to stop singing.
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a tá povedala, že musím prestať spievať.
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She said, "Those high notes are going to kill you."
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Povedala: „Tie vysoké noty vás zabijú."
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While she didn't have any medical evidence
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Hoci nemala žiadny lekársky dôkaz,
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to back up her claim
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ktorý by podporil jej tvrdenie o tom,
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that there was a relationship
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že existuje vzťah
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between operatic arias
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medzi opernými áriami
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and pulmonary hypertension,
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a pľúcnou hypertenziou,
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she was absolutely emphatic
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bola absolútne empatická.
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I was singing my own obituary.
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Spievala som si vlastný nekrológ.
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I was very limited by my condition, physically.
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Svojím stavom som bola fyzicky veľmi obmedzovaná,
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But I was not limited when I sang,
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ale nie vtedy, keď som spievala
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and as air came up from my lungs,
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a keď vzduch vychádzal z mojich pľúc
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through my vocal cords
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cez hlasivky
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and passed my lips as sound,
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a prechádzal mi perami ako zvuk,
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it was the closest thing I had ever come
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bolo to najbližšie k tomu, keď som vôbec kedy bola schopná
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to transcendence.
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ísť za hranice
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And just because of someone's hunch,
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a len kvôli predtuche nejakého človeka
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I wasn't going to give it up.
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som sa spevu vzdať nehodlala.
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Thankfully, I met Reda Girgis,
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Našťastie som stretla Redu Girgisa,
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who is dry as toast,
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ktorý je suchý ako hrianka,
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but he and his team at Johns Hopkins
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ale so svojím tímom v nemocnici Johna Hopkinsa nechceli,
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didn't just want me to survive,
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aby som len prežila.
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they wanted me
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Chceli,
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to live a meaningful life.
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aby som žila zmysluplný život.
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This meant making trade-offs.
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Znamenalo to vykonanie kompromisu.
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I come from Colorado.
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Pochádzam z Colorada.
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It's a mile high,
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Nachádza sa 1,6 km nad hladinou mora
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and I grew up there with my 10 brothers and sisters
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a vyrastala som tam so svojími 10 bratmi a sestrami
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and two adoring parents.
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a dvoma milujúcimi rodičmi.
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Well, the altitude exacerbated my symptoms.
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Nadmorská výška však moje symptómy zhoršila.
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So I moved to Baltimore to be near my doctors
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Presťahovala som sa teda do mesta Baltimore, aby som bola bližšie k mojím doktorom
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and enrolled in a conservatory nearby.
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a zapísala som sa na blízke konzervatórium.
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I couldn't walk as much as I used to,
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Nemohla som chodiť tak veľa ako som bola zvyknutá,
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so I opted for five-inch heels.
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tak som si vybrala 12,7 cm podpätky,
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And I gave up salt,
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vzdala som sa soli,
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I went vegan,
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stala som sa vegánkou
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and I started taking huge doses of
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a začala brať vysoké dávky
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sildenafil,
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sildenafilu,
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also known as Viagra.
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tiež známeho ako Viagra.
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(Laughter)
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(Smiech)
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My father and my grandfather were always looking for the newest thing
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Môj otec a starý otec vždy hľadali najnovšie veci
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in alternative or traditional therapies
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v alternatívnych alebo tradičných terapiách
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for PH,
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pre PH,
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but after six months,
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ale o šesť mesiacov
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I couldn't walk up a small hill. I couldn't climb a flight of stairs.
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som nemohla vyjsť na malý kopec, nemohla som vyjsť po schodoch na ďalšie poschodie,
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I could barely stand up
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sotva som stála bez toho,
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without feeling like I was going to faint.
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aby som mala pocit, že odpadnem.
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I had a heart catheterization,
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Podstúpila som katerizáciu srdca,
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where they measure this internal arterial pulmonary pressure,
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kde sa meria vnútorný pľúcny arteriálny tlak,
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which is supposed to be between 15 and 20.
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ktorý by mal byť medzi hodnotami 15 a 20.
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Mine was 146.
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Môj bol 146.
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I like to do things big,
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Rada robím veľké veci
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and it meant one thing:
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a to znamenalo jedno.
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there is a big gun treatment
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Na pľúcnu hypertenziu existuje brutálna liečba,
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for pulmonary hypertension called Flolan,
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ktorá sa nazýva Flolan.
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and it's not just a drug;
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Nie je to len liek,
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it's a way of life.
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je to spôsob života.
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Doctors insert a catheter into your chest,
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Doktori vám do hrudníka zavedú katéter,
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which is attached to a pump
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ktorý je napojený na pumpu,
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that weighs about four-and-a-half pounds.
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ktorá váži asi 2 kg.
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Every day, 24 hours, that pump is at your side,
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Každý deň, 24 hodín, máte túto pumpu na svojom boku
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administering medicine
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a tá vám podáva liek
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directly to your heart,
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priamo do srdca.
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and it's not
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V mnohých ohľadoch
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a particularly preferable
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to nie je obzvášť lepší
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medicine in many senses.
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liek.
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This is a list of the side effects:
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Toto je zoznam vedľajších účinkov.
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if you eat too much salt,
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Ak zjete priveľa soli,
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like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich,
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ako napríklad arašidové maslo a džem s chlebom,
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you'll probably end up in the ICU.
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pravdepodobne skončíte na jednotke intenzívnej starostlivosti.
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If you go through a metal detector,
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Ak prejdete cez detektor kovov,
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you'll probably die.
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pravdepodobne zomriete.
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If you get a bubble in your medicine --
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Ak sa vo vašom lieku objaví bublinka,
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because you have to mix it every morning --
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pretože každé ráno si ho musíte namiešať,
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and it stays in there,
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a tá tam ostane,
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you probably die.
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pravdepodobne zomriete.
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If you run out of medicine, you definitely die.
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Ak vám liek dôjde, určite zomriete.
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No one wants to go on Flolan.
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Nikto nechce brať Flolan,
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But when I needed it,
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ale keď som ho potrebovala,
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it was a godsend.
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bol to dar z neba.
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Within a few days, I could walk again.
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O pár dní som mohla opäť chodiť.
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Within a few weeks, I was performing,
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Behom pár týžňov som vystupovala
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and in a few months,
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a o niekoľko mesiacov
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I debuted at the Kennedy Center.
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som debutovala v Kennedyho centre.
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The pump was a little bit problematic when performing,
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Keď som vystupovala, tak to bolo s pumpou problematické
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so I'd attach it to my inner thigh
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a tak som si ju pripevnila na vnútornú stranu stehna
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with the help of the girdle and an ACE bandage.
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pomocou podväzkového pásu a elastického obväzu.
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Literally hundreds of elevator rides
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Ja sama som strávila doslova
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were spent with me alone
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stovky jázd výťahom tak,
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stuffing the pump into my Spanx,
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že som sa snažila napchať pumpu do mojich pančúch Spanx
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hoping the doors wouldn't open unexpectedly.
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a dúfala, že dvere sa neočakávane neotvoria
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And the tubing coming out of my chest
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a hadička, ktorá mi vychádzala z hrudníka,
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was a nightmare for costume designers.
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bola nočnou morou pre kostýmových návrhárov.
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I graduated from graduate school in 2006,
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V roku 2006 som vyštudovala na fakulte pre postgraduálne štúdium
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and I got a fellowship to go back to Europe.
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a dostala som odbornú asistentúru na návrat do Európy.
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A few days after arriving,
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Pár dní po mojom príchode
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I met this wonderful, old conductor
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som stretla úžasného starého dirigenta,
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who started casting me in all of these roles.
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ktorý ma začal obsadzovať do všetkých tých úloh
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And before long, I was commuting
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a onedlho som začala cestovať
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between Budapest, Milan
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medzi Budapešťou, Milánom
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and Florence.
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a Florenciou.
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Though I was attached
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Hoci som bola pripútaná
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to this ugly, unwanted,
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k tomu škaredému, neželanému,
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high-maintenance, mechanical pet,
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a vysoko udržiavanému mechanickému miláčikovi,
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my life was kind of like the happy part in an opera --
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môj život bol ako veselá operná ária,
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very complicated,
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veľmi komplikovaný,
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but in a good way.
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ale v dobrom.
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Then in February
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Potom vo februári
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of 2008,
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roku 2008
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my grandfather passed away.
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mi zomrel starý otec.
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He was a big figure in all of our lives,
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Bol vo všetkých našich životoch veľkou postavou
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and we loved him very much.
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a veľmi sme ho mali radi.
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It certainly didn't prepare me
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Určite ma to nepripravilo na to,
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for what came next.
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čo prišlo potom.
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Seven weeks later,
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O sedem týždňov
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I got a call from my family.
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mi zatelefonovala rodina.
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My father had been in a catastrophic car accident,
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Môj otec bol účastníkom katastrofálnej autonehody
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and he died.
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a zomrel.
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At 24, my death would have been
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V 24 rokoch by bola môja smrť
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entirely expected.
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celkom očakávaná,
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But his --
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ale jeho smrť,
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well, the only way I can articulate how it felt
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jediný spôsob, ako môžem vyjadriť, aké to bolo,
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was that it precipitated
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bola tým, čo u mňa vyvolalo
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my medical decline.
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môj liečebný úpadok.
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Against my doctors' and family's wishes,
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Navzdory prianiam mojich doktorov a rodiny
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I needed to go back for the funeral.
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som sa potrebovala vrátiť na pohreb.
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I had to say goodbye
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Musela som nejakým spôsobom
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in some way, shape or form.
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povedať zbohom,
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But soon I was showing signs of right-heart failure,
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ale onedlho som začala vykazovať známky zlyhania pravej strany srdca
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and I had to return to sea level,
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a musela som sa vrátiť na úroveň mora
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doing so knowing
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a keď som tak robila, vedela som,
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that I probably would never see my home again.
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že svoj domov už pravdepodobne nikdy neuvidím.
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I canceled most of my engagements that summer,
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V to leto som zrušila väčšinu svojich angažmán,
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but I had one left in Tel Aviv, so I went.
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ale v Tel Avive mi zostalo jedno a tak som tam šla.
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After one performance,
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Po jednom vystúpení
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I could barely drag myself
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som sa z javiska sotva ťahala
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from the stage to the taxicab.
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do taxíka.
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I sat down and felt the blood
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Sadla som si a cítila,
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rush down from my face,
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ako mi z tváre rýchlo ubúda krv
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and in the heat of the desert,
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a v srdci púšte
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I was freezing cold.
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som mrzla.
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My fingers started turning blue,
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Prsty mi začali modrať
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and I was like, "What is going on here?"
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a pomyslela som si: „Čo sa to deje?"
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I heard my heart's valves
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Počula som chlopne svojho srdca,
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snapping open and closed.
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ako pri otváraní a zatváraní lúskajú.
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The cab stopped,
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Taxík zastal,
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and I pulled my body from it
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vytiahla som z neho svoje telo
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feeling each ounce of weight
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a ako som kráčala k výťahu,
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as I walked to the elevator.
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cítila som každý gram jeho váhy.
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I fell through my apartment door
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Spadla som cez dvere svojho apartmánu
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and crawled to the bathroom
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a plazila som sa do kúpeľne,
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where I found my problem:
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kde som zistila, v čom bol môj problém:
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I had forgotten to mix in
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Zabudla som si do lieku zamiešať
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the most important part of my medicine.
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jeho najdôležitejšiu súčasť.
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I was dying,
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Zomierala som
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and if I didn't mix that stuff up fast,
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a keby som si tú látku rýchlo nenamiešala,
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I would never leave that apartment alive.
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nikdy by som z toho apartmánu nevyšla živá.
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I started mixing,
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Začala som miešať
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and I felt like everything was going to fall out through one hole or another,
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a cítila som, akoby išlo všetko vypadnúť tou alebo onou dierou,
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but I just kept on going.
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ale pokračovala som.
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Finally, with the last bottle in and the last bubble out,
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Nakoniec, keď som pridala poslednú fľaštičku a zbavila sa poslednej bublinky,
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I attached the pump to the tubing
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pripojila som pumpu k hadičke
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and lay there hoping it would kick in
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a ležala tam a dúfala, že začne fungovať
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soon enough.
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dostatočne skoro.
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If it didn't, I'd probably see my father
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Ak by sa tak nestalo, pravdepodobne by som videla svojho otca skôr,
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sooner than I anticipated.
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ako som čakala.
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Thankfully, in a few minutes,
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Našťastie som o pár minút videla
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I saw the signature hive-like rash
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veľa vyrážok,
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appear on my legs,
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ktoré sa mi objavili na nohách,
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which is a side effect of the medication,
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čo je vedľajší účinok lieku,
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and I knew I'd be okay.
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a vedela som, že sa z toho dostanem.
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We're not big on fear in my family,
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V rodine sa veľmi nebojíme,
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but I was scared.
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ale bola som vydesená.
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I went back to the States,
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Vrátila som sa späť do USA
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anticipating I'd return to Europe,
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a čakala som, že sa vrátim späť do Európy,
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but the heart catheterization
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ale katerizáciou srdca sa ukázalo,
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showed that I wasn't going anywhere
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že som nešla ďalej,
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further that a flight-for-life from Johns Hopkins Hospital.
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ako je dosah zdravotníckeho vrtuľníka z Nemocnice Johna Hopkinsa.
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I performed here and there,
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Vystupovala som tu a tam,
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but as my condition deteriorated,
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ale ako sa zhoršoval môj zdravotný stav,
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so did my voice.
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rovnako sa zhoršoval aj môj hlas.
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My doctor wanted me to get on the list for a lung transplant.
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Môj doktor chcel, aby som sa dostala na zoznam čakateľov na transplantáciu pľúc,
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I didn't.
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ale ja som to nechcela.
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I had two friends who had recently died
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Mala som dvoch priateľov, ktorí nedávno zomreli
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months after having very challenging surgeries.
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len pár mesiacov potom, ako mali veľmi náročné operácie.
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I knew another young man, though, who had PH
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Poznala som aj ďalšieho mladého muža, ktorý mal PH
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who died while waiting for one.
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a zomrel, kým na ňu čakal.
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I wanted to live.
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Chcela som žiť.
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I thought stem cells were a good option,
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Myslela som si, že kmeňové bunky by boli dobrou možnosťou,
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but they hadn't developed to a point
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ale doteraz sa nevyvinuli do bodu,
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where I could take advantage of them yet.
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keď by som z nich mohla mať nejaký osoh.
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I officially took a break from singing,
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V spievaní som si oficiálne dala pauzu
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and I went to the Cleveland Clinic
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a išla som na Clevelandskú kliniku,
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to be reevaluated
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aby ma tretíkrát za päť rokov
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for the third time in five years, for transplant.
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znova ohodnotili na transplantáciu.
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I was sitting there kind of unenthusiastically talking
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Sedela som tam a nie veľmi nadšene som sa rozprávala
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with the head transplant surgeon,
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s vhlavným transplantačným chirurgom
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and I asked him if I needed a transplant,
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a spýtala som sa ho, či potrebujem transplantát
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what I could do to prepare.
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a čo by som mala robiť, aby som sa na to pripravila.
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He said, "Be happy.
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Povedal: „Buďte šťastná.
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A happy patient
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Šťastný pacient
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is a healthy patient."
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je zdravý pacient."
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It was like in one verbal swoop
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Bolo to ako slovný prepad,
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he had channeled my thoughts
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ktorým mi spojil myšlienky
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on life and medicine
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na život, medicínu
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and Confucius.
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a Konfúcia.
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I still didn't want a transplant,
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Transplantát som stále nechcela,
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but in a month,
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ale o mesiac
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I was back in the hospital
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som bola opäť v nemocnici
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with some severely edemic kankles --
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s vážnym problémom s hrubými členkami.
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very attractive.
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Je to veľmi príťažlivé.
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And it was right-heart failure.
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Bolo to zlyhanie pravej strany srdca.
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I finally decided
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Nakoniec som sa rozhodla,
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it was time to take my doctor's advice.
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že nastal čas, aby som si radu svojho doktora vzala k srdcu.
10:27
It was time for me to go to Cleveland
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Bol to pre mňa čas ísť do Clevelandu
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and to start the agonizing wait
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a začať agonické čakanie
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for a match.
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na vhodný transplantát,
10:35
But the next morning,
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ale na druhý deň ráno,
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while I was still in the hospital,
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kým som stále bola v nemocnici,
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I got a telephone call.
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mi telefonovali.
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It was my doctor in Cleveland,
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Bola to moja doktorka v Clevelande,
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Marie Budev.
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Marie Budevová
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And they had lungs.
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a mali pľúca.
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It was a match.
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Boli pre mňa vhodné,
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They were from Texas.
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boli z Texasu
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And everybody was really happy for me,
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a všetci sa kvôli mne tešili
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but me.
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okrem mňa,
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Because, despite their problems,
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pretože napriek ich problémom
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I had spent my whole life training my lungs,
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som strávila polovicu svojho života trénovaním svojich pľúc
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and I was not particularly enthusiastic
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a nebola som obzvlášť nadšená,
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about giving them up.
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keď som sa ich mala vzdať.
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I flew to Cleveland,
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Letela som do Clevelandu
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and my family rushed there
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a moja rodina sa tam ponáhľala v nádeji,
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in hopes that they would meet me
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že ma stretnú
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and say what we knew
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a povedia mi to, o čom sme vedeli,
11:15
might be our final goodbye.
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že by mohlo byť naše posledné zbohom.
11:17
But organs don't wait,
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Orgány však nečakajú
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and I went into surgery
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a na chirurgiu som išla skôr,
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before I could say goodbye.
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ako som im mohla povedať zbohom.
11:26
The last thing I remember
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Posledná vec, na ktorú si spomínam, bola,
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was lying on a white blanket,
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že ležím na bielej prikrívke
11:31
telling my surgeon that I needed to see my mother again,
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a hovorím chirurgovi, že ešte raz potrebujem vidieť mamu
11:34
and to please try and save my voice.
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a prosila som ho, aby sa mi snažil zachrániť hlas.
11:37
I fell into this apocalyptic dream world.
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Upadla som do apokaliptického sveta snov.
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During the thirteen-and-a-half-hour surgery,
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Počas trinásť a polhodinovej operácie
11:43
I flatlined twice,
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sa mi dvakrát zastavilo srdce,
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40 quarts of blood
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do tela mi bolo transfúzne podadných
11:49
were infused into my body.
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takmer 38 litrov krvi
11:51
And in my surgeon's 20-year career,
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a môj chrirurg povedal, že za 20 rokov jeho kariéry
11:54
he said it was among the most difficult transplants
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to bola jedna z najnáročnejších transplantácií,
11:57
that he's ever performed.
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akú kedy robil.
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They left my chest open for two weeks.
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Hrudník mi nechali otvorený dva týždne.
12:03
You could see my over-sized heart
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Mohli ste vidieť moje zväčšené srdce,
12:06
beating inside of it.
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ako vnútri neho bije.
12:08
I was on a dozen machines
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Bola som napojená na tucet prístrojov,
12:10
that were keeping me alive.
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ktoré ma držali nažive.
12:12
An infection ravaged my skin.
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Infekcia mi zničila pokožku.
12:20
I had hoped my voice would be saved,
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Dúfala som, že môj hlas sa zachráni,
12:23
but my doctors knew
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ale moji doktori vedeli,
12:25
that the breathing tubes going down my throat
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že hadičky na dýchanie, ktoré som mala v hrdle
12:27
might have already destroyed it.
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ho už možno zničili.
12:29
If they stayed in, there was no way I would ever sing again.
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Ak by tam zostali, neexistovala by možnosť, aby som znova niekedy spievala.
12:32
So my doctor got the ENT,
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Môj doktor teda zohnal otolaringológa,
12:35
the top guy at the clinic, to come down
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najlepšieho na klinike, aby prišiel
12:38
and give me surgery
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a operoval ma,
12:40
to move the tubes around my voice box.
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aby mi posunul hadičky okolo hrtanu.
12:44
He said it would kill me.
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Povedal, že by ma to zabilo.
12:46
So my own surgeon performed the procedure
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Môj chirurg teda vykonal procedúru
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in a last-ditch attempt to save my voice.
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v poslednom pokuse zachrániť môj hlas.
12:51
Though my mom couldn't say goodbye to me
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Hoci mi mama pred operáciu
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before the surgery,
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nemohla povedať zbohom,
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she didn't leave my side
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bola pri mne celý čas
12:58
in the months of recovery that followed.
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počas mesiacov zotavovania, ktoré nasledovali.
13:01
And if you want an example
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Ak chcete príklad
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of perseverance,
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vytrvalosti,
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grit and strength
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pevnej vôle a sily
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in a beautiful, little package,
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v nádhernom, malom balení,
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it is her.
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je to ona.
13:15
One year ago
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Pred rokom,
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to this very day,
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presne v tento deň,
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I woke up.
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som sa prebrala.
13:22
I was 95 lbs.
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Vážila som 43 kg.
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There were a dozen tubes
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Z a do môjho tela viedol
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coming in and out of my body.
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tucet hadičiek.
13:28
I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk,
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Nemohla som chodiť, nemohla som hovoriť,
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I couldn't eat, I couldn't move,
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nemohla som jesť, nemohla som sa hýbať,
13:32
I certainly couldn't sing,
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určite som nemohla spievať,
13:34
I couldn't even breathe,
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nemohla som dokonca dýchať,
13:37
but when I looked up
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ale keď som sa pozrela hore
13:40
and I saw my mother,
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a videla svoju mamu,
13:43
I couldn't help but smile.
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nemohla som si pomôcť a usmiala som sa.
13:47
Whether by a Mack truck
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Či už by to bol kamión,
13:50
or by heart failure
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alebo zlyhanie srdca
13:52
or faulty lungs,
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alebo chybné pľúca,
13:54
death happens.
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k smrti dochádza,
13:56
But life isn't really just about avoiding death, is it?
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ale život nie je len o tom, že sa človek vyhýba smrti, však?
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It's about living.
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Je o žití.
14:03
Medical conditions don't negate the human condition.
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Zdravotný stav nepopiera ľudský stav
14:07
And when people are allowed
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a keď ľudia môžu nasledovať
14:09
to pursue their passions,
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svoje vášne,
14:11
doctors will find they have better,
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doktori zistia, že majú lepších,
14:13
happier and healthier patients.
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šťastnejších a zdravších pacientov.
14:15
My parents were totally stressed out
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Moji rodičia boli úplne vystresovaní,
14:18
about me going and auditioning
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keď som chodila, zúčastňovala sa konkurzov,
14:20
and traveling and performing all over the place,
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cestovala a vystupovala po celom svete,
14:23
but they knew that it was much better for me to do that
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ale vedeli, že bolo pre mňa lepšie, keď som to robila,
14:25
than be preoccupied with my own mortality all of the time.
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ako keby som mala byť celý čas úplne zaujatá svojou smrteľnosťou
14:29
And I'm so grateful they did.
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a som rada, že to vedeli.
14:31
This past summer, when I was running and singing
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Minulé leto, keď som behala, spievala,
14:34
and dancing and playing with my nieces and my nephews
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tancovala a hrala sa s mojími neterami a synovcami,
14:37
and my brothers and my sisters and my mother and my grandmother
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bratmi a sestrami a s mamou a starou mamou
14:40
in the Colorado Rockies,
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v Skalnatých vrchoch v Colorade,
14:42
I couldn't help but think of that doctor
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nemohla som si pomôcť a musela som myslieť na doktorku,
14:44
who told me that I couldn't sing.
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ktorá mi povedala, že som nemohla spievať
14:47
And I wanted to tell her,
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a chcela som jej povedať
14:49
and I want to tell you,
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a chcem to povedať aj vám,
14:52
we need to stop letting disease
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že nesmieme chorobe dovoliť,
14:55
divorce us from our dreams.
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aby nás odlúčila od našich snov.
14:58
When we do,
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Keď tak urobíme,
15:00
we will find that patients
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zistíme, že ako pacienti
15:02
don't just survive;
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nielen prežívajú,
15:05
we thrive.
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ale že prekvitáme
15:08
And some of us
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a niektorí z nás
15:10
might even sing.
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môžu dokonca spievať.
15:13
(Applause)
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(Potlesk)
15:17
[Singing: French]
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[Spev vo francúzštine]
17:37
Thank you.
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Ďakujem.
17:39
(Applause)
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(Potlesk)
17:45
Thank you.
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Ďakujem
17:47
And I'd like to thank my pianist, Monica Lee.
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a chcela by som sa poďakovať svojej pianistke, Monice Leeovej.
17:50
(Applause)
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(Potlesk)
17:55
Thank you so much.
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Veľmi pekne vám ďakujem.
17:57
Thank you.
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Ďakujem.
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Charity Tillemann-Dick - SopranoCharity Tillemann-Dick is a soprano who has appeared on opera and concert stages around the world. Her roles have included Titania in "A Midsummer's Night Dream," Gilda in "Rigoletto" and Violetta in "La Traviata."
Why you should listen
Charity Sunshine Tillemann-Dick is an American-born soprano. She has performed across the United States, Europe, and Asia in venues as diverse as The Kennedy Center in Washington, DC; Severance Hall in Cleveland, Ohio; Il Giardino Di Boboli in Florence, Italy; The National Symphony Hall in Budapest, Hungary; The Tel Aviv Opera House in Israel; and the American Embassy in Beijing, China. She studied music at the Peabody Conservatory at Johns Hopkins University and the Liszt Academy of Music in Budapest.
She has collaborated and performed with noted conductors and musicians Bruno Rigacci, Joella Jones, Marvin Hamlisch, Bono, Zoltán Kocsis, Joan Dornemann, Eva Marton, and former Secretary of State Condoleeza Rice. Some of her operatic roles have included Titania in A Midsummer's Night Dream, Gilda in Rigoletto and Violetta in La Traviata. She has performed for presidents, prime ministers, members of Congress, and world dignitaries. Her performances have been broadcast around the world on the BBC, IRA, Bartok Radio, MTV, PBS and NPR.
Tillemann-Dick has served as the national spokesperson for the Pulmonary Hypertension Association, working to raise awareness, increase federal research funding, expand stem cell research, and promote preventative and alternative medicine.
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