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Joe Kowan: How I beat stage fright
Joe Kowan: Bagaimana saya menewaskan gugup pentas
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Perasaan takut yang dimiliki manusia berguna dalam membantu kita memberikan tumpuan tajam untuk mengelakkan diri daripada dimakan oleh haiwan-haiwan lain yang senantiasa bersaing. Bagaimanapun, perasaan takut yang meluap-luap dan menguasai badan bukan sesuatu yang baik apabila kita berada di hadapan 20 orang peminat muzik rakyat, di pentas terbuka pada malam Selasa. Tapak tangan berpeluh, tangan menggeletar, pandangan kabur, dan otak berkata LARI: itulah gugup pentas. Dalam ceramah yang menarik dan bermuzik ini, Joe Kowan bercerita tentang bagaimana beliau menewaskannya.
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designer
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
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Saya ada masalah gugup di pentas.
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Joe Kowan: I have stage fright.
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I've always had stage fright,
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Saya selalu gugup di pentas,
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and not just a little bit,
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bukan hanya sedikit,
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it's a big bit.
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sangat banyak.
00:19
And it didn't even matter until I was 27.
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Saya tak kisah sehingga
saya berusia 27 tahun.
saya berusia 27 tahun.
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That's when I started writing songs, and even then
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Masa itu saya mula cipta lagu,
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I only played them for myself.
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tapi hanya untuk diri sendiri.
00:26
Just knowing my roommates were in the
same house made me uncomfortable.
same house made me uncomfortable.
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Mengetahui teman ada di rumah saja
boleh buat saya tak selesa.
boleh buat saya tak selesa.
00:30
But after a couple of years,
just writing songs wasn't enough.
just writing songs wasn't enough.
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Selepas beberapa tahun,
cipta lagu saja tak cukup.
cipta lagu saja tak cukup.
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I had all these stories and ideas,
and I wanted to share them with people,
and I wanted to share them with people,
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Ada banyak cerita dan idea
saya ingin kongsi,
saya ingin kongsi,
00:35
but physiologically, I couldn't do it.
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tapi secara fisiologi, saya tak mampu.
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I had this irrational fear.
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Saya ada rasa fobia.
Semakin banyak saya cipta dan berlatih,
00:42
But the more I wrote, and the more I practiced,
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semakin teringin saya buat persembahan.
00:44
the more I wanted to perform.
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00:45
So on the week of my 30th birthday,
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Pada minggu hari jadi yang ke-30,
00:47
I decided I was going to go to this local open mic,
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saye memutuskan untuk ke pentas terbuka,
00:50
and put this fear behind me.
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dan lupakan fobia ini.
Apabila saya sampai di sana,
tempat itu dah sesak.
tempat itu dah sesak.
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Well, when I got there, it was packed.
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00:55
There were like 20 people there.
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Ada lebih kurang 20 orang.
00:57
(Laughter)
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(Gelak ketawa)
00:58
And they all looked angry.
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Semua orang nampak marah.
01:01
But I took a deep breath, and I signed up to play,
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Saya tarik nafas panjang
dan daftarkan diri
dan daftarkan diri
01:05
and I felt pretty good.
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saya rasa boleh tahan bagus.
01:06
Pretty good, until about 10 minutes before my turn,
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Sampai kira-kira 10 minit
sebelum giliran saya,
sebelum giliran saya,
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when my whole body rebelled, and
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
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seluruh badan saya memberontak,
perasaan cemas melanda diri.
perasaan cemas melanda diri.
Apabila anda takut,
sistem saraf simpatetik bertindak balas.
sistem saraf simpatetik bertindak balas.
01:15
Now, when you experience fear,
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
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Ada deruan adrenalina,
jantung berdegup kencang,
jantung berdegup kencang,
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So you have a rush of adrenaline,
your heart rate increases,
your heart rate increases,
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01:21
your breathing gets faster.
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pernafasan semakin laju.
01:23
Next your non-essential systems start
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
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Sistem tak penting mula ditutup,
contohnya pencernaan. (Gelak ketawa)
contohnya pencernaan. (Gelak ketawa)
01:29
So your mouth gets dry, and blood is routed
away from your extremities,
away from your extremities,
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Mulut jadi kering dan darah
tak sampai ke kaki dan tangan,
tak sampai ke kaki dan tangan,
01:32
so your fingers don't work anymore.
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jari-jari tak dapat berfungsi.
01:35
Your pupils dilate, your muscles contract,
your Spidey sense tingles,
your Spidey sense tingles,
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Anak mata terbeliak,
otot-otot mengecut,
otot-otot mengecut,
anda amat peka,
01:38
basically your whole body is trigger-happy.
(Laughter)
(Laughter)
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seluruh badan terangsang.
(Gelak ketawa)
(Gelak ketawa)
01:43
That condition is not conducive
to performing folk music.
to performing folk music.
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Keadaan ini tak sesuai
untuk persembahan muzik rakyat.
untuk persembahan muzik rakyat.
01:48
(Laughter)
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(Gelak ketawa)
01:49
I mean, your nervous system is an idiot.
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Sistem saraf begitu bodoh.
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Really? Two hundred thousand years of human evolution, and it still can't tell the difference
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Dah lama manusia wujud,
sistem ini masih tak dapat bezakan
sistem ini masih tak dapat bezakan
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between a saber tooth tiger and 20 folksingers
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haiwan bergigi pedang daripada penyanyi
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on a Tuesday night open mic?
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di pentas terbuka pada malam Selasa?
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(Laughter)
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(Gelak ketawa)
02:02
I have never been more terrified -- until now.
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Saya tak pernah begitu gerun -
sampai sekarang.
sampai sekarang.
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(Laughter and cheers)
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(Gelak ketawa dan sorakan)
02:15
So then it was my turn,
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Kemudian tiba giliran saya,
02:17
and somehow, I get myself onto
the stage, I start my song,
the stage, I start my song,
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entah kenapa, saya naik ke pentas,
dan mula menyanyi,
dan mula menyanyi,
02:20
I open my mouth to sing the first line,
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Saya mula nyanyi baris pertama,
02:23
and this completely horrible vibrato --
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dan vibrato yang dahsyat -
02:25
you know, when your voice wavers --
comes streaming out.
comes streaming out.
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suara keluar berubah-ubah -
02:27
And this is not the good kind of vibrato,
like an opera singer has,
like an opera singer has,
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Ini bukan vibrato bagus,
seperti penyanyi opera,
seperti penyanyi opera,
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this is my whole body just convulsing with fear.
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ini bunyi getaran badan.
Memang dahsyat.
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I mean, it's a nightmare.
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02:34
I'm embarrassed, the audience
is clearly uncomfortable,
is clearly uncomfortable,
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Saya malu, penonton pun tak selesa,
02:37
they're focused on my discomfort.
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mereka tertumpu pada ketidakselesaan saya.
02:39
It was so bad.
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Sangat teruk.
02:43
But that was my first real experience
as a solo singer-songwriter.
as a solo singer-songwriter.
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Itulah pengalaman pertama saya
sebagai penyanyi-pencipta lagu solo.
sebagai penyanyi-pencipta lagu solo.
02:47
And something good did happen --
I had the tiniest little glimpse
I had the tiniest little glimpse
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Sesuatu yang baik berlaku --
saya dapat merasai
saya dapat merasai
02:50
of that audience connection that I was hoping for.
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hubungan dengan penonton
yang saya harapkan.
yang saya harapkan.
02:52
And I wanted more. But I knew
I had to get past this nervousness.
I had to get past this nervousness.
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Saya mahukan lebih. Tapi saya perlu
tewaskan kegugupan ini.
tewaskan kegugupan ini.
02:56
That night I promised myself:
I would go back every week
I would go back every week
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Pada malam itu saya berjanji:
kembali setiap minggu
kembali setiap minggu
03:00
until I wasn't nervous anymore.
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sehingga saya tak gugup lagi.
03:02
And I did. I went back every single week,
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Saya tepati. Saya kembali setiap minggu,
03:04
and sure enough, week after week,
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dan minggu demi minggu,
tak berubah pun.
03:08
it didn't get any better. The same
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
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Perkara sama terjadi setiap minggu.
(Gelak ketawa)
(Gelak ketawa)
Saya tak dapat redakannya.
03:12
I couldn't shake it.
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03:14
And that's when I had an epiphany.
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Kemudian saya dapat inspirasi.
03:16
And I remember it really well, because I
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
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Saya ingat, sebab saya jarang
mendapat inspirasi. (Gelak ketawa)
mendapat inspirasi. (Gelak ketawa)
03:22
All I had to do was write a song
that exploits my nervousness.
that exploits my nervousness.
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Saya perlu cipta lagu yang
mengeksploitasikan kegugupan saya.
mengeksploitasikan kegugupan saya.
03:26
That only seems authentic when I have stage fright,
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Nampak autentik apabila saya gugup,
03:28
and the more nervous I was,
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semakin saya gugup,
03:29
the better the song would be. Easy.
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semakin baguslah lagu itu. Mudah.
03:32
So I started writing a song about having stage fright.
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Saya mula cipta lagu tentang gugup pentas.
03:36
First, fessing up to the problem,
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Mula-mula, akui masalah,
03:39
the physical manifestations, how I would feel,
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petanda fizikal, perasaan saya,
03:40
how the listener might feel.
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perasaan pendengar.
03:42
And then accounting for things like my shaky voice,
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Kemudian jelaskan perkara
seperti suara yang menggigil.
seperti suara yang menggigil.
03:44
and I knew I would be singing about a
half-octave higher than normal,
half-octave higher than normal,
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Saya akan menyanyi
dengan nada yang lebih tinggi
dengan nada yang lebih tinggi
03:47
because I was nervous.
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sebab saya gugup.
03:49
By having a song that explained
what was happening to me,
what was happening to me,
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Lagu yang menerangkan
apa yang berlaku,
apa yang berlaku,
03:53
while it was happening,
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ketika ia sedang berlaku,
03:54
that gave the audience permission to think about it.
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membolehkan penonton berfikir tentangnya.
03:56
They didn't have to feel bad
for me because I was nervous,
for me because I was nervous,
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Mereka tak perlu bersimpati
sebab saya gugup,
sebab saya gugup,
03:59
they could experience that with me,
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mereka boleh sama-sama mengalaminya,
04:00
and we were all one big happy, nervous,
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
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kami berasa gembira, gugup, dan
tak selesa bersama. (Gelak ketawa)
tak selesa bersama. (Gelak ketawa)
04:06
By thinking about my audience,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
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Dengan memikirkan tentang penonton saya,
menerima dan mengeksploitasikan masalah,
04:10
I was able to take something
that was blocking my progress,
that was blocking my progress,
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saya dapat ambil sesuatu
yang menyekat kemajuan saya,
yang menyekat kemajuan saya,
04:13
and turn it into something that
was essential for my success.
was essential for my success.
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ubahnya kepada sesuatu yang
penting untuk kejayaan.
penting untuk kejayaan.
04:17
And having the stage fright song let
me get past that biggest issue
me get past that biggest issue
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Lagu itu membantu saya
melepasi masalah paling besar
melepasi masalah paling besar
04:20
right in the beginning of a performance.
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pada permulaan persembahan.
04:22
And then I could move on,
and play the rest of my songs
and play the rest of my songs
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Kemudian saya boleh
mainkan lagu-lagu lain
mainkan lagu-lagu lain
04:24
with just a little bit more ease.
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dengan mudah sedikit.
04:27
And eventually, over time, I didn't
have to play the stage fright song at all.
have to play the stage fright song at all.
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Selepas sekian waktu,
saya tak perlu lagi
mainkan lagu gugup pentas.
mainkan lagu gugup pentas.
Kecuali apabila saya gugup,
04:33
Except for when I was really
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
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seperti sekarang. (Gelak ketawa)
Boleh tak kalau saya mainkan
lagu gugup pentas untuk anda?
lagu gugup pentas untuk anda?
04:40
Would it be okay if I played the
stage fright song for you?
stage fright song for you?
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04:43
(Applause)
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(Tepukan)
04:52
Can I have a sip of water?
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Boleh saya dapatkan seteguk air?
(Gelak ketawa)
04:55
(Music)
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(Muzik)
05:00
Thank you.
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Terima kasih.
05:07
♫ I'm not joking, you know, ♫
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♫ Saya tak buat lawak, anda tahu, ♫
05:10
♫ this stage fright is real. ♫
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♫ gugup pentas benar-benar berlaku. ♫
05:15
♫ And if I'm up here trembling and singing, ♫
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Andainya saya menggeletar semasa menyanyi,
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♫ well, you'll know how I feel. ♫
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♫ anda tahu bagaimana saya rasa. ♫
05:23
♫ And the mistake I'd be making, ♫
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♫ Kesilapan yang saya buat, ♫
05:27
♫ the tremolo caused by my whole body shaking. ♫
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♫ tremolo akibat daripada
getaran badan. ♫
getaran badan. ♫
05:31
♫ As you sit there feeling embarrassed for me, ♫
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♫ Anda di sana rasa malu untuk saya. ♫
05:34
♫ well, you don't have to be. ♫
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♫ Anda tak perlu malu. ♫
05:37
♫ Well, maybe just a little bit. ♫
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♫ Mungkin sedikit malu. ♫
05:40
(Laughter)
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05:41
♫ And maybe I'll try to imagine
you all without clothes. ♫
you all without clothes. ♫
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♫ Mungkin saya boleh
bayangkan anda semua bogel. ♫
bayangkan anda semua bogel. ♫
05:49
♫ But singing in front of all naked strangers
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
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♫ Tapi menyanyi di depan orang
yang bogel lebih menakutkan. ♫
yang bogel lebih menakutkan. ♫
05:57
♫ Not to discuss this at length, ♫
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♫ Bukan nak cerita panjang lebar, ♫
06:01
♫ but my body image was never my strength. ♫
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♫ tapi imej badan bukan kekuatan saya. ♫
06:06
♫ So frankly, I wish that you all would get dressed, ♫
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♫ Jadi, saya harap
anda semua berpakaian. ♫
anda semua berpakaian. ♫
06:10
♫ I mean, you're not even really naked. ♫
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♫ Maksud saya, tak betul-betul bogel. ♫
06:15
♫ And I'm the one with the problem. ♫
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♫ Sayalah yang ada masalah. ♫
06:18
♫ And you tell me, don't worry
so much, you'll be great. ♫
so much, you'll be great. ♫
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♫ Anda berkata, jangan bimbang,
kamu akan jadi bagus. ♫
kamu akan jadi bagus. ♫
06:25
♫ But I'm the one living with me ♫
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♫ Tapi saya adalah saya, ♫
06:28
♫ and I know how I get. ♫
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♫ saya tahu apa akan jadi. ♫
06:30
♫ Your advice is gentle but late. ♫
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♫ Nasihat anda lembut tapi lambat, ♫
06:35
♫ If not just a bit patronizing. ♫
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♫ mungkin sedikit merendah-rendahkan. ♫
06:38
♫ And that sarcastic tone doesn't
help me when I sing. ♫
help me when I sing. ♫
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♫ Nada menyindir itu tak
membantu nyanyian saya. ♫
membantu nyanyian saya. ♫
06:43
♫ But we shouldn't talk about
these things right now, ♫
these things right now, ♫
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♫ Tapi tak perlulah kita
berbicara tentangnya, ♫
berbicara tentangnya, ♫
06:47
♫ really, I'm up on stage, and
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
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♫ saya di pentas,
anda penonton. Hai. ♫
anda penonton. Hai. ♫
06:54
♫ And I'm not making fun of
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
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♫ Saya bukannya bergurau
tentang fobia saya. ♫
tentang fobia saya. ♫
07:03
♫ and if I wasn't ready to face this, ♫
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♫ Jika saya tak sedia menghadapinya, ♫
07:06
♫ I sure as hell wouldn't be here. ♫
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♫ saya takkan berada di sini. ♫
07:10
♫ But if I belt one note out clearly, ♫
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♫ Jika saya mengumandangkan
dengan jelas, ♫
dengan jelas, ♫
07:15
♫ you'll know I'm recovering slowly but surely. ♫
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♫ perlahan-lahan saya semakin pulih. ♫
07:20
♫ And maybe next week, I'll set my guitar ringin' ♫
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♫ Mungkin minggu depan,
saya akan mainkan gitar, ♫
saya akan mainkan gitar, ♫
07:24
♫ my voice clear as water, and everyone singin'. ♫
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♫ suara saya jelas dan
semua orang menyanyi. ♫
semua orang menyanyi. ♫
♫ Mungkin saya akan naik ke pentas
dan semuanya semakin baik, ♫
dan semuanya semakin baik, ♫
07:28
♫ But probably I'll just get up and start groovin', ♫
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07:32
♫ my vocal cords movin', ♫
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♫ peti suara saya bergerak, ♫
07:35
♫ at speeds slightly faster than sound. ♫
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♫ laju sedikit daripada bunyi. ♫
(Tepukan)
07:48
(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designerBy day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter.
Why you should listen
Joe Kowan is a Boston-based musician and graphic designer who has been struggling with stage fright since he first started writing songs at age 27. Despite his adorably expressed fears, he charms audiences with his own style of quirky folk and acoustic hip-hop, by turns poignant, salacious and comical. In 2009 he released the gangsta' arts and crafts video for his original song “Crafty,” and in 2011 he was a finalist in the USA Songwriting Competition.
Kowan is a senior graphic designer on State Street Global Marketing’s Brand Strategy team. With a BFA in sculpture and design, his work explores diverse areas of design including scenic, print, environmental design and wayfinding.
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