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Joe Kowan: How I beat stage fright
Džo Kauan (Joe Kowan): Kako sam pobedio strah od nastupa
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Čovečji istančani osećaj straha nas služi isto kao i mlađe vrste, omogućavajući nam laserski pogled da bismo izbegli da nas prožderu konkurentske zveri. Ali to nije toliko divno kada neki stomačni osećaj straha udari ispred dvadeset kantri muzičkih fanova na otvorenom nastupu u utorak uveče. Dlanovi se znoje, ruke drhte, vid se muti dok mozak viče beži: to je strah od scene. U svom šarmantnom, milozvučnom kratkom govoru, Džo Kouan govori o tome kako je pobedio taj strah.
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designer
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
By day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter. Full bio
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00:12
Joe Kowan: I have stage fright.
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Plašim se da nastupim na sceni.
00:14
I've always had stage fright,
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Oduvek je to bilo tako,
00:15
and not just a little bit,
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i ne u malim količinama,
00:17
it's a big bit.
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već sam se prilično plašio.
00:19
And it didn't even matter until I was 27.
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I nije mi bilo važno sve do moje
dvadesetsedme godine.
dvadesetsedme godine.
00:21
That's when I started writing songs, and even then
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Tada sam počeo da pišem pesme
i čak i tada
i čak i tada
00:24
I only played them for myself.
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sam ih svirao samo sebi.
00:26
Just knowing my roommates were in the
same house made me uncomfortable.
same house made me uncomfortable.
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Sama činjenica da su cimeri u istoj kući
činila je da se osetim neprijatno.
činila je da se osetim neprijatno.
00:30
But after a couple of years,
just writing songs wasn't enough.
just writing songs wasn't enough.
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Ali nakon par godina, samo pisanje pesama
mi nije bilo dovoljno
mi nije bilo dovoljno
00:32
I had all these stories and ideas,
and I wanted to share them with people,
and I wanted to share them with people,
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Imao sam priče i ideje koje sam želeo
da podelim sa drugima.
da podelim sa drugima.
00:35
but physiologically, I couldn't do it.
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ali fiziološki to nisam mogao.
00:39
I had this irrational fear.
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Imao sam taj neosnovani strah.
00:42
But the more I wrote, and the more I practiced,
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Što sam više pisao i vežbao,
00:44
the more I wanted to perform.
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to sam više želeo da nastupim.
00:45
So on the week of my 30th birthday,
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Te nedelje kada sam slavio
svoj 30. rođendan,
svoj 30. rođendan,
00:47
I decided I was going to go to this local open mic,
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odlučio sam da odem
do lokalnog kafića
do lokalnog kafića
00:50
and put this fear behind me.
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i da ostavim strah iza sebe.
00:52
Well, when I got there, it was packed.
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Pa, kada sam stigao tamo,
bilo je krcato.
bilo je krcato.
00:55
There were like 20 people there.
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Bilo je nekih dvadesetak ljudi tamo.
00:57
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
00:58
And they all looked angry.
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I svi su izgledali ljuto.
01:01
But I took a deep breath, and I signed up to play,
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Duboko sam udahnuo
i prijavio sam se da sviram,
i prijavio sam se da sviram,
01:05
and I felt pretty good.
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osećao sam se prilično dobro.
01:06
Pretty good, until about 10 minutes before my turn,
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Prilično dobro, do nekih deset minuta
pre mog nastupa,
pre mog nastupa,
01:09
when my whole body rebelled, and
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
this wave of anxiety just washed over me.
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kada se moje telo pobunilo,
i preplavio me osećaj teskobe.
i preplavio me osećaj teskobe.
01:15
Now, when you experience fear,
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
your sympathetic nervous system kicks in.
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Kada osetite strah, vaš simpatički
nervni sistem reaguje.
nervni sistem reaguje.
01:18
So you have a rush of adrenaline,
your heart rate increases,
your heart rate increases,
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Stoga, imate nalet adrenalina,
a otkucaji srca se ubrzavaju
a otkucaji srca se ubrzavaju
01:21
your breathing gets faster.
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dišete brže.
01:23
Next your non-essential systems start
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
to shut down, like digestion. (Laughter)
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Zatim vaši nevažni sistemi poput probave,
počnu da se gase. (Smeh)
počnu da se gase. (Smeh)
01:29
So your mouth gets dry, and blood is routed
away from your extremities,
away from your extremities,
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Zatim se suše usta, krv ne teče
do ekstremiteta,
do ekstremiteta,
01:32
so your fingers don't work anymore.
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pa se prsti ukoče.
01:35
Your pupils dilate, your muscles contract,
your Spidey sense tingles,
your Spidey sense tingles,
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Zenice se rašire, mišići stegnu,
a paukovo čulo zatreperi,
a paukovo čulo zatreperi,
01:38
basically your whole body is trigger-happy.
(Laughter)
(Laughter)
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bukvalno celo telo je kao okidač.
(Smeh)
(Smeh)
01:43
That condition is not conducive
to performing folk music.
to performing folk music.
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Takvo stanje ne doprinosi
izvođenju folk muzike.
izvođenju folk muzike.
01:48
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
01:49
I mean, your nervous system is an idiot.
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Hoću reći da je nervni sistem idiot.
01:52
Really? Two hundred thousand years of human evolution, and it still can't tell the difference
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Stvarno? Nakon 200 000 godina evolucije,
još uvek ne može da uoči razliku između
još uvek ne može da uoči razliku između
01:56
between a saber tooth tiger and 20 folksingers
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saboljozubog tigra
i dvadeset kantri pevača.
i dvadeset kantri pevača.
01:58
on a Tuesday night open mic?
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u utorak na veče slobodnog nastupa?
02:00
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
02:02
I have never been more terrified -- until now.
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Nikada pre se nisam tako uplašio
- do sada.
- do sada.
02:06
(Laughter and cheers)
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(Smeh i poklici)
02:15
So then it was my turn,
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Dakle, bio je na mene red,
02:17
and somehow, I get myself onto
the stage, I start my song,
the stage, I start my song,
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i nekako sam se naterao
da izađem na scenu i zapevam pesmu,
da izađem na scenu i zapevam pesmu,
02:20
I open my mouth to sing the first line,
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otvorio sam usta da otpevam prvi stih,
02:23
and this completely horrible vibrato --
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i prilično strašan vibrato -
02:25
you know, when your voice wavers --
comes streaming out.
comes streaming out.
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znate, kada glas podrhtava
- izlete iz mene.
- izlete iz mene.
02:27
And this is not the good kind of vibrato,
like an opera singer has,
like an opera singer has,
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I ovo nije ona dobra vrsta vibrata,
kao kod operskih pevača,
kao kod operskih pevača,
02:30
this is my whole body just convulsing with fear.
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to je samo reakcija mog tela
pomešana sa strahom.
pomešana sa strahom.
02:33
I mean, it's a nightmare.
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To je prava noćna mora.
02:34
I'm embarrassed, the audience
is clearly uncomfortable,
is clearly uncomfortable,
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Postideo sam se,
publici je očigledno nelagodno,
publici je očigledno nelagodno,
02:37
they're focused on my discomfort.
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i usredsredili su se na to
što je meni neugodno.
što je meni neugodno.
02:39
It was so bad.
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Bilo je grozno.
02:43
But that was my first real experience
as a solo singer-songwriter.
as a solo singer-songwriter.
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Ali to je bilo moje prvo pravo iskustvo
kao solo pevača i tekstopisca.
kao solo pevača i tekstopisca.
02:47
And something good did happen --
I had the tiniest little glimpse
I had the tiniest little glimpse
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I nešto dobro se zaista desilo
- najmanji znak pažnje publike
- najmanji znak pažnje publike
02:50
of that audience connection that I was hoping for.
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kome sam se nadao.
02:52
And I wanted more. But I knew
I had to get past this nervousness.
I had to get past this nervousness.
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I želeo sam više. A znao sam da moram
da prevaziđem osećaj nervoze.
da prevaziđem osećaj nervoze.
02:56
That night I promised myself:
I would go back every week
I would go back every week
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Te noći sam obećao sebi:
odlaziću tamo svake nedelje
odlaziću tamo svake nedelje
03:00
until I wasn't nervous anymore.
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sve dok nervoza ne nestane.
03:02
And I did. I went back every single week,
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I jesam. Vraćao sam se svake nedelje,
03:04
and sure enough, week after week,
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i zbilja, nedelju za nedeljom,
03:08
it didn't get any better. The same
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
thing happened every week. (Laughter)
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stanje se nije popravljalo.
Svake nedelje se isto ponavljalo. (Smeh)
Svake nedelje se isto ponavljalo. (Smeh)
03:12
I couldn't shake it.
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Nisam mogao da ga se otarasim.
03:14
And that's when I had an epiphany.
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I tada sam doživeo prosvetljenje.
03:16
And I remember it really well, because I
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
don't have a lot of epiphanies. (Laughter)
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I prilično ga dobro pamtim, zato što mi se
prosvetljenja ne događaju često. (Smeh)
prosvetljenja ne događaju često. (Smeh)
03:22
All I had to do was write a song
that exploits my nervousness.
that exploits my nervousness.
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Sve što je trebalo da uradim jeste
da napišem pesmu o svojoj nervozi.
da napišem pesmu o svojoj nervozi.
03:26
That only seems authentic when I have stage fright,
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Jedino to izgleda verodostojno,
kada imam strah od scene,
kada imam strah od scene,
03:28
and the more nervous I was,
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i što sam ja bio nervozniji,
03:29
the better the song would be. Easy.
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pesma bi bila bolja.
Jednostavno.
Jednostavno.
03:32
So I started writing a song about having stage fright.
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Stoga sam započeo pisanje pesme
koja govori o mom strahu od scene.
koja govori o mom strahu od scene.
03:36
First, fessing up to the problem,
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Prvo, suočenje sa problemom,
03:39
the physical manifestations, how I would feel,
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fizičkim manifestacijama,
kako bih se osećao,
kako bih se osećao,
03:40
how the listener might feel.
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kako bi se slušalac osećao.
03:42
And then accounting for things like my shaky voice,
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I uzimanje u obzir stvari
kao što su moj drhtavi glas,
kao što su moj drhtavi glas,
03:44
and I knew I would be singing about a
half-octave higher than normal,
half-octave higher than normal,
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i znao sam da bih pevao
pola oktave više nego uobičajeno,
pola oktave više nego uobičajeno,
03:47
because I was nervous.
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zato što sam nervozan.
03:49
By having a song that explained
what was happening to me,
what was happening to me,
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Time što bih napisao pesmu
koja bi objasnila šta mi se događa,
koja bi objasnila šta mi se događa,
03:53
while it was happening,
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dok se događalo,
03:54
that gave the audience permission to think about it.
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to je dalo publici odobrenje
da razmišlja o tome.
da razmišlja o tome.
03:56
They didn't have to feel bad
for me because I was nervous,
for me because I was nervous,
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Nisu morali da se osećaju loše
zato što sam ja nervozan.
zato što sam ja nervozan.
03:59
they could experience that with me,
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već su to mogli da iskuse
zajedno sa mnom.
zajedno sa mnom.
04:00
and we were all one big happy, nervous,
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
uncomfortable family. (Laughter)
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I onda smo postali jedna velika, srećna,
nervozna i nelagodna porodica. (Smeh)
nervozna i nelagodna porodica. (Smeh)
04:06
By thinking about my audience,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
by embracing and exploiting my problem,
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Time što sam razmišljao o publici,
što sam prihvatio i ispoljio svoj problem,
što sam prihvatio i ispoljio svoj problem,
04:10
I was able to take something
that was blocking my progress,
that was blocking my progress,
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mogao sam da prihvatim
ono što mi zaustavlja napredak.
ono što mi zaustavlja napredak.
04:13
and turn it into something that
was essential for my success.
was essential for my success.
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i pretvorim ga u nešto
što je neophodno za moj uspeh.
što je neophodno za moj uspeh.
04:17
And having the stage fright song let
me get past that biggest issue
me get past that biggest issue
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Pesma o strahu od scene
pomogla mi je
pomogla mi je
da prevaziđem najozbiljniji problem
04:20
right in the beginning of a performance.
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baš na samom početku nastupa.
04:22
And then I could move on,
and play the rest of my songs
and play the rest of my songs
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I onda sam mogao da nastavim
da pevam ostale pesme
da pevam ostale pesme
04:24
with just a little bit more ease.
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sa malim olakšanjem.
04:27
And eventually, over time, I didn't
have to play the stage fright song at all.
have to play the stage fright song at all.
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I konačno vremenom, nisam ni morao
da sviram pesmu o strahu od scene.
da sviram pesmu o strahu od scene.
04:33
Except for when I was really
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
nervous, like now. (Laughter)
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Osim kada sam baš bio nervozan,
kao sada. (Smeh)
kao sada. (Smeh)
04:40
Would it be okay if I played the
stage fright song for you?
stage fright song for you?
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Da li bi bilo u redu da vam odsviram
pesmu o strahu od scene?
pesmu o strahu od scene?
04:43
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
04:52
Can I have a sip of water?
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Mogu li da uzmem gutljaj vode?
04:55
(Music)
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(Muzika)
05:00
Thank you.
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Hvala.
05:07
♫ I'm not joking, you know, ♫
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♫ Ne šalim se, znate, ♫
05:10
♫ this stage fright is real. ♫
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♫ ovaj strah od scene je stvaran. ♫
05:15
♫ And if I'm up here trembling and singing, ♫
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♫ I ako tu drhtim i pevam, ♫
05:19
♫ well, you'll know how I feel. ♫
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♫ onda znate kako se osećam. ♫
05:23
♫ And the mistake I'd be making, ♫
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♫ I grešku koju sam pravio. ♫
05:27
♫ the tremolo caused by my whole body shaking. ♫
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♫ I tremolo izazvano drhtanjem tela. ♫
05:31
♫ As you sit there feeling embarrassed for me, ♫
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♫ Dok sedite tu sa osećajem sramote
zbog mene, ♫
zbog mene, ♫
05:34
♫ well, you don't have to be. ♫
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♫ pa ne morate. ♫
05:37
♫ Well, maybe just a little bit. ♫
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♫ Dobro, možda samo malo. ♫
05:40
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
05:41
♫ And maybe I'll try to imagine
you all without clothes. ♫
you all without clothes. ♫
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♫ I možda bih pokušao
sve vas da zamislim bez odeće. ♫
sve vas da zamislim bez odeće. ♫
05:49
♫ But singing in front of all naked strangers
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
scares me more than anyone knows. ♫
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♫ Ali pevanje ispred svih golih stranaca
me još više plaši. ♫
me još više plaši. ♫
05:57
♫ Not to discuss this at length, ♫
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♫ Ne bih da diskutujem
o tome opširno, ♫
o tome opširno, ♫
06:01
♫ but my body image was never my strength. ♫
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♫ ali predstava o mom telu
mi nikada nije bila jača strana. ♫
mi nikada nije bila jača strana. ♫
06:06
♫ So frankly, I wish that you all would get dressed, ♫
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♫ Iskreno, želeo bih
da ste svi vi obučeni. ♫
da ste svi vi obučeni. ♫
06:10
♫ I mean, you're not even really naked. ♫
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♫ Mislim, niste stvarno goli. ♫
06:15
♫ And I'm the one with the problem. ♫
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♫ I ja sam taj koji ima problem. ♫
06:18
♫ And you tell me, don't worry
so much, you'll be great. ♫
so much, you'll be great. ♫
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♫ I kažete mi, ne brini se,
bićeš sjajan. ♫
bićeš sjajan. ♫
06:25
♫ But I'm the one living with me ♫
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♫ Ali ja sam taj koji mora da živi
sa sobom ♫
sa sobom ♫
06:28
♫ and I know how I get. ♫
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♫ i znam kako je. ♫
06:30
♫ Your advice is gentle but late. ♫
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♫ Vaši saveti su nežni ali kasni. ♫
06:35
♫ If not just a bit patronizing. ♫
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♫ Ako ne i pomalo snishodljivi. ♫
06:38
♫ And that sarcastic tone doesn't
help me when I sing. ♫
help me when I sing. ♫
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♫ I taj sarkastičan ton mi nimalo
ne pomaže dok pevam. ♫
ne pomaže dok pevam. ♫
06:43
♫ But we shouldn't talk about
these things right now, ♫
these things right now, ♫
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♫ Ali sada ne bi trebalo
da pričamo o ovome, ♫
da pričamo o ovome, ♫
06:47
♫ really, I'm up on stage, and
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
you're in the crowd. Hi. ♫
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♫ stvarno, ja sam na sceni,
vi ste u publici. Ćao. ♫
vi ste u publici. Ćao. ♫
06:54
♫ And I'm not making fun of
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
unnurtured, irrrational fear, ♫
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♫ I ne izlažem ruglu neodgajani,
iracionalni strah, ♫
iracionalni strah, ♫
07:03
♫ and if I wasn't ready to face this, ♫
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♫ i ako nisam bio spreman
da se suočim sa svim tim, ♫
da se suočim sa svim tim, ♫
07:06
♫ I sure as hell wouldn't be here. ♫
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♫ sigurno ne bih bio ovde. ♫
07:10
♫ But if I belt one note out clearly, ♫
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♫ Ali ako otpevam jednu notu jasno, ♫
07:15
♫ you'll know I'm recovering slowly but surely. ♫
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♫ znaćete da se oporavljam
polako, ali sigurno. ♫
polako, ali sigurno. ♫
07:20
♫ And maybe next week, I'll set my guitar ringin' ♫
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♫ I možda naredne nedelje,
gitara počne da odzvanja ♫
gitara počne da odzvanja ♫
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♫ my voice clear as water, and everyone singin'. ♫
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♫ moj glas čist kao voda,
i svi pevamo. ♫
i svi pevamo. ♫
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♫ But probably I'll just get up and start groovin', ♫
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♫ Ali verovatno ću samo ustati
i početi po starom, ♫
i početi po starom, ♫
07:32
♫ my vocal cords movin', ♫
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♫ dok mi se glasnice pomeraju, ♫
07:35
♫ at speeds slightly faster than sound. ♫
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♫ brzinom malo većom od zvuka. ♫
07:48
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Joe Kowan - Musician and graphic designerBy day he's a graphic designer, and by night Joe Kowan is a quirky folk singer-songwriter.
Why you should listen
Joe Kowan is a Boston-based musician and graphic designer who has been struggling with stage fright since he first started writing songs at age 27. Despite his adorably expressed fears, he charms audiences with his own style of quirky folk and acoustic hip-hop, by turns poignant, salacious and comical. In 2009 he released the gangsta' arts and crafts video for his original song “Crafty,” and in 2011 he was a finalist in the USA Songwriting Competition.
Kowan is a senior graphic designer on State Street Global Marketing’s Brand Strategy team. With a BFA in sculpture and design, his work explores diverse areas of design including scenic, print, environmental design and wayfinding.
Joe Kowan | Speaker | TED.com