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Leslie Morgan Steiner: Why domestic violence victims don't leave
Leslie Morgan Steiner: Zakaj žrtve nasilja v družini ne odidejo
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Leslie Morgan Steiner je bila "noro zaljubljena" -- torej noro zaljubljena v moškega, ki jo je redno zlorabljal in ogrožal njeno življenje. Leslie Steiner pove temno zgodbo o svojem razmerju in tako popravi napačne ideje, ki jih ima mnogo ljudi o žrtvah nasilja v družini, ter razloži, kako lahko vsi pomagamo prekiniti molk. (Posneto na TEDxRainier.)
Leslie Morgan Steiner - Writer
Leslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself. Full bio
Leslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself. Full bio
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I'm here today to talk about a disturbing question,
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Danes sem tu, da bi govorila o skrb vzbujajočem vprašanju,
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which has an equally disturbing answer.
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ki ima prav tako skrb vzbujajoč odgovor.
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My topic is the secrets of domestic violence,
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Moja tema so skrivnosti nasilja v družini
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and the question I'm going to tackle
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in vprašanje, ki se ga bom lotila,
00:29
is the one question everyone always asks:
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je to, ki si ga vsi vedno postavljajo:
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Why does she stay?
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"Zakaj ostaja?"
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Why would anyone stay with a man who beats her?
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Zakaj bi kdo sploh ostal z moškim, ki te pretepa?
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I'm not a psychiatrist, a social worker
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Nisem psihiatrinja, socialna delavka
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or an expert in domestic violence.
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ali strokovnjak za nasilje v družini.
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I'm just one woman with a story to tell.
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Sem le ženska z zgodbo.
00:47
I was 22. I had just graduated from Harvard College.
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Stara sem bila 22. Ravno sem diplomirala s kolidža Harvard.
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I had moved to New York City for my first job
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Preselila sem se v New York, kjer je bila moja prva služba,
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as a writer and editor at Seventeen magazine.
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bila sem avtorica in urednica pri reviji "Seventeen".
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I had my first apartment,
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Imela sem svoje prvo stanovanje,
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my first little green American Express card,
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svojo prvo zeleno kartico American Express
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and I had a very big secret.
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in imela sem zelo veliko skrivnost.
01:06
My secret was that I had this gun
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Moja skrivnost je bila, da je ob mojo glavo
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loaded with hollow-point bullets pointed at my head
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držal to pištolo s kroglami s prazno konico
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by the man who I thought was my soulmate,
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moški, za katerega sem mislil, da je moja sorodna duša.
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many, many times.
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Zelo zelo pogosto.
01:19
The man who I loved more than anybody on Earth
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Človek, ki sem ga ljubila bolj kot kogarkoli na Zemlji,
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held a gun to my head and threatened to kill me
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mi je ob glavo prislonil pištolo in mi grozil, da me bo ubil.
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more times than I can even remember.
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Večkrat kot sploh pomnim.
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I'm here to tell you the story of crazy love,
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Tu sem, da vam povem zgodbo o nori ljubezni,
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a psychological trap disguised as love,
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o psihološki pasti, ki je bila zakrinkana kot ljubezen,
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one that millions of women and even a few men
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o pasti, v katero vsako leto pade na milijon ženske
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fall into every year.
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in tudi nekaj moških.
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It may even be your story.
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Morda je to tudi vaša zgodba.
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I don't look like a typical domestic violence survivor.
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Nisem videti kot tipična preživela žrtev nasilja v družini.
01:47
I have a B.A. in English from Harvard College,
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Imam diplomo iz angleščine iz Harvarda
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an MBA in marketing from Wharton Business School.
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in diplomo iz marketinštva iz poslovne šole Wharton.
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I've spent most of my career working for Fortune 500 companies
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Večino svoje kariere sem delala
za podjetja iz lestvice "Fortune 500",
za podjetja iz lestvice "Fortune 500",
01:55
including Johnson & Johnson, Leo Burnett and The Washington Post.
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med njimi Johnson & Johnson,
Leo Burnett in The Washington Post.
Leo Burnett in The Washington Post.
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I've been married for almost 20 years to my second husband
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S svojim drugim možem sem poročena že skoraj 20 let
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and we have three kids together.
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in skupaj imava tri otroke.
02:06
My dog is a black lab, and I drive a Honda Odyssey minivan.
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Imam črnega labradorca
in vozim enoprostorca Honda Odyssey.
in vozim enoprostorca Honda Odyssey.
02:10
(Laughter)
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(smeh)
02:12
So my first message for you is that domestic violence
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Moje prvo sporočilo za vas je, da se nasilje v družini
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happens to everyone --
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lahko pripeti komurkoli:
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all races, all religions, all income and education levels.
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vsem rasam, vsem veram, vsem dohodkom
in vsem stopnjam izobrazbe.
in vsem stopnjam izobrazbe.
02:22
It's everywhere.
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Povsod je.
02:24
And my second message is that everyone thinks
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In moje drugo sporočilo je, da vsi mislijo,
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domestic violence happens to women,
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da se nasilje v družini dogaja ženskam,
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that it's a women's issue.
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da je to ženska težava.
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Not exactly.
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Ni čisto tako.
02:33
Over 85 percent of abusers are men, and domestic abuse
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Več kot 85 procentov vseh zlorab povzročijo moški
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happens only in intimate, interdependent, long-term relationships,
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in nasilje v družini se zgodi le v intimnih,
med seboj odvisnih, dolgotrajnih zvezah,
med seboj odvisnih, dolgotrajnih zvezah,
02:43
in other words, in families,
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z drugimi besedami v družinah,
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the last place we would want or expect to find violence,
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ki so zadnji kraj, kjer bi hoteli ali pričakovali nasilje,
02:49
which is one reason domestic abuse is so confusing.
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kar je eden izmed razlogov,
da nas nasilje v družini tako bega.
da nas nasilje v družini tako bega.
02:53
I would have told you myself that I was the last person on Earth
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Sama bi vam rekla, da sem zadnji človek na Zemlji,
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who would stay with a man who beats me,
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ki bi ostal z moškim, ki bi me pretepal,
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but in fact I was a very typical victim because of my age.
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a sem bila zelo tipična žrtev zaradi svoje starosti.
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I was 22, and in the United States,
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Bila sem stara 22 in v ZDA
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women ages 16 to 24 are three times as likely
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je za ženske med 16 in 24 let trikrat bolj verjetno,
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to be domestic violence victims
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da bodo žrtve nasilja v družini
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as women of other ages,
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kot za ženske drugih let.
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and over 500 women and girls this age
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V ZDA okoli 500 žensk in deklet te starosti
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are killed every year by abusive partners,
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vsako leto umre zaradi nasilnih partnerjev,
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boyfriends, and husbands in the United States.
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fantov in soprogov.
03:27
I was also a very typical victim because I knew nothing
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Tipična žrtev sem bila tudi, ker nisem vedela ničesar
03:30
about domestic violence, its warning signs or its patterns.
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o nasilju v družini, o njegovih svarilih ali vzorcih.
03:35
I met Conor on a cold, rainy January night.
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Conorja sem spoznala na mrzel deževen januarski večer.
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He sat next to me on the New York City subway,
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Usedel se je poleg mene na newyorški podzemni
03:43
and he started chatting me up.
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in se z menoj začel pogovarjati.
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He told me two things.
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Povedal mi je dve stvari.
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One was that he, too, had just graduated from an Ivy League school,
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Prva je bila, da je tudi on ravnokar diplomiral na prestižni šoli
03:50
and that he worked at a very impressive Wall Street bank.
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in da je delal v zelo vplivni banki na Wall Streetu.
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But what made the biggest impression on me that first meeting
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A na najinem prvem srečanju je največji vtis name naredilo,
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was that he was smart and funny
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da je bil pameten in smešen
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and he looked like a farm boy.
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in da je bil videti kot kmečki fant.
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He had these big cheeks, these big apple cheeks
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Imel je polna lica kot jabolka
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and this wheat-blond hair,
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in pšenično blond lase
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and he seemed so sweet.
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in zdel se mi je tako prijazen.
04:10
One of the smartest things Conor did, from the very beginning,
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Ena izmed najpametnejši reči,
ki jo je Conor storil že na začetku,
ki jo je Conor storil že na začetku,
04:14
was to create the illusion that I was the dominant partner in the relationship.
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je bila, da je ustvaril iluzijo,
da sem bila jaz dominanten partner v razmerju.
da sem bila jaz dominanten partner v razmerju.
04:20
He did this especially at the beginning
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To je delal predvsem na začetku,
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by idolizing me.
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ko me je idealiziral.
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We started dating, and he loved everything about me,
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Začela sva hoditi in vse na meni mu je bilo všeč;
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that I was smart, that I'd gone to Harvard,
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da sem bila pametna, da sem hodila na Harvard,
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that I was passionate about helping teenage girls, and my job.
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da sem bila strastna glede pomoči najstniškim dekletom
in da sem imela to službo.
in da sem imela to službo.
04:33
He wanted to know everything about my family
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Hotel je vedeti vse o moji družini
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and my childhood and my hopes and dreams.
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o mojem otroštvu, o mojih upih in sanjah.
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Conor believed in me, as a writer and a woman,
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Conor je vame verjel kot v pisateljico in žensko,
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in a way that no one else ever had.
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kot ni še nobeden nikoli poprej.
04:45
And he also created a magical atmosphere of trust between us
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Med nama je tudi ustvaril čarobno atmosfero zaupanja,
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by confessing his secret,
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ko je povedal svojo skrivnost,
04:52
which was that, as a very young boy starting at age four,
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ki je bila, da ga je že kot majhnega fantka pri štirih letih
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he had been savagely and repeatedly physically abused
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večkrat in surovo fizično zlorabil
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by his stepfather,
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njegov pastor
05:01
and the abuse had gotten so bad that he had had to drop out of school in eighth grade,
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in da je zloraba postala tako huda,
da je v osmem razredu moral pustiti šolo,
da je v osmem razredu moral pustiti šolo,
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even though he was very smart,
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čeprav je bil zelo pameten,
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and he'd spent almost 20 years rebuilding his life.
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in da je približno 20 let ponovno gradil svoje življenje.
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Which is why that Ivy League degree
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To je bil razlog, da so mu njegova prestižna diploma,
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and the Wall Street job and his bright shiny future
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njegova služba na Wall Streetu in njegova svetla prihodnost
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meant so much to him.
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tako veliko pomenile.
05:20
If you had told me
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Če bi mi dejali,
05:22
that this smart, funny, sensitive man who adored me
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da mi bo ta pameten, zabaven in občutljiv moški,
ki me je oboževal
ki me je oboževal
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would one day dictate whether or not I wore makeup,
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nekega dne ukazoval, ali naj nosim ličila ali ne,
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how short my skirts were,
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kako kratka so lahko moja krila,
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where I lived, what jobs I took,
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kje naj živim, katere službe lahko imam,
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who my friends were and where I spent Christmas,
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kdo so moji prijatelji in kje lahko preživim božič,
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I would have laughed at you,
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bi se vam smejala,
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because there was not a hint of violence or control
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ker v Connorju na začetku ni bilo niti trohlice
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or anger in Conor at the beginning.
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nasilja, kontrole ali jeze.
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I didn't know that the first stage
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Nisem vedela, da je prva stopnja
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in any domestic violence relationship
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v kateremkoli razmerju, kjer je nasilje v družini,
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is to seduce and charm the victim.
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zapeljati in očarati žrtev.
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I also didn't know that the second step is to isolate the victim.
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Nisem niti vedela, da je drug korak osamiti žrtev.
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Now, Conor did not come home one day and announce,
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No, Connor ni nekega dne prišel domov in naznanil:
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"You know, hey, all this Romeo and Juliet stuff has been great,
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"Veš, tole Romeo in Julia zadeva je bila super,
06:08
but I need to move into the next phase
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ampak moram v naslednjo fazo,
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where I isolate you and I abuse you" — (Laughter) —
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v kateri te izoliram in zlorabljam." (smeh)
06:15
"so I need to get you out of this apartment
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"Moram te spraviti ven iz tega stanovanja,
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where the neighbors can hear you scream
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kjer lahko tvoje kričanje slišijo sosedje,
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and out of this city where you have friends and family
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in ven iz tega mesta, kjer imaš prijatelje in družino
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and coworkers who can see the bruises."
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in sodelavce, ki lahko vidijo tvoje modrice."
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Instead, Conor came home one Friday evening
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Namesto tega je Connor nek petkov večer prišel domov
06:28
and he told me that he had quit his job that day,
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in mi rekel, da je tisti dan pustil svojo službo,
06:30
his dream job,
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svojo sanjsko službo,
06:33
and he said that he had quit his job because of me,
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in rekel je, da jo je pustil zaradi mene,
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because I had made him feel so safe and loved
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ker se je počutil tako varno in ljubljeno,
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that he didn't need to prove himself on Wall Street anymore,
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da se ni rabil več dokazovati na Wall Streetu
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and he just wanted to get out of the city
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in si je le želel ven iz tega mesta
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and away from his abusive, dysfunctional family,
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in stran od svoje nasilne disfunkcionalne družine
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and move to a tiny town in New England
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in se preseliti v majhno mestece v Novi Angliji,
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where he could start his life over with me by his side.
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kjer bi lahko na novo začel svoje življenje z menoj ob njim.
06:55
Now, the last thing I wanted to do was leave New York,
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Zadnja stvar, ki sem si jo želela, je bila zapustiti New York
06:59
and my dream job,
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in svojo sanjsko službo,
07:03
but I thought you made sacrifices for your soulmate,
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a mislila sem, da se za svojo sorodno dušo žrtvuješ.
07:05
so I agreed, and I quit my job,
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Pristala sem in pustila svojo službo
07:09
and Conor and I left Manhattan together.
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in s Connorjem sva skupaj zapustila Manhattan.
07:12
I had no idea I was falling into crazy love,
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Nisem vedela da se noro zaljubljam,
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that I was walking headfirst into a carefully laid
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da hodim naravnost v skrbno načrtovano
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physical, financial and psychological trap.
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fizično, finančno in psihološko past.
07:25
The next step in the domestic violence pattern
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Naslednji korak v vzorcu nasilja v družini
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is to introduce the threat of violence
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je vpeljati grožnjo z nasiljem
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and see how she reacts.
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in videti, kako se bo odzvala.
07:33
And here's where those guns come in.
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Tu pridejo na plan pištole.
07:36
As soon as we moved to New England -- you know,
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Takoj, ko sva se preselila v Novo Anglijo - saj veste
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that place where Connor was supposed to feel so safe --
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v kraj, v katerem naj bi se Connor počutil tako varno -
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he bought three guns.
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je kupil tri pištole.
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He kept one in the glove compartment of our car.
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Eno je imel v predalu v najinemu avtomobilu.
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He kept one under the pillows on our bed,
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Eno je imel pod vzglavnikom na najini postelji
07:50
and the third one he kept in his pocket at all times.
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in tretjo je vedno nosil v žepu.
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And he said that he needed those guns
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Rekel je, da potrebuje te pištole
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because of the trauma he'd experienced as a young boy.
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zaradi travme, ki jo je doživel kot majhen fantek.
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He needed them to feel protected.
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Potreboval jih je, da bi se čutil varnega.
08:01
But those guns were really a message for me,
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A te pištole so bile pravzaprav sporočilo meni,
08:04
and even though he hadn't raised a hand to me,
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in, čeprav nikoli ni dvignil roke nadme,
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my life was already in grave danger every minute of every day.
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je bilo moje življenje vsako minuto vsakega dne
v večji nevarnosti.
v večji nevarnosti.
08:12
Conor first physically attacked me
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Connor me je prvič fizično napadel
08:16
five days before our wedding.
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pet dni pred najino poroko.
08:19
It was 7 a.m. I still had on my nightgown.
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Ura je bila 7 zjutraj in še vedno sem bila v spalni srajci.
08:23
I was working on my computer trying to finish a freelance writing assignment,
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Delala sem na računalniku in poskušala dokončati samostojni pisateljski projekt
08:27
and I got frustrated,
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in bila sem živčna.
08:29
and Conor used my anger as an excuse
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Connor je mojo jezo uporabil za izgovor,
08:32
to put both of his hands around my neck
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da je obe roki ovil okrog mojega vratu
08:35
and to squeeze so tightly that I could not breathe or scream,
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in tako močno stisnil, da nisem mogla ne dihati in ne kričati.
08:39
and he used the chokehold
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In med davljenjem
08:41
to hit my head repeatedly against the wall.
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je z mojo glavo večkrat udaril ob zid.
08:45
Five days later, the ten bruises on my neck had just faded,
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Pet dni kasneje je mojih deset modric na vratu zbledelo,
08:51
and I put on my mother's wedding dress,
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oblekla sem si poročno obleko moje mame
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and I married him.
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in se poročila z njim.
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Despite what had happened,
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Kljub temu, kar se je zgodilo,
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I was sure we were going to live happily ever after,
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sem bila prepričana,
da bova srečno živela do konca svojih dni,
da bova srečno živela do konca svojih dni,
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because I loved him, and he loved me so much.
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ker sem ga ljubila in on me je imel tako zelo rad.
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And he was very, very sorry.
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In bilo mu je zelo, zelo žal.
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He had just been really stressed out by the wedding
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Bil je le pod stresom zaradi poroke
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and by becoming a family with me.
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in zaradi tega, ker bi postal del moje družine.
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It was an isolated incident,
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Bil je osamljen dogodek
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and he was never going to hurt me again.
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in nikoli več mi ne bi storil česa hudega.
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It happened twice more on the honeymoon.
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Še dvakrat se je zgodilo na poročnem potovanju.
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The first time, I was driving to find a secret beach
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Prvič sem vozila avto in iskala skrito plažo
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and I got lost,
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in se izgubila
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and he punched me in the side of my head so hard
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in tako močno je udaril stran moje glave,
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that the other side of my head repeatedly hit
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da je moja druga stran glave večkrat udarila
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the driver's side window.
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ob okno ob voznikovem sedežu.
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And then a few days later, driving home from our honeymoon,
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Nekaj dni kasneje, ko sva se vozila domov s poročnega potovanja,
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he got frustrated by traffic,
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je postal slabe volje zaradi prometa
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and he threw a cold Big Mac in my face.
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in mi v obraz vrgel mrzel Big Mac.
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Conor proceeded to beat me once or twice a week
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Conor me je še naprej pretepal nekajkrat na teden
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for the next two and a half years of our marriage.
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nadaljnji dve leti in pol najinega zakona.
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I was mistaken in thinking that I was unique
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Motila sem se in mislila, da sem edina
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and alone in this situation.
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in sama v tej situaciji.
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One in three American women
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Vsaka tretja američanka
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experiences domestic violence or stalking at some point in her life,
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vsaj enkrat v življenju doživi nasilje v družini ali zalezovanje
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and the CDC reports that 15 million children
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in center za zdravje poroča, da vsako leto
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are abused every year, 15 million.
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zlorabijo 15 milijonov otrok. 15 milijonov.
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So actually, I was in very good company.
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Pravzaprav sploh nisem bila sama.
10:14
Back to my question:
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Nazaj k mojemu vprašanju:
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Why did I stay?
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"Zakaj sem ostala?"
10:19
The answer is easy.
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Odgovor je preprost.
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I didn't know he was abusing me.
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Nisem vedela, da me zlorablja.
10:24
Even though he held those loaded guns to my head,
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Čeprav je ob mojo glavo prislonil nabito pištolo,
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pushed me down stairs,
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me potisnil po stopnicah,
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threatened to kill our dog,
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grozil, da bo ubil najinega psa,
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pulled the key out of the car ignition as I drove down the highway,
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potegnil ključ iz vžiga, ko sem vozila po avtocesti,
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poured coffee grinds on my head
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mi na glavo stresel kavo,
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as I dressed for a job interview,
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ko sem se oblačila za razgovor za službo,
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I never once thought of myself as a battered wife.
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se niti enkrat nisem videla kot zlorabljeno ženo.
10:45
Instead, I was a very strong woman
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Namesto tega sem bila zelo močna ženska,
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in love with a deeply troubled man,
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ki je ljubila moškega, s težko preteklostjo,
10:51
and I was the only person on Earth
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in ki je bila edini človek na Zemlji,
10:53
who could help Conor face his demons.
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ki bi Connorju lahko pomagala z njegovimi demoni.
10:56
The other question everybody asks is,
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Drugo vprašanje, ki si ga vsi postavljajo, je:
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why doesn't she just leave?
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"Zakaj pač ne gre?"
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Why didn't I walk out? I could have left any time.
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Zakaj nisem kar odšla? Kadarkoli bi lahko.
11:06
To me, this is the saddest and most painful question that people ask,
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Zame je to najbolj boleče in žalostno vprašanje,
ki ga ljudje postavijo,
ki ga ljudje postavijo,
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because we victims know something you usually don't:
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ker mi žrtve vemo nekaj, česar vi po navadi ne veste:
11:14
It's incredibly dangerous to leave an abuser.
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zelo nevarno je pustiti tistega, ki te zlorablja.
11:18
Because the final step in the domestic violence pattern
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Ker je zadnji korak v vzorcu nasilja v družini,
11:22
is kill her.
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da jo ubiješ.
11:25
Over 70 percent of domestic violence murders
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Več kot 70 procentov umorov, ki sledijo nasilju v družini,
11:27
happen after the victim has ended the relationship,
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se zgodi po tem, ko je žrtev končala razmerje,
11:31
after she's gotten out,
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po tem, ko je odšla,
11:33
because then the abuser has nothing left to lose.
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ker takrat mučitelj ne more več ničesar izgubiti.
11:36
Other outcomes include long-term stalking,
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Drugi izidi so dolgotrajno zalezovanje,
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even after the abuser remarries;
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celo po tem, ko se mučitelj ponovno poroči,
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denial of financial resources;
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prikrivanje finančnih sredstev
11:45
and manipulation of the family court system
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in manipuliranje z družinskim sodnim sistemom,
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to terrify the victim and her children,
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da bi prestrašil žrtev in njene otroke,
11:50
who are regularly forced by family court judges
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ki jih družinska sodišča redno prisilijo
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to spend unsupervised time
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k nenadzorovanim obiskom
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with the man who beat their mother.
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moškega, ki je pretepal njihovo mamo.
12:00
And still we ask, why doesn't she just leave?
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In se še vedno sprašujemo, zakaj enostavno ne odide.
12:05
I was able to leave,
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Jaz sem lahko odšla,
12:06
because of one final, sadistic beating
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ker se je zaradi zadnjega sadističnega tepeža
12:09
that broke through my denial.
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moje zanikanje ustavilo.
12:12
I realized that the man who I loved so much
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Ugotovila sem, da me bo moški,
ki sem ga tako močno ljubila,
ki sem ga tako močno ljubila,
12:16
was going to kill me if I let him.
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ubil, če mu bom to pustila.
12:18
So I broke the silence.
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Prekinila sem molk.
12:21
I told everyone:
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Vsem sem povedala:
12:24
the police, my neighbors,
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policiji, sosedom,
12:28
my friends and family, total strangers,
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prijateljem in družini, popolnim tujcem
12:31
and I'm here today because you all helped me.
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in danes sem tu, ker ste mi vi vsi pomagali.
12:38
We tend to stereotype victims
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Nagnjeni smo k stereotipom žrtev,
12:41
as grisly headlines,
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kot so strahovite naslovnice,
12:44
self-destructive women, damaged goods.
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samouničujoče ženske, poškodovano blago.
12:47
The question, "Why does she stay?"
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Vprašanje "Zakaj ostaja?"
12:50
is code for some people for, "It's her fault for staying,"
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je za nekatere ljudi koda za: "Sama je kriva, da ostaja,"
12:56
as if victims intentionally choose to fall in love with men
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kot da bi si žrtve namerno izbrale, da se zaljubimo v moške,
12:59
intent upon destroying us.
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ki nas nameravajo uničiti.
13:02
But since publishing "Crazy Love,"
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Odkar sem objavila "Noro ljubezen",
13:04
I have heard hundreds of stories from men and women
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sem slišala na stotine zgodb moških in žensk,
13:08
who also got out,
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ki so prav tako pobegnili,
13:10
who learned an invaluable life lesson from what happened,
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ki so se iz tega, kar se je zgodilo,
naučili neprecenljivo lekcijo,
naučili neprecenljivo lekcijo,
13:15
and who rebuilt lives -- joyous, happy lives --
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in ki so na novo zgradili življenja - vesela, srečna življenja -
13:19
as employees, wives and mothers,
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kot uslužbenci, žene in matere,
13:21
lives completely free of violence, like me.
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življenja popolnoma brez nasilja, kot je moje.
13:26
Because it turns out that I'm actually a very typical domestic violence victim
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Izkazalo se je namreč,
da sem zelo tipična žrtev nasilja v družini
da sem zelo tipična žrtev nasilja v družini
13:30
and a typical domestic violence survivor.
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in zelo tipična oseba, ki je preživela nasilje v družini.
13:33
I remarried a kind and gentle man,
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Poročila sem se z bodrim in nežnim moškim
13:37
and we have those three kids.
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in imava te tri otroke.
13:40
I have that black lab, and I have that minivan.
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Imam črnega labradorca in enoprostorca.
13:43
What I will never have again,
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Nikoli več pa mi ne bo,
13:47
ever,
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res nikoli,
13:50
is a loaded gun held to my head
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ob glavo prislonila nabito pištolo
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by someone who says that he loves me.
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oseba, ki pravi, da me ljubi.
13:55
Right now, maybe you're thinking,
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Zdaj si morda mislite:
13:58
"Wow, this is fascinating,"
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"Vau, to je res fascinantno,"
14:00
or, "Wow, how stupid was she,"
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ali "Vau, kako neumna je bila,"
14:03
but this whole time, I've actually been talking about you.
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a ves ta čas sem govorila o vas.
14:09
I promise you there are several people
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Obljubim vam, da je kar nekaj ljudi,
14:12
listening to me right now
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ki me posluša
14:14
who are currently being abused
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in ki jih trenutno zlorabljajo,
14:17
or who were abused as children
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ali so jih zlorabljali kot otroke
14:20
or who are abusers themselves.
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ali sami zlorabljajo.
14:23
Abuse could be affecting your daughter,
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Zloraba se lahko dogaja vaši hčeri,
14:25
your sister, your best friend right now.
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vaši sestri, vaši najboljši prijateljici.
14:30
I was able to end my own crazy love story
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Svojo noro ljubezensko zgodbo sem uspela zaključiti tako,
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by breaking the silence.
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da sem prekinila molk.
14:36
I'm still breaking the silence today.
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Še danes to počnem.
14:39
It's my way of helping other victims,
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Tako pomagam drugim žrtvam
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and it's my final request of you.
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in tu je moja zadnja prošnja za vas;
14:46
Talk about what you heard here.
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pogovorite se o tem, kar ste tukaj slišali.
14:49
Abuse thrives only in silence.
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Zloraba uspeva le v molku.
14:52
You have the power to end domestic violence
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Imate moč, da prekinite nasilje v družini,
14:56
simply by shining a spotlight on it.
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samo izpostaviti ga morate.
14:59
We victims need everyone.
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Me žrtve potrebujemo vse.
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We need every one of you to understand
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Vsakega izmed vas potrebujemo, da razumete
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the secrets of domestic violence.
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skrivnosti nasilja v družini.
15:10
Show abuse the light of day by talking about it
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Izpostavite ga tako, da se o njem pogovorite
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with your children, your coworkers,
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s svojimi otroki, s svojimi sodelavci,
15:15
your friends and family.
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s svojimi prijatelji in z družino.
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Recast survivors as wonderful, lovable people
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Preživele predstavite kot čudovite očarljive ljudi
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with full futures.
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z bogato prihodnostjo.
15:23
Recognize the early signs of violence
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Prepoznajte zgodnje znake nasilja
15:27
and conscientiously intervene,
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in zavedno posredujte,
15:30
deescalate it, show victims a safe way out.
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zmanjšajte ga, pokažite žrtvi varen izhod.
15:34
Together we can make our beds,
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Skupaj lahko naredimo, da bodo naše postelje,
15:38
our dinner tables and our families
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naše jedilne mize in naše družine
15:41
the safe and peaceful oases they should be.
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varne in mirne oaze, kot bi morale biti.
15:45
Thank you.
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Hvala.
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(Applause)
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ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Leslie Morgan Steiner - WriterLeslie Morgan Steiner is a writer and outspoken advocate for survivors of domestic violence -- which includes herself.
Why you should listen
Leslie Morgan Steiner is the author of Crazy Love, a memoir about her marriage to a man who routinely abused and threatened her. In it she describes the harrowing details that unfolded unexpectedly -- from the moment she met a warm, loving, infatuated man on the subway, to the moment he first laid a hand on her, when he grabbed her neck just days before their wedding. Steiner also edited Mommy Wars: Stay-at-Home and Career Moms Face Off on Their Choices, Their Lives, Their Families, a collection of essays by women struggling to balance motherhood and their careers.
Steiner received her MBA in marketing from Wharton School of Business and worked in marketing for Johnson & Johnson before transitioning to writing, as General Manager of the Washington Post Magazine. Steiner writes a weekly column called "Two Cents on Modern Motherhood," for the website Mommy Track’d, and she has just finished her third book, on the effect of fertility treatments on modern motherhood.
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