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Janine Shepherd: A broken body isn't a broken person
詹宁.谢福得：身碎人不碎
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越野滑雪运动员詹宁.谢福德梦想摘得奥运奖牌，却在一次骑车训练时惨遭车祸。她讲述了关于人体恢复潜能的故事，令人难忘，她想要表达一个信息：你不应受限于躯体，而且放弃旧梦想才能放飞新梦想。
Janine Shepherd - Pilot
Aspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly. Full bio
Aspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly. Full bio
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00:16
Life is about opportunities,
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生命充满机遇，
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creating them and embracing them, and for me,
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是一个创造机遇、抓住机遇的过程，对我而言，
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that was the Olympic dream.
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机遇就是我的奥运梦想。
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That's what defined me. That was my bliss.
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奥运定义了我的人生。它就是我的幸福。
00:27
As a cross-country skier and member of the Australian ski team,
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作为一名越野滑雪运动员、澳大利亚滑雪队的一员，
00:31
headed towards the Winter Olympics,
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我当时正在备战冬奥会。
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I was on a training bike ride with my fellow teammates.
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那天我骑着一辆训练用的自行车，
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As we made our way up towards
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和队友们一起骑上蓝山，
00:39
the spectacular Blue Mountains west of Sydney,
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蓝山位于悉尼的西边，非常壮观。
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it was the perfect autumn day:
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那是一个完美的秋日，
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sunshine, the smell of eucalypt and a dream.
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有阳光，有桉树的香气，还有梦想的力量。
00:49
Life was good.
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生活很美好。
00:50
We'd been on our bikes for around five and half hours
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我们大约骑了五个半小时，
00:53
when we got to the part of the ride that I loved,
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终于骑到我最喜爱的一段雪道，
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and that was the hills, because I loved the hills.
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那是山上的一段雪道，因为我非常喜欢山。
00:58
And I got up off the seat of my bike, and I started
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然后我从车座上站起来，开始使劲蹬腿，
01:01
pumping my legs, and as I sucked in the cold mountain air,
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我使劲吸着山间清冷的空气，
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I could feel it burning my lungs, and I looked up
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我能感觉到肺部所受的刺激。然后我抬起头，
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to see the sun shining in my face.
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看阳光洒在我的脸上。
01:10
And then everything went black.
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但突然间，世界变得漆黑一片。
01:14
Where was I? What was happening?
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我在哪儿？这是怎么了？
01:17
My body was consumed by pain.
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我的身体剧痛不已。
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I'd been hit by a speeding utility truck
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我被一辆超速的公用载重汽车撞倒了，
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with only 10 minutes to go on the bike ride.
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而这离我要开始训练仅有十分钟不到。
01:26
I was airlifted from the scene of the accident
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我被救援直升机从事故现场
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by a rescue helicopter to a large spinal unit in Sydney.
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送到悉尼的一家大型脊椎医院，
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I had extensive and life-threatening injuries.
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当时我伤得很重，危及生命，
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I'd broken my neck and my back in six places.
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我的颈椎和脊椎断了六处，
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I broke five ribs on my left side.
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左边的肋骨断了五根，
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I broke my right arm. I broke my collarbone.
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右臂断了，锁骨断了，
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I broke some bones in my feet.
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脚上也有一些骨头断了。
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My whole right side was ripped open, filled with gravel.
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我身体的右侧完全撕开，满是砂石，
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My head was cut open across the front, lifted back,
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我的头上有一道大伤口，皮肉向后翻起，
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exposing the skull underneath.
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露出里面的头骨。
01:54
I had head injures. I had internal injuries.
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我的头部受了伤，也受了内伤，
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I had massive blood loss. In fact, I lost about five liters
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另外还大量失血，大约有五升，
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of blood, which is all someone my size would actually hold.
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这基本上是我这种体型的人全部的血量。
02:02
By the time the helicopter arrived at Prince Henry Hospital
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当直升机把我送到悉尼亨利王子医院的时候，
02:05
in Sydney, my blood pressure was 40 over nothing.
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我的血压只有40，低压基本为零。
02:09
I was having a really bad day. (Laughter)
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这一天过得真是糟透了。（笑声）
02:18
For over 10 days, I drifted between two dimensions.
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在接下来的十天里，我一直游离于两种状态之间，
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I had an awareness of being in my body, but also
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有时候，我意识到我在自己的身体里，
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being out of my body, somewhere else, watching
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但有时候，我会觉得灵魂漂移出去，
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from above as if it was happening to someone else.
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俯视着自己，好像在看一个不相干的人。
02:31
Why would I want to go back to a body that was so broken?
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我怎么还会想要回到这样一个破碎不堪的躯体里？
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But this voice kept calling me: "Come on, stay with me."
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但是有一个声音一直在呼唤我：“来，别离开我。“
02:40
"No. It's too hard."
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”不，这太痛苦了。“
02:43
"Come on. This is our opportunity."
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”来吧，这是我们的一个机遇。“
02:46
"No. That body is broken. It can no longer serve me."
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”不，这个身体已经破损了，没有利用价值了。“
02:49
"Come on. Stay with me. We can do it. We can do it together."
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”来吧，和我在一起。我们能做到的，我们会一起做到。“
02:55
I was at a crossroads.
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我到了一个十字路口。
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I knew if I didn't return to my body, I'd have to leave this world forever.
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我知道，如果我不回到我的身体里，就要永远离开这个世界。
03:01
It was the fight of my life.
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这是一场生死搏斗。
03:05
After 10 days, I made the decision to return to my body,
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过了十天，我做了一个决定，回到我的身体里，
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and the internal bleeding stopped.
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我的内出血停止了。
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The next concern was whether I would walk again,
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接下来我开始担心自己是否还能行走，
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because I was paralyzed from the waist down.
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因为我腰部以下都瘫痪了。
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They said to my parents, the neck break was a stable fracture,
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他们告诉我的父母，我的颈椎有稳定性骨折，
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but the back was completely crushed.
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但是脊椎整个儿完了。
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The vertebra at L1 was like you'd dropped a peanut,
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我的L1脊椎就像是掉在地上、
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stepped on it, smashed it into thousands of pieces.
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被人踩得粉碎的一颗花生。
03:32
They'd have to operate.
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医生们只好给我做手术，
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They went in. They put me on a beanbag. They cut me,
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他们把我放在豆袋支架上，然后把我切成两半，
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literally cut me in half, I have a scar
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真的是切成两半。我的手术伤疤
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that wraps around my entire body.
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整整绕我身体一周。
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They picked as much broken bone as they could
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他们尽量取出嵌在我脊髓里的碎骨片，
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that had lodged in my spinal cord.
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尽量都取出来，
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They took out two of my broken ribs, and they rebuilt my back,
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然后取了两块肋骨碎片，用来重建脊椎，
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L1, they rebuilt it, they took out another broken rib,
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重建L1之后，医生又取了另一块肋骨碎片，
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they fused T12, L1 and L2 together.
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用来融合T12、L1和L2，
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Then they stitched me up. They took an entire hour to stitch me up.
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然后医生缝合了我的伤口，仅缝合就用了整整一个小时。
04:00
I woke up in intensive care, and the doctors were really excited
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我醒来的时候是在重症监护病房，医生们都很激动，
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that the operation had been a success because at that stage
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因为手术很成功，
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I had a little bit of movement in one of my big toes,
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当时我的一个大脚趾动了一下，
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and I thought, "Great, because I'm going to the Olympics!"
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然后我想，“太好了，因为我是要去奥运会的！”
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(Laughter)
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（笑声）
04:14
I had no idea. That's the sort of thing
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我完全没有概念。这种事情好像是与自己无关的，
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that happens to someone else, not me, surely.
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通常发生在别人身上，而肯定不是我。
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But then the doctor came over to me, and she said,
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但是医生却俯身过来，说，
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"Janine, the operation was a success, and we've picked
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“詹宁，手术很成功，我们已经尽全力
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as much bone out of your spinal cord as we could,
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从你的脊髓里取出了碎骨片，
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but the damage is permanent.
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但是你的伤势是永久性的，
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The central nervous system nerves, there is no cure.
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中枢神经系统的伤势无法完全复原。
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You're what we call a partial paraplegic, and you'll have
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你现在截瘫了，
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all of the injuries that go along with that.
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并且会有相应的各种伤痛。
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You have no feeling from the waist down, and at most,
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你从腰部以下都没有知觉，
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you might get 10- or 20-percent return.
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最多会有百分之十到二十的恢复。
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You'll have internal injuries for the rest of your life.
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你终生都会有内伤，
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You'll have to use a catheter for the rest of your life.
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将要一直使用导尿管，
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And if you walk again, it will be with calipers and a walking frame."
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如果你还能行走，也得使用卡夹和助行器。
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And then she said, "Janine,
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然后医生说，”詹宁，
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you'll have to rethink everything you do in your life,
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你得重新考虑你要做的每件事，
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because you're never going to be able to do the things you did before."
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因为你没法再做以前的事情了。“
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I tried to grasp what she was saying.
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我努力想要听懂她说的话。
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I was an athlete. That's all I knew. That's all I'd done.
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我是一名运动员。我只知道这个，我只做过这个。
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If I couldn't do that, then what could I do?
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如果这都不能做了，我还能做什么？
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And the question I asked myself is, if I couldn't do that,
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我问我自己，如果我不是运动员了，
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then who was I?
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那么我是谁？
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They moved me from intensive care to acute spinal.
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他们将我从重症监护病房转移到脊椎急症病房，
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I was lying on a thin, hard spinal bed.
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我躺在一张薄薄的硬床上，
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I had no movement in my legs. I had tight stockings on
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腿不能动，穿着紧身的长袜，
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to protect from blood clots.
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防止血栓形成。
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I had one arm in plaster, one arm tied down by drips.
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我的一只胳膊打着石膏，另一只输着液，
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I had a neck brace and sandbags on either side of my head
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我颈部戴着牵引器，头部两侧都放着沙包，
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and I saw my world through a mirror
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现在我看整个世界，是通过悬在头上的
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that was suspended above my head.
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一面镜子。
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I shared the ward with five other people,
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我的病房里还有其他五位病人，
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and the amazing thing is that because we were all lying
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有意思的是，大家都瘫痪躺在脊髓病房里，不能动，
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paralyzed in a spinal ward, we didn't know what each other looked like.
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所以我们不知道彼此的样子。
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How amazing is that? How often in life
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这为什么有意思？因为你在生活中能有几次机会
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do you get to make friendships, judgment-free,
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建立这样不带主观判断的、
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purely based on spirit?
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纯精神层面的友谊？
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And there were no superficial conversations
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我和病友之间没有肤浅的对话，
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as we shared our innermost thoughts, our fears,
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我们只分享内心最深处的想法，我们的恐惧，
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and our hopes for life after the spinal ward.
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以及我们对于离开脊椎病房以后生活的希望。
06:16
I remember one night, one of the nurses came in,
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我记得有天晚上，有名护士走了进来，
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Jonathan, with a whole lot of plastic straws.
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他叫约翰逊，带着很多塑料吸管。
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He put a pile on top of each of us, and he said,
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他在我们每个人身上都放了一堆吸管，告诉我们，
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"Start threading them together."
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“把这些吸管接在一起。”
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Well, there wasn't much else to do in the spinal ward, so we did.
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当时在脊椎病房里也无事可做，于是我们就开始连吸管。
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And when we'd finished, he went around silently
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我们连完之后，他默默地走过来，
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and he joined all of the straws up
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把所有吸管都接在一起，
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till it looped around the whole ward, and then he said,
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直到能绕病房一周，然后他说，
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"Okay, everybody, hold on to your straws."
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”好了，大家都抓住你们的吸管。“
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And we did. And he said, "Right. Now we're all connected."
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我们照做了。他说，“对，现在我们都连在一起了。”
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And as we held on, and we breathed as one,
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我们抓着吸管，以同样的节奏呼吸，
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we knew we weren't on this journey alone.
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我们知道在这一程中，我们不孤独。
07:02
And even lying paralyzed in the spinal ward,
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即便是躺在脊椎病房里，瘫痪着的时候，
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there were moments of incredible depth and richness,
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也有一些无比深刻而丰富的时刻，
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of authenticity and connection
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让我感觉到生命的真实和互联，
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that I had never experienced before.
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这是我此前从未体会到的。
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And each of us knew that when we left the spinal ward
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我们每个人都明白，一旦我们离开这间病房，
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we would never be the same.
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我们再也不是以前的自己了。
07:27
After six months, it was time to go home.
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过了六个月，我该出院回家了，
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I remember Dad pushing me outside in my wheelchair,
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我记得爸爸用轮椅把我推出来，
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wrapped in a plaster body cast,
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我打着石膏绷带，
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and feeling the sun on my face for the first time.
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第一次感受到阳光洒在脸上。
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I soaked it up and I thought,
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我沐浴在阳光里，心想，
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how could I ever have taken this for granted?
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我以前怎么能认为这是理所当然的？
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I felt so incredibly grateful for my life.
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我对生命感到无比感恩。
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But before I left the hospital, the head nurse
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但我出院前，护士长告诉过我，
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had said to me, "Janine, I want you to be ready,
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“詹宁，我希望你做好准备，
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because when you get home, something's going to happen."
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因为你回家之后，会遇到一点问题。”
07:58
And I said, "What?" And she said,
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我问，”什么问题？”她说，
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"You're going to get depressed."
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“你会抑郁。”
08:02
And I said, "Not me, not Janine the Machine,"
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我说，”我不会，詹宁‘机器’不会的。”
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which was my nickname.
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詹宁”机器“是我的外号。
08:06
She said, "You are, because, see, it happens to everyone.
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她说，”你会的，因为每个人都会。
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In the spinal ward, that's normal.
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在脊椎病房里，一切都很正常。
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You're in a wheelchair. That's normal.
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你坐轮椅，很正常。
08:13
But you're going to get home and realize
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但是等你回家，你就会意识到
08:16
how different life is."
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生活发生了多大的变化。”
08:18
And I got home and something happened.
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我回家之后确实有一些问题。
08:24
I realized Sister Sam was right.
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我意识到萨姆护士说得对，
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I did get depressed.
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我确实抑郁了。
08:30
I was in my wheelchair. I had no feeling from the waist down,
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我坐着轮椅，腰部以下没有知觉，
08:33
attached to a catheter bottle. I couldn't walk.
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必须带着导尿管，不能行走。
08:37
I'd lost so much weight in the hospital
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我住院期间体重大幅下降，
08:39
I now weighed about 80 pounds.
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降到只有80磅左右。
08:43
And I wanted to give up.
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我想要放弃。
08:45
All I wanted to do was put my running shoes on and run out the door.
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我只想穿上我的跑鞋，跑出门去，
08:49
I wanted my old life back. I wanted my body back.
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我想回到过去的生活，拥有过去的身体，
08:52
And I can remember Mom sitting on the end of my bed,
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我还记得妈妈坐在我的床头说，
08:55
and saying, "I wonder if life will ever be good again."
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“我在想生活会不会再好起来。”
08:59
And I thought, "How could it? Because I've lost everything
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我当时想，“怎么可能？我已经失去了一切我看重的东西，
09:03
that I valued, everything that I'd worked towards.
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一切我为之努力的东西。
09:07
Gone."
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什么都没了。”
09:10
And the question I asked was, "Why me? Why me?"
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我当时问，“为什么是我？为什么是我？”
09:15
And then I remembered my friends
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但我想到我的那些病友，
09:19
that were still in the spinal ward,
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还在脊椎病房里的病友，
09:21
particularly Maria.
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尤其是玛利亚。
09:23
Maria was in a car accident, and she woke up
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玛利亚遭遇了车祸，醒来的时候是她的16岁生日，
09:25
on her 16th birthday to the news that she was a complete quadriplegic,
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她却得知自己已经完全瘫痪了，
09:30
had no movement from the neck down,
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颈部以下都不能动弹，
09:32
had damage to her vocal chords, and she couldn't talk.
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声带受损，不能说话。
09:36
They told me, "We're going to move you next to her
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他们告诉我，“我们要把你挪到她旁边，
09:38
because we think it will be good for her."
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因为我们觉得这样对她有好处。“
09:40
I was worried. I didn't know how I'd react
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我很担心，不知道在她旁边
09:44
to being next to her.
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应该怎么应对。
09:46
I knew it would be challenging, but it was actually a blessing,
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我知道这会是个挑战，但事实上这是一种福气，
09:50
because Maria always smiled.
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因为玛利亚总是在微笑。
09:55
She was always happy, and even when she began to talk again,
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她总是很开心，即使是她再度开口说话时，
09:59
albeit difficult to understand, she never complained, not once.
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即便很难懂，她也从来不抱怨，一次也没有。
10:05
And I wondered how had she ever found that level of acceptance.
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我很好奇她是如何接受事实的。
10:11
And I realized that this wasn't just my life.
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我认识到，这不是我一个人的生活，
10:16
It was life itself. I realized that this wasn't just my pain.
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这就是生活本身。我认识到，这不是我一个人的痛苦，
10:20
It was everybody's pain. And then I knew, just like before,
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这是所有人的痛苦。我认识到，和从前一样，
10:25
that I had a choice. I could keep fighting this
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我还是有选择。我可以继续拒绝面对，
10:30
or I could let go and accept not only my body
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也可以坦然，接受我的身体
10:35
but the circumstances of my life.
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和我的生活处境。
10:38
And then I stopped asking, "Why me?"
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于是我不再问，”为什么是我？“
10:42
And I started to ask, "Why not me?"
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我开始问，”为什么不是我？“
10:45
And then I thought to myself, maybe being at rock bottom
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我对自己说，也许跌到谷底
10:49
is actually the perfect place to start.
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恰恰是最好的起点。
10:56
I had never before thought of myself as a creative person.
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我以前从来不认为自己是一个有创意的人，
11:00
I was an athlete. My body was a machine.
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我是一个运动员，我的身体是一台机器。
11:04
But now I was about to embark on the most creative project
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但是现在我却要开始一个最具创意的工程，
11:08
that any of us could ever do:
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也是我们每一个人都能做的，
11:10
that of rebuilding a life.
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那就是：重建生活。
11:13
And even though I had absolutely no idea
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尽管我毫无概念
11:15
what I was going to do, in that uncertainty
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将来要做什么，但这种不确定
11:18
came a sense of freedom.
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倒也带来了一种自由感。
11:21
I was no longer tied to a set path.
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我不再受限于既定路径，
11:23
I was free to explore life's infinite possibilities.
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我能自由探索生活的无限可能。
11:30
And that realization was about to change my life.
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这一认识接下来会改变我的人生。
11:36
Sitting at home in my wheelchair and my plaster body cast,
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就当我坐在家中的轮椅上，打着石膏绷带的时候，
11:41
an airplane flew overhead, and I looked up,
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有一架飞机从我头顶飞过，我抬头望去，
11:44
and I thought to myself, "That's it!
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对自己说，”就是它了！
11:47
If I can't walk, then I might as well fly."
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如果我不能走，那我不妨飞。”
11:52
I said, "Mom, I'm going to learn how to fly."
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我说，“妈妈，我要学飞行。”
11:54
She said, "That's nice, dear." (Laughter)
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她说，“那不错啊。亲爱的”（笑声）
11:59
I said, "Pass me the yellow pages."
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我说，“把黄页递给我。”
12:00
She passed me the phone book, I rang up the flying school,
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她递给我电话号码簿，我打电话到飞行学校预约，
12:03
I made a booking, said I'd like to make a booking to come out for a flight.
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说我想预约一次飞行，
12:06
They said, "You know, when do you want to come out?"
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他们说，“那你想什么时候飞？”
12:08
I said, "Well, I have to get a friend to drive me out
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我说，“嗯，我得找个朋友开车送我，
12:10
because I can't drive. Sort of can't walk either.
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因为我开不了车，基本也走不了路。
12:14
Is that a problem?"
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那会是个问题吗？”
12:15
I made a booking, and weeks later my friend Chris
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我约好了时间，几周后，我的朋友克里斯
12:17
and my mom drove me out to the airport,
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和我妈妈开车把我送到机场，
12:18
all 80 pounds of me covered in a plaster body cast
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只有80磅的我，打着石膏绷带，
12:21
in a baggy pair of overalls. (Laughter)
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穿着一条肥肥大大的背带裤。（笑声）
12:24
I can tell you, I did not look like the ideal candidate
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我可以告诉大家，我看起来实在不像是
12:27
to get a pilot's license. (Laughter)
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能考取飞行执照的理想人选。（笑声）
12:30
I'm holding on to the counter because I can't stand.
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我靠在柜台上，因为我站不住，
12:32
I said, "Hi, I'm here for a flying lesson."
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我说，“你好，我是来上飞行课的。”
12:34
And they took one look and ran out the back to draw short straws.
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他们看了我一眼，然后从后门跑了出去互相推让，
12:37
"You get her.""No, no, you take her."
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“你带她。”“不不，你带她。”
12:41
Finally this guy comes out. He goes,
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最后终于有一个人走出来，说，
12:42
"Hi, I'm Andrew, and I'm going to take you flying."
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“你好，我叫安德鲁，我来带你飞。”
12:44
I go, "Great." And so they drive me down,
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我说，“好啊。”于是他们开车带我下去，
12:46
they get me out on the tarmac,
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把我送到停机坪上，
12:47
and there was this red, white and blue airplane.
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那儿停着一架红白蓝的飞机，
12:49
It was beautiful. They lifted me into the cockpit.
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非常漂亮。他们把我抬进了驾驶舱，
12:52
They had to slide me up on the wing, put me in the cockpit.
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其实是让我从机翼滑上去，进到驾驶舱的。
12:55
They sat me down. There are buttons and dials everywhere.
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他们让我坐好。驾驶舱里到处都是按钮和表盘。
12:57
I'm going, "Wow, how do you ever know what all these buttons and dials do?"
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我说，“哇，你怎么能知道每个按钮和表盘都是做什么用的？”
13:01
Andrew the instructor got in the front, started the airplane up.
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教官安德鲁钻到前面，启动了飞机，
13:03
He said, "Would you like to have a go at taxiing?"
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他说，“你想不想试试滑行？”
13:05
That's when you use your feet to control the rudder pedals
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滑行就是用脚控制方向舵的踏板，
13:07
to control the airplane on the ground.
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在地面上控制飞机。
13:10
I said, "No, I can't use my legs."
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我说，“不，我的腿动不了。”
13:12
He went, "Oh."
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他说，“哦。”
13:13
I said, "But I can use my hands," and he said, "Okay."
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我说，“但我可以用手。”他说，“好吧。”
13:16
So he got over to the runway, and he applied the power.
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于是他开到跑道上，开足马力，
13:19
And as we took off down the runway,
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我们从跑道上起飞，
13:22
and the wheels lifted up off the tarmac, and we became airborne,
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飞机的轮子离开停机坪、我们飞起来的那一瞬间，
13:26
I had the most incredible sense of freedom.
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我有一种最不可思议的自由感。
13:31
And Andrew said to me,
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我们飞向训练区的时候，
13:33
as we got over the training area,
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安德鲁对我说，
13:36
"You see that mountain over there?"
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“你看见那边的山了吗？
13:38
And I said, "Yeah."
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我说，”看到了。“
13:40
And he said, "Well, you take the controls, and you fly towards that mountain."
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安德鲁说，”好，现在你来控制，朝山那儿飞。“
13:45
And as I looked up, I realized
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我抬起头来，发现
13:47
that he was pointing towards the Blue Mountains
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他指着的是蓝山，
13:50
where the journey had begun.
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也就是我这一程的起点。
13:53
And I took the controls, and I was flying.
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于是我控制飞机飞过去，
13:58
And I was a long, long way from that spinal ward,
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此刻的我距离那个脊椎病房已经很远很远。
14:01
and I knew right then that I was going to be a pilot.
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当时我就知道我想要当飞行员。
14:05
Didn't know how on Earth I'd ever pass a medical.
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我不知道我怎么样才能通过体检，
14:09
But I'd worry about that later, because right now I had a dream.
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但这个问题我回头再操心，因为现在我有一个梦想。
14:12
So I went home, I got a training diary out, and I had a plan.
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于是我回家找出一本训练日记，制定了一个计划。
14:16
And I practiced my walking as much as I could,
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我尽量多地练习行走，
14:19
and I went from the point of two people holding me up
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从一开始靠两个人架着
14:22
to one person holding me up
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到一个人架着
14:25
to the point where I could walk around the furniture
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到可以扶着家具走，
14:27
as long as it wasn't too far apart.
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只要家具别隔得太远。
14:30
And then I made great progression to the point
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后来我取得了很大进步，
14:32
where I could walk around the house, holding onto the walls,
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能够扶着墙在屋子里走，
14:34
like this, and Mom said she was forever following me,
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就像这样，而妈妈说她总是跟在我后面，
14:38
wiping off my fingerprints. (Laughter)
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擦我的手印。（笑声）
14:41
But at least she always knew where I was.
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但至少她始终知道我在哪儿。
14:46
So while the doctors continued to operate
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所以当医生们继续做手术，
14:48
and put my body back together again,
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再次修复我的身体时，
14:50
I went on with my theory study, and then eventually,
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我继续我的理论学习，然后最终，
14:54
and amazingly, I passed my pilot's medical,
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我奇迹般地通过了飞行员体检，
14:58
and that was my green light to fly.
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那意味着我可以飞了。
15:00
And I spent every moment I could out at that flying school,
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我把所有空闲时间都花在飞行学校，
15:03
way out of my comfort zone,
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远远走出我的舒适带。
15:04
all these young guys that wanted to be Qantas pilots,
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所有那些想当澳航飞行员的年轻人，
15:07
you know, and little old hop-along me in first my plaster cast,
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都看到我先是打着石膏绷带，
15:10
and then my steel brace, my baggy overalls,
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然后戴着钢支架，穿着肥大的背带裤，
15:13
my bag of medication and catheters and my limp,
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带着医药包、导尿袋，一瘸一拐地，
15:16
and they used to look at me and think,
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他们当时看见我时会想，
15:18
"Oh, who is she kidding? She's never going to be able to do this."
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”哦？谁在这儿开玩笑？她永远不可能做到的。“
15:21
And sometimes I thought that too.
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有的时候我也那么想。
15:23
But that didn't matter, because now there was something inside that burned
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但没关系，因为我心里有一种东西在燃烧，
15:27
that far outweighed my injuries.
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远比我的伤势更为猛烈。
15:32
And little goals kept me going along the way,
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我朝着这些小目标一步一步走下来，
15:34
and eventually I got my private pilot's license,
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最终我拿到了私用飞行驾照，
15:38
and then I learned to navigate, and I flew my friends around Australia.
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然后我学会了导航，载着朋友飞遍澳大利亚，
15:43
And then I learned to fly an airplane with two engines
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然后我又学会了驾驶双引擎的飞机，
15:46
and I got my twin engine rating.
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通过了双引擎飞机驾驶考核。
15:48
And then I learned to fly in bad weather as well as fine weather
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然后，我又学会在恶劣天气飞行，
15:51
and got my instrument rating.
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通过了仪表飞行考核。
15:54
And then I got my commercial pilot's license.
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后来，我拿到了商用飞行驾照。
15:57
And then I got my instructor rating.
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又拿到了教官执照。
15:59
And then I found myself back at that same school
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再后来，我回到了那所学校，
16:03
where I'd gone for that very first flight,
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就是我上第一节飞行课的学校，
16:05
teaching other people how to fly,
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我在那里教别人飞行，
16:08
just under 18 months after I'd left the spinal ward.
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这离我离开脊椎病房只有18个月。
16:12
(Applause)
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（掌声）
16:24
And then I thought, "Why stop there?
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然后我又想，”为什么停下来？
16:26
Why not learn to fly upside down?"
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为什么不学习倒飞呢？”
16:29
And I did, and I learned to fly upside down
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于是我去学了倒飞，
16:32
and became an aerobatics flying instructor.
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成为一名特技飞行教官。
16:36
And Mom and Dad? Never been up.
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我爸妈呢？从来没坐过。
16:42
But then I knew for certain that although my body might be limited,
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但我已经很确信，尽管我的身体有局限，
16:48
it was my spirit that was unstoppable.
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我的精神却是挡不住的。
16:53
The philosopher Lao Tzu once said,
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哲学家老子曾经说过，
16:56
"When you let go of what you are,
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”以其终不自为大，
16:59
you become what you might be."
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故能成其大。“
17:03
I now know that it wasn't until I let go of who I thought I was
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我现在明白，只有我放弃以前对自己的定位，
17:08
that I was able to create a completely new life.
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我才能开启一个全新的人生，
17:12
It wasn't until I let go of the life I thought I should have
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只有我放弃以前认为应当拥有的生活，
17:16
that I was able to embrace the life that was waiting for me.
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我才能拥抱正在等待我的生活。
17:21
I now know that my real strength
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我现在明白，我真正的力量
17:24
never came from my body,
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从来就不是来自我的身躯，
17:28
and although my physical capabilities have changed dramatically,
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而且尽管我的身体性能发生了极大变化，
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who I am is unchanged.
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我真实的自己从未改变。
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The pilot light inside of me was still a light,
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我内心的领航信号灯依然亮着，
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just as it is in each and every one of us.
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我们每个人心中都有这样的信号灯。
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I know that I'm not my body,
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我知道，我不仅仅是我的这幅躯体，
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and I also know that you're not yours.
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我也知道，你们也都一样。
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And then it no longer matters what you look like,
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你们的外在形象不再重要，
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where you come from, or what you do for a living.
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你们的背景、你们的工作都不重要，
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All that matters is that we continue to fan the flame of humanity
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唯一重要的是，我们要让人性的火焰继续燃烧，
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by living our lives as the ultimate creative expression
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好好生活，把它作为
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of who we really are,
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内心真实自我的终极表达。
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because we are all connected
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因为我们彼此联结着，
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by millions and millions of straws,
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由成万上亿的吸管联结在一起，
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and it's time to join those up
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是时候把我们都连起来，
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and to hang on.
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然后固守。
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And if we are to move towards our collective bliss,
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如果我们想要获得共同的欢乐与运气，
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it's time we shed our focus on the physical
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那么是时候放弃对于外在的关注，
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and instead embrace the virtues of the heart.
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而应该是去感悟内心的美德。
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So raise your straws if you'll join me.
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所以如果你们愿意和我一起，就举起手中的吸管吧。
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Thank you. (Applause)
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谢谢。（掌声）
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Thank you.
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谢谢。
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Janine Shepherd - PilotAspiring Olympic skier Janine Shepherd was nearly killed when she was hit by a truck during a training bike ride. Paralysed and immobile for six months, she was given a grim picture for recovery. But not only did she teach herself to walk again— she learned to fly.
Why you should listen
Janine Shepherd is a “walking paraplegic.” Defying her disability, she has become a commercial pilot and aerobatics instructor, motivational speaker, best-selling author, and mother of three. A champion cross-country skier in training for the Calgary Olympics, Janine’s life changed forever when she was hit by a truck during a bicycle ride in the Blue Mountains of Australia. Doctors did not expect her to survive.
After six months in hospital—nearly all of it on her back—Janine focused intently on healing both her broken body and crushed morale. A turning point in her recovery came when a small plane flying overhead gave her the most improbable idea. “That’s it!” she exclaimed from her wheelchair. “If I can’t walk, I’ll fly.”
Still encased in a full body cast, Janine had to be lifted into an aircraft for her introductory flight lesson. But within a year she had defied the odds and earned her private pilot’s license. Her talent and skill as a pilot earned Janine a commercial pilot license and ultimately, her flying instructor’s rating. Then she decided to learn to fly upside down, and finally, to teach acrobatic flight to other pilots.
Janine is an ambassador for Spinal Cure Australia and Red Bull Wings For Life, and is committed to helping find a cure for spinal cord injury in the near future. She was awarded the Order of Australia, the nation’s highest honor. She is a contributor to Deepak Chopra’s workshops, and has been featured on 60 Minutes and This Is Your Life.
In the meantime, she seeks to inspire those coping with physical disability and life challenges. Janine is the author of six books, including the newly released memoir Defiant: A Broken Body Is Not a Broken Person. She regularly delivers inspirational keynotes to audiences of thousands in countries around the world.
Janine Shepherd | Speaker | TED.com