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Matthew O'Reilly: “Am I dying?” The honest answer.
馬修．歐瑞利: 面對「我快死了嗎？」的最誠實回答
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馬修．歐瑞利在紐約長島擔任緊急救護技術員，擁有豐富的經驗。在演說中歐瑞利敘述重傷病人問他：「我快死了嗎？」之後發生的事。
Matthew O'Reilly - Emergency medical technician
Matthew O’Reilly is a veteran emergency medical technician on Long Island, New York. Full bio
Matthew O’Reilly is a veteran emergency medical technician on Long Island, New York. Full bio
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I've been a critical care EMT for the past
seven years in Suffolk County, New York.
seven years in Suffolk County, New York.
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我在紐約蘇福克郡擔任
重症緊急救護技術員至今七年了。
重症緊急救護技術員至今七年了。
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I've been a first responder in a number of incidents
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我是各種意外的第一線急救員，
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ranging from car accidents to Hurricane Sandy.
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從車禍到桑迪颶風都碰過。
如果你跟大家一樣，
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If you are like most people, death might be
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死亡大概會是你最怕的事之一。
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one of your greatest fears.
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Some of us will see it coming.
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有些人能料到自己將死；
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Some of us won't.
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有些人不行。
有個醫學名詞鮮為人知，
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There is a little-known documented medical term
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called impending doom.
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稱為瀕臨死亡。
那幾乎算是種症狀。
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It's almost a symptom.
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身為醫療人員，訓練讓我
以平常心面對這種症狀。
以平常心面對這種症狀。
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As a medical provider, I'm trained to respond
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to this symptom like any other,
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so when a patient having a heart attack looks at me
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因此當心臟病人看著我說：
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and says, "I'm going to die today,"
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「我今天就會死。」
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we are trained to reevaluate the patient's condition.
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訓練要我們重新評估病人的情況。
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Throughout my career, I have responded
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在我的職涯中，
我去過一些意外現場急救，
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to a number of incidents where the patient
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當中有些病人還有幾分鐘可以活，
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had minutes left to live
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and there was nothing I could do for them.
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而我卻無能為力。
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With this, I was faced with a dilemma:
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因此我常面對進退兩難的問題：
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Do I tell the dying that they are about to face death,
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我要告訴臨終病患，他們快死了嗎？
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or do I lie to them to comfort them?
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還是我應該說謊來安撫他們？
我還是菜鳥時，
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Early in my career, I faced this dilemma
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碰到這種問題只會說謊。
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by simply lying.
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I was afraid.
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當時我很害怕。
我害怕如果我說了實話，
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I was afraid if I told them the truth,
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that they would die in terror, in fear,
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他們就會在害怕和恐懼中死去，
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just grasping for those last moments of life.
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只能緊抓生命的最後時刻。
一場事件改變了我的觀點。
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That all changed with one incident.
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五年前，我到摩托車意外現場急救。
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Five years ago, I responded to a motorcycle accident.
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The rider had suffered critical, critical injuries.
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騎士受的傷非常嚴重。
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As I assessed him, I realized that there was nothing
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我評估他的傷勢，
發現完全束手無策，
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that could be done for him,
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就像許多傷患一樣，
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and like so many other cases,
he looked me in the eye
he looked me in the eye
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他看著我的雙眼問那個問題：
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and asked that question: "Am I going to die?"
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「我要死了嗎？」
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In that moment, I decided to do something different.
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在那當下 ，我決定改變作法。
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I decided to tell him the truth.
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我決定告訴他實情。
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I decided to tell him that he was going to die
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我決定告訴他，他快死了，
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and that there was nothing I could do for him.
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而且我完全無能為力。
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His reaction shocked me to this day.
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他的反應至今仍讓我震驚。
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He simply laid back and had a look
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他只是躺在那，
臉上露出接受的表情。
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of acceptance on his face.
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他沒有面臨我想像中
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He was not met with that terror or fear
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that I thought he would be.
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那樣的恐懼和害怕。
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He simply laid there, and as I looked into his eyes,
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他只是躺在那裡，
我在他的眼裡看見
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I saw inner peace and acceptance.
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接受與內心的平靜。
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From that moment forward, I decided
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從那個時刻開始，
我決定自己沒有立場
用謊言安撫垂死的人。
用謊言安撫垂死的人。
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it was not my place to comfort the dying with my lies.
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Having responded to many cases since then
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自此之後，我回覆許多臨終病患，
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where patients were in their last moments
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and there was nothing I could do for them,
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我無法幫他們做任何事，
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in almost every case,
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幾乎每一位病患
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they have all had the same reaction to the truth,
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面對實話的反應都一樣，
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of inner peace and acceptance.
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接受，以及內心的平靜。
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In fact, there are three patterns
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其實我在所有案例中
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I have observed in all these cases.
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觀察到三種模式。
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The first pattern always kind of shocked me.
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第一種總會讓我吃驚。
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Regardless of religious belief or cultural background,
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不論哪種宗教信仰或是文化背景，
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there's a need for forgiveness.
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他們都需要饒恕。
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Whether they call it sin
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不管他們自認犯了罪
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or they simply say they have a regret,
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或只是有個遺憾，
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their guilt is universal.
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他們全都感到內疚。
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I had once cared for an elderly gentleman
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我照顧過一位年長紳士，
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who was having a massive heart attack.
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他的心臟病發，非常嚴重。
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As I prepared myself and my equipment
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我做好心理準備，打點好器材，
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for his imminent cardiac arrest,
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因為他的心跳就快停止了。
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I began to tell the patient of his imminent demise.
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我開始告訴他，死亡即將降臨。
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He already knew by my tone
of voice and body language.
of voice and body language.
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他從我的聲調和動作中
已經預知了這件事。
已經預知了這件事。
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As I placed the defibrillator pads on his chest,
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我把電擊器放在他胸前，
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prepping for what was going to happen,
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準備好面對即將發生的事。
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he looked me in the eye and said,
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他直視著我的雙眼說：
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"I wish I had spent more time with
my children and grandchildren
my children and grandchildren
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「我好希望過去
能多花點時間陪陪兒孫，
能多花點時間陪陪兒孫，
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instead of being selfish with my time."
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而不是自私地享受獨處時光。」
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Faced with imminent death,
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面對即將來臨的死亡，
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all he wanted was forgiveness.
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他只想要得到原諒。
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The second pattern I observe
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我觀察到的第二種模式
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is the need for remembrance.
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就是被緬懷的需要。
不論是在我或是
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Whether it was to be remembered in my thoughts
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他的愛人記憶中被緬懷。
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or their loved ones', they needed to feel
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他們都需要感到生命能延續。
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that they would be living on.
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There's a need for immortality
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他們需要永恆不朽地
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within the hearts and thoughts of their loved ones,
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存在愛人的心裡和腦海中，
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myself, my crew, or anyone around.
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或是在我、同仁或任何人的心上。
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Countless times, I have had a
patient look me in the eyes
patient look me in the eyes
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有無數次，病人看著我的雙眼問：
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and say, "Will you remember me?"
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「你會記得我嗎？」
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The final pattern I observe
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我觀察到的最後一種模式
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always touched me the deepest, to the soul.
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總會觸動我的內心深處，
觸動我的靈魂。
觸動我的靈魂。
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The dying need to know that their life had meaning.
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他們渴望知道自己的生命有意義。
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They need to know that they did not waste their life
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他們需要知道自己沒有浪費生命
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on meaningless tasks.
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在無意義的事情上。
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This came to me very, very early in my career.
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這種情況在我入行沒多久就出現了。
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I had responded to a call.
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我曾接過一個急救任務，
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There was a female in her late 50s
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有位快 60 歲的女性，
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severely pinned within a vehicle.
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被卡在車裡動彈不得。
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She had been t-boned at a high rate of speed,
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她的車子從側邊被高速撞上，
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critical, critical condition.
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情況非常危急。
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As the fire department worked
to remove her from the car,
to remove her from the car,
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消防隊要從車子裡救出她的同時，
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I climbed in to begin to render care.
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我爬進去開始急救。
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As we talked, she had said to me,
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我們對話時，她對我說：
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"There was so much more
I wanted to do with my life."
I wanted to do with my life."
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「我這輩子還有好多事情想做。」
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She had felt she had not left her mark on this Earth.
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她覺得還沒在這世上留下印記。
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As we talked further, it would turn out
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我們談得更深入後，
我才知道她領養了兩個小孩，
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that she was a mother of two adopted children
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who were both on their way to medical school.
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而且他們都準備要唸醫學院。
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Because of her, two children
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因為她，這兩個小孩
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had a chance they never would have had otherwise
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擁有本來不可能得到的機會。
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and would go on to save lives in the medical field
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而且還能從醫，拯救許多生命，
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as medical doctors.
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結果花了 45 分鐘，
才將她從車子裡救出來。
才將她從車子裡救出來。
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It would end up taking 45 minutes
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to free her from the vehicle.
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However, she perished prior to freeing her.
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但是她在那之前就已經死了。
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I believed what you saw in the movies:
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我過去相信電影上演的：
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when you're in those last moments
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你在臨終前
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that it's strictly terror, fear.
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會感到非常恐懼、 害怕。
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I have come to realize,
regardless of the circumstance,
regardless of the circumstance,
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後來我才了解，不論在什麼情況下，
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it's generally met with peace and acceptance,
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通常都會變得平靜也能接受。
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that it's the littlest things, the littlest moments,
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是最微不足道的那些事、那些時刻，
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the littlest things you brought into the world
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你帶到世上最微不足道的那些事，
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that give you peace in those final moments.
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讓你在臨終時刻得到平靜。
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Thank you.
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謝謝。
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(Applause)
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Matthew O'Reilly - Emergency medical technicianMatthew O’Reilly is a veteran emergency medical technician on Long Island, New York.
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