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Jill Bolte Taylor: My stroke of insight
Ako porážka priniesla Jill B. Taylorovej osvietenie
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Jill Bolte Taylorovej sa naskytla možnosť skúmať mozog spôsobom, aký by si určite nikto z vedcov neželal: po silnej mŕtvici bola svedkom toho, ako jej postupne odchádzajú jednotlivé funkcie mozgu - pohyb, reč, vedomie - jedna po druhej. Je to strhujúci príbeh.
Jill Bolte Taylor - Neuroanatomist
Brain researcher Jill Bolte Taylor studied her own stroke as it happened -- and has become a powerful voice for brain recovery. Full bio
Brain researcher Jill Bolte Taylor studied her own stroke as it happened -- and has become a powerful voice for brain recovery. Full bio
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I grew up to study the brain
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Vyrástla som s cieľom študovať mozog,
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because I have a brother who has been diagnosed with a brain disorder:
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po tom, ako mojmu bratovi diagnostikovali mozgovú poruchu:
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schizophrenia. And as a sister
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schizofréniu. Ako sestra
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and later, as a scientist, I wanted to understand, why
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a neskôr aj ako vedkyňa, som chcela pochopiť, prečo
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is it that I can take my dreams, I can connect
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ja som si vedomá svojich snov, ich prepojenia
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them to my reality, and I can make my dreams come true?
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s realitou, a tiež viem, ako ich uskutočniť.
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What is it about my brother's brain and
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Čím je to, že mozog môjho brata
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his schizophrenia that he cannot connect his
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so schizofréniou nedokáže zladiť
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dreams to a common and shared reality, so they
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sny s bežnou skutočnosťou okolo nás, a
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instead become delusion?
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namiesto toho ich zmení na klam?
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So I dedicated my career to research into the
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Tak som zasvätila moju kariéru výskumu
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severe mental illnesses. And I moved from my home state
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ťažkých mentálnych chorôb. Presťahovala som sa z domova
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of Indiana to Boston, where I was working in
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v Indiane do Bostonu, kde som začala pracovať
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the lab of Dr. Francine Benes, in the Harvard
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v laboratóriu Dr. Francine Benes na Harvardskom
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Department of Psychiatry. And in the lab, we were asking the question,
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Oddelení Psychiatrie. V laboratóriu sme sa zaoberali otázkami ako
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"What are the biological differences between the brains of individuals
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V čom sú biologické rozdiely medzi mozgami jednotlivcov
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who would be diagnosed as normal control,
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ktorí budú diagnostikovaní ako normálni,
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as compared with the brains of individuals diagnosed with
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v porovnaní s mozgami jednotlivcov diagnostikovaných so
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schizophrenia, schizoaffective or bipolar disorder?"
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schizofréniou, schizoafektívnou alebo s bipolárnou poruchou?
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So we were essentially mapping the microcircuitry
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V podstate sme sledovali mikroobvody v
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of the brain: which cells are communicating with
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mozgu: aké bunky komunikujú s
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which cells, with which chemicals, and then in
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akými bunkami, akými chemikáliami, a
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what quantities of those chemicals?
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akými množstvami týchto chemikálií?
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So there was a lot of meaning in my life because I was performing
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Môj život mi v vtedy pripadal veľmi zmysluplný, práve pretože
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this type of research during the day.
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cez deň som robila tento druh výskumu.
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But then in the evenings and on the weekends,
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A potom po večeroch a cez víkendy som
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I traveled as an advocate for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness.
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cestovala ako zástupca NAMI, Národnej Asociácie pre Mentálne Choroby.
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But on the morning of December 10, 1996, I woke up
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Ale v ráno 10. decembra 1996 som sa zobudila
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to discover that I had a brain disorder of my own.
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so zistením, že mám poruchu mozgu ja sama.
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A blood vessel exploded in the left half of my brain.
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Praskla mi krvná cievka v ľavej časti mozgu.
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And in the course of four hours,
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A v priebehu štyroch hodín
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I watched my brain completely deteriorate in its ability to
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som bola svedkom toho, ako môj mozog úplne stratil schopnosť
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process all information. On the morning of the hemorrhage,
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spracovávať informácie. V to ráno s krvácaním do mozgu
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I could not walk, talk, read, write or recall any of my life.
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som nemohla chodiť, hovoriť, čítať, písať alebo si spomenúť na hocičo z môjho života.
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I essentially became an infant in a woman's body.
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Stala som sa v podstate bábätkom v tele ženy.
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If you've ever seen a human brain,
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Ak ste už niekedy videli ľudský mozog,
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it's obvious that the two hemispheres are completely separate from one another.
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viete, že jeho dve hemisféry sú od seba celkom oddelené.
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And I have brought for you a real human brain.
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Priniesla som Vám skutočný ľudský mozog.
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So this is a real human brain.
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Tak toto je skutočný ľudský mozog.
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This is the front of the brain,
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Toto je predná časť mozgu,
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the back of brain with the spinal cord hanging down,
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zadná časť mozgu s miechou vysiacou nadol,
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and this is how it would be positioned inside of my head.
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a takto je uložený v mojej hlave.
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And when you look at the brain, it's obvious that
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Keď sa pozriete na mozog, je zrejmé,
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the two cerebral cortices are completely separate from one another.
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že jeho dve hemisféry sú od seba celkom oddelené.
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For those of you who understand computers,
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Pre tých, ktorí rozumejú počítačom,
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our right hemisphere functions like a parallel processor,
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naša pravá hemisféra pracuje ako paralelný procesor,
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while our left hemisphere functions like a serial processor.
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kým naša ľavá hemisféra pracuje ako sériový procesor.
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The two hemispheres do communicate with one another
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Obe hemisféry navzájom komunikujú
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through the corpus collosum,
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cez svorové teleso (lat. corpus callosum),
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which is made up of some 300 million axonal fibers.
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ktoré pozostáva z približne 300 miliónov axonálnych vlákien.
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But other than that,
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Mimo toto spojenie
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the two hemispheres are completely separate.
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sú obe hemisféry od seba celkom oddelené.
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Because they process information differently,
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Pretože spracovávajú informácie rôzne,
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each of our hemispheres think about different things,
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každá z našich hemisfér myslí na iné veci,
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they care about different things, and, dare I say,
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zaujíma sa o iné veci, a odvážim sa povedať,
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they have very different personalities.
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má celkom inú osobnosť.
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Excuse me. Thank you. It's been a joy. Assistant: It has been.
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S dovolením. Ďakujem. Bolo mi potešením. (Asistent: To bolo.)
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Our right human hemisphere is all about this present moment.
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Naša pravá hemisféra ja celá o tomto momente v prítomnosti.
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It's all about "right here, right now."
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Je celá o "hneď tu, hneď teraz".
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Our right hemisphere, it thinks in pictures
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Naša pravá hemisféra myslí v obrazoch
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and it learns kinesthetically through the movement of our bodies.
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a učí sa kinesteticky pohybmi nášho tela.
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Information, in the form of energy, streams in simultaneously
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Informácia vo forme energie prúdi naraz
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through all of our sensory systems
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celým našim senzorickým systémom
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and then it explodes into this enormous collage
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a potom exploduje do ohromnej koláže
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of what this present moment looks like,
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toho, ako tento moment v súčasnosti vyzerá,
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what this present moment smells like and tastes like,
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ako tento moment v súčasnosti vonia a chutí,
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what it feels like and what it sounds like.
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ako ho cítime a ako znie.
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I am an energy-being connected to the energy all around me
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Som energetická bytosť spojená s energiou okolo mňa
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through the consciousness of my right hemisphere.
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vedomím mojej pravej hemisféry.
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We are energy-beings connected to one another
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Sme energetické bytosti prepojené navzájom
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through the consciousness of our right hemispheres as one human family.
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cez vedomie našej pravej hemisféry do jednej ľudskej rodiny.
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And right here,
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A presne tu,
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right now, we are brothers and sisters on this planet,
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a teraz, sme bratia a sestri na tejto planéte,
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here to make the world a better place.
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s cieľom zmeniť svet k lepšiemu.
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And in this moment we are perfect, we are whole and we are beautiful.
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V tomto momente sme dokonalí, celí a nádherní.
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My left hemisphere -- our left hemisphere -- is a very different place.
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Moja ľavá hemisféra - naša ľavá hemisféra - je úplne iným miestom.
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Our left hemisphere thinks linearly and methodically.
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Naša ľavá hemisféra myslí lineárne a metodicky.
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Our left hemisphere
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Naša ľavá hemisféra
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is all about the past and it's all about the future.
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je celá o minulosti, a celá o budúcnosti.
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Our left hemisphere is designed to take that
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Naša ľavá hemisféra je predurčená vziať
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enormous collage of the present moment and start
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ohromnú koláž okamihov v prítomnosti a začať
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picking out details, details and more details about those details.
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vyberať detaily, detaily a ďaľšie detaily o týchto detailoch.
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It then categorizes and
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Potom triedi a
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organizes all that information, associates it
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usporiada všetky tieto informácie, pospája ich
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with everything in the past we've ever learned, and
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s tým, čo sme sa naučili v minulosti a
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projects into the future all of our possibilities.
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premietne do budúcnosti všetky možnosti, ktoré máme.
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And our left hemisphere thinks in language.
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Naša ľavá hemisféra myslí jazykom.
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It's that ongoing brain chatter that connects me and my
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Je nekonečným vravom, ktorý spája mňa a môj
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internal world to my external world.
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vnútorný svet s vonkajším svetom.
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It's that little voice that says to me, "Hey, you gotta remember
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Je to ten tichý hlas, čo mi hovorí, "Hej, nezabudni
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to pick up bananas on your way home.
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cestou domov kúpiť banány.
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I need them in the morning."
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Budeš ich ráno potrebovať".
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It's that calculating intelligence that reminds me
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Je to kalkulujúca inteligencia, ktorá mi pripomína
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when I have to do my laundry. But perhaps most important,
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oprať veci. A navyše,
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it's that little voice that says to me,
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je to ten tichý hlas, čo mi hovorí,
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"I am. I am." And as soon as my left hemisphere says to me "I am,"
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"Ja som. Ja som." A akonáhle moja ľavá hemisféra povie "Ja som,"
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I become separate.
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Oddelím sa od sveta.
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I become a single solid individual, separate from the energy flow
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Stanem sa nezavislým jednotlivcom, oddeleným od prúdu energie
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around me and separate from you.
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okolo mňa a oddeleným od Vás.
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And this was the portion of my brain that I lost
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Presne túto časť mozgu som stratila
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on the morning of my stroke.
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v ráno mŕtvice.
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On the morning of the stroke, I woke up to a
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V to ráno som sa zobudila
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pounding pain behind my left eye. And it was the kind of pain --
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na búšivú bolesť za ľavým okom. Bol to druh bolesti -
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caustic pain -- that you get when you
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zožieravá bolesť - akú máte, keď
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bite into ice cream. And it just gripped me --
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zahryznete do zmrzliny. Zovrela ma -
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and then it released me. And then it just gripped me --
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a povolila. A zovrela -
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and then it released me. And it was very unusual
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a potom povolila. Bolo pre mňa veľmi nezvyklé
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for me to ever experience any kind of pain,
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mať akékoľvek bolesti,
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so I thought, "OK, I'll just start my normal routine."
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tak som si pomyslela, OK, začnem moju dennodennú rutinu.
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So I got up and I jumped onto my cardio glider,
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Vstala som a vyskočila na kardio tréner,
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which is a full-body, full-exercise machine.
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ktorý je dobrý na precvičenie celého tela.
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And I'm jamming away on this thing, and I'm realizing
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A pretláčam o dušu na prístroji a zisťujem,
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that my hands look like primitive claws grasping
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že moje ruky vyzerajú ako primitívne drápy zvierajúce
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onto the bar. And I thought, "That's very peculiar."
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tyč. Napadlo ma, že "To je veľmi zvláštne."
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And I looked down at my body and I thought, "Whoa,
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A pozrela som sa dole na svoje telo a pomyslela si, "Hmm,
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I'm a weird-looking thing." And it was as though
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vyzerám ako smiešne čudo." Bolo to akokeby
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my consciousness had shifted away from my normal
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sa moje vedomie posunulo preč od môjho normálneho
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perception of reality, where I'm the person on the
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vnímania reality, odo mňa ako osoby
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machine having the experience, to some esoteric space
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na prístroji, ktorá to prežíva, do akéhosi ezoterického priestoru,
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where I'm witnessing myself having this experience.
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kde pozorujem, čo prežívam.
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And it was all very peculiar, and my headache was
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Bolo to celé veľmi zvláštne a bolesti hlavy
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just getting worse. So I get off the machine,
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sa stále zhoršovali. Tak som zliezla z prístroja,
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and I'm walking across my living room floor, and I
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a kráčala po podlahe obývačky a
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realize that everything inside of my body has
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uvedomovala si, že všetko v mojom tele
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slowed way down. And every step is very rigid and
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sa spomalilo. Každý môj krok bol veľmi strnulý a
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very deliberate. There's no fluidity to my pace,
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a opatrný. Plynulosť priestoru sa stratila,
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and there's this constriction in my area of perceptions,
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a môj rozmer vnímania sa obmedzil,
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so I'm just focused on internal systems.
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sústredila som sa len na vnútorné systémy.
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And I'm standing in my bathroom getting ready to
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Stála som v kúpelni pripravená
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step into the shower, and I could actually hear the
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vliezť do sprchy, a doslova som počula
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dialogue inside of my body. I heard a little voice
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dialóg v mojom tele. Počula som slabý hlas
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saying, "OK. You muscles, you gotta contract.
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ako hovorí: "OK, Vy svaly sa musíte stiahnuť.
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You muscles, you relax."
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Vy svaly sa musíte uvoľniť."
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And then I lost my balance, and I'm propped up against the wall.
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A potom som stratila rovnováhu a oprela sa o stenu.
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And I look down at my arm and I realize
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Pozrela som sa dole na ruku a uvedomila si,
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that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body.
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že už nedokážem rozoznať hranice môjho tela.
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I can't define where I begin and where I end,
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Neviem vymedziť, kde začínam a kde končím,
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because the atoms and the molecules of my arm
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pretože atómy a molekuly mojej ruky
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blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall.
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sa zmiešali s atómami a molekulami steny.
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And all I could detect was this energy -- energy.
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Jediné, čo som vedela odlíšiť, bola energia - energia.
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And I'm asking myself, "What is wrong with me?
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Pýtala som sa, "Čo sa so mnou stalo?"
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What is going on?" And in that moment, my brain chatter --
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"Čo sa deje?" A v tom momente vrav môjho mozgu -
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my left hemisphere brain chatter -- went totally silent.
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vrav ľavej hemisfére - celkom ustal.
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Just like someone took a remote control
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Presne ako keby niekto vzal diaľkové ovládanie
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and pushed the mute button. Total silence.
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a stlačil gombík na stlmenie zvuku. Úplné ticho.
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And at first I was shocked to find myself
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Najpr som bola v šoku
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inside of a silent mind. But then I was immediately
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z pocitu celkom utlmenej mysle. No potom ma okamžite
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captivated by the magnificence of the energy around me.
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uchvátila nádhera energie okolo mňa.
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And because I could no longer identify
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Pretože som už nebola schopná identifikovať
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the boundaries of my body, I felt enormous and expansive.
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hranice môjho tela, cítila som sa ohromne a velikánsky.
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I felt at one with all the energy that was,
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Cítila som sa zjednotená so všetkou energiou navôkoľ
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and it was beautiful there.
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a bolo to nádherné.
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Then all of a sudden my left hemisphere comes back
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Potom sa zrazu moja ľavá hemisféra prebrala k životu
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online, and it says to me, "Hey! We got a problem!
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a hovorí mi, "Máme problém!
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We got a problem! We gotta get some help."
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Máme problém! Potrebujeme pomoc."
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And I'm going, "Ahh! I got a problem.
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A ja na to. "Aha, mám problém.
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I got a problem." So it's like, "OK. OK. I got a problem."
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Mám problém." To je, "OK, OK, mám problém."
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But then I immediately drifted right back
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Potom som ale okamžite ulietla späť
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out into the consciousness -- and I affectionately
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do vedomia - ktoré láskyplne
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refer to this space as La La Land.
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nazývam krajina La La.
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But it was beautiful there. Imagine what it would
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Bolo tam ale nádherne. Predstavte si
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be like to be totally disconnected from your brain
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aké by bolo úplné odpojenie od vravu Vášho
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chatter that connects you to the external world.
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mozgu, ktorý Vás spája s vonkajším svetom.
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So here I am in this space, and my job -- and any
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A tak som tu v tomto priestore a moja práca - a
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stress related to my job -- it was gone.
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stres spojený s prácou - sú preč.
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And I felt lighter in my body. And imagine
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A vo svojom tele som sa cítila ľahšia. Predstavte si:
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all of the relationships in the external world and any
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všetky vzťahy vonkajšieho sveta a hociaké
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stressors related to any of those -- they were gone.
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faktory stresu spojené s nimi - sú fuč.
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And I felt this sense of peacefulness.
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Cítila som pocit pokoja a mieru.
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And imagine what it would feel like to lose 37 years of emotional baggage!
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Predstavte si aké by to bolo stratíť 37 rokov emočnej záťaže!
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(Laughter) Oh! I felt euphoria --
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(Smiech) Oh! Cítila som sa euforicky.
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euphoria. It was beautiful.
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Eufória. Bolo to nádherné.
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And then, again, my left hemisphere comes online and it says,
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Potom sa moja ľavá hemisféra zrazu prebudí v životu a hovorí,
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"Hey! You've got to pay attention.
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"Oj! Musíš dávať pozor.
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We've got to get help." And I'm thinking, "I got to get help.
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Musíme zavolať pomoc." A ja na to "Musím zavolať pomoc.
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I gotta focus."
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Musím sa sústrediť"
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So I get out of the shower and I mechanically
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Vyjdem teda zo sprchy a mechanicky
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dress and I'm walking around my apartment,
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sa oblečiem a behám po byte,
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and I'm thinking, "I gotta get to work. I gotta get to work.
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a myslím si, "Musím ísť do práce, musím ísť do práce.
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Can I drive? Can I drive?"
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Môžem šoférovať? Môžem šoférovať?"
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And in that moment my right arm went totally
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A v tom momente ostala moja pravá ruka úplne
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paralyzed by my side. Then I realized,
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paralizovaná. Uvedomila som si
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"Oh my gosh! I'm having a stroke! I'm having a stroke!"
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"Panebože! Mám mŕtvicu! Mám mŕtvicu!"
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And the next thing my brain says to me is, "Wow!
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A ďaľšia vec, čo mi môj mozog povedal, bola "Ó!
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This is so cool." (Laughter) "This is so cool!
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Toto je totálne skvelé. (Smiech) "Toto je skvelé!
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How many brain scientists have the opportunity
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Koľko vedcov skúmajúcich mozog má možnosť
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to study their own brain from the inside out?"
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študovať svoj vlastný mozog zvnútra?"
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(Laughter)
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(Smiech)
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And then it crosses my mind, "But I'm a very busy woman!"
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A potom ma napadlo: "Ale ja som veľmi zaneprázdnená žena!"
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(Laughter) "I don't have time for a stroke!"
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(Smiech) "Nemám čas na mŕtvicu!"
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So I'm like, "OK, I can't stop the stroke from happening,
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Potom "OK, keď nemôžem zabrániť mŕtvici,
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so I'll do this for a week or two, and
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tak si to aspoň vyskúšam na týždeň alebo dva, a
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then I'll get back to my routine. OK.
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potom sa vrátim späť k svojej rutine. OK.
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So I gotta call help. I gotta call work."
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Takže zavolám pomoc. Zavolám do práce."
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I couldn't remember the number at work,
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Nemohla som si spomenúť na číslo do práce,
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so I remembered, in my office I had a business card
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no spomenula som si, že v pracovni mám vizitky
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with my number on it. So I go into my business room,
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s mojim číslom. Idem teda do pracovne,
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I pull out a three-inch stack of business cards.
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vytiahnem 7,5 cm štós vizitiek.
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And I'm looking at the card on top and even though
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Hľadím na vizitku na vrchu, no aj keď
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I could see clearly in my mind's eye what my business card looked like,
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mala som jasne pred očami ako moja vizitka vyzerala,
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I couldn't tell if this
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nebola som schopná povedať, či
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was my card or not, because all I could see were pixels.
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to bola ona, lebo jediné, čo som videla, boli pixely.
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And the pixels of the words blended
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Pixely jednotlivých slov sa pomiešali
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with the pixels of the background and the pixels of the symbols,
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s pixelmi pozadia a s pixelmi symbolov
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and I just couldn't tell.
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a ja som ich jednoducho nevedela odlíšiť.
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And then I would wait for what I call a wave of clarity.
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A tak som čakala na to, čo nazývam vlnou jasnosti.
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And in that moment, I would be able to
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V takom momente som bola schopná sa
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reattach to normal reality and I could tell
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vrátiť do normálnej reality a rozoznať,
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that's not the card ... that's not the card ... that's not the card.
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že to nie je ta správna ... to nie je tá správna... to nie je tá správna.
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It took me 45 minutes to get one inch down
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Trvalo mi 45 minút prejsť 2,5 centimetrami
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inside of that stack of cards.
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kariet v tom štóse.
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In the meantime, for 45 minutes, the hemorrhage is
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Medzičasom, počas 45 minút, krvácanie
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getting bigger in my left hemisphere.
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pokračovalo v mojej ľavej hemisfére.
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I do not understand numbers, I do not understand the telephone,
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Nerozumela som číslam, nerozumela som telefónu,
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but it's the only plan I have.
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ale bol to jediný plán, aký som mala.
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So I take the phone pad and I put it right here. I take the business card,
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Tak položím čiselník telefónu rovno pred seba. Vezmem vizitku,
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I put it right here, and
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položím ju hneď vedľa a
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I'm matching the shape of the squiggles on the card
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porovnávam tvar čmáranininy na vizitke
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to the shape of the squiggles on the phone pad.
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s tvarom čmáraniny na číselníku.
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But then I would drift back out into La La Land,
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A potom ale znova odletím do krajiny La La,
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and not remember when I came back if I'd already
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a keď sa vrátim, neviem, či som už
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dialed those numbers.
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tie čísla vytočila.
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So I had to wield my paralyzed arm like a stump
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Musela som teda zapojiť môj paralyzovaný kýpeť ako ukazovadlo
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and cover the numbers as I went along and pushed
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a prekryť čísla, ktoré som už vytočila
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them, so that as I would come back to normal
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aby som po návrate k zmyslom
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reality, I'd be able to tell, "Yes, I've already dialed that number."
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vedela povedať: "Áno, toto čislo som už vytočila."
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Eventually, the whole number gets dialed
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Akosi sa mi podarilo vytočiť celé číslo
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and I'm listening to the phone, and
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a načúvam sluchátku, kým
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my colleague picks up the phone and he says to me,
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môj kolega nezdvihne a hovorí,
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"Woo woo woo woo." (Laughter) And I think to myself,
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"Vu vu vu vu." (Smiech) A ja si pomyslím,
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"Oh my gosh, he sounds like a Golden Retriever!"
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"Panebože, znie ako zlatý retriever!"
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And so I say to him -- clear in my mind, I say to him:
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A ja mu odpoviem - jasne v mojej mysli, poviem mu:
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"This is Jill! I need help!"
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"Tu je Jill! Potrebujem pomoc!"
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And what comes out of my voice is, "Woo woo woo woo woo."
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V skutočnosti to znelo ako "Vu vu vu vu".
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I'm thinking, "Oh my gosh, I sound like a Golden Retriever."
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Pomyslela som si, "Panebože, ja zniem ako zlatý retriever."
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So I couldn't know -- I didn't know that
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Nemohla som vedieť - a nevedela, že
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I couldn't speak or understand language until I tried.
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som nemohla hovoriť a nerozumela reči, až kým som to neskúsila.
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So he recognizes that I need help and he gets me help.
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On rozpoznal, že potrebujem pomoc a zavolal ju.
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And a little while later, I am riding in an
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Chvíľu neskôr cestou
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ambulance from one hospital across Boston to [Massachusetts] General Hospital.
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v sanitke z jednej nemocnice v Bostone do Massachusettskej Všeobecnej Nemocnice
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And I curl up into a little fetal ball.
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som sa stiahla do fetálneho klbka..
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And just like a balloon with the last bit of air,
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Ako balón s posledným zvyškom vzduchu
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just, just right out of the balloon,
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takmer vyfučaným,
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I just felt my energy lift and just -- I felt my spirit surrender.
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som cítila, ako mi odišla energia - a môj duch kapituloval.
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And in that moment, I knew that I
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V tom momente som vedela, že
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was no longer the choreographer of my life.
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už nie som choreografom svojho života.
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And either the doctors rescue my body and give me a
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Buď doktori zachránia moje telo a dajú mi
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second chance at life, or this was perhaps
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druhú šancu žiť, alebo to možno bola
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my moment of transition.
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chvíľa odchodu.
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When I woke later that afternoon, I was shocked
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Keď som sa neskôr poobede prebrala, so šokom
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to discover that I was still alive. When I felt my spirit surrender,
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som zistila, že stále žijem. Keď som cítila svojho ducha kapitulovať,
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I said goodbye to my life.
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rozlúčila som sa so životom.
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And my mind was now suspended between two very
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Teraz sa moja myseľ nachádzala medzi dvomi veľmi
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opposite planes of reality. Stimulation coming in
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odlišnými rovinami reality. Stimulácia pochádzajúca
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through my sensory systems felt like pure pain.
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zo zmyslového aparátu predstavovala čistú bolesť.
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Light burned my brain like wildfire, and sounds
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Svetlo mi spaľovalo mozog ako divoký oheň, a zvuky
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were so loud and chaotic that I could not pick a
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boli tak hlasné a chaotické, že som nedokázala odlíšiť
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voice out from the background noise,
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hlas od pozadia šumu,
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and I just wanted to escape. Because I could not identify the
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a jediné, čo som chcela, bolo utiecť. Pretože som nevedela rozoznať
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position of my body in space, I felt enormous and expansive,
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pozíciu svôjho tela v priestore, cítila som sa velikánsky a rozsiahlo
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like a genie just liberated from her bottle.
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ako duch, ktorého práve vypustili z fľaše.
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And my spirit soared free, like a great whale
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Môj duch sa vznášal slobodne, ako veličizná veľryba,
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gliding through the sea of silent euphoria.
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čo sa kĺže oceánom tichej eufórie.
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Nirvana. I found Nirvana. And I remember thinking,
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Nirvána. Našla som nirvánu. Pomyslela som si,
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there's no way I would ever be able to squeeze
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že nebude nikdy možné vtesnať
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the enormousness of myself back inside this tiny little body.
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mňa, takú rozsiahlu, naspäť do toho malinkého tela.
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But then I realized, "But I'm still alive! I'm still alive,
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Uvedomila som si, "No ja stále žijem! Ja stále žijem,
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and I have found Nirvana. And if I have
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a našla som nirvánu. A keď som
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found Nirvana and I'm still alive, then everyone
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našla nirvánu a stále žijem, potom každý
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who is alive can find Nirvana." And I pictured a world
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kto žije, môže nájsť nirvánu." A predstavila som si svet
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filled with beautiful, peaceful, compassionate,
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plný krásnych, mierumilovných, súcitných,
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loving people who knew that they could come to
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milujúcich ľudí, ktorí vedia, že môžu prísť
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this space at any time. And that they could
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do tohoto priestoru kedykoľvek. A že môžu
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purposely choose to step to the right of their
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úmyselne vykročiť napravo od ich
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left hemispheres and find this peace. And then
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ľavej hemisféry a nájsť tento priestor. Potom
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I realized what a tremendous gift this experience
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som si uvedomila, aký ohromný dar je táto skúsenosť,
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could be, what a stroke of insight this could be
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aký záblesk osvietenia je to
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to how we live our lives. And it motivated me to recover.
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pre spôsob, akým žijeme svoj život. To ma motivovalo uzdraviť sa.
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Two and a half weeks after the hemorrhage, the
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Dva a pol týždňa po krvácani do mozgu
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surgeons went in and they removed a blood clot
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mi lekári odstránili krvnú zrazeninu
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the size of a golf ball that was pushing on my language centers.
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veľkosti golfovej loptičky, ktorá tlačila na jazykové centrá.
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Here I am with my mama,
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Tu som s mojou mamou,
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who is a true angel in my life. It took me eight years to completely recover.
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ktorá je ozajstným anielom v mojom živote. Trvalo mi osem rokov, kým som sa kompletne zotavila.
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So who are we? We are the life-force power of the universe,
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Takže, kým sme? Sme živou silou vesmíra
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with manual dexterity and two cognitive minds.
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s manuálnou zručnosťou a dvomi kognitívnymi mysľami.
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And we have the power to choose, moment by moment,
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Máme možnosť vybrať si v každom okamihu,
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who and how we want to be in the world.
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kým a akými chceme vo svete byť.
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Right here, right now, I can step into the
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Hneď tu, hneď teraz môžem vstúpiť
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consciousness of my right hemisphere, where we are.
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do vedomia mojej pravej hemisféry, kde sme.
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I am the life-force power of the universe.
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Som životnou silou vesmíru.
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I am the life-force power of the 50 trillion beautiful
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Mám moc nad 50 triliónmi nádherných
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molecular geniuses that make up my form, at one with all that is.
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molekulárnych géniov, z ktorých pozostávam v jednote so všetkým okolo.
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Or, I can choose to step into the consciousness of
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Alebo sa rozhodnem vstúpiť do vedomia
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my left hemisphere, where I become a single individual,
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mojej ľavej hemisféry, v ktorej sa stanem nezávislým jedincom,
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a solid. Separate from the flow,
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oddeleným od toho prúdu,
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separate from you. I am Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor:
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oddeleným od Vás. Som Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor:
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intellectual, neuroanatomist. These are the "we" inside of me.
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intelektuálka, neuroanatomička. Toto sú moje "my".
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Which would you choose? Which do you choose? And when?
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Ktoré by ste si vybrali? Ktoré si vyberáte? A kedy?
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I believe that the more time we spend
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Verím, že čím viac času sa
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choosing to run the deep inner-peace circuitry
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rozhodneme tráviť s mierom presiaknutou
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of our right hemispheres, the more peace we will
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pravou hemisférou, tým viac mieru budeme
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project into the world, and the more peaceful our planet will be.
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vysielať do sveta, a tým mierumilovnejšia bude naša planéta.
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And I thought that was an idea worth spreading.
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A myslím si, že toto bola myšlienka, o ktorú sa treba podeliť.
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Jill Bolte Taylor - NeuroanatomistBrain researcher Jill Bolte Taylor studied her own stroke as it happened -- and has become a powerful voice for brain recovery.
Why you should listen
One morning, a blood vessel in Jill Bolte Taylor's brain exploded. As a brain scientist, she realized she had a ringside seat to her own stroke. She watched as her brain functions shut down one by one: motion, speech, memory, self-awareness ...
Amazed to find herself alive, Taylor spent eight years recovering her ability to think, walk and talk. She has become a spokesperson for stroke recovery and for the possibility of coming back from brain injury stronger than before. In her case, although the stroke damaged the left side of her brain, her recovery unleashed a torrent of creative energy from her right. From her home base in Indiana, she now travels the country on behalf of the Harvard Brain Bank as the "Singin' Scientist."
Jill Bolte Taylor | Speaker | TED.com